5 things that made me realize I was actually autistic

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@thundersoupzw7416 Ай бұрын

(Warning this will be rather long haha) Luckily I was born to a mom who actually works with people with different diagnoses and difficulties (people with AUTISM, ADHD to a bunch of diagnoses idk the name of. But some can’t even speak and some have the mental age as a child despite being an adult). So me being my mom’s first born she realized that something was- well not wrong but that I was different. She actually tried getting me to a psychologist or whatever it’s called to see what it was as far as when I was three years old. But due to me acting completely normal in kindergarten and school they never did anything and said it was my mom’s ‘parenting’. I think I gotta get in a bit of how bad it was. Whenever we were going somewhere it could take me about 20 minutes to even get dressed. There was games (not videos games) that I was ‘scared’ of and now when I’m older I realized that all those games always had loud noises in them. When people clapped their hands suddenly or cheering I froze up and suddenly started crying. Even as a baby whenever my mom tried to hold me I put up my hands to keep a distance away from my face and her’s (or anyone else’s). Plus at the age of six when I came home from school I would faint out of stress. Yet the Doctors and all that refused to help my mom because it never happened around teachers and all that. But when I was around seven years old I snapped in the classroom and threw my desk onto the floor and terrified everyone basically (I was the calm and positive kid in class so it was basically a personality switch ig?) and I stormed out. So my teacher called my mom and said she wanted to report to the CPS or whatever it was because she was concerned. (I don’t live in USA so it might’ve been a different place but ya get it). And due to that the CPS has already gotten a lot of those reports (due to my dad. Ps I did not live with my dad and he did not have custody of me) they actually decided to see if I had any diagnoses. BUT keep in mind this happened when I was 7. And I didn’t get my Autism diagnosis until I was night or eight. (It was even worse for my cousin. He literally had to drop out of school for CPS to involve themselves. But by that time it was already too late and he refused to go to school again.) So yeah, sorry about the EXTREMELY long comment 😅😅 Edit: I think a major part of why I actually snapped was that I entered puberty VERY early. I was already six when it started happening and I got my first period at the age of 7. Plus already dealing with gender dysphoria at that time. So I guess that became too much for me.

@JenDoe1 10 ай бұрын

Hey Megan! It’s great to see you! Thank you for this…you literally described me to a T but I would’ve never put all of these together! I thought it was my depression, Anxiety, Panic Attacks, PTSD and grief from losing my best friend of 23 years (plus so many other friends to the struggle). Wow. You just helped me in a huge way! All the best to you, Greg and your son. I hope you guys are doing well. Lots of love!

@meganeff 10 ай бұрын

I’ve learned that my anxiety and depression stem from my undiagnosed & untreated neurodivergence. Exploring this part of myself has been so helpful. I hope it helps you as much as it did me!

@dspadi1017 10 ай бұрын

I feel you on the social battery and the food thing. I’ve always thought I just had ‘food phases’. I didn’t even know ARFID was a thing. I’ve been diagnosed with anxiety and PTSD and I’ve been in recovery for about 13/14 years. I masked a lot during my addiction and now I often feel over emotional which can be embarrassing. Life is rough sometimes. It’s so good to see you on KZbin lately!

@meganeff 10 ай бұрын

I had no idea ARFID was a thing either. It got soooo bad for me in 2020. Learning how to advocate for myself and unmask (when safe) was the only thing that helped me manage it. And thanks - I find that making videos helps me process my thoughts and emotions so much. I’m glad I’m at a place where I can do it again.

@Echter-Berliner420 3 ай бұрын

I have ADHD and i can relate to 70% of your stuff... thanks for the Video

@BrandiXo 6 ай бұрын

Omg just found your channel. Think I may be on the spectrum. My channel on my cancer journey & being told terminal from cancer treatment treatment complications. Idk what neuro divergent is. Ive had alot trauma in childhood. I have block it and not think about or id be not able function & a hot mess. Ive had come terms with life,past, reality & be prepared for when grim reaper or my loved ones come for my time to check out. Ihave been feeling something not right & feel so paralyzed in my body like idk if makes sense. Im hoping to have energy & feel normal again soon. Been going through med change & have no energy. I seen your empathy video too & I have too much empathy. I always gave & took care others even over myself. Had learn take care of myself first.

@OligoST 5 ай бұрын

Neurodivergence is not a real medical terminology. It is made up word for people who won't go see a doctor or work towards an official diagnosis, so they use a vague umbrella term to describe or even justify their behavior. It's a term for enablement. If you are having these thoughts or even experience physical symptoms, you should ONLY seek a consultation with a medical professional.

@meganeff 5 ай бұрын

You’re being judgmental for no reason. I’m neurodivergent and officially diagnosed with adhd and autism. Neurodivergence is an umbrella term for a variety of disorders that present with a different neurotype - not just a word used by people without a diagnosis.

@brown_and_curly_ne_girly4551 Ай бұрын

Ma’am @ 35? So that means you’re a bit older now, you look 25 and I mean this in the kindest way. Addiction ages mofos, understandably.

@sewoh100 2 ай бұрын

Saw the Jubalee sociopathy video with Greg and related a lot to what he experienced as an AuDHD person. Have you two considered having him rediagnosed as autistic? I very well could be wrong though haha.

@meganeff 2 ай бұрын

He want back for a second evaluation in 2016-2017ish.He received a diagnosis of Autism and ADHD, and his ASPD was reconfirmed at the same time. Idk how common this type of comorbidity is, but a lot of people assume it has to be one or the other. The psychiatrist made a clear difference - most Autistic people aren’t compulsive liars, cleptomaniacs, or impulsively reckless to the point of putting their safety & the safety of others at risk. These behaviors are related to ASPD.

@sewoh100 2 ай бұрын

@@meganeff interesting! Thanks for the response.

@joshuafeacher923 6 ай бұрын

Its a serious question of mine. I always had horrible sensory issues, stimming constantly, nearly zero social skills. Getting tested may be important but no clue.

@ilovechips564 6 ай бұрын

Hi Megan, can I ask about you and Greg's birthday? I'm interested in analyzing both your birth charts - my guess is Greg is a Scorpio moon. If you can share your birthdays I would really appreciate that!

@meganeff 6 ай бұрын

Greg: Capricorn Rising, Sun in Cancer, Moon in Gemini Me: Virgo Rising, Sun in Cancer, Moon in Sagittarius Greg: 7/11/88 born at 20:47 PM in Maryland Me: 7/18/86 born at 10:16 AM in Pennsylvania