5 Years of Decluttering: Lessons, Regrets, Future | Recovery Journey

[@kaycee625]

FINALLY!!! Someone mentions emotional attachment! That’s what’s missing in almost all the decluttering methodology that’s on KZbin. Finally someone gets the emotional and physical trauma of trying to part with something/anything. I’ve been watching decluttering videos for years. I’m shouting a huge “hallelujah” to hear you speak about the emotional attachments. Thank you 🙏

[@zuzanaxyz8866]

A vast majority of all the decluttering videos and methods are NOT meant for people with the hoarding disorder. These cleaners and organisation gurus absolutely don’t get it. It’s not that hoarders can’t find a way to toss things and organize the rest, but they just can’t part with things, because it causes them emotional pain and distress. Hoarders are not stupid, that they wouldn’t be able to come up with a step by step plan to clean the house, the problem is very different and I haven’t seen a single “cleaning guru” who would understand this point. It’s just a very different problem.

[@samanthabaines3578]

Hi Mel, I'm sat here crying right now as my bedroom is currently like your 2017 footage, in fact, my house is very similar to how yours used to be. I'm trying to take heart from the fact that you have come so far. Congratulations on 5 years and thank you for your support in making me feel less alone xx

[@ahoardersheart]

My beautiful friend, I want you to know the strength to take your first baby steps 🙏🏼💕 Take the time you need and maybe start with one thing a day, giving thanks to it being in your life and lovingly give it away. Please know I will always give you loving support 🦄💜🌟🙏🏼

[@lindyborden5398]

You are not alone. Lots of us are great at hiding it. Just start. You got this.

[@eavening4149]

You can do it! ❤❤❤❤ Realizing you want a change is the first step!

[@jodischoolcraft9188]

Ask a friend for help …. I help my friends all the time (we don’t judge)

[@Hinoki352]

Same!!!😭💕

[@brittanynormandin448]

I honestly don't know how 5 years have passed so quickly! I've been watching you since 2018 before you showed your face, when you showed yourself wearing a mask and when you finally revealed yourself. I am so excited for you and your accomplishments! You have been so motivating and inspiring to me and I am very happy that you started this channel!

[@wendymackenzie3937]

Congratulations and Thank you friend.

[@MargaretUK]

As someone who has family members who are hoarders I think that what you are doing is amazing 👏 You are a real inspiration and help non hoarders like me to understand why it happens and what I can do to help, thank you 😊

[@abigailcadmare8598]

I use your videos as “declutter with me” videos. This one made me pause and reflect on how far I’ve come in the three years since I discovered your channel. Thank you for all these years of decluttering help and motivation.

[@lindyborden5398]

Just don’t even know where to start. I have been watching you since early 2020. I have begun to understand why I was who I was. No I am no longer a hoarder. I am working on becoming a minimalist, but I never understood why. As a young woman, my house was full and many spots look the same as your. I cried all the time and hated myself. I could do so many things well but I couldn’t clean my house. Now that I listen to you, I understand what happened. But I have been watching KZbin on minimalism and getting rid of things constantly. My place looks great now and one other see it they don’t believe that I ever had an issue. I know I still have a small amount of areas that could use some help. But as an older woman, I hate seeing young women go through when I went through. God bless you for sharing. I know how embarrassing it is. And how you never want anyone to know. You are an amazing woman and are going to change lives forever.

[@nancyx5]

I love everything about his! Thanks for being so generously vulnerable with us!

[@brittanyschemmel8435]

I’m not a hoarder myself, but I enjoy your videos very much. Although I don’t know you, I can tell you have such a big heart. You are helping so many people by being honest about your struggles and humanizing your condition. ❤️

[@alanbirkner1958]

I've watched and rewatched your videos. I still need to break some bad habits, and every day is a new chance to progress. Tina, Al's wife

[@darleneh608]

Those tossy-tossy piles are pretty impressive. You've done a lot in five years!

[@ahoardersheart]

We sure did!!! Thank you so much my friend 🦄🌟🙏🏼💜

[@akihicks5702]

Congratulations! I remember crying happy tears when you finally took off the sunglasses and mask. Your vulnerability and strength, your perseverance and commitment to being open with your story inspires us all.

[@vickiewilliams7907]

Thanks for sharing all you content, you have encouraged me daily , I love your attitude,joy, kindness and many lessons of overcoming clutter. Thank you a Million times.

[@nancybarrett6266]

Congratulations, tks for sharing your actual true life with us. If you're interested in visiting Georgia & helping me get my life straightened out by decluttering im always available. Your the best & we love ya'll

[@theurbanthirdhomestead]

I've been here since the beginning! I can't believe it's been 5 years. You're the only KZbinr I still watch as soon as you post a video! I'd love to see you helping other people in their homes. 🥰

[@mindys1198]

I feel like the headset videos set you apart from everyone and I really enjoyed them.... I remember being so so excited when you did your face reveal video I was so proud of how far you've come and how confident youd become in yourself. Congrats on five amazing years

[@ahoardersheart]

Thank you for being my dear friend throughout this journey!! I do remember people saying they liked that perspective too 🦄💜🌟🙏🏼

[@marinalodi6313]

At the start, you seemed insecure and scared, because all you knew was how stuff replaced the love you always needed, and now, having this many friends and love all around the wolrd replaces all the things you let go

[@CB-jh1pt]

Wow wow wow! Knowing the decisions you were making and why/how has been the number one thing when I found your channel in 2020 which helped me make movements for myself. When I found your videos, I went back to the very beginning, and binged them religiously over 6 months. It made the world of difference! Back to routines of being away from the home post-lockdowns has made it difficult to keep up with continuing progress, but I’m forever grateful I found your channel when I did. I was at my wit’s end with myself in my space, and no decluttering advice or channels resonated enough to help the way you did! It validated me, and actually helped me to realise I truly did have hoarding tendencies (not just a family “joke” towards me), but learn to curb them healthily and accept myself before I could learn to let go of the things without it hurting me. So thank you already for coming and helping on me in my home over these videos. It would be so exciting to see you meet others where they’re at and work through some rooms. Meeting you at the end of 2020, and starting over the videos from the beginning truly showed me what could be done. Nowadays I can’t keep up, but one day hopefully I’ll not have to overthink everything and “keep it because I’m not ready” all over again 😂 Whatever the future holds, you’re helping people already and I’m super grateful, admire your courage, and am so proud of your amazing achievements for you and your family at home. Thank you for sharing your journey so far. ✨ 🦄 💕

[@debbiethomson7322]

Good for you!🙂

[@vanessawhitneypro]

Baby Steps to GIANT LEAPS... You are inspiring... Keep going & We will, too!

[@sherrygantt2158]

You have came a long way. You are doing GREAT. Look forward to more of your videos.

[@PunkpopPrincess]

I am so excited to see the craft area. And I don't even do crafts. You are awesome and an inspiration to a cricket. Love from Norway. ❤

[@daniellepyle5844]

Celebrating with you!!!!!🎉😁💖🌺💐🌠 You sure have come a long way lady!

[@josephdaly2015]

Omg 5 years??? I honestly can’t believe it’s been that long. Oh girl there are no regrets because you did what you could at the time. You have grown stronger by the week. You’ve also helped me and so many others too, with your kindness, encouragement and motivation, thank you. I’m super excited for this next chapter in your journey. I’m just being nosy and am wondering if you’ve left your job already? Wishing you continued success in everything you do. Miss Pepper is just gorgeous 🐈 Have a great week. Mary, Joes wife 🙇‍♀️👏👍💪🙏💐🐈

[@ahoardersheart]

Absolutely my friend, you are so right 🦄💜🌟🙏🏼 You have been my friend during this crazy journey! I will always be so grateful that you are my life!!

[@RitaDeeDee]

Congratulations, Mel! I found you during the quarantine, after a video you made with Dawn from Minimal Mom, and immediately binge watched all previous episodes! Since then, I watch all your videos as soon as they come out: you are such an inspiration! I am not a hoarder and, in fact, now I am a minimalist, but I made my journey along with you ❤. Your loving,positive and encouraging personality are really why I love your channel so much! I wish you all the best, as the channel grows even more and as you expand in all the ways you mentioned, to help even more people! I will be looking forward to see all you will do! Love from Portugal 🇵🇹 (Europe)

[@ladydragon76]

Happy Anniversary! I remember finding you before the mask and glasses came off and how I teared up when you took them off. Thank you for all you do!

[@joyindrelie6715]

Same!

[@lisbetsoda4874]

Me too.

[@SalsaNube]

Watching this video I remembered all those piles and that eatiful moment you "switched". How yiu've changes, grown, and become much more happy, calm, and ready to go the next mile! You already are and will be of so much help to those you will help on their journey to recover! I was, am an always wll be so proud and happy for you! You are a beatiful, insoirational, wonderful woman, mom, wife and Angel! Cheers to you Mrs.Heart❤

[@tonietteh2015]

I remember that episode in june 2020 when you unmasked yourself and i do remember thinking how brave you had become and how i felt so blessed to be oart of your new ( online) truat circle You have come soooo far and i feel blessed to have been a little part of it as a subscriber We love you and we are all so happy for you and your progress 💜💜💜🦄🦄🦄🦄🦄🦄🐊

[@cherylcoolidge8249]

I have watched every episode of yours since day one. I love what you have accomplished and waiting for more. I admire you and your strength and energy.

[@alakazoola1]

You future plans are brilliant and I feel that helping others in their homes will let you release more on your own.... it will be another platform for your emotions and processing completely and will continue to encourage your growth... Looking forward to that content ... You got this girl!! 🎉👏🤘

[@kbal1451]

I think I've followed you from the start and while I don't have a channel and I have mobility problems, I've been slowly letting go of items and freeing up space in my home too. I love my local buy nothing group on facebook. I'm so looking forward to you having a beautiful basement downstairs, enjoying that space more with your family. I remember when you had the tornado warnings and thought it would have been great if you could have gone down there and been as comfortable as you are in the main part of your home. With sectional seating that you could lie on while waiting it out. Maybe a study area for your boys. Sorting and decluttering your crafts. Shopping from your stash to craft. Having a sorted drop zone in your laundry. Having a garage where you can keep your car. Maybe having a workshop for your husband in the shed behind the house. Having a sorted attic. Updating your other rooms as your family moves through the different stages of life as your boys grow. Lots to look look forward to in your own home as well as helping others. Keep up the great work!

[@nadinewilliamson1037]

What a journey. You are an inspiration.

[@Hinoki352]

Mel, you will never know just how much you have helped me. I am still at the beginning of this journey and it is so overwhelming. I identify with you so much it kind of blows my mind.. I also have ADHD and early childhood trauma, as well as specifically a bullying situation when I was 11..! The first time I heard you share that in one of your videos I immediately burst into tears because it felt like I truly wasn’t alone for possibly the first time ever. You know what a huge deal that is for people like us. (The best people 😊) I truly cannot thank you enough for having the courage to create this channel and put your story out there.. and I want to be the first on your waiting list for one-on-one coaching!!! 😂 listening to your vision for creating a support community in the future also brought me to tears (I really don’t even cry that much, lol) because that is exactly what I have been needing for so long. A place where my unique pain and struggle with hoarding/decluttering my home and life are understood and ACCEPTED with love, free of judgment. Thank you again so much for being you and for being on KZbin. ❤❤❤

[@joannafoster3423]

Love your goals! Go get it girl!

[@findingaway5512]

I love that you want to go in and help other people with their clutter as well. You have such a great heart and will be amazing at it. ❤

[@barbarap6851]

I have been watching you from the very beginning. You have done such a wonderful job! Continue to be an inspiration!

[@debratakagawa4764]

Oh wow 5 years! Your journey was meant to start when it did. 2020 was such a YEAR. Your KZbin group needed the time at home to find and help support your growth.

[@nancycosgrove4005]

I’ve been following you for several years!! You have transformed yourself into an amazingly strong, confident woman!! Yay! Your compassion and understanding will surely bless many people💕

[@shirleyadkins4254]

U go girl

[@sulmaoropeza7848]

Wow! 5 years. I have been following you from the beginning. I can’t believe it’s been 5 years. The day you revealed your face, I said you have a beautiful smile. You’re sure growing. Can’t wait to see your website. There are so many people who need your help. Serving others, will make you feel so loved and your will grow more. I wish you can come to California.

[@kashmirapathare1307]

I have been following you since the very beginning and have seen the long journey you have taken. Really happy and proud of you ❤ I love your content ❤️

[@sailorPinata]

It's funny because it's not your side of the bed that look like a hoarder's one 🤣 Anyway, you can be so proud of yourself, I love watching your progresses week after week, I don't know you but I'm rooting for you

[@ucfhillcollege8296]

I have been here since the second episode. Congrats on your healing and progress! So proud of you. Go for it--helping others!

[@susanmunoz7688]

WOW, you have done fantastic! I’m so happy to hear you are helping others and being them freedom without shaming them 🌹❤️🌹! You are letting others see all things are possible with help and believing in God . I love you, love you, love you 🤗. God bless you and your family and that includes little Ms.Pepper ❤

[@francinehogsett3065]

I’m so glad you showed your beautiful face and your beautiful soul….you are amazing 😘😊❤️. Great help to many

[@nnylasoR]

🌺🌸🌼🌈❤️‍🔥🌺🌸🌼🌈❤️‍🔥🌺🌸🌼🌈❤️‍🔥 I am sooooo proud of you and honored to have been following along with you on your journey. I have not only learned and related with so much of what you deal with inside (and out!), but have come to see you as a mentor… and friend. ✨🌈💞

[@cosmeohana2376]

So thankful for your dream! I love your channel and am so proud of your progress and how many people you are helping!

[@rg-mi5hh]

The before and after pictures are so motivating.

[@sh3ll3yb]

Just went back and rewatched one of the first videos. Your voice does sound so stressed about letting go. Your journey has been amazing to watch. You have help me so much! Gota go find some tossy tossies. ❤

[@Janneli2024]

Firstly LOVE you lots ❤❤❤ yes a very brave thing to come forward but acknowledging this was the Best for you and others and myself thanks 🙏🏻 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

[@The_Joy_Finder]

42.2 Mel, we are so thankful you took those 2 years to scrape together your courage. We need what you have to give. Your kindness is a gift of note. You are MORE than a conqueror. I celebrate with you. Five fierce years of unimaginable growth and overcoming. 💛

[@tauniacox2593]

I can't believe it has already been 5 years😀 You have help know its ok to feel the feels I don't have Holding disorder but I was bullied when I was in school and I do have trouble with self worth and confidence. Your video let me know that its ok and I am enough. When I'm have a bad day I watch one of your videos and I feel better and can do what I need to do and get on with my day.

[@porcelina956]

Happy Anniversary 5 years of tossy tossy piles!🦄🦄🦄🦄💐💐💐💐

[@26laf]

You are such a bright light on YT. I'm so glad you decided to put yourself out there and share this journey, your story is inspiring to everyone, including those of us who don't have hoarding disorder, but are looking for decluttering motivation.

[@jenniferr-f3157]

You’re a pioneer, my dear! I hope you look forward and can leave a lot of the bad stuff behind. You’re great, your life is great, your big yard & basement are great 😂 You have a huge, generous heart and a sweet style and I cannot wait to see what you do!!! 💪🏻

[@imlistening1949]

Congratulations 🥳 Yes remember the "big reveal" - sat there thinking she's beautiful! Thought you were camera shy, didn't even connect you were embarrassed about the messes. Prayers your way on expanding the business. Your channel in itself is a teaching tool. I agree the KonMari Method didn't work for me either. Everything sparked joy or at least some type of memory. I'd have a couple of things set aside and would end up putting one back. Thank you, thank you, thank you for having the courage to step out and show us - yes we can do this!

[@watchesfromedges]

I can remember when you first showed a partial reveal of your face, all I could think was how beautiful your eyes were that you had felt too vulnerable to show us before. I was so happy when you found the confidence to show yourself to us, it felt like a real privilege.

[@AllTheMiniThings]

YES! So excited for you to keep going and build upon what you've started! I love the way you've said that, when you wish you'd started sooner...that it's TODAYS version wishing you'd started sooner because you feel safe now. But that it's ok you didn't know that then. I love that.

[@periwinkle5888]

🩷Congratulations, Miss Heart, on reaching the 5 year mark on your decluttering and healing journey🩷 Your courage and perseverance have given you the gift of increased joy in the freedom of letting go and creating a more wonderful home atmoshpere for you and your family to thrive in. I'm so delighted for you!

[@andrearobbins9450]

I have family members with hoarding disorder. Thank you for helping me understand them. As much as I enjoy your videos, i LOVE seeing Pepper! Give a hug from me!

[@hannahkennedy2259]

Congratulations 👏🥰. 5 years Wow!! I love how strong and confident you have become. I’m really enjoying your channel. I wish you all the best in the future 🥰🤍.

[@karenstairs8273]

You have made great strides in your healing process!! You have encouraged so many!! You have explained hoarding is such a kind and gentle way. I think people understand hoarding much more because of you

[@ashcraft555]

Thank you so much for this and for everything you do and share with us. You've changed so many lives and given so many of us hope that we can work through this. One tossy tossy at a time!

[@jonijegla8074]

I look forward to your videos. You have done an amazing job! Thank you for being you.

[@gloria7324]

I can't believe it's been 5 years! You have been such an incredible inspiration and it's been such a healing journey to follow along and learn with you!

[@amystewart9228]

Love itttt!!

[@tngirlz4622]

WOW, congratulations, you’ve done AMAZING work! 👏👏👏🥳🎉🦄 Can’t believe it’s been five years - you should be so proud of your more livable home and happier family! And your ability to encourage and motivate others - my basement is cleaner because of your channel, thank you for showing the way! ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

[@michaeladean9424]

I can’t believe I’ve been watching you for 5 years. I subscribed when you were at 2,500 followers!

[@pamhowe5388]

You are so inspiring to me. Very proud of your tremendous positive changes through the years. Thank you for sharing with us. You've made a huge impact on how I how deal with my stuff & letting it go. ❤

[@Patty-vr3di]

Wow , What a fabulous episode! You are doing great!!! Be proud of your accomplishments.

[@Sweetgotham]

As someone who has been following you since at least 2018 when you were struggling so hard with the 'playroom'. It's incredible to see the footage of where you started from! Your growth is so obvious even from how you carried yourself then vs now. Kudos! More great things are coming!

[@clairewatson7506]

Hi Melanie I just wanted to say you have come so far and you are such an inspiration to me and I'm sure to many others your a gem 💎 much love from the UK x

[@charishurt1768]

So very proud of u u have come so far congratulations on your accomplishments u have taught us all so much and explain so many things to us 🎉💜🦄🥳🎊

[@spiralali]

Happy 5 year anniversary!!! I'm so happy for you, and the amazing progress that you have accomplished~ Woohoo!!!!!!!! 🎉

[@marlawegrzyn6991]

Would love for you to come help Declutter!!!! When you’re ready let me know!!!

[@jessieloubamboo]

You have such a beautiful heart, and it's been amazing watching this heart grow and get stronger over the last 5yrs. Here's to the future ❤

[@joanlauridsen2288]

Congratulations on your 5 years! It is amazing how you are doing now. I remember your voice in the beginning. No confidence at all. And now? Your are sparkling ❤️ I love your videos. ❤❤❤

[@kristineojohnson]

Cant get the 5 years! I remember your struggles in the begging and how hard it was for you to let go of even the smallest tossy tossy 😅 And as a follower in this 5 years I can only again say that it’s been a pleasure and you’re content even if im not a hoarder is the best. Thanks m ♥️ for sharing, showing and having the guts to be with us every week. Thanks 🙏🏼😘

[@silver_csmith]

So proud of you how far you have come Mel!!! 👏🏻🥰👍🏻 I know you will be successful in your help with others!! Thank you so much for being so open and sharing your story and life with us!! 🥰

[@jessicahelene23]

Congratulations on 5 years! Yes to all the things! I’m so excited to see how your channel will grow. I love all of the ideas: website, workbooks, online support groups, in person support, etc.

[@kellyl7610]

We are all so proud of you!!!!❤❤❤

[@Ann-vr1qr]

I remeber watching you in the beginning, wondering why you wouldn't show your face. But i couldn't help watching because the decluttering was so good! Since then, you have given me a level of understanding and empathy that I wouldn't otherwise have around hoarding. Love to see how far you've come and that you are sharing your story fully noe to help others. ❤❤❤

[@k-t2498]

Im going through this currently..I was in a long term relationship for years and accumulated a lot of stuff..Than the break up came and i was forced to move and downsize my place..I got rid of a massive amount already..But struggling to get rid of the rest.Also dealing with shame and fear as well and i never showed anyone my hidden hoard..I am thankful its getting better..I am petrified of showing anyone because i have had lots of threats against me by people i trusted.. So i felt betrayed and now feel silenced and cant reach out.. :( sadly people by me are not as supportive..completly isolated and alone..Your videos help me to know,I am not the only one struggling with hoarding and healing and letting go..it took me about two years to get started after i moved from my old relationship..

[@debratakagawa4764]

I’m sure I speak for many on this site. We care about you. You can do this!!

[@lunahelena5329]

Congratulations! You are amazing, I am so proud of you

[@lizzianecabido7571]

I miss that kind of videos too. Congrats Ms Heart.

[@INfectiOUSfreak]

Thank you for opening up and letting us come along on your journey! ❤

[@Cindi.Bennett]

I have been here through it all! I was the one who dubbed you, Ms Heart! You have come so far and I'm excited to see you fly! Blessings my friend!

[@mariaemiliasanchez3194]

So proud of you 😊

[@melanietrester]

Hello from Germany and hi miss heart and miow pepper. You learn so much!!! You rock it. We are so proud of you. 🎉❤❤

[@lindyborden5398]

Thanks!

[@ahoardersheart]

Thank you so so much!! Your generosity is so appreciated and I am grateful for you 🦄🌟💜🙏🏼

[@enni_p]

I found you when we moved in our current apartment, and it was 4.5 years ago! I liked your headset phone and seeing your individual items! I live in Europe so there are some differences in everyday suff and it is fun to notice.

[@sashavaldez4626]

I love your videos thank you!i struggle with hoarding tendencies and your videos really help me onthis journey with you ! Thank you for the inspiration!!!!

[@croccatcher]

Happy 5th year on KZbin, I'm so proud of how far you've come, I'm so excited to see your ideas come to life, you are incredible ❤

[@rebeckamattisson5083]

Congratulations to getting so far, you look so calm and sound so confident now. ❤❤❤🎉🎉🎉

[@Peanut1965]

Congratulations on 5 years! You are such an inspiration to many who suffer from hoarding disorders, showing they can be successful in their journeys as well!

[@Britta-ts6lz]

I remember when you first revealed yourself. So happy for you and the journey you’ve been on and your desire to help others. I think we all have too much, our society is very materialistic and I love watching your videos ❤️❤️❤️

[@mooseyourbody]

You've come a long way. You can be so proud of yourself. I found you about 2 years ago through a Konmari clothes video. And now you are the soothing and empathic voice in my head when I try to declutter and struggle. I'm not a hoarder but I have lot of stuff in my house that is attached to various emotions. I wish you all the best for your future projects. ❤

[@CC-ny1vo]

I’m so happy for you! I hope you’re able to expand and help as many people as possible

[@debgamble8368]

Congratulations! 🦄🦄🦄🦄 Early days, I found it difficult watching you do the work. Your struggle and the your emotions were palpable and it was uncomfortable for me at times. I could feel your indecision paralysis but watching you learn new strategies to conquer the hoard was nothing short of inspiring. Good luck with the website launch, I’m really looking forward to seeing it and all the wonderful resources. Here’s to many more years to come Mel!

[@chucalissa9231]

So happy for you ,,you did this on your own .I will get there eventually 👋🏼

[@carypolakowski4817]

Congratulations! You have come so far in your journey and should be proud. Mostly though you should celebrate the fact that you are following your purpose with such courage and grace. 🎉

[@sarahwieland3243]

I have been living for my things and my things have been controlling my life for years now! I have slowly been trying to get control of my hoarders starter kit of a home for about a year now. I was able to get rid of a good chunk of things, but then I realized there was the chunk left that I was still hanging onto because of emotional attachments. I have been in a stalemate until I found ur videos last night. Omg, u completely motivated me and made me understand what it is I have to do in order to move forward in my life! I went thru some deep traumas over the last 10 years and my “things” have made me feel safe, just looking at all these stupid things was a comfort! I would imagine how I was going to begin living life again, doing new hobbies and being this amazing grandmother to my grandchildren. What I was doing was just that living in this fantasy world, buried in my things and too overwhelmed to do anything with any of it! There of course is that perfectionism and OCD tenancies that would be sabotaging for me too! I have literally been miserable and overwhelmed 24/7 for the last 10 years! Thk u, thk for being brave enough to come forward and speak out about how u have overcome and dealt with ur pains, traumas and hoarding. U r such a positive light at the end of a very long and dark tunnel for so many ❤