8 Ways You Become an Enemy to Yourself

[@Sunnyanne283]

Thank you. I am so so very hard on myself.

[@reneeb.dandridge6522]

Pray for me. I knew something was wrong with me, i just didn’t know it was me. 😢

[@charlabarnett6274]

I noticed all the pronouns you were using that describe Me, Myself and I. A house divided against itself will not stand, and a double minded (self) is unstable in all its ways. You are such a great mentor! Thank you! This is such a powerful message. I finally got the realization of how selfless love for me, myself, and I needs to always be at one another's disposal. I am the one who makes the decisions and choices that affect me for the rest of my life! And Myself responds to Me depending on what I did to it. Blaming, shaming, loving or nurturing. We are triune!

[@marti5173]

I’m looking forward to this too . Going through a season of major transition …moved country, sold house , left job and have the echoing voice ….”your not a true Christian “ 😢. Bless you Mark for caring . Thank you .

[@tonypino5415]

Boy is this timely. I literally just asked God to remove this irritability. I project it on loved ones, though I've gotten fairly good and biting my tongue.

[@Angiemusicaldoodles]

Ugh I felt that with the irritability stuff. I deal with it from time to time. You’re not alone! We can heal and unlearn bad habits in Jesus’ name 🙏

[@katiesanders96]

AMAZING. This teaching really hit home, especially the part about abandoning your own self. Oof. For so long, I have thought that being hard on myself was spiritually good and humble. Turning the opposite way feels like withdrawing from a drug that you simultaneously hate and love.

[@Angiemusicaldoodles]

Well said Katie! It’s time to unlearn the bad habits from self-reject!

[@katiesanders96]

@@Angiemusicaldoodles Thank you, Angie! 🙌

[@Angiemusicaldoodles]

@@katiesanders96 You are welcome!

[@rayyjayy274]

I've been through so much trauma! I have stuffed it for so long it's all coming to the surface and it's scary! But I have to soberly deal with all of this!

[@MonicaBU]

Mark! This hit the nail on the head for me. I shake my head at how much your messages hit home for me. It’s crazy. Thanks for all you do, truly appreciate you 🙏🏽

[@Angiemusicaldoodles]

That’s exactly I felt too! We can definitely heal from self reject and Mr. Law’s demands. And go back to Mr. Grace. I got that from a book I read in a certain chapter. Hope this helps!

[@katiesanders96]

“Mark! Are you reading our diaries? Are you living in our heads, and we didn’t even know we had a house guest?!” 🤪

[@Angiemusicaldoodles]

@@katiesanders96 For real! LOL 😂

[@katiesanders96]

@@Angiemusicaldoodles 🤣🤣🤣

[@katiesanders96]

“That’s classified information, Mr. DeJesus!” 🤣😝

[@Mosh-p5f]

This is me BUT atleast now i have become self-aware of this situation and I'm coming out of it in Jesus name.

[@katiesanders96]

Joyce, that’s an awesome perspective! Shows you are thinking with sobriety and an overcomer’s heart. ❤🎉

[@lizamena9124]

Hallelujah 🙌 thank you, Jesus, for Mark De Jesus 🙏

[@marktdejesus]

Your words are so kind. Thank you

[@rayyjayy274]

Your sent from God to speak to me! This is exactly what I am going through I was just in tears about this!

[@CharlieBass5]

My anger with myself is greater than that of the rest of the world. Contact with the rest of the world is temporary, I'm stuck with me.

[@LG-br3fe]

Fixing myself was my life's project. Now that I am getting healthy, I understand the reason. I didn't love or accept myself because I was so broken and filled will shame and self rejection and I just didn't know the love of my heavenly Father. However, for the first time in my life, I am not only understanding the love and grace of God but experiencing it daily as I stay intentional about being and staying connected to God. As I do, God is showing me how to give this unconditional loving acceptance and grace to myself first. Thank you so much for your teachings! They have literally changed my life. I am on a beautiful journey of healing and restoration. God bless you..

[@darm1959]

That was quite a testimony you just gave. I pray that I can get to the point that you are.

[@Nightwalker25-m3u]

I'll have a Dejesus book collection!!!🙌

[@katiesanders96]

Me too! 😂

[@Angiemusicaldoodles]

Thank you so much for this video! You helped me to understand why I’ve been in war with myself. This is something I’m gonna have to marinate on to end the spiraling and yet heal from the self-reject/performance burden. Praise The Lord!

[@katiesanders96]

Good for you, sister!! It feels like withdrawal, but we can do this!

[@Angiemusicaldoodles]

@@katiesanders96 Amen! Thank you Katie! 🤍❤️

[@katiesanders96]

@@Angiemusicaldoodles You’re welcome, girl! 🤗

[@MarvinEngle-he8kq]

Thank you Mark!! I used to always feel like God was really disgusted with me because of my sin. I had the Holy Spirit living in me yet couldn't stop sinning, so I was a terrible person. How could He have anything but disgust for me? Because of your teaching, more and more I experience His love for me and His complete forgiveness!! I can not thank you enough!! I look forward to sitting down in heaven with you for maybe a few hundred trillion years and discussing Him and His love for us. Then getting up and worshipping Him for a few thousand trillion millennia. Then who knows what else for hundred trillion years etc..!!!

[@ELSEGUIDORQUESIGUE1997]

this man understand better than any psychologist any pastor,any friend in my entire life(without overeacting), No pressure Mark I know you have mistakes and problems as well , but what I see is that you are transparent to talk about anythinking that may have disturbed you in your life and sharing with other to help, when I hear you speaking , it is like, listening my own thoughts but with anhestisia. God bless you so much and your family I wish you could live nearby so we can speak face to face hahaha.

[@estelleclements5515]

@ Click This is very true

[@hiphopexorcist]

Thank you for this teaching. I really needed to hear this. The past few years have been hellish and I’ve been spiritually self destructive. I’m just now recently getting back to a healthy place where I need to be. It’s been difficult to get past the numbing effect of what this process has done to me. I’m hopeful that this season will definitely come to an end. It’s been painful and scary for me at times and I constantly have to have a grateful heart to combat the apathy I’ve been drowning in. Thanks for breaking down the process.

[@sparklefulify]

So timely. You are so right. In prayer on the phone with a strong Christian friend yesterday this came up in me and I recognized my thinking just as you explain. I’m so grateful for the awareness and healing He brings. And now your psychological explanation makes it clear. Thank you for your help that is so needed. 11:13

[@breejones8945]

Literally an exact description of me and what I’m struggling with right now.

[@anndredove6500]

Help. Sometimes I just pray through what you are teaching because it is too much. Mainly because what I went through was too much. Baby steps.

[@katiesanders96]

Aw, hugs.

[@Nightwalker25-m3u]

Probably yes, I'm gonna have the book rejection mindset in my hands soon!

[@chicenburger]

Bless this broadcast, Thanks Mark

[@JNS1972]

The war I founf myself in was my beliefs. The word tells us three things I find interesting...1-Sin lies at your door and its desire is for you. Think about that, sin has a persistent desire to own us! 2-We were created to do good works. 3- God becomes our enemy in our minds when we do evil works. This does not mean that God is my enemy, He is always the faithful One of the covenant but when our actions are evil, sin causes us to see Him as an enemy when He is not. That is the natural byproduct of wrong actions because we were created for good works! Think about sin having a desire for you, that is crazy! Desire is something we pursue, so sin (thoughts) are always persistent and beating our minds to listen to them. This is awesome news because that means all those thoughts we ruminate over are not YOU. Its NOT YOU, it's the LIAR seeking to get you to listen and follow. The enemy is always LOUD and RUDE but the Spirit is gentle and peaceful! Do not think of God as mad at you, He isn't! He is the only faithful partner in the covenant. He has to be because that gives us a foundation to always know we are not alone. He is not moody based on my actions or thoughts. He is the ROCK that we can always rely on and run to. Be encouraged and know that those thoughts are not you or God. God does not use fear to talk to His children but when we are so in tune with fear, His soft words escape us. Remember Satan comes as a messenger of light, he will sound like he is biblical but the fruit of what he says will always create fear and tear you down, you will know him by the fruit. I am one overcoming OCD and Scurulosity for 17 years, so I am not a stranger. If you want to read an amazing book check out The Power of the Blood Covenant by Malcolm Smith.

[@marialiedel7971]

This was so spot on.

[@mistyflores3176]

When you know you are accepted and loved by the beloved you begin to understand what love is and you minister that same love to others. What I am learning... 😌❤️🥹

[@Angiemusicaldoodles]

Amen! So true, I’m still learning this too. 🤍

[@ecologygarden]

Amen Ive recently started meditating on ,recieving and believing Gods love for me and it's bringing me a lot of inner peace and relief from stress, and lifted me out of three years of depression. One of the things i do is say repeatedly in my mind "I recieve your great love for me Lord Jesus"

[@shirkiahbull]

Thumbnail is spot on 🫶🏽😂

[@katiesanders96]

Yes! I had to smile at it. 🤣

[@knorman982]

I have never considered this angle. It makes so much sense. Thank you.

[@marti5173]

Great teaching Mark

[@jcarter6539]

Your in my life right now...im exhausted 😩

[@shannone8219]

Blaming myself is natural I find it close to impossible to blame others And would never blame God I take full responsibility for my shame I gotta practice self compassion more

[@CharlieBass5]

I'm usually good until I fail and I have had more failures than successes.

[@michelletschupp]

Yes!! to your question

[@toddbibby5456]

Hey mark if you see this. nice thumbnail you made me laugh when I was having a really hard time. Thank you for your ministry I want to be like you and help people because I have been so disturbed. So if you care enough say a prayer for me please God bless you man!

[@katiesanders96]

What a kind comment for Mark. Absolutely he will pray for you if he sees it!

[@salparedo]

Im right here Mark. Its terrible my man. I hurt inside.

[@mattbrawn1035]

Thank you!! Praise the lord he led me to your videos!

[@IrenBthr]

Thank you Mark. God has helped me through you.

[@ms181]

WHY do we push love away? What keeps us from saying YES to love? It must just be FEAR.

[@michaelworshamGodisLove]

So very insightful Mark... Thank you... Have you ever read any of the ACA big red book?

[@marktdejesus]

Yes. Fantastic material.

[@ecologygarden]

God bless you Mark DeJesus for your insites into the inner thoughts of humans many of us have these thoughts in common and you are good at analysing them and exposing them and instructing how to overcome these negative thoughts.

[@Oozy9Millimeetah]

Some times it feels like this faith has sent me into everlasting cycles of introspection and never ending mind war, then when im done with that i get tempted and get bored with denying my sexual needs and then the cycle starts again. My yolk is easy he said, yeah its been like two minutes of ease out of 24 hour day. 😂

[@jrose1904]

What does it look like to show compassion to yourself?

[@asinamirror2253]

Hey Mark, can you do a video on what transitioning is like? For me it’s easy to get discouraged when I can’t say “this is that” because I don’t know where I am in the journey. Sometimes it feels like I’m failing but then I ask “what if this is part of the transition?” I am the type who needs to understand where I am in the journey. A video would be so helpful.

[@gailwright8082]

Brilliant teaching mark! Thankyou

[@glendagajsek-shears3890]

There's so much that contributes this... Especially the spirit of lazyness and neglect take over... Then the love that shouldn't be there and in you from God would help you really overcome and defeat it... or keep "choosing" to do wrong/evil/sin etc... I imploded within myself and also then blaming others... Then I turned out to be the enemy to self and God and others and comes out as madness and anger or rebellious behaviour 😔 I have looked within and outside of myself... And do feel this disconnect that I have created from not choosing or giving into habits or living well from not even trying hard enough and keep withdrawing more from love and anger took over.

[@glendagajsek-shears3890]

Being the crazy one for not listening or "living life" or not really doing much to help anyone or God's kingdom. And making all "excuses" and lies to avoid things even if it was for something good. And heard and thoughts of the worst 😔 it does feel like a war but I have already lost or cannot really fight or being just the whining one who is sad or angry... All because of weakness "evil" or see how broken I am or we are from not having that Godly spirit of love or faith that over powers us...

[@glendagajsek-shears3890]

Yes under stand that inner anger that just builds or doesnt go away and just consumes everything! but except the negativity... At first it was more passive and doing and then felt like a performer and picking and choosing, feeling like I had to force my self to do right or good and then to a point of just giving in or up...Then the fears or anger is towards what we have been told what's been evil or sinful... Did try to avoid some sins and then got in to a bigger mess that couldn't develop that love we should be having towards God self and others. And feels like I'm got handed over to sin and depravity and just being stupid. Yes the double minded but the really one sided on the "anti" negative side 😔 yes understanding how it's what has taken over all the bad thoughts and actions or even abusive. But this seemed to come later in life than when I was younger (had moments of getting so upset about something I didn't pass from not studying hard enough or not listening properly or lacking in confidence. I would cry so much about it but then tried again... It took me 3 times to pass my drivers test and I passed most of my studies with good marks/average then just passing it because of other "distractions"... Then started to have enough and stopped trying again for awhile...)relationships I have been told so much about others too how "bad" I've been but then sometimes also "trying" to say some nice things to make me feel better or what should be encouraging me.

[@glendagajsek-shears3890]

I always feel pressured on doing what i should be and "knowing" that consequences of may actions or choices 😔 effects everything How I just even avoid hide more viable sinning even when I need to try to learn but "can't" really try to apply what I know or how and just keep stepping back and getting mad 😔 even at the kids I'm "trusted" to look after like it was a real test or even to stir me up more seeing how bad I am so someone or that something wants to "help" but also at the same time got get me into trouble for doing something wrong. Years ago I thought I was doing better then the now as I got older because I couldn't grow up or " change" or always try to run some something...

[@glendagajsek-shears3890]

I do get this inner anger towards my self and others people issues that also seem to get out of hand too And how badly I really react and deal with things in life 😔 And then also got a "numbness" or hardness even feeling so angry like the body is getting use to it or using a coping mechanism. I do get mad about how God keeps letting the "bad" worldly things or issues effect us and our children where we all should be better and stronger in discipline... And becoming so "miss behaved" and really teasing me with it especially when relating to "adult" things that they should be even talking or singing about 😔 and then saying nothing wrong with it and I'm the one with the problem... Or the "past" things and songs I used to listen to when I was younger has come back to annoy me of what I was also "like" etc... It's so bad when you wanted God to take control it's like the other bad force takes over to corrupt us and others Not fears or other confusions or interferences. And causing each other stress. And the spirit making us out of control or "strange". Where I should be not the bad example but the "good" one. I grew up going to church but and going to non religious schools not living a strict religious disciplined life where parents would work alot and entertain (especially with food) and visit a lot of people. So I would just be "good" or nice, listen observe learning passively too. TV and internet from studying also got as a big distraction or even so addictive 😔 but even when I did go through a phase of not watch so much tv but getting into other things with careers and people and church was keeping me busy. I wasn't pushed or forced but seemed to be naturally passive about it believing that I was doing what God wanted me to be and do in faith of Jesus. I even got into youth groups and being in leadership positions from some training seminars! I seemed so unqualified and not a good teacher (I told my self for a long time I wasn't good and didn't like teaching but more learning and just being an assistant I wanted to stay as)... put in the deep end to push some kind of growth. But still wasn't whole hearted in any of my "Jobs". Did some things I liked at the time. I did more volunteering roles than paid jobs. (Trying to make my self sound good) And now I really distance my self from people have really bad communication towards everyone and also everyone not really "loving" and commutating and causing other fears and problems with each other. I'm the "depressed" crazy stressed one and some family seemed like that they wanted to help but not so. But also seemed to just been a spirit struggle and also one that just messing around with us too. Like the rest we get out through...Took some time/responsibilities away but then also disappear doing their own things too and leaving me. And worry and think how we are not being sealed by the Holy spirit that we need to make us safe and good especially when thinking about behaviour 😔 and not worshiping God well or being that living loving sacrifice etc.

[@glendagajsek-shears3890]

It's Just like giving up so much and being so double minded that fell off the wall (humpty dumpty) Then there will be moments trying to do something about it and just keep "learning" even when I'm angry or feeling this spiritual growth block because I and we are in a repeative cycle and just learning watching listening (passively)... I would just keep on searching and going over things that I already "know" or into other religious beliefs or other ideas and so focused on my self and the issues that need to dealt with but not doing the work to deal with it right. And some how hoping and when struggling with these issues God is working and help me within especially that I will and have accepted JEsus. My self and how other also get you stuck to stay the way you are or grow up into something else! Sometimes I think we/I am in like how our lives have been some what "staged" or like the Truman Show.... I did you to link a lot of things with life what I seen and watched.

[@Nightwalker25-m3u]

Hmmm I guess I'm gonna order those two other books.

[@learningsevenresearchgoals1127]

Is there a website anywhere that explains your members only site or group? Like what is included?

[@ms181]

God says I am a sinner...my heart is deceitful and wicked...no good thing lies in me...all my righteousnesses are as filthy rags, etc., so how in the world can I not see myself as BAD to the core? Those pronouncements alienate me from Him. I feel rejected and so full of guilt...how can my heart to "draw near"? It hurts so much to be told I'm not good.

[@utipessien6231]

Hi there. If you’ve accepted Jesus into your heart and life, then you are renewed in your spirit and mind.However the renewal of the mind takes time, as we need to unlearn all of negative habits, and of course memories of the past pop up so much it’s easy to get overwhelmed. But we must push through, our feelings are not an accurate representation of what God sees in us. You need to give yourself time, and study the word of God fully,to find for yourself God’s love and plan for you. Yes the heart of man is deceitful and wicked, but in Christ we are made new. Please never forget that. Hope this helps ♥️

[@MargaretHeuer]

That's me 😢

[@MargaretHeuer]

Where do I get these books?

[@Sweet2kiss1]

Number 4.

[@Sweet2kiss1]

It's good to know I'm not by myself

[@MargaretHeuer]

What if you blame yourself?

[@fruitbat7]

How do you let self hatred go though.

[@lovelife07o7]

By knowing who you are in Christ

[@JesusfavQueen]

No I didn’t steal my own house and my own money! They still have to return what they stole no matter what. Then they can go be gay and happy