A conversation with Amber Scorah (exJW author of "Leaving the Witness")

[@barbaramullins4233]

Isn't it just shocking how many treasures of people have been hidden under a pile of rubble like the watchtower society. The beautiful openness we we're all denied. Thank you both for sharing

[@chrissyparkins1615]

The ‘organization’ told us not to hide our light under a basket…while they literally hid OUR light under theirs. The hypocrisy is staggering

[@natalasagun1554]

I also remember my daughter crying in her room after the meeting ( she was 9 or 10 years old). When I wondered why she was crying her response shocked me:" Because I will die in Armageddon. And my lovely daddy, too. And my elder brother. We won't see you again". "Why do you think so?" " Because they always say it during the talks as well as in videos that only jehovah's witnesses will survive. I'm not one because I partake in birthday parties, celebrate new year, etc . Daddy is an atheist. Consequently we will die in Armageddon ". Despite being a JW I explained her that only jehovah can decide who to save and he sees hearts. Why is he gonna destroy good loving people? And after that I stopped bringing her to the meetings, but her fears continued up to the time when I left the organization. Thank goodness I wasn't totally brainwashed by them and could think critically. Now we live a happy life together, without fears or divisions within family.

[@sparrowhawkguitarboy]

That was the reason why I joined this cult at age 10, only because of the fear of be killed in Armageddon. I have the feeling, that Fear is the only thing that keeps thousand of people trapped in this cult.

[@natalasagun1554]

@@sparrowhawkguitarboy are u still there?

[@sparrowhawkguitarboy]

@@natalasagun1554 I left in 2011 (Faded) in 2012 it was made official

[@kayb6803]

I had a similar breakdown when I was around 13 or 14 years old. I tearfully asked my Mother why were we serving a God of Pain? He seems to only want to hurt people. She was speechless. This Organization gives God a bad rep.

[@user-py3gh6bc2x]

Let my 6 year old daughter spend time with her witness grandparents she called crying because grandma told her that she is going to die at Armageddon. It is cruel and sadistic to tell a child this and I told my mother-law so. I made it clear that she was not to discuss Jehovah with my daughter without me present. My husband was disfellowshipped and I faded. In the 1970s the shunning rules for family members were a little more liberal. Later I told all family members to stop trying to persuade us to return ... I simply told them that I did not care if I died at Armageddon and that I was tired of being threatened with death; the world ends for someone everyday; It only matters if you believe it. That was 40 years ago.

[@lynetremblay7680]

Thank you Lloyd for the way you conduct interviews, letting the guest express herself without interrupting or start talking about your own experiences. Excellent communication skills (and great set-up, you gotta have those “family” pictures! Ha ha ha!) Another amazing and inspiring story. I admire Amber’s positive attitude despite the shunning she faces. What guts it must have took also to leave your country to a destination and culture completely different from your own. Wow. What a life story!

[@marie-clairedelongchamp1330]

Loved your comment Amber “ When I was trapped in this religion”, yes I was trapped too, 33 years, joined when I was 19, & I too totally bought into it, so young! Finally woke up, now going on 1 year! Yes of Freedom! Thank you for this interview Amber & Lloyd. I will be buying your book, most definitely! 💗🇨🇦

[@marie-clairedelongchamp1330]

Dr. Richmann 😌. Thanks for the pat on the back! Chin up, going forward! 😉

[@smellslikefreespirit670]

So many Years lost.... 😪

[@ShoNuffSoulBro1]

Same here; Ignorant, uneducated, indoctrinated by whacked out fanatical parents, baptized at 21 out of fear of Armageddon and believing in doing ‘the right thing’. Now discovering the Real truth, about ‘The Truth’. The “Overlapping Generation” illustration in the Kingdom book is what started waking me up. It’s still all messing with my mind. How can successive groups of men who adamantly declare that they have special status and revealed knowledge from God, and who are absolutely 100% sure that they are right, and for decades of time preach doctrine to millions of people earthwide under so-called direction from God’s Holy Spirit 😇, turn out to be ABSOLUTELY WRONG 😳 ? ? ? Holy shit ! ! 💩

[@SusanGaskin]

What a fantastic interview - thank you both for taking the time for us! Amber seems like such a beautiful person and this is one of my favorite, positive and most inspirational videos that you've done. She appears tonight as a guest on The Daily Show at midnight EST, and I'll be taping and posting it.

[@stevenlee4437]

Susan Gaskin very true 👍🏻

[@vitaminj7]

Ooh, thank you for letting us know! I'll be tuning in.

[@TheDoubledaddy]

Loyd, I know you have a lot of haters who say you are doing this for money although I KNOW you are NOT, in reality I wouldn't give a crap if you WERE! The fact is you are waking people up by the thousands! And for me that is much more important than if you are making a few dollars off of it because you should be. That's why I subscribe and that's why I am a monthly paid member because what you are doing is incredibly effective. Thanks man!

[@Martinj1417]

She will be on the daily show with Trevor Noah June 4 at 23:00 in America! I can’t wait to see it! Awesome job again Lloyd, you are a great interviewer.

[@1chadmon]

Fascinating video! I’m looking forward to reading her book. It’s amazing how much individuality is trampled and suppressed in the organization. Great interview, thank you!

[@joycelemonier4132]

Thank you for this interview. I've faded over 30 years ago. It's been a wonderful life for me and my children. I was a full time pioneer and moved from NY to Alabama to serve where the need is greater. I still live in Alabama and despite what people think of Alabama, my 4 children have gone to higher education at some of the best colleges in the country. They have successful careers, patent lawyer, teachers, educators,and independent directors and film makers, This is because I left the religion when they were young and before they were indoctrinated.

[@robinkishmiller2596]

I was born and raised in this organization. I am crying. I can so relate. Omg.

[@lisahanneman3977]

Amber your book is truly a gift. I am an Ex-Jehovah Witness and found healing as you took me on your journey.

[@kendrabond7647]

This was such a positive interview that will hopefully encourage those that have left that it is never too late to take up further education. I am now studying for a degree and it was the best thing that I ever did.

[@byebyewatchtower]

I enjoyed the interview. You can see the freedom of thought and expression with no boundaries in her interview. Thanks Lloyd for the interview.

[@erink779]

I had to listen to 31:28 to 32:14 a couple of different times. Struck a cord with me, and I feel for myself and everyone else who has gone through digging themselves out of this religion.

[@cindyarnold7322]

Great interview! Yes, when you feel you have to censor yourself it's difficult to have a real friendship. I find myself having to do this more than I would like, so my relationships aren't close, but I remain open to them, just in case they start waking up. Thanks for this interview! I want this book!

[@honeyholly001]

What an incredible woman. Intelligent, beautiful and accomplished! Haven't read your book yet but I don't think being a JW has been a waste for you. That part of your life gives you something most people don't get to experience and you've already used it to help others. You're a human treasure and I can see you have got so much more to learn and give to the world! Keep it up. You're great inspiration for many of us!

[@TheSilverBeagle]

Fascinating. I remember reading Amber's articles on her experiences years ago. Helped me wake up.

[@jazavi1574]

I’ve been thinking about an non profit org. to help so many affected. Recently went back to college my self now in my late 40s, I appreciate Amber’s example of dedication. Great interview Loyd

[@janina873]

Kossette Tovar Congrats! What are you studying?

[@jazavi1574]

janina873 Hi, My major is business. It’s hard juggling school, work and family, but I love learning. Only wish I would’ve done it sooner.

[@janina873]

Kossette Tovar That’s great! I know it sounds cliche, but better late than never :)

[@johnnyruins9025]

Thank you Lloyd and Amber for a great interview.

[@pjtippett5510]

Its amazing that the witnesses believe the Chinese aren't aware of their activities. Also, loved her point about coming there with this 100 year old religious ideology versus their several hundred year old eastern beliefs.

[@greatdayn4651]

What a GREAT interview. Thank you both for your time and energy to inform the world.

[@Tali.P85]

Amber is delightful, I loved hearing her experiences. Looking forward to getting and reading her book.

[@hikingviking859]

Delightful lady. I wish her success with her book.

[@rodywithers3536]

A wonderfully freeing interview, Lloyd. So many gems and insights and above all else what a radiantly positive story. Many, many thanks Amber for your courageous outlook. You have been through so much. You make so much plain and simple sense. Your words about being on guard around JW “friends” rings very true. Once I left the organization, my tolerance of conditional friendships plummeted. As much as I once missed my JW friends, I realised I could never be my true loving self around them. We all - whoever we are - deserve better than fake friends who will turn on us as quick as look at us. And report us to big JWs. True friends connect with us over unconditional positive regard. Not over a tick box exercise on approval and public displays of “affection”. Oh, I now have the kindle version of Leaving the Witness. So looking forward to reading it!

[@changesmustchange2063]

I really enjoyed this interview with Amber. Amber you rocked this interview. I'm totally getting this book.

[@bessmcneill971]

The joke amongst my fellow expat friends where I live is, “we’re all here cause we’re not all there”.

[@harrybalszak7526]

Bess McNeill way to steal a joke from a man with Parkinson’s

[@yall2743]

Yes.. We are expats From Jws land

[@holly356]

Always enjoy your channel, Lloyd & devotion to helping people in their individual journeys upon learning the deception from WT organization. Thank you Amber for sharing your story. Delightful gal! I’m going to order your book! ✌️

[@theirregularpioneerchannel1804]

I related so much with her upbringing. Sporadically going to meetings as a kid with my Grandma made me so much more neurotic about my impending death at “armageddon”.

[@uarewhatuthinkable]

Thank you for continuing to do these interviews. They are very helpful. I've been out for 20 years and I still feel like I need to deprogram. Your interviews are helpful.

[@uarewhatuthinkable]

By the way, I bought Amber's book. I'm not done reading it but I do recommend it. As a former JW, ministerial servant who aspired to go abroad and do the "good work", I'm feeling this story as if it were my own.

[@Delilahv17]

Amber is such a beautiful person inside and out! I look forward to reading her book. And thank you Lloyd for another great interview!

[@thealphanoid6160]

Yeah nothing beautiful about a woman cheating on her husband...

[@davidwicklin9943]

Glad I woke up at 3:00am to find this in my KZbin inbox. Now I won't go back to sleep! Sounds like a book worth purchasing to read Amber's story as a JW missionary within a "banned" "underground" land of a transitioning, yet anti-religious China. Thank you Amber and Lloyd!

[@AugustBug56]

Honest Conscience Dave 😁same 👋🧩🐞 o my what friends 😁

[@smartninspired3857]

Thanks for this great interview! The story u relate abt China is very much like we have here in Donetsk republic, Ukraine's territory controlled by Russia. The activity of witnesses is under ban. People meet in zoom, by small groups, from apartments. This is this way since June 2018. Already a year now, and it is obvious, indoctrination starts to lose its strengths. People begin to leave. Of course, KZbin helps so much.

[@dantoinettetaylor1663]

This is good new to hear that people are waking up in that part of the world

[@brendarodriguez7983]

Great interview, Lloyd. Can’t wait to read her book and join the Facebook page. I’m ordering the book today. Amber’s comment about not being able to be yourself with friends that are still JWs resonated strongly with me. I am being shunned by someone who was my best friends. for many years and I recently reached out to because her mother passed away, only to be met with no response. I found myself feeling hurt all over again. Amber’s statement struck a nerve and made me realize that I just need to let that go because even if my old friend came back into my life, it would never be the same. I would always have to censor myself when talking to her. I refuse to do that. Thank you so much!

[@jimbobaggans1564]

My son lived in China for two years. He also hated to leave. He said that if he ever went back to China that he would never come back to America again. He loved everything about it. He made life long friends.

[@mizotter]

Thank you Lloyd and Amber! I love how Amber articulates her understanding of the larger sociological and political aspects of the rise, spread, and continuance of religions born of "the great awakening" (to the idea that white males w/ power need stricter social controls to maintain power). This talk illustrates the role that religions plays in perpetuating white supremacy, patriarchy, misogyny, and anti-democratic institutions around the globe.

[@exjehooberdubexpiobeezleeb6269]

What a phenomenal person and such an incredible interview. Thanks Lloyd and Amber!

[@billiewandaferguson2821]

Awesome interview! My book is on its way!

[@samibigham3975]

Fantastic interview! Can’t wait to read the book.

[@VictoriaOz]

Wonderful interview .. thank you both Lloyd and Amber .. I think there might be quite a few very talented JW’s who are “serving” in lands where they are using their abilities to do something extraordinary. I have used the term “Jehovah’s Witness Rockstar” too.. when describing friends with exceptional abilities and deep emotional intelligence to relate to all sorts of people. So much in this interview resonated with me. Your reflection on translating the doctrines to a culture of people who would find the premise of the belief system absurd was very profound.

[@bschil1]

Thank You LLOYD for bringing Amber and her book out into the light!

[@neonsally]

I soooo relate to that feeling of having lost a vital part of your early life, feeling like you’ll never catch up. I feel this so hard. I didn’t attend public school or post secondary so I completely missed out on learning socialization outside of the org. I feel like my 20’s became my new adolescence on fast forward, and my 30’s trying to make up for my 20’s. I relate.

[@SherryEche]

I got the audiobook from my local Library and loved it! I listened to it 3 times. Now I will buy the book!

[@anitaknights3472]

What a lovely interview, thank you both. Amber has a very refreshing way of verbalising her experiences and gives insight from a different perspective than I have experienced so thank you again x

[@slovenkas7733]

I love everything about this interview. Thank you for sharing your encouragement about higher education as well!

[@trudythomas8495]

I thank you Lloyd. You helped me to wake up .many many thanks ....

[@minusdagroove]

Purchase Amber’s book this morning and already listen to six chapters. I stopped to hear this interview. I enjoyed her experience. Big fan of you Lloyd,your research and information her me to prove an elder wrong. Thanks for all your and Amber courage.

[@jewell92]

Thanks, Lloyd. What a powerful "witness" [lol] Amber gives. I admire her so much!

[@AndreMooreDarkNerdRising]

Thank you Amber for your story this hits home personally!!

[@blitzblutz]

I’m eagerly waiting for my copy of Amber’s book and I’m so happy to see all of the great coverage this intelligent lady is getting!!!

[@sinemetu9037]

Wow...what a powerful story. Inspiring.

[@ericaslusser3278]

I was in a Chinese congregation for 8 years up until leaving and I visited for a time getting to experience their ministry and meetings. It was a way for people to have more freedom then regular witnesses. I noticed the witnesses r more liberal and relaxed about things.

[@colleennapier3722]

Excellent conversation. Thank you both for sharing.

[@unplugged2842]

Absolutely delightful interview Lloyd. Thank you Amber and all the very best. It is never too late to go to school and it gives you your brain back! Love it.

[@TheRealScrooge]

Reading the article in the Believer really encouraged me during a time when I had just recently disassociated, and so now knowing Amber has a book with the full story is incredibly exciting! Thank you for your outspokenness, honesty, and bravery since I know it can be terrifying to put yourself out there knowing all your previous friends and family will think you're this evil person for airing out dirty laundry. But keep it up, to both Amber and to Lloyd. I purchased the book as soon as it became available.

[@wiseowls117]

Thank you so much for this excellent interview! It brought back fond memories of living in China as an ex-JW. Just as Amber said, I learned a lot about myself while living there. It was an incredible experience! I love the people, culture, and speaking Mandarin. I met people from all around the world who were open to discuss virtually any topic, and if there was disagreement, it was no big deal, and we could still remain friends. So contrary to when I was a JW. Many local people that I met were curious about westerners and western culture. When I was there, several "foreigners" and "locals" that I knew attended Christian churches. Around Christmas time, I remember the gorgeous decorations throughout Beijing. I am excited to read Amber's book! :-D

[@misaeltamayo8702]

I just finished reading her book, I’m a third generation ex member just turned 23. So being raised as a child in this type of lifestyle has been something so difficult to let go. It’s so great to see that there is a community of such loving and caring people outside of that destructive lifestyle.

[@Digidab]

Very interesting Story Thank You both !

[@nesbo7578]

What a woman - such a warm and creative soul. Definitely putting her book on my Christmas wish list!

[@TheDoubledaddy]

I love her constant smile and seeming joy that she makes no effort to put away. Such a great story and example

[@pmaspmas]

Fascinating guest! Fascinating conversation! Thanks Lloyd.

[@sgvdg4623]

Great interview! 👍Thank you for sharing your story, Amber! My sister (jw) and her husband are still working/preaching in the chinese territory in Europe.... and I hope she'll wake up too one day ... Maybe you know her 😉 Best wishes and I've just ordered your book! 😊 Susan

[@720reddog]

All i can say is i love this woman's personality so full of energy and bright. Great interview and really intrigued about how different the JW experience was for people.

[@jarodcarnarvon5198]

I really like this girl. So smart, yet so down to earth, so simple; seems to be accepting of all people including those below her mental level. She isn't afraid just to be herself on the air.....

[@sooks13]

Thank you Amber and Lloyd. I ordered the book!!! Raised a witness and disfellowshipped for smoking at age of 19. Shunned for over 20 years now.

[@saffronhammer7714]

I can so relate to her waking experience: it can be a long, drawn-out process of many steps in deprogramming. I went to university as a fully indoctrinated JW, and so wish I could have had my full brain at the time, as there was so much cognitive dissonance and so much I was closed to hearing and actively shut out....

[@tinyaboo]

So you know your officially a 'Fan' of the John Cedars Channel when you see a new video pop up and you run to make a cup of tea and grab some biscuits and settle down to watch whilst 'clicking' your fingers to the theme tune!🤭😋👋🏽🇬🇧

[@Ed30675]

Likewise....

[@morningglory9288]

Yeah and I'm still a JW, but wanting to get out. I too look forward to viewing John Cedars channel. 😁😁😁

[@lftxit4reel891]

BRAVO! BRILLIANT, first class interview. Thank You🙏🏻

[@maryannlockwood7806]

Trish W glad to hear!😉

[@NinaCyra]

👋🇨🇦

[@DavidTaylor-ki2ir]

Great interview. Can’t wait to get the book!

[@planb939]

Enjoyed the interview very much! Downloaded the book right at 12AM June 4 :) great so far!

[@EveSieminski]

I had a lightning bolt in this interview. Your comment on how it fills and mutes your thinking process.... that is so incredibly poignant! I had friends show me things that I knew in the back of my mind I knew were true but threw the thought and friend away. That is what keeps JW active. Until you said this I hadn’t realized how much sharper my mind and thought process is now in all areas of my life. I am only out a year and a half so I am still awakening to all of this. Sadly I am 54 years old and my best years are behind me. Luckily I have my husband (we left together) and since we faded my parents and family but it’s a false front that I don’t feel good about. Like you I am 3rd generation and sadly I raised a fourth. I wish you all the best and loads of success on your book.

[@sofiamorgan6644]

Thank you for this interview! Ordering my book as soon as I finish watching this video!

[@shonaford9032]

Looking forward to hearing Amber’s story

[@victorhygge7418]

Amber you are adorable! The way you speak your thoughts is so refreshing and beautiful. I very much echo the sadness about believing and waking up and marriage etc etc. The higher education part was very motivating among other things about engagement etc. Thanks so much :)

[@bledback2life]

As an ex-JW (left in 2001, while still a teen, against my parents' wishes of course) who has experienced what it is like to have what was your world at the time cut you off entirely, it is heartwarming to see other ex-JWs speaking out about their experiences.

[@bledback2life]

JWs like to use the 'persecution mentality' - that they are 'banned' in countries like China - to justify that they are indeed God's true disciples, doing God's work and preaching The Truth.

[@bledback2life]

By the way, Amber, your Mandarin pronunciation is pretty spot on! (Mandarin is my second language.) FYI, I was born in Singapore, where JWs are banned - so growing up in a JW household in Singapore, going preaching and holding meetings and Bible study groups etc. under a shroud of secrecy, against a backdrop of persecution and prosecution, was quite an experience indeed. My parents remains orthodox JWs. They have friends who have moved to China to preach "The Truth". Perhaps you may even know some of them.

[@LCROSIER97]

Just finished her book in one day. Listened to her audiobook that she narrates. So so good. Hits hard as an exJW and I do appreciate how personal and vulnerable she got. I don’t often feel as understood as I did reading her story. Lovely and heart wrenching and beautiful.

[@keylani777]

I was raised in a split home of my mother being a witness and my father being a Lutheran. There was a lot of damage done emotionally, thinking my father & I might die in Armageddon... even though I went to meetings and was in the theocratic school, I wasn’t baptized. And also, I had this idea that my mother loved her religion more than me... because she made it aware to me that if I ever needed a blood transfusion, I would not receive one.

[@tamaraomalley4119]

That sounds pretty identical to my story. My mom became a JW 40 years ago, my father remained catholic. I was just born at that time, and so my mom raised me in this religion since birth. I had such fears of my father, my siblings and I, being destroyed at armageddon before I even started school. Such fears and anxieties at such a young age. I couldn't understand how my mom could be happy in paradise if her family had just been murdered. I left as a teen, unbaptized also, but I didn't truly escape the trauma and feelings of impending doom from having these sick beliefs instilled in me at such an impressionable age until many years later.

[@michaelevans205]

Missed this first time around. What a wonderful interview, fascinating! We disassociated just before the video was made. We've ordered the book 👍

[@kathelessley4813]

Thank you both so much for sharing...beautiful Amber!

[@omarseneriz5577]

Amazing book, once I got it I couldn’t put it down. Great way to explain to people what real life experiences could teach us...what real truth is. I am so sorry for al the things she had to go true to find her way, thank you for sharing.

[@EfrainRiveraJunior]

It's great to hear more and more people leaving this cult.

[@mellonlord4616]

Yay, so exciting. I pre-ordered it when I saw it on Mentally Diseased's channel. Can't wait for it to get here.

[@upmayo9741]

What a wonderful warm and engaging woman, this was such an interesting conversation and much appreciated.

[@saffronhammer7714]

my copy is in the post headed toward me, as I type. I am so looking forward to reading it.

[@c.t8958]

Great interview, Amber comes across as being such a nice person!

[@lorrainejakins6509]

Hi John. lovely interview. I feel sad though when I think how many Jw's come out for various reasons and are atheists because they feel that they have been betrayed by "religion" I pray that they realise that no one comes to the Lord unless the Holy Spirit draws him. So those who have no real belief or desire for God or Jesus now, I know it's a journey and that the Spirit will reveal the real truth if the person is really desiring and searching for the truth. its not of ourselves that anyone should boast. God bless all who are searching for the GOD of Truth. Lorraine

[@LloydEvans]

I'm sure praying about it will help about as much as most prayers do.

[@lostinspacepimo2969]

What a lovely sparkly lady. What a vibrant interview and interviewee.!!. Thanks guys. Very interesting as always.

[@lindaturner5929]

Loved the book So great to see Amber thriving. Also from Vancouver. We probably had people in common 🤷‍♀️

[@lindaturner5929]

So happy also that you got past the relationship w Jonathon. Also, great sadness over the loss of your beautiful child.

[@gayeestey7246]

Excellent! Thank you!

[@nicolasdantes]

Amazing episode!

[@DadInTaiwan]

This is a wonderful interview. I've lived in Taiwan for several years and I'm one of Amber's former podcast listeners, as well as an ex JW. At the time of her podcast I had no idea she was a Witness. Years later I found her story online, then ordered her book when it was published. She makes me happy just hearing her upbeat attitude, and her book is fascinating.

[@clintmcgregor6768]

Thank you for sharing your story Amber . I left the witnesses as a teenager and still am an outcast in my family .

[@cwoodswalker4646]

Great interview!! Thanks so much for sharing this. Will be getting the book for sure!!

[@lifeaftergod9668]

I'm looking forward to speaking to her on my podcast, too!

[@mrswonderful4880]

Wonderful video. I am looking into forming a nonprofit to house and help people who want to get out who have no support.

[@Lovealwayswins1]

Love love love your story Amber it’s inspiring and helpful on my journey.

[@shelleyfinch9697]

Wow wow wow... A few lightbulb moments here.

[@terjemyller6573]

What an amazing interview, story and ex-JW! And congrats with the scholarship, Amber! A side-comment, only: You touched upon the issue of state issued ban. This is often framed, as you did, as a question related to freedom of thought and religion. If there were no children involved, perhaps I would agree. JW among other cults should be banned because a ban thins out practitioners and by this protects children, plain and simple.

[@borjesuvinen8526]

Thank You for your book❣️❤️❤️❤️

[@maryannlockwood7806]

🇺🇸I agree with her because I have no problem conversing with people and getting them to talk about themselves. I enjoyed meeting new people and learning about their life. I think that came from being brought up in the JW cult.

[@charmainemarino4151]

This was a wonderful interview!!!

[@starkochmodig5815]

I didn´t have to hear from an outsider that this was a cult. Some elders in the congregation suggested that I buy the book of the history of the Jehovah's Witnesses (I don't remember the name of the book) and when I read the way Charles Taze Russell treated his wife it was the beginning of my awakening. It took me three years to escape the WT. There is no honorable way to leave the JW. One of the most traumatic experiences of my life. I was not prepared for the backlash. I am very happy that I survived that experience.