A message to the depressed (in honour of Chester Bennington)

I don't know Chester Bennington or the reasons for his suicide... I've just been a fan for so long and he was so important in my darkest times that... it's really hard to accept he's gone. As someone who went through depression, I wanted to make this video just in case I can help someone out there.
I know how hopeless it feels. I know what it's like to not want ANYTHING in life. So I'm making this video about some perspective rather than any promise of getting something in the future. I'm hoping if someone is depressed that they can at least see things from a different perspective, and maybe that will help them decide to fight through it, even if they don't feel up to it, or like they're not good enough and don't deserve it.
If you're new here... welcome, I've been meaning to make a lot more videos about this kind of topic, but my main channel is a gaming channel and I need to live, so that and my work is my focus. I'll do my best to get to this!
Here is the "How To Get Good" video list from that gaming channel, "Set Your Narrative" is one of the most popular if you want to start with that:
Use Your Anger: • How To Get Good - Use ...
Set Your Narrative: • How To Get Good - Set ...
Do It Naturally: • How To Get Good - Do I...
Play Raw: • How To Get Good - Play...
Breaking The Skill Ceiling: • How To Get Good - Brea...
Fun Not Rage: • How To Get Good - Fun ...
Pressure Situations: • How To Get Good - Pres...
Winning Mindset: • How To Get Good - Winn...
Shout out to Space Engine... I have no affiliation with the maker/s but it's pretty awesome just floating through space and checking out galaxies, planets and moons: spaceengine.org/
I made the music in the video... I wrote a lot of my novels listening to Chester on Krwlng (Crawling from the Reanimation album), so I guess I kind of wanted to say good bye with a song I made for one of my books... thanks, Chester, for all the inspiration and helping me get through my darkest times. Wish he could read that... and a lot of other things. This is why I wanted to avoid this video... knew it was going to wreck me emotionally. I'll be ok. I just hope it can help others out there.
Stay strong. Don't give up. You may not understand why yet, but if you fight long enough, one day you might. Wishing you all the best.
Linkin Park... love you guys.

[@WhyIDefy]

You guys are awesome with the encouragement... maybe I'm a bit too emotional right now, but I really wasn't sure how this would be received. I'm going to get some sleep, not sure this pain is going to go away any time soon... can't stress enough just how big a part of my life Linkin Park was in those times I needed them most. Huge loss. Feel for the family and all those close to him too. But that's the reason for the video. As I've said... I'm going to be ok, others may not be, so I had to at least try to send them a message. Even in tears, I'm still not broken. I will never give up or break. That's the mindset I hope I can get out there... the inner drive is so strong that even when we are at our worst, we are still ready to fight whatever tries to take us out. Those perspectives in the video are a big reason for that. There's more to it, so I'll keep going with these videos. I have to get reviews/work done this week, but I'll keep reading the comments even if I don't have time to reply to them all. Just know that I said thanks and really appreciate every word. Thanks to all, good luck and good night.

[@za7ch]

Zy, you're an amazing human. Thanks so much for sharing your feelings on this, it's a step in the direction towards further understanding of our human condition... of our shared sorrows and triumphs. Keep being you.

[@Argidiel]

Woah, thank you for effort.

[@miguelromana8019]

+Why I Defy 6:56-7:09 Exactly my toughts "I promised myself until I learned what I was missing, I was not allowed to end it". I have also struggled with it for 2 years and with similar thoughts, I was able to change my perspective and overcome it. With this videos, I'm even better. Ty so much, Zy, you are the best and you understand it very well.

[@MuriloBauerAYYLMAO]

Didn't expect this serious sort of content from you. Beautiful Video, Zy.

[@WhyIDefy]

Not going to lie, it was hard to make this, so I'm glad you liked it. Thanks!

[@Hirens.]

@@WhyIDefy We loved it!

[@RichardMalo26]

Zychology

[@NZyoutube]

PPPPPPPPPPHAAAAAAAAAHHHAAAAAAAAA

[@NZyoutube]

​@Keksmo Err......I was loling because of the 'zychology' comment. Did that laugh make me sound like a psychopath??

[@NZyoutube]

Err......I was loling because of the 'zychology' comment. Did that laugh make me sound like a psychopath??

[@bogomilpetkov5985]

You can recognize a quake player by the fact they hold the truth of the universe, Joke a side really loving your recent content,

[@WhyIDefy]

Sorry for not uploading more on this channel, I haven't forgotten about it I've just been extremely busy. I'm not monetizing this video for obvious reasons, but money is a reason I can't spend too much time working on videos for this channel. I'm human, have to live somehow. So the other channel and my work take priority. If there's enough interest (subscribers/viewers) on this channel, then I can start putting more time into it. I've been making "How To Get Good" videos on the other channel to at least show I'm still trying... and I'm still figuring out a good way to do this channel to make it easy, to the point and as helpful as possible. And I don't think me talking in front of a camera without a script is good enough for the message. Will try to make it more professional too. Anyway, thank you for the support, hopefully we see more videos on here soon. I've turned off the other videos that were on here while I figure things out. Take care.

[@popaalex1001]

Why I Defy I am from your other channel....and I knew it was about Chester,I knew it!!I felt it!!I loved him,but you made a nice video!!I couldn't belive what he did,but ....That's it!!I'm proud of you because you made this video!!Have a nice day

[@WhyIDefy]

Thanks Alex, you too!

[@Nightgaunt_01]

Why did you turned off the other videos? I was looking for them :(

[@rriot]

One of the best and honest KZbinrs, i love you man

[@WhyIDefy]

[@BadMawGame]

This is the first time that a KZbin video has reduced me to tears. And to believe it was by someone whom I watch for mouse reviews. Thank you immeasurably. This truly helped.

[@chakdeuk]

BadMawGame ZY YOU NEED TO SEE AND REPLY TO THIS COMMENT ASAP! IT IS SIMPLY A BEAUTIFUL COMMENT!

[@Stalast.]

I've been depressed for about 2 years and this is the similar to the reason why I've never never really thought seriously about suicide. My mother has gone through way more shit than I have, and has basically battled for my existence. It would be extremely selfish to end my life, making all of her efforts worthless. I'll never do it. I am still depressed, but not to the extent that I was. I have been trying to make a better person of myself. And for me that started off by going to the gym, with the aim of getting stronger. I enjoy the sense of achievement and progression that it provides. I hope to find other ways of improving myself, but it's hard to find the motivation. Anyway thanks for the video Zy, it's a great reminder for myself.

[@WhyIDefy]

That's cool and understandable... just keep at it. I think the more you learn about depression and its causes, the easier it's going to be to avoid the triggers, and someday just overcome them entirely.

[@xyzasdf]

Stalast glad for you man, hopefully you can continue to fight it off and overcome this!

[@Stalast.]

Thank you I appreciate it.

[@williamsundbaum6652]

I feel you, man. Even though I as of yet still have to go to the gym lol. But both you and I alike are dealing with depression to a lower extent.

[@Alix777.]

Exercice among other things is very effective to overcome depression. Of course it takes time. Antidepressants gave me visual disorder since 2 years which is called palinopsia/hppd , but I took them for only 1 week. Can't drink coffee, alcohol, can't gaming too much because it get worse. (blue light are bad for this disorder). Exercice, relaxation/sophrology, eating well, love my family and friends and be convinced that I would beat this was my cure.

[@MaitredeDieu]

Here is how i fight depression on a daily basis. Tell yourself : Nothing is definitive. Depression states come and go, just cry, breath, and wait for it to pass, sleep a lot. Once calmed down. Think of what's the worth. - Your options and ways make you sad ? They're not definitive. They're not the only options. A job ? A love ? Any choice ? You have other options. Let go of the old, find the new. Once in normal state, if you feel it comes back. - Write it, express it, tell it. Share. Love is the only thing that doubles when shared. Once coming back to a pre-depressive state like anxiety: - Don't divert, don't go drink, don't eat, don't play to forget. Be alone and let it go. Then contact others and do as usual. Anticipate, fix, live again. It's a constant fight but once you're used to a method. It'll be natural and you won't think of it as a burden as much as of now. Good luck :-)

[@joshdrolet6398]

Zy not only are you great at reviewing tech but at inspirational speaking thanks for your content :)

[@WhyIDefy]

Thanks for the encouragement!

[@dillylongwaves]

Yea I'm really curious. Do you know where you've gotten these speaking skills from, Zy? This video was awesome to listen to. Everything seemed to come straight from your mouth to my ears. So much clarity.

[@WhyIDefy]

Probably a combination of a lot of things... I've lived differently to most people for a long time now, so I'll use this channel to show what I've found has worked and explain why. Glad you liked it, thanks!

[@phyrexianvenom6529]

Hello Zy. I wanted to thank you for what you're doing. I'm fighting intense depression for 7 years, but I won't elaborate on it in depth since you got shit-ton of messages from others daily. Just wanted to say that you and your channels are helping me with this fight and maybe someday I will look in the past with a smirk on my face, knowing that I managed to maintain hope.

[@williamsundbaum6652]

As a kid with low self esteem and that's dealing with mild depression from time to time because of that low self esteem I've had since a younger age, this was encouraging :D I will keep trying to "fix" myself and may the poor souls that are dealing with worse things in their lives get out of whatever hole they are in. R.I.P Chester

[@davids.2511]

Thank you.

[@WhyIDefy]

[@ConvolkJT]

Chesters death has hit me hard, I loved linkin park, so i understand your pain. Thanks for then vids Zy

[@WhyIDefy]

Yeah I've been trying to pretend it never happened... hits hard when you build part of yourself on something. I guess that means some rebuilding has to happen, kind of like a wound healing. Thanks!

[@MrMirofl]

Great video man! ty edit: btw your 'how to get good' series is amazing! It helped me a lot! peace

[@WhyIDefy]

[@TrustyBag]

You're truly an amazing person dude. Besides having the best mouse reviews on the entire internet, you have a certain idea and grasp of the human life that very few people will ever be able to understand, and your ability to share this concept with others is the cherry on top.

[@AestheticShrine]

I really needed this. Thank you.

[@ErickWolfHart]

listening to this after a year again and thank you again clears my mind

[@antxiety]

thanks so much for this I've been through a lot of rough shit lately and have been depressed for the past week. locking myself in a room just doing nothing is all i did for the past 3 days i saw a tweet that you made linking to this video...this video helped thanks so much..

[@jobelthirty1294]

Ive been dealing with extreme anxiety since I was a small child after dealing with a harsh divorce between my parents. Seeing them fight meant I was never sure what would happen next. This started my fear of the unknown, the future. It still terrifies me to this day. It meant I was afraid of the dark, bumble bees, open ocean, heights, and people. Anything that could pose a risk. Ive been scared all the time for over a decade. without caffeine I have a constant shake in my hands and occasionally my eyebrows or even my eyes themselves. Depression insued because I was horribly sad that my fear never went away. I managed to hold myself back from suicide several times because my family wouldve been hurt too much by it. Ive been called a coward, wimp, pussy, so many times because my life consists of asking a million questions and backing away from any situation in which I could get hurt. Combine all that with constant bullying and its a real surprise to me that I havent killed myself. Sometimes this world was cruel to me, other times it seems to have given me some grace. If one day the fear could subside... Otherwise I have to keep pushing on. I have to get up in the morning and find motivation. I have to live my life no matter how terrifying it is to me, or Ill never have a steady job or income, or a home to live in. Im saying all of this because people like me shpuld be a reminder that no matter the background of a person, their personality, income, fame, or color of their skin, all mental or emotional problems deserve attention. The male suicide epidemic (4 times as many suicides as females) cannot be ignored any longer. Men need help, especially men who are expected to never show emotion.

[@ElectricNikkiGames]

This was awesome. Thank you for putting this out there.

[@ThePlantedTankTV]

Zy. You're a good man. I wouldn't say that I'm depressed. But I definitely haven't been happy for a long time. Not sure why. But sometimes I get more upset some days than others, and I do think about suicide sometimes. But I have never been able to even try because I don't want to hurt my family. Now I have a 1 year old daughter and a girlfriend I dearly love that loves me the same right back. I never thought about life the way you explained it in this video. I've added it to my watch later so that every time I'm feeling down I can watch it and remember how awesome I am and how awesome my family is and everyone else. I appreciate the time you took to create this video and I thank you! So glad I found your channel.

[@thomasodonoghue3239]

thanks i realy needed this

[@fai5734]

Thank you for making this video. It's vital more people openly discuss this. Depression is and has been an unwelcome visitor for a long time now, but it's worth fighting through those periods of time.

[@WhyIDefy]

Yeah, I can totally understand people wanting to avoid this... but we lose too many people to it. I don't know if I can ever change that, but I'm at least going to try.

[@LuiCodeco]

Zy, brazilian fan here. (sorry about my bad english) Thank you for your videos about life issues, I really enjoy watching and help me to improve my life.

[@lebeltoottoot9212]

I needed this.

[@KeitrenGraves]

This hit way to close to home. I'll spare the details but I've been going through so much. I honestly thought about suicide. This game me a whole new perspective on life. Made me really think. Thank you Zy. Truly thank you

[@paskowitz]

I've never really looked at depression from this perspective. Thanks for posting this video.

[@WhyIDefy]

Glad to hear it, thanks!

[@dikkevogel9970]

this is what i needed thanks for helping me recover

[@SpannerOfWar]

i would love more things like this on here dude thank you so much very inspirational.

[@splshow]

Oh my god, what a great video! You are an amazing human being, zy! Thank you for the video.

[@MikaelKKarlsson]

Expectations coming out of pure fantasy is certainly a trap that the human mind can easily to fall into, whether it concerns ones profession or life in general. It's worth remembering that sometimes it's good enough to keep on living.

[@TheLogicalBeast]

This is what I LOVE about you Zy...you/re like, the sensei I never had. The father figure I never had. My father was an angry, abusive, dominant figure who I lived with long enough and although we truced on my 26th birthday as we stopped living together years ago (I'm 28 now)...we hardly speak. Went Subway a few times, otherwise that was it, we just drifted apart again. And while my mother's nice enough to keep me off the streets given my chronic illness denying me work, she's an overzealous fool with diabetes and possibly Alzeimer's, making conversation next to impossible without arguments kicking off. Thus I learned to find comfort in the lonely abyss that is solitude, a good career is all I really need. Or so I tell myself, sometimes the abyss can get to even me especially without gaming/exercise to distract me. While I respectfully disagree with you about living for the next generation (e.g. don't feel like having a son who could get falsely accused of rape, or a daughter who could BE raped, this world is a pretty fucking nefarious place after all), you showed me a new perspective on reasons to live. That our ancestors fought so hard for us to survive. Me personally, my goal if I EVER beat my chronic illness is to have a solid career, and take it from there. Help some homeless people, perhaps leave behind a legacy for ALL to follow, set a good example and be better than all who have wronged me in the past. Otherwise? It's POSSIBLE to get things done, but excruciatingly difficult with the physical pain and sleep deprivation I have to tolerate every day, a real drag if you will. I can only hope someone pays this functional doctor for me or finds a cure so I can regain the zest for life I once had. Thank you for the "Get Good" series and this...were I really well off I'd feel compelled to make a one time large donation for your altruistic efforts along with a heartfelt shoutout. Take care.

[@subliminalmemories9323]

We understand the loss Zy, the band which I grew up listening to......... Its so much to handle.

[@murkky731]

All your encouragement and life help lessons on both channels are amazing. I really have needed to hear all of your messages. They've really helped me change my outlook and my perspective on life. Thank you Zy, you truly are an inspiration for me and so many more.

[@za7ch]

Thanks for sharing brother. Much love.

[@oliverwilson-hall4675]

As a fellow depression survivor this is really beautiful, I also can't believe that Chester is gone either, Linkin park were a huge part of my teen years though some really genuinely hard stuff I went though. So yeah, I get it. What's worse is my uncle who bought me my first Linkin park cd died last year from cancer. I hope you do more content like this, It's quite the contrast to the Tech side of things but great nevertheless.

[@tolleyt8270]

I'm not depressed but this is a nice thing to do :)

[@doommaker4000]

R.I.P. Chester. We will miss you forever. Fuck, your psychological content is so good, man. And no monetization. You have my greatest respect.

[@WhyIDefy]

Thanks! Yeah definitely no monetization. I almost felt bad even talking about this topic so close to it, would never want to gain from such a huge loss, especially one that hits me so personally... but as I've said, I'll be ok, others may not be, so I had to at least try to reach out to them, even I have to cry for the next few days just to let it out.

[@abestream5]

Beautiful video, this is a message our world needs right now.

[@Lilibunny]

Wow you really hit the point! Your video and words feel good. In the past and even nowadays, even you get the help you need, sometimes there is no help! When you are dead inside and broken even knowing how much people care and love you, but when you are so broken you think they are better off without you and want to release them! I've been there and it takes more guts to die then to live..... Everyone has a own opinion to this..... Help? How to help? Fill them up with meds, that's what the most doctors do..... I lost couple close people to suicide. They did it, because they were too broken to live. We shouldn't debate if it's right or not like many do. Because it's not. We rather should raise more help and prevention. There should be done so much more. Even more doctors are needed and other stuff..... Depression is something what people deny and try to talk down. It's a serious issue and illnesses. And for the future I really wish there were more people like you! I really do. People who really care and who really try to help and to talk. We don`t talk about suicide, depression and prevention enough at all. It`s always like this after a celebrity dies we scream out loud oh depression oh we need to do something….And then we are left alone again with our demons. Robin Williams, Chris Cornell and now Chester Bennington. I hope this was a wake up call for the World. We need more help for depression, more support….. Because depressive people are often too shy, too hurt or uncomfortable to speak out…. They feel misunderstood. So we fight often alone with our demons. Many people are saying alcohol and drugs lead to depression. NOPE it`s the other way round. Depression is not a feeling it`s a deep hurt, a deep hurting devil inside your brain and soul. It is a disease. Like Chester said, left alone, the other mean person inside us pulls us down. It`s so sad but sometimes there is no way out than leaving for good. I tried to kill myself when I was 16 I am glad I survived. But the demons are still here. Sometimes you are just a dead person in a body….. There is no glance in your eyes, smile is not real anymore it is but very seldom from the heart. You learn to live with it. Sometimes you are lucky to have people to talk to but most of the time you are alone because you think nobody really understands you! That's why I really wish more people like you in this world. The first real thing I've heard in a long time. Thank you! Sorry but I really had to pour out my heart now. If you came so far reading this, have a nice day.Take care and I wish you all the best. Everyone reading this your life matters!

[@WhyIDefy]

+Ljiljana Deluxe I read it all, thank you.

[@impulsive1252]

I don't know what it is, I just love listening you speak. Especially on the 'How to get good' videos.

[@nikitasorokin933]

Good points. You make me think another way and help me a lot. Thank you!

[@MulekeTrairao]

Zy, you literally made me cry with this video. Thank you for your insight on the subject.

[@pionergena]

Thank you for sharing your thoughts. It helps. Good luck in life. Be happy, everyone

[@MylesSharp]

Thank you for this I’ve been struggling recently and this spoke to me more then anything. Like from me buddy. I want to love life now

[@fluffycats2998]

Zy, as always, you help me and others get through the day and see things in another perspective. I have been fighting depression for a very long time now, and I finally feel like I am making headway with it, I am not totally free of it, but I am on my way to being free of it. I have shut out a lot of the "what if?" thoughts, and have been focusing on the "what do I want to accomplish?" thoughts, and working from there. I am working very hard to use my worries constructively in stead of destructively, shoring up my fears with action to address them. Sometimes it is as simple as literally answering your own questions in your head, and visualizing your next step to preparation, other times it is research, time with friends, working out, hiking (this has been a big one for me), even just driving for a little bit. Don't just sit there in your worries, work out your worries with action. Remind yourself what you HAVE accomplished, even the little things are important! Breathing exercises helped me greatly with my anxiety (I have constant anxiety), the simple start of 3 second inhale and 7 second exhale is enough to get the ball rolling! Don't overthink it, do it.

[@lVlonkeyman]

Sincere thanks for your video. Really helps me make the best of where I am in life right now and embrace my effort to turn it around. Looking forward to more videos.

[@cubyxdiamond812]

Man ..i belive this material ..this video ..is so GOOD and there are so many people including me ..that needed this so bad ..thank you

[@SolDeRofFoR7uNe]

I'm stunned zy your're so thoughtful. After watching your video i feel so much better not that i depressed that much yet it felt like it. You're one of my favorite youtubers i respect you so much for the way you think and the content you do. You have my full support for an eternity! You're amazing!

[@candlez5087]

Your videos really touch my heart

[@issar6396]

Thank you so much for this video! I never had thoughts of suicide even when I was really depressed because I found my own reasons why I shouldn't do it. I never thought about it how you did with the ancestors and I 100% agree with you. I am still not an overall happy person but this video really helped. I fought alone and found my own way to deal with depression and try to help others like you did now. Definitely do more of these.

[@MrJesseforsell]

Powerful stuff Zy. Thank you for sharing.

[@LegendBaal932]

this video was outstanding.

[@skye7205]

Thank you for sharing your wise words. It helps a lot. I hope you're okay as well.

[@WhyIDefy]

Thanks, hope same for you.

[@KindOldRaven]

To many I would be at least somewhat depressed, cynical and overly pessimistic. I can be fun at a party with friends, but I basically never look forward to anything, I almost never feel joyful anticipation or anything anymore. I see possible issues, problems and drama. I'm mostly ''flat'' emotionally in general. I wouldn't say I'm full on depressed, but I for sure am not truly happy either. I would never do something like commit suicide as I fear death above all and am fully convinced that there's always something worth living for. But having spent over a year literally not doing *anything* in the past, I think I can somewhat relate. I'm thankful I've still got my parents and a great girlfriend who can be supportive if I get stuck. Zy, I like how you produce motivating videos both in terms of your hobbies as well as on the more philosophical side as well. Keep it up man ;) Also: Rest In Piece, Chester. You and your band have opened up my mind to literally all kinds of music back when I was a teen, which in turn made me open minded towards other aspects of life as well, besides music. That's a gift I'm still grateful for...

[@WhyIDefy]

Always good to see you, Raven, glad to have you with me on this channel too!

[@KindOldRaven]

Haha Zy your fast responses still amaze me ;) I was unaware of this channel, but your content is consistently solid, so you've got an extra sub here as well!

[@WhyIDefy]

Special treatment for old friends. ;) Thanks for the sub! This channel is actually older than RJN... but I'm still trying to work out how I want to do it.

[@corruptbydesign8249]

Zy, thanks for the video. you are helping people who watch this, including me. my dad recently passed and i've been dealing with depression as well. thanks for the encouragement

[@WhyIDefy]

So sorry to hear about your dad... wishing you and your family all the best, glad this helped.

[@miguelromana8019]

6:56-7:09 Exactly my toughts "I promised myself until I learned what I was missing, I was not allowed to end it". I have also struggled with it and, with similar thoughts, I was able to change my perspective and with this videos, I'm even better. Ty so much, Zy, you are the best and you understand it very well.

[@smoloms]

I like watching a video that puts my thoughts into words. I can't really think of anything to say about depression. Ill come back when i think of something.

[@MaverickAndreTheB_tch]

Id like to see more on this channel. The way you speak and think is really uplifting. For example, you're so incredibly skilled at Quake but you'd rather make content for your channel then get prize pools. That's so admirable to me and my friends. So seeing this or any moment you talk more from your perspective, the more uplifted i feel. please make more on this channel, even occasionally

[@WhyIDefy]

Thanks for the encouragement, I usually keep this to myself so it's good to get this kind of response!

[@lailleq84]

Thanks Zy for the constant reminder I'll have next to me about our lives, our fights, our minds and ourselves. I'm glad I could make it out and I'm now giving all I have to help people around me understanding their positions in the world and what to do aobut that. I now have something to rely on. Every thing is okay, people are leaving, are coming in our lives, we need to adapt, accept the changes and get the best out of every situations, its about experiences and you understood it well.

[@WhyIDefy]

Glad to hear it, thanks! Best of luck.

[@idle404]

Zy, you're a great person, this video of yours reached people, and I'm quite sure it salvaged some lives. I enjoy all your videos, keep going.

[@jeremyl889]

I really want to thank you for making this video.. at least it helped lift me even if a little (out of expectations) But seriously it’s all thanks to your sincerity in the video that you made me question Life, and to continue fighting. Thanks a lot

[@antoniourielgamboa4518]

You're amazing Zy. Thank you for this. I needed this so much right now. Not just an excellent mouse reviewer, but also a beautiful human being. Again, thank you so much. God bless.

[@WhyIDefy]

Thanks, glad it helped!

[@nnrmnlg]

I would love to have more of these videos, your voice is really suiting for these types of videos and I really like your perspective on anything, same goes for those gaming mentalitiy videos. Great job like always

[@mateuszmozolewski5222]

I'm currently 16 and really depressed and I can't recall when it all started. I've been through a lot of bad things and could overcome them. Depression wasn't one of them. I actually didn't know how to deal with it and don't know even now. I'm seeking therapy and hope for the best. Videos like this really help and I'd really like to thank you for it. I'm also curious how you overcame it.

[@WhyIDefy]

+Mateusz Mozolewski I will explain it all on this channel... as soon as I get the time to do it. Glad you're here, it will inspire me to work harder.

[@tohidalipour3511]

I still can't believe he's gone. Linkin Park has a special place in my life too, specially in my high school years. He truly was our voice and touched our lives. He had a huge impact on the music I listen to now, the books I read and to a large degree the person I am today. For that I will always be grateful for the band and that's why Chester's death hit me so hard.

[@xTheDeserter]

Great Video Zy. Youre not just a great quake player but also, whats way more important, a great person.

[@WhyIDefy]

[@edhiett]

So well said, wow, genuinely uplifting and inspiring, thank you! Looking forward to more content from this channel!

[@impulsive1252]

This made me think of this great quote I saw in twitter recently. It said: Suicide doesn't stop the pain. It packs it into a grenade and throws it at your loved ones.

[@Alix777.]

Very inspirational video, ty. I overcome that shit too, I am a better version of myself now, that was a necessary evil. Life is amazing

[@memskez]

Great video zy! Didn't expect this sort of content out of you, pleasantly surprised. Please do some more as you can!

[@WhyIDefy]

Glad you liked it, will see what I can do. Thanks!

[@krenzzie7290]

Thank you for this, you have no idea how much you helped me with this, a whole new chapter in life had started for me recently and for a solid period of time it seemed like an unclimbable cliff, you gave me motivation to start doing those things, together with Linkin Park. It made me want to absolutely own all of those things, and I will devote my efforts into doing those things. The thing I'm referring to is highschool (starts @ 15 here), not for the reasons you might think at first, I always got good grades in primary school and it was all normal and stable and I felt good in life for the last 3 years in my new primary school and with my new amazing friends, it was by far the most defining chapter of my life for me yet. But everything right now just seems to be on a whole different level of me not understanding and everything seems so out of place, and the start was chaotic as well, not knowing what to do/where/how etc. and the whole coronavirus situation didn't help either, last 3 months of primary were essentially just online, it was torture for everyone, and the potential that it'll happen this year as well keeps haunting me. The thought of my 2 best friends helped me a lot as well, the fact I'll get to go out for a walk and have a talk with them and hug them again despite all the temporary hard stress that is hitting me at the moment, all these things, new school, new people, new system, pandemic, potentially online school, thinking about what I'll do in the future, what will even happen, am I doing this right.....? It really sucked for a moment, all that combined is really stressful. You gave me the first step of getting out of a slump and it was the hardest one, and I've always thought you're a great person as well just by hearing you speak on your main channel and conversations on your Discord server. You have really helped me a lot with this and gave me motivation, and once again, *thank you.*

[@WhyIDefy]

Glad to hear that, just keep going, keep finding answers. Even when you get things wrong or make mistakes, keep moving forward. No one has all the answers. No one is perfect. So it's ok to just keep doing what you can in each moment. Wish you the best, good luck!

[@8mb93]

Thank you so much for making video on this serious topic. I remember Chester mentioning how his mind is a scary place and I relate to that, stuck inside own thoughts. Sometimes our brain is wrong not always our brain is right. We should take it as a machine and allow it to dysfunction like a machine does but never ever stop maintaining it. Times suddenly get hard and when the issue is a very very small issue or not even a 'issue' my brain like to play a pyschological drama which is tiring to me. It wants to put me down but there's a real me who believes that this shall pass too. We will get there. It's good to know you have gotten out from that dark place. We can too. We will too.

[@d-rabbitfor5398]

This video has the strongest message I've witnessed in a long time, and the last thing I did was listening to Architects' "all our gods have abandoned us" which is bursting with songs with deep message. You are a specialist when it comes to mice and my first choice when it comes to computer periphery zy, but I really didn't know you are this refined in your thoughts about darker things like depression and suicide. Truly a youtuber to admire. Stay strong guys. Rip Chester. (Sry for bad English not my native tongue) Edit: subbed, I hope you can do more emotional videos like this one.

[@joaquintamayo3126]

D-Rabbit for Go fuck yourself

[@joaquintamayo3126]

D-Rabbit for fuck you and your account you moron

[@layla7539]

I knew you'd be amazing at this type of stuff (talking about it). Respect man

[@WhyIDefy]

Good to hear.

[@SwaggyNori]

started watching your videos 3 hours ago and you are already my favorit youtuber! great thoughts and a big talent with the gaming related videos you post! Thanks for the great content already love your main channel, keep up the great work!

[@pacothetaco8420]

Thank you. I subscribed to rocket jump ninja a long time ago on several different accounts it has always been a channel i looked forward to seeing. Never would i ever think i would get so much more out of your videos. I have lost so much due to depression and have been fighting it for years but the the things you say let me think about everything differently and makes it easier to deal with it. You probably wont read all this but hey im just glad to know about you so i wanted to show some appreciation. Thanks Zy :)

[@vlycop7404]

So, This was nice from you to do. It really didn't make me rethink because i have already think of all of this. But i'm weird and i'm struggling with much more than feeling issue. But when i see all of the positive reply, i think you really need to be thank's. you didn't needed to do it, but you did. Your a nice guy

[@Science4Ever]

Zy, i love your mindset!

[@sydhergy]

I dont know if I am depressed or not, because I don't really talk to people, I'm usually alone because then I feel myself better and sometimes I just randomly feel sad. But this video is just awesome, I really liked that you talked about things like that and I hope that it helps many people. You are such an awesome person Zy, keep it up!

[@johnxtech]

Zy, i just want to say this video has definitely pulled me out of a dark place. i really thank you for this video.

[@Willbatross_]

You should definitely do more of this sort of stuff, I'm not depressed but still found this incredibly inspiring. That no matter how shit life seems or gets I should keep fighting. Thank you Zy

[@Hirens.]

Omg! Your work is great!!

[@lakshyaraw]

Great video Zy you really are a great mature and logical person I am not depressed but this kinds of videos help us grow intellectually and gives us an idea on how to help others Thanks.

[@tempo_gg6106]

Zy, thank you for making this video. This video was so inspirational and so true to me personally. I was their once as well. All thosechemotherapeutic sessions, on top of the continuous harassment of others that said I was pathetic and weak. But I realised I wasn't myself. I had become a creature that was so selfish in thinking I could end it all with a simple tug of a cord. But my mother and father worked so hard for my existence, travelling in a small illegal people smuggling boat so that I didn't have to deal with the terrible nation and wars that raged throughout it. I realised, this world worked with one sovery simple mechanic. An eye for an eye. When times are tough, there will be rays of hope that will shield you in rough times. I hope I don't sound too cliche, but please. Realise that there is always, always an eye for an eye. The Horus is my symbol. What's yours?

[@WhyIDefy]

Hey cyo! Good to hear you go out of the wars. Can't say I have a symbol though!

[@likerusmetalgaming5342]

Thank you

[@Acatwithdeepthoughts]

Loved the video, the last bit about chester living on through his kids reminded me a lot of steve irwins son robert irwin carrying on his legacy. keep up the great content zy, catch you in the next vid

[@T3hMillion]

You are a great guy Zy.

[@tanilitantan]

You make really good content my friend

[@AlexOxygen]

Rest in peace to Byron "Reckful" Bernstein

[@aynojs]

My depression kicked off real hard around 15. I started noticing around 13-14 growing more aware of how bad it was getting and seeing how less likely I was able to do something about it without feeling frustrated and stuck. I've learned to live with it, currently in my 20s. I dropped out my first year of highschool and I haven't done anything but stay in my room for maybe 5 or so years, no job still no Sofia skills or GED. I used to draw, make music, been like a year since I put anything on SoundCloud, I don't even know who I am or how I used to be, I'm very aware of it and I'm open about my depression to friends (even though I barely talk to them but they've been around and got me back into music till my motivation sunk) Every day I'm constantly talking to myself in my head, seeing how I could work around this mental barrier. Sure, I'm more calm now, more wise I guess knowing I've helped a lot of friends with some advice here and there. It's not that I'm afraid to die, it's that I'm afraid of committing suicide before I'm 30, before I even succeed at anything. I really want to delete this comment, but I might as well get started somewhere.

[@WhyIDefy]

+Angelita don't delete it... we need more people being open like this. I hope you can start expressing creativity again. Some say we have to learn who we are... I think we have to create ourselves. You're creative, that's part of who you are, so keep on creating.

[@Cernii]

beautiful video

[@KokosnootHD]

Great video man! hope you will make more of these kind of videos! ;)

[@WhyIDefy]

I will, thanks!

[@Bachtobean]

Very interesting. I beat my depression a while ago, but I'll remember what you said here if it comes back.

[@pheonix7543]

Great video! I absolutely love Linkin park and i think it's really cool that you like them too. What i've learnt from feeling down is you just gotta hang in there. Thanks for the awesome video.

[@flava4u523]

The mind sometimes is uncontrollable! But I understand what your stating thank you.. depression is a darkness.

[@cfjlkfsjf]

It still feels weird to me that he killed himself, grew up listening to LP! As a person who suffers depression i can totally get him and why he did this, i was on suicide watch back in Feb of this year. Last time i was torn away from a celeb death was Robin Williams. Goodbye Chester!

[@Kipzy]

thanks zy...u help me alots 😢😢😢

[@ArgentumHeart]

Thank you. I'm sorry that I cant say more. Just thank you