a self-identity crisis

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[@LegalEagle]

I think I speak for everyone when I say: We missed you and welcome back.

[@hellafly3321]

There he goes, speaking straight facts as usual.

[@aishwarideshkar638]

Totally

[@trish8839]

Seconded! This has made my day off 🥰

[@username9068]

I didn’t miss him

[@alexandrazimmer1317]

When has LegalEagle ever lied to us

[@Charlotte-ji3vl]

why do I imagine you waking up in the middle of the night and going "omg im like actually like properly gay"

[@EveCornwellChannel]

HAHAHAHAHA

[@______yawn6419]

@@EveCornwellChannel enjoy ur new and introspected life * making subscriber noise *

[@rachelorr4426]

That is no joke what happened to me, I was in the bath and I just went huh I like women, cool, let's deal with that later. And then I didn't do anything about it for like 6 years lol

[@Meg_intheclouds]

This was basically me. I had a... dream about a girl and woke up like “that makes a lot of sense” 😂. Tho the giveaway should have been when I told a girl “if I was a lesbian I would” In response to being asked if I would date this girl (who I defo had a crush on) in year 9. It took till like the middle of lockdown about 2/3 years later to be like “yeah I’m gay”

[@nikkirabon1829]

@@rachelorr4426 Fucking, me 😂

[@jimmyquincy7846]

"and I now have a girlfriend" my applauses heard the whole neighbourhood

[@channaduine9361]

I guess my gaydar wasn’t broken after all

[@sumayamire4809]

HAHAHAHA FAX

[@dane6928]

Same thoughts!

[@katarina4300]

no but actually i couldnt put my finger on why exactly i was so invested in eve's videos but this explains it allll

[@charletslife1872]

Ahahaha samee

[@frostyskeletons8950]

I’m laughing because I watch her off and on when she ends up in my recommended and had no idea she WASN’T gay until this video. (I’m subscribing now, please don’t yell at me)

[@jack_edwards]

COMEBACK QUEEN 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼

[@lakedistrictlibrary9391]

we STAN the supportive energy 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼

[@srushtikaushik806]

Yayy!!!!❤️

[@arvs_17_]

I was just watching your videos haha...i'm 100% in love with you

[@amaelriesterer1421]

Long live the Queen!

[@helenadurst5993]

and COMEOUT QUEEN :D

[@RubyGranger8]

I cannot tell you how happy I was to see this on my subscription feed -- and how excited I am for your content this year -- and how well articulated this video is 💫

[@annamay4403]

Ruby! Ilysm! ❤️

[@linazeitoun3156]

Me too!!!

[@YouTube]

It's good to have you back 💜

[@sourandcream]

why are you here?

[@alexandergoodwin-elam6996]

Girl go back to demonetizing people 🙄

[@lolritz9880]

Yup sis you aren’t invited to this party

[@juanmoliner6667]

POV you’re here from eves story

[@chickenpiie5028]

Why? I have never seen y'all comment on any other video, why this one? (I don't mean that in a mean way, I'm genuinely confused)

[@tianna215]

omg you’re gonna be that stereotypical gay rich aunty lawyer now!

[@lesbiangoddess290]

That's me in the future ngl

[@neerjadudeja4838]

HAHAHAHA

[@tianna215]

@@lesbiangoddess290 manifesting!

[@mikesmic]

hey bestie great vid and thanks for keeping an eye out for Selener xx

[@anammmio]

wowza

[@faithjennings5876]

We worship mikes mic in this household 😌

[@hanlitwin]

Mr Michael’s Microphone

[@anyarobson4987]

bestie vibes only

[@mewmewmew2000]

This is a Mic Wazowski stan account

[@el4121]

“actually i do know, better than the uk” laughs in american

[@douglasbaker9663]

Laughs in Floridian

[@dounyamohamedsalim8010]

*Cries in french*

[@dreamcatcherrs]

Nods in kiwi

[@langaga1360]

coughs in british

[@nicolydandara9753]

Shouts in Brazilian

[@charlotteerika2455]

"I have known...for a very long time....that I am not straight...." haven't we all luv xxxxx

[@Katherout]

KEEPING AN EYE OUT FOR SELENUR i can’t. welcome back queen

[@waterfirelord]

Save the QUEEN.

[@aaliyahpatel2819]

My new life motto: “ you’re already better for wanting to be better”

[@caroliinalopes]

The audio is from Miles Carter, he has a channel as well, I LOVE his videos

[@smallfung1994]

the lie i tell myself day after day

[@julieannelovesbooks]

I heard that and I almost started to cry. (having a rough day)

[@aaliyahpatel2819]

@@julieannelovesbooks aw hope u feel better soon. These kinda days suck. Sending you big hugs and positivity and know you’re not alone xxx🥰

[@julieannelovesbooks]

@@aaliyahpatel2819 aawhhh thankyou ❤️ just the covid blues and being stuck inside with my family for the past year.

[@thodasona]

“see you all very very soon” i really missed hearing that.

[@cherrypie6163]

she's GLOWING this brunette hair, this look, everything is CHEF KISS

[@cherrypie6163]

@@madeleine1536 the dimuntive of Brun/ brunette can actually vary from light brown, brown, dark hair...

[@kazakukog]

pale ppl with dark eyes and dark hair 😙👌

[@itschesta]

not me crying when she started to talk about her sexuality. Felt that.

[@sakshi2471997]

as someone who also came in terms with their sexuality during this lockdown : i felt this video

[@waterfirelord]

That everybody right now. They are finding themselves this whole time with this pandemic.

[@millicent9235]

sameee

[@SwiftlyCarnage]

tbh I'm still coming to terms with it ahaha, figuring out you're not fully straight is kind of a scary thought to me tbh, as women are INTIMIDATING

[@emschlef]

Started quarantine a bi cis woman in a LTR with a man, ended it as a single nonbinary lesbian 😅

[@dreamingofthemoon]

Me lmao

[@thatcoffee]

SHE IS BACK LADIES AND GENTLEMEN

[@aimeemcdonald1581]

& non-binary people :)

[@cs836]

@@magicalgibus3006 you're gross

[@iamacat9265]

7:25 "you weren't expecting this video to turn into that direction, did you?" idk i saw the thumbnail and i kinda felt it

[@AshleyLoraAnderson]

So what I'm getting from this comments sections is that nobody's countries have handled covid all that well

[@juanarocha8629]

Its a mess

[@kylierae3156]

Mine did! (New Zealand)

[@Monika-wo7nd]

True Czechia was worse than UK I think...I mean 70% of my class were infected😅

[@dreamingofthemoon]

@@kylierae3156 im literally so jealous

[@juanmoliner6667]

EVE HAS A GIRLFRIEND im so proud of u x

[@miastevens3101]

You literally just put into words EXACTLY how I felt when I knew I wasn’t straight... I wish I had seen this video at the time... I think it will help a lot of people also questioning. Thank you for putting it into words.

[@niamhnolan5797]

Definitely agree

[@godav1505]

Oh yes. This is hitting directly in the feels and actually explains why I distance myself from the relationship aspect of life. I low-key love it but also hate the fact that she reminded me of it :D

[@alanamarie4363]

As a closeted bisexual I cannot tell you how much this video put a smile on my face - it’s honestly made me so happy that somebody who I’ve watched for years is a little bit like me

[@piggielife]

"Maybe you weren't expecting the video to go in that direction" gurl there's a rainbow in the thumbnail =(( Congrats btw!!! And welcome back!

[@shaylajoshi3731]

YES YES YES she comes back stronger than a 90s trend

[@emiloberg2110]

and now she has her own 'love story' as well!

[@rasigadhanya8952]

Hey there swiftie!!

[@TaraMooknee]

WE HAVE BEEN BLESSED

[@CarlaGReads]

IS THE COW ALSO HAPPY THAT EVE IS BACK?? Will she make an appearance now??? 😂

[@whaleboy2287]

Will the cow ever be sated

[@miracleminty]

I love it when my fav's interact with each other

[@lucymoon]

YAY happy for u

[@shelleytong3845]

eve comes back stronger than a 90s trend

[@RosaDaniello]

"Busy is just personal prioritization of time" is the most relatable thing I read in a while. Missed you 💖

[@ebrub39]

3:50 “I don’t think I ever slept, I was always just like keeping an eye out for Selenerrr” EVEEEE HAHAHAHAHAHAH

[@jasminknock]

This made me cackle 😂😂

[@imanibabatunde3015]

That Nikki reference goes hard ngl

[@Carla_1234]

can someone explain who Selener is?

[@daiishi_kinyoubi]

@@Carla_1234 i think it is the moon

[@charliejudes]

"I bet you didn't see this coming" Actually Eve I was expecting this conversation when I opened this video lmao. Welcome back queen!

[@Maria-nd8dy]

I loved the sparkle in your eyes when you mentioned your girlfriend, she must really be something special

[@honeyandbutter1]

she’s posted her on twitter and insta before 😌😌

[@erinlong2872]

“It was dealt better than the UK” *laughs in American*

[@aronbartal]

Laufhes harder in Slovakian (we still don't have a plan and things literally change from one day to another then back)

[@matiasvegazurita818]

@@aronbartal Laughs even harder in latinamerican (help, I want to get out of here)

[@daniyaparvez502]

laughs in indian

[@tatianarousse9781]

Laughs in Lebanese.

[@kubajurka]

*laughs in Czech*

[@sullyr9789]

You my dear gal are influencing an entire generation of law students, myself included! You’re showing us that law is no longer this mundane boring stiff upper lip job and I OWE YOU EVERYTHING FOR IT💕❤️

[@sannebotmar4798]

my gaydar: IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS ONE..TURN IT UP!!

[@madesquire2796]

"Keeping an eye out for Selener" - SAME

[@samashakti]

“Catch up with mates an recharge” is a hilarious statement to an introvert

[@convoswithkara]

as someone who came to terms with my sexuality during lockdown, this spoke to me so much ❤️ bloody excited that you're back, eve!!

[@emily280596]

Didn’t realise how much I needed someone to articulate what it has been like to be an extrovert in lockdown, thank you for putting my experience into words

[@xilmes]

“actually i do know, better than the uk” cries in Brazilian

[@kaiafie]

i suspected you werent straight when you posted a pic on a date covering a street sign so it spelt your name. could easily be wrong but for some reason i was like she cant be on a date with a man lmao

[@chillstudy8223]

How does that make any sense?

[@kaiafie]

@@chillstudy8223 it's not that deep it was literally just something that made sense to me.

[@JaneDoe21238]

Omg I know exactly what you’re referencing and I felt the same way 💀

[@chillstudy8223]

@@kaiafie if u say so but I never said it was deep. Dang take ur own advice ei literally asked a question and ur getting triggered. U must be fun at parties.

[@heatherflorence124]

no same I know exactly what you mean

[@CookieMunstaaa]

It's embarrassing how many times I have checked for missed uploads. It's good to see you lovey! ❤️

[@daiishi_kinyoubi]

Same

[@Cocotulips]

You’ve just articulated EXACTLY how I’ve felt this past year. So glad you’re back and lovely to hear you’ve found yourself and love 💕

[@weronikaryfka3088]

ENTP... the stereotype is that they love to debate... you're a lawyer... sounds about right :) You're so beautiful btw !

[@angiecheung4811]

ANYBODY REMEMBERED WHEN SHE POSTED SOME PICS WITH "dO yOu LiStEn To GiRl In ReD" on Twitter that was goalssss

[@JaneDoe21238]

“It was dealt better than the UK” Me: *living in the US* 👁👃👁

[@JaneDoe21238]

@Ane Calvo thank you so much! I hope you and your family are well, too!

[@laeldow2001]

i missed your videos sm! this couldn’t have come at a better time either. i’ve been struggling so much with self identity later and seeing someone else struggle the same way makes me feel so much less alone

[@katelynbolton6840]

I have never seen you more confident and you are so sure of who you are ITS AMAZING

[@bluuebye1991]

11 minutes of you just chatting with us is really what i needed tysm

[@pratishalenka911]

You are back with a bang, and you are more strong and powerful after the discoveries that you made about yourself and I'm happy that you are happy and I'm glad that you are back.

[@amalachukwuasuzu1898]

I'm so happy that I watched this video. I'm literally about to cry. Everything you just described is exactly how I feel and have been feeling for this entire year of the Covid era. I honestly thought I was the only one that felt like this. I am so happy you spoke on how you were feeling. That is so brave.

[@rebeccabowen3754]

Eve, you've always inspired me. I'm so happy you're okay, and we love you

[@marcelajones5256]

i was watching a story from your instagram last week and i was thinking “when is she coming back😭😭” cause you are one of my faves

[@leo-uw3ph]

missed you eve! happy for you that you’re learning about yourself and accepting who you are

[@jessily0425]

The level of excitement I had when this popped up in my subscriptions was SO HIGH and it only got astronomically higher when you started talking about coming out.

[@officiallekz]

you honestly couldn't have described it better, feels the same as my awakening. Proud of you eve!!

[@notavailable2527]

everything about you is literally so CHARMING you’re so CHARMING

[@friedricecakes]

I always return back to your channel because I feel a deep connection to the way you present your content and articulate sentiments, especially when it comes to work and now with you expressing your acceptance of your sexuality in this video. I think this ties back to people saying how the pandemic has given the room for people to not think about gender performance and led them to learn about and accept themselves. It’s great to hear that you and many other people (including myself) have been able to do that! I wish you the best, and I’m looking forward to your next video :)

[@joodeatsfood]

I subscribed like 30 seconds into this video bc the editing was impeccable. Haven’t even watched the full thing yet and can already tell you’re a genuine and kindhearted person 💗

[@Savthenomad]

"I cannot stop myself any longer from being happy" omg this is this video i needed. Glad to see you back :)

[@AnaFox]

It was kinda hard to hear the part about feeling lost when not having a purpose and therefore not really feeling like getting out of bed. I've been struggling with that for a couple of years now, I've started therapy, didn't really stick with it. The pandemic forced me to live permanently in my own self-inflicted isolated reality in a much more restrictive, anxiety-ridden way. So I'm taking everything more seriously now and I can only hope that the effort will lead somewhere different. I'm sure it's better than doing nothing about it.

[@GallifreyanCat]

That definitely sounds like a good idea and perhaps the only way to get through lethargic moods! I hope you feel better :) But don't be hard on yourself if you don't, it's not your or anyone's fault ❤️

[@AnaFox]

@@GallifreyanCat thank you xx

[@frostyskeletons8950]

I hope you’re doing well. I was in a similar place for most of quarantine and before as I lived alone for 3 years. I found being creative was really helpful for me. I picked up painting and gentle exercise. It was really fulfilling to get up, exercise, shower, and then create until dinner. It was great and I’m not even a “good” artist. That helped me gain confidence and start doing other activities. I hope you’re able to find a flow that helps you ❤️

[@harleyquiinnnn]

maybe also invest time into finding a therapist that really works for you. it really makes a difference for me

[@alycigelnik3231]

“Actually I do know, better than the UK” we failed to convict our white supremacist president two times in one year, we cannot even handle making dinner let alone the pandemic

[@supermannnblablabla]

Who is the white supremacist president?

[@fahmida5628]

@@supermannnblablabla donald trump

[@supermannnblablabla]

@@fahmida5628 Oh i thought they were talking about a UK prime minister

[@fahmida5628]

@@supermannnblablabla i see what you mean dw it could kind of confuse you bc at first i wass too but the person said president so i clocked on they were american bc we dont have a president

[@ohwellwhateverr]

Because there was no logical basis on which to convict him? Isn't this the same "white supremacist" president who oversaw unemployment rates among POC reach a historic low, who brokered peace deals between Israel and Palestine, whose criminal justice reform included the First Step Act (under which, 3000 inmates, 91% of them black, had their sentences reduced or quashed altogether), and who rightly condemned the destruction of black-owned businesses and homes during the BLM riots. Meanwhile Biden gaslights black voters into voting for him lest they be "not really black", pushes critical race theory (a neo-racist ideology) into universities, schools and corporations, supports segregation ("white spaces" and "BIPOC spaces"), while Harris has actively contributed to mass incarceration and the harsh and heavy-handed treatment of black prison inmates in particular. I wouldn't trust YOU to handle making dinner when you're so blind to the full picture.

[@morganvanhoeke3023]

I'm so glad you're back- I've been following your journey for a little while now and seeing your instagram story that you'd posted a video.. I'd never rushed so fast. Thank you for being true to yourself :)

[@jo6513]

thank you for talking about your struggles and experiences, it gave me a lot of food for thought

[@shaffshenton]

The dark hair and eyebrows is sooooo beautiful on you, i love it. We had a very similar 2020 in terms of mood, I’m still in the middle of it as well

[@samanthagiraffe3088]

The part about extroverts really hit hard, I've been feeling a lot of similar things and it feels like it surgically removed my motivation and my happiness

[@naomilouise5978]

Honestly so proud of you for coming out and saying this because I know that I have missed your videos so much and honestly this makes you even more iconic. Period.

[@amenibouabdallah8128]

I really have never forgotten u, I seriously look after your videos like once or twice a week lol

[@emilydurkee8664]

I was blond naturally my whole life, and I dyed it brown a month ago and I feel so much more powerful. It's wonderful.

[@hannahwallis1290]

I recently came out as asexual and aromantic, so this made me feel really impowered xx much love to you eve ❤️❤️

[@MG-gu7fu]

Same!

[@hannahwallis1290]

@@MG-gu7fu oh wow! Small world!

[@SprinkleBooks17]

I cannot tell you how happy I am to be here again. I've rewatched every video of yours at least 3x in the past 7 months to feel something

[@Latbirget]

Welcome back! Your video on collecting your computer in the pandemic about a week before lockdown was when I realised how serious the situation was. I live in Norfolk and although I was aware things were different seeing how empty London and the tubes were on your video genuinely shocked me. When I went to work I could tell they were not really aware of what things were really like.

[@Yuyu99000]

Eve! I’m so glad you’re back, I was just thinking about you! Lots of love hun,you’re glowing 💚

[@izzycoward2057]

Don't mind me watching the whole adverts jus cos our queen deserves it x

[@faifto6626]

when you started talking about accepting yourself and your sexuality i legit teared up ive been struggling with my own identity and sexuality for a long time and felt very scared and isolated especially since i come from a very heteronormative and homophobic place,, thank you for talking about this on your channel it made me feel less alone thank you thank you thank you

[@MahamMian]

girl i'm so very proud of you! love youu

[@luzielerocha]

"actually i do know, better than the uk" ma'am i'm brazilian........

[@AshleyLoraAnderson]

I was literally just telling my friends about your videos the other day and how I want you to make content again. Welcome back!

[@5secsofspainx]

i’m so happy for you eve x

[@liawow6853]

i couldn't stop smiling the whole video! you are actually my fav content creator (and fellow entp) and im soooo excited to see how this works, im glad to see you so happy!

[@gotjams5800]

Hi Eve, I'm super glad you're back! I really needed this video. I've always been called the straightest person ever, and I never really questioned it because that was the "running gag" in my friend group. But I've also felt very strongly for other girls at times, whether they're celebrities, fictional characters, or friends/IRL people. I shrugged it off as me having strong platonic bonds or needing external validation/attachment, or even living vicariously through someone (if they were famous or fictional). It wasn't until I met a girl in my fiction class that I felt (what I think was) romantic feelings for another girl. They were lesbian, and talked to me about their experiences dating other girls. After months of talking to them, I seriously considered asking them out. But I kept telling myself that I was straight and it wouldn't be right to "queerbait" just because I'm bi-curious. During the pandemic, I've come to really question my sexuality, and I'm beginning to feel more open to expressing attraction to other women. However, I fear that this might all be a phase because I don't really feel the same things I do when I find men attractive. I don't like anyone romantically at the moment, but I'm so worried I'm going to lead someone on when I do because I'm not sure of myself.

[@avocado1998]

Hey I feel similar, I feel something different towards girls than to boys and I don't understand what the feeling is. Hope we both work it out ❤️

[@lelie5402]

Love to have you back! self identity is such a massive struggle

[@tiafayed7545]

i love you so much and I'm so glad you're back!!! happy to be back in this safe space and lemme just say that i am SOO proud of you for coming to terms with who you are. Here rooting for you and supporting you always!!!!!

[@unimoon3862]

Eve, I cannot express how proud I am of you. You are such a huge inspiration and I have been here for a long time and I’M SO HAPPY YOU ARE BACK AHH. Can’t wait to see what’s to come 🥰

[@nicholasjohnston3429]

I’m a gay law student. I loved you and your content even before this video. I’m so happy for you, you’re such an inspiration to me ❤️

[@theomurray851]

This video is literally like having my internal monologue played back to me, is scarily similar

[@thatdavidsonguy]

Wow, thank god you’re back! Someone who has the ability to verbally speak the thoughts that have been twirling around in my head for the last year!

[@henrymccafferty4025]

i subscribed to u two days ago for ur law content and was so sad to see u were inactive, and now ur back! i'm too excited

[@anaperez6567]

“Keeping an eye out for Selener” I died

[@mollieluisa]

I'm obsessed with the direction this video took :) Welcome back Eve!

[@jannekevandenberg1119]

I literally checked ur channel every week to see if u updated and see if I just missed it, I am so proud of u and discovering urself❤️

[@davidbrennan3046]

its the little things like this that make me happy

[@raerae6364]

You are an incredible human, Eve Cornwell. Keep doing what you do, can't wait to see more of your journey. From a fellow trainee solicitor! ❤️

[@IsabellaBoyne]

When you said you weren't going to stop yourself any longer from being happy I almost cried 💞

[@kiyajade98]

Missed your videos, welcome back! Also I’m so proud and happy for you, you are absolutely glowing❤️

[@harleyquiinnnn]

I just quickly want to say this video caused me to realize that i also never was giving my full self to people and that I'm keeping myself away from my own happiness. You have impact, thank you

[@amyukulele]

SHE’S BACK i have missed u sm

[@hannahmathilda7101]

Eve, I feel the exact same way as you, and I’ve only just started to process this as well 😌 Hang in there, I love your presence

[@beckypollock44]

I just want to say that you're loved and supported and this whole community you're created is here for you. x

[@user-yt9ge3ry1f]

so proud of you eve! 🤍