a silly desire to save our precious world

Stream of consciousness. I don't exactly know how this will be received, it is quite long and rambly. I wanted to communicate some of my thoughts as honestly and raw as possible. Some of these insights are new, others are recited from previous elucidations. I belive the universe is one, than #nonduality is fundamental, and yet language is always falling short of what is... When trying to get a sense for the world, #mentalhealth is so important on our journeys of #personalgrowth and #selfimprovement . What is all this for if not for each other?
I didn't say much specific in this video, at least as I recall. I did try my best to speak from the heart. I tried to comfort and encourage our better angels, but I fear I didn't say enough or share worthwhile substance. Still, I trust the right people will hear it.
I would like to be a content creator but I have a weird relationship with the internet. And making art. And making money from art. So for now I am trying to upload semi-frequently to please the algorithm and hopefully make some viewers happy.
Anyway. If you read this much you are exceeding my expectations. Thank you once again for being here.
I think I had 104 subscribers the day of upload.
Some more tags for recognition
#selfcare #identity #rambling #thoughts #existentialism #streamofconsciousness

[@dannycummings3095]

Keep on keeping on!

[@lukedmoss]

@@dannycummings3095 indeed!

[@MrJerseyCobra]

The relatability is uncanny. You, sir, are a great and deep thinker. Keep on making these and expressing your thoughts!

[@lukedmoss]

@@MrJerseyCobra thank you for saying so! I'm grateful my rambles connect as relateable (:

[@DeusEx3]

Incredibly relatable. I think much of your experience is something many people can relate to, especially people who are sensitive to life and the world around us. It can be overwhelming. For me, I need to regularly be removed from my routine otherwise I get stuck in these thoughts - no matter how important they are. Then I see that life can be simple. Although that it scary in itself, can you just live? With everything going on in the world. With the short time we've been given. Maybe we can't save everything, maybe it doesn't need saving, maybe there isn't a problem to be solved. I've found there's truth in that. A simple truth, outside of logic and ideas. But I lose that connection when I spend to much time in the rat race, and then I get stuck in my head again - looking for a solution.

[@lukedmoss]

I have noticed similar benefits in life's disruptions, though any challenge to my (somewhat insulated) model of "reality" risks destabilizing what healthy systems I have been able to build up. In the long run, though, disruptions may contribute to a more inclusive, flexible, and robust worldview. But what's it all for? Likely a simple life, as you said, with genuine solidarity. (But it's so easy to get ahead of myself and stand in my own way!) 😅

[@KyeColymore]

Heya Luke, I relate to a lot of this currently and this was a crazy pull from my feed. I've done so much shadow work lately and don't really get insecure anymore, i love myself, and don't hate things around me anymore - but my new puzzle to solve is in line with your talk of desires. it's just that I want to do SO much now that I have eliminated the barriers of what i previously thought I couldn't, trying to find the balance so that I have more things to do than time to think about doing things that I can do lmfao. I get the whole talk about feeling bad that this whole world feels so lost, and I would be more than willing to help them - but I'm sure you have realized just as I have how difficult it is for them to actually want the improvement, freedom, or rather it's that they think they are so bound and "no one could understand me more than me, so no one can solve my issues which are insolvable". I very much have hope though and will be fighting for the love until the day I die, my mom, dad, sisters, family will gradually accept their true nature whether its with my help or without. TEAR AWAY YOUR SHINY ARMOR AND REALIZE THAT THERE ISN"T A MORE PERFECT VERSION OF WHAT"S ALREADY THERE MY FRIENDS, WE ALL ARE THE SAME CONFUSING HUMAN THINGS WHO JUST WANT TO CONNECT AND BE LOVED

[@lukedmoss]

Congratulations on building up self-love... cheers to that! The challenge of self-leadership/-efficacy is also hard won (and is one I'm still exploring like you). I see your point about how frustrating it can be trying to change others' minds. I sometimes find that changing my own mind about the expectations I place on others actually helps in this regard. Thank you for the lovely comment!

[@adamswierczynski]

I think the idea that we have to fix ourselves before we can fix the world is an insecurity created by those who hold power to convince us that their power is something they deserve. Yet they abuse their power. While abusing their power they disabuse you of yours by convincing you that because you are so unlike them, you haven't earned power. We can heal ourselves and the earth (and all it's inhabitants) at the same time. In fact, we must heal at the same time. Think of what you said at the beginning, about the metacognitive reorientation of change. As we all move an inch from where we are starting, the destination comes more clearly into focus leading to our shifting trajectory slightly. As the whole of existence moves closer to something that is healthy, the definition of healthy will change... which leads back to the idea that you have to heal yourself before you can heal the world. The people with power have worked so hard to manifest their power in some increasingly restrictive space (their power fails should they step out of this space) they feel trapped by their power; in order to maintain their power they have to double down on the abuse they have used to acquire the power. This leads to abuse being the only route to power; not because these people desire abuse, but they desire the type of power that can only be obtained and maintained by abuse. Those at the top proselytize abusing the self and neglecting the self as the necessary sacrifice for the power. Availability heuristics lead people who want to change the world to believe that the only way to change the world is to acquire power to wield benevolently. It's like the one ring that Frodo had to destroy, and all those along his path who wished to use the ring to save the world who realized they would be poisoned by the ring to become the force they hoped to use the ring against in the first place. TL;DR you can heal yourself and the world at the same time, and every step you take towards that goal will reorient the goal which makes it futile to become fully healed before you start.

[@lukedmoss]

Thank you for such a generous and thoughtful response! I totally agree that we can do both at once. (I think of the Zizek v. Peterson "debate," where Zizek urges us not to clean our room or something to that effect. This is actually an idea I want to explore in a future, more stylized, heavily edited video.) To some extent, it is also true that by changing the world, we change ourselves; by changing ourselves, we change the world. Octavia Butler has a relevant quote about that which the band Sugar Candy Mountain put into song. I say "to some extent" because there is also a degree to which mental change is not enough; there has to be material change. As a general principle, if we don't take care of ourselves, we may undermine our ability to bring about the needed sustained structural change. There's a sharp and tenuous balance, at least where I am currently in my journey. TL;DR I enjoyed reading your comment and, like you, believe it is crucial not to get trapped in all-or-nothing thinking, which can trick us into thinking we must be completely healed or "ready" before we start.

[@glitcharcing]

Made it to my recommended page, so I assumed this had thousands of views already… but surprisingly not. This is so real and relatable. Thanks for sharing!

[@lukedmoss]

@@glitcharcing your kindness warms my heart! many thanks (:

[@glitcharcing]

@@lukedmoss Aww, thank you! I deeply relate to what you have shared here and I’d like to share some thoughts… which may be lengthy. Sometimes that overwhelms people, so I preemptively apologize for my loquaciousness. I just tend towards talking in paragraphs. So, don’t worry about replying with anything in-depth, I just want to share :) Here, you describe many of my favorite traits and desires in the better aspects of humanity. Based on this video, I discern that you are highly sensitive… to knowledgeg and logical connections, as well as the affective state of others and society. I may be projecting but I also sense that you ache for deep connections, like myself. This desire has gotten exaggerated in our modern world, as you surely know. It is even harder when you are unique… and especially when you have a history of depression. That is tremendously difficult given the state of the world. I think that most people have shut themselves down emotionally (and socially) to cope. It is very sad to see. I highly respect anyone, yourself included, that has stayed in touch with their emotions and more noble pursuits. I wanted to also share why this video made it to me at the right time last night. In the past year, I have become self-actualized in many ways, which is best summarized by detailing my circumstance. In the past decade, I have dreamed of being a research psychologist. In the past year, I have gotten deeply involved with research. This semester, I began graduate coursework in psychology. I would say my desires to learn about and help others is pure… It is the main reason I am doing all this. However, I can’t say the same for a lot of people in the psychology departments I’ve experienced. I’m scared I will become the same way… and in some ways, I see it happening and it’s scary. To better describe this, I am discovering a lot about the state of the field through becoming immersed in it. I’m having to confront a lot of difficult realizations. There are so many behaviors deeply rooted in trauma and competition… resulting in emotional suppression and misanthropy. I have been trying to find a way to address these issues… However, it is demotivating being surrounded by intelligent and powerful people who are both gaslit and knowingly perpetuating these problems. Nevertheless, it’s not all bad. There are some good people in academia and I feel lucky to know two of them. Perhaps coincidentally, neither of them got their PhDs at American institutions. Regardless, I think it ultimately comes down to staying true to the beliefs you had at the start of your journey… coupled with the ability to detect when you must give into the system. If you object too much, you will be booted from a lab as I was earlier this year. I have recovered since then and found a new research position, but it’s been a struggle to cope with all the new fears. I feel lost but I have the determination to believe I will get past this because I have overcome much worse. Anyway, that has been my preoccupation over the past few months and video helped me feel better about it. I definitely get a hopeful bloomer vibe from your video. It helps to remind that I must learn how to prioritize self-care regardless of how busy I am. It’s a very difficult journey to genuinely attempt to make the world better, but I believe it can be done. However, we must learn to help ourselves first - in fact, it’s necessary. Thank you. P.S. Check out the song “But Wait, There’s More” by Ben Folds. I’ve been listening to it on repeat, lol.

[@Tom-and-Jerry-again]

One of the key capabilities of a person's eternal journey is to always keep an open mind about things. People typically get set in their ways as they get older. That is something which must always be avoided - that is until God is traveling with you. If people were willing to drop their status quo and have courage to change, change would take place. But change is best guided by God because infinity makes for a lot of possibilities. Free-will is powerful, change starts there. Forcing change is not sustainable, not by us - and for our benefit, not by God as God decides. We do good to just live by example, so arrives the answer: What's the greatest job in the universe?

[@lukedmoss]

I'm curious about your thoughts on this - How may one come to know God's guidance? Can we identify any attributes or qualities of God other than through/by reference to infinity?

[@jeancarrenpao]

You are not alone. 🫶

[@lukedmoss]

@@jeancarrenpao much love 🫶