A VERY VULNERABLE VIDEO

[@michellegreen2840]

Thank you for being real. I constantly feel guilty for not working (I literally contribute £0) but we decided as a family that this is best for us and it means that my husband can just focus on his job but I feel so much pressure that because i am a stay at home mum that EVERYTHING is my job…. And that nothing can ever be dirty, not done, no one not fed well… my thought process is “if it can be done it should be done” but my god that’s so much pressure. What makes you a good parent is that you acknowledge your mistakes… there are unfortunately a lot of parents that never do. You are real and your kids will thank you for that and will benefit hugely from that later on. You are exactly where you need to be and if you want more from your life, wait until you are in a better more positive state of mind to make any big decisions 🙏 sending so much love ❤️

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

@@michellegreen2840 it’s so hard isn’t it! Sometimes I just feel like giving up on everything and maybe just sticking to KZbin just to keep something for myself but then have more time to put into home life! The wash basket is embarrassing right now the amount it’s over flowing to say im always at home is a joke 😂😭 xx

[@ChloeCarradine]

Hi Sophie, just watched this and wanted to send you lots of love. I've followed you since you were pregnant with Casper as I was pregnant at the same time and years later I still always watch your videos first above all others. You are so real and relatable ❤

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

@@ChloeCarradine thank you ❤️❤️

[@Emilycopestake]

You're not alone! You make me feel like I'm not the only one who feels this way. Juggling everything is so hard. I have a 4 year old daughter and 18 month old son, trying to juggle work and being a mum and wife is hard and you feel like not everyone undertands. So I completely relate! Xxx

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

@@Emilycopestake we just have so much to balance don’t we as Mum’s! Xx

[@HannaDavis-th6fl]

Like others have said, really appreciate your honesty although so sorry you’ve been feeling like this ❤ only recently discovered you and you’re fantastic, one of the best creators to watch and a lovely mum!!

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

@@HannaDavis-th6fl thank you so much 😭❤️

[@tiamccluskey4270]

Sending you a big cuddle ❤️ one of my fave people to watch as you’re so relatable. Please don’t be too mad at yourself for shouting/snapping parenting is so hard and your doing amazing. Sending you so much love xxxx

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

@@tiamccluskey4270 tHank you xxx

[@katiebattye3815]

Hii Sophie, very relatable, thanks for being so open it really helps. Sending loads of love x ❤️

[@stephsmyth1]

Always my favourite KZbinr 🤍 so so relatable in the highs and the lows in motherhood/life! Your season to shine is coming ✨

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

@@stephsmyth1 thank you 🙏🏽 ❤️❤️

[@ellykaynorris]

I adore how real you are on here girl, such a strong amazing lady and you should be so proud of yourself! Sending you lots of love xx

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

@@ellykaynorris thanks girl ❤️❤️

[@parkashlohana9217]

Good morning. Lots of best wishes snd happiness for you.❤❤

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

Thank you! You too!

[@zoelouisepritchard]

I relate to this so much, I’m always questioning if I’m a terrible mum as I’m so impatient and struggle to be present. I just got diagnosed with adhd at 29 and have another waitlist for medication and I’m just really hoping that will help me not get so overwhelmed and function a lot better. Everything you’re saying I think every mum feels but no one talks about it so it’s brilliant that you’re comfortable putting this out there so we’re not all assuming everyone else has it all together all the time ❤

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

@@zoelouisepritchard I hope you find peace with that! I 100% have adhd I should probably get the ball rolling with it tbh I think it would help! My brother got diagnosed about 2 years ago at 33 years old and maybe we have more similar traits than I ever realized 😂

[@zoelouisepritchard]

@@sophielouisetaylor4069 as far as I know there is a hereditary aspect as I only looked into it when they were doing a SEN assessment for my son and my best friend was diagnosed. I went through my gp who referred me via right to choose but it still took nearly 15 months to get an assessment which finally came through after I’d chased it up with my doctor which could have been a coincidence but was a week later. Another estimated 7-10 months for medication but then hopefully I can taper off my antidepressants I’ve been on for a decade 😂 I really hope you’re doing well and make sure to take care of yourself and prioritise you too! ☺️

[@zoelouisepritchard]

*Not that my best friend is related to me but I didn’t realise how different the symptoms are in women and how we mask behaviours etc which she told me a lot about.

[@missbaconpop]

Sophie! You are the most real mum and person on this app! You’re doing amazing! It’s good to let it all out! You’re not alone ❤

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

@@missbaconpop thank you 🙏🏽 ❤️❤️

[@daphnesworld571]

Ooh the sound bath thing sounds crazy! I have cried in / after yoga (lol) so I think that’s a similar emotional release. It’s definitely a good thing you’re letting it out ❤ Aww I just want to give you a hug Sophie. The feelings will pass. Also if your skin is bad and you’re emotional it could be that your hormones are all over the place maybe - could be worth checking out? Look after yourself xx

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

@@daphnesworld571 yeah I think it is meant to be a bit of an emotional releaser, I’ve had 2 before but wow they’ve never been that powerful! I think that teamed with the full moon this week it’s just pushed me over the edge 😂😂 but thank you xxx

[@TheAKinMakeup]

Sending positive vibes! Completely with you on this video!! Really enjoying your vlogs recently, it's therapeutic to let it out, sound baths can really trigger things. Good for you for being brave for going on your own and, fingers crossed it's all cathartic and you feel better for letting it all out xx

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

@@TheAKinMakeup awww thank you xxx

[@gemmagirling4647]

Sophie, you are honestly my favourite utuber to watch, so relatable, I hope your feeling better in yourself, such a real raw vlog, the fact your upset that you shouted at the kids shows how much of a good mum you are, my two are similar to your children in age and I loose it sometimes, they can be so overstimulating, Thinking of you xx 🙏🏼

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

@@gemmagirling4647 thank you ❤️ I do feel much better now but still a bit shitty but I haven’t cried for 3 days so I guess that’s a good thing 😂 xx

[@annabelle9800]

Oh Sophie it’s so real how you’re feeling especially with two toddlers! I know the feeling! I think you have quite a lot of drive outside of being a mum for work etc which can add to all of your feelings and your eldest starting school must add a shift to your life. Give yourself grace. You’re a great mum xx

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

@@annabelle9800 thank you ❤️❤️😭

[@greenfoxillustration]

I think you really need to hear what an AMAZING job you are doing! You need to take the pressure off yourself a bit because you clearly don’t realise it! Sophie you are amazing! I have a 3 month old and I haven’t exercised ONCE! I literally have to take a having a shower as a win some days! Your kids and husband are VERY lucky to have you ❤

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

@@greenfoxillustration Thank you so much ❤️😭

[@wendybirkett9219]

Please don’t feel like you’re worthless! Being a mum and bringing up children is the most important job in the world! You’re helping shape their future teaching them new skills supporting them in what they’re interested in and being emotionally there for them! As for shouting at them? My 3 year old kept shouting “Fucking hell” at me and laughing the other day! 😂 I know he got that from me as that’s what I say when I’m overwhelmed!!

[@Alex-nq6oc]

Hi Sophie. It just proves we don’t know what’s going on behind the scenes because when I watch you in YT and Insta I always think you’re doing great, have loads of friends, and absolutely smashing through life. (Which I still think you are) So thanks for the dose of reality. I’d like to hear more about your take on friendships and relationships. Hope you are okay xx

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

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[@christinatelfer3196]

Oh hun I know how you feel! I feel the same I feel bad my husband is the only one working, I would love a 3rd baby but I don’t think we would have one! Thank you for always being real and honest ❤. Xx

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

@@christinatelfer3196 yeah it’s so tough I think saying goodbye to a chapter isn’t it 😭😭😭

[@alannahholland3501]

Oh Sophie this made me tear up! I've followed you since you were pregnant with Casper and i've watched you become the most incredible Mum of two! Please never say you're not entitled to feel this way because you absolutely are. You could have all the money and assets in the world and STILL feel lost. Please know you're doing amazing - as a parent, wife and business owner/employee. You do a lot and spin many plates. Ride this low out and focus on you and what makes you happy. If it helps, i've felt the same lately! Mum of 1, 31 this week, work part-time, no money worries, yet i've still felt flat/lost. I think it's normal but of course, not a good feeling! I'm with you I truly am xx

[@AinslieJohnstone]

Aw Sophie I'm sorry your having a tough time, being vulnerable and all the things you've said is so relatable to so many of us watching. I hope you find peace xxxx

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

@@AinslieJohnstone thank you 🙏🏽❤️

[@estellesiecker9951]

Hi Sophie! Just wanted you to know that I really appreciate your realness, and I am sorry you having a tough time. I so relate though. ♡

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

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[@alexathorpe83]

The fact that you are so aware and upset about shouting at the kids, shows what an amazing mum you are! I loved you sharing this video, not seeing you upset, but just showing what real life is. We ALL feel like this xxx

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

@@alexathorpe83 thank you ❤️❤️

[@nicolabain5959]

Oh Sophie I wish I could give you a big hug!! ❤❤❤ Don’t feel like you have no right to be upset!! Your feelings are valid and being a mum is super hard!! Please make sure you are getting the help and support you need!! ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

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[@stood579burrito2]

Stay strong. You're not alone as I understand xx

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

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[@carolcreamer8285]

Love the colour of your nails 💅 Sophie ❤❤❤

[@carolcreamer8285]

Love your new nails 💅 Sophie xxxxx

[@lizmartin7193]

Sending love i can relate your not alone ❤❤

[@carolcreamer8285]

Sophie sending you lots of love and a big hug 🤗 ❤

[@carolcreamer8285]

Thank you Sophie for being real xxxxx will be looking forward to your next vlog xxxxxx look after your self Sophie xxxxx lots of love xxxxxxxxxxxxx

[@carolcreamer8285]

Hi Sophie so nice to see you 😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊

[@carolcreamer8285]

Sophie I love watching your vlogs xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx0

[@libbyrichfield574]

Could the skin issues be perioral dermatitis? Common when the weather changes, can be caused by loads of things.

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

@@libbyrichfield574 I’m not sure actually I’ll look this up thank you! Xx

[@carolcreamer8285]

Sophie dont cry xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Sophie you are a fantastic mum to your children dont put your self down xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[@libertyyoung8966]

Soph don’t doubt yourself you are amazing incredible hard work mum and you put so much love for them both and your family You are such an inspirational person Sophie and you should be so proud of yourself of what you are doing We all love you so much and keep smashing it through life always remember that you are the best person ever and you do what you want to do in life whatever you will do will always be perfect 🩷🩷🩷🩷

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

@@libertyyoung8966 thank you lady xx x

[@tyeicha3783]

I hope you’re ok girl 🤎 influencer culture has the whole world gripped atm everything seems so superficial, things look more disingenuous and competitive by the minute. I feel like you’re maybe subconsciously realising that that’s not what you align with as a person as someone who’s on the internet a lot of the things you said seemed like that! I feel the same I have 1 close friend who lives 200 miles away from me in Yorkshire 🤦🏽‍♀️ it really just be my 2 kids, partner I feel like I wanna be around and in my free time I enjoy walking, the gym, going for a coffee on my own and people watching 😂 oh and I also get mum rage quite bad from time to time my 3 year old who has a very big personality came to me to show me my own flaws, how much patience I lack & probably mirrored me as a person even though I found parenting quite triggering at times! But also shown me a whole lot of love and growth! You’re doing amazing xxx

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

@@tyeicha3783 hey! Your probably right to be fair - I feel like it’s now that middle ground where I don’t even know where I fit or even if I want to fit anywhere 😂😂 but yes that be me, walks alone and coffee and people watching haha! But also wow Casper the same, such a big sensitive personality who actually is probably more like me than i ever realised, and sometimes i feel like I’m the only one that gets him which is hard! Both kids are ‘Mummy’s kids’ so they just follow me around like little lap dogs 😂 xx

[@calvinliu6304]

Happy friday

[@LDXB18]

It’s called the rat race and trying to keep up with the Jones’.

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

@@LDXB18 thanks for your input hun really appreciate it

[@KatyKent]

Even you're friends have had enough of you 😂😂😂

[@stood579burrito2]

Please don't be so nasty when Sophie's been so honest with how she is feeling.

[@sophielouisetaylor4069]

@@KatyKent I’d rather have no friends (I definitely do) then be anything like you, as you clearly are not a nice person Katy K*NT 🙃🙃🙃

[@stood579burrito2]

Well said!