dogdog/虻瀬

[@おむらいす-x4k]

4:50｢あなたが殺した訳じゃないけれどあなたが罪を感じてくれたらいい｣で謎の共感と鳥肌が襲ってきた

[@ゆっくりどれみ]

分かる……歌詞に共感でしかない

[@user-adachi]

わかります…！😊

[@Akuran-no.8]

物理的に殺してはないので「あなたが殺した訳じゃないけど」だけど、あなたにかけられた言葉とかされたこととかが最終的に僕を死に追いやったから「あなたが罪を感じてくれたらいい」なんだよね

[@user-xp3zv7tx2h]

『あなたに泣かれたくはないさ なんだか身体も死にたくなるの』 の理由があなたを愛しているからとかそういうわけでもなく 『僕より幸せそうな顔で悲しまれると殺したくなる』からなのが鳥肌

[@pixiv1277]

ここに重いコメして、しばらくしてからまた消してを繰り返してたんですけど、今じゃ昔のトラウマはほとんど克服しました。もう重いコメをする気も起きません。それは私の誰にも理解されなかった苦痛が、あなたの曲で癒やされたからです。いつだってこの曲を思い出せば、孤独じゃないと思えたからです。本当にありがとうございます。感謝しかないです。負った苦痛の分、いやそれ以上に、優しい心を持って生きていこうと思います。

[@山田太郎-w3v6q]

どうか幸せになって

[@amedama0511]

「叫ぶくらいは許して下さいな」 を日本語翻訳すると「こんなふうに叫んでしまってごめんなさい」 になるのが好きすぎて進めない🙃

[@田所ガチ恋勢公式]

生きていたくない人の脳内ってほんとにこの曲の音位繊細で壊れやすい分、感受性豊かで人の苦しい感情や悲しい感情を察知できるんです。 簡単に言うと人の気持ちを読み取る事が出来るってことです。 自分は壊れやすく壊されやすいのに相手の感情は読み取って傷つけない様にする人ってどんな宝石や絶景よりも綺麗で美しいと思いませんか？

[@ごまもち-y2n]

この言葉で救われる ありがとう

[@ハッパジュース]

1年前のコメントに失礼します。 だけどそんな感情を余計に汲み取りすぎで負担になったり、先読みして会話しようとするとなんだか失敗してしまうような気がして毎回うっすい内容しか話せなかったり、1歩が踏み出せなかったり、そもそも話すのが嫌になってしまうんですよね。少なくとも私は。自語失礼。

[@ねね-j3w]

アイコン&名前との 温度差酷すぎて 風邪引いた (事後)

[@user-sp5ei7ds3w]

なんか救われた‥

[@ちふけき]

いいこと言ってるけどアイコンと名前のギャップで混乱してる

[@meromery39]

コメ欄の上位が外国の人ばっかで、多分翻訳通して聴いてるんだろうけど翻訳を通すと難しい表現が全部直訳されて話しても全てが伝わる訳ではなく、聴いてくれた人も実は分かっていない。言わずして分かりはしないという感じがした

[@ゆっくりどれみ]

このコメントも海外の方に伝わって欲しい

[@spookymejo]

I think I understand what you mean, but the visuals also help to get the real meaning across! (I hope you understand what I’m saying!!)

[@vamp_pure]

I really want to understand what Japanese songs means through the Japanese lyrics! I only speak English but I really want to learn Japanese to understand things like this. The English lyrics are extremely relatable already and I assume the Japanese lyrics have an even stronger meaning. I hope this translates well!

[@チョコころね-m8f]

200から201にしてしまった罪悪感

[@Zngjmptxd]

​@@チョコころね-m8f 次の300につながる事だからそれが良いと思えたなら好きに押しなさいな👍️

[@風見一姫-o8m]

歌詞は闇だらけで重たいのに凄く聴きやすい。明るい曲と勘違いするくらい。初音ミクの枯れたような声が心に響く。

[@mmm-cp5in]

MVの言葉と歌詞に関係がありそうだったので載っけときます🍬🍭🍫 午前二時三十分の 電車に飛んだ価値観と 「気色の悪い」とか言っちゃって 目を背けた振りする傍観者 ねぇ、どうだい？死にたいかい？ 僕は止めないよ こんな厭世じゃ身を投げるのもごもっとも 一般論is so Good. "General(一般的な)" 性的倒錯(フェチ)には寛大 () so bad. "fetishism(フェティシズム)" 隠してたいその原因は 君等が全部持ってんだ "prejudice(先入観､偏見)" あーそうかい 折れそうかい？ "不幸な自分に酔い痴れた" 動悸が収まんない "フラッシュバックで殺されたい" なぁ 痛い 今 消えたい "罵倒を下さい" 頭ばっか殴らないで "割れる割れる割れる割れる割れる割れる" 死にたい ほら 死にたい こんな痛むなら 死にたい 僕 死にたい それでも 死ねない 死ねない 死ねないの 身体が竦んで動けないんだ 生きたい？ 逝きたい？ 叫んでる肌 叫ぶくらいは許して下さいな あなたの言うその正常が Sexual abnormalit(性的異常) 僕が死ぬその発端です Testament(遺言､遺書) あなたのするその善行が Auf heben(高める､解消する､保存する?) 僕が死ぬその発端です Testament(遺言､遺書) あなたの吸うその愛情が Breast feeding(授乳) 僕が死ぬその発端です Testament(遺言､遺書) あなたの愛した売春が sex(性交) 僕が死ぬその発端です Testament(遺言､遺書) 吐きたい 僕 吐きたい "吐いたら全部融け出していた" 今日食べたものとか "自らが自らである所以を" 吐いて 味わいたい "胃酸の匂いだけがこびり付いた" 生きているって証を "「死にたい」の思い方" 死にたい 僕 死にたい そうして確かめたい 生きていたんだなと 『僕は生きていたんだな』 何処かの歌でさ歌ってた気がした 死生観も希望も虚弱性だとかも全部 誰かのさ 独り善がりだろ？って 言ってる僕はさ 此処で一人歌うだけ 駄犬 あなたに泣かれたくはないさ なんだか身体も死にたくなるの 僕より幸せそうな顔でほら 悲しまれると殺したくなる "?????????????????????????" "お前のせいだ" 死にたい 死にたい 死にたいの 身体も心も綻ぶばかり 逝きたい 逝きたい 叫んでる ほら 僕がこんなに美しいだなんて 飛び散る僕の価値観はさ 真赤で染まってく跡かたもないな あなたが殺したわけじゃないけど あなたが罪を感じてくれたらいい あなたの言うその正常が Sexual abnormalit(性的異常) 僕が死ぬその発端です Testament(遺言､遺書) あなたのするその善行が Auf heben(高める､解消する､保存する?) 僕が死ぬその発端です Testament(遺言､遺書) あなたの吸うその愛情が Breast feeding(授乳) 僕が死ぬその発端です Testament(遺言､遺書) あなたの愛した売春が sex(性交) 僕が死ぬその発端です Testament(遺言､遺書) て る ら り ら た る ら た る ら た る て ろ ら り ら て ろ て ら り る ら

[@愛してす-x1o]

ありがたすぎます…😳 使わせていただきます！

[@mizur8925]

最後のてるらりら〜あたりが「大人になっても手が出るな」に聞こえてビビった...

[@時計-s2b]

ﾊｧｯ本当だ…

[@ゆっくりどれみ]

クソ聞こえる……！！！

[@yagokoro1111]

5:45

[@みつ-e2l]

気づいた君も作者も天才

[@akinatsu091707]

確かに聞こえてしまった

[@秋刀魚-x1c]

わい｢おいおいなんだよこの神曲〜w｣ 〜Twitter拝見後〜 ｢16歳！？？？？？｣

[@熱盛ー]

まじかよ

[@no7name4]

マジだよ。ちなみにあぶせくん誕生日4日前。（816）

[@Mel-wq5in]

16歳???!!!?

[@中島美桜-t7h]

なにぃ？？？！！！！

[@manulittle]

WAIT WHAT????? HES 16?????

[@akikoi5454]

いいですね〜 そしてなんか暴れてるうどんみたいなの好きです

[@りりり-u5h]

暴れるうどんとかいうパワーワード

[@lgftda100]

楔龍 自分もそれ思いましたw

[@藻黧]

/Loser負け犬 暴れてるうどんは笑いますわwww

[@chinoises226]

/Loser負け犬 暴れるうどん…的確な表現ですね

[@ぬくぬく-h9m]

うどんだって思いっきり身体を動かしたいだろうよ。 うどんも運動不足解消したかったのかも。

[@ゆっくりどれみ]

自分の身体を「価値観」って呼んでるの好き

[@sirasirasu-n1w]

「あなたが殺したわけじゃないけど　あなたが罪を感じてくれたらいい」って歌詞が自分にぶっ刺さりすぎてどうしようかと思った。何も悪く無いから言えないけど貴方のせいでこうなったんだよって心のどこかで思ってるのが見透かされたようで凄くゾワってした。 「あなたの言うその正常が〜」の所が自分のせいで起こっていることなどをあなたのせいにしたいという人間の弱いところっていうか何というかを的確に表しているように感じた。もしかしたらこの歌の子は直接的に「あなた」に殺された訳じゃ無いけど積もり積もった「あなた」のせいでこうなったのかもだけどね。

[@ゆっくりどれみ]

"積もり積もった「あなた」のせい"って言葉、すごい分かった。共感できる

[@kek597]

As you can see there are parts in the video where the words are mirrored and I just realised dogdog means godgod

[@CheckeredLady]

Dog is backwards for God

[@nitenite8698]

Tԋҽ Cιɾƈυʂ wow thank you so much for enlightening us 💕

[@mynameisqualian2081]

yeah, but what could that mean? That the character has lost all hope in God or something?

[@xenic5227]

@@mynameisqualian2081 // probably the changes that have been made since god created us. this song is generally, what i assume is, about the fact that they want to commit suicide because their society is horrible, and they want to prove that no one notices a person until they die. so i think its just about how corrupted we've become ever since god created us??? thats just a thought though

[@cryingcatperson8312]

You made me spill my tea.

[@apotato5311]

For those who are confused about the title "dogdog" - a consistent theme in abuseken's works is feeling like a monster, animal, or inferior being. From my personal interpretation, in this song the "dog" refers to a person who struggles with feelings of inferiority originating from their religion, family, and/or sex/sexuality. These are all themes which are present throughout abuseken's music, so if you're interested, please check out his work.

[@meme-pr1nc3]

Yo, thanks for the explanation! I always have trouble figuring out symbolisms and meanings behind songs in general. I’m a huge fan of their work and listen to their songs on repeat. They have such a unique style to their craft, and I really admire it.

[@loveandbrainwashed]

Finally I was looking for this

[@idk-qc9zy]

@@meme-pr1nc3 abuse ken really put complicated and deep meaning tbh

[@hanaribooru]

I am actually stupid af. I thought this was the song creator’s name.

[@renaria3160]

Aye. And I also just looked it up, and even though I commented it already, i'll just share it here coz it's interesting. I've researched that 虻 in Abu-se's name means gadfly. Which is a person that asks controversial, potentially upsetting questions directed at authorities.

[@MorenaDeRena]

"It's not like I want you to kill me, but I just hope you'll feel guilty" I didn't realise how much this line spoke to me. I always try to interpret a song as a story. But this isn't just a story to me anymore, it's a feeling. I hurt myself so much in a state of despair, to remind myself that this is all real. Because once my feelings are gone, what is going to be proof and evidence of the pain that I felt? The helplessness they made me experience? When I think of what has happened to me, in a good place, in a calm place, in my room, I want them to hurt me more. Hurt me more so that I can stay mad. Hurt me more so that they can't justify what they did. Hurt me more so you can feel guilty. Understand me. Pity me, feel guilty. Say sorry. Cry. Cry for me, not for you. Not your husband. Me. I laugh, I cry, I mimic and repeat nonsense, I'm dramatic, I scrape myself, I pull out a knife only to do nothing with it. I scream. But even with all of that, nothing. I don't want you to hurt me, I just want you to feel sorry. Yet even that isn't the bare minimum. just feel guilty because you know you did something wrong. For allowing him to hit me. To speak to me like that. So, thank you for this song.

[@メールがぱんぱんなので削除します]

Your words reached me living in a distant country. I don't know if it was good or bad for you, but I'm glad I read your comment. You didn't kill me, but I hope you feel guilty. Abuse was the first to make this word into a work. Who would be mad at them if I wasn't mad at them? I'd rather have a raw wound than forget this pain. I have always believed so. I may be self-righteous, but I couldn't help but sympathize with you. I can only pray that you will find your own satisfying ending. Please don't mind if it's written in rude English. i am a japanese speaker thanks for finding this song

[@forestmint213]

about the song being a feeling, that's why i love abuseken's work (and other vocaloid songs) so much. it's hard to describe but the song itself is a feeling to me and it means so much. when i was young and felt completely alone vocaloid songs were the things that made me feel seen and heard. i can relate with your comment so much though. i think at some point being hurt became beautiful to me like the song says. when others hurt they were shown compassion and care and it used to make me so jealous. it felt like no one would do that for me and all the pain i experienced was eating me alive. i acted out and i felt guilt. feeling truly helpless at the pain being inflicted upon you is the worst thing someone can experience, in my opinion. i hope that you are able to heal. your past does not define you as a person, and you are heard and understood.

[@Arian-11]

You wrote all my thoughts back to me. I don't want to disappear. I don't want that pain and suffering to go away either, not exactly. I truly do, but once it's gone, since I was always alone, who will be there to remember what i went through? In the future, who will understand the depths of that never-ending pain? That suffering? You want to scream, cry, and sob. Roll around on the ground, bearly holding yourself up on weak arms as you spit out gibberish thoughts and continue to scream. Loughing as you fall into tear-soaked delirium. You want to reveal that suffering to the whole world. To prove it was real. To validate it. To make them all feel guilty for what they did to you. And then you want to fall into sleep, relived. That pain becomes truly beautiful to you in the peace of that moment.

[@crackheadradar7803]

@@Arian-11it’s just insane to me how we all feel this exact same way …

[@MorenaDeRena]

And once again, I find it sad that I have not any internal evidence of what I'd suffered aside from the external affirmation from my sister. At least leave a scar for me :( I hate how I'm always forgetful of my feelings.

[@将来の夢ねこ]

死にたい、っていう人は、気づいてないだけで、意外と愛されたいとか必要とされたいって言う欲求が間違ってそういう形になってるだけで、生きたいって思ってるんじゃないかな。 少なくとも、私はそう

[@nannannanit011oma]

欲求が何者かによって崩されるケースもありますね そういう時はギリギリまでほっておいてほしい

[@美少女-f4l]

@@nannannanit011oma そういう人のたった一言がとどめを刺すよね

[@nazukasumire7027]

誰かを助けたくて、偽善者にいつのまにかなってて、壊れた。 っていうパターンです僕は。

[@jientyann]

SUMIRE NAZUKA 同じく

[@赤鷹グリードあんく]

@@nazukasumire7027 同じく

[@witchu12]

I initially read the title as "Dog abuse with Miku Hatsune"

[@truelyme0]

Saem me too

[@karackac]

Same lmao

[@azerqwer5310]

fun family activity

[@bamshablam5977]

That would be really epic lmao.

[@Amber-yw4ji]

Me too, that was the most aggressive double take I’ve had to do in a while

[@-TOMORROW-]

なんだろう、歌というか ...どう表せば良いか分からん 引き込まれました 自分が死ぬことで誰かが罪を感じてくれたら嬉しいけど、そうはならないのだろうな 電車の飛び込みって迷惑がられるけど、自殺した人ってもの凄い勇気と才能あると思うよ、半端な絶望では死ねない

[@令和様3世]

罪は感じてくれるんじゃないかな……じゃないと救いようないし笑

[@イシイアマネ]

令和様3世 殺した原因は罪なんて感じないし何にも関係の無い人だったり、運転手さんが罪を感じちゃうんだなぁ……残念な事に……

[@user-gn3gs8vk5s]

とある曲の歌詞にもあるけど自殺に使うような勇気とか才能とか、ないほうが良かったんだよなぁ。

[@ゆっくりどれみ]

1:34 「逝きたい」の「逝」の時に、ピアノの音が気持ち悪くぶつかってて凄く好き。デタラメにジャランって奏でている感じがとっても良い

[@こはく-n5b]

この歌は約6分くらいある曲なのにあっという間に終わってしまう感覚がある

[@momikn]

分かる

[@ももも-z4z]

同年代だからこそ分かるこのどろどろと溢れる劣等感やどくどくと流れ出る虚無感を、ありったけの知識と才能と努力と感情で表していて、暗い歌詞だけどとても心がスッとした。 無気力だけど叫んでるような掠れたミクの声がすごく合う。めちゃめちゃ好きだ…

[@午前の紅茶-i1j]

狂気的なのに透明で凄い

[@Getlost]

あなたの歌を最近好んで聴いています。 これからも歌も本当に楽しみにしてます。(涙)

[@akarui-0807]

本物だ……

[@hisha-dayo]

ほ、ほんもの…！

[@k2ll_sn]

本物？！？！？！！

[@琵琶法師-r9n]

本物本物言うのやめろよ ねえ君本物やんって書いてあると思った？？？

[@bluerecordplayer4468]

오

[@amnesia5]

死にたいって本当に思ってた奴なんて多分最初はいなくて、本当はみんな死にたくなるほどどうしようもなく生きたいって思ってたはずなんだよな。それが、誰でもいいから助けてほしくて、でも誰にも助けてもらえなくて、助けてって言えなくて、本当の「死にたい」になったんだとおもう。もう生きることが面倒になって、諦めてしまって。語彙力どっかに飛んでってるしなんでこんなこと書き込んでるかわからないけど、心をすごく揺さぶられるいい曲だな

[@ちふけき]

ほんとに、毎年心が病んだ時心地よすぎて聴きに来てずっとリピします。 自分の希死念慮とか叫びたいことを代わりに歌ってくれてて本当に救われてる、ミクも虻瀬さんもありがとう

[@kopipom08]

0:47 からの英語表記の意味です。 General: 一般的 Fetishism: フェティシズム（〇〇フェチとか？）、性的倒錯の一つとされる(性的倒錯の他の例だとサディズム、マゾヒズム、露出症などがあげられる) Prejudice: 偏見、先入観 1:45 からの英文字表記の意味です。 Sexual Abnormality: 性的異常（”abnormality”が異常、"Sexual"が性的という意味なので） Testament: 遺言、遺書、証明 Aufheben: アウフヘーベン(ドイツ語)、止揚、揚棄、矛盾/対立する二つの概念をそのままどちらも否定せずに統合すること Breast feeding: 授乳、母乳哺育 Sex: 性行為、性別

[@user-Sher0yNan1ka]

kopipom08 ありがとうございます…！！

[@nana-ks2rf]

すごいですね！！

[@腐った貝殻]

最後で吹いた

[@にこにこおやさいくん]

じゃあ少しセンシティブな歌なのかもしれませんね

[@mynameisqualian2081]

Hello people, another year of listening to this song. I listen to it every once in a while, it just holds so much meaning to me. I first found it when I was going through one of the hardest parts of my life and now whenever I hear it it reminds me of what I’ve gotten through. I can’t lie, it’s only when I’m sad I come back here and is one of those days where I just feel like crying. For the few people who will see this, thank you. For being alive, for breathing, for just doing anything. You matter (even if it took me very long to realise) and you are loved. Thank you

[@бебье-о8х]

thank you. i hope you doing great

[@TheofficalKagamineLen]

Thank you so much

[@zl7568]

ily I wish you all the best

[@fanciullo4047]

Question mark

[@PuppyGamer]

thank u

[@bokarozuki]

「一般論 is so good」って歌詞がこの感情を形容する言葉が無いくらい好き

[@AMANE_0402]

リアタイで聴いてた記憶なくなっててさ、当時のコメント見て全部思い出しちゃってホント鳥肌たちっぱなし、、神曲すぎて記憶消せてもう一度聴けてほんとよかった。

[@AMANE_0402]

薄っぺらい感想かもしれないですが、あなたが殺したわけじゃないけど、あなたが罪を感じてくれたらいいって本当に素敵すぎる歌詞。死ぬ最期まで人を呪うほど罰当たりにはならないけど、自責の念をせめて感じてくれたら報われるみたいな感じがもう本当に良いな。

[@鹿-v8b]

この歌を聴いて、気持ち悪いと思う人もいるだろうし、希死念慮に蝕まれた人もいると思う、 けど初めて聴いたときからずっとこの曲は私の中で繊細で美しい救いです この曲を否定したい訳じゃないけど、この曲のおかげでもう少し生きようと思えたし、報われないけどがんばれる ポジティブな憂鬱に浸れるから、だいすきです

[@user_kanndume]

「叫ぶぐらいは許してくださいな」でﾌﾞﾜｯって涙出てきた…辛い時この曲いつも聞いてしまう

[@user-qn9qz8js6x]

コンテンツとしての「死」じゃなくてなんかただ単に気持ち悪くて好き(語彙力) 「自然と涙が流れる」とかじゃなくてずっと叫んでる

[@enragedkonchu7422]

This reminds me of how I felt when I was homeless. One of the strongest memories I have from those days was touching my hair that hadn't been washed. And it felt like the fur of a dog. I was so angry in those days, and just wanted the people around me to suffer. I remember people looking at me with disgust, as if I chose this. I remember how apathetic the people who said would help me were. I genuinely wanted to die, but was too angry to let myself do it. The constant dehumanization, anger, and shame. Man. Memories! :)

[@8bitidiots]

im glad your still here. im hoping you are in a better spot now

[@enragedkonchu7422]

@@8bitidiots Yeah bro. Shit always gets better. Weirdly enough, I look back at those days with a sense of fondness. I had grown up mostly online and alone. And I was always worried that I would never be good enough. So to be thrust into a situation where you MUST be enough or you die, and to succeed? It... Helped, weirdly enough. Anyway, I just want you to know you're not alone either. You've done alright, you're doing alright, and you'll be alright. Peace.

[@julian7434]

damn this is making me cry, i admire you.

[@enragedkonchu7422]

@@julian7434 admire yourself. We all have the strength to survive when it matters. Finding the strength to thrive is what is important.

[@javrawr]

😢🙏🏾I’m glad you made it, I’m currently in the borderline of that

[@無人島に住みたい-v7w]

「あなたが殺したわけじゃないけど、あなたが罪を感じてくれたらいい」のフレーズ…こんなにも綺麗に心音をまとめられるなんて流石だなと思いました…！！！！ 全くもってその通り……すぎる

[@あい-n7t4n]

やんばどうしよう。好き過ぎて鼻毛なくなるかと思いました。あのこれからついてきます。語彙力なくて感想上手く言えないけど、なんかザクザクしてて果物切ってるみたいに刺されて、でも脳みそがサッカーボールみたいになってリズミカルに蹴られてるぐらいの破壊力の塊で好き。

[@Dappis]

Vocaloid has been a blessing to poetry and music, this wouldn't exist if there wasn't software to create it.

[@iamr9819]

This song hits a lot harder than it should be, mainly because of the people in my life. i currently live in a country and society where people like myself are killed constantly. i am closeted queer and i also love writing too. my family are also openly homophobic and super religious and traditional. every time i write, i always have to do it secret because i fear that if anybody discovers what i write about it (my feelings, opinions, etc) , i might get seriously hurt. it doesn't help with the fact that one of my friends is super religious, homophobic and racist. nobody, not even my family and friends, know who i truly am. they keep on saying these hurtful things towards "inferior" people like, not knowing that i am one of them. everday i live in constant fear and anger, because all i wish to do in life is to break free from this constant life of hatred and be somewhere safe where i can be who i truly am.

[@docdoc.4500]

I can resonate with the feeling of having a terrifying secret to hide for fear of awful consequences! As another queer person, I see you and understand.

[@mreiii6871]

It's such an abstract dark theme that's usually hard to express personally into words when being gone through, that it actually gives me so much comfort to have found this song. It's an INCREDIBLE representation of it. Thank you for making this!!!!

[@olliestone5549]

Is the theme really abstract? Apart from some key concepts, like the hypocrisy of generalization, the dark theme of the song is pretty direct and straight to the point. Wanting to die but too scared to commit, moments of drunk joy and reckless abandon to sober shame and regret, wanting someone to feel suicide guilt as a manner of revenge (I don't like this part, though), etc. They're all very straight to the point. This is why I like this song, unlike a lot of other dark songs where they try to layers their lyrics with innuendos, double entendres, figures of speech, or perspective change, this song is very straightforward with its intent to let the listeners know that this is a song about someone suffering from what they or what someone else did.

[@mreiii6871]

@@olliestone5549 Yeah I mean abstract thing/theme being the experience of those feelings, not usually so easy to gather so directly into words ykno?(specially trying to express it personally to others) Thats why I do say it was such good comfort to find the song because of how it expresses and represents those feelings so directly and makes it easily relatable but yeah your comment is kinda on par with mine also anyway i just didnt get to word it as directly as yours haha

[@hoodieraccoon444]

Even though a few parts of the song sound more light-hearted (excluding the lyrics), the main chorus really hits, whether you know the lyrics or not. Finding this a bit late, but great song, feels truly like it is trying to reachvout to the listener directly

[@swaggyrat6725]

I totally agree

[@Rubinkys]

fr

[@prayinq]

true

[@horuho245]

There's no such thing as "late". What's important is that you've found it

[@zomb7e_]

@@horuho245 i mean...late is a word for a reason lmao

[@hiyo341]

初聞は陰鬱な曲だなと思った。普段聞かないジャンルの曲調だし、一回しか聞かなかったけど、数日後になんでか、ふとこの曲が浮かんできて、いそいで履歴さかのぼってまた聞いてみたら、力強いピアノと訴えるような歌詞に一瞬で引き込まれて、なんでか、それからずっとこのメロディが脳裏に焼き付いて離れない…とても好きです…揺さぶられて魅了されました。これからも頑張ってください、応援してます！！

[@ろいよ-n9d]

「あなたの言うその正常が僕が死ぬその発端です」ってところが確かにって思いました。『普通』という言葉は人を苦しめると知ってから周りの人には使わないようにしました。 あとこの歌詞は自分の気持ちをそのままにした歌みたいで泣きました。

[@斡-s9g]

サビの「貴方の言うその正常が　僕が死ぬその発端です」ってのが何でもかんでも正常と少し変わってたら異常と決めたがる今の現代みたいやなって思いました。 誰かにとっては善行でも誰かにとっては苦なだけやもんなって改めて思いましたわ。俺は嫌なことあったらノートに愚痴ってる。理解されないのはどうしようもないわけちゃうし。 それに曲の歌詞の背景とか前に出てくる文字がサビのとこ以外は書いてることちゃうのにサビの時歌詞と一緒なん本音みたいでええな

[@フラットザサン]

歌詞がメチャクチャ独特…決して明るくないけど単に暗いわけでもなく、聴き手の共感を得ようとしつつも突き放してる感じもあり…すごい独特（語彙）

[@rm-eh2gh]

とある藍色の曲を聞いてたら その下の関連に出てきたので 飛んできました。KZbinの オススメ神ですか…もっと こういう隠れた曲を知りたい。

[@mepem]

同じくすぎて同一人物かと疑った… きっと趣味あいますよ（誰）

[@田所ガチ恋勢公式]

同じすぎて引いた…この人の歌他のも最高ですよ…

[@あらあき-l4h]

ここでいうのも何ですが ラストリゾート

[@rm-eh2gh]

@@あらあき-l4h そこら辺はもう見とるんや、だいぶ伸びたしなぁ。さらに再生数の低い曲を 漁り中( ˘o˘̥ )

[@カイト-m7j]

プシュケー や 幽霊少女はどうでしょう？ 知ってたらごめんなさい。

[@たたずみ]

なんか、一見怖い感じなのに、ひたすら美しく感じるのはなんでだろう

[@どこぞの人間-u2f]

飽きるのが早くて3分とかの曲でも直ぐに次の曲に行っちゃうのに、この人の曲はどれもサラッと最後まで聴いちゃって寧ろ終わってしまったって喪失感まである。

[@uratdt]

チカチカしてる感じが良いですね………… 歌に恋したみたい（？） そのくらいのかっこよさがある、字のフォントも好きです（？） サビの美しさはどくどくとした感じで、ラスサビは本当に人間の歪さと美しさが混ざってるのが本当に好きです 4:40のところ特に好きです、私の語彙力だと伝えられない本当の美しさって感じで…… 5:25は諦めきったような感じがしてめちゃくちゃ好きです

[@oHagi3_]

死ぬのが怖いのは生きる理由になる

[@Luka-tn2ow]

This song officially has a place in my heart. It just hits so damn hard.

[@riovazluvr]

It does it hard

[@kenmeiaoi]

I hope you're doing okay, Abuse-san. Such a song that explores this kind of serious concept is concerning but I shouldn't really meddle. All I can do is wish you good health, both in physical and mental. Your songs are very nice!

[@idk-qc9zy]

Wait abuse ken have some mental illness?

[@kenmeiaoi]

@@idk-qc9zy he hasnt said anything offical about his mental health, though if you listen to his songs you can see that he mostly tackles sensitive topics so that's that

[@idk-qc9zy]

@@kenmeiaoi i see who knows right?

[@とぎじる]

この曲が大好きなんだけど、年に数回しか聴いていない どうしようもない気持ちになった日の夜だけ思い出して部屋を暗くして一回だけ聴いている 聴く度に映像と音の魅力に取り込まれる、音も歌詞もゾクゾクする　これ以上ないくらいに慰められた気持ちにもなるけど泣きたいくらい悲しい感じもする　聴き終えると全てが終わった気がして何かしらちょっとスッキリする 勝手な感情だけど私にとって特別な曲です…

[@炊きたての冷やご飯]

なんというか…こう… 死にたいって言ってるけど殺されるのは怖いっていう感じがする。 泣ける。素晴らしい歌をありがとうございます。

[@ヨーロピアン子-r4k]

当時めっちゃニコニコで聴いてたなあ...胸が苦しくなるけど、不思議と気持ちが軽くなる曲で今でも大好きです。

[@多分鶏なんじゃ無いかな]

何と言うか、この曲聞くと頭がじわじわして温かいスープ脳みそにぶっかけられてるみたいな感じする キャパ超えると涙か鳥肌が来る…すげぇや

[@まったり-c2u]

この曲を聞くと泣きそうになる

[@Lmao_moood]

When I first listened to this, even without the subtitles you can hear how tired and hurt the singer is and I think that's really comforting to me, in a way.

[@ゆっくりどれみ]

字幕無しでも伝わることに感動。作者が素晴らしいということがよく分かります。

[@StarberryCreetH]

Its a vocaloid. But ik what you mean.

[@野島倫世]

1:45 すごいここ好き

[@ekaki3429]

ずっともにょもにょ動いてる塊が、偏頭痛が起こる前の閃輝暗点に似てるので ストレスでも起こる偏頭痛の前兆に似せたのでしょうか、作り込まれすぎてます…感服です…

[@みぐたちた]

great👍👍

[@里山本-i9z]

冬の田舎の夜中の駅がパッと思い浮かんだ。サビに入ったらMVの影響もあるんだろうけどその駅から花火を見てる感じがした。小説上下二個ぐらい読んだ満足感が得られる最高の曲

[@KattinIsBrocken]

This song speaks to me. I don't know if I can exactly correctly say what I want to, but I'll try to anyways and explain it the best I can, even if it comes off as vent-ish I've always been looked down upon, or felt looked down upon. I felt like everyone hated me. When I brought this up in a frenzy of emotions, and how everyone treated me like I was trash or something meant to be forgotten, I was told "if you were treated like trash, you would be dead". Those words stuck with me subconsciously because I felt even more worthless, disgusting, and just a bunch of other disgusting words to call myself. I've felt this way since I was maybe 11, maybe even younger. As much as I wanted to die to get away from everything, I also didn't want to. I wanted to live at the same time so I could spite the people who frowned when I walked by, and teased me whenever they could. They always wanted to see me breakdown or cry, maybe even be angry. I have autism, and my emotions are kind of hard to control, and I always did my best to control them in a healthy way. But whenever people would mock, hurt, insult, and tease me, it was like they wanted to so they could make me seem irrational. Whenever I called them out, they only laughed more or called me irrational and dramatic. I felt alone, even if I wasn't. I wanted to die to get away from it all, but also wanted to live so I could make them angry, make them the irrational ones. Even if I would try to die, my body won't let me because it feels as if I'm trying to spite the people who hurt me. I'm still being hurt today, and it is going to keep being that way for me. If anything, I want the people who hurt me to actually mean the words they say, to actually mean the word sorry. I want them to actually mean it when they apologize. After all, I mean it when I say sorry to someone I didn't mean to hurt. I say it all the time. I say it too much. I would do anything to make it up. However, the people who hurt me never mean it when they apologize. They just want me to forget. I want them to mean the words sorry, I want them to actually feel guilt, I want them to actually realize what they've done. I don't want them to wake up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat when they remember. I only want them to actually apologize. I want them to mean it, that way that even if I don't forgive them, I could at least acknowledge the fact that they mean it and care about how I feel. Like another comment said when they shared about how they felt, I want someone to just try and understand me. Sorry this became a vent, but I just couldn't help but comment on it because I love this song, I think it's beautiful, and when I first heard it, I knew that it resonated with me in some way. I hope everyone else who relates to this song in some way will be comforted by it also, like how I have been comforted by it

[@田中伊織-h1w]

この人のピアノは本当に綺麗で儚くて悲しい

[@とし-p5i]

16歳でこれは凄い 神やん…

[@lv-yc9ol]

ピアノの音がめちゃくちゃ綺麗でミクちゃんの声が凄く弱くて切なかったり、力強かったり…大好き… 半音下がってるメロディーとマイナスなワードで病んでる時100周回って吹っ切れる感じ。言葉でかけてる感じも好きです

[@the0lrazzledazzle]

I've NEVER had a vocaloid song make me feel this way, this is gorgeous and I love the lyrics too. I hope you know that this is honestly the absolute best song I have ever heard. Thank you so much for hand-crafting this and allowing it to bless my ears. 🥺💖💕💞💖💕💞

[@ririmu__]

こんな神曲を2年後に見つけちゃったぁぁ、もっと早く見つけたかった、、

[@user-Sher0yNan1ka]

突然オススメに出てきて、どこかで見たことあるような気がして、なんとなくポチッと押してみた。音楽が流れてきた瞬間全部思い出した。 俺、2年前にこの動画に惚れ込んでたんだった…

[@Look-MaraGaki-]

この前車に跳ねられて死にかけたけど、 あ、轢かれたって時にどぐどぐって言葉が頭に浮かんでた すごい曲だなぁ。大好きです^^*

[@放棄-x4m]

画面で暴れてる丸型のびよびよ(語彙)が人間の染色体に見える

[@momikn]

歌詞が歌詞でも曲は透明感があって綺麗なの好き

[@恋愛-w3z]

動画の雰囲気とかあんま見ない感じで個性的ですこです〜 って16歳！？まさかの同い年、、、 死にたいんだか生きたいんだかゴチャゴチャで大変そうですね…でもめちゃくちゃ気持ちわかってしまうなんでや！？やっぱこの時期皆辛いもんなのかな！？！？(中学〜高校は辛い)

[@mocchiri_da]

5年前、中2のときにこの曲から虻瀬さんに出会って、大学受験で親愛なるあなたは火葬とユダと叢に精神をめちゃくちゃ支えられました。これからも大好き

[@ヤングなチャンネル]

死にたくなるのって、一種の嫉妬、比較から始まるのかもしれない

[@cestlaviz]

So I got too invested on listening to this song because it hits too much for me. That's why I'll try my best to interpret it on my own understanding. Hope it doesn't arise any incorrect parts. • The lyrics of this song evoke strong emotions and touch upon themes of pain, self-destruction, and societal norms. 1) The song begins by highlighting the values and perspectives of society that this person (narrator) finds oppressive or judgmental. The bystander's reaction and muttered "disgusting" suggest a negative judgment, causing this person to question their own worth and contemplate the idea of death. (Which makes it even more relatable in my current situation as well.) 2) The lyrics express a sense of inner conflict and struggle. This person acknowledges the temptation to succumb to pessimism but also recognizes the desire to resist and defy it. There is a feeling of frustration and wanting to hide certain aspects of oneself from judgmental individuals. 3) The recurring desire for death reflects intense emotional pain, both physical and psychological. It portrays a longing for relief and an escape from the overwhelming hurt this person experiences. At the same time, there is a contradictory sentiment of wanting to survive, as indicated by the refrain of "I won't die." (Tbh, I almost cried on this part of the lyrics.) 4) The lyrics also critique societal norms and behaviors. They suggest that what is considered "normal" or "good" by others is actually detrimental to this person's well-being. The mention of prostitution, fetishism, and this person's perception of others' enjoyment of it represents the narrator's perception of societal hypocrisy and its contribution to their pain. 5) There is a desire for release and purification, expressed through the metaphor of wanting to throw up and relish the taste as proof of living. It portrays a desperate need to be freed from the emotional and societal burdens that weigh heavily on this person. 6) This person reflects on their own emotions and thoughts, recognizing the influence of outside opinions and experiences. They mention singing a song about death, hope, and weakness, indicating a connection to the struggles and emotions of others. However, there is also a sense of isolation as they sing alone. 7) The lyrics convey a complex mix of emotions, including anger, despair, and a desire for others to feel guilt or remorse. There is a perception that others are happier than this person, which intensifies their own pain. • In summarization, the song portrays a deeply emotional and introspective journey through the narrator's experiences of pain, alienation, and the clash between societal expectations and personal suffering. The lyrics express a yearning for understanding and release, while also critiquing societal norms and the impact they have on the individual. NOTE: i do remind you that song lyrics can be subject to various interpretations, and the artist's intended meaning may differ from individual interpretations :)) once again, i really love this song because it artistically touches on the subject of struggling to live ahead, without leaving any vague words.

[@idk-qc9zy]

I am Astonished by your interpretation and your essay

[@cestlaviz]

@@idk-qc9zy tysm ! i just think it deserves to be interpreted so i gave it a try :))

[@idk-qc9zy]

@@cestlaviz and that a best try

[@DarthReVengeh]

Hello, I'm currently studying Japanese. I consider myself a beginner but I do believe that there are some mistranslations within the captions of the video. The part of the lyrics where it says "死ねない　死ねない　死ねない", I believe that rather than it being translated as "I won't die I won't die I won't die", it's more like "(I am) not able to die". Since the potential form of the verb "死ぬ” which is "死ねる" expresses the ability or possibility to do the action described by the verb. If we turn that potential form from positive to negative, it would become "死ねない" which is what is written in the lyrics. This means that rather than having the ability or possibility to do the action, it would instead mean the opposite, meaning to not have the ability or possibility to do the action. The next part of the lyrics "身体が竦んで動けないんだ" supports this since the translation would be something like "(My) body freezes up and is unable to move". Which means that the reason as to why the speaker is not able to kill themselves is due to them not having the courage to perform the action of killing themselves. The next part of the lyrics "生きたい？　逝きたい？　叫んでる肌" also supports the first statement. It's like a play with words with both "生きたい" and "逝きたい" being homonyms, meaning they are pronounced the same though their spellings in Japanese are different, when romanized, their spellings are the same. The meaning of "生きたい" is "want to live" and "逝きたい" is "want to pass away". If the translation within the KZbin captions is correct then it wouldn't make sense since if the speaker is saying that they won't die, then why would they be confused whether they want to continue living or just pass away? Well, it's just my opinion and I could be completely wrong. If you find any mistakes with what I said, I'd be happy to be corrected. Thanks.

[@cestlaviz]

​​​​​​@@DarthReVengehWow, I had the same thought as yours! I mostly relied on the translation since I don't understand Japanese. The meanings behind the lyrics and the narrator's difficulties have now become more clear as a result of your explanation. 🙏🏻 Thanks for making it easier to understand! As for what you have interpreted, it is truly evident that the narrator is genuinely confused about whether they want to continue to live or not. It also supports your claims about the narrator not having the courage to die soon because they kept questioning themselves throughout the song too!

[@まる-r4l7x]

自己嫌悪と自己愛をそのまま歌にしたみたいな曲

[@Hiko_ki_gumo]

正常→「"普通"(とされる狂った世界)」 善行→「自殺制止」 愛情→「意識せずにあなたが吸っている空気のような無償の愛(私にはそれがない)」

[@ぷれ-f1r]

いきなりおすすめでてきた神曲

[@tomo4996]

それ

[@plume-canape]

I didn't know this song but now, just "wow", the melody is so emotional like the lyrics. This is the definition of "powerful". Thanks for this, it's a masterpiece. I love how Miku when she sings have a satured sound, it reminds me the Miku's song of 2010, so much nostalgia.

[@idk-qc9zy]

World is mine?

[@plume-canape]

@@idk-qc9zy Yes, this type of song.

[@矢田雅巳]

よく聞くと、ピアノのおとが気持ち悪いでも、その気持ち悪さが心に残る 個人的にどちゃくそすきです

[@renaria3160]

The "lololol" part reminds me of my raw emotion when venting. Like y'know when you're breaking down and you turn to the internet to vent and add "lol" for some reason everytime you finish a sentence. It kinda sets the mood for me along with the lyrics because the song feels like raw emotion. it's just relatable in a way.

[@Lemon_Fiber]

in my opinion, i see it as a coping mechanism, like trying to down play a traumatic experience by making it a dark joke. i actually do it, like a lot. its a way (for me atleast) to try washing down said traumatic experience so people wouldn’t worry as much, like “oh thats a pretty dark joke xd good one” because honestly they don’t really understand what the hell you’re going through.

[@理々-z8r]

虻瀬Pのお掃除しましょとか青とかも素敵なのでみんな聞け！（

[@理々-z8r]

御掃除しましょ、だった(誤字)

[@中島美桜-t7h]

あなたの吸うその愛情がってところあなたの質素な愛情がって聞こえる、、、 スゲェ

[@Banira_bayo]

もっと早くこの曲に出会いたかった……いい曲すぎる

[@archdiangelo7930]

The algorithm thrust this upon me out of nowhere, and I'm thankful because this song slaps despite the morbid subject matter. I sincerely hope that the artist is in a better space mentally than they were when they wrote this, and I wish them all the best

[@C0deSlasher]

I keep wondering why the heck it keeps appearing, lol.

[@モケ-x1p]

切実な叫びにも似た曲…才能の塊。ボーカロイドの掠れた声がまたいい！好きです。

[@c.arandyl]

I myself, don't relate to this song. But, I wholeheartedly understand how heart-clenching and unsparingly sorrowful the emotions and situations this song presents are, and how direct and rather bluntly it goes about expressing them. I know that this song has helped so many people out there, reciprocating their feelings like nothing else could, and how boldly it does so. My tears fall for you, I wish you the best. You belong here, and you are important to so many.

[@idk-qc9zy]

😭

[@0324_bs]

4:45 の「真赤で」が「ﾏｯｯｯｯｶで」って感じで好き

[@雲雀-w4u]

ミクさんの声 背景 曲調 歌詞 全てに置いて好き

[@ちる-f5l]

2:42のピアノのところが1番好きです

[@道端の石-j5u]

「午前二時三十分」。 少し疲れて久しぶりに聴きに来たら真っ先に刺された。 現在時刻は午前二時四十分頃。 鬱々となる時間はやっぱり深夜なんだなあ。

[@-mikannosuke9438]

綺麗で、ミクちゃん声といいネガティブな歌詞のところは壊れそうというか儚い… 高音のところエモい

[@Zottosuru]

I never knew this song existed until a couple weeks ago. My spotify randomly recommended it to me, and im very glad for that. This song has really been a life saver at times.

[@MysticIceFire]

You should check out abuse's other works if u can! They all tackle similar themes, one of my favorites is Judas edit: also if ur looking for a song with a similar feel, god please () me, this monster

[@鳩峰]

最初の歌詞と曲調でもただでさえ 綺麗なのに、サビも凄く綺麗で 言葉も綺麗な掠れたミクちゃんの声で文字の動き方が綺麗なのに 二番の曲調とピアノの 吐いた場面も言葉が綺麗なものだし こんな僕の語彙力で伝わらないけど 二番の歌詞が終わった後の間奏？も 綺麗、すごい ラスサビの綺麗さも尋常じゃない 凄く綺麗、僕の汚い言葉じゃ表せないけど凄く綺麗、曲に恋をしたみたい（？）

[@クラピちゃん大好き]

自動の画質で見てたら最初画質悪かったのに「どうだい？死にたいかい？」の所で画質良くなってエモかった、神曲ありがとうございます

[@cxresatonic]

this song is amazing I don't know what to say other than that because lots of people here have said it before and im pleased to have been shown this! While reading the lyrics and reading comments my mind is trying to grasp the meaning and I can see bits and pieces. It doesn't feel like this is telling a coherent story, feeling, or anything specific but rather a jumble? The feelings and things the person has gone through and in a moment where they really comprehend it all, take a step back, and are feeling the impact of it. It's not clear to me, it's racing, it's begging for someone to blame maybe? and they just want to go. I feel like they don't want to blame everyone for not realizing they are gone and they don't want the people forgetting them to feel guilt but they want it as well. They want to be remembered and people to feel bad they're gone but also know that they won't. Of course all these thoughts are coming from someone reading the english lyrics. I'm still not sure about the lines referring to sexuality and how it all ties in, I can really on determine what I think of what I can personally understand from my experience. I know it takes being in a dark place to understand this or having these situations, so I'm hoping who wrote this is finding ways to help. I see they are responding to comments so I'm believing so, but either way, I think this was a great song, I'll listen to it over and over again pondering over its meaning that I'll never really get and I think that's good. It's confusing, but the mind is and it shows how much the person has gone through and feels, it gives depth. Still frustrating, but I think it makes sense, at least in my interpretation.

[@kanatahiba]

Hi, thankyou for sharing your view of the song, it's interesting. As fellow abuseken's fan I'm happy many love and value his works like you now. Though if you really want to get the actual story behind the lyrics, try listening to some of his older works. It has same character and lore.

[@forestmint213]

Well this is the way I understand the song. It’s definitely influenced by what I want to interpret and I’m not taking any of abusekens other songs or stories into account. I see this as being about someone who has been suicidal for a long time but never really killers themselves. They fantasize becaude suicide is something almost beautiful in their eyes, and they know how fucked up it is but they want it anyway. It becomes a comfort for them because it’s a way to escape and they fantasize about it over and over and over, but can never truly bring themselves to finish the act. Perhaps they hurt themselves over and over but never get to actual death. In a twisted way, they think their pain is beautiful. They love destroying themselves over and over and over. At the same time they’re suffering and they seriously do consider death but there are people in their lives that care about them and they can’t do that. They hate others for caring about them because it makes it hard for them to disappear. The part about the song especially shocked me because I never saw it put into words ever. This song is basically what it is talking about too. The person idolizes about suicide and consumes content about it, sings songs like this about it, making it seem like a more grand and beautiful thing. Still part of them wants to live, they know they don’t really want to die, but at the same time they do. It’s both at once. That tears them apart and the pain makes them feel that their suffering is real and whatever happens in their past matters. They do it to prove to themselves that they are still alive. They feel hatred and anger and guilt and sadness and pain.

[@ふけそんゆきち]

バカみてえにリピートしちまう、中毒だ

[@هلتقلدهلي]

わかる

[@とし-p5i]

誰にもハートを付けてくれる主の優しさよ

[@user-mo_om]

ピアノの音がするなにかの弦を弾いたような音がすきです(伝われ)

[@Mena11ike]

心の中にこのぐちゃくちゃがある感じ。吐き出したいけどずっと心の中で空回りして行き場のないぐるぐる。（語彙力

[@user-st2zl8fm6k]

自分に死ぬほどつらい思いをさせたあいつらが死ぬほど嫌いだけど、好きにはなりたかったから罪を感じてほしいという私の感情にぴったり最高。 結構アップテンポだから悲しいって感じにくいけど曲の奥底はかなり寂しい。(やばい語彙力ないw)