ADHD Simulator (4 examples)

[@eternallyhiz]

The negative voice and the singing voice constantly in the background NAILS it.

[@lkeke35]

OMG! I cannot imagine that going on in a person's head all the time! how does anything get done at all? I have the opposite issue with just the one loud voice that never shuts up and is always laser focused on one activity to the exclusion of everything else.

[@WickedRich419]

@@lkeke35Lol, I showed my husband one of these the other day and he said the same thing. 😂 He was like, I’m so sorry. 🥴 Luckily I have a great, supportive, loving husband. 😊❤️

[@Shatteredpiecesamoungus]

100%

[@doomngloom96]

The negative voice just needs “bïtch” at the end of every sentence and it’ll be on point

[@Enkai_Star_2]

@@lkeke35wait Neurotypical people actually exist????? I feel like yall are a rare breed cause I cannot imagine a world where I don’t have those voices I didn’t know that wasn’t normal😭 Also I genuinely don’t understand how a person is just able to function properly

[@Psyteclothing]

The "Write it down, Write it down, Write it down, Write it down, Write it down, Write it down, Write it down, Write it down" hit hard!

[@j.b.4340]

No time, and it’ll never be looked at again.

[@ducklingscap897]

I felt that so much! The worst is when I'm telling me so much to write something down that I forget what I wanted to write down because I focused so hard on the "write that down" part that I forget what "that" was.

[@colorfulthinker]

@@ducklingscap897​​⁠Same! And sometimes I would write “ write it down” instead.

[@AngelOClock]

Oh damn... 😂 happened me to. Chaos.

[@kellycraytor]

😂😂 it’s me spot on 😂😂😂

[@K3r0p1]

People will still have the audacity to call us lazy and unorganized when we try to do things but have so much going through our brains while trying to.

[@beezwacks]

i downloaded audacity yesterday

[@catgi91745]

I've been called lazy my whole life, guess what guys I'm just neurodivergent who would've thought

[@olivialutfallah]

It’s hard :/

[@ogwanshinobi]

so…neurotypicals DON’T have their narrator constantly talking? interesting 😂

[@swtsoph]

Yep...I'm so done with hearing about how lazy I am. 🙄

[@Breadly_TV]

It was surreal how natural the background voices felt. They just blended in with my own and I didn't realize they weren't mine half of the time.

[@Blajammer]

I wonder what it’s like for people without ADHD? Is it silence? I’m so used to all the extra background voices that it never occurred to me that it’s would be different for others

[@Breadly_TV]

@@Blajammer That is what I have heard. No additional voices. Just general calm and silence. That's just so hard for me to believe, feels fantastical!

[@hannahk1306]

​@@Breadly_TV Woah! Is that even possible? That sounds like the equivalent of aphantasia, blindness or deafness to me - as though there's something missing.

[@Breadly_TV]

@@hannahk1306 From what I understand, that's how "normal" is. It's absolutely wild to me!

[@AlinaProbably]

​​@@BlajammerIt's just a stream of thoughts, one after another, and they're linked to one another most of the time. This video actually made me realize I don't have ADHD (some people have told me I might do but nope, no multiple voices in my head) P.S. Sometimes it's also silence, yeah, but it doesn't feel weird bc in that moment I'm probably captivated by something visually or by sounds etc so my attention is on that -> thus no thoughts. (I'm an HSP though)

[@Thomas_Winters]

I think it’s wild that people don’t think like this. How? Y’all really getting one thought at a time for an extended amount of time.

[@JonBrase]

I have ADHD, but I get just one thought at a---- Squirrel! Where was I? Oh yes, I get just one thought at a time, but there is *absolutely no guarantee* that it won't be kicked out of my head by another at any given moment.

[@SomethingWellesian]

I know someone who recently did an autism test (they’re almost certainly autistic), and one of the questions was, “I keep my thoughts stacked in my memory like they are on filing cards, and I pick up the ones I need by looking through the stack and finding the right one (or I use another unique way).” Their response: “Doesn’t everyone?” I said, “I can’t even imagine that.”

[@selfishbirch]

Strattera fixed this for me, i was so shocked the first time i took it and couldnt watch KZbin and work at the same time cuz it was too much, (and i cant get boring stuff done without KZbin, or i start doing random shit or hurting myself) then I got dizzy, but couple of weeks later it felt so natural to have one thought!

[@canwejustnot]

​@NeoniFan maybe that's a good description of an AuDHD brain?

[@Chill-d3n]

I have both adhd and autism and it feels like I can stick to one task but still have all this going on in my head. But I think adhd is what keeps me sane because when I take adderall I go crazy.

[@Fionanananananananana]

This is so recognizable, except that there's also a song playing in the background for me repeating the same part over and over again.

[@BattleReadyToaster..o_O]

Oof that it me hard in my feels...

[@catstanislowski]

Most likely, I believe I can fly 😊

[@sarahperkins2340]

One song lyric ,that you are trying to not only remember the words, but who sings it, oh wait it was in what movie? And who was the actress in the movie and she was also in the other movie with........

[@ineedfriendspodcast3623]

That's the worst 😭 Especially when it's a song you don't like. Why is it just that one part over and over and over? It feels like torture sometimes 🙃

[@newyorker2581]

Omg the song!

[@kayleegoodison9670]

I saw a meme that “you think YOU want me to shut up? I have to listen to myself even when I’m not talking” and OOF did that hit home 😅

[@nutmeg9593]

This is why I gotta live with headphones nowadays. I’ll put on the rock music to clean and get stuff done and the brown nose on to sleep.

[@fronk1646]

The racing thoughts when I’m at home drive me insane. Especially the ones that my brain keeps repeating but never actually finish

[@Yosetime]

I totally get that! A nightly battle. I have discovered a little trick to tire my brain zoomies out that usually works pretty good if I remember it when I need it. I like algebra (yeah, weird but it is like figuring out a hard puzzle for me. Haven't been in high school doing algebra in about 40 years, ish. I only remember the basics. So I get out a piece of paper and pen, write down a simple equation or find one online. And I focus on solving it, and keep going until I'm bored or my brain just gives out. I do it in bed so I can lay down ASAP and not end up wandering the house. Just as soon as the brain is fairly fried, I put a headband (the wide ones that girls use to hold back their hair, and put it over my eyes and ears. This often does the trick for brain zoomies at bed time. I've heard of others who use really hard crossword puzzles. Anything that requires your brain to work hard. Hard enough to make you tired. Not a game that you'll end up playing all night or anything on a screen or that might send you down the rabbit hole of hyperfocusing on some random thought that is really interesting, as we do. I find that the tactile feeling of the headband gives my brain a physical trigger that it's time to go to sleep and if I stick to my rule that once it's on, it stays on, it really does work, especially if I've tired out the brain zoomies. Worth a try.

[@christophsmaul5575]

I can relate to most stuff after 2:20. Constantly forgetting things, getting distracted by other stuff and forgot what I was doing and so on. Got diagnosed with depression idk if it can also cause that behavior o.O

[@fronk1646]

@@christophsmaul5575 I’ve not had an adhd diagnosis but had one for depression so guess it all goes hand in hand. Im an enpath/bare sensitive/emo bast*rd

[@annalauryn966]

The one that never finishes, sometimes i go back to finish it, and my brain forgets the entire thought and I'm like so frustrated

[@hiddenhand6973]

Look up vitamin and mineral deficiencies that cause intrusive thoughts

[@Everyday_IceCreamYT]

And still people think we are weird and lazy but we are trying our hardest to do the task but there is thousands of thoughts running through our minds making it super hard to focus and even do simple things.

[@AsTheWheelsTurn]

everyone has thousands of thoughts running through their head all day every day.sorry to break it to ya but you are just lazy. you dont WANT to put the effort in to focus so you use this as an excuse.

[@lifewithpuppup]

invasive thoughts make it so hard to sleep with adhd

[@Clevelandsteamer324]

Magnesium works miracles. Take some before bed. Amazing

[@GabbaDabbaDoo]

SO REAL BC WHY AM I THINKING ABT THE MOST GRUESOME SHIT IMAGINABLE IM TRYNA SLEEP

[@fanime1]

​@@Clevelandsteamer324 no, no it doesn't. I've had this issue for years and magnesium didn't do shit. Going to sleep isn't the issue, it's staying asleep. Anything that can cause you to wake up from the smallest noise to the a single thought can make you go into hyperactive mode and good luck getting anything to shut it up.

[@Datan0de]

Honest answer: drugs. (Preferably legal.)

[@renel7303]

​@@fanime1we cured mine. I would lie awake for hours sometimes with my mind going constantly. My therapist had me try different breathing techniques and the 5-5-5 sort of worked. Breathe in through the nose for a count of 5, hold for 5, breathe out through the mouth for 5. That's a count, not necessarily seconds. That lessened the frenzy in my mind and shortened it down to around an hour. Then she had me doing visualization. Close your eyes and picture a stream. Take what's bothering you or keeping you awake, put it on a leaf, put that on the water and let it float away. I tried. It was total hooie. After about a week of that I visualized a raging torrent, muddy brown water, uprooted trees, all kinds of debris. Homes were destroyed that kind of stream. I picked up a bushel basket full of leaves and flung the entire basket out onto the raging water. I slept so well that night and almost every night since. Now I'm usually asleep within 2-3 minutes. So try some outside the box methods. We're not wired "normally" so we have to get creative with our solutions. Oh, when I told my therapist what worked she just sat there sort of in shock for a minute or two.

[@briannab5296]

This is SPOT ON! Very well done! Now i understand why i stay so exhausted all the time without accomplishing anything. Thank you, i needed this!

[@AnjaLSL]

Yes. ❤️ This is why I carry a tiny spiral notebook in my pocket. And have postits taped to my keyboard at work. I don't expect to remember anything and that's why life works.

[@stephanieC2]

Great advice!

[@RamzyTheDad]

I also have accepted that I can’t remember anything. So if it’s anything that’s important it’s a “hey siri, remind me on this day at this time to do this” and “ok I’ll remind you” - saved me countless times

[@joshellis625]

@@RamzyTheDadYes! This is how I function. Cannot function without reminders… No matter how trivial the reminder I always say a time otherwise it won’t sit on my lock screen. I might say “Siri, remind me in 2 minutes to fill out that work form” even if I have no intention of doing that in 2 minutes. That way it just sits on my lock screen and I’ll see it every time I pick up my phone and I do not swipe it away until it’s completed no matter what!

[@AKcess_Dnied]

Ah! I hate those notifications. I have the impulse to clear them, but I know I can't or I'll forget, but I hate seeing the notification so I want to clear it. I suffer through but I need a better way.

[@lailanitukuafu]

​@@AKcess_Dnied I feel that, I absolutely HATE reminders. I unfortunately do not have the self-control to not dismiss them. I know I forget stuff all the time, but I have the flavor of ADHD that says "Nah, I'll just remember" so I suck at writing things down. When I do think to write something down, I text it to myself and keep the tab open until the thing is resolved (because not only do I dislike cluttered lock screens, but I despise leaving tabs open. Also I don't have a Notes app ☹️). That way I still have annoying reminders stressing me out, but at least I have a clear lock screen and don't have to see them every time I look at my phone

[@Quarce1]

I don’t know if anyone else experiences it but one that can be annoying or great is having a specific section of a random song playing on a loop intermittently while going about tasks. It’s terrible when it’s an unwanted song

[@game_4_growth]

There is a jukebox in my head and it plays non stop, every day.

[@michelemogck610]

​@game_4_growth Me too! Lol, I 'turn it up' to drown the (negative) self chatter 😅!

[@Charybdismoon]

I have this too, it will go all day if I am not listening to the TV or podcasts. The same songs usually too. When I was young, I would break out singing randomly without realizing it wasn't in my head still.

[@user-xe2hf6fi8d]

I do that too. But I almost never listen to music, so it's the same song for like a week sometimes

[@funnycadedishserver]

Sometimes it’s like 15 different songs stuck in my head

[@Nachtschicht1]

That's pretty much how I work... with the difference that I get overwhelmed and give up, before I get that far!

[@dn3305]

Me, too :') at the point with the dirty dishes in the sink and a full mashine...that triggered me even if it was just a Video! If this was me, this would be the point where I catch food and sit down sinking deep in food-paralysis...."Oh I just have to eat a bit and then start doing it!" "A bit more""oh still not done eating. A little bit"

[@Yosetime]

I have watched this video a bunch of times (it was up in shorts a while ago), and every single time I hear something different in that background talk (because it's hard to absorb it all at one time), and it's so validating for me. It's so well done that it really is a comfort for us who have it. And a very clear representation for those who don't have it and can't figure out why we do the things we do. I have a 140lb Great Pyrenees dog. She is not trained as a service dog as her breed is a Livestock Guardian breed. But she treats me like livestock, never takes her eyes off of me, somehow knows when I'm wondering around trying to remember what I was just doing and why I went into the kitchen, all the normal stuff. And I swear she understands my ADHD better than I do! When I say we are going outside for a walk, she goes to the door and just lays down to wait for me to go from starting to put on my shoes and coat, then remembering something I needed and go back to do that, back to the door, and repeat. It could take anywhere from 10-15 minutes to actually get out the door. When she figures I've got all I need, she will stand up, ready for her collar. Sometimes, even after all that, she somehow knows, even after I actually open the door, that there may be yet something else. so she pauses there for a sec, just in case. She does not judge me. Is so very patient, and is the best friend for someone with ADHD like this. I couldn't live without her. People, not so understanding at times and need some training to get it. Great video for all! Thanks again!

[@laurenhoover6024]

Awwww, I love your dog and I don't even know her! Thanks for sharing

[@michellem4287]

😂My dogs do that! Especially during feeding time - my whippet blocks every path except to the bowl.

[@auradieguez6013]

OMG so sweet ❤❤❤

[@SweetStuffOnMonarchLane]

Awe, what a sweetie! My Brittany is like that, but much less patient, lol! I get the exasperated vocal sounds like, "C'mon! You said we were going outside 10 minutes ago!!" 🤣 Doggies are the BEST! ❤

[@zuzuspetals9281]

My Border Collie is the same but not as patient. I miss my older Gr. Put and my Golden. Learning to live with a herder after having guardian dogs is an adjustment.

[@loonflam8910]

The "wonder how easily it would break 🤔" at 1:33 got me 😂😂😂

[@jamesmcmahon7837]

Excellent representation. Wish my place was so tidy though!!

[@olivialutfallah]

What wasn’t shown was all of the clutter that I shoved into the next room so it looked clean😅

[@heidis6210]

​@@olivialutfallahsame 😂

[@lisaadamson6761]

Riiight. That's what I was thinking. I would have pulled out so much random stuff, like start to organize the messy drawer, or find the scissors and set them down, forgetting why I needed them.

[@vbingr]

I'm watching this and I don't understand the simulation... and then I realize it's because this is how my head is too, so it sounds "normal". It can be so hard to get things accomplished somedays

[@aaandSCENE]

The "this is so boring" hits me so hard. The only thing missing from these for me are all of the despair and depression thoughts and the "oh god this reminds me of (insert a memory of someone i miss who has dumped me or a happy time that is no more) god I can't do anything I know they're functional and living their life and I am just watching my life pass me by nothing is worth this, why is everything so much work and why does everything hurt, why can't I stay distracted by anything positive...what was I doing? Ugh, there's the couch, forget it." Also your house is shockingly clean.

[@gjk-arts5855]

2:42 HYPERFIXATION CLEANING! thats how the house is so clean lol

[@hannahk1306]

She replied to another comment saying that she shoved all the junk into another room to film this!

[@aaandSCENE]

@@hannahk1306 yeah i feel that. All my mess is consolidated into little neat piles of organized chaos or shoved into a junk holding space closet, that's the closest i get to tricking people into thinking my place is....tidy.

[@aaandSCENE]

@@gjk-arts5855 I can only do this for things that are organic/smelly for fesr of bugs. So I'm good about trash and dishes and grime but when it comes to clutter, omg forget it.

[@ElsaVille]

@@aaandSCENE YESss this! I have all my little bottles of herbs and spices in alphabetical order…but the rest of my life is spent wandering around looking at the clutter, (organised and disorganised), thinking ‘how did this happen?’, ‘where are my to-do lists??’ etc. thank GOODNESS for this wonderful channel and for all the 1,000% relatable comments. It’s almost a lifesaving device!

[@TikiTrain]

OMG you nailed it. Thank you so much for making this. I can totally relate. Especially stuff like “I wonder if it comes from the latin word…”. And the self-criticizing thoughts.

[@sarahm2926]

Same here.

[@michelemogck610]

And the 'note to self' re: pills in the vid .😂 I do that all the time! "Mic Mem: appt. on Tuesday" note ... lol, but by Tuesday, I'd have no idea where or when!😂 It's refreshing to know we're not alone. I still believe it's a super power .... we just have to learn how to harness the power!

[@Xanthelei]

That last one is incredibly accurate for me. Not pictured is me getting overwhelmed right after the cut and panic doing literally anything else first!

[@MyHumanSuit]

This is my brain 24/7. The last part is the worst trying to explain to others for me. I have to do things in my own order and have this set up for that...I loved the visual task board for the tasks. That is what I needed. Thank you!🙏

[@TarynDacey]

These are honestly so true and the best way to show how my brain functions everyday!

[@Bluesapphiregrenade]

Me somehow able to focus enough to hear “water is such a gross feeling” me loving water is shocked

[@comicallylargerodent]

i adore water, but i gotta say, *dishes* water Is a gross feeling!! its somehow different from all the waters and makes me feel itchy and lightheaded and sick (though that also could just. be from me standing too long, lol)

[@SweetStuffOnMonarchLane]

I've always LOVED water. I take stupidly long showers because I find the water so comforting.

[@tomsteadman9520]

Your voices + my voices = so many voices! The two most vivid background ones are the the negative one and the little one that goes 'yay!' You captured those so well.

[@rsfaeges5298]

Brilliant "simulation", both the gestalt and the details, e.g., I love how items appear and disappear when you turn away/turn back, walk away/return.

[@nemallasuevasesaelpdog]

I Thought everyone thought this way. Until i asking people & showed them your videos, and everyone said, " only when I'm stressed out".. I don't like being in this dark world of separatism un to myself. SO DARK my depression... my dreams torture me... and when I was on meds I didn't remember my dreams. Anyways, thank u for your videos. I hope I make it...

[@kjc570]

Please please please call 899

[@kjc570]

Depression combined with ADHD is such an awful combination. Been there. Done that. Still dealing with it. I promise it DOES get better. Please reach out for help. Things WILL be better

[@kjc570]

Please call 899 if you are having deep thought spirals and think things would be better if you were gone 🫶🏼

[@grimsqueaker5333]

And then sprinkle some anxiety on top of those 2. Yay. I can't take ADHD meds right now because it makes the anxiety worse. Which affects my productivity... which makes me more anxious. Luckily I'm having fewer continous deep depression days.

[@dn3305]

Remember there is more than just one way of medication. Maybe this was not the one for you! I suffered from depression and the pills did not work for me, too. Then tried others - in my case some with effects on dopamine and noradrenaline instead of serotonine - and they worked. It was not gone but easier. Interesting: in my pregnancy my symptoms were SO much better (hormones..). But I did not dream those deep dreams anymore and often forgot my dreams, too

[@curetapwater5604]

The "writeitdownwriteitdownwriteitdownwriteitdown" bit was so perfect in a way I can't fully articulate.

[@inferno2046]

I enjoy these adhd simulations so much, it quiets my own little thoughts and is oddly soothing. Absolutely brilliant content!!!

[@cptpocket]

Please make more of these, more examples, maybe from different people's experiences. It has been a godsend when explaining my issues... well my entire 49 years of life really.

[@mamabirdie734]

💯 50yrs for me!

[@PamelaZKemper]

So relateable!!! SUGGESTION: I have been super reluctant to go on ADHD meds, but I'm always curious if it would be a game changer. *** Could you do a "simulator" that shows the difference between meds & no ADHD meds? *** To me, this is what life's like w/o meds, so if this is your life w/ meds...what do meds actually do to help?? (Legit question)

[@Yosetime]

That would be difficult because everybody's ADHD is different and everyone responds to meds differently. Meds are not a cure. They are a tool. For me, an absolutely necessary tool. It gives me the ability to take first steps, keep moving, learn and remember to follow the task list. I am wide awake and so very, very calm at the same time. I've never been calm, as in not anxious and unable to control my racing thoughts. It was such a relief. I just felt like a normal person and I was kind of upset that I went 55 years not knowing what was wrong with me. I have an IQ in the top 8th percentile, I've worked in very challenging jobs (now I know that those high stress jobs released that dopamine for me which made me function at a very high level, but if I was stuck at home doing nothing, I was a mess because there were no external pressures creating that dopamine. So meds can help you work with the ADHD and since most work independently on a single day and have no effect once they are out of your system later in the day with no harm done, it is definitely worth trying it out. I call them my daily helpers. If I don't want to get anything done that day and need to catch up on sleep, I just don't take the ADHD meds.They are very flexible while also being able to target certain times of the day. There are both slow acting ones that last all day or shorter acting ones. A lot of people have to try different meds before they find the right one. But please, ask a doctor, get assessed, do something. Going your whole life not trying these meds would be a shame. They are not street drugs like some sound like, totally different and they do not make you high. There are also non-stimulants meds that are available but I don't know much about those ones. In any case, please do not feel ashamed for taking any kind of ADHD meds. Also, besides Dr. Russell Berkley's channel, check out one called How To ADHD (or How to ADD, as it used to be called). You'll find lots of real medical information as well as lots of ways to live with ADHD if you have it. Also, it may lead to having your family members tested as well. It tends to run in families but can be quite different between individuals. You could be changing the lives of more than just you! Good luck!

[@jennlamaye3018]

I have always been super reluctant on meds, so much so that the Psychiatrist that diagnosed me at 41 said “I want you to get this prescription today, and try these tomorrow.” She could tell that I hesitated. I applaud try to find the “right time” to start something new… and by the time that unlikely scenario comes around, I’ve probably forgotten what I was going to do. So I promised. Here’s the thing. I got lucky with the first prescribed meds. I took one dose, and within thirty minutes my mind settled into peace. I remember looking around and clearly thinking “is THIS what normal is?? This is what it’s like for everyone else?!” (aka neurotypicals). I was so amazed at how the anxiety eased away and I could accomplish tasks (which only really required that I get started…). It took me two months to realize that my whole life I had been self medicating with sugar and caffeine. With the meds, I don’t need to do that for the majority of the day. I don’t know if you’ve looked into getting meds now, but I highly suggest at least trying. I feel like it’s one of those things that you know works or doesn’t for you right away. If it doesn’t work, maybe try something else. Because finding a way to make your brain work for you is so life-changing. ❤️❤️❤️

[@jennlamaye3018]

@@Yosetimelove your recommendations! “How to ADHD” was the very reason I went to get diagnosed. And also the person who made me feel most at ease for starting meds. ❤

[@noracharles80]

The meds help those with hyperactivity. If you have quiet ADD, the meds won’t help. I have quiet ADD, there is no hyperactivity. Why don’t they change it to ADD with hyperactivity for those that are hyperactive, instead of including the H in the umbrella diagnosis?

[@zoemacpherson2701]

I will always love little bit of the final countdown going on, I always have a little bit of internal music going on.

[@carrielizotte3814]

0:16 I already forgot what she was first doing 😅

[@likeretirement3245]

Omg I do this all the time! Only the list will get so long that I completely forget what I wanted to do first.

[@ventacc41124]

this is so real, people will still say adhd is fake

[@Placidtrip]

yessss this is so relatable! i found myself wanting to add a visual effect to show how our focus can hone in on something our eye catches. also some popular tiktok songs in the background chatter 🤣

[@breetoldyouso]

YES THIS! Or how when you can’t find something pointing at individual things will make the object just ✨appear✨

[@LLawlietFreak]

THANK YOU, that's EXACTLY how it feels. Thanks for bringing all these thoughts onto screen. The 'Write it down, write it down, write it down' felt soooo familiar. I'm always chanting in my head, too so I won't forget what it was I wanted to do, till the process of the task I've forced myself on focusing right NOW erases whatever I was chanting in my head and I end up forgetting what I wanted to do AFTER and what I was actually doing RIGHT NOW. So.. yeah, the whole video is SO relatable. Ironically, I actually set out to look up another thing on youtube.. until I got distracted by this video.

[@lynnmcdonald3401]

I just don’t understand how your kitchen is so organised and tidy I cannot get mine like that it feels like too far gone but my brain yes just like this and never an off button. This made me cry 😢

[@StudioCiel55]

"Undiagnosed" But..... THIS IS ME💯 Imagine with NO meds..... The amount of Unfinished projects is..... Will make me rich one day when I can FOCUS & FINISH What I start🙏 Prayers Welcome😊 LOVE YOUR CHANNEL💯

[@renel7303]

Good luck with that. Seriously. I wish you much success in completing stuff. I have unfinished projects, that I still have, dating back to 1973. Let that sink in.

[@dblackout1107]

Same feeling. I have projects in my back pocket as a musician that pale in comparison to what I showed friends and family 10 years ago. I got so bad about completing work as the projects became more complex that for a lot of them, they’re almost done but not quite. No sooner do I get close to finishing a song and I move onto the next because creating a song is much easier and more fun than cleaning up and refining a song. On the outside, most friends and family would have zero clue I continued honing my craft because they never see me post anything. They’ll be really surprised if I start getting these tracks out. I’m undiagnosed at 29 but had my first consult yesterday. She wants me to take some tests, but she said as far as first impressions I show signs of ADHD. The idea I may have an explanation for a struggle in motivation I’ve had my whole life is really life altering. If I do end up having this, it rationalizes so many things I was gaslit over my entire life for as just being my shortcomings/failures.

[@Marina-yb3nh]

Omg!! I had to keep stopping the video………I couldn’t think. I’m so sorry for all who have this as their reality. Super difficult 😢

[@Jorjaheather_1908]

This actually so accurate and relatable. Especially the voices singing and talking negatively in the background ( those get really annoying when I’m trying to sleep 😣).

[@EH-zo9cf]

These feel so exhausting and make me want to cry because this is seriously what life is like every day for me

[@AusNetFan13]

Precious Olivia. Is there a ADHD charity you're associated with? Would love to send them a contribution. You sure do touch people beautifully. 🌹

[@Procrested]

Om why is it so accurate and I’m like 3 seconds in…

[@azpugmama6917]

I have tears in my eyes because of how real this feels to me. I get you.

[@jessicaheger1880]

The constant background noise of conversations in my head is so damn relatable.

[@cheesygoose8224]

2:27 TOO BIG. ONLY SMALL FORKS.

[@bubbless_JoshuaColleyLover]

They say ADHD is having too many thoughts at the same time. For me it’s having absolutely no thoughts and just music

[@stephanieC2]

This is me 😭 i couldnt watch more than half cus it made me anxious to see it live....but oh yea back to what i was doing...?..meditation video..right!

[@wendyd_darling]

Oh my goodness lol TY for this! I've never seen anything like this? I can finally try to describe to other people what is going on inside my head. This is spot on! The keys keys keys is so me everyday all day!

[@weihurlee]

but why does bread go in the pot drawer? I wish we had clear fixtures so I could see everything in them. Love these videos, how you spread awareness, and show that using aids such as reminders isn't a fix but to help keep you on track.

[@janalovespaper]

It was hard to watch that and a relief at the same time. I make myself crazy. The whole thing was totally relatable, especially the background chatter in her mind, but her frustration when she realized she forgot her fork was what struck me the most. I'm ashamed to say I've never read a book because I can't focus on it long enough and then when I pick it up again to try to read more, I can't remember what I already read and basically have to start over. I'm easily overwhelmed and often shut down when I have multiple things happening in my life. It's awful.

[@pixywings]

Only thing unrealistic about this is how clean and uncluttered your house is. LOL

[@kiritokazuto4511]

When you mix adhd with ocd you can be pretty clean and organized

[@Dawnzy777]

You have a true gift! This is the first time ever that someone was able to reveal in a plain way how my brain works it made me cry. Shocked.

[@INFPeace-]

I don’t have ADHD, but I’m well aware of how real this is. I do have autism and my brain is always running rampant, but it doesn’t overlap to this degree though. I’m more of a dreamer. We neurodivergents need as much support as we can get. (Wink)

[@floppet]

0:45 “oh my god I forgot to eat” I felt that in my hungry ass bones.

[@TheRealMerBer]

I've watched more ADHD videos than I could possibly count, but THIS is the one!! My emotions are all over the place right now - hurts to see myself from an outside view, yet also so grateful to now have no doubt that it IS my ADHD and I'm not just losing my mind

[@donnaleeah5075]

TY this helps me to understand 2 people I care deeply about. One I've been thru at (she was putting too much on me to help her. I have heart and Kidney issues(I walked away from her totally) but am back in her life. But no longer helping her physically. She now understands I just can't. TY 4 the help. I had her talk to me as she cleaned, and had her vocalize the thoughts as much as she could. It's exactly as the video. I stopped blaming her. I wish more understood.

[@devond666]

I literally forgot I was watching this and it took 3 minutes for me to realize this was her inner dialogue and not mine. ffs

[@christopherl1767]

I thought this was normal. I think I'm finally convinced I have ADHD.

[@oingpla]

Thank you for this, i have shared it to those who don't quite get what i mean when i explain me. ✌🏼❤🌍

[@lammidloved]

Literally posted it on my status Lol😅😅

[@christophsmaul5575]

Can relate to most stuff after 2:20 . Constantly forgetting things, getting distracted by other stuff and forgot what I was doing and so on. Got diagnosed with depression idk if it can also cause that behavior o.0

[@agathles]

You have a very nice and clean house for someone having ADHD. great job! 🙌

[@ZsanettMeadowcloud]

My mom always says "Just get up and do it! Stand up, put one foot in front of the other and walk to the dishwasher and get the dishes out! Not that hard." But when I do that I focus on how I'm walking and then ill start thinking abt how funny walking is and then ill start studying it and like so much more and by the time I'm done I totally forgot and my mom yells at me and tells me to get up and do it or else she will hold my hand and drag me to the dishes

[@SharpBalisong]

One food in front of the other. Sounds like a clever way to lead a critter to a box and stick trap.

[@Nickolas_Baranski]

Mom clearly doesn't deserve to have kids😢

[@dn3305]

Om your story reminded me of how many thoughts of my walks I had :'D "am I walking normal?" "Is everyone walking like this?" "where should my toes point to?" "Heels first?" "Why is my knee pointing in an other direction?" "Shall I take bigger or smaller steps?".....and then someone said: "it's easy to learn! Just like walking. You learn it and then never think about how to do it again!" .....😅

[@ZsanettMeadowcloud]

@@dn3305 Literally me rn-

[@BurstingVeins1]

This video gave me PTSD of my daily life.

[@CJinHumboldt]

This is the best video for me to explain to others how my life is. I also show this video to others in my career so that they can understand the clients that they help on a day to day basis. Thank you for creating and sharing this wonderful video.

[@jcml14286]

the doctor said it’s “probably just anxiety” but this is literally me and idk what to even do anymore bc something isn’t right but there’s no way to fix it because she wouldn’t listen to me. idk maybe she’s right but part of me also knows under diagnosis in women is such a big issue with mental health bc of masking and i just don’t know bc literally everything i hear about adhd and adhd masking in women just hits me so hard to the point ive been in literal tears, but there’s just nothing i can do and i feel so stuck lol. i just realized that’s kind of a long rant but it’s fine whatever i just needed to let it out ig? idk bc what if im wrong i don’t wanna be one of those people who acts like they have smth they don’t but also i feel… understood?? when i watch these?? not that anyone cares ig i just needed to let that out. i felt like my doctor didnt listen or give me other reasonable explanations for my thoughts and behavior so its just frustrating it feels like no one understands or cares whether i have adhd or something else.

[@FranklinFranklin1234]

But god forbid you go to another dr. Then you're "doctor shopping" and "seeking drugs"

[@maddielaiii]

you just said exactly how i’ve been feeling..

[@jcml14286]

@@FranklinFranklin1234 i know idek if i would choose medication, it would just be nice for once to have a solution and know that it’s not just a problem with laziness or carelessness and it’s not all always my fault. it would be nice to feel heard and understood and be able to seek the specific help i need when i need it. but instead i have no answers. this doctor also hasn’t listened before when i was sick for like three months though lol im planning on trying to switch and when i graduate i’ll probably see a psychologist to figure out this whole thing 😭 i wish it wasn’t so hard to figure out what was wrong mentally lol

[@mizzthe8-eez820]

​@jcml14286 If U CAN switch Primary physician, then U SHOULD switch. U have the right to be heard. U are paying THEM to hear you. - Yr Dr. may be partly right, about anxiety.... but it's not "just" anxiety as they say. Anxiety CAN come from having ADD or ADHD. -- Seeing videos like these, & going thru comments can help LOTS. U won't feel so isolated & can learn from others with SAME issues.

[@bagodrago]

There's nothing wrong with seeing a new therapist/psychiatrist if your current one isn't listening to you. Try to specifically find someone in your area with expertise in ADHD diagnoses. Different therapists will have experience with different things. They'd be more likely to recognize your symptoms than someone with more general knowledge who's understanding of ADHD is lacking/outdated. If you're not sure it's worth because you don't think you need drugs, there's still behavioral therapists/coaches that can help you with coping strategies once you get a diagnosis.

[@SabsterB]

OMG! This is the first time I've EVER seen anything that explains what goes through my brain everyday! 😭😂😢😂😅🥺🤦🏼‍♀️😱🤣🤣🤣🤣

[@Jae-by3hf]

This was so helpful to explain what is happening in my head! I just say that my brain doesn’t shut up! But this is a great example to share with others of how so many things are happening at once and how easily I forget things because so many things are going on in my head!

[@tinykatsuki]

this is so real. i also have a random song playing in my head in a loop very often and i have a hard time concentrating because of that

[@fragglegoth]

1:55 Argh! Pharmacy! Must stop watching right now and go before I forget again!

[@johannes523]

Ironically, my ADHD makes it really hard to follow the content of her thoughts because the same thing is going on in my head while I watch.

[@allankaige7364]

This is so relatable for me. It can get so frustrating. The amount of times that I have to get up when I'm gonna eat or that I have to get back inside the house when driving somewhere is ridiculous.

[@doomngloom96]

Usually I have a random song in my head, my inner monologue, a voice that responds to that inner monologue, and a mean big sister pointing out all my mistakes lol and that’s just the audio part

[@MichelleMcphine]

Thank you for this❤ I am in tears right now..i tried talking to my husband about this and now I feel ashamed for saying anything to him. I feel like he looks at me like its just bs..im feeling so overwhelmed right now and very sad. I feel alone..however your videos are so helpful. ❤

[@ninjaoffire6963]

the tasks multiplying at the end is so relatable oftentimes i feel like the old kids song "theres a hole in my bucket" and get overwhelmed by the enormity and sometimes ciclical nature of the tasks

[@ninjaoffire6963]

for those who dont know the basic rundown of the song is: Theres a hole in my bucket Then mend it How can i mend it? With straw The straw is too long Then cut it What should i cut it With a knife My knife is too dull Then sharpen it How can i sharpen it With a stone The stone is too dry Then wet it Whith what shall i wet it With water How can i fech it With a bucket THERE IS A HOLE IN MY BUCKET!

[@Ezmir_Orsini]

This is me. This is so sad. This makes me realize how not normal I am. It takes a lot of effort and energy to focus on one thing

[@uIt3riormotives]

cannot tell you how relatable this is. everyday is just.. this.

[@malismama]

Just add a song playing in the background 😉

[@lilred6644]

For over 50 years I just thought I was multi tasking.

[@BeKindAllTheTime]

"I need to do 7 tasks in order to do 1" - my life in a sentence. This is why I get overwhelmed when I am trying to clean, especially my room, because there's so much to clean and I have to plan out how to organize it before I can actually organize it. That involves 1) thinking about how to organize it, 2) making a mess of other parts of my house trying to figure out how to organize my mess, or going to the store to get new stuff to organize, 3) finding places to put stuff, 4) moving a lot of my stuff out of my bedroom so I have room to organize, 5) actually organizing places to put my things, 6) putting my stuff into their organized places, 7) repeating steps 1-6 for the rest of my house that I just made a mess of. So in total that would be 78 tasks if I counted 6 tasks for every major area of my house. That's why it takes forever for me to get anything done 😊

[@MercuryWolff]

i watched this with sound off and i nearly cried 😿 at the resonance.. it’s like taking a look 👀 at my own process

[@SYA357]

This is me on exceptionally bad days. When something has thrown me off track, something I can not deal with. Makes sense since my ADHD might be a good deal caused by psychotrauma.

[@TheArtemis07]

You are inside my head! It’s torture. My mind never slows down. And I have to multitask all the time because I’m a teacher. So, I cannot finish a thought, much less get anything done. And I can’t remember anything without immediately writing it down. Thanks for posting this. It helps me understand not only how I think and act, but it also shows me that I’m not alone.

[@mycroft16]

And then suddenly the part of the pre frontal cortex tasked with making active conscious choices decides to take a sabbatical and that voice is screaming at you to get up and do X or Y but you literally can't because your body is waiting for the brain to make a decision and all it's getting is hold music.

[@myphinisheris0waot]

im personally attacked by this video

[@jak7321]

😂You are spot on Olivia! I've dealt with this my whole life. Thank you for the humourous take on it. Repeating words internally and running to perform tasks before something else pulls my attention away! Thanks again😊

[@pariahmouse7794]

I had to stop watching because it reminded of about 30 things I need to do, haha... SO ACCURATE- I even started getting a headache, just like real life!

[@suspicious_fishes]

And then I look back and go “How didn’t I get anything done? I was busy the whole day!”

[@caleb6513]

This is sooo accurate that it's... painful Lol

[@terrapinflyer273]

I feel that some people may not realize this is every single day. It continues indefinitely, despite the video ending lol. What an amazing job at capturing this feeling. It truly is a work of art in my opinion. I was just thinking yesterday, that if someone asked me if I hear voices, I'd most likely respond with: "Other than my own? No." I don't think half the time that the presence of such condensed internal dialogue could be associated with ADHD. Or that some people don't think in the same way.

[@jesscasto]

That last one is every day

[@crystalthunderheart8895]

The perks of having two hands. Carrying both the flowers and the bowl- and hopefully not losing them along the way while the thoughts keep raging on

[@newbeginnings5610]

Add three kids to this who don't talk in turn, and living in one room with four other people for almost a year, after becoming homeless. 😢 Im sobbing watching this video. 💔 I am not okay 😔

[@renel7303]

That must be so difficult for you. I truly hope your situation improves soon.

[@SabsterB]

Btw, I was diagnosed in 1993. My college advisor asked if I had ever heard of it and said 2 of my professors had approached him and told him they thought I had it. 98% of non med ppl had ever heard of it then. It took me, my mom, Dad, stepmom and stepdad all meeting with a psychologist over 3 months, together and separately, as well as me filling out at least 1 or 2 HUGE packets of paperwork per week before she gave me a positive diagnosis. Then I had to be referred to a pediatrician for my meds. There I was, just turned 18, sitting alone in the waiting room with a ton of Mom's and kids. I didn't know until I was in my 30's that she had told my parents that I would never hold a job for longer than a month to 3 months. That it wasn't my fault so not to be upset with me. They told me on my 3yr anniversary of being a certified pharmacy technician. I'll never forget. It's crazy how easy it is for kids to be diagnosed these days.

[@AEONFLUXx7]

I had to stop this video a couple of times before getting to half the running time just to let the overwhelmed feelings calm down… I get SO MAD at myself for exactly the same behavior Olivia is portraying. I have an anger problem that squeezes my stomach so hard I can barely breathe and I get easily triggered by situations that are completely out of my control and when they happen…. I have to fake being calm and rational so nobody notices I am at the edge of rage.

[@janiej.4738]

You are great 👍🏻 I feel less lonley. Thank you so much ❤

[@janiej.4738]

@OliviaLutfallah5 you’re doing pioneer work ❤️

[@beezwacks]

I was watchign this video and usually I don't totally feel adhd simulaters but I was watching this one and WHEN I TELL YOU I LITERALLY SAW MYSELF. >

[@roygunnargranmo4641]

That's SO me! I hope the health service of Norway will realize they're wrong. And give me a ADHD diagnosis

[@lisaboolee]

Yeeeessssss..... my last 2 years, omg help👋😱😩 Nothing is ✔️ Done.

[@Xariann]

It's rather striking the amount of self-berating that goes on in your head when you are frustrated that you forgot something again. *Hugs* and thanks for the education.

[@katnissgreene]

If I say first, does that make me a liar?