AGUST D (BTS Suga) - The Last REACTION | Metal Musician Reacts

[@sabrielandoj5748]

Some added context for some of the lines: there was a concert early on (I don’t remember exactly which one but I think it was abroad) that Suga missed due to his social anxiety and he was very angry and disappointed in himself for a long time because of it. It’s clear that all the members love army as much as we love them, but I’d almost say that Suga loves us the most. For example his first birthday after debut they had a fan meetup and he made 300 gift packages for the fans that would be there. He designed cute sticker labels, spent his own money on travel cards and sweets to put in each one, and hand wrote notes for each one. Assembled them himself with the help of a couple members. There ended up being 350 fans at that meetup so when he got home he made 50 more and got them posted to the fans that missed out. He’s always been doing things like that for us. Going above and beyond.

[@LynnHermione]

Exactly, it was a concert in Japan, they cancelled both dates.

[@meli_he]

the story is that in december 2015, in their kobe japan concert, tae and yoongi never got to the stage so it was cut short saying they didn't want to perform with just 5 members. fans were told the other two were at the hospital. No one knew why until the next month when Yoongi posted a really long letter to us about his anxiety. He went back to the kobe venue by himself after the concerts had passed and told us that on top of his stage anxiety, he was sorry for disappointing us and not being able to stand on stage that day.

[@minholly6229]

True.. I remember that..tae and yoongi can't perfome coz their on hsptal.. But i never relaize until now..tq so much for making me realize..

[@onyabeia832]

This is true story. Just him being honest as usual. He's been suffering from depression since this childhood. But Thank God is ok now.

[@jmirandakim]

Depression never goes away. You just mange it as much as possible. It's a life long prison sentence.

[@onyabeia832]

@@jmirandakim yes he does. Cause you learn to deal with it and the cause of it. But it take times, sometime a lifetime, a lot of work to face your demons, psychotherapy and lot of love and you'll be in a better place. It doesn't come overnight and it is not the same path for everyone. Keep fighting there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Borahe.

[@blehheh3096]

@@onyabeia832 it doesn't go away, ever. yes, you learn to deal with it. but it's still there. yoongi still has depression and it MIGHT be better but we don't know, even with the "I'm really alright now" in the song we don't know if he said that just to not make us worry...

[@xxheart_breakerxx8732]

@@onyabeia832 it will never go away. Even when you learn how to deal with it, it is exhausting. Sometimes you might feel like it's gone, but it will come back just as fast and destroy your life for a second, for a minute, a day, a week or maybe even a month or longer. It will forever creep up on you and you will forever be "trying to manage". It will never go away, but I'm happy he seems to manage it well lately. (if it's true)

[@bestboyholland3217]

@@jmirandakim It can go away

[@cora7480]

The coughs and gasps in his flows or as adlibs add such emotional intensity to the song that even if you are not reading the lyrics it will affect you. This song is really amazing and thank you to your friend for selecting this great translation! If there was any part of me that wasnt sure about how much I enjoy your reactions, this reaction just made it. 💜☂️

[@nevermindminyoongi5271]

Agree

[@Umla80]

Suga really bears his soul when he raps...

[@nevermindminyoongi5271]

Agree

[@rosskoike226]

This song is one of the reasons why yoongi has a special place in my heart. When I first listened to this song, I shed a tear even without reading the lyrics. I would love to hear your thoughts about First Love. It's one of his solos. It's very different from his Agust D persona, and at the same time the same in a sense that it vividly tells a story and will get you straight in the feels. He said he cried when recording that song, it's one of my fav of his

[@nevermindminyoongi5271]

Me too.

[@rafisahanum3621]

It shows from his voice..he hold so much pain..when i listen to it yes, i feel like why he sound so desperate and i check the lyrics..and i cried! 😭

[@minijoo3]

Yoongi has always been my favorite in BTS. While all the other members have had issues going on, such as Jimin with body image issues and Jungkook's loss of childhood, Yoongi was the one I connected to most. So, here are some fun facts about the song. Yoongi didn't really want to be a famous idol when he was younger, he basically just wanted to produce music for people. His parents didn't agree with his career choice, and after already being poor with his family, having to decide between a few dollars worth of a meal, or a bus ticket home, he moved to Seoul to sell his music on the streets, where he was often scammed by people. He managed to get into Big Hit, where he apparently did some B-Boy dancing, until his nighttime job as a delivery guy got in the way. He was hit by a car, damaging his shoulder. He refused to tell anyone about his injury in fear of getting kicked out of the trainee program, so his shoulder basically healed wrong s he can't dance as well as he could. On top of that, Yoongi has issues of depression, and anxiety in a place where mental health isn't taken as seriously, and there isn't many places to go and get help.. So the fact that Yoongi has prevailed through all of the hardships in his life and managed to become one 7th of the worlds most famous band, is amazing. He is so inspiring and he got me through a lot of hard times in my life. PS, he and his parents are okay now, there is a super cute clip of him performing at a concert that his parents attended and he bowed fully to the ground, on hands and knees, which in Korean culture means ultimate respect.

[@mirvale87]

What i got from this song is, he has struggled with labels other people have have pushed on him Because of the meanings and curses other people associate with those labels, but when he came to understand that he doesn't have to sell out to make his music, he doesn't have to change to be an idol, and when the support net around him grew stronger, he was able to change his view and accept that YES he's an idol, fuck all these assholes that think it makes him less of a rapper. Show Me The Money is a reality show where idol rappers generally make an appearance to "prove they're real rappers", suga refused to do it, and he got a Lot of criticism for it. Here he is saying it's not that he didn't do it because he was scared, he didn't do it because he saw no need to prove himself outside his work. And fuck that is sexy. His mental battles and his sorrow created a strong artist. His mixtape Agust D as a whole was a story about his life until 2016. It had lighter tracks, tracks about the fame monster and tracks about depression and not knowing what to do. That mixtape is beautiful and raw.

[@nevermindminyoongi5271]

Agree. AgustD is a treasure to me. Everything about it is make me want to love this world, I want to fight to live, to be happy, to cry , to dream and to walk, run more for tomorrow. I'm cry for whole night when I hear the last and cry again when I hear so far away and nevermind. As an introvert, I'm scared to open my struggle to people even my friend and family. I was bullied and sexual assaults since elementary school and bla bla bla. I go trapy/counseling and learn psychology so I can live without worry. But even now, i'm afraid to sleep sometimes . Discover BTS is a 8 Wonder in the world to me. All the song is masterpiece ,for me at least. So I learned to love and appreciate my self more. BTS fighting 💪 AgustD fighting 💪 To myself fighting 💪 Thank you for reading this nobody story. I 💜 U

[@aleshaw4762]

@@nevermindminyoongi5271 , fighting💜💜

[@mirvale87]

@@nevermindminyoongi5271 fighting! 💜💜💜💜💜💜

[@vherz018]

@@nevermindminyoongi5271 fighting army, i not good at words sorry. You are a brave person

[@pooge7510]

yoongi has stated previously that he struggles from depression, social anxiety, and ocd. (and i want people to understand that ocd is not keeping things neat and having them look aesthetically pleasing. having with ocd can involve dealing with highly intrusive thoughts that control someones life and obsessive and compulsive tendencies that can make someone incapable of living what we would consider a “normal” life.) we don’t know what kind of ocd yoongi has, but it’s obviously a disorder that has heavily impacted his life and potentially career.

[@edith1315]

thank you for saying that, as an OCD sufferer I cringe everytime people use the term to say they like things organized, or clean, my OCD has nothing to do with that, but I still take my meds and still struggle with it on a daily basis, I love the way YoonGi adressed this kind of issues on his mixtape is really empowering.

[@pooge7510]

Ana E. of course! i have a very close friend who has ocd and she is constantly teaching me and explaining things to me about ocd. it’s important to teach people that it’s a disorder for a reason and to not follow the stigma and stereotypes around it

[@annemargarettemagno]

Super true! I also suffer from OCD, and that meant having to deal from this intrusive thoughts, I would constantly have to make the "bad" thought, to "good" one.

[@jordyn2906]

I first found this song when I was in a really bad place mentally. It actually helped me confront myself and come to terms with my own depression and anxiety and get the help I needed. Thank you for reacting and speaking your thoughts on it. This song is very special to me so it always makes me emotional when I see someone else appreciate it. I'm looking forward to your BU journey! I hope you have a nice day/evening. Annyeong~~💜

[@nevermindminyoongi5271]

Same here.

[@justsammi9285]

As someone who has suffered from major depression and a severe anxiety disorder with slight OCD for years, this song really spoke to me on a different level and I sobbed the first time I heard it. I go back to it alot during my low periods because sometimes you just want to feel understood. Yoongi was so raw on this track and I felt every single word as if he were speaking for me personally. He learned to not let his issues define him but he still struggles, just like I am trying to do myself. It's one of the reasons why Suga is one of my main biases alongside Hobi....he gets it. He gets what so many ARMY struggle with but are either afraid to talk about or just feel misunderstood. I know that feeling and I love him all that much more for opening himself up like this because not many artists would.

[@T7Karou]

He has talked about his social anxiety/phobia a lot: interviews, Burn The Stage (ep 7 i think). On an interview with Naver in 2018, he said that it seems to be something he'll have to deal with for life, but wants to send the message that we can find a way to "study" this together and find a way to live well He also said he never wanted to be famous, just to make music. "I would never take music lightly/as a joke. Do you know how hard it was for me to to this point?" he tweeted in 2014

[@inactive1393]

man, theres so much i could say about this song- i was so emotional when i first heard this song back in 2016, he had never really opened up to this extent back then and you could feel that this song and mixtape was getting a lot off his chest. even before i read the lyrics, i could hear the raw emotion in his voice and it gave me chills. i think the part of the song that hits me the most is "shit, shit, i get it, please stop", you can really hear his exhaustion from everything he's gone through, and that feeling of wanting to give up because you're just _tired_ . this song means to much to me, ive been considering getting a lyric from the song or the title or something as a tattoo since i first heard it. to know that he's been in that dark place and felt the way ive felt yet managed to get to where he is today is really inspiring and comforting. its also a pretty big deal that someone with his platform is talking so openly about mental health and things like suicide in korea where it's still a pretty taboo topic. they have the 4th highest suicide rates in the world (used to be 1st), these things need to be talked about and seeking professional help needs to be normalized.

[@nevermindminyoongi5271]

I'm the same situation too. You speak nothing but the truth. Thank you.

[@inactive1393]

nevermind min yoongi 💜💜💜

[@vw2770]

He was hesitant to release this song even though he has it done for awhile. Bang PD encouraged him to release the song cuz they know sharing his true story will help a lot of fans out there who experienced depression and had contemplated suicidal thoughts. Listening to Agust D sings is like going through mini therapy.

[@tibowmew]

Both Yoongi and RM in particular had to deal with the change over from being a planned rap group to being an idol group. Before BTS and BigHit, there was a certain perception of what it meant to be an idol and I always took that to be a bigger part of his struggle. I understood him to be giving in, not to a darkness exactly, but to realizing that he IS an idol, especially if that means that he can still tell his story and make his music and not be defined by the label of idol. I saw another comment explaining Show Me the Money pretty well so I'll leave that be. Great reaction! After listening to The Last, I always find it refreshing to listen to So Far Away on the same album. I'd recommend the version with Jin and Jungkook though!

[@nevermindminyoongi5271]

Agree.

[@Windprinceinfiresman]

Suran sings beautifully on the OG track though. It’s a nice contrast at the end of the whole mixtape...

[@Diana-fy8uo]

This song and RM's "Do You" are essentially Suga's and RM's final nail in the coffin to the whole "You're idols, not real rappers!" backlash coming from the hip-hop scene in Korea in the late 2010's when BTS debuted. He says that his social depression started at 18 which would be when he joined BTS. It's sad to know those immature comments made by narrowminded hip-hop heads affected his self-identity to the point of suicidal thoughts but thankfully in the end he resolved that yes, "his address is idol" and while other rappers pose and pretend to be hip-hop, he works hard. Yoongi is right, he didn't need to go on shows like "Show Me the Money" to be validated as a "real" rapper. Many rappers from that show had a very superficial understanding of hip-hop. As a hip-hop and general music loving fan, Suga, J-Hope and RM have a much more sincere and unpretentious approach to music.

[@Neha98]

Im glad you reacted to this one because the translation is actually really good - there is a more popular lyric video that has more views but the lyric translations have mistakes and dont fully capture the song so ive always been really frustrated about that (thanks tina) - this video was a great choice and I enjoyed the video a lot ❤️

[@Amiiinka]

Could you please please please send me a link to this lyrics video? Or tell me the name of the channel where I would find it? I try so hard to find this exact lyric video, but I can't. 😢

[@claudiaputri984]

agust d go crazy hard in the first mixtape and as much as i love that suga, you can tell he was in a dark place writing it. yoongi has grown so much since then and to see him writing happier and lighter music is the best gift for us.

[@tibowmew]

Another thing about this song, this was right around when BTS was getting a lot of attention and starting to gain a huge influx of new fans. Yoongi used to be more closed off and could come off a bit standoffish to some fans that didnt know him well. I think that after this album came out, and he got to say a lot of what he wanted to say, fans had a different perspective one him. Since then, he's been a lot more open and looked happier, which we've loved seeing.

[@sherd602]

Thank you for your reaction. All of the members of BTS are talented artists and amazing human beings but I think there is something really special about Yoongi that stands out. There are so many reasons to love and admire him. We are so blessed with his solo music.

[@JAD_BTS_ARMY]

yoongi struggled with depression since his 18, no one was able to talk about mental health before he is telling his tru story, this song helped so many Armys to overcome their struggles and i was one of them, i learned from suga that it only me who can change me! heals myself and it worked i decided to live.. thank you for your reaction💜 ps: Seasaw is also about how we still live with this disease every day up and down .

[@KHINEKOOKOO]

I thought Seasaw was a love story and relationship. 😫

[@JAD_BTS_ARMY]

@@KHINEKOOKOO noooo seasaw is about living with depression everyday somedays you're happy and good and somedays you're down and sick Suga is always so deep in his songs ,, seasaw =up and down with your mental health ut's a platonique relationship too ....

[@LynnHermione]

@@KHINEKOOKOO It is, its about a doomed love. Idk where this person took this interpretation but it was never stated that Seesaw is about depression. Don't trust people online, look up what the boys themselves have said.

[@LynnHermione]

Seesaw is not about depression, where did you get that? It's about a relationship, it's clear in the lyrics. Not everything Yoongi writes is about depression...

[@Neha98]

- Ax is a really small arena and Gym is olympic stadium (there was a time in BTS's career where the first 200 people to show up could enter free to their concerts as well) - Show Me The Money is like a rap talent show that a lot of kpop idols have gone to - its kind of like the show where lots of now famous rappers who used to be or are currently in idol groups sort of proved their metal as 'real artists'

[@KaterynaM_UA]

That Buffy moment, huh, why do you make me like you even more? I was already into your videos a lot??? I was waiting for this one a lot. Now I need a Tony Montana live! =D

[@chasingautumns]

"Ax to Gym" Suga and BTS started performing in a small venue called AX Hall but now (in 2016, of course) plays the much-larger Gymnastics Stadium in Seoul. And thanks for another thoughtful, insightful reaction. I love Yoongi dearly and now you know why this song was suggested by many!

[@rikhmjustsomeguywithmousta4971]

Now, all big stadiums sell out in seconds

[@serendipitum1694]

Love seeing people really try and understand Suga and what he has to say, a world class act is what he is. Literally dubbed the Hand of Midas by South korean media because any music that touches his hand turns into gold

[@sometimessiri.8559]

This song breaks my heart in so many ways since I've suffered from depression that started when I was a kid around 12. It got really bad when I was around 19 and did some pretty stupid things that I won't go into details over but I can relate to this song a lot. It made me cry so hard because of the pure pain and hurt in his voice that you can't fake. Yoongi is my bias because he's the one that has made me cry the most, I can relate with his songs and he doesn't shy away from such a hard topic. I wish I had music like this when I was a teenager and young adult because while depression never goes away we can get through it.

[@nevermindminyoongi5271]

True. Me too

[@pmk7211]

This song is extremely powerful especially if you consider the fact that they were not as popular or as respected back then. Keep also in mind that Korea is a conservative country that rarely talks about mental health issues, and even more so, in the Idol industry where everything has to be squeaky clean all the time. BTS managed to break all the norms with their brutal honesty and organic talents! First Love is another little masterpiece by Suga. I cried my eyes out when I first listened to it. I think you will like it too because you are a musician yourself!

[@ericweinman9447]

I have to say I am quite pleased and impressed at the maturity and depth of understanding shown by most commenters on this channel. I have seen a cavalcade of immature and erroneous commenters when responding to newbie reactors introducing themselves to Agust D, so much so I actually was starting to lose faith that ARMY had not become a cult. The Champ of Medium has drawn a much higher quality of commenters, people trying to elucidate rather than steer using debatable opinion and treating it as facts to achieve an inculcative agenda. This is one of my favorite songs by anyone and I feel no need to comment as you all are doing so well.

[@TheChampOfMedium]

I have the best subs. I'll die on this hill.

[@ericweinman9447]

@@TheChampOfMedium Takes a great reactor to draw great subs. Kudos.

[@ceriseiron]

he's very smart himself so he's able to attract armys who doesnt subscribe a reactor's channel who reacts for the sake of reaction. for me, personally, i like him because he's not fake and he gives input and opinion which are valid

[@WiseOwl_so_1d_like_to_think]

EGO of REALITY - You put your finger on it. He has conquered his demons through raw and reflective honesty, which is perhaps the most difficult thing to achieve. Only true artists do. Agust D is one of them. So, when he smiles these days, it is like sunshine. It feels like with D2, he has reconciled himself with who he is, the total package. It shows in the diversity of the tracks, each song being musically mature, confident and satisfying! He says he is no longer angry. Now we WAIT for other passions to ‘infire’ him... social justice (we saw some of that in UGH!) Hope, Love? His experiment with a new vocal style and genre is also so promising (you remember Set me free?). Suga is the REAL DEAL.

[@sherrylm3844]

Just got to say, I'm glad I found you're channel. I haven't watch that video with those translated lyrics. Much, much better than the other ones available.

[@ipurpleyou5227]

I am happy that he is continuously beeing happier in recent years. He often told us this from 2018 until now.

[@MoxiePoxy]

Yes. A 1000x yes. Thank you for watching a correct lyric video of this amazing song!! Most reactors pick the one with the most views and it is horribly wrong and I'm always disappointed when they watch it. Thank you sir, for making this Army proud.

[@jebalifyouplz]

This is my first time watching you and I really appreciate your reaction to this you nailed it with the different "versions" of his self battling. A lot of people won't go into the deeper agust d lyrics. Idk if you know but addressing mental health is still kinda taboo in Korea and it's really borderline unheard of for idols to talk about at all. Especially talking about going to therapy? You don't usually hear about it until something drastically bad happens to them. There's a lot of stigma surrounding it all still. His lyrics are actually what made me love BTS. I relate so much and that matters when you want to be an authentic musician/artist and not considered "just" a pop act- the relatability. As others have stated, yes he's dealt with depression, social phobia, and OCD (intrusive thoughts). He lived a whole life before BTS and it shows in his lyrics. I'll check out more of your videos!

[@celsacarrasco4222]

🗣️ hello! first time on your channel 🤗 thank you very much for reacting to BTS 💜 The whole song is true the concert, the depression, the social phobia ... and that hurts a lot what I like most about SUGA is that one really feels what rage, anguish, hopelessness, joy and literal hope sings EVERYTHING! my theory is: since he is SO introverted in his daily life, when he sings he simply CANNOT control his emotions since that is HIS way of communicating We must remember that 2016 was VERY hard for them 😭 Thanks for your reaction you already have a new subscription 😬 departed from Latin America Chile 🇨🇱🇨🇱🇨🇱 I hope it is understood since I am in the translator 🤣✌️

[@bltotrs92]

Thank you for the reaction! The Last is so raw. It really touched many of us with it's brutal honesty.

[@droitsdelhomme8162]

Everything said.. rapped I this piece ... is true. After joined BTS, he was unfairly criticized by his under ground hip hop community. That's triggered his anxiety n depression. He did see the doctor. And when there a concert in Japan Osaka, he didn't performed, becoz of the anxiety. That's the lyrics he sang " hide at the washroom"... later on he did live streaming apologizing to ARMY ab his being unwell n etc. So this song is ab His fight with depression N social anxiety, and dis rap towards his peers who blamed him to be an Idol.

[@nolabound3865]

I love Suga. His perseverance is always star of the show. 💜🌎🔥

[@behindzerosp]

The beep art is where he is asked if he was thiking of suicide . This song is so hard to listent o because I admire Suga so much but my connection with his music went above and beyond because I expirienced many of the things he is talking about

[@justinseagul6306]

When he talked about hiding in the bathroom because he was afraid of crowds, it happened at a concert in Japan in 2015, only 5 members went on stage they said that Yoongi and Taehyung were sick so they went at the hospital, they performed about 3 songs I think and then they cancelled the concert, and one day Yoongi said (I think it was through a letter) that he was actually there but he had a panic attack so he was hiding in the bathroom. After I heard this my respect for him grew even more, he really had been through so much

[@NB21Adventure]

Please react to Suga other song called “first love” it about his love for music and playing piano. And also please react to “dear my friend” from his mix tape D-2 both song doesn’t have music videos so you can react to the lyric once. Love your reactions 💜💜

[@T7Karou]

Dear my friend* ;)

[@NB21Adventure]

Spoiler free thanks I didn’t even realize I wrote it wrong 💜💜

[@T7Karou]

@@NB21Adventure 💜😘

[@iamiamiamim]

12:39 I am really glad that you bring up that part of Suga. To those who’s not familiar of him he might come across as cocky but he is not. I think he is one of the few famous people who can understand how much of power he got but at the same time how fragile this fame is. That’s why he can walk a thin line between the confidence and the humility. Stan the genius!!

[@tiny_hyebin]

This song secured him as my one and only ultimate bias - I could relate to so many of his struggles and I feel like the intensity of it breaks me down completely only to put me back together stronger than before. I love how raw and honest it is and I can honestly say that I have never heard anything that hits deeper than this song in my entire life.

[@tatadreamer9583]

This song is my favorite from his previous Agust D mixtape.. Its really touch your mind and heart.. Whenever you listen it... Lyrics or his voice thats really touch you like its your own story.

[@xyg2788]

i love how open and blunt yoongi is to create such raw emotion.

[@kryssyb3368]

Will I ever stop getting in my feels? Nope. I just relate to Yoongis struggles so much and he puts his emotions into his songs so well. I remember where he said he cried while he was recording this.

[@katyownsyou]

i can't believe this song is real, we're so lucky. with the fame part, this was 2016 so before they were super huge (yet to win any big kpop awards). another song with wonderful lyrics written by him is tomorrow, i hope you listen at some point, there's a good 2017 live performance too

[@mochipjamas]

So much I want to say here, but first I wanted to say that I freaking live you for using Faith as an example of someone who fucks up and doesn't think she's redeemable, so she just lets go and plunges into the darkness (until Angel, whose rock bottom is literally a soulless serial killer) helps her realize she is can save herself, and indeed is worth saving. They were my favorite characters in that universe for exactly that reason. Among many. I was a huge Buffy/Angel geek back in the day! As to Yoongi, well... of a group of guys I respect and adore all together and as individuals, Suga is the one I really feel the deepest connection to. This song, especially, hits so hard, and so close to home. I admire and respect him so much as a human being. He has always been seen as somehow cold and detached (at least in the past. Now he's the often warmest, funniest, and happiest of the group), but he is the member who metaphorically opens a vein and exposes the mist vulnerable parts of himself to his fans. He openly talks about topics that are verboten and socially taboo in his culture. He has truly done amazing things to try to normalize discussion of mental health. Just saying he went to a psychiatrist was a huge deal. The part that is bleeped out, as you surmised, was about the shrink asking him if he was ever suicidal, and he admitted he had been. He also references a time early in BTS' career that he had such a bad anxiety attack that he couldn't go on stage, and hid in the bathroom. SLEPT on the bathroom floor. This man has fought (and probably still does) some dark demons, and yet he is at the top of the world, a respected artist and prolific producer. He has all the riches and fame he ever dreamed of, but he has chosen to use that power to help pthers. He says he wants to get a degree in counseling so he can help people like him. I mean... He could just float in a sea of adulation, fame, money, and ego all on his own, but instead he stays with BTS because he believes in what they stand for, and what they can do for the world.

[@user-ur8mb6bh7u]

hahahaa the buffy background cracked me up quite a bit! lol! and the seiko to rolex part means that he got richer and the AX-korea was when they first had their showcase when 2000 people came and their latest destination was the biggest stadium which is olympics gymnasium which can accomodate around 24000 fans. Always love your take on their songs man! Borahae The champ of medium!

[@armyonpluto]

This is one of the reasons why he's my bias - the amount of emotion he can convey in his more serious songs (eg. first love) is unlike what I hear from a lot of other artists. For some reason his emotions always reach me

[@taniaolivera5751]

what you said about him accepting the darkness that's inside of him, that toxic part of us everyone has but in his case it seems to be worse, reminded me of Shadow, he addresses this in that song as well. Also, I love the font at the top, very pumpkin like ☺️

[@jimjimcherie]

I'm glad you reacted to this lyric video!! It's one of the best ones. I wanted to watch this way earlier but I was watching Hamilton the Movie with my friends. So, The Last is the song that kept me alive in 2017, this song and actually his whole mixtape is what kept me going. I can relate so much to this song without the fame and success aspect I guess, but i can relate. I struggled with depression from around the age of 13 to the age of 21, I've been on the verge of s**cide several times, and in 2017 when i was finally going to go thru with it, BTS saved my life with their LOVE YOURSELF era. I've been listening to BTS since 2015 but as a casual listener, 2016 was hell to me, actual hell, there wasn't a day where i didn't have a panic attack and it just- it was hard, i found sollace in Hamilton but it wasn't enough, I was in a very, very bad spot, and in 2017 BTS saved my life, especially Yoongi and Jimin, they helped me a lot. I owe them.

[@sush07]

It's his story...he is touching on a number of things here. The main part is his fight with depression. He has said that he suffered from it and seeked out help. The altered voice of the doctor asks if he has had suicidal thoughts, and he says yes. I have read that depression, mental health and especially suicidal thoughts are somewhat of a taboo subject in SK, especially with public figures. Or atleast it was when this song was released and that's why the doctor's question is altered to be unclear. And this makes the song that much more powerful coz he is putting it out there that such things exist and it is okay or preferred to seek out help. No need for shame. He also addresses the rappers who accused him of selling out. He was ridiculed beyond imagination, him and RM, for debuting as an idol. Also, " show me the money" is a reality type rap show, I believe, which BTS haven't gone on. He is saying that it's not that he couldn't do it, it's just that he doesn't want to. He also touches on that nothing that he/they have achieved has come easy. He had a shoulder injury during his trainee days while doing a delivery job. (The effects are still there.) He had the job to support his college then. He has said in an interview that at the time he was scared to tell BH that he injured himself coz he thought they might kick him out, and even danced/trained with the injured shoulder making it worse. But then Bang PD nim found out, paid for the treatment, plus for his college tuition, and told him that Yoongi should have said it right away. Back to this song, he says who else would do it? Who else can make it all happen if not him after all that suffering and hardship. Yoongi has talked about how he originally only wanted to be a producer and started rapping to put him on that path. And that many had 'cheated' him by not paying for his songs (before BH). So he is accepting that with his team, aka BTS & BH, fans and family beside him, he will fly and succeed no matter what. This song always feels like a testament to me. Him accepting his hardships and depression, getting all the required help and deciding to move forward.

[@roselynnaga1111]

Every time I listen to this song it breaks my heart & wonder how can someone be so expressive,emotional & honest... This is the very song that brought me to BTS world,when I first heard this song I was like who is this guy&I googled & then kept digging&digging & now m Yoongi Bias & an Army.. I just love Yoongi & respect him so much for who he is.. The wait was worth it thank u Champ for ur genuine reaction loved it

[@shirayamakai5866]

This is my favorite song from that mixtape. It's so raw and passionate. It always gets me emotional.

[@Nevermind_-]

I just went through all 44 of your BTS videos, and I'm so excited to see your reactions. They've been all I've been watching. I hope you continue down the BTS Universe storyline!!!!!

[@TheChampOfMedium]

Tomorrow RUN mv!

[@SC-sh5jw]

I listen to this everytime im angry or sad, I just sit there and let yoongis voice serve as a conduit for my own pain. I'm so thankful for this song.

[@chencalo]

Suga is my bias, too because of his honesty and sincerity. He hits you right there 💔. But I have to say the reason I hit subscribe was that Buffy/Faith bit in the middle! ;)

[@MISSJONASFOREVER2]

Thank you for reacting to this. You pointed out things I haven't even thought about and I've heard this song so many times. I agree though, Yoongi is very self aware and aware of the world around him. I think that is what sets him apart from other artists.

[@myrthelmay1073]

I first saw them perform on tv around Dec 2015 when they perform Run on a music show, I love the performance but Im not into Korean idols that time. I watch their mv's not knowing the story or the struggles they've been thru. His mixtape was released around August 2016 when I myself was struggling mentally (broken family and my 5yrs old dog died) I still remember the day when I first listen to his mixtape I was looking for words to express my pain but Im not good putting up my feelings into words and I really cried hard that day I was just in my room replaying The Last and So far away how he beautifully express whats in my mind also that time. After that I started digging up to them I started loving them and up until now their songs brings me courage, comfort and hope. Whenever Im having a bad day, Im frustrated, Im mad, im lonely I just see myself playing their songs. All of their achievements makes me feel so proud and happy. They made a big impact in my life, they made me fight for myself.💜 Thankyou so much for this, I'm just happy when people discovers them. They are so genuine, humble and kind hearted.💜 Im happy I saw your channel in my recommendation lists. 💜💜💜💜

[@nancyhennes]

2.5 years ago when i was just discovering bts, i watched a lyric video of this song a few days after watching spring day and the explaination video for it... it was a rollercoaster of emotions and tears and i knew then that i wanted to support these 7 amazing artists who are immensely talented and real. Those 2 songs will forever have a special spot in my heart no matter how many times i listen to them. 💜

[@LynnHermione]

If you want more Yoongi I recommend the live version of First Love in the Wings tour. Just breathtaking, and it's also his story, this time between him and his piano

[@HealthySelfNThrive]

I'm so happy that you finally got to this song. It's definitely a track off his first mixtape that I found to be one of the most intense and personal. It hit me the hardest when I read his lyrics. I remember it like yesterday. I had been going through something at the time and took a minute to listen. I had no idea what I was about to experience. Short story short, it's a song that brought me out of depression and gave me hope. It's amazing how someone like yoongi can do that. I hope you get to the rest of his songs on both mixtapes soon. ~Stay safe always ♡

[@ClumsyMumsy]

Was that Buffy and Faith I saw in the background? If so, thumbs up! Love that show! Good reaction too, very thoughtful, double thumbs up!

[@ApotheosizD]

Yes! It was the first time Faith killed a human, and Buffy confronting her about it and Faith not caring. Then it was when Faith went totally deep end and was begging Angel to just kill her because she deserves it 😭

[@ClumsyMumsy]

@@ApotheosizD yes, such a good show, I still watch episodes of it now, best of it's genre!

[@fierte]

I thought you might like to have some context to the stories in the song. 1. They were struggling to make ends meet so Yoongi did a delivery job when he had an accident and busted his shoulder. He used to b-boy before the accident but is not really able to anymore. He hid the accident from Big Hit thinking they will take him out of BTS. Here's the story from his own mouth kzbin.info/www/bejne/gXKXnpiPgZmkbJI 2. That bleeped section in the song is the doctor asking him if he had considered suicide. In Korea, references to suicide is censored. 3. When he talks about wanting to forget the memories of a concert. I know Army (who know about this) get sad about this but since you probably won't know about it, I thought I should share the information with you. Yoongi had a breakdown due to social anxiety and couldn't perform. Tae I think had an illness. Big Hit refunded the audience for the concert. A traumatizing experience for the boys. kzbin.info/www/bejne/iKrCpnWYf7l-jpY 4. Yoongi actually spoke up about his depression in a vlive in 2014. I think by around 2018, he had become a much more stable person emotionally. Actually from 2016, when he realized that their struggles were over, he really opened up more and more. Smiled more. I think everything else is pretty self explanatory..

[@dunkelwoelfchen]

Once Buffy was onscreen I couldn't focus on a single word you said, but I somehow still understood! This song is still my favorite Agust D song, it is really important to me. It just touches me ever time, you can hear the desperation in his voice and the lyrics are hitting me deeply, in a way that I really relate to them. Then, when it crescendos after the break in the music, that's the moment that I'm always looking forward to, when he's not holding back anymore and just let's everything out. Still waiting for that moment myself

[@ladynymue]

You had to bring Faith in via the analogy of getting sucked into the dark and ya got me. Right in the heart.

[@sherb9841]

I really appreciate this detailed analysis and the attention you gave the subject matter. Thank you. I do think he’s aware of his influence. But tbh I don’t even care if there’s ego there, I literally bought 15 copies of this man’s FREE mixtape when it came out we are way past that point 😂😂😂. Thanks again - I’m off to check out some of your other stuff.

[@nilkajubitana7878]

Min Yoongi is a musical genius, who had the courage to create his biography i this song. Being a support for so many people who are going through similar feelings💜

[@poppyroper6566]

the honesty of yoongi in this song was what surprised me the most when i first heard it. he was telling us thing western artists might not even dare expose, let alone korean artists. the raw emotion is so clear not only in his lyrics but in his voice. you dont have to understand his language to feel every word he says

[@tinav6576]

The emotion he conveys in this song is so powerful. You can just feel the pain, hurt, struggle because has gone through. Great reaction to this!

[@cam8462]

I love your reaction to this and your thought process behind the lyrics. The first time i heard this song I has devasted but in the end everything he wrote his truth and he is raw and he doesn´t want to hide it from anyone. It takes soooo much courage to say everything he wanted to. I think you are right about the "reality ego", but the fandom has grown soooo much since 2016... I think he knows in general how his fandom is, the fact that he adressed that nobody is doing it like him so we can be proud makes me remember something he said in an interview one time about that he can´t explain how that much people stay by their side for so much time and that a lot of fans are misunderstood beacuse of their liking which is true. I´m actually so proud of him, the amount of respect I have for this man is just out of this world. To me these boys have the purest souls I think him and namjoon had a really hard time getting used to be "idols" because of their undergroud rapper beginnings but they did so good. Besides all the hate he got, he has been having inside troubles since predebut but im happy he is better now, you can notice. This is getting so long now.... Thank you for reacting and understanding him :) borahae💜

[@notmindingmybusiness4469]

just found your channel 30 mins earlier was watching the Daechwita reaction been wishing for the last reaction then.... HELL WHAAT??????

[@TheChampOfMedium]

IM HERE!

[@mariloutan4050]

Welcome to this channel.

[@sfk4383]

Damn this is really the only reaction to this song that I like! Love that way you think and express your thoughts! Subscribed

[@bananastandmoney6644]

How do I give this video 1000 likes??? You’re reaction was so good!

[@TheChampOfMedium]

I appreciate but I'm cool with just the 1 my friend

[@kiinah5956]

Agust D- the last still manage to make me cry every time I listen to it. I still feel the pain and it never getting old.

[@erikoenglish1651]

Finally. My favorite song is So far away ft Suran from his mixtape

[@karlafm24]

I love you for that Buffy insert.

[@lemontea417]

Just some lyrics explanation, the line where he mentioned his shoulder injury, it was referring when he was a trainee (before debut around 2011-13), he was doing delivery part time jobs by motorcycle, and he got hit by a bus, I believe, and crushed his shoulder He never told anyone about it because he was afraid that the company won't let him debut because of it, he went through the whole training process enduring the pain, he used to be able to do b-boy moves, but can't anymore because of it For the 'Show Me The Money' bit, it's a rap competition TV show, haters (especially other underground rappers) were demanding him to go on the show to prove himself as a rapper, but he never did....CUZ HE DOESNT NEED TO, shows are for shows, his music now trends no.1 worldwide whenever he releases them, there was never the need for him to prove himself to brainless haters

[@sruticranjith5194]

I think maybe you can react to their recent festa party. The boys were talking abt how yoongi is more cheerful and ready to open up abt his thoughts to them now. Also “show me the money” is a rap program which so many rappers participate in sk. So bts rappers were mocked that if they were great rappers why didnt they go up in the show. (Its a shitty show honestly). So he was calling them out. Comparing his gmfirst mixtape to now i think he has become a lot better. This song was revolutionary and important to be released in korea becs, mental health is a very taboo and touchy topic in sk. Depression or social anxiety evn visiting a psychiatrist is not seen well in sk. As an Indian its the same in my country too. So it was a shock of the brutal honesty with which he opened up to his fans. The whole song is just chilling to the core.

[@xalxvx]

The part where he said he wanted to erase the memory of a concert & hid himself in the bathroom bc he was scared of people, he was referring to the December 2015 HYYH concert in Kobe World Memorial Hall, Japan. Yoongi & Taehyung were rushed to a nearby hospital after facing sudden nausea during rehearsal. By recommendation of medical staff, the two were unable to come up on stage. This caused the concerts to get cancelled afterwards. We never heard Taehyung’s perspective but Yoongi wrote a letter about it a month after (January 2016). Although the fans respected their decision to not perform, he said he still felt really bad for hurting many people by not performing that day & he was fed away by guilt, anger, & regret, causing him to never sleep well thereafter. But i’m really glad he feels much better now :(

[@febl76]

Yes! You are so good at analysing and love your reaction. He seems much more balanced nowadays. Challenging himself with arts, philosophy and psychology. Please do D-2. 🙏🙏🙏

[@tinaaikaa77]

Been waiting, lets gooo 🤩

[@Neha98]

The video rec was a great choice!!! ❤️❤️

[@tinaaikaa77]

@@Neha98 Thank you! Many good lyrics videos have been deleted lately, so was little hard to find a good one 🙄 and then have to think about the claims also... this is a small channels videos, so Im positive its claimed by bighit.

[@chasingautumns]

Can you provide a link to that lyrics video? I'm always using "The Last" as an example of why I love Suga and BTS so much. Thanks!

[@tinaaikaa77]

@@chasingautumns kzbin.info/www/bejne/jauqpGWvedKVatk

[@nicolesterling9046]

You have done a really good job with this!!! You have earned a new fan!!!!!

[@ericksontrani7728]

The moment I heard this... I cried. Until I heard it again and again. I still cry. It just shoot right thru you.

[@leticiapires1679]

Also you're right, this song its basically Agust D talking about Min Yoongi that now is Min Suga and, and the hole 1srt mixtape is on that, cuz now in the new one he finally have accepted himself as Min Yoongi, Agust D and Suga, and that all of them is just one person

[@SkyGodKazuha]

I have watched every "react" video of The Last but you wee the only who was able to give me a whole new perspective. I just realizes that his parents took him to a psychiatrist during his trainee days. But before that he had a huge fight with his parents because they didnt support him on going to Seoul to pursue a music career. He was only 17 years old (18 in Korean age) at that time and had not even graduated from high school. Thank you for making me realized this information. Thats why when he was training in BigHit, he took the last year of high school in Seoul where RM and him are schoolmates (there are photos of RM's graduation with Suga in the internet).

[@jmirandakim]

At 3:45, the lyrics says (I killed him). He literally kills himself on Daechwita MV.

[@TheKariLP]

Este tema de Yoongi, me provoca piel de gallina, como First love, y outro tear

[@kyber_heart]

I literally cried so hard the first time after finding out the lyrics/message behind this song Also if you wanna enjoy Yoongi (& the rest of bts) jamming out on stage w a rock band, I suggest checking this out: kzbin.info/www/bejne/ZqeuXq2qqrCKidU It was a performance with Seo Taiji & the Boys (basically the origin of modern day K-Pop)

[@KHINEKOOKOO]

It's actual story, I believe. The first part is he's talking about the past - his younger self. After a pause, he stated the current situation of 2016. They were not this popular yet. But, they were on tour across the globe already. As a three years old Korean group, it’s a big deal. And when he said he was 18, actually he was 17. :D The way of Korean counting age is one year older than international age. After passing his 17th birthday, he became 18 years old. And Yoongi's angressiveness in Agust D persona and BTS Suga is quite consistent. Because, rappers in BTS wrote their own lyrics. He's ambitious and he also found he hit the wall and got pressured even after he joined BigHit cuz they're idols from smaller company and didn't get much chance. Still, they managed to rise above other groups from big companies and got rookie awards. They had stress to be part of final lineup and debuted. After debuted, there’re hundreds of groups out there and got pressured not to be disbanded. He also had identity crisis at early stage. He and RM were underground rappers when they signed with BugHit, they were supposed to be hip-hop group. But, Bang-Si Hulk changed the decision and some of the rappers left. Suga and RM stayed and they became part of idol group’s rappers. The rappers from BTS got criticisms from hip-hop community as well as idol community. Idol community saw them as not look good enough. :) Didn’t meet beauty standard. :) Hip-Hop community saw them as wearing make-up and became gays/girls as idol groups. Anyway, they learned how to dance and play along with cutesy things. He has identity crisis but he accepted. The song “Idol” is about that. They don’t care or less care whatever people said idol or artists or real rappers or idol rappers. And “What Do You Think” reflects on that and got explosion. Again, “What do you think” was written in 2018 and released in 2020. He’s telling the real thing, at least that’s how he feels. And he’s always burning something. Although, he became more adult in D-2 mixtape and he also admitted he didn’t have much reason or anger to become as explosive as he was in his first mixtape. He’s glad that he released the mixtape at that time. Now, his way of thinking and the way he sees things are quite changed. By the way, it’s taboo in Korea that artists express mental health let alone sing/rap when Agust D mixtape came out. The idol groups usually maintain smiling faces and polish faces and act like everything is ok.

[@victoriagonzaga6715]

This is why he is my bias. He makes me cry

[@blarmy827]

Honestly bts sharing their mental struggles is a huge part of what makes them so special for a lot of us... they’re not afraid to be vulnerable... to put their pain out there in the form of a song so they can help others to not feel alone. A few of them really have been through it mentally and if you really listen to them when they’re asked about themselves personally. Like jungkook recently did this interview and even though at the age of 14-15 ... he has been the main vocalist, sub rapper, on the dance line and the center if their performances since debut. Even though he was two years younger than the next oldest... that’s a tremendous responsibility for such a young boy.. he had it way back then so much that these roles were given for him to take on. Anyway, he has been called the golden maknae since debut bc he picks things up quickly and he’s literally amazing at anything he tries or wants to do.. it’s pretty nuts really when you see the compilations of his talent , work and effort it’s really crazy. However he said that he envies the way others see him and he doesn’t feel like he’s that at all so he has to try to be that person for us... he said he doesn’t work hard enough and that he’s not good enough..which is insane bc we all know that every single one of these guys kill themselves to be their best every single time and they push far beyond what we can ever imagine. It’s heartbreaking hearing that they still feel that way so strongly. Each member is a gift to this group and really to the world with the positive impact they’re having on the youth especially. They’re a perfect example that mental struggles can effect anybody, who has anything and at anytime ... it’s important to remember that they’re human. Love these dudes and everything they do!!

[@LoveYoonMin]

I love Suga. Period.

[@gentlekai1019]

oh man thank u for this. lots love xxx

[@cindylepo6784]

True story. And Yoongi still today talks about his importance of finding the balance between him as Min Yoongi the man and Suga of BTS and Agust D. In 2018 he spoke to being the happiest in his entire life. The best thing I know is I am so happy BH provides all of BTS with counseling. Mental Health in SK is pretty taboo. (Many idols have committed suicide, sadly.) Bang PD puts a lot of value in their mental health. And yes, Yoongi is an introvert. You should react to First Love by Suga. Its amazing.

[@dariajustdaria2292]

i remember tearing when i first saw the lyrics...Yoongi has been through a lot, that's why he's so relatable and is a great role model for the fans. Im just glad he's happier now

[@LynnHermione]

All the mixtape is a story, the first songs tell his life in chronological order, this one is in the middle, and it's his journey to acceptance of himself, and the second half of the mixtape talks of his fears about fame Dat Buffy reference tho

[@charos6316]

God. Sir, please keep doing it. Always rediscovering and falling in love listening to those songs with you. Thank you Sir.

[@KHINEKOOKOO]

The Last along with Agust D mixtape came out Agust 2016 on SoundCloud only. Later, I think, fans complained about it and moved to other streaming platforms in 2018. As soon as, it moved to paid streaming platforms, almost two years old mixtape appeared on the chart. "The Last" was at least almost four years old. It's not from 2018. Still, two tracks - Intro and Agust D - two songs are on SoundCloud only.

[@janetsbridgeofsighs8974]

Love this, feels very real.

[@yoongisrose6968]

Agust D the last -> Shadow -> Daechwita. I wonder if anyone will find the connection. Agust D developed after killing Min Yoongi and became Suga's Third alter ego. After that we went on to shadow where Suga was having internal war fare with Agust D, we heard both Agust D and Suga on that track ( it was like hearing NF's intro 3) . Then moving onto Daechwita, after having the fight with Suga, Agust D broke from his leash and develed into his path of the currupted king. Suga came to kill Agust D. Before he became too dangerous but we didn't see that he killed Agust D, that means he isn't dead yet. I wonder what's next