ALL ABOUT MY LATEST MANIC/PSYCHOSIS EPISODE! 🤕❤️‍🩹 | Bipolar 1 with Psychotic Features Diagnosis

[@lilipurr7228]

Thank you for sharing Austin. I feel your pain, while I don’t struggle with psychotic features I do have BP 1 so I understand. I’m glad you are feeling better ❤

[@Jeff-cr6sp]

U really explain bipolar 1 with psychotic features better than anyone I have seen

[@erika9115]

This resonates with me - my last manic/psychosis episode happened out of nowhere after 8 years of stability while I was med compliant. It has turned my whole world upside down. I was working full time, independant with my own apartment and dog and car and working on building my community and begin dating. Within a few weeks of psychosis, I lost my job, lost my apartment, was hospitlized for 3 weeks and ended up living with my dad. I haven't worked in 8 months - the recovery was brutal - a lot of nothingness and anhedonia. I work so hard to maintain my health - exercise, good food, good sleep regimen, vitamins, medication etc and still - psychosis happened. I believe what triggered it was dating - I was getting excited about someone. Which is sad. I'm 34, single, no job and live with my dad at the moment. I'm hoping to work again and be independent, but I am aware of the stress working entails. So it's a rough journey. You're not alone.

[@nikawest8435]

We have the same diagnosis and similar experiences, particularly believing I was God, mother Gaia etc. I grieved so much during recovery and it took years to get to where I am today. I was manic and psychotic for a year the first time, induced by an SSRI and sadly also marijuana (it triggers psychosis for me instantly) it literally was brain injury! So heartbreaking, I can relate to the legal troubles too. I've been on so many meds, they got me back to a stable mind however, they also come with serious side effects and long term negative conditions like developing diabetes and thyroid function, excess sweating, jerky movements, lithium od... treatment can be scary too but therapy, the right team will do wonders, different kinds of therapies and routines help. I love that you have a gratitude journal and wonderful hobbies which bring you joy. You deserve so much joy, I see your heart and it is so abundantly gorgeous!! I want to assure you that you are perfect and beautiful. Don't let your dreams die for what you want to do. I'm on just vraylar and Lamictal at this point, trying to find my passion with how I can make a difference in the world and get paid for it. Sound therapy/bath helps so much, working on lucid dreaming, dream journaling as well. I also love that you're working with the law of attraction and have a vision board. You're personality inspires me so much, it helps me be more kind to myself and see that I'm just as beautiful. My team works with me on my goals, I hope one day to meet my better half and maybe have a child and provide the stable home and love I never had. Your dreams will happen my dear, it will. I felt the same way that my dreams, just being "normal" was not in my future. I'm about to be 35, love, and it doesn't matter when it happens, we cannot give up on ourselves. Success is how you define it, not what anyone else tells you. The sad construct of what the general idea of success looks like is boring and unimaginative, things you are not! Your creativity and what feels good will lead you to your success. You have more control than you know! I had my first therapist for 5 years as well, and we reached as far as we could go in my development and even though it hurt, I was carefully transitioned to a therapist who is working with me similarly as your new one. She's been incredible, I can't believe how much work and progress we made. I love your videos so much, I feel with you, I hate how much guilt you're carrying. It's ok to let that guilt go. You are so wonderful, I just don't have enough words to express that at this time. I really love you, your energy, you are unbelievably strong and are so invested in such an admirable way of helping others by sharing your experiences and shedding light on the reality of this condition. You are so creative, powerful in the way you handle yourself. I understand how it is to accept responsibility for things I've said and done while manic and in psychosis, I just want you to not feel ashamed and guilty. The grief, oh the grief. I'm sending you hugs and lots of love. Your sparkle is so profound, don't let anyone steal it from you, just nurture it and see where life takes you. The depressive side of things, I'm no longer afraid of because I know I lived through them and experience every day what it's like to feel better. Psychosis is a tricky one, so I just try to keep taking care of myself with small and large victories every day. By the way, I care for THREE kitties, and sometimes I am stressed but I trust myself at this point. They bring me so much laughter and joy, and I love providing for them. Trust yourself, trust in your good nature and let everything unfold in a way that will amaze you. It might not look like society's standard of success, which again is so unimaginative and workaholic based with hardly room for enjoying peace and joy life offers. So, what does success look like to you? Why does it look like that to you? Does it bring you joy thinking of success like that? If you could change success from what you were told it's supposed to be, into what you want it to be, what would it look like for you then? ❤❤❤❤❤❤ you deserve joy.

[@austintsulilohi]

Thank you for sharing this!

[@janicedenny9369]

You speak the truth.

[@janicedenny9369]

You are strong for sharing. Its a difficult struggle.

[@shellywright163]

Love you, Austin

[@austintsulilohi]

Love you too!!!

[@Amethyst93xo]

Oh dear. I’ve also been having some episodes. I’m still recovering. You just explained everything I’ve been going through from the mania to the blackouts and something taking over. Please don’t ever stop sharing your knowledge on this topic. Hugs❤❤❤ love all your chuckie and Tiffany masks too ❤ Update: they just took custody of my baby boy :( I’m going to see my doctor about maybe trying Thorazine or a mood stabilizer. You’re on my prayer list Austin ❤ we can be strong together united. we love you. Another update: I get to see my boy in a few weeks here ❤ I’m feeling better slowly with each day. I’m trying to be strong for my son and soldier thru this. I am now taking lamictal and zyprexa. Hope you’re doing well Austin. Prayers

[@Jeff-cr6sp]

Dont give up on your dreams

[@deboralangford-belcik2466]

If you don't want to give up on your dream, then don't. I mean it. It cannot hurt any more to try that it does to give up.

[@deboralangford-belcik2466]

Thank you for sharing. It really helps me

[@Jeff-cr6sp]

I am diagnosed bipolar 1 with psychotic features i lost my job and apartment i can't handle any stress but i have a five year old i don't want them to take my little boy.i live with my bf

[@NurseRatchedTV]

“GOY” is most definitely a Slur I know because I’ve been called it.