Always speak your truth and from the heart. ❤️The loneliness and isolation of Psych med damage.

Just a video I threw together to explain the loneliness and isolation one feels when harmed by psychiatric drugs. I just offer some words of advice, encouragement, and support for this incredible transformational journey. I dearly hope everyone who has been harmed by these psychotropic drugs to speak their truth, and from deep within their hearts. ♥️
Stay strong fellow warriors. 💪

[@TheMeeperman]

So much respect for you making these videos and making people aware. I wound up in a psychiatric hospital in February after tapering too quickly off Escitilopram having been on it for 18 years. Thought I was being cautious tapering with a pill cutter over 6 months. I had no idea at the time that it's the drop in the lower dosage that has the huge impact on the receptor occupancy and does all the damage. Needed to do a slower liquid taper I now have an ebook copy of the Maudsley Describing Guidelines by Mark Horowitz and suggest anyone wanting to taper get it and show it to their doctor so they understand what a safer taper schedule is. Thank god there are some good psychiatrist out there like Horowitz.

[@livingunderachemicalinflue5849]

He’s doing good work. Apart from him, DR Yosef, DR Joanna Moncrieff, and a few others, they are very hard to find unfortunately. All the best on your tapering and healing ❤️‍🩹 journey.

[@dianemorrell9638]

Yeah baby!! I also offered a copy of that awesome report along with an amazing letter to my iatrogenic denying doctor, from coach/ advocate Angie Peacock and a report from the deprescribing clinic "Outro Health". "It's not possible!" the doctor shouts at me. So says the wolf in scrubs ;) I wont ever attend her office again without bringing an advocate with me.

[@marleneholik-ls9wr]

Receptor occupancy?? Educate me please!

[@marleneholik-ls9wr]

@@dianemorrell9638good for you. They don’t know!! One dr told me I should have been ok after one week! Never went back. Unfortunately I couldn’t get anyone to watch the videos about what I was going through. Takes too much of their time!

[@georgios4891]

We recognize you brother and you validate us. I admire you, you are a true warrior. Stay strong ❤

[@Snowflake1374]

Suffering too after fast taper. Its cruel and lonely. ❤️

[@Unodostres1944]

Mate-I have been tapering of benzodiazepines, it’s been a very lonely difficult road but listening to you makes me feel I am not alone in this. Thank you for having the courage to show up for your brothers and sisters despite the conflict you’ve been having. Lots of love mate 🙏🏼

[@1MNUTZ]

Those tears are a sign of healing the emotional centers in your brain are trying to come back online don't harden your heart let the emotions run free be true to yourself. Scream out to God let God know all your troubles and surrender them all to the Most High. Do not fear just like a rainstorm washes away the dirt your cries and your tears are getting rid of the pain. Through the darkness comes the light you will prevail. No weapon formed against you shall prosper. The only way is forward we cannot go back in time we can take this present moment and turn it into some greater in the future. Lets go warrior! we didn't come this far to go back we came this far because we warriors brother.

[@carmenmcquillan6249]

Your young, you will heal. Im much older 58 , still tapering of xanax. But i wont give up. And you will get your confidence back and your hope. Yes i know we have been badly treated. Me too! Just let it go and take it a day at a time. Your strong. And helping others. Bless you and your bravery ❤

[@AlbaLynxQueen]

I am so sorry to hear that your brother has ME and that you are suffering so much. My journey into psych drugs started because of Long covid /ME that was triggered in 2021. I wasn't believed and gaslit. I had fevers, nausea, brain fog and debilitating fatigue. One GI doctor prescribed me Paxil, because "it was all in my head". While I was taking it I was ok. But when I tapared it in 2 weeks, I got hit with a cascade of new physical and mental symptoms. Now it feels like my body and nervous system is destroyed. Medical gaslighting is horrible and it ruins lives

[@livingunderachemicalinflue5849]

Stay strong 💪, take things day by day. Where there is a will, there is a way.

[@healing.buddies]

Insane to think a GI doctor would prescribe something so toxic to the gut

[@lonnievisch6009]

I do understand you. It’s such a hard ordeal. You are such a beautiful man outside and inside. You will find a loving partner! Hold on!! We are you’re buddies, all in the same boat. One day you will be better! ( woman Europe 46 month out of AD. Getting better windows and waves) ❤ Better next time talk inside. Too much noise🌹

[@ashleychristie5023]

Can I ask when it stopped being constant for you? When did you get your first window?

[@lonnievisch6009]

@@ashleychristie5023 hi. I had windows from the start. So much that 3 times I called my job ( nurse) and said” I am healed, I come back” .. but the next day or hour or hours I got slammed and was bedbound/housebound. I am much better overall but still have bad waves. Most prominent symptoms are depression, DpDR , burning legs and feet, anhedonia. Wish everybody well. Keep believing that every nasty symptoms is you’re brain repairing something🌹🫶

[@dianemorrell9638]

It truly made my day to see your update! I think of you as an advocate for those of us trying to be vigilant in managing these hopefully temporary challenges. Im alone and came so close to death myself becoming anorexic in the process. I welcomed not waking up each morning and am on disability now to survive tapering last 30 beads of effexor. Why is it so monumental to leave the house? Never suffered with that, insomnia or akithesia before effexor. We share the same addiction as Hitler did plus or minus a molecule :)

[@livingunderachemicalinflue5849]

More than happy to stand up and advocate for us. It’s an honour. Take it slowly, take each day as it comes. ❤️🙏

[@Waves353]

Sending lots of love Cole Can’t wait until we heal enough and can scoot across the city to take a walk together and have a cuppa

[@marleneholik-ls9wr]

You ARE wonderful! Thank you! I lost friends and even a family member. The isolation and cluelessness is unbelievable. NOBODY UNDERSTANDS except us!

[@SLAMUELDUNK]

It's not your fault! Whatever you do don't blame yourself you are a victim! You are so strong for pushing through and enduring what most people can't even begin to comprehend. I know the level of suffering and pain you're talking about. There are no words to describe. Don't give up and keep pushing forward, even when it seems like there's no point to. One day things will get better. You are an amazing wonderful beautiful person. You are so strong. You will get through this. You deserve a better life and it will happen. God love you, you are in my prayers. ALSO YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!

[@cheryl8956]

Sorry to see you are still suffering badly. Sending my prayers and hugs to you ❤🙏.

[@Jannietime1]

Thanks for the video. I had my 15 year anniversary yesterday and was well enough to go out for Sushi with a friend to celebrate. Unfortunately she is unable to grasp my condition (she is on A/D herself and I came off a shit ton of pdrugs taken for 20 years) so I think next time I'll figure out another way to celebrate. She shared with me her pics from a recent vacation where she was deep diving with sharks in Honduras. After I saw the thrilling videos and gorgeous ocean pics I asked her how it felt? She said "fine". So there you have it. She's able to do such amazing things but can't feel it so I think we are better off. At least we are headed in the direction of healing and recovery and people still on the drugs are getting worse and worse every day they swallow more pills. Big Pharma, psychiatrists and doctors and their labels and drugs no longer have control over our lives and that's everything and worth all the suffering, just to reclaim ownership of our bodies and minds. We are winning, one moment at a time.

[@livingunderachemicalinflue5849]

It’s so liberating to not have to wake up and take a drug which is no longer working and causing more harm than good. It’s worth the pain and suffering to reclaim ownerships of our own minds and bodies. 🙏❤️

[@Jannietime1]

@@livingunderachemicalinflue5849 🙏💓

[@dianemorrell9638]

This resonated deeply. Coming off decades of daily effexor the past 4 years and trying to salvage a relationship with a man who saved my life by taking care of me for the past 19 months, and has himself been on mood stabilizers decades. He is also a disability lawyer who fights like a fiery Irishman in gaining benefit award approval to his legal aid clients. He doesn't think it would benefit me to have him accompany me to my gaslighting and very triggering doctor despite my pleas. He doesn't buy the psychological/neurological injury shtick despite my own recent approved for disability for akethesia and anorexia that didnt exist before psych. medication. He sees me wasting away and I think im gaslighting myself now 🤪

[@germainedenon311]

Some are still well as they are still on the poison..once off, many , if not almost 90%, will be suffer the withdrawal symptoms or neurotoxicity withdrawal effects. The medical professionals refuse to acknowledge it and stated that the drugs is out of your body and wouldn't do this . This is absolutely rubbish..

[@LilyGazou]

I have avoided all the pills because I saw what happened to others. A lot of pressure to take them. I’m sad to see how people are struggling - life is already hard.

[@1MNUTZ]

You made the correct choice there are much better options.

[@user-sp3qp2hv3m]

Cole, stay strong. I agree with everything you have said. I am in the UK. Keep going all fellow warriors x

[@user-bp8eh8hj7b]

Your not alone mate , we're here for you . I know how hard this is but you are healing . Your going to be okay, please hang on ❤

[@swedenmaster2837]

I can feel your pain man, sorry for what you going through. I wish i never start taking that shit. I had bad anxiety and depression. When i start taking works good for 1 year. After that hell starts, now 8 years later. Still try to taper out that. several times i have tried to quit. Was out for 9 mon. Feel so bad so i start again. And that almost kill me. everything got 10 times worse. Still surprised i survie that. Now i will come out for this shit life. Only on 3 mg cipralex now. I hope i can find away out from this. Doctors can nothing about this. So feel lonely. Only help i can get is from guys like you 👍 I have lost a lot of friends for this shit drug. And i know how you feel this loneliness. I hope you find a way back from this inury. Best luck from Nicklas / sweden ❤

[@livingunderachemicalinflue5849]

stay strong 💪 bro 👊 ❤️

[@Gcski]

Right UR - It's all a load of crap. Keep fighting for yourself!!! You know the "truths".

[@shaun4443]

That view! 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

[@MrEd-ri5kh]

Discontinuation syndrome. Dismisses the patient.

[@blakejohnson8639]

Thank you for your videos. Very bold of you as there is little support from friends and family. I’m constantly shocked at the damage and duration it’s taking me to heal. I’d love to chat on the phone sometime. Not sure how to connect?

[@livingunderachemicalinflue5849]

It’s mind bending for sure, everything about this ordeal is inhumane. For sure man, you can contact me via WhatsApp or messenger. Cole Douglas Robertson. Just myself sitting at a beach on a chair with my sunnies 😎 on.

[@katrinamenzies9398]

💜🙏🏻

[@mariepienne6]

I need some time to take this all in. I was hoping so much that you were at last beginning to feel better. But not yet. All these years of suffering when you/me were on the drugs and now you off the drugs and me still hyperbolically tapering at 5%. My side effects are so mild in comparison to yours. What can I do to help you other than by sending love and light?

[@mariepienne6]

I forgot to add. Anders Sorensen has just uploaded 20 short videos to his utube channel. Answers to his most asked questions about tapering.

[@livingunderachemicalinflue5849]

Very little subtle improvements I’ve noticed, I’m a severe case unfortunately. Sending love and light is more than enough. ♥️🙏 thank you. ☺️

[@healing.buddies]

@@livingunderachemicalinflue5849what’re the subtle improvements?

[@livingunderachemicalinflue5849]

@@healing.buddies i can feel my brain healing, I can feel neuroplasticity at work. It’s quite surreal. A lot less electrical shocks through the brain, less nerve pain, pressure , burning, tinnitus levels decreased, internal tremors improving. It’s very subtle but I’d say I’m 5 % improved from my last video. My living situations haven’t been easy over the past few months so my nervous system has had very little chance to wind down. I’m making the most of my current living situation surrounded by nature. 🙏😊

[@brankobanic2534]

Stay strong bro 💪🙏

[@DougDrebek]

I look forward to watching these every 6 months 😊

[@livingunderachemicalinflue5849]

I’ll try my best. 😊💪

[@MrDonkov]

The lonelines alone is hard, we are social creatures. Not sure anyone can beat their problems alone. Is there a good church somewhere where you live? Let people pray over you and call on Jesus. Not sure how you are with these things, but in my experience opening up to God is the way out. Often things are not just physical but can have a spiritual origin and there are things that need to be broken off us, on another level, where no amount of willpower can help. I know because I tried and have been dealing with similar issues for years in my younger days. Else you can get stuck with your "sick persona" but in reality you are so much more. I will be praying for your recovery and I wish you all the best.

[@1MNUTZ]

He is the church his body and mind are the temple he just needs the correct guidance to draw closer to the creator. Get into the spirit once his spirit is right and as close as it can be to God the body and mind will heal. He's doing his best right now with his level of consciousness and he is stronger than he can ever imagine. God is right there with him waiting on him.

[@MrDonkov]

@@1MNUTZ It's an illusion. If it were so, he would have already done it.

[@1MNUTZ]

@@MrDonkov well you should know that when you're in the hell of "withdrawal" you can barely think straight all your thoughts are all messed up there is confusion your memory is completely jacked. The medication becomes your God and sends you to hell on earth.

[@1MNUTZ]

@@MrDonkov sometimes God has to break you down to build you back up. Sometimes we are too strong for our own good. We all have a choice we can follow our own free will or we can follow the will of God. All it takes to follow God's will is to surrender to be silent be still and listen to that silently strong inner voice trying to guide us through. When under the medication or the withdrawal we are under pharmakia (sorcery, witchcraft) so we are in confusion and that's why we need to cry out to God for help to draw nearer to us so we can break free from the sorcery.

[@katrinamenzies9398]

@@1MNUTZ🙏🏻💜🙌🎯✝️

[@bethgra2007]

Where do you live? It's beautiful ❤ I relate to everything you're saying and thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing your true self

[@livingunderachemicalinflue5849]

Titirangi NZ currently. You are more than welcome 🙏

[@tinalapoint9294]

Hi Sweetheart I'm 51 in NY. I just came off Valium after 12 years and tapered since November 22nd 2022- Through April 8 2024. I've been off Valium aka diazapam for 35 days now, I've got damage too I lost my career hospice Caregiver and lost slot of friends and time too over 4,000 days to this medicine. Keep going stay strong your not alone we are here for you. ❤ You very much . ❤ Tina......

[@livingunderachemicalinflue5849]

❤️🙏 right back at you. One day at a time. 😊

[@Cymanable]

Thank you for your Videos. We will make it!

[@healing.buddies]

How’re you doing

[@Cymanable]

@@healing.buddiesat 40 month off I still have anhedonia dp/dr and pssd. Its hard but Iam hanging in there. What about you?

[@Cymanable]

@@healing.buddies At 40 months off it's still bad but i am hanging in there. I am not able to write my symptoms because youtube is censoring. How are you doing?

[@healing.buddies]

@@Cymanable month 6 off, doin ok. What’s your story

[@Cymanable]

@@healing.buddies I took sertraline for 20 months, very bad sideeffects, tapered down in 4 month, after 6 month all hell broke lose. can i contact you?

[@reemhamouri9633]

♥️

[@shaun4443]

Will you a video diary of things that help you daily, like supplements of nutrition sleep hygiene etc.

[@livingunderachemicalinflue5849]

For sure, one day I’d like to do that. For now it’s still so early in this recovery cycle, journey. I talk a little about nutrition and supplementation on this video. Cheers 👋. Neurotoxicity and ototoxicity during Antidepressant physical dependency and protracted withdrawal. kzbin.info/www/bejne/m2G0o6WdZtSgrNU

[@Goree5157]

Do you still have fear feelings, confusion about yourself and surroundings? When I get up from a nap in the afternoon, I feel so fearful and scared, did you ever feel the same? I am 9 months free of xanax.

[@aprilhassell1747]

Im coming off adhd meds. 9 months off...i stil cant work.

[@healing.buddies]

Which meds?

[@germainedenon311]

Yes adult ADHD also a fake diagnosis

[@aprilhassell1747]

@@healing.buddies concerta extended release

[@aprilhassell1747]

@germainedenon311 agree. I cant believe I fell for it. I didn't handle stress well at that time on my life. I needed a support or a good therapist. Someone to help me figure out my suffering and addiction issues. Not something else that makes my brain addicted. Any advice for me now? Im trying first time to live without anything altering my brain. It was alcohol for 20 yrars then stimulate med. I have learning disabilities and that is my life struggle. Loving myself just way I am. Currently just making myself strength weak muscles through this withdrawal. I have a lot of fatigue though and 4 year old in daycare. I need to save energy for him when he gets home

[@aprilhassell1747]

@germainedenon311 child adhd is also fake...oh forgot to mention i just has a cold for 2 weeks. So has no energy

[@user-mf4di1ez9g]

I want to die. I can't fight any more. I was misdignosed.

[@livingunderachemicalinflue5849]

I was first neurologically injured back in 2017 with a cold turkey attempt off venlafaxine after 12 years of physical dependency. 7 years later im still battling for recovery. Where there is a will, there is a way. 💪

[@susanmorgan4151]

You can do this. Sometimes 1-2 seconds at a time....but you CAN do it!❤❤❤

[@SunshineGrove04]

Do you have social media contact? It would be nice for people to connect with you. Thank you for doing these videos b/c so many people do not understand. 🙏❤️

[@livingunderachemicalinflue5849]

I have an email address located on my living under a chemical influence Facebook awareness page. 😊

[@1MNUTZ]

You aren't alone brother let me know if you wanna talk over watsapp. Ill set up an email then send you my watsapp through that email and we can talk about whatever comes up. Take it one day at a time stay strong champ

[@livingunderachemicalinflue5849]

Thanks 🙏 bro, for sure. Always up for a chat.

[@1MNUTZ]

@@livingunderachemicalinflue5849 i need to figure out how to post my email in the comment without youtube automatically deleting it

[@1MNUTZ]

@@livingunderachemicalinflue5849 how do i post my email here without you tube censoring it ?

[@1MNUTZ]

@@livingunderachemicalinflue5849 hey I'm trying to post my email but my comments aren't showing up

[@1MNUTZ]

@@livingunderachemicalinflue5849 checking to see if my comment shows up