Getting Diagnosed with Quiet BPD

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[@amandaisabookfan661]

Im sitting here crying, I feel like your describing my life. I've not been diagnosed with bpd. I've been treated for depression and anxiety but I feel like it has never helped. I feel so wrong and like I'm faking being normal all the time, I have no friends and I don't trust people. I don't really know what to do, I haven't had the best experience with doctors and therapists and I have such a hard time talking to people, especially about my problems, I just keep it all inside.

[@AnnaFitz]

I am so sorry you are going through this because I know exactly how horrible it is. I hope you get help that you deserve, and I really hope you find a therapist you can trust. Once you learn to trust at least one person, it becomes increasingly easier to open up to people! Please try to get help and keep going, I believe you can get over your struggles and be happy! lovelovelove xx

[@rinoanniebern4098]

Same here. You're not alone hun

[@Nikkinikita87]

Amandaisabookfan I know exactly how you feel. I was out of therapy for 10 years. I isolated myself for 5 years locked in my bedroom. I didn't date or go out. I'm just now starting treatment again. If the doctors know what they are dealing with you can get help. Meds don't really work for us but cbt and dbt therapy works well alongside meditation, reiki and healing crystals.

[@Gamerangs]

Please keep trying, I see this is a bit older so I hope you were able to find a great Psychologist or Therapist. I myself was placed on Zoloft and Lithium for Anxiety and Bipolar which didn't help in the slightest, being able to talk, and own the illness not let it own me is helping.

[@harmonyq-angel3529]

I was just diagnosed with Quiet Borderline Disorder after trying so hard to be normal my entire life. I finally had a break down and spent a week in a mental health ward at the age of 26. I'm having the hardest time coming to terms with this, but at the same time its nice finally figuring out why I always felt so different, depressed, alone, and a lack of self-worth and confidence.

[@AnnaFitz]

I am so sorry you are going through this. It is one of the hardest things to experience and I know how much pain you must be going through... but at the same time it is the beginning of a beautiful transformation, and when you come out the other end of it you'll know that it was actually a good thing

[@monaebreak561]

It sounds like you are describing me! I see myself in your eyes, very strange! I'm also the only child and I should win an oscar for my skills in acting "normal". ♡♡♡

[@AnnaFitz]

Thank you for your lovely comment :) it's so amazing how people can relate, right? :)

[@mariuszsch.79]

Thank you SO much for these videos. My ex who left me 6 months ago totally seems to be a quiet bpd. This explains so many things. Your videos helped me to not feel anger towards her anymore. I'm starting to understand she might have suffered a lot and it helps me to forgive her. It's also interesting how similar looking the two of you are. Strange thing. Also after checking other girls videos who have bpd it's interesting to see that I find the majority of them very attractive and the type I would totally date. Maybe because they are usually highly intelligent and for some reason absolutely beautiful at the same time. Weird coincidence. Thanks for your videos and best wishes!

[@AnnaFitz]

You are such a nice and kind person, I hope you get evrything you want from life. It's so great to substitute anger with understanding, it melted my heart a bit. And thanks for your nice words! lovelovelove xxx

[@jackie7486]

Thank you for this video! I think I was more "outwardly expressive" when I was younger. I would throw tantrums and destroy furnitures but now I feel like I'm a quiet BPD, when I have thoughts racing in my head during stressful situations I either snap with a spiteful comment (especially to my bf) or keep it all to myself. Right now I can relate to the earlier parts of the video where you mentioned that you have negative thoughts all the time and had a hard time making friends. Right now I am in this situation. I get so lost in my thoughts I end up being a loner and not approach others, which ironically shows that I am the one who is the cause of my sucky life. I suspect that I might have BPD. Who knows, I might have another condition altogether. But as of now, BPD is the only thing that I know of that I can relate to. One day I shall get myself diagnosed which will cost a bomb

[@AnnaFitz]

Dear Jakie, Thank you so much for your comment. I believe that as a teenager, it's almost impossible to keep your emotions hidden - the hormones just drive us crazy :) You sound very reasonable and it's important to realize that something's not right. Everyone deserves a life of good quality, and there are ways to get help that are not as expensive (therapy groups, for example). Anyway, I don't know where you are from and how the healthcare situation is in your country, but a lot of times you get insuranse coverage. Anyway, mental health is probably the most important thing in life, so it's a good use of money :) As for making friends, try to approach your fears, not avoid them. Doing what makes you uncomfortable over and over again makes it less scary over the time! Anyway, I wish you all the wellness and happiness! Love xx

[@638nur]

You seem like a person who is just extremely self aware. Like I think most people feel, and experience these things, but you have more than most.

[@AnnaFitz]

This is an interesting way of looking at it and I guess you are right :)

[@AMOEDEN888]

Liked and Subscribed. I'm a 52 year old quiet BPD person. Thank you for sharing your time and energy with us all. Angel hugs n Blessings to you and yours 😇

[@AnnaFitz]

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[@speakyourheart8548]

Anna you are not sick. You are a conscious woman. Deep feeling,you are real..that is it..you are beautifully real.

[@AnnaFitz]

definitely not sick anymore. Used to be, but not now :) thank you

[@cathrine1151]

I can totally relate. I am 47 and was recently diagnosed with bpd. I am sure that if I told some of my friends they would be like wtf!?! I talk about my feelings to friends but never show negative emotions. In stead I rage when alone and drink to numb my pain.

[@AnnaFitz]

Oh I am so sorry you had to struggle for so many years but so happy you got diagnosed and now can get the treatment you deserve! I hope you feel so much better soon. love! xxx

[@cathrine1151]

Anna Fitzgerald thank you Anna

[@TomVeeTV]

Thank you for this. I'm pretty sure someone I love is a quiet borderline.

[@couple_stories7086]

Super valuable and brave of you to share that... And crazy touching to hear what the experience of QBPD feels like. Thank you so much for making this video! And tons of strength to everyone suffering from this, you guys are strong and loved, even if you might not feel it at the moment.

[@AnnaFitz]

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[@rosacisneros9184]

Hi! Just discover your channel. I love it :) I've just been recently diagnosed with quiet bpd and I am still processing it. I always thought that what I was feeling and thinking was normal, and those outburst of emotion I had, were normal. When I was studying I used to be a multitask person. I was in as many activities as it was humanly possible and I loved to say that I was too busy for my own good. Now I realize that it was coping strategy for me. I was too busy doing stuff to think about myself. So when I got extremely upset and anxious it was because I was "too busy". I've always struggled to handle the stress. When I was studying, I made many appointments to see the school psychologist but at the end, I never went. Suddenly I started to feel good again so I dismiss it, as just another normal stress crisis. Since I was a child, I've tried to live up to everyone's expectations. But now I am tired, I don't know who I am, I feel empty and alone. When I finished my internship and couldn't find a job (that was last year and I am still unemployed) I was a huge punch for me. I start feeling extremely upset and anxious again, but now it is because I am "doing nothing" (I think). I've become depressed and a loner. I've disappeared from "the world", I am terrified to meet with someone of my "friends" and they see the failure I am now. I've achieved two very impressive things during the last year, but I feel I don't deserve them. I was just luck. I have always had trust issues and I am very good hiding my emotions. (I was sexually abused when I was a child and my parents have no clue that it happened, I've never told them) So nobody suspected what I was going through. My close friends only realized it when I told them how I was feeling. Not until I had a major breakdown and I started self-harming I decided to get help. I am working through it, but there are days when I feel ok, I feel like my old self again (not sure if it was a healthy self) and I think therapy is unnecessary and ridiculous. I can get better on my own. I want to get better, to be productive again and be honestly happy. So I know it is not easy but one day will be.

[@AnnaFitz]

Rosa Cisneros thank you so much for sharing your story. It is so much like mine I had goose bumps. I am glad you are in therapy now and I really hope everything works out for you. Stay strong and keep up your self -improvement work. You are amazing ! Love xxx

[@rosacisneros9184]

Anna Fitzgerald hi thanks for the reply 😊 Yeap there are good days and bad days, and I know it will take a time til it gets easier. ;) thank you so much for your support. I am so happy to see channels like yours to talk about these issues in an honest and respectful way. Unfortunately in my country (specially in my city) mental illnesses are a taboo, nobody talks about them and they are seen as a sign of weakness or an invention to get attention. It's ridiculous, but that way of thinking makes people who really need help, don't ask for it and got worse over time.

[@AnnaFitz]

Oh, I can totally relate to this. What country are you from? You know, I also discovered that individually people are way more acceptive and helpful than as a group. Because if they know you personally and know your struggles, they will definitely support your journey

[@rosacisneros9184]

Anna Fitzgerald I am from Perú! 😊 I found that too. Only when I told my friends about what's was going on they confide me with their own struggles. Which is cool,I don't feel alone. :) But there is a lot of stigma around it. I am from the south, so people tend to be more conservative and traditional. Here there is this social "rule" of "do and be whatever you want, but please don't let anyone know about it" :P

[@Emily_Hurley]

Brave vlog. I don't really get the copying others bit or feeling empty but to feel so around fam or friends to me screams that they aren't right for you/or you are not alike.... last but not least or possibily that they don't make an concerted effort with you to connect legitimately, consistently in an upright manner.

[@restlessnameless85]

Is there a Facebook group, or some other social media gathering place, for quiet borderlines, that anyone is aware of?

[@kuolevainen]

I don't know, but I'd be into creating one!

[@andreac647]

@@kuolevainen Let me know if you create one.

[@joshualevan]

It took having a borderline wife for me to do enough research to discover I was a quiet borderline. I would have had no idea otherwise. I was misdiagnosed as bipolar. Now I realize I have cyclothymia and BPD. A clear diagnosis makes the path to recovery more clear.

[@AnnaFitz]

Josh Levan I'm glad you figured it out! Of course you need to know the problem in order to get it fixed. Wish you all the best in your recovery! Xxx

[@Kcberettam9ner]

You,re gorgeous! ;) BPD has positives as well!

[@AnnaFitz]

Thank you ^^

[@raybarrett7985]

your 1 in a million anna you deserve the best anna xx

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[@rustbeltvan-life1932]

I'm struggling with this. It took me a very long time but recently I was diagnosed as having borderline traits. My mom has been diagnosed with having borderline personality disorder and we don't speak because I know it's healthier for me. I work with a therapist who is really awesome and I'm really fortunate to have her. I never knew about quiet borderline before but this really describes me. I'm 26 and I do a lot of these things. One thing I'm most shameful for is copying. Sometimes and when I meet someone I want to copy them and I'm not sure why and I'm really embarrassed about it. Then I become scared that other people might notice I'm doing this and it's like I can't even control it and then I become paranoid. I'm worried that I won't completely fix my problems and then I will be old and I'll have missed out on life. However you are young and very beautiful and it seems like you have figured so much out so you give me hope. ❤ it's just so painful to think that I've been this way for 26 years and I've been so lost and no one could tell me what was wrong. However now I feel like my life can really begin now that I have some understanding I know what you mean about acting. I never realized before but I do that somewhat so I can survive. It's like inside I'm just a whirlwind of anxiety and emptiness and uncertainty, so much so that I don't even gain stability from the knowledge that I'm succeeding at putting on a front. It's like I'm talking to people even therapists sometimes and I tell them what's wrong and they just sit there smiling and reassuring me and I become so confused because they can't see what I'm experiencing but it's partly because I've gotten so good at acting good and I don't even realize it. I don't do it on purpose or because I'm hiding or wanted to deceive but like I can't even reach out anymore. Even when I'm being as authentic as I can be it's still hard for people to notice. It's like standing in a crowded room after having your arm ripped off and you're running up to people pleading them to help you or to recognize how serious this is but instead they just smile and Nod. It's a very strange feeling. I remember I used to think it was a secret. I was having problems in relationships and I was always angry as a kid and when I would sit down and frankly ask another person what was going on or to tell me what I was doing wrong they would never tell me and would just smile. It really distorted my reality

[@AnnaFitz]

I am so sorry to hear about your negative experiences as a child, but so glad to hear you have a great therapist. Trust me, it doesn't matter how much time you've spent being "sick" or "different" - it's neither good nor bad. Either way we learn so much aout life and ourselves and we all have different experiences, so the most important thing is focusing on feeling better and striving to become the person you want to be :) I really understand how you feel and just want you to know that you are not alone

[@rustbeltvan-life1932]

Anna Fitzgerald ❤

[@joshy2joshy]

My ex had quiet BPD. I never knew at the time. I always wondered why she didn't trust me sometimes. I wondered why she avoided certain topics. Never spoke about her feelings. She told me she wasn't normal and she never blamed me for anything. She was always kind and then one night, I cancel plans to watch a movie together. Everything just flipped upside down, everything was my fault and it hurt me to my core. She never spoke to me again. :c

[@AnnaFitz]

Sorry to hear about that. Think about it this way: she must have been hurting so much more on the inside than you can probably imagine, that it seemed like the only option for her. I hope that helps somehow.

[@joshy2joshy]

@@AnnaFitz Hey Anna, thank you for your response, nice to see you're still around :) I understand much more than I need to know about the disorder. I wish the best for her and I hope she gets the help she needs. I cared an incredible amount and it hurt so much that she didn't know that. I told her plenty of times, reassured her. Nothing made sense to me, It brought me an extortionate amount of stress on me, I've never really cried before but this made me cry regularly for a month straight. I worked through it, spent 4 months researching BPD because I was extremely adamant she had it. Quiet BPD fitted all of the things for me. I could be wrong, Complex PTSD was my other way of explaining what happened. I felt bad about how I spoke to her, I felt bad for standing up for myself. I didn't know what to do, I had the silent treatment for 8 days. With nothing but a passive aggressive text to go by, treating me like I betrayed her. I normally have a lot of empathy in these situations but I genuinely lost my mind because of this. it's been 6 months since this happened. I still look at videos sometimes, it comforts me. Thanks for your videos. I never thought of myself as normal, I get attached to people who let themselves attach to me. This happens pretty fast. My emotions are dependant on how they treat me. INFJ personality for ya.

[@FloppedASF]

omg what you are saying is so true. please help me. i first come to psychiatrist like half years ago and she didnt diagnose me with nothing, she just gave me antidepressant and said i should not focus on diagnosos and i should focus on therapy instead. i said i think i have bpd cuz i have 7 of 9 criteria but she said... oh i know bdp and you dont seem like them but I THINK I HAVE QUIET BORDERLINE

[@AnnaFitz]

Well maybe you can go to another therapist? For me being able to put myself in a box was really important. If you have 7 out of 9, most likely you do have QBPD. Sorry about that. Hope you feel better! love xx

[@jazmin6031]

I started dbt two weeks ago :) thanks for doing these videos

[@AnnaFitz]

Jaz M that's great! I hope it is going really well ^^ And thank you! Love xxx

[@thisismjay]

Thank you Anna! Thank you

[@AnnaFitz]

[@falayyou]

I want to help a loved one who I suspect has this but I don't want to do it in a harsh way. How do you go about telling someone to check with a specialist without insulting them?

[@AnnaFitz]

It is very nice of you that you want to help your loved one! I don't think there is a one-size-fits-all solution to how to go about this, but I would suggest maybe introducing the idea gradually (not in the "we need to talk" way) and as a suggestion, not an ultimatum. Also, being sincere, honest and open about your feelings as well as demonstrating them you care about their wellbeing above all should help a lot :)

[@falayyou]

@@AnnaFitz thanks a lot! I will try that :)

[@SunsetRider1337]

That's me. I just recently found this out why my life has always been f*cked up.

[@Dogtles]

I can relate to 100% of what you're saying. I'm going to see a psychiatrist, if they say it's not BPD I'll be so lost

[@AnnaFitz]

good luck. hope you get better!

[@Dogtles]

Anna Fitz Thanks

[@Rinagurl136]

You look so pretty!! 😍 😆 Love the necklace

[@jrsupstateny]

Great video!

[@Chris-0113]

I've been watching your vids. I have to admit- I kinda have a KZbin crush on you. Lol Anyways, I love your videos. They're really informative and accurate. Bless you!

[@AnnaFitz]

Thank you :)

[@mariosolna]

thanks!!! I am just like you

[@MichelleTorez]

Hey xx I am currently looking for other BPD sufferers to come together to do a project on the stigma of having this label. Would you be interested in joining? -peace. Michelle

[@AnnaFitz]

Hey Michelle, Thank you very much for reaching out. The thing is that I am suspecting I never had BPD and what I had instead was CPTSD. So that woulf make me sort of a fraud, right? But I think it's a great idea, and wish you lots of luck with your project! Love xx

[@ericwedderspoon8289]

thank you so much for sharing

[@user-yg8ot8kj3n]

Hey, Anna. Thanks for your videos. I just want to ask you which therapy is better for BPD: REBT or CBT? :)

[@AnnaFitz]

Hi! Thanks for your comment! :) I think it's very personal, since every case is different, a different form of therapy (or a certain combination), might be helpful. As for me, I did CBT (+some medications) and used a DBT workbook that you can download for free. And in under a year I was fine :) Hope it helped! love xx

[@user-yg8ot8kj3n]

Thanks so much for your quick reply and advice. Very kind of you. Keep on with this channel, it means a lot to people with quiet BDP

[@user-yg8ot8kj3n]

Thanks so much for your quick reply and advice. Very kind of you. Keep on with this channel, it means a lot to people with quiet BDP

[@user-wf2tv4jl6h]

If parents loved you... Why do you have BPD??? What happened to you?

[@LeBronJames-yr8ku]

You are beautiful dear.

[@AnnaFitz]

Thank you

[@OK-we3il]

i have a feeling that you have Russian accent a little)

[@JohnDoe-if1ty]

You are very beautiful

[@AnnaFitz]

^.^

[@JohnDoe-if1ty]

:)