In a holding bay. Letting the sadness of loss happen.

After my 29 year old son Costya's death this February (2023) I have disconnected from as much as I can. This is my holding bay, a place to face and work through loss, to look at the dark things and the light, and to come to terms with who I am now as a mother without a son.
I talk of the difficulty of doing nothing, and of the power of the darkness to overwhelm us. And I talk of deciding to look for the light. This is a time of willful stillness, as much as is possible.
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