Art Depicting My Hallucinations (Schizophrenia)

[@rjchavers9267]

I really enjoyed hearing your explanations and your artwork. Some of your work is really amazing and conveys so many emotions. Thank you so much for posting this.

[@TheSandwichMan96]

It's a shame he didn't post for 2 YEARS STRAIGHT

[@Jackie-rc6cj]

The art is sublime. It's so creative and different. I have enormous compassion that you were actually seeing these visions, as the eyes and teeth are quite scary. Thankyou for sharing !!!

[@bradleyrose811]

God your creatures are just gorgeous I'm so in love with them. I can't wait to see more and watch your art improve.

[@Beardqt]

I just found your channel and it's reassuring having read your recent comment about wanting to start posting more art, I'm proud of you and everyone else currently just trying to survive

[@MMIST7]

Hope everything is okay with you and you’re coping well and I pray your hallucinations ease . I wish u the best . Subscribed ! ❤️

[@Shaunster1995]

Man that's some beautiful art what.

[@chalbio]

Holy these are just like psychedelics and dmt. I find that so interesting as I view dmt as tapping into a real world. It’s almost as if your brain has an ability to get a peak at something no one else can

[@liv0003]

Thanks for sharing your art, you're very talented! I guess living with schizophrenia isn't easy you must be a really strong guy. I really appreciate your effort to share your hallucinations experience and your art and thoughts with us.👍

[@elnorface]

Aww man it sucks you disappeared two years ago! Just discovered your channel too!

[@shivakami9293]

Om NamaShivaya Thank you for sharing, dear soul💙🙏 May I ask: have you heard of Shiva? He is also called Mahadev-the God of gods and of demons, goblins, ghosts etc. He rules them all. He is said by the ancients to have eyes and mouths everywhere. In His standard form, He has three eyes. Have you heard that in India, when people have schizophrenia very often their experiences are less negative because the beings you see are believed in-they are a normal and necessary part of this whole samsara. Please know you are valuable, as you are. You are important. You are loved. May you find peace, dear soul. Btw-INCREDIBLE art!!!💙🙏

[@douglaspinsak1246]

Ezekiel 1:15-18 "As I looked at the living creatures, I saw a wheel on the ground beside each creature with its four faces. This was the appearance and structure of the wheels: They sparkled like topaz, and all four looked alike. Each appeared to be made like a wheel intersecting a wheel. As they moved, they would go in any one of the four directions the creatures faced; the wheels did not change direction as the creatures went. Their rims were high and awesome, and all four rims were full of eyes all around."

[@NY_Mountain_Man]

This is beautiful art. Also.. if you're ever interested in selling, I'd be more than happy to buy one and frame it for my own collection. (within reason, ofc. lol)

[@zonilo1]

Those Hallucination creatures look like Lovecraften Eldritch Abominations....

[@bradleyrose811]

I absolutely love this. Thank you so much for sharing.

[@eggheadusa]

Great work 1:40 I can see the motion of it spinning not because I’m schizo but because Dmt and other psychedelics I’ve seen similar imagery. Definitely part of the collective unconscious but definitely feels like seeing the universe more closely related to reality.

[@TheDreadfulCurtain]

Have you seen the work of Louis Wain and Richard Dadd ? Also contemporary artist Aurel Schmidt, Aleksandra Waliszewska, Allison Schulnik’s animations. You might find Them interesting. Look forward to seeing more of your work.

[@N.A.M.LazyCloud]

Very interesting. I'm glad you made your channel.

[@WWS322]

I have not recently hallucinated much. If I draw for awhile and close my eyes I'll see some good ideas to draw. But then, I'm not drawing much these days spending my time on guitar. I stopped reading because I wasn't enjoying it. I could do it for a job if I had one. My voices are on an endless loop of self abuse. It makes me wonder if life really is about being somebody?

[@labeilleautiste6318]

Very interesting its even touching I hope everything gonna be ok for you buddy I am not sure but I start to think i am schizophrenic (i will see a psychiatric to be sure) I try to make art some time, i have weird sperpective and a kind of obsession with eyes and learned recently schizophrenic artists have very often these aspects too Of course its not the only things that make me think about MAYBE being schizophrenic but I'll see Your arts is good i think you really do some thing ... it doesnt necessary mean anything wich the Word is very large but "Artistic" art are for me visions/ideas of artists putting somewhere This one at 10:50 is clearcly one of the best you have what to be proud , and I love the last one it look like a weird hand too

[@thejacobin9406]

I love this, thank you for sharing with us.

[@heruka369]

Thank you for sharing your world.

[@casperwinter]

Wow you do some amazing art!!!!

[@MyOddExperiences]

Thank you Casper! I am working hard to improve and I hope someday I will make some really special stuff 😅

[@MMIST7]

Thank you for posting this. i hope art helps

[@bradleyrose811]

Oh geez the angels make sense now... Just like all the other religions the images came from someone hallucinating...

[@TheScottStephenson]

This couldn't be more interesting

[@jaxnean2663]

Love the Bobcat Goldthwait impression! …sorry

[@bradleyrose811]

Do they scare you? If so does drawing them help?

[@MyOddExperiences]

Imagine you watched weird music videos several hours a day, every single day. You just become numb to it and it becomes annoying at worst. That's at least how I feel now that I'm not delusional and my hallucinations don't impact my perception of actual reality.

[@harryvickers1945]

@@MyOddExperiences God bless you man, you've got some serious strength for being able to fight through and handle all of that. Your art work is both terrifying and absolutely incredible at the same time. Hope you're well.

[@HexagonSun990]

Do you think since your hallucinations are often the same types of things they might count as symbols or ideas from your unconscious?

[@rjchavers9267]

I'm going to ask a question and if for any reason it's inappropriate or you just prefer to not answer, I will understand and will respect that. You said you didn't consider the hallucinations when you were a kid to be anything that you thought about in terms of how you relate the hallucinations later in your life. Did realize they were hallucinations as a child and/or did you realize that other kids don't typically experience them? Hopefully it's not an inappropriate question or something you are hurt by my asking. That's not my intention. Thanks so much for your time.

[@MyOddExperiences]

You don’t have to worry about asking questions! Ask anything! I don’t remember saying “kid” but if I did I meant at age 15-19. At that time I had infrequent hallucinations that were mostly very subtle which made me doubt whether they were happening. I talked to doctors and they had no reason at the time to suspect schizophrenia as I didn’t have psychosis. Some doctors thought it could be neurological like a form of epilepsy that didn’t require treatment

[@rjchavers9267]

@@MyOddExperiences you didn't use the term "kid." I'm old, so teen's seem like kids to me. No disrespect. Thanks for the explanation. That, for me, is understandable. Again, you're really talented. I thoroughly enjoyed getting to see your work. Great stuff.👍

[@eggheadusa]

When you’re having intense visuals does it effects your consciousness? (Can you think normally while seeing things?) Also do you ever se checker boards?

[@MyOddExperiences]

Before being medicated my hallucinations were more vivid and felt real, they supported my delusions. Now that I’m on meds I still have hallucinations but they’re mild, only being distracting. The biggest problem I have is with reading because text distorts or shimmers. I don’t see checker boards but patterns like checker boards seem to distort more. That or it’s just easier to see the distortion on regular patterns.

[@khepresh]

Hey kiddo, I'm posting this September 16th 2023. Where did you go? x

[@MyOddExperiences]

I’ve been very busy getting back into school and working on projects. I’m doing very well right now, and things are looking good moving forward. In all honesty, I’m not feeling all that passionate about making mental health videos. I intend to make more, but I may end up making this more of an art channel where mental health is also discussed.

[@TheGEOPOLITICIANGUY]

welp - after my vet career as a psilocybin nut - i guess i can confirm that I had sziophrenia

[@francescozzononsisa1078]

bro, do your hallucinations startle you, maybe when you're about to sleep? I do hope not. Maybe you got "used to them" so you don't get scared? Or do you have negative feelings when they occur? Or, again, by now you don't make a big deal of the phenomenon when it occurs?

[@aaronmedina2338]

May I ask how it feels having people say that these creatures that haunt you are amazing and that they love them while I feel like you may hate them.

[@MyOddExperiences]

I don’t mind it, especially because I don’t have most of these hallucinations anymore. I think they are very interesting and I’m glad if other people found them interesting too.

[@HabibeBoyraz-hg2nk]

There ıs a you tube channel called-" doıng well wıth schızophrenıa"she ıs copıng well wıth ketogenıc dıet and doctors reduced her medıcatıon. Also,please check how to regulate your dopamıne and the other hormons that effect our mood as well as ımpact of magnesıum,GABA ASID, BDNF,vıt.-D and folate on sczophrenıa. Psychoanalysıs and CBT are two most effectıve therapy modalıtıes too.

[@hyperanthropos6716]

hey dude how have you been?

[@OlyWALife]

This looks exactly like DMT.

[@lowereastsideastrologist7769]

Great stuff. Schizo is linked to artistic creativity, though most scholars don't like to imply a direct relationship

[@lilquise17]

It looks like u took psychedelics an saw these things. I bet there’s a connection to schizophrenia & psychedelics

[@MyOddExperiences]

Conventional psychedelics like LSD and mushrooms touch the same receptors as a lot of antipsychotics, but have a near opposite effect. This implies that these receptors have something to do with schizophrenia, but schizophrenia seems to affect more receptors than those that psychedelics do. Even when psychedelics touch the same receptors, the experience for each are distinctly different. Same with schizophrenia, there are similarities but it is very different from these drugs. Schizophrenic hallucinations and ones induced by hallucinogens can be very similar, but schizophrenia is more auditory rather than visual for most. My case is more visual and the things I see are commonly seen on these drugs and by other schizophrenics with visual hallucinations. I don’t have hallucinations that are very significant anymore, except at night while under the effects of my sedative antipsychotics. They put me in somewhat of a dreamlike state where I hallucinate often. My more recent art is based off of those hallucinations or my dreams.

[@lilquise17]

@@MyOddExperiences amazing, thanks for the info. I’ll definitely check out your recent art

[@HabibeBoyraz-hg2nk]

Wıth rıght medıcatıon and therapy my frıends are copıng schızophrenıa very well. Hopefully one day you too. Please,belıeve ın the power of exercıse, medıcatıon,rıght dıet, therapy and neuroplastıcıty .

[@nv9899]

Have you ever thought that your hallucinations are kind of like ones that can be seen when taking acid?

[@nv9899]

If so, have you ever heard of ego death? It can occur while tripping. I was wondering if your hallucinations can ever cause you to lose a sense of self and identity?

[@MyOddExperiences]

There are definitely some similarities between my hallucinations and the ones that come from psychedelics. Schizophrenia is rarely euphoric though, I wouldn't recommend it :/ I have dissociated before but not from psychosis, it was likely a stress response. That's the closest I've been to ego death, which isn't really close at all. Psychosis can make you lose your sense of reality and make you perceive yourself differently. If anything though, psychosis can amplify your ego into something bigger like seen in delusions of grandeur.

[@kidstank]

man this stuff look like dmt

[@3van913]

14:40 golb

[@Taqes]

theyre all demons

[@MyOddExperiences]

How do you know?

[@Taqes]

@@MyOddExperiences because schizophrenics see the same entity. you should watch a video from alohatalkz called psychotherapist believes in demons. It’s a good watch

[@herb_kush]

You have demons. You need to realize you are powerless to stop them and give control over to God so he can stop them... or not.

[@MyOddExperiences]

Idk about that. My meds have been a pretty powerful means to get rid of these demons.

[@herb_kush]

@@MyOddExperiences Take the meds but also realize there is a God and only He can stop the demons from bringing hell into your life... Look at it this way: if I'm wrong then I probably need meds more than you do.

[@freePalestinee276]

Have you ever tried to listen to the Quran please try it

[@HabibeBoyraz-hg2nk]

What Quran is goıng to do wıth neurochemıcals😢😢?