Austin's Depersonalization Recovery Story (2023)

02:00 DPDR from Weed (in Las Vegas!)
04:57 "Maybe I'm still high?"
06:47 Trying to work with DPDR
08:34 "This will last up to 7 years"
10:35 Quitting my job
12:23 Ever greened out before?
14:52 Smoking joints like cigarettes
18:14 "Why oh why did I smoke that joint?!"
20:00 Googling "Depersonalization"
21:20 "I felt weak as a man."
24:11 Going to an optometrist
27:12 Did you go back to the dispensary?
28:43 Loved ones passing away
31:35 "I would take combat PTSD over DPDR"
34:38 Does military discipline help with recovery?
37:09 "Recovery felt amazing!"
38:27 Was DPDR recovery fast or slow?
39:17 Pornography Addiction
43:00 Can you REALLY get back to normal?
45:55 The Fast and the Furious!
48:46 The DP Manual
49:51 Do you still have a military routine?
51:21 Advice for Depersonalization Sufferers
Austin is 23 years old. He first developed DPDR last year, triggered by a bad weed experience.
Over the next year or so he struggled with the symptoms of Depersonalization and Derealization, in particular those related to memory and vision.
Fortunately, Austin has since made a complete recovery! 👏
In this brand new interview he tells me all about his experience with and recovery from Depersonalization Disorder. 😊👀
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Disclaimer: Please note that the medical information contained within this video is not intended as a substitute for consultation with a professional physician and is not a recommendation of specific therapies.

[@Dpmanual]

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[@alexanderjavorszky8937]

I’am on my way to full recovery, and it does get really hard sometimes, but i always try to stay positive and i hope that one day i will be on your show talking about how i recovered to inspire others like these people do to me!

[@Dpmanual]

Glad to hear you're doing so well Alexander, and looking forward to having you on the channel! 😊

[@kamranhussain6117]

Same I m in dpdr since 20 months. Idk 🤷‍♂️ is that recovery or just anxiety 😦

[@LarrySwishamane]

Welcome home Austin. iKnow the relief & satisfaction to know your werent alone, afterall.

[@erin-fk5du]

the same exact thing happened to me, where i greened out really badly and just didn't recover, now no matter what, i feel not real and dizzy in public, which has caused this anxiety and constant fear of passing out, ive had to quit my job and nothing seems to shift it, probably due to thew fact i cant stop thinking about it, but its not going away after almost 2 years and im starting to give up hope, but your channel makes me feel some comfort that recovery is possible, it was confusing at the start because i didnt know what was happening, drs told me my blood was fine and sent me away but when i found out about DP i understood that was what i had and was so happy i wasnt going crazy lol

[@Mo-xi1yh]

Hang on my man you are not alone !❤️

[@emilyc3385]

been there, i did blood work twice and a EKG and nothing, prior i was diagnosed with GAD and panic disorder, such a relief to know i was healthy at least & not crazy lol

[@Dpmanual]

Hey Erin, thanks for your comment 😊 Don’t worry, that all sounds like a very typical case of weed-induced DP to me. I know it can be frightening but remember that it's just your body and brain's natural response to stress and anxiety. It's not permanent and it can't hurt you 😊 You can and will recover. Make sure to read through all the info and articles on my website at www.dpmanual.com And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.

[@jakutz]

I got dp for 8 years 24/7h. Im 26 now and it dont go away. In my opinion its about anxiety what drives this

[@erin-fk5du]

@@jakutz 8 years 😭😭😭 yeah i defo think anxiety makes it worse, bc i have this FEAR of passing out in public lmao, i feel for you man

[@patriciasandoval161]

It’s nice to know that we are not alone in this, and that people do go through this and experience this type of trauma. I am currently experiencing the derealization and depersonalization , I’ve been going through this now for about six months, and some days are terrifying. I would really like to work with you and see if you could help me.

[@Dpmanual]

Hey Patricia, thanks for your comment -- and no, you're definitely not alone 😊 I know DPDR can be scary but just remember that it’s a natural reaction to stress and anxiety, and people experience it all the time. The National Institute on Mental Illness estimates that up to 75% of people experience at least one depersonalization / derealization episode in their lives. It's part of your brain's natural defence mechanism and usually it only lasts a few seconds or minutes at a time. It's only when it's focused on as a separate problem (feeling like you're going crazy / in a dream etc) that it can turn into a feedback loop with the anxiety that caused it in the first place. But no matter what caused it or how long you've had it, you can always switch it off completely by stopping that anxious feedback loop. Make sure to carefully read through all the articles and info on my website at www.dpmanual.com and my book The Depersonalization Manual. And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR 👍

[@mars8103]

thank you a lot , it truly makes a difference to know that i am not alone in this , i've had dp for the primary time a year and 6 months back , and latelaly i feel calm superior but at whatever point i have a slight change in my life or the way i live it hits me once more exceptionally difficult

[@Dpmanual]

Glad the video was helpful! 😊 And don't worry, you're definitely not alone, DPDR is super common (and harmless and temporary!): www.dpmanual.com/about/depersonalization-definition-what-is-it/

[@bendavidson1489]

I don’t know what I am currently experiencing. I greened out on weed and had my first panic attack (I think) then had some dpdr that faded away the next day. Fast forward 2 weeks I had my second panic attack and have had derealization since then (probably about a month). Honestly it’s not too bad anymore, was only debilitating for the first 2 days until I figured out what I was experiencing had a name. My biggest worry is that I will never feel “normal” again. I have moments every day where i forget I have DR but the second I realise I haven’t been experiencing it, it comes straight back. I just don’t understand how I am going to consciously see the world in the same way I did before. I appreciate the videos, they make me feel a lot better ❤

[@Dpmanual]

Hi Ben, thanks for your comment 😊 From what you're describing that does sound like weed-induced DPDR to me, take a look at the lists of symptoms here and see if they sound familiar: www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/ www.dpmanual.com/about/depersonalization-symptoms-the-10-most-common/ And don't worry, DPDR is harmless and temporary and you can and will get 100% back to normal 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/back-to-normal-after-depersonalization/ And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.

[@Yahya-gb8zn]

I just bought the DP Manual and started the recovery literally insanely. The most important thing while having DP is not to rush through decisions and try to calm down for a minute. And don’t get delusional, PLEASEE! Remember, at an anxious state of mind, you are very valuable, so be careful who you listen to and who you ask for help. Hope you all get through. This is literally the scariest thing that happened in my life

[@Yahya-gb8zn]

@@saidbachlil2612 maybe try downloading from another device?

[@felbaud]

Hello what did you do exactly ? No medication no therapy ? Thks

[@Yahya-gb8zn]

@@felbaud so the hardest part for me is not to freak out while having dpdr and just thinking, that it is only temporary and will go out. AND to not think about it in a spiritual way and that this is some weird universe state of mind. Just be remindful of it just being anxiety. Try to have your brain occupied with things you love and don’t focus about it too much. Be aware that it will take time to recover, and don’t be disappointed if you take a step back with your progress, this is absolutely normal. And hang out with people you love as much as you can. This is absolutely important. And at any cost avoid caffeine and foods with a lot of sugar, this will make your brain go wild with the racing thoughts. And believe in yourself!!

[@felbaud]

@@Yahya-gb8zn to be honest its difficult to try to live normally and accept them when you have it all days since many years . I have it non stop since many years and can’t do things cause it put me on a depression.. it’s a heavy symptom and feel suicidal cause I don’t believe anymore on recovery My dr and psychologists and psychiatrists told to me there is no medication and cure for DP Dr And I can’t imagine being on a relationship with theses symptoms

[@Yahya-gb8zn]

@@felbaudOf course there is no cure, because this is how your body works and defends itself. When i am doing thing i enjoy, i don’t even notice it. You have to break out of the habit of thought you are in and try to see things differently. I would actually recommend you buying the dp Manual, it actually helps a lot. A lot of times i turn it on and sleep directly. You are what you think. Being stuck in the same loophole of thinking wouldn’t make it better my guy. Believe in yourself. I believe in you! We as humans are meant to be here and are allowed to do the thing we love to to do. You are made to be a part of this beautiful universe. It is hard, and getting out of the thoughts is hard. But at the end of the day, you can do it! May all sound cliché but the world needs you, everybody you love needs you! Believe me!

[@steezus971]

I feel like when I Watch a action movie my eyes can’t keep up and it’s kinda a blur I feel like dpdr my most common problem is tunnel vision and “memory issues” but thanks to you and answering questions about what I was experiencing has helped a lot and I feel like I’m on the road to recovery

[@Dpmanual]

Don't worry, vision + memory issues are very common with DPDR 😊 I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as your recovery continues: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-and-memory-loss/ www.dpmanual.com/articles/does-depersonalization-affect-vision/

[@bitofahumdinger]

Interesting… I had my most intense/profound weed experience when I was out of town in another state. Set and setting really does affect the high. I had the same experience of being thrown into a new “dimension”. It felt like I had died and gone into an afterlife/ alternate reality. I had feelings of extreme empathy, seeing another person upset and literally feeling their feelings as my own. I had audio visual… hallucinations? That’s not exactly the right word but I would hear certain sounds and there would be vivid, cartoony, images I would perceive. I was 16 at the time, and I had very bad derealization and existential anxiety for a couple years. Worrying that I was the only person in existence and that I was completely alone. It’s hard to unexperience something like going into another reality or plane of existence. Like a fish only knows water as their reality, I feel like I popped out of the water and now I can never go back to only knowing water as my reality. This is all so very hard to describe, but I feel like people here will know what I’m talking about. Some people will say you’re exaggerating or that weed would never make you experience something like this but if it’s happened to you, you know how scary and unforgettable and real it is. Now, at 30, I still have a bit of derealization now and then but I learned long ago to accept it. Like I said, I think once you experience another plane of reality, you will never ever be able to go back to not having experienced it. I sort of think that’s what derealization actually is. Grappling with the fact that there are different realities happening around us all the time. Or just knowing that it’s possible to be thrown into another reality where you feel completely alone. Makes me think of “Hell”. “Total separation from God.” I’m not exactly religious but I actually understand what that means. I don’t know, maybe this is all just the brain being cross-wired by substances and you are just perceiving the same reality in a different way. But even then, to know how much your experience of reality can change, that’s still a lot to take in. Especially as a young person. Like I said though, I have come to accept this and I somewhat see it as a positive. I have a very different way of looking at the world after these experiences. I feel like I have a deeper spiritual understanding of this world. The lens has widened. Best of luck to anyone dealing with this stuff. It’s no joke but take it from me, you can live a happy and healthy life.

[@ievagrigalaviciute4908]

Omg, that's very interesting about 7 year situation. I understand astrology and I know what this is about and I got DPDR exactly in this planetary alignment from ayahuasca trauma. This gives me hope mine does go away sooner. I was too spiritual to consider the possibility of anxiety for very long and got in deep 😂

[@Dpmanual]

Don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it, how long it’s lasted, or whether it’s been 24/7 or episodic, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 And read this article too, I think you'll find it very helpful: psychcentral.com/lib/is-depersonalization-disorder-a-form-of-enlightenment#1

[@ievagrigalaviciute4908]

​@@DpmanualI got your manual already. I just seem to struggle to convince myself fully that it's what I have after months of spiritual rabbit holes and existencial fears 😮

[@LarrySwishamane]

planetary alignment. that is a brilliant analogy, and resonates alot any time its occurred. How could it not? When all the randomness & unknowns, that most of the time are trivial, or not even an after thought of an after thought, for the first time, synchronizes to this audio, visual & physiological experience within this biological antenna...that ONLY "god" knows how long or how many times uHave been suspended in your own manifestation. A sub-orbital 100% polarized to the YOU-niverse. As far as the mind can reach. And down to the taste of that breath u you took. Trying to quantify that as just some anxiety. "Bravo, anxiety. you deserve an Oscar. Dramatic much?"

[@mrninjagamer9434]

Hi Shaun, you’re videos have helped me tremendously as I deal with this condition, but I’ve found everytime I start to feel better and I think I can handle caffeine or alcohol again the symptoms return. Do you know how I can overcome this?

[@brandontmac4012]

Hey man, stay away from alcohol or caffeinated drinks. It can induce anxiety which can causes the dpdr to attack again. It’s a lesson in currently learning.

[@gasparlucrece5841]

My exact experience, floaters, foggy brain after a bad joint. Amazing when I told professionals about it, they have no idea.

[@Dpmanual]

Mine too 😊 Thankfully, DPDR is temporary, harmless and you can and will recover: www.dpmanual.com/articles/back-to-normal-after-depersonalization/

[@_.idealistqueen.]

I have dp for like three years now ofc from an edible back in 2020 , then it went away then I felt the sensation’s of it like tingling in the hands and hot flashes from having panic attacks and I haven’t ever had a panic attack in my life and it started happening more and more , times I feel dizzy like the room is spinning then ofc the feeling that I can’t be outside for a long period of time because I feel like I’m gonna die , my heart starts racing and I feel like I’m just going to pass out that makes me just stay in the house , ofc it caused me to feel bad stress and I felt like I’m living in a dream like I’m not real and the world is fake makes me anxious and panic because I feel like I’m on edge 24/7 and I also started having sleep paralysis because of this !!

[@Dpmanual]

Hey, thanks for your comment 😊 Don’t worry, that all sounds like a very typical case of weed-induced DP to me. I know it can be frightening but remember that it's just your body and brain's natural response to stress and anxiety. It's not permanent and it can't hurt you 😊 You can and will recover. Make sure to read through all the info and articles on my website at www.dpmanual.com And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.

[@dylanteet7074]

I have similar problems and it’s keeping me from functioning well. It’s been 3 months. Super scary and it really sucks. If you need someone to talk to about it let me know. I know I could use someone. I hope we get better!

[@EveSincl]

The worst thing I’ve found is 24/7 intrusive thoughts fearing death it’s debilitating is this part of dpdr will it go away when the dpdr does ?

[@Dpmanual]

Don’t worry, existential / intrusive thoughts like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating and frightening but they are also temporary and harmless and will fade away and stop as your recovery continues 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-fears-and-anxious-thoughts/

[@LarrySwishamane]

IDK who coined the term purgatory, iWonder if he/she was referring to this condition, possibly? 🤔

[@EdenUptonnew]

Hey sean, would you consider overthinking religion since i had DPDR to be "existential thoughts" considering buying your manual was wondering if it would help with this aswell? Thanks :)

[@Dpmanual]

Yes, absolutely -- Read this, I think you'll find it very useful 😊 psychcentral.com/lib/is-depersonalization-disorder-a-form-of-enlightenment#1

[@BlaBla-xy2xr]

I have been derealizing for 15 years + OCD, then slow-flowing anxiety and depression began. I've never had panic attacks or existential throughts. Unfortunately, not paying attention to the symptoms and ignoring it did not help. Normally, I participated in life, studied, worked, played sports and met friends. However, from year to year the derealization deepened, SSRIs help only for OCD and depression but not for DP/DR. I have been in psychodynamic therapy for a year with psychedelics (MDMA, Psilocybin) and DP/DR are decreasing instead of getting worse for the first time in my life. Which does not mean that I recommend psychedelic therapy to everyone. But it is also proof that DP/DR is also traumatic (difficult childhood). Do you have any alternative methods for treating trauma? TRE method, Ayahuasca, CBT, ? Perhaps someone helped medication? Perhaps undiagnosed ADHD/ADD or Asperger can have an impact? Share your experience. Best regards !

[@MarcelFerrin-]

I can offer some advice over at my channel

[@giraffe607]

I am experiencing depersonalization after a strong hallucination from synthetic cannabis. Can this also be seen as something that can happen with regular marijuana? I'm more concerned because synthetic cannabis is often referred to as a more artificial chemical. I would appreciate it if you could answer.😢

[@c0rkum]

I developed it from regular weed so yes

[@Dpmanual]

Don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/what-causes-depersonalization-disorder/

[@Userr368]

@giraffe607 did u recover i got mine from laced weed

[@leticiafroes5811]

Someone also had the symptom of remembering very old memories and dreams you had a long time ago?

[@animalfacts360planet]

Same here bro

[@Dpmanual]

Don’t worry, issues with memory like that are super common with DPDR 😊 I know they can be scary but they will fade away and stop completely as you recover: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-and-memory-loss/

[@stephaniecruz6012]

I believe thats a way the brain detox , so i see what i remember and ask if i have something to heal about it.

[@mars__4]

Hey Shaun , should I take medicines or not???

[@Dpmanual]

Hi! 😊 I'm not a medical professional so can't give you specific recommendations re medication. But please read this article, I think you'll find it useful: www.dpmanual.com/articles/can-medication-cure-depersonalization/ And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.

[@alf0vlogs64]

I just nearly got rid of it till now today I had the worst one ever because of nic withdrawals I was dizzy dissociating i think it was the worst one and I haven’t had it for 2 weeks I thought it was gone

[@Dpmanual]

Head over to my website at www.dpmanual.com, there’s tons of info and tips on DPDR recovery there 😊 And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.

[@eabdalelah]

is disordered thinking a symptom of dpdr? I'm confused about this symptom it make me feel like I'm developing schizophrenia wish seem so real

[@Dpmanual]

Racing / intrusive thoughts are very common with DPDR and all anxiety-based conditions 😊 I know it can be frustrating but they are temporary and harmless and will fade away and stop as your recovery continues: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-fears-and-anxious-thoughts/ And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.

[@Userr368]

Have u heard that someone has recovered from dpdr that was caused by laced weed pls answer

[@Dpmanual]

Don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/what-causes-depersonalization-disorder/

[@TheLocalDank]

@@Dpmanualbut what if you feel no anxiety? I litteraly feel nothing, it’s as if all my emotions and feelings are switched off, no anxiety, no adrenaline no fear or anything

[@Dpmanual]

@@TheLocalDank Read this, I think you'll find it helpful 😊www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-without-anxiety/

[@abbyu8459]

is DID a symptom of anxiety?

[@brittneywelch2186]

Would trauma counseling help since DP can be a symtom of trauma?

[@Dpmanual]

Hi Brittney, if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.

[@ICEGamingMATT]

Ive had DP for 8 years now so when he said 7 years that really hit home im going to try the dp Manuel hopefully it works for me

[@Dpmanual]

Don't worry Matt, it doesn't matter what caused it, how long it’s lasted, or whether it’s been 24/7 or episodic, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/

[@ICEGamingMATT]

@@Dpmanual thank you very much! Just bought the Manual I’m starting right away!

[@harshverma2301]

@@ICEGamingMATThow are you feeling now

[@TheCraigStation]

Did you ever try weed again since your recovery?

[@XHEADTOWALLX]

Why risk it

[@kyaaion8215]

I did and I'm ok.

[@XHEADTOWALLX]

​@@kyaaion8215I mean, that's great but that's rolling the dice

[@johndoe6878]

Yes but just a little but I kind of baby weed just don’t be scared of it

[@TheCraigStation]

@kyaaion8215 how long after? My panic attacked happened 3 weeks ago and I was a weed vaper for years as alcohol isn't my thing just prefer to get a bit baked.

[@elghazaouiamine180]

Can the anaesthetic remain stuck in my intestines for a year?

[@icaiconcerns9729]

I think it is marketing bias