May's Depersonalization Recovery Story (2024)

02:35 Synthetic Weed Pen
04:07 "Like I was out of my body"
06:30 Going to Hospital
10:24 I kept this to myself
12:07 Seen by a Psych Team
15:13 Googling Depersonalization
16:00 "Like the sky was 2D"
19:11 "You're probably going to be like this forever"
21:57 Believing I COULD get better
23:56 What did DPDR recovery feel like?
26:55 Can you REALLY get back to normal?
30:52 Advice for people with DPDR
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May is 19 years old, from New York. Last October, after a bad experience with a synthetic weed pen, she developed Depersonalization Disorder. She experienced symptoms like emotional numbness, disconnected thinking patterns, and feeling unreal.
May struggled with DPDR and its symptoms for about 6 months. She and I had a Zoom Coaching Session back in November, and I remember seeing how distressed she was at the time.
But fortunately May has since made a complete recovery! As she wrote to me in a recent email "I would love to share my story and just wanted to personally say thank you to you. I have my life back! :)"

[@etherealmabel4041]

Hii!! It’s may! If you have any questions I’m here! you will get through this!

[@lutoncouncil8361]

Please i need advice

[@lutoncouncil8361]

How long will it last and should i quit smoking

[@etherealmabel4041]

@@lutoncouncil8361 smoking weed yes you should even nicotine I would recommend stopping

[@erb9956]

Is the dp manual woth it?

[@etherealmabel4041]

@@erb9956 it is, promise

[@hopewithcte4571]

I have depersonalization and de realization from my brain injury and dementia. Its 24/7. Have had it now 4 years straight

[@jonatas9736]

My life is returning to normal too, after I met this guy (Shaun) a window of hope opened for me, I already feel a lot of improvement, I am practically cured of the symptoms of derealization. To those who are struggling, there is a way out, do not fear, everything will return to normal.

[@Dpmanual]

Delighted to hear you're doing so well 😊

[@chickadee317]

Thank you so much for sharing your experience, May. I found listening to your story brought me a sense of calm knowing that other people have their own experiences with this and make it through to the other side. Wishing you continuous good health and peace 🙏💚

[@neo23thirty-eight]

Thank you for your story and so glad you are well 😊!

[@Dpmanual]

😊❤️

[@barbarahanly4257]

Well done May xxx loved your story and that you found sucess in recovery

[@Dpmanual]

😊❤️

[@strongcurrents2488]

May!! Fellow NYer! In the midst myself of DPDR. So happy for you that you recovered and pursuing juvenile justice , if you read this comment, you should look into the summer college internship with the Department of Probation in juvenile probation it's om NYC job website and would be really up your alley with restorative justice and whatnot.

[@etherealmabel4041]

Thank you! I will

[@SharandeepSingh-dx3yk]

NICE TO HEAR ❤😊

[@Dpmanual]

😊🙏

[@user-tn7qs6fw4r]

@@Dpmanualhello sir, how are you doing. I am suffering dpdr how can I purchase your manual. Thank you in advance.

[@MarcelFerrin-]

Hey comment on my post I can’t reach you

[@unraveledultimatefate]

It felt like i was waking up every second smoking a synthetic batch.

[@Dpmanual]

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[@wavymoney9326]

I had a horrible high experience and then hade something traumatic happen that made me have a setback and get dpdr but it has been getting so much better watching your videos!! One thing I was having trouble with was constantly thinking about time passing and I was wondering if anyone has had the same feeling?

[@Dpmanual]

Don’t worry, worries like that (about time passing etc) are super common with DPDR 😊 I know they can be scary but they will fade away and stop completely as you recover: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-and-memory-loss/ www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-fears-and-anxious-thoughts/

[@AC--13000]

i just recovered after 3 months of continuous stress🎉. Full recovery is possible and you’ll see it too! ask me anything you want

[@Dpmanual]

Delighted to hear you've recovered! 😊

[@Bullshitcs]

When recovering your symptoms were getting milder or were you getting breaks? Im just asking because im getting breaks daily. In another words my dpdr is on and off daily

[@AC--13000]

@@Bullshitcs Hey! i was a that stage about two months ago! Now i’m fully recovered with some stress here and there! Just know that dpdr is just ocd and it will go away as soon as you start ocd recovery strategies. THESE ARE NOT FEELINGS THEY ARE OBSESSIVE THOUGHTS AND FEARS OF HAVING THESE FEELINGS! don’t be fooled you are already ok but you just have to convince yourself fully.😃 ask me anything else you want

[@Bullshitcs]

​@@AC--13000 what ocd recovery strategies did you use?

[@AC--13000]

@@Bullshitcs Listen. Remind yourself every time you question reality or have a thought about dp or dr that it’s just a thought and not a feeling. Not a thought but an idea. Ideas are fake! Every other thing you think that causes stress to you like crazy existential intrusive thoughts or general intrusive thoughts is just something you have because of ocd. These IDEAS don’t define you so don’t let them cause you stress. It’s very important to not do compulsions like searching about the condition,talking about the condition, seeking affirmation that you’ll be ok or that it isn’t something that lasts forever. Tell yourself that the worst is about to happen like "i’ll have this forever" or something like that so that your brain starts seeing the condition as something that doesn’t stress you out and isn’t dangerous for you. If you aren’t afraid of the worst cenario then the position you are in rn won’t be scary for you. As you get less and less stressed you’ll get better. Also try finding a good psychiatrist and get zoloft it saved me. It’s helpful for ocd after 2 months of taking it.

[@Sara44-kc5gb]

I tried to k_ill myself yesterday but it didn’t work unfortunately .I am a girl 17 years old, I struggle for 3 months with thoughts and feeling that destroy my brain destroyed my hole life there is some voice coming from my head telling me all the day , everyday, every minute in my life that nothing is real nothing is real, the life not real not exist, my family is not exist they are not real , the people the humans not real not exist , my memories in my childhood is not real and I’ve always remembered them because they were beautiful , I look to my mom something tell me that this is all illusions she is not exist it’s all illusions from my mind I remember what happens yesterday like what I eat there is something deny everything I believed and with the time I started believe it and all my day start with a big argument with someone I don’t who it is but the only thing that I know that I lost my control the last week I put my hand in so so hot water to feel and to prove that I am exist and the life is real and I started cried because my hand was red because of painful , and after I struggled with the painful of the hot water those things comes again and told me that doesn’t happen you didn’t burned your hand it is not real you maybe imagine it it’s said that I am Laing it is all illusions nothing is happens nothing is real . When I looking to my sister and hugging her there is something forced me to believe that my sister is not real I really get tired of everything even the last month I met my old teacher that I’ve been always took him as role model those things comes again and told me that the teacher is not real your memories not real there is no life you’re just imagine or they are just illusions and they are not real please someone helps me I don’t even know if I’ll not k_illing myself because I lost my control when I look to the sky and the sun there is something told me it is not true and I really started believe it even now I try to ask help from you there is something that told me it not gonna work you will never be ok because nothing is real nothing it is gonna happen because nothing is exist and I tried to response those thoughts that maybe my mom my family that I loved them all my life maybe they are real maybe they are not but it’s gets worse please someone help me and tell me what is happening with me before I hurt myself . And the thing that I didn’t get a drug or something but before that happened I have been struggle with anxiety about the feature and I’ve been struggle with overthinking and depression and then just a thought and feeling come told me everything is not real I am not real and exist the hole life my brothers the movies the tv series there was something deny everything and my family will never let me go to psychologist

[@bobtim1008]

I’m at the point where I don’t even care that I have dpdr and it’s starting to go away but i still have the emotional numbness I’m just waiting for it to come back even tho that probably why I got it it’s my passion for life that got me hurt to begin with

[@user-sy1hh8dd4f]

i see everything but my head dont see this. why? i think i am a blind.

[@InterestingShorts1337]

Shaan when you talk about distractions on your book its with the objective to not dwell on our symptoms?

[@jolianpeterson8317]

Mi am recovering from my second dpdr fase, i now suffer with severe insomnia while im still recovering which makes me feel somewhat bad i wang to know if this is part of it.

[@user-tn7qs6fw4r]

@dpmanual. Hello shaun where can I found your dp manual thank you.

[@Dpmanual]

www.dpmanual.com/purchase/ 😊

[@InterestingShorts1337]

I have a question. Should i be worried about issues with my memory? And not being as sharp (quick with thinking and processing information)? Thanks!

[@Dpmanual]

Don’t worry, worries about loss of memory or time are super common with DPDR. I know they can be scary but they will fade away and stop completely as you recover: www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-and-memory-loss/

[@aniakrol7805]

Hi guys, I have been struggling with derealization since I started smoking weed (probably with unwanted additives) in October 2023. Many of the symptoms have gone (I recognize myself in the mirror and I consider the world to be real), but I have a problem that has been bothering me since January this year. This is a first-person perspective problem. It causes me pain and fear that I see with my own eyes and perceive the world from the first person. It's uncomfortable for me that I can't see my face. The worst thing is that I have lived this way all my life and I never would have even thought that there could be something strange about it. Now it seems unnatural and limiting to me... I've had this symptom for 4 months and I can't get rid of it. It takes away my joy from life. Have any of you had this? Has it passed? How to overcome this?

[@bobtim1008]

What do you mean first person isn’t life first person for everyone if you mean like it feels like your looking through a screen then I get that but as for first person idk

[@lucashungerford5986]

Hey I’m really scared because I have some issue that was caused by weed but it doesn’t seem like what everyone else is describing as dp/dr. The best way I would describe it is when I look at the world I don’t see everything as one frame and put together I can only process individual things. Could that be derealization or is it something else entirely?

[@Dpmanual]

Watch this carefully Lucas, I think you'll find it helpful 😊 kzbin.info/www/bejne/h6qWdXR8eaeMaZI

[@rlsstudio2305]

I was just wondering if someone had that symptom that everything feels flat.. like my body hands sometimes they feel flat 😂 I had bad dpdr and now my dpdr is better, but like i said sometimes i feel like i am flat and it s a strange feeling

[@Dpmanual]

Don’t worry, symptoms like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/

[@Penguinsfan-ck5kr]

I have a question and can you please answer because I’m getting anxious. Recently I have just been questioning my existence and getting scared of the cycle of life. I get scared that I’m just doing the same thing over and over. If this is part of dpdr can you explain why it’s happening?

[@Dpmanual]

Don’t worry, existential / intrusive thoughts like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating and frightening but they are also temporary and harmless and will fade away and stop as your recovery continues 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-fears-and-anxious-thoughts/

[@Tommy_8364]

I got a question. Shaun, you told in the video its not possible to get brain damage from drugs. But I really doubt whether I suffer from DP/DR or some form of brain damage. 2 months ago I sniffed like 1,5 grams of amfetamine in two nights, I was awake for three nights and I don't feel the same again ever since. I had some episodes of DP/DR, but not like the most describe in the videos. I don't suffer from panic attacks (more like a full-time stress experience), blurry vision (I experience some snow vision sometimes though) or existential thoughts. I just feel weird and like I'm in a dream or feeling a robot. Talking to people seem unreal. I also got concentration and memory problems. And because my tinnitus got worse after the drugs relapse, I'm really scared that my brain structure changed in some way (because tinnitus is kind of produced in the brains). The episodes got less heavy, but I still feel something has fundamentally changed in my consciousness. What do you think about this?

[@Dpmanual]

Hi Tommy, what you're describing sounds like a very typical case of anxiety and DPDR. You don't need to catastrophize that you have damaged your brain structure or changed your consciousness when all the evidence points to something much simpler: kzbin.info/www/bejne/h6qWdXR8eaeMaZI And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.

[@Tommy_8364]

@@Dpmanual Thank you so much!

[@mahamasim8943]

Is it normal when person is healing and he hasn’t have any dp or dr episodes in 3 days and he’s happy but at the same time he’s a little anxious that he’s not feeling any dpdr feelings not any anxiety and not any panic attacks. He feels like maybe his emotions are numb or brain got numb. Is it what usually happens when healing?

[@Dpmanual]

Read this, I think you'll find it useful 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/what-does-depersonalization-recovery-feel-like/

[@zakofmakof4652]

Im from holland and i wanne buy it. Do you guys/ladys also have the feeling like this is all a dream likee how im i gonne get better from this book en what im watching is this real or fake and like everyday is like im surviving. I wanne buy it but stil have the feeling its all a dream what im watching or not real😅!

[@etherealmabel4041]

i had those thoughts too and i would say the more you dwell on it the more it persists. Getting the book was more of a comfort because i was let known that I wasn’t alone. It touches on almost all my symptoms and definitely this one.

[@zakofmakof4652]

@@etherealmabel4041im going for it and hope i wil get there cus this is a scary crazy thing to feel like this. Thank you for the replay🙌🏼

[@alaaalhosary8309]

Is it normal for DPDR to feel 24 hours a day, 7 days a week? Is this temporary or chronic?

[@Dpmanual]

Yes, as with all anxiety-based conditions it's common to have periods where you're experiencing it 24/7 😊 I know it can be frustrating but it will become less constant and fade away and stop as your recovery continues. Watch this: kzbin.info/www/bejne/rKPQiXmwm690l5Ysi=HTaB8QBDM7sHNp-Z&t=196

[@SharandeepSingh-dx3yk]

Shaun, will I recover? My hands seems unreal. My whole day pass by thinking of it. It started 2 february this year and the i also feel scary by remembering its beginning because I was crying all day. No one understand me. Even my family. I don't know what is going with my life. I have not hope to live life. 😞

[@adamlovas9749]

You will definitely recover. I had dpdr from HHCP and i nearly recovered after half of the year. Look up to this channel it helped me a lot. Main things that helped me was starting living more healthier ( exercise ) and i stopped smoking cigarettes and drinking cofee. May god be with you. I hope you recover too

[@fetterette]

@@adamlovas9749same Bro. Stopped drinking coffee and cigarettes as well

[@user-sy1hh8dd4f]

i had a dpdr 3 month. it was so bad feel. it go away of course.

[@GoodnewsKemeke]

You will recover 100%

[@user-sy1hh8dd4f]

@@GoodnewsKemeke i have alienation with my head. kit so hard because i dont know who i am and my head scared my. does it dpdr?

[@jacobaragon3398]

Rn everything feels real to the point it feels fake like i feel like if i recover im gonna look at reality differently and i just dint know if im still going through dpdr can someone let me know please

[@jacobaragon3398]

Like idk if been traumatized by this and im just been scared

[@jacobaragon3398]

I just feel so strange idk what to do

[@Dpmanual]

Watch this 😊 kzbin.info/www/bejne/h6qWdXR8eaeMaZI

[@addisoc5195]

hi! i’m about 2 months into my dpdr journey right now. i’m feeling a ton better than the first few weeks but it still lingers a ton has anyone else felt like people around you aren’t real and did these feelings ever COMPLETELY go away?

[@etherealmabel4041]

yess! my biggest fear coming back to America was feeling that no one else is real or feeling a disconnect from actual people. It will go away!

[@addisoc5195]

@@etherealmabel4041 thank you so much it’s gotten a ton better than the first few weeks but yea the people and life around me not feeling real is still lingering and it just feels like it’ll never truly go away

[@Dpmanual]

Don't worry, feelings like that are super common with DPDR and will fade away and stop as your recovery continues. You can and will get 100% back to normal 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/back-to-normal-after-depersonalization/

[@addisoc5195]

@@Dpmanual thank you, i’m 17 and this is really rough. your content is amazing

[@Dpmanual]

@@addisoc5195 Happy to help 😊 And please make sure that you’re speaking to your parents about what’s happening. It’s very important that they know what’s going on ❤

[@JuanDiazSilvermyst]

Oh...she is talking about spice. That stuff Is way worse than marijuana. That's really bad for your body