Basically I'm Gay

Let me tell you a queer little story about a boy named Dan.
Follow me online to see the rest of my tale as it unfolds in real time:
/ danielhowell
/ danielhowell
/ danisnotonfire
And subscribe to my channel! www.youtube.com... (lol)
Content warning: this video contains far too much strong language and discussions of general sexuality, discriminatory language, bullying and an attempt on my own life. Otherwise totally appropriate for education, instilling good values in young children and my grandma who I will expect a disappointed text from.
Special thanks to / amazingphil for production assistance.
Art by Hector aka / swatercolour
Soundtrack:
Handel - Messiah
Camille Saint-Saëns - Danse Macabre
Tchaikovsky - 1812 Overture
Chopin - Fantasie Impromptu
Schubert - Ave Maria
Additional Music by Kevin Macleod incompetech.com
Disclaimer - This video is just a starting point for me, what I felt was the bare minimum (ha) required for me to get this out there so I can move forward with my life, a mix of explanation, justification and opinion. It scratched the surface of several things I could have gone into more detail about, but the purpose of this was to be ..reasonably concise and above all entertaining. In the future, in the right places, I will surely talk much more about everything touched on in this video and more. It’s also likely that something will get misunderstood or misrepresented, perhaps from the way I phrased things or people assuming my thoughts on things that I didn’t specify. Also my story is just the truth of what happened to me and what I thought at certain points of time in my environment, good and bad - of course not my opinions today. So JUST to be clear my opinion on general sexual and gender identities are that everyone is valid and deserves equal rights and the freedom to exist. The only thing I don’t tolerate is intolerance. Cheers to an inevitable bright future, either because people become nice and the old people die or the sun explodes first lmao.
Some resources and charities for anyone who needs support or wants to learn more:
youngminds.org...
www.samaritans...
papyrus-uk.org/
www.stonewall....
www.hrc.org/
www.thetrevorpr...
www.trevorspac...
switchboard.lgbt/
minus18.org.au/
www.glaad.org/t...
www.mermaidsuk...

[@lauren-mm7mf]

this is the video form of sending a risky text and throwing your phone

[@faith-on-the-internet]

lauren i know this has 283 likes but this is so funny and i love this comment thank you

[@RoseWitch-bg9zk]

wait why are you right---

[@girlinthebacc3198]

this is so true lolol

[@annaward5099]

@lauren you aren't wrong

[@benazirmohamed9234]

JSKCMSKCMSKMXND

[@millieisnotanidiot3102]

dan upgrading from normal black clothing to sparkly black clothing is like going from windows 8 to windows 10.

[@augustg2059]

But windows 8 was so much better. Other way around yeah sounds good 👌

[@gabriellat430]

more like the ios 7 update

[@augustg2059]

Gabby T true, I like that although IOS 6 was a look but it was an improvement

[@Asterius_101]

@@augustg2059 Nooo, Windows 8 was a dumpster fire

[@artificialcolourzeee4647]

theyre both horrid

[@pieceaisa5046]

he is genuinely an incredible speaker wow

[@ET13666]

I was one of those people who speculated about Dan's sexuality (before this video). For a while, I genuinely felt that Dan was letting his viewers down by not coming out, because him coming out could make such a difference to others. I really felt that he had some sort of moral obligation to his fans to show his support for the queer community. This was years before I knew I'm gay, but even then, I knew that my family would be supportive of me no matter what. So I didn't understand at the time how stressful/scary it would be for someone else to come out. I had no idea how harmful it was to be speculating on Dan's sexuality. I think I speak for a lot of Dan's fans when I say, I'm so sorry. I had absolutely no concept of the trauma this was causing (to Dan and others). I think Dan explained it really well in this video; what was an interesting piece of trivia to me, was totally undermining Dan as a person, and just incredibly disrespectful. I understand now that - while ultimately, being able to be yourself is best - no one should feel forced to come out or pick a label, just because other people are nosy. And no one should have any obligation to reveal something personal about themselves, just because it might help others.

[@cloudeight3887]

Hey I am proud of you for coming to this realisation

[@mediamom27]

Beautifully articulate. Also, same.

[@Isaac-pc9ic]

I hope the kid who kicked Dan watches this and regrets their decisions

[@salmanaden6999]

I'm ur only comment ...

[@Isaac-pc9ic]

@@salmanaden6999 henlo comment

[@salmanaden6999]

@@Isaac-pc9ic damn thats tuff man

[@trashtie4854]

imagine if they never did, then maybe this wouldn’t happen

[@Braxton999Adams]

As Tragic and Karmically poetic as that would be, as a self proclaimed misanthrope, I have a feeling if this kid grew up to be anything like he was back then, he wouldn't have an ounce of remorse and would instead be the first person to start screeching and having a childish temper tantrum at the phrase "Hetero-Normative" and probably has a sw@stika tattooed somewhere on his body as-well.

[@Devinelea11]

a n d t h e n h e d i s a p p e a r e d -

[@treyingram]

•Tamaki• betchu hes dead!!””

[@holliehrm7928]

I could stAY RIGHT HER OR DISAPPEAR AND NOB-

[@klarakeuroeaton5737]

When the world needed him most he vanished...

[@natsukicore7992]

wow bmc fans unite

[@Devinelea11]

@@holliehrm7928 NOBODY'D EVEN NOTICE AT ALLL-

[@laurajones7352]

“No one stood up for me when it mattered most. And it almost cost me everything” 💔

[@kiiokotoriikitscrazyhesony8242]

"i attempted, and i told nobody" hits extremely hard, i tried to take my life a couple years ago, no one was home, didn't have any actual friends in real life to worry about me, and i also greatly failed. at the time, i told absolutely no one for about a month or two. i told a couple friends eventually, but i guess i told the wrong person. they told their friends, and i only found out when i was in class one day. my teacher was reading a short story that was meant to be an allegory for the act, and every single time she said the word, this group of people across the room would look at me and chuckle to themselves. i'm also incredibly happy i failed, i met the girl i intend to marry, i've been able to socially transition almost completely, and on a lighter note, ive been around to see all of the creators i loved watching start making content again. i've lived to see the day where i'm happy again, and where things are going pretty well for me. i didn't magically become enlightened after trying to end it all, it still took like a year for me to be comfortable with myself, and for me to be happy again. but at least it helped me realize that taking your life is fucking hard, and too much trouble for what it's worth lol

[@iloveJustinBieber774]

i'm so glad you failed too

[@mynamessofus]

I’m so glad you’re here 💛

[@cricketjuices]

I'm so happy for you. that's incredible, I hope you and your partner have a lovely long life together

[@taylorrich-lane454]

Dan:/leaves chat for a year Dan: casually uploads 45 minute video Dan:/leaves chat again

[@sophia-qp9qh]

Taylor Rich-Lane honestly

[@evelyn-bz7hv]

I know this is a joke but like I don’t really mind if he is getting the love and support he deserves.

[@Bumper-er4ss]

Last on world 8 years ago

[@ravenmartinez8840]

"thats. Our. Dan"

[@emmabennett7699]

Yepp

[@silentsubs6804]

“im so glad i failed.” we are too. thank you, daniel.

[@funkyfun9226]

@xalay ummmmmm,maybe no one ^w^

[@hannah7351]

theoddgirlsout challenges huh?

[@heysquimble]

sorry but SEULGIIII 💛💛💛

[@aboz8649]

Time changes everything

[@theamazinglucy]

back here on the 5th anniversary, watching you here and thinking about everything you’ve achieved in these last 5 years is incredible… all these projects you’ve worked on, the best one was yourself ❤️ thank you for everything - you have impacted more lives than you’ll ever know just for using your voice and sharing your stories. happy 5 years of authenticity, freedom and happiness. now give us the bee merch

[@mossman15]

Happy Pride 2024! Who else is here for their annual rewatch?

[@Stupid_storytime]

WOOO

[@sglenny001]

My first time watching

[@boneenthusiast2052]

I feel bad for wanting him back on KZbin because he deserves to do whatever is best for himself but it truly does feel like losing a friend :/

[@Tyler-gb4xe]

Tbh

[@kaspas5511]

Yeah

[@kaspas5511]

Like I love him, but I honestly thought he posted this so we could understand his side of life, so we could love his videos even more- but then he gone

[@amy5407]

Yeah... I miss his content and I miss seeing him and Phil play games together and such. They were both such a big part of my life and my happiness and while I’m so glad Phil still posts, I miss Dan a lot 🙁🙁

[@nichellekiger8083]

bone enthusiast yeah, i miss him :(

[@lucylokovic5800]

When he said "I'm so glad I failed" Man. That hit hard.

[@katelinsmith1263]

A Loody I sat there initially after he said that and sobbed so hard. I remember being there personally and to imagine someone I look up to being in that same place was awful to think about.

[@adrianthedevil4267]

TBh it hit way to close to Home When he said that, I started sobbing the first time i saw this video

[@vanessalassmans1456]

It really does hit home for me. I personally connect to that on so many levels. He has helped so many people

[@yo-wr4jr]

Every damn time i watch this video it never fails to make me weep like the crying bitch i am

[@ziayenn_]

i keep coming back to this video this is the exact point that dan literally shatters me

[@aparajita2938]

I'm 15, in a homophobic household and a part of the LGBT community, this mde me cry so hard. Thinking that I've been through similar things, and when he said that he tried to commit, that really hit me here. This gave me so much hope, thank you

[@kalreviews]

I hope you're doing ok :) you deserve a happy life and I hope you are safe

[@pinkghostie]

\(^^)/ Have a hug. Things will get better eventually.

[@aparajita2938]

@@pinkghostie th-thank you🥺

[@awkwardlyyours]

Things will get better! You deserve to be happy and I hope you know there are people out there who are rooting for you

[@rosabj4904]

I hope you're safe and things get better!

[@Shellbells10]

I’m coming back to this video three years later because I’ve finally realized and accepted that I am a lesbian. I still have a lot to learn about myself, and I’m still quite terrified since I haven’t come out yet. But I’m glad that I’ve had KZbin to make me feel better about my sexuality journey

[@chocofudge1932]

It's so brave of you to share this. I hope you're doing okay and processing everything well. Wishing you all the best!

[@Darncoolcreeper]

Why are you encouraging degeneracy?

[@CloverLovesTT]

been out as a lesbian for 10 years-it gets better! you aren’t alone and i’m thinking of you :)

[@MissCute20601]

this is the most intense "draw my life" video i've ever seen

[@jadendrinkwater1211]

OMG YESSSSSSS 🤣🤣🤣

[@yupwater]

i agree

[@stankytanky69]

he’s a great artist lmao

[@batteryoweredscout]

ikr, its all so realistic!

[@ellelard3992]

He didn’t do the artwork himself. If you look in the description he credited the artist. I’ve always loved their art so it made me so happy to see it here

[@Emily-om6sp]

It says “one year ago” and I gotta admit that hurts a bit

[@awkwardanimations9476]

Same

[@blearkob]

The 'that hits different' comments too...

[@ioannad1857]

it does

[@bubzywubsy142]

Four years. Ouch.

[@LollisticGaming]

try four

[@AnSop]

This video was already important to me when it came out, mostly because I was so proud of Dan and how open he is about his mental health. Since then I realized how queer I am and I feel so seen and validated. Dan is the representation he and we all needed, I’m his age and up until our early twenties there was no representation anywhere. This video is so fucking important.

[@blondeyedboy]

Love Love

[@Darncoolcreeper]

Why are you encouraging degeneracy?

[@scoobydooisanobbsesionsave8755]

This as a closeted person is a comfort video Hey it's four months later coming out went terribly but you are finally free PS thanks for all the nice comments makes me know to keep going :)

[@sbe07023]

wishing u nothing but support & positivity vibes on to ur way🤍🤍

[@junie2887]

im proud of you :] i hope you get to a happy, safe place someday.

[@elliehopper5660]

PROUD OF YOUUU ❣️❣️❣️

[@isobel6480]

hey, are you doing ok? i hope things worked out ok for you! sending hugs

[@christinaolivant4586]

I know this was posted a while ago but I hope you’re doing ok and I’m so proud of you for coming out

[@momowinchester409]

You here for the BIG anniversary too, huh?

[@Loh24158]

YES

[@cjstar01jones17]

Yes

[@syllc.209]

ABSOLUTELY

[@callme_tyler742]

Yupp

[@greenie9222]

What anniversary?

[@valerienguyen7508]

ok dan talking about how phil was so accepting during that dark time and how he's genuinely his best friend is literally the purest most wholesome thing i've ever heard

[@ceceliareed]

Valerie Nguyen I need a best friend like that 🤧

[@alicenano5007]

Valerie Nguyen i cried?

[@valerienguyen7508]

@@alicenano5007 i did too

[@darkheartdancer]

I want a friend like Phil

[@alicenano5007]

Valerie Nguyen how could we not?

[@G4RF1ELD]

as an ace, i think ace phobia is kinda funny, like why u so mad that im not getting laid😂

[@ellaelephant4122]

exactly!

[@rageagainstthemicrowave1313]

it shows that some people are so sad in their own lives that they go out of their way to hate any person different than them :(

[@ellaelephant4122]

@@rageagainstthemicrowave1313 🙁 yeah

[@frankcastle1862]

@@rageagainstthemicrowave1313 AHH it made it worse

[@darkchocolate5494]

lmao same

[@greenieboo]

i literally watch this at least once a year

[@Ruby-pi4jm]

Ok but he could literally do a TED talk. Please can he do a TED talk

[@user-bp4gb3kf3m]

The d in TED talk stands for Daniel Howell

[@user-vf5kq4vg1q]

the extreme dan howell talks about life, kids

[@mygayrats]

@@user-vf5kq4vg1q talk

[@amelancholybrown2686]

1k like

[@lenofaus]

Hi, so, my name is [ dan ]. Nice to meet you. And welcome to my Ted talk

[@demonnorangel3698]

I understand he needs a break, but god do i miss him

[@lou-pw3jq]

Demon Nor Angel honestly:(

[@RobynBobbin3]

Same dude

[@okay6470]

Demon Nor Angel same

[@juuustnothing5663]

SAME!! I miss him so so so sooo much, at the same time i do understand why :,(

[@taylorbottini2758]

I miss him too. 😭😭

[@OliviaDavidson2003]

Back for my yearly rewatch and I’m finally out of the closet as a lesbian

[@carolinemartin488]

Congratulations!!!

[@sophie_super_fan229]

Congratulations

[@Jeremy_phase2]

​​@@ILoveEveryBody-c3j Are you saying that because they are coming out or are you saying that because they are lesbian?

[@Jeremy_phase2]

Sheesh

[@the_willoww]

@@ILoveEveryBody-c3j I feel sad for you and the hateful life you’re living. I hope one day you can get better.

[@robinw.8083]

Attempting and not telling anyone as a queer teen is so relatable. We do make it through.

[@shuhduvugup8425]

“sorry I give off mixed signals...... im _versatile_ ” I- wow

[@lexijohnson2307]

Shuh Duvugup wait he says that?

[@lp2030]

he lying(?

[@kriaallison]

@@lexijohnson2307 12:38

[@emilyrossman2099]

I fucking knew it😂😂

[@lukasm6905]

@@lexijohnson2307 He does say that

[@paperimzk]

remember when dan dropped this then disappeared for 11 months,,,.,... r u okay

[@Summer-cz9qz]

I miss him so much, I really hope he's doing well :(

[@froooooooot]

does anyone kno what happened?

[@beeenoodle]

@@froooooooot He’s taking a break from creating content, but he’s appeared in several collab live shows and interviews since leaving. He’ll most likely be back soon. 🙂

[@corvidaedalus]

@@beeenoodle I have a feeling he might come back on the year mark (June 13th). If not, that's okay too. :)

[@ejejj4jbjune287]

@@corvidaedalus god I hope so

[@paulnagle7017]

Welcome to the LGBTQ+ community. With all of its imperfections and contradictions, it's an infintely better place to be than invisible and lonely. As a 65 year old gay man who got thrown out of the family at age 18 (now we are all comfy cozy), it astounds me that young gay folks are still having to deal with all of this crap. Hopefully videos like yours will accelerate the ridiculously slow process of LGBTQ+ acceptance and celebration. Clearly - the fact that this video had 12 million views 4 years ago is a sign that you are making an impact. Well done.

[@vivitwo4132]

Timestamps: - Chapter 1: The Word 2:07 - Chapter 2: Feelings 9:34 - Chapter 3: Internalised Oppression 16:49 - Chapter 4: Labels 31:51 - Chapter 5: Fear 38:56

[@incelnation]

1. bomb ass jacket 2. thank you 3. i missed you 4. im crying 5. did i say thank you

[@MakerBayfield]

i wish he wore the leather shirt 😂

[@izabellamorgan7643]

Maker Bayfield oh god-

[@ohokayc0ol]

@@MakerBayfield don't give him ideas-

[@frostedjosieos3193]

Daniel posts a 45 minute long video with "basically" in the title

[@chaosteller]

💀

[@miisfits-1740]

That's Our Dan

[@kevserkahraman6357]

I mean isn't it so Dan?

[@gwengwen3769]

I mean feels pretty on brand 🤷🏼‍♀️👍

[@sarco1622]

Yeah that makes sense

[@corinawilliams3292]

I know Dan isn't gonna see this but for my own mental health I'm gonna say it I am truly sorry for the type of fan I was I didn't realize how harmful I was being by sexualizing your life and pressuring you about your sexuality

[@astralantithesis]

coming back to this video years later, i find it funny that dan and i have had a very similar story. i first watched this video age thirteen, thinking i was bisexual, having just graduated middle school and proud i’d made it through years’ worth of bullying on the basis of being presumed to be a lesbian. it did not end when i moved on to high school, and this video became a comfort to me; i convinced myself it’d get better one day just like it did for you. well, im eighteen now, i’ve moved to college (and survived my first semester!), and ive made a few friends who i feel closer to now than i’ve ever been before. and im almost completely out as a lesbian. so thank you, dan, for being my lifeline for so long. i finally feel some semblance of hope in my life.

[@colle_slaw]

but when the world needed him most he vanished

[@jasminetedesco1972]

don't tell me this is a dteam reference

[@rebeccak9357]

wAIT NO THAT MEANS HE’LL BE GONE FOR A HUndred years we cannot make atla references

[@nopedideedoda]

@@jasminetedesco1972 this is from avatar the last airbender

[@jasminetedesco1972]

Fiona Motzney ikik but there's a dream team meme with it so that's why i asked

[@juliafrost9082]

bless this comment

[@cadancedumond411]

notice how the world went to shit after he left

[@mutieye]

👀

[@emmaredmond7234]

Dan is God, confirmed

[@nataliag4834]

Like aang lmao

[@SalYTShorts]

Yep

[@shadowpanther298]

Holy sh*t you're right

[@taxwilliams4400]

came out 4 years ago after watching this video, it was really bad and scary for a while but now me and my girlfriend are getting ready to celebrate our first Christmas together. Every time someone comes out, the world becomes a more interesting place

[@testamikea]

this video actually changed my life path, genuinely, it’s so important to me

[@allibear5072]

And when quarantine needed him the most. He vanished........

[@theoarib3998]

100 years passed and there is no one new. we still need him.

[@aworldtowin955]

Imari Smith but i believe, dan can save the world...

[@Huzaifa47282]

I love you all

[@alphabetbi6218]

Not on twitter. Hes very active on twitter

[@earnestdeclarationofmedioc1706]

I'm cackling

[@kaity2883]

"no one stood up for me, when it mattered the most. and that almost cost me everything." bro that shit hit HARD

[@atlasisannoying8488]

Indeedy

[@MynicknameisViolet]

Yeah :(

[@arianna8088]

kaity omg he said that as soon as i saw this

[@dramaticangst]

Happy pride i still can't watch this without crying

[@pokelover02]

I love that it starts out with white light and then goes through the colors of the rainbow and ends at white again. Even the illustrations have colorful outlines that match the rainbow with each chapter. So much thought was put into this. It's like a work of art

[@paulajeansantos8142]

i love how the lighting changes every chapter and apparently it resembles a rainbow

[@BeUnique26]

its to represent the different flags

[@Darkdayzz]

@@BeUnique26 Which is a rainbow. Ït's okay Izzy.

[@bunkertons]

Good catch.

[@reagan8888]

Yeah I noticed that its super cool

[@ChristinaMoralesMindfuqed]

I didnt notice that at ALL

[@mavipellegrini3305]

The way he talks about Phil makes me cry because he deserves his happiness

[@aubrielarissa7804]

Jay Pellegrini omg same

[@nightmime9243]

Same, they're soul mates 😭

[@eee8665]

Hi well done for getting more likes in like 22 minutes than I got in 2 hours,I support you

[@mavipellegrini3305]

@@eee8665 lol I didn't ever notice the likes I go holy shit

[@Andremeda]

sameee!!!!! im so glad they found each other!

[@kassmartinez7797]

this is kinda a magnum opus of all youtube videos ever. like if i could rate this on letterboxd it would be in my top four for SUREEEE. masterclass in storytelling, truly fuckin beautiful. i watch it every year

[@kassmartinez7797]

love u dan have loved u since i was a she/her

[@Lovelyhatzz]

happy five year anniversary to this masterpiece

[@starrkidd193]

Dan brought out the sparkle jacket for this one

[@annemariefrose6857]

This is a look

[@youhaveveryprettyears]

@@annemariefrose6857 it's a great look

[@haileysilver8854]

When Dan said he peaked at age 5, I felt that on a spiritual level

[@nitidiuscula]

ikr? * o o f *

[@TheGunteraz]

Same.

[@unculturedswine1871]

Hailey Silver 😂

[@sarahni]

Right?

[@RH-ji1kq]

U got 1.4k in 24 minutes…

[@Artemisdianaxxx]

I’m so pleased today’s kids have Dan. When I was a kid I had a few older friends who were out and they were incredibly important to me and my self acceptance. But so many people don’t have that and people like dan are doing an amazing job filling that void for some people

[@ava_rodgers]

I watched this video when it came out thinking I was fully straight with not a single chance of being anything else and now over 4 years later I’m watching this again with a new perspective as an absolute lesbian. What a world we live in.

[@dezzyj5889]

“In almost every way, I literally peaked at age 5” That’s it, that’s my senior quote.

[@data6022]

I'm gonna use that as well I'm not even joking .

[@buttersubs7057]

Me too

[@dreamytrashbag8853]

Damn you make me wish we had senior quotes

[@YourMom-xn6pj]

Domino Bonnaire rt

[@Sophie-dx2of]

I’m gonna use “I’ll see you all at therapy” (the spongebob quote)

[@emilyjfreer2895]

Friends or more, Dan needed a Phil. I’m glad he got one.

[@brookelucas472]

Emilyissocool this comment is so cute, I was expecting the first few comments to be E X T R E M E phannies

[@bonniebuck7223]

yEs

[@DefinitelyCassady]

I think everyone needs a Phil in their lives

[@heckinghummus2863]

Yeah so glad he found someone he rlly connected with

[@RafaelLopez-yw6ze]

Everyone needs a Phill

[@kyleyfish6099]

Every time I see the "Hi, my name is Dan" video, I always get a little teary eyed thinking about how much that small Dan had to go through, I'm so proud of Dan for getting to this amazing point of his life

[@morganbill5615]

Four years ago :’) I’m so forever proud of him.

[@marcy-ym1ny]

dan: *says something incredibly dark and sad* *two seconds later* *fireworks and fingerguns*

[@user-tx6lu6nz5r]

Description of his entire demographic

[@abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz958]

Trueeeeeeeee

[@anemoia3154]

*thats. our. dan.*

[@carterg333]

I feel like this is pretty much all of us

[@Ethan-nj4iw]

INCREDIBLE JOB!!!!!

[@-pixela-277]

This is the saddest story told in the funniest way

[@floyd4611]

no its not

[@AmyAberrant]

I want to protect him from all harm 🥺

[@-pixela-277]

@@floyd4611 why

[@user-sb8iw1bt9d]

@@floyd4611 your name is the meme master but you don't have a scence of humor

[@zainawalker1407]

Ikr I dont know whether to laugh or cry so I'm doing both so proud of him

[@weegee1204]

i still come back to this video sometimes. not as often as i think about it, but sometimes. it still means a lot to me

[@liz7064]

Same here

[@azzierulz]

Happy five years to this absolutely incredible video! I’m so proud of how far you’ve come even since this!

[@sai8995]

"I literally peeked at age 5." Same sis.

[@kloud8447]

yup

[@oonaobrien4668]

I peeked when I was born

[@screen4309]

Isabella Baquial Ik right

[@pricillahogan5342]

I’ve never peaked yet, but hopefully I get there soon 🤷🏻‍♀️

[@mirandazhang1040]

Don’t think I’ll ever peak

[@tdogsleep]

“I’m so glad I failed” so are we, Dan.❤️

[@emma4736]

wonkyseptum this made me cry

[@AmyAberrant]

I wouldn’t even be alive if it wasn’t for Dan. If he didn’t make it I wouldn’t have.

[@MsMimi127]

Well that made me cry again

[@Rossilaz58]

Me 2 years ago: Cool, I'm proud of this guy for coming out Me today: Hey I'm gay

[@EmilyJayne16]

Did you mean: me? 😅❤️

[@SuperBlablablaxxx]

aw im happy for u

[@theoriginal1971]

Happy anniversary to this, to quote AmazingPhil, “45-minute masterpiece”

[@queenmelodee283]

"I'm not picky. *I'm easy."* Bruh, I felt that.

[@nikolaoseva]

Me too queen...😓 Me too

[@zoraxua4106]

The amount of quotes in this I can relate to is terrifying

[@sofia2621]

Same

[@teamedward444]

Im your 100th like

[@myrtheroest196]

Omg same

[@alizeznallz2934]

i want to like this comment but it has 666 likes so i feel like it's too perfect to ruin

[@angrydinosaur8853]

Same

[@esha979]

rewatching this at age 20 where i feel more alone about my sexuality than ever, this genuinely is such a beautiful and hopeful tale and the message at the end is so simple yet so profound, i cant wait for the future to get brighter for me and its relieving to know that i wont be trapped like this forever, thank you for this dan

[@tara3240]

feeling alone sucks, but just know that we see you. everything is going to work out.

[@kaijuno]

if it helps I’m turning 20 in a few months and I’m in that space too. It’s tough, but you’re never alone in the experience. better things are coming. I’m wishing you the very best, and rooting for you.

[@alexandrawhitt5338]

The day this came out will be forever engrained in my brain. I genuinely watched is at least once a day for weeks because it was so special and really made me feel less alone. rewatching was honestly such a whirl wind. It was a little concerning how much my brain could recite along with dan nearly 5 years later. It really makes me feel this strange emotion of pride and comfort and community and sadness and hope and so much more all at the same time in a way nothing else has ever made me feel. this video is really such an amazing work of art and a gorgeous, inspiring way for dan to share his journey with sexuality.

[@deanlaird8039]

He protecc He attacc But most importantly Dan did not come bacc

[@Traumatised311]

Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

[@Iflmv_]

Gonna cry now

[@daebeattie3349]

i criiiiiiiiiiie

[@binman94]

Mood, fucking mood. I'm dying now

[@AT-xd5ul]

My name isn't important 😳😢😭

[@nickjohnson4672]

we miss you dan, there’s a howell shaped hole in our howell shaped hearts

[@aimeekeenan2382]

IK

[@nienke6116]

nickthedumpsterfire THE WAY I BINGED THE UNDERTALE LETSPLAY FOR THE 9TH TIME 2 DAYS AGO....

[@beesgold1487]

It’s a A dan howwel shaped donut now

[@morphoblu4]

I’d rather not think about Dan’s hole. If you wanna know what it looks like, go ask Phil. I bet he’s been real close and personal with it hahaha

[@nickjohnson4672]

good lord stop

[@noahx3569]

the way his eyes teared up at 19:53 and he looked like he was about to cry :(

[@mavi9174]

the energy around the release of this video was a once in a lifetime experience

[@Ari-wx9bl]

Dan: 45 minute video Phil: *b e t*

[@spubbyj6566]

*c u r e d m y d e p r e s s i o n*

[@Kayateehee]

Omg I’m scared you have 666 likes on your comment ahhhhhh

[@opheliasouv]

@@Kayateehee congratulations. your comment is now one like closer to 666.

[@reesesramsay8719]

He deserves all the time he needs, but wow do I miss his smile.

[@maggieandres3340]

Reeses Ramsay this is so crazy accurate.

[@micetails]

Reeses Ramsay his sad dimple D:

[@dontmindme652]

What happened?? I'm so cunfuzzled

[@woomylover2006]

ITS BEEN 10 MONTHS IS HE DEAD

[@reedjadzinsky7654]

Random Fish where?

[@user-fx1ot4ld3u]

dan I've just accepted that I'm gay af after 3 years in denial, i have no one to tell about this, the only place i could think of was this comment section so thanks for the vid i guess ly babe have the courage and stuff

[@tara3240]

well you’ve told us and we see you. everything is going to work out, i promise.

[@jaybehkay2438]

Rewatching 18:45 - 24:05 regularly. I love this man. I’m so proud of him. And I am so glad he’s still here and sharing parts of his life with us

[@zaria333he]

"Do you hear that humming ? It's the self-hatred ,she's here and she only getting started."

[@ms.kaleighboo3796]

charli Drew that really hit me

[@ms.kaleighboo3796]

charli Drew and scarves me for a sec

[@Lost_NeverFound]

"I'm so glad I failed." Dan, so are we. And not just that, but I'm glad I failed too.

[@iloveJustinBieber774]

i'm also glad you're here stranger

[@chamomilegub3622]

Hi random person of the internet, I’m glad you’re still here with us too x just know that there will always be someone out there who cares about you, even if you haven’t met them yet. Time heals all wounds, so don’t give up stranger

[@formlessbl0b814]

This video literally saved my life, thank you

[@verystrongchild]

same

[@jasminec200]

Glad you are still here 💕 -random internet person

[@peysonj.phillips7600]

fame fam, and hopefully you’re doing ok and i hope you love yourself

[@peysonj.phillips7600]

same*

[@malaksafa4074]

I'm glad you are still here.

[@fad3703]

If dan doesn’t name his next video ‘hello internet’ I’m throwing my laptop

[@archivesofpain]

YES PLEASE

[@areallybigannoyingorangefa6562]

Hermiony 78 please don’t

[@rosiehutson4413]

What if it's goodbye internet? Ever think about that

[@alyxpawlawski5526]

@@rosiehutson4413 no stop that

[@ceejyweezy]

@@rosiehutson4413 stop. I've already been crying enough tonight.

[@BenBluee]

The subtle insert of “I’m versatile” was the absolute peak for me

[@lufortuna]

Ben Blue when did he say it i didn’t notice it lol

[@BenBluee]

Lucia Fortuna it was super subtle!! It was around he half way mark somewhere 🤭💙

[@reagan8888]

i had to sit and think about that for a second i must be stupid

[@jackielovesbirdies]

12:40 if anyone is looking for it!

[@eitacffuc]

Watching this years later, I'm so proud of Dan. I'm so proud of how far he's come. I hope he knows how much he's helped young queer people. This video gives hope to an audience that doesn't necessarily have help, or don't have much access to it. This gives hope to young men that struggle with mental health and are afraid to talk about mental health openly. And I really hope he knows how much he's helped people in general. I met him and Phil in 2017 at VidCon and I got the chance to tell them that they've helped me so much though my depression. I'm so proud of him for being so open and well spoken and having Phil as someone who he can have in his life for a very long time. And it makes me smile ear to ear when I see them now on the gaming channel being their authentic selves. And if Dan ever gets the chance to read this: your fanbase (as well as Phil's) loves you for who you are and will forever love you for who you both are. You've inspired and helped millions of people and we will support you both until the end of time. We love you guys so much. ❤

[@det395]

5 years later and feeling so much watching this again

[@emmab8467]

Dan. You're 27. You didn't wait too long. You waited til you were comfortable and you felt safe. I love the style of this video and would definitely listen to a podcast hosted by your eloquently spoken self. Love you x

[@liviajohnson4918]

also 27 is young

[@MomoIsMyHero]

Oh totally, good idea! a Dan podcast would be amazing.

[@atlas7164]

aCtually he's 28 lmao

[@notinspiredatall]

Podcast YES PLEASEEEEE

[@lesbianspacecadet]

I mean he couldv’e waited till he was 60 if he wanted to

[@nins9426]

i see you all coming back to this video because you’re in quarantine

[@oodlespaos]

This is the first time I am watching him but he is very funny and I am going on a Dan marathon

[@nins9426]

Sophie Hamlet these are good choices being made

[@howmuchismuch]

jokes on you ive been watching this once a week since it was published lmao

[@saradunn1615]

Grae Mae jokes on you. I never left

[@nins9426]

wilson burke, Sara Dunn jokes on me 😳✌️

[@averagely_basic]

i remember how much this video meant to me when it first came out, as a depressed teenager, still trying to figure out my sexuality. now i'm medicated, openly lesbian and back to this video for a university paper (i love my major). reading these comments almost made me more emotional than the video itself. reading all these coming out stories touched me so much and for those still struggling, i hope you know it truly does get better. so thank you dan and everyone in the comments for sharing your stories

[@shroom.doom.]

so glad ur in a better place now

[@nemofinn_]

Dan: comes out Also Dan: well it’s time to disappear

[@kristinareichl8516]

2016 Dan is not on fire - " A month without uploading" 2020 Dan- "Im about to ruin this man's whole career "

[@Laura-xp8om]

i love this

[@cultishh]

a month with out uploading he comes with a tag that no one even tagged him in he’s not a challenge to drag

[@attagirl1502]

We all know that we are the true fans were still here and still waiting!!!😭

[@kristinareichl8516]

@@attagirl1502 Always 😢

[@lara7214]

a year without uploading he comes back with a tag-

[@yuranival]

don't hide or delete this video, please. ever. the message is incredibly valuable and well-formulated. and I cannot stress enough how good those drawings are.

[@malwaolejnik1366]

Hector is absolutely amazing

[@montanarose4622]

@@saya-gn7eg Dan credited in the description, hopefully people think to check bc Hector's great!

[@saya-gn7eg]

@@montanarose4622 Whoop! yeah good for him cuz he really deserves more publication:)

[@melissa-1021]

Don’t forget the jacket

[@skinnie2838]

The fruity twink weirdo is gay? NO WAI BRO. SOMEONE ALERT THE MEDIA THIS WORLD MUST KNOW.

[@beckywood2635]

I frequent this video. It’s just so beautifully made and shows a story that many of us can relate to.

[@ranthetrashcan]

can’t believe it’s been two years thats wild

[@wumbe3520]

How did he somehow make this funny and heartbreaking

[@joannehabegger]

Well he IS Dan, that is his speciality

[@alexmontz2922]

Every time I watch this I'm crying and laughing all at once

[@johnsonken96]

Talent

[@alexa-tz1nu]

KING

[@moshoswirls5863]

dan: how much should i disclose to the public? also dan: yes

[@lxght_dxrk]

Aka Ohio’s tweet

[@lxght_dxrk]

*Phil’s

[@zenzcello6692]

Sometimes, when avoiding a label “not gay but not not gay” is useful

[@homophobicyoda]

I wish I could like this more than once.

[@sh4rkss]

the fact your username is homophobicyoda 😭

[@rachel9251]

Here I am, a whole year later, down to the minute, and still crying like a baby.

[@july_juli]

Hiii

[@emmad9657]

I don’t know how you can’t cry at this

[@draalien]

You met them!?!?

[@captain8014]

I'll drink to that

[@awkwardanimations9476]

I cry myself to sleep every night because i know my family will never accept me Is that tmi? I don't know

[@caitlinamandastewart]

Dan speaking about Phill as his safe person is so lovely, I have a safe person too, and it’s honestly such a relief and good feeling

[@ellabennett285]

Steve Black stfu

[@maelat3703]

Steve Black u seem like a real nice person to be around

[@Axademix]

I am a safe person

[@not-so-happypappypatton]

It is! My best friends are my safe people. And I’ll be anyone’s 💙💙

[@sophiapiper4978]

@Steve Black doesn't sound pathetic or weak to me at all. guess your opinion is an opinion. you're lucky you have never needed someone like that, but don't be mean to people who do.

[@thetearose]

this is one of my favorite videos in existence. i used to watch you a lot when i was younger and i've heard about the harassment and prying speculation you've faced online. thank you for making this video despite that. it made me feel more comfortable with who i am. i wish you happiness and privacy.

[@liz7064]

Same here. This video is soo amazing and I always come back to it cause its just perfect

[@chocofudge1932]

Hey Dan, it's been several years and it took me a while to realize this but this video was actually the starting point for me to come out to my boyfriend, my friends and my closest family members as bisexual. Until then i didn't think it was necessary and i didn't want to go through all the trouble but you actually gave me the courage to do it. And I am very grateful for that because even though coming out was weird and kind of stressful at times, i am still so glad i stood up for myself and now get to live my own life as myself, freely and unapologetically. So thank you for making this video and inspiring so many of us. Thank you for being yourself.

[@bluestar9767]

I started to cry when he said "I'm glad that I failed" thank you for existing Dan

[@FunGhoul69]

Jana Brill i was already past that part but now i'm crying again thank you 😂

[@amylucy2311]

And there are so many people that feel the same. The love in this community is huge

[@carolinaestigarribia7052]

Jana Brill I was about to cry but then he made a joke and I started cracking the f up😂😂

[@tawbhwa]

I cried too

[@annalizafoley]

Ahhhgggg your likes were at 666 I clicked like so fast