Daniel and Depression

I share my story about having Depression and how I rode the pizza-wave out of the hole.
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Videos I recommend!
• LIVING WITH DEPRESSION - What It's Like To Be Depressed
• The Science of Depression - The Science behind it.
• Sadness Vs. Depression - Depression vs. Sadness
• All About Depression (... - In depth discussion
/ katimorton - an actual expert who covers everything you could ever ask for!
I'm partnering with the UK charity Young Minds to help raise awareness and the standard of care for young people going through mental health issues! If you want to get involved check out this website - youngminds.org... :)
Remember - this is just my honest experience of going through this and what it's been like for me. Always consult an expert for any matters of physical or mental health!
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[@anazak2363]

Dan in the livestream- "Yeah this isn't going to make you cry bc im funny" Me- *literally cries the whole video*

[@reagan720]

Ana Zakidalskaya omg same

[@maokay]

Don't know how to help you but I hope you will be okay some day...

[@begozamudio1335]

same

[@katrinak099]

Same here

[@zsaszermm]

Shuhao Lu uh

[@tonialexis125]

I have two words to say and they are: Thank You

[@chiary.is.not.amazing5760]

what can I say except you're welcome

[@sahanamotta]

Chiary.is.not.amazing hhsksjskdhsjs

[@vampgf9580]

Chiary.is.not.amazing LMAOOFJFJFKEJE

[@moonypads2072]

Lazi Lunatic 👏👏👏

[@lenofaus]

We're doing this song in band as part of our field show

[@atan-om1sg]

Does anyone else hate it when you laugh at a joke and your friend says “How are you depressed if your laughing right now..?”

[@Dead_Dollz]

well they clearly are too stupid to know anything about depression if they think like that.

[@tiredandhungry4797]

"Oh sorry I forgot to turn on my depression face" *does an intensely dramatic frown and makes weeping noises*

[@shreya7673]

Ikr also I love your profile picture

[@atan-om1sg]

come in my ladydoor iero same here ! Love MCR

[@elenaafaith]

Preach bitch

[@esmas4379]

“when i was younger i used to get bullied every single day, i was struggling with my identity” now we understand :,( 4:36

[@gabyluna315]

sweet honey this video now is making me cry a lot harder

[@BA-fu7it]

So true😭

[@samcarlson7257]

Hits a bit different now, doesn’t it…

[@natflix321]

@@gabyluna315 same. at least we have more info on the struggling with idenity part. am i right?

[@enabunny5522]

what i was thinking )))):

[@hot_garbage1477]

“extend your spine dan” my favorite quote ever said by amazingphil

[@randomvids1781]

lady door

[@kateblackwell4881]

Random Vids LOL

[@ceciliahewitt1953]

Female exit

[@The_Diminished]

"fuC"

[@juliannededrick163]

"Curly Dan is here to stay" My fave Dan quote

[@DevinSumer]

i love when dan gets into character.. with himself

[@LordNatster2001]

D

[@chloe-rt5xy]

i see you everywhere

[@siobhanblick22]

I’ve seen your comments in two videos now😂

[@ceren.nana.6577]

I know it's weird... BUT WHY DO I SEE YA EVERYWHERE 😂

[@blitzinsystem346]

I honestly love how he was talking about something very serious and personal but still had a lot of humor. the skits killed me.

[@a3702]

DaughterofHades _13 that’s our dan

[@hurricanegrace7947]

Yep

[@bruhstfuu]

Him: *talks about being awake at 3am looking at memes* Me: **looks at clock** Clock: **4:28am** Me: *oH well-*

[@bruhstfuu]

@Lucy Ellis thanks fren ||-//

[@bruhstfuu]

Yay it's 5:21am i-

[@danielamartinez6323]

-IMAGINE AS IM PACING THE PEWS OF A CHURCH CORRIDOR

[@bruhstfuu]

@@danielamartinez6323 i love you I love you too

[@bruhstfuu]

@@danielamartinez6323 WHAT A BEAUTIFUL WEDDING,

[@jamiem5504]

"mm really okay well i think i can deal with it"....."i cannot deal with it" spot on

[@gramnesiac]

Can we all agree to give Dan a hug? He needs it.

[@breezyheartz3204]

I so wanted to at the detroit show!

[@catswillswim6989]

Gee Borah we all need one

[@cronagorgon1086]

This reply is a hug

[@taylormendez2301]

eHugs

[@datyodellingpickle143]

*virtual hug sent*

[@user-ek6gt7qc5b]

I can only imagine that Phil enjoyed pouring popcorn on your face

[@oliviafinan2974]

Phanisreal if this was 2016 -January 2017 it would cereal

[@mikhoang4632]

Phanisreal but can you imagine not eating popcorn being porn of your face its sAD

[@iseeicyi.c.ehiciceteaxd4645]

Connor Butters porn??

[@pugzy28]

Phanisreal sammeeeee

[@abby0567]

I see Icy I.c.e Hic Ice TeaXD I think they meant poured 😂

[@danandphiledits7011]

He protecc He attacc But most importantly He get his life bacc

[@ioannad1857]

yes

[@МЅТЯаЙДЕЯ]

Oh come on phil was definitely there for dan’s laptops birthday

[@granola1307]

And today's underrated comment is-

[@Babelfroggy]

And i bet he bought stickers!

[@kittycoutourxxx2706]

He lives there. He kinda doesn’t have a choice

[@lenofaus]

When I was a youngin I used to throw birthday parties for my beanie baby raccoon. I'd get a cake (a chocolate bar) and everything.

[@yoharryyoureawizard3560]

@@lenofaus thats so cute and pure wtf you angel

[@saratroskot]

Everyone who feels like that, you are not alone, good luck

[@ashr4271]

Sara Troskot , thanks

[@wendyweber2593]

Sara Troskot thanks

[@luccx8032]

I see you everywhere

[@jacehutchison6592]

Thank you

[@orichiresan]

Back when someone asked Dan who has saved him. Dan responded with "Phil", this literally meant that Phil was probably the one who helped him through these sad times. Existential crisis' for example. These two helped each other through everything and anything that they BOTH struggle with. When Dan even said he didnt have a friend for the first 20 years of his life. Phil literally is a ray of sunshine for Dan. He has helped him, Dan has helped Phil. They both have been bullied when they were younger and have helped one another mentally, they make each other happy.

[@ranthetrashcan]

Calibers Caile we all need a dan or a phil in our lives...

[@janetshanelle7658]

This is the type of friendship I need in my life

[@tiredandhungry4797]

That's so sweet and amazing, you're gonna make me cry

[@flaurelmusic]

This is too pure for my fragile lil heart. So many feels!

[@daydreams-of-death]

Great Now I'm crying

[@graypetcoyle]

“I was struggling with my identity” Hits different, huh?

[@monalpattanaik5179]

no, hits harder

[@Ari_Danielle04]

graypetcoyle no it hits harder not different

[@maddi4699]

jesus christ i get it, it’s a huge realization and all but i’m getting really tired of that phrase lol

[@graypetcoyle]

Maddi dude this was posted 2 weeks ago before the phrase got stale

[@soophay7566]

*hit....me with a chair*

[@jac1396]

It's odd to see Dan talking about something so serious, but important that he did

[@danna8582]

True tho, he makes a lot of jokes about his depression (although I know that's how he copes with things cuz I do the same) you forget dans life isn't just all fun and games and he actually has his ups and downs once in a time

[@talia8336]

Im glad he did

[@yoimxyler1711]

JacAttack two things 1) it was necessary and a good thing he talked about it 2) I love your videos so much

[@mipno1351]

Turquoise Cheetah before all the hate rolls in, I think you asked a good question. My personal answer -which may not necessarily be correct - would be that this video is just saying that it is okay to talk about depression openly, its not that being depressed "makes me so special" or something of a kombi-ya nature. It's important to a lot of people because seeing someone who a lot of people idolize (Daniel Howell) admit that he has had issues with clinical depression, tells them they're not alone. For me, this video is a source of information that I can use to help explain to all my loved ones what I am feeling. Ironically, it was published the day I OD'd. Now that I am relatively stable, and seeking professional help, I am here re-watching it to write down some key points that I relate to so I can help explain to the people I care about most what it is that I am struggling with and how they can help me most; because admitting I need help is just difficult - idk why. Depression is a personal issue and something I need to overcome, but I need a support group. Which is why I am here, trying to figure out how to say what I did Oct 11, and if they could ever forgive me for trying to harm myself

[@eliseedgar4524]

It's the fact that he's raising awareness about it and showing viewers who might be going through something similar that they are not alone that makes this important, it's not that his depression in particular is "special" as you put it. It's important because of the stigma surrounding mental health that he mentioned in the video, some people who have a mental illness might have experienced others telling them that they're making it up, to "get over it, to "have more emotional grit" or they're "being melodramatic" (all of which I've experienced). He has such a large audience which mostly consists of teenagers and it's important that they understand what it is, how to get help, and that they are not alone if they have a mental illness.

[@andrineslife]

Thank you. I have anxiety and holy fuck I love my therapist. Like she helped me actually have friends. I have friends!

[@natcatinthehat]

Therapists are the best... like honestly everyone could benefit from going to therapy our counseling here and there

[@bobizzycurc4598]

I used to do sport, and then I gave up. Yup my life sucks, I think all my friends are being dicks some days.

[@jowiro034]

That’s seriously good for you. I had a therapy-like thing which didn’t work out AT ALL. -She was always like “Let’s talk about your problems!”. And after I did she just didn’t say anything, she wrote it on a paper and said that I could go away. -She always asked me why I felt bad. I DON’T KNOW, OKAY!? -She gave me a fucking stone and said that if I would touch it I would feel happy again. This actually happened. -She constantly made jokes, like it was a funny, unserious thing, and I just wanted to fucking know how to get out of this damn circle of emptiness (which I’m still not).

[@julianne3926]

Maybe stupid question... but how did she help you have friends? Because I don't have a single friend and it's killing me. :(

[@billiemcintyre275]

andrineslife this is so cute I'm so happy for you

[@cassiemiller9453]

My depression feels like I'm drowning. Some days I can't get out of bed. I feel like i can't breath. I stay in my room a lot. I feel safe in my blanket with my dim Christmas lights and black light.

[@brinna7712]

Crazy this is me right now I surround myself with pillows and stay in my room w Christmas and a black lights on...

[@EASFromTheWest]

being in a blanket with lights doesn't sound like a good idea

[@kat6038]

@Platy Plush me too. it felt suffocating

[@mirael96]

perfectly said

[@jay1in]

god this is really inappropriate but your username makes me want to chuck my phone out the window

[@mercury7531]

I've got high functioning depression and every so often when I'm having a particularly bad time, someone will ask me "are you okay?" and I'll always reply "I'm trying to be" because I know there's a way out but I haven't found it yet.

[@anemoia3154]

you’ll find it one day!!! don’t give up!!!!!

[@mercury7531]

@@anemoia3154 thanks, I'm trying to

[@Traumatised311]

@@mercury7531 , hopefully you're alright

[@idkhowbutdiscosarechemical]

Hey, I don't know you, or if you still use this account, but I just want to say I hope you're doing well

[@mercury7531]

@@idkhowbutdiscosarechemical thank you, I'm doing better now.

[@alicekelly]

*Seriously though I like Daniel anyway and EVERYWAY*

[@iFD97]

Alice K ii

[@citchenkounter8806]

Alice K and everyday c:

[@lilycam4061]

Everyday bro

[@maddimadd8]

SAMMEEE

[@whydidmcrleave8098]

saame

[@WiWillemijn]

Love he doesnt even go outside for the bird poop clip

[@sadiesbiz9934]

😂

[@kyuliter6602]

pffttt.. only loSerrz go outSide

[@lovedogs8748]

He also uses sour cream. I mean come on, can't you at least use paint or something?

[@alyssamae8548]

Anyone else just come back to this video when depression is getting you down? I've watched this quite a bit recently, it's comforting

[@anteloperave5525]

literally what im doing right now.....

[@mariakern4806]

I thought I was the only one..

[@colwynneowens7503]

Currently

[@mayteprietomartin3882]

AlyssaMae that's what I'm doing right now...

[@juliakur9811]

AlyssaMae me

[@johnathan2261]

I watch this when I'm upset and it helps alot actually, in an odd way hearing his story is comforting, it makes me feel less alone in a way

[@gardengnome5267]

Phil : *extend your spine, Dan* Me : *w a i t , w h a t*

[@itssssstef]

_meraki saudade_ ur so close to 666 likes

[@camilatoledosepulveda8454]

I loved that 🤣

[@elixa562]

What do you mean?

[@lulufluffball5578]

elisa @ 9:07

[@vampgf9580]

“Listen to an expert” **shows himself in a different frame**

[@miuie]

Having depression is just like being dead but still breathing

[@sinombrerodriguez3442]

being dead but with none of the perks

[@aliziarodin7788]

That's very true

[@jiminisnotonfire7125]

True

[@briannawatt4741]

fuck. how accurate

[@krystaldesignnails4689]

Same, I have anxiety too so a mix of depression and anxiety just great.....

[@lordsquid3825]

Dan. Dan digiddy darn Howell. You have made me actually care about my mental health and life again. This is a feat nearly no one has achieved, not even myself. I’m not “fixed” or happy but thanks to you I think I’ll stick around this planet a little longer. Thank you Daniel. Thank you. And now let me say one last thing; don’t ever let anyone convince you that you aren’t worth the world because they are wrong. You have inspired, entertained and saved so many people and we can’t thank you enough. I’ve always wanted to meet you and tell you this in person but knowing me I wouldn’t have the guts too (and I’ll never get the chance to anyway) so I’ll tell you here. Thanks again, you’re my hero.

[@wokeupnew]

i’m so happy that you’re feeling better, stay strong 💛

[@muffin._.milk.]

I hope you’re still improving ☺️

[@EvanNeedsTherapy]

Well said my friend, you’re not alone.

[@eeeeeeee6177]

💛

[@lizardpoo8524]

I’m not crying because *you are*

[@PotatoKing27]

I want to comment something about depression and Dan, but everyone seems to have said everything I was thinking already.

[@emotrash802]

Royal Potato Same!

[@chaosstrolling1598]

Royal Potato you can still talk about yours 😊

[@ethan-de7fu]

Me too. I'll share my thoughts if you will?

[@virtualfroggy]

Royal Potato 666 likes... hmm

[@potatocrisp6035]

666 likes...

[@mimiHTcat]

when dan pulled out the antidepressants, i got so emotional. i don't have depression, but i have ADHD and take adderall and relate to the stigmatism that surrounds meds. thank you for talking about them so publicly.

[@Pixala]

mimiHTcat same I have ADHD and Anxiety but not depression which I'm thankful for bc my sister and grandma have depression and I've seen what it can cause ppl to do

[@demonchicken7116]

he pulled them out and I had to pause the vidEO LIKE HE HAS THEM PHYSICALLY It's very depressing wth

[@malakamer7758]

mimiHTcat Aw, I really hope it gets better and whoever you are, I may not know you but I hope you stay happy❤️

[@VeerleBM]

mimiHTcat I also have ADHD and also have to take meds for it. I know exactly what you mean.

[@pcbassoon3892]

People piss me off about ADHD. There are a lot of people who don't think it exists. I take meds for it and people are so weird about it.

[@zephyrlopez9146]

I just wanted to hug him the whole video

[@silverthedgefan1019]

same

[@anni3805]

“Don’t worry my uncle won’t be offended” ... “He’s dead.” *WhEeZe* Omg I’m a horrible person

[@ambiie5032]

I read this comment as he said it and I laughed more than I should have

[@kati5243]

I laughed at this way more than I should Well I guess I m a horrible person too

[@emeraldkoala2]

Well, at least your not the only one..

[@xTheBackwardsRace]

"i am everything i am in spite of this thing constantly holding me back" that hits me hard

[@sockmonkiez_0287]

aleesha I read this right as he said it ... and I agree

[@emmared2533]

Idk why I'm crying in the club rn

[@Ben-ou5vo]

Mood

[@takendruid]

"Turns out 'D' stands for 'Depression' AND 'Domino's' Me: AND 'Dan'! me: Wait...

[@shalome]

I did the same thing while watching....

[@paulaseddon6354]

I don't get it

[@jasminburrows1362]

[Shalom Felix] penis

[@aestheticdonuts9417]

Yeah I'll be quoting depression and dominos the rest of my life-

[@MrJdmboy10]

The worst part is when you start feeling okay during the day and think you might be getting better and then night rolls around and you go right back to square one.

[@devina8203]

BurgerBandit it's the opposite for me. I generally fell better during the night. Shit goes down hill around eight, nine-ish in the morning. And me and gloomy weather go well together, more upbeat in the rain.

[@skyesnowfeather2427]

Devina Me too. I usually find myself wanting to cry and not deal with anything but sleep, and usually by five or six I'm slightly better. It's sooooooo much fun.

[@hiitehinen]

My moods don't care about the time of day, but I feel this. I feel like I'm doing genuinely well, then WHOOPS I wanna crawl into a hole and stay there forever. Rinse and repeat. Several times a day, if your brain so decides.

[@darbys8396]

That's what happens to me

[@kitl8081]

I distract myself the whole day like I literally don’t listen to my thoughts for a second but the moment I have to go to sleep it’s like a tidal wave

[@imjustaperson449]

my friends know im depressed and whenever im happy they are like i thought you where depressed. and its so annoying can anyone else relate?

[@horacethecheese1009]

sounds like they think you're faking it because of how many romanticise mental health these days but that's still very crap of them they should trust you and be more decent

[@eee8665]

They dont seem like good friends.Maybe try find better friends,who understand it.

[@mollyduncan9524]

anyone with mental illness can relate. isn't that the worst

[@moonpixie33]

omf i always feel bad for laughing or smiling with my depression bc i always feel like people are thinking "oh she's laughing she must be okay"

[@isabellalost8256]

One time I told my friend I was depressed, and later told her I was feeling better...but I was feeling suicidal and when I told my friend I was depressed she said ugh again

[@chadwickboseman7879]

"why....and how, I'm inside?" 😂😂😂

[@harland.2616]

Mmmmmm bird poo

[@jacehutchison6592]

Same

[@kishibenahor8721]

Diego Rodriguez basically me

[@addisonlastname5448]

Wholeyyyyyy fauwhn

[@iwashere143]

"It's not cool or mysterious. It sucks" Preach.

[@danna8582]

*cough* tumblr teens *cough*

[@iwashere143]

Captain Stress Relief - I'm pretty sure I know what you're implying, but I have been diagnosed with clinical depression and it really does suck :) I don't have much reason to be depressed, but I am, and I am prescribed pills, and I do have a therapist, and I do truly wish I was healthy minded, but tis a journey.

[@datrandompotato5806]

Omg he said this as I read it yay

[@reagan720]

I Was Here tis true tho

[@spookykid7362]

I hate when people this its mysterious or cool.. like I don't even have it but ik that shit sucks ass. Be there for the people in your life with it later doodz

[@skylarlogan3512]

'its your dad' 'what no i don't think-' 'yup its ye daddy'

[@samueljenkins2285]

Dan & My councillor & literally everyone else: Exercising helps a lot Me: i'M sEVErRLeY AsThMaTiC

[@ceilingeye]

Exercise doesn’t always mean pushing yourself to the edge!! I have iron deficiency anemia which makes exercise hard, but taking 2 walks a day has been a great solution!! You dont have to cause distress to your body, but it gets you out of the house!!

[@ceilingeye]

sprinkleofpepper oh absolutely! I do not mean to diminish the suffering caused by asthma! I simply meant that many solutions can be altered to suit your personal needs!

[@mamasimmerplays4702]

Hugs to you all from the chronic pain and vertigo in the corner.

[@partypigeons]

Me to my councillor: what if I’m too sad to even complete the 1 st step , get out of bed

[@CharLotte-oo1tu]

‘When a bird poops I something your about to eat.’ ‘Why?!! And how, I’m inside 😫’ I can’t help but laugh at that part 😂😂

[@hollibattelley9996]

Char Lotte SAMEE!!!!! 😂😂😂

[@joediamond596]

Same, I love how he is still adding some slight humour to the video I know mental health is a serious topic, but it’s nice to see he’s making light of his mental health

[@aoki9952]

dan you helped me go through years of depression

[@zsaszermm]

smøl acc he saved my life. I’m glad you’re better. I love you

[@vivianvail8207]

smøl acc this makes me happy

[@miss_titsmagee]

smøl acc does anyone know how to speak to doctors

[@emilyfried3110]

Kirsty M it’s not easy to tell people what’s wrong.

[@awesomeava4416]

Me too

[@witchoforacles]

*gives dan virtual hug* :(

[@ainsleyviolet5830]

Well this aged well

[@kwisuxk]

Idk if Dan or anyone else will see this, but I just wanted to share my story. Basically I watched this video a long time ago, maybe when I was around 12 or 13, and it really made me think about my own mental health and life in general. I started to really “explore” my options, as before this video I didn’t really know that it wasn’t normal to always feel bad or empty. I started seeing my school’s counselor, then an actual therapist later on. I was diagnosed with OCD and anxiety, as well as mild depression, and honestly just being able to put a label on it was already such a big help because I understood that what I am feeling and experiencing is real and valid, and that I do not have to feel like that all the time and that I can do something to make it easier for myself. So, Dan, thank you, really from the bottom of my heart, thank you. Without this video I’d probably be in a really dark place, or even dead. So, really, thank you.

[@EatingRocksForFun]

I hope you’re doing better :)

[@casuallydione]

thank you

[@casuallydione]

everything. for using such a large platform to talk about something so serious and personal, for spending years fighting his personal battles but still putting his audience first and putting out incredible content, for making millions and millions of people happy every day, and for reminding us we're not alone.

[@Goldenaxeandsonicallday]

Ikr bless him ❤️

[@gracielynch7313]

❤️

[@taylorsnyder3241]

i couldn't have said it better myself

[@laurajessica3164]

i love him

[@malooleeloo2095]

"when a bird poops in something you're about to eat..." "wHY?! AND HOW, IM INSIDE?!" me

[@emilym.1879]

Malooleeloo HOLY SHIT HE SAID THAT JUST AS I READ THIS 😨

[@addisonlastname5448]

:)))))))))))))))))

[@elyssaateyourmom1524]

Malooleeloo WRONG VIDEO THIS IS 4 THE DEPRESSED

[@emilym.1879]

Elyssa Bat chill TF out ok? They're trying to lighten the mood

[@hummingbee_]

Malooleeloo same

[@iamkarlyelyse]

The "world mental health day" sign in the background 👌

[@anonymousfan3754]

i know it’s been four years but six words you will get through this night

[@kendra414]

As serious as this topic is, I love how friendly he's made the video. It's a terrible thing to have and talk about, but he makes the video..."fun"? It's not hard to watch or rough to listen to. It makes you understand his struggle and depression in an interesting and intriguing way. Thank you Dan.

[@piperthomas4684]

you described this perfectly

[@avamaldonado9112]

I love how Dan makes my laugh when I'm at my lowest points

[@thucanbui1731]

Omg u have 696 likes XD

[@chickennuggets7999]

Exactly that's why I love Dan

[@h.j.a.9568]

I want to give him a big hug.

[@justineh6861]

Same

[@katecornell3090]

me to

[@mariascarlett91]

I just want to give you a hug Dan

[@user-pe8uk4mi8y]

Same tho.

[@plutotrash1014]

Louis Tomlinson I want to give everyone a hug.

[@whoneedsalife_4371]

Louis Tomlinson SO MUCH

[@lame_emo4011]

Louis Tomlinson I wanna hug my adorn smol bean

[@nevermindneverland6031]

I ACTUALLY TRIED TO HUG MY PHONE😭

[@f0xy-s0x]

dan i literally owe you my life, thank you so much for everything you've done, for speaking about your experiences, for making us all feel understood and a little less alone 💞💞💞

[@LadyMagiccc]

Where's the love button? Thank you for this ❤️

[@bangtansubject9022]

LadyMagiccc ikr

[@palettedpersona]

WE NEED A LOVE BUTTON

[@morgancass4983]

*"Yup. Ya daddy"*

[@d4ndyb0y_]

BiffBiff MSP *who Phil ??*

[@bunnyb4by927]

Dan Howell is living proof that things get better

[@itsjustmissy7876]

Whisk.Alice yes he is.

[@evanginsberg4851]

So true!

[@aestheticmn7531]

666 likes

[@Екатерина-щ1г]

To those who are struggling: You will get through this night ❤️

[@jillnelson7]

+

[@ForestSpirit8]

Thanks you made me cry

[@ellaelephant4122]

thank you!! I'm rly worried cuz idk how to convince my parents to let me get the book!! (if you have ANY suggestions please let me know!!)

[@ayethirah]

@@ellaelephant4122 i know its not the same but how about listening to the audiobook?

[@nvm4086]

No shit, thats the literal problem. Mentally healthy people trying to comfort mentally ill people is one of the funniest and most embarassing things ever.

[@japansace]

Thanks for sharing this with us, Dan. I had clinical depression throughout high school, and it's comforting to see people succeed in life despite everything in the midst of or after depression.

[@skadihuntress]

japansace yuri!

[@casslao3397]

I agree 100% everybody would be "lol that's Dan" and I'm sitting there like "umm I think he's seriously not okay"

[@casslao3397]

I'm so glad he was open and honest about his mentality and I hope it encourages others to do the same

[@japansace]

Yep, that's me.

[@Emily-db6pd]

i have it now and i'm 3 days clean if you know what it means yeah but if you don't then yeah.

[@cassmar9303]

Honestly, it's *Dan and Phil* who have helped me get through some very depressing times.

[@andrewbilango]

They are the light to my darkness

[@loggkak]

Me too

[@simplyyselena]

same

[@firstnamelastname-td4bk]

agreed

[@syrit292]

Cassidy G very true

[@teverthebeaver1785]

When I’m depressed I hide in my room and watch you for hours on end

[@camiwami4973]

I'm depressed myself right now... I'm watching this to remind me that I'm not alone... I swear Dan and Phil always success to make me smile..

[@notanotherfangirl6760]

Dan and Phils videos are actually the only thing that makes me smile anymore and that means a lot!

[@becomingpneuma]

me too

[@lucyjohnson8966]

You are not alone random internet person. I may not know you but I know that someone out there loves you very much and would hate to see you sad. Luv ya random internet person! Bye :)

[@randygutierrezjr2464]

I think most KZbinrs take a light sense about this but his words are having a huge impact in a positive way he's helping more people than he thinks Update: I'm crying

[@rtunleashed6089]

Randy Gutierrez me too

[@alainagrace2128]

Randy Gutierrez oh god... I must prepare myself

[@multifandomotaku5515]

Randy Gutierrez I agree

[@little_kaonashi4812]

''whyyy?.......... andd hOwWw I'm insiide''

[@rebeccahall9771]

Little_ kaonashi spirited awayyy💓💗💞💕

[@nerdygal6133]

Lol 😂 and Awww you’re icon is so cute💗

[@isabellakubik2834]

This has so much more meaning now. How far you've come ❤

[@111.m4xus]

love your profile pic! :)

[@beck9242]

he really has ❤️❤️

[@laurenlol9577]

I've tried to talk to my friends/family about how I feel, but no one seems to care. They all just say I'm either seeking for attention, or I'm about to start my period. It really hurts honestly, I've been dealing with anxiety/depression for almost my whole life and I've had to hide it. And when I finally want to open up about it, no one gives a damn. I really wish I had friends that cared about me enough to ask what's wrong or ask how my day has gone. I'm kind of just rambling now, but thank you Dan. You opening up about your experience with depression really helps me feel like I'm not alone. xx

[@mwoy404]

phil's dead plants :(( I hope your okay 😢❤️❤️

[@zoecoleman1868]

phil's dead plants I suffer from depression/anxiety too, and my family barely cares, and my friends are too wrapped up in their own problems to give a crap about mine. So I know I am a complete stranger, but if it helps at all, I know what you're going through and I give a damn

[@melsoquet5147]

phil's dead plants very relatable and it sucks and I'm sorry you deal with that alone. please feel free to talk to me! I have depression and anxiety so we could help each other out :D if you ever wanna talk just let me know. I'll give you my social media or whatever and we can chat it up. (why did I say that? idk I'm weird and awkward)

[@em.lavender]

I hope you are all okay and making it through life well

[@nebulasan6545]

phil's dead plants you are beautiful and special Even if your friends or family cant help there always another way I believe in you to find it💖

[@naomi-io4gi]

"-thanks uncle -don't worry, he won't be offended... HE'S DEAD" i shouldn't be laughing, but this had me dead

[@sillystring5855]

Like his uncle

[@aetheruhh]

@@sillystring5855 holy fuck that escalated.

[@jay1in]

had his uncle dead too

[@aetheruhh]

@@jay1in wow shit jaylin, you went there. 😭

[@emmylou79ful]

I laughed at that too

[@alexbanks9510]

I love how this vid is serious yet laid back, It's really nice to you make a video that treats depression with the respect it deserves, yet is still a DanielHowell™ video

[@iaveee2990]

You forgot the spaccceeeeeeeeee

[@snidget1559]

"it's the final episode of game of thrones! you've been looking forward to this for years!" lol this didn't age well.

[@mariatj2000]

I showed this to my dad, and he gave me the biggest hug, and thanked me for showing him the video. Now he knows a bit better how I feel, and since we both have depression, we're going to exercise together, to try to make a change in our lives. Thank you so much for making this video.

[@devinevanity5778]

Thats Amazing!!!

[@EtheralAnxiety]

Damn you got a good dad.. mine doesn’t believe mental illness is a thing

[@epicgeorgie]

You are amazing, don't let this hold you down.

[@newandimprovedjess1977]

Melody congrats fren

[@alterdragon8167]

AnOrdinaryUKGirl That's terrible, I hope things get better for you.

[@ilikefrogs9782]

Dan: *Don't worry he won't be offended. He's dead.* Me: *laughs* Me: *What the actual hell is wrong with Me?!?!?!*

[@owlesent]

Dan: Don’t listen to me, listen to the experts! The experts: Is Dan

[@joshua3398]

I have GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder) and CSD (Chronic Subjective Dizziness) I also have anxiety attacks, I’m impressed with the power of our mind to make us feel physical pain! I felt better watching your video because I know that I’m not the only one!

[@Somelevitatingchick]

Joshua Ch. Same here.

[@moonlitsakura1944]

Yeah I feel you. I have GAD, social anxiety and agoraphobia. I spent the last months of my 10th grade year ditching school because I was terrified to leave my house.

[@ellerose8807]

Joshua Ch. I have cfs (chronic fatigue syndrome) and it causes my body to faint of sleep deprivation even if I have had a full nights rest, I am home schooled and school at different times because I don't know when I will collapse, I hate it I absolutely hate it. I am trying to work through depression along with cfs and I am having lots of trouble I can't fully grasp what you feel but I can definitely relate... being trapped not being able to leave your house without making a scene I haven't been to a theme park since I was 8 and I can't go to the beach in swim, I'm trapped in my own world and I hate it

[@andrineslife]

Yeah I went to the doctor with chest pain, shaking and breathing issues because I thought something might be wrong with my heart - turned out to be anxiety.

[@abbiem4385]

GAD is crazy. for me its like what am i panicking about? nothing? everything? Mix that together with bad ADHD, OCD, and chronic depression and u get a great cocktail called me.

[@TwentyPaphonies]

I read the title and legit started sobbing

[@Jo-sl1zl]

Jesus. Excessive.

[@emmatucker1794]

same

[@sharingiscaring210]

Twenty Paphonies same

[@camivillarreal3262]

AYY I KNOW YOU

[@jimhalpert994]

|-/

[@aestheticalyjimin.2438]

thanks uncle. "dont worry he wont mind." *whispers* hes dead.

[@JJaime-tc4wb]

That made me go oh shit my guy

[@EmilyTheFiction]

Watching this again six years after it came out, having also watched Basically I'm Gay and listened to You Will Get Through This Night. This was important for me to hear when it came out, but it's honestly even more impactful now. At the time, I watched it, identified with some parts of it, but primarily valued that it helped me understand others' experiences. Over the past year, I've slowly become more and more aware of my own mental health struggles, and I've recently come to the conclusion that I may be depressed. I've talked to people in my life who've experienced depression, gotten a therapist and done some of my own research on the topic, and those were all incredibly helpful and enlightening things. Dan's mental health projects, however, have made the idea of depression more accessible to me than several of the other sources I've used, and have been a huge help as I worked to identify what feels more like a lack of feeling than anything, and is therefore quite hard to pin down. Thanks, Dan. Genuinely.

[@londontheperson]

The new outro thing still startles me tbh

[@londontheperson]

Tyler Jensen If you think that he's shit, then why are you here? You see, the thing is, normal people AVOID things that they hate, not seek them out

[@olive8126]

I'm 18 and been depressed since I was 11. My doctors appointment is in an hour and it's all because of this video. I'm finally getting help :)

[@olive8126]

So I got medication and I booked a follow up appointment for next month. Hopefully I get better soon

[@jacehutchison6592]

olives good for you👍 I cant talk to anyone about it, I've tried before and have been hated on about it. I hope it gets better for ypu

[@ElsieMiles]

olives best of luck, we are here for you ❤️

[@emilymeyer2448]

Good luck I'm here for u

[@cassieshimaj9413]

olives I wish I could be in your place getting help

[@ruetube]

daniel: sleep is necessary to be a functional human being also daniel: uploads inspiring videos in the middle of the night

[@lumi2356]

Internet Child **realizes it's in the middle of the night and I'm awake**

[@ruetube]

A random Tree sAme

[@cryb4by626]

Internet Child I have school tomorrow....but I'm still awake 😩😋

[@ruetube]

*CRYB4BY* me too, rip us

[@cryb4by626]

Internet Child lol 😂😂

[@maudeedevlin8428]

THANK YOU DAN for pointing out that anyone can still be depressed even if they have things that can give you a happy and comfortable life. My guardians have shamed me for being depressed, implying that I wasn’t grateful that they were giving me things that I didn’t have growing up. My depression eventually got locked in the trunk after a year so to speak, but quarantine brought it back out and I feel like I don’t have control anymore. Please come back soon dan :( you’re amazing

[@caitlinfedorek]

@Lauren Strick I found it helpful to have a group of friends who understand and struggle similarly, that way we could discuss our issues in a judgement free zone, relating and feeling more seen and “normal.” (What is normal anyway?) It made it a lot less scary and you have to remember that your chosen family is those who embrace you and listen to you.

[@caitlinfedorek]

@Lauren Strick I know I don’t know you but I’m so glad and proud that you got help!

[@aleezaali5157]

i love how this video is about such a serious topic, yet classic dan cracks a joke here and there because he’s not really the type of person to make a really serious video :’) this video helped me so much, tysm for making this daniel 💞

[@neptumin]

Thank you for sharing this with us, Dan. I understand how it feels to go through depression and it’s not good. I’m happy you’ve got help :)

[@tealrootsg]

Spookey Kid your profile picture is awesome

[@potteruniverse4796]

Spookey Kid I

[@fvnt0miix953]

Well I guess I have depression. I kinda knew it, but never went to get myself a proper diagnosis cus I kinda like it when I'm depressed. I like to stay in my room alone and think about how I would like to die...

[@lanasmith130]

have you gone through depression i had anxiety for awhile and its now coming back hope yours is not.

[@fvnt0miix953]

Lana Smith idk what I have... I definitely have big mood swings, but I never show my depressed side in public, I deal with it on my own...

[@TwentyPaphonies]

This just impacted me in such a huge way. This man has felt worthless. He's gone through what I'm going through. But he's also one of the most influential people in countless people's lives. He's kept me alive for years. It hit me that just because I have depression, doesn't mean that I can't change the world.

[@1992columba]

Twenty Paphonies as a person with depression, I can personally tell you that depression is definetly a part of you, but it never defines you! You can do anything as long as there is passion behind it! So find what that is and run with it. Best of luck & stay well!

[@andreacarrillo8021]

Keep getting better, you are enough, you are important, you are valued and I care about you, so go out and change that world, I’m proud either way.

[@AutisticCami]

Same! This video is so inspiring, he`s such an amazing person

[@4belzzz]

almost two years ago i was trying to find a way on how to tell my parents that i felt awful all the time and that I thought it might be depression(during this time I was also suicidal). a few weeks later dan posted this video and it made me cry because this was exactly how I felt, so I showed it to my parents and they told me they were going to do everything they could. now i go to therapy once a week and am on meds(it's been 3 months i think?) and things are so much better...🖤 I still self harm and might not be in the best place, but it's definitely better and I am so thankful for Dan for speaking up about his mental health, giving me the courage to open up and ask for help.

[@lisahochwald3485]

Hi! Thank you for sharing your story. I hope you're doing better now :) and I'm happy to hear that your parents have been understanding, it's so helpful to have their support!

[@saorinrinsignal]

hey! it’s been a year, how are you now?

[@hweartbeat2353]

I cried so much during this video, knowing that this amazing, funny, relatable guy has to go through such a horrible thing breaks my heart. I have depression, and it sucks. Knowing that Dan has to go through it really hurts my heart. I love you Dan, and I always will. Keep on fighting.

[@laurathedad]

This video has been so helpful for me as someone who suffers from depression and general axienty dan has convinced me to restart therapy and I am feeling so much better Dan has helped me so much I am glad to see he is feeling better he deserves the world he has saved hundreds if not thousands of lifes including mine

[@laurenanderson28]

Good for you

[@casperwaters6897]

That’s great! But your username 😂 😂 😭 😃

[@skytyler6256]

Your username is the best I’ve seen in months

[@keeliesmith866]

Your username is what keep me alive

[@zoeshippen1023]

Thats amazing for you!! But your username is amazing :)

[@laniefalls]

i’ve come back for the millionth time to say i just love you so fucking much.

[@looppool123]

That was beautiful! I love you too!!😊😊

[@akirasvp4312]

laniefalls lol I was just about to type the same thing

[@mae.woodland]

Thanks for putting my thoughts into words

[@decaf-nosebleed]

"Dan, its the final episode of game of thrones, you've been waiting for this for 7 years!" HA, it's out now.

[@nitidiuscula]

and as it turns out, the last season of GOT did not help *anyone* feel better

[@myyumyyu]

I love how Dan let's us joke about depression but can take it in a serious note, and how instead of making a serious video (like other youtubers) but takes his depression and fits it into this video where he combines silliness and a serious topic! 💜

[@speccysquaregolike9629]

Phandom member #1 I think that's good, too. Like I laugh and joke around to cope with my depression, anxiety and my PTSD by making jokes about them :)

[@percyclaus6907]

Today is August 9th, 2018. I've been putting off watching this video for almost a year because I thought I wasn't ready. I've been watching Dan and Phil for years now, they were the first youtubers I ever watched, and to see my idol, my hero, my will to live, speak up and share his own experiences with depression, really helps. I'm so grateful that he decided to share his story with us, and it makes me so damn happy to hear he's doing better. And yeah, a lot of people say that "it gets better". But hearing it from someone who I've idolaized and loved for as long as I can remember? That gave me hope. I've been on the verge of ending it so many times, but youtubers and bands have helped me thriugh it. And because of this video, I think I'm going to start trying for the first time in a long time. So thank you Dan. Thank you for giving me, and I'm sure lots of other people, a sliver of hope. I love you forever, See you in the next video.

[@redpandashatecherries]

Take care

[@flaurelmusic]

Big mood tbh

[@punsandships413]

💕

[@user-pe8uk4mi8y]

Dude that's my bday and also i relate

[@Mimi_Neha]

I believe in you, stay strong you've got this

[@Gildedpossum]

I know no one will see this cause it's been 4 months,but I'm in an episode™ rn and jesus this hit home more than anything.

[@thenew30303]

karen dunn KillingItz Freya hi, one of my closest friends have depression and I was wondering what I can do to help her. The problem is there is a seven hour time difference between us and we don’t talk as much as we used to. I just want to make her feel loved and just... okay. What are some things that help you when you are going through this? Thank you so much and I truly hope you get through it.

[@navneetkumar1799]

karen dunn xekxi

[@pixigirl8643]

What's Next? One of the best things to do is just to talk to them. If you don't see them in real life then you can't do a whole lot, but human interaction can make a huge difference, even if it's just a text. I've been through depressive episodes and one thing I do is isolate myself from everyone. Try your best to make sure this doesn't happen because it only makes it worse. Give them support when they need it and check up on them if they've been inactive for a while. I'm no professional I'm just talking from experience, but I know that knowing someone is there for you to talk to makes a huge difference.

[@egalberts]

Hope it gets better for you sweetheart

[@parise.7197]

Dan.... Able to make a hilarious video while also having a motivational speech... Many talents

[@patch3938]

I have anxiety and depression disorder too, ur not Alone my dude

[@Callsign-Noir]

Marichat & Adrienette 4 life same here I have MDD (major depression disorder) and GAD (generalised anxiety disorder)

[@norrie2460]

same, I self harm and Im extremely suicidal

[@anitha639]

@@norrie2460 How do you manage ?

[@16astreet90]

@@norrie2460 I'm really sorry to hear that I'm in that place too right now I hate it

[@AnNguyen-lc1vd]

i also have depression. you are truly never alone and there are people out there who can help and understand you! keep going, buds! proud of ya ♥

[@kingmendes2663]

*I'm not crying* *,* *you are*

[@AbuYazidalsalafi]

Professional Fangirl! ok lol

[@ughman5001]

Professional Fangirl! - HOW DO YOU KNOW?! 💦💦💦💦

[@emmalulu16]

Professional Fangirl! Don't cry, craft

[@ИринаКнязева-ъ1ц]

Boi shut yo sensitive ass up

[@ИринаКнязева-ъ1ц]

Nvm I just cried

[@lidderbox]

Dan is too good for this world I swear to god 💖💖💖 I don’t suffer from depression but I can imagine this helped so many people. I love all y’all ❤️❤️❤️

[@lmaohowlter]

ashton • thank you for being one of the only people in the comments section admitting that they don’t actually have depression. There are so many morons in these comments talking so much sh- so thank you

[@devashree5079]

same. i dont have depression either and i can barely imagine what it must feel like. i hope dans okay

[@idkmaybe2278]

It has 666 likes. I cannot like it as much as I want

[@roo1080]

When this video first came out, I was in my first month of university and depressed, but I hadn't recognised it for what it was yet. Dan, thank you for sharing your story, it has clearly resonated with so many people. I felt so much less alone after watching it back then. I can't thank you enough.

[@jdjsbebrhejbrbehwv]

"I think i might be a tiny bit of a furry" "Okay thats perfectly understandable" *begins furiously writing on the paper* Wow true

[@jelena1057]

*furryiously writing

[@kira-vg1qo]

wow that me

[@natalie8214]

i hope everyone reading this can find a reason to be happy today

[@maggiej.5781]

Thank you

[@lilyrees9823]

and this is my reason 💕💞

[@oliviagrubbs8265]

Thank you

[@seshtinieschild1156]

natalie thank you I hope you can have a reason to be happy too and I love ash as your profile picture

[@yui_g_6916]

Thank you! I have a reason to live/ be happy

[@rosefitzgerald1754]

This is honestly the best description of depression I've ever heard. Most people think it's just feeling sad or lonely but never talk about the numbness, how you can't really feel anything at all. Thank you for sharing this, this really made my day so much better.

[@Uufda651]

Rose Fitzgerald agreed

[@heyitsalex.55]

I got diagnosed with depression when I was 6 and I'm now I'm 13... when I was 12 my best friend killed herself I didn't think life could get worse Then that.... that was in 2017 now I'm alot better and 3 months clean from self harm

[@jazforthesoul3488]

hey!! i’m proud of you!!

[@abigailvigneau3517]

Thats great!! Im three days clean and im so happy for you! How are you now? (. . . does it get easier?)

[@eeeeeeee6177]

Congrats!

[@eeeeeeee6177]

💛

[@Lynk-m5c]

I wish I didn't relate😢

[@Razbeariez]

THANK YOU DAN. There's so much I could say in response to this, but I think thank you is the most important right now. I nearly cried when you mentioned the whole "thinking about what could be" bit, it hit really close to home.

[@Paradoxum177]

Brynley Louise I actually did too I thought I was alone haha

[@beccaleigh1888]

Me too! Those thoughts are what get to me the most.

[@sagewiseman8790]

I have severe agoraphobia and I can't even leave my room some days without having a panic attack. I can't leave the house without my service dog and on the days when I'm stuck in bed all day being attacked by my own brain, your videos make me laugh and give me the courage to exist. Thank you for existing dan. We all love you so much

[@arabellas70s]

I have the exact same situation, minus the dog :( totally agree, he and Phil make my existence less miserable with their videos. you'll get through this though, we'll all get better!

[@spyderpig991]

:) Thanks Dan

[@_AmbiguityXGoddess_]

S twosmolbeansthatusetheirglutes Hey, I really hope you get over your agoraphobia. I can’t say much about it, considering I’ve never had it, but I know it will get better, don’t let it get you down, think of it as your special way of tranquility and serenity 🙃

[@DarkMelieRose]

wow you literally just described my life. I wouldn't even get out of bed if it wasn't for my dog forcing me to.

[@_AmbiguityXGoddess_]

Now that’s something I can relate to