Beck Cooper - Alone in a Bathroom

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Beck Cooper, performing at WoWPS 2015 in Albuquerque, NM.
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[@1996Ineswasborn]

"I say this to you in a body thick enough to bury a rib cage with no sharp corners to trigger your concern." That right there... wow

[@SereneDestinySkidittles]

It gave me chills

[@Nouranbha]

such a good line

[@katiekress5787]

"Nobody looks at me and thinks feed her" Whoa.

[@Nouranbha]

she's so good

[@thedailysmile]

"I think I learned to lie out of love"

[@aaliyahetc.6687]

thedailysign I know this comment's from a year ago but I love your channel btw.

[@thedailysmile]

K. Pearison Weekly haha thank ya

[@kiomarysnicole6939]

I have see this video so many times but this is the first time i actually look at the comments hey Libbey im surprised to see you here and ik you might not see this but hope you r doing good😂😊i rlly like ur channel

[@marliem.128]

poetry is such a beautiful outlet. the fact that people aren't comfortable enough to be completely vulnerable to friends and family, yet able to spill the entirety of their souls onto paper is beautiful.

[@Nouranbha]

it is. it's truly beautiful

[@nenvesillyshadow4886]

I’ve recently tried this method of therapy for me..it’s helped me release some sores and pain that I didn’t even know I was holding. Now written in my pages of my journals with drawings to dance with the words they are. I feel ashamed of them but proud idk what to feel about them completely. I love poetry and the way people express themselves but im ashamed of myself. However I’m working to do better I’m letting go and I feel lighter. This art is truly beautiful. I just wish more people get to know it.

[@bizzybee1]

"I heave into toilet bowls and stay fat, nobody sees me and thinks feed her, no one knows not to trust me alone in a bathroom" this hit me so hard this poem and "when the fat girl gets skinny" by Blythe Baird they both relate to me so much and I cry so hard while watching these

[@kirakyouji1021]

Blythe Baird is my favorite poet. I love both of those poems tho really hits me

[@lettheoceantakeme2146]

"I say this to you in a body thick enough to bury a ribcage with no sharp corners to triggers your concerns. I heave into toilet bowls and i stay fat Nobody sees me and thinks "feed her" Nobody knows not to trust me alone in a bathroom I think I learned to lie out of love" Wow

[@JJ-zm3ne]

Let The Ocean Take Me |-/

[@kymerapaige3691]

"I say this with a body thick enough to hide a body with no sharp corners". That line killed me. No one ever says anything to the big girls when we don't eat, even if it's been days.

[@lorissabajracharya5515]

"a starving stomach hidden beneath a deceiving belly" that gave me chills.

[@katemaguirebuck4486]

"No sharp corners to trigger your concern" This poem is incredible

[@jaiiraine5032]

This breathtaking poem reminds me of a quote I once heard in group therapy that still haunts me: "The most embarrassing part is having an eating disorder and not even being thin."

[@fauna575]

My eating disorder recently got worse again and I really connect with this. I probably know the inside of my toilet bowl better than anything else on earth.

[@dragonfly6977]

phoenixthecookiemonster I love you my dear sister.... does that even matter? the inside of my porcelain is the same as yours.... I don't even need to know you because I know WHAT you MEAN to share here.... you are not and NEVER EVER will BE "alone" we. ARE. ALL. HERE. We ALL HURT. that's the beginning.... that is all it takes to begin something NEW...

[@27coffeemonsters]

+Dee Law that was beautiful. you are beautiful.

[@nenvesillyshadow4886]

Love, you don’t need to lose a pound you don’t need to because you are a piece of art unappreciated by the ignorant and the blind but holds a story holds a key so deep so new so purely you that only the worthy can see. You are a glorious ocean that thrives and falls with each wave but stands as deep as beautiful as powerful you are powerful. You are a melody in a song that rings through heart strings draws attention from all beings and demands appreciation. You are a soul that needs to be adored for what you hold for what you are. There’s nothing to change but the expectations of society. I’m here if you’d like to talk love, but remember you need not to change a thing for perfect you already are.

[@linnycrocus6023]

@@nenvesillyshadow4886 I know your intentions are good but eating disorders go way deeper than wanting to lose weight. It's an addiction.

[@diariesofapossessedboy6257]

I have never cried so hard before this. I've heard some amazing and incredible slam poems but this one hit me hard because when people mention ED's or so it's always someone so thin and tiny yet no one suspect that I've got an ED because I'm not thin, and I'm not skinny. This was beautiful and I'm sure it's going to be one of my favourites for long

[@queenbean4632]

blurryface Same! I commend you for staying strong though. People don't seem to notice, which I think I want, but at the same time its like there is a part of you inside crying out for someone to ask you why you haven't eaten, someone who will be concerned. It sucks. (Also your profile pic and name are amazing stay alive my friend I-/

[@diariesofapossessedboy6257]

arcticstrokes :) i teared up a little, especially when you mentioned top, haha. there the main reason for every good in my life tbh. thank you by the way :). |-/

[@queenbean4632]

blurryface Aww no problem😊 When I found tøp a few years ago I found goner, and it described my life so much and I just knew they would be an amazing band, and two years later theyre still putting put music I connect with so well they are truly amazing. I-/

[@eminek8526]

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[@diariesofapossessedboy6257]

***** LMFAO

[@ayeyoluv]

This punched me in the soul. I'm literally sobbing.

[@TiaDeeRants]

wow this is so sad, yet so true, one time in my cooking class at school me and my friend both didn't want to eat the food we cooked and my teacher turned around to my friend and told her she needed to eat some because she is "skinny" but didn't say anything to me. When my friend eats a lot of food but doesn't but on weight because of her genetics when I have always hated my body and been aware of what i eat, just because someone is skinny doesn't mean they have an eating disorder and just because someone is big doesn't mean they don't.

[@JJisLurking]

+Tia Donnelly a dr told me I'm anorexic. I replied huh excuse me but I'm a bbw doc. She said that doesn't mean that I'm not, can't, wasn't or couldn't be.. Don't have to be skinny to have anorexia. I told her didn't know that nor did I understand it. But I'm not the dr so I won't argue..

[@miffyymoon]

+Tia Donnelly this happened to me too last week o.o

[@pandalien7934]

@@JJisLurking You sure it's anorexia? Might just be EDNOS. Considering one of the prerequisites of being diagnosed with anorexia is...being underweight. Either way...it doesn't change the fact that an eating disorder is horrid and I'm sorry that you have gone through it/ are going through it.

[@adelechristian3965]

@@pandalien7934 anorexia isnt About being underweight omg

[@pandalien7934]

@@adelechristian3965 Of course it isn't. No one said it was. However, over here in order to be diagnosed with anorexia, you have to show the typical symptoms eg. restricting with the goal of lowering your weight below normal etc. and you have to be semi-underweight. Anyone that shows those symptoms and are not underweight usually get/got tagged with EDNOS. Recently...and I mean very recently...this has slowly changed but many psychiatrists still don't diagnose someone with anorexia unless they are losing a considerable amount of weight over a short period of time or are underweight. I've been diagnosed with anorexia before and I've been tagged with EDNOS (Still above normal weight) before I was diagnosed with Anorexia (Once I became underweight). It sucks. Mental gymnastics.

[@oliviad4431]

Wow. She has amazing courage.

[@SoumiiGirl]

so much respect. so so relatable, unfortunately..

[@staceyford8767]

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[@staceyford8767]

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[@MishaDKroon]

This is raw as fuck. I suffer from a similar type of problem, I felt this to my heart, sent shivers down my spine :c

[@linnycrocus6023]

She is so fearless with how raw of an emotional place she gets.

[@SophieRussellMusic]

I love the way she delivers this in her own way. That she says it differently to the majority of the poems on Button Poetry and the emotion in her voice is raw and cuts you to the core. This is fantastic and the first poem I've heard in a while that has caught me by surprise in that I couldn't predict what she was going to say next. Breathtaking.

[@caradarling]

This is heartbreaking. Suffering in secret is awful. I am so sorry you have to go through this. Great poem! Keep writing!

[@ceecee5276]

salty savage i love skins

[@Queencrazy1997]

I hope you are in a better place than you were when you wrote this. Please take care of your body, society tries to program us to equate numbers on a scale with beauty but you are more than the numbers on that scale, you are a beautiful and powerful woman.

[@liv.c9554]

I feel this so much because it's me. I sit at my lunch table with friends as they worry about this tiny skinny girl who is my friend Bree. they buy her lunch and ask if she's ok . but the only see me as someone who isn't broken . I pack my lunch with a granola bar and an apple and sit there as I hand over my granola bar to the. girl that "needs it more "

[@MiriamGallacher]

she is so so brave and i am so so sad that she has to go through this with so many people judging her blindly because eating disorders are still associated with underweight people.

[@rubyphelps3305]

"Tell me this is not my fault"

[@huntermeek7450]

This is the most honest thing I've ever heard. I'm crying so damn much. I want to hug you, right here and now.

[@magdaara4343]

''And I stay fat'' omg this is so damn good. I cried

[@IsabelleMN11]

omg Beck. oh my God. I felt all of it. all of your pain, all of your shame, all of your hope, your broken promises to yourself, all of it. I wish I could hold you and remind you of your worth, remind you that all of your splendor is not just limited to your dress size. But I know you already know all of this, that it makes sense in your head, but it is oh so difficult to apply it real life. But keep going Beck, and thank you for sharing your vulnerability with us. thank you!

[@finncottam9089]

"...a body thick enough to bury a ribcage, with no sharp corners to trigger your concern." wow. she is so fucking brave for performing this.

[@sarahhallam9243]

It breaks my heart to hear this. It is an amazing poem, and I think she is truly, absolutely beautiful. I wish I could help her. I believe.

[@beckmartin3657]

50 stars out of 10-20 for courage and 10 for perfection and another 20 because who could have thought, who could have thought that one woman can strike as many bells of emotion that she has.

[@CutthroatConscience]

This hits really close to home.

[@Beachammm]

It almost feels wrong to hit the like button... But bravo to you, Beck Cooper. Bravo

[@dangernoodle9961]

A lot of slam poets come off as either impersonal or whiny, but this feels real. I felt every part of it. Great job.

[@lylagriswold7234]

“nobody looks at me and thinks feed her.” wow. that was... just wow

[@alisonbingham3512]

So raw with emotion - I have held secret eating disorder since 9 years old "my friend" has kept me stick thin through my twenties - slender through my thirty something left me alone fat at forty and has now approaching fifty raised its head again - this is a life long batle

[@lailabrown4703]

i learned to lie...out of love

[@richardperez6945]

I've seen a lot of spoken word and this has, in my opinion, the best inflection I've ever heard.

[@tildastorey8486]

This is so powerful, one of the only slam poems which made me cry this much

[@cjhayman2059]

"No body knows not to trust me alone in a bathroom." That line hit me so hard, almost brought tears to my eyes. People need to learn that people who are skinny as twigs arent the only ones with eating disorders.

[@theornatejournal6924]

Brave, beautiful and emotive. Thank you for sharing your story!

[@mariamh99]

Oh my god, this is phenomenal, it's so touching

[@dragonfly6977]

Beck Cooper: THANK YOU . You know why and thats why you wrote this for US ALL

[@paulinazelikowicz9122]

Wow. She is so brave and this is so relatable. Amazing

[@harbingersev-oh-wohne]

This gives me the chills!!! God Bless

[@karenmorenocorona5444]

I come time and time again. She is amazing.

[@aidanbolduc1735]

This is so brave, beautiful, and honest. I'm so grateful to have had the chance to hear it.

[@cassiefillion9235]

Your poems are incredible and oh so powerful. I love them and I hope that you can keep on fighting

[@TheWordynerdy]

i absolutely adore this poem

[@JJ-zm3ne]

This poem was so amazing. I cried during the first 20 seconds

[@annal8263]

This is so beautiful.

[@isaisaisabelbel9426]

I wish there was a way to help. I think we all do. This poem was truly beautiful - and so are you. It'll never be your fault.

[@randalshabnan4700]

speechless...

[@s.s.642]

Very brave! I really hope she gets the help she needs.

[@jessicakuhn7343]

Every word of this broke me. And at the same time reminded me of myself.

[@ashlynbooth3487]

Absolutely amazing

[@elizah-d1971]

This is extremely powerful. I just want to give her a hug and be there for her because I believe her and I want to make sure she is never left alone and afraid in a bathroom again

[@heatherroehr2802]

Wow... this hits hard and close to home

[@dipshikhaghosh2375]

This made me cry

[@caniavila7192]

I love this poem. I've never been able to relate to something as much as I did with this. Not being thin doesn't mean I can't have an eating disorder.

[@madalynhicks902]

i love this so much! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL

[@ShayRayzoul]

thank you

[@mariahmason2406]

relatable. .. this made me cry because its relatable this is sad but so amazing I love this poem its one of my favorite, keep it up I would love to hear more from you

[@kennedyspaulding2932]

shes so beautiful and her words are too

[@imani5020]

Wow so powerful. I have goosebumps

[@nanaedu1570]

This was sooo sooo good.

[@lucypettigrew9089]

this is incredible

[@leog5850]

this is amazing.

[@JJisLurking]

I can relate to pretty much to you in all your videos I've seen so far. Nice to know we're not alone when when we're physically.

[@tammythread6898]

I am not exaggerating when I say that this poem physically winded me. And in an indefinable way.

[@jeanne-mariepocock2404]

Amazing!!

[@tardisdragon4078]

I want expecting this to be from ABQ. I don't know why it surprised me so much.

[@joe7755_]

this. this is perfect

[@gkflfkgl]

This is so amazing and powerfull.

[@stinekristensen9835]

Wow. Powerful. Just powerful

[@creambles]

This is so amazing

[@whatthefrickfrack7545]

goosebumpin

[@sammy-deetitus1229]

I may or may not have cried...

[@QueerCripple]

I am overweight and in recovery but struggle every single day. Nobody believes me and I have even been posted up on a website call fat people hate or something. I try to speak up about my struggle and I'm told that I'm a disgusting whale and then I'm stuffing my face and I'm lying and I just don't understand why people refuse to look at the research. I needed to hear this today so badly. I love all of you for opening up and giving me the courage to do so as well even though I am receiving hate because it is therapeutic just talk about it even if nobody believes me.

[@ambriaashley3383]

felt every word.

[@lakis2332]

That's wonderful

[@lizzytheaterfolk]

Really powerful.

[@Meganjs360]

I don't know what to say that hit me hard.

[@ashlynbooth3487]

Wow this is so good

[@taliah215]

This is deep and sad I’ve never learned to cry so hard in my life

[@BoringTVchannel]

I know how this feels. It hurts so bad to know that people will always check on my best friend before me because nobody even thinks I could be restricting.

[@daniellekeel998]

I feel this everyday

[@hannahevekilgore]

this was intense and amazing

[@Remnants_]

OMG, this hit hard. I needed to hear this, this was my secret too but could never admit it because I'm the fat girl so how could she suffer an ED?

[@Nejidabest]

So Powerful. this is an awesome commentary for our society that puts a stigma on Large sized women and eating disorders and the unhealthy standard of beauty !

[@yotefwd]

wow! well done!

[@alecroberts9271]

I don't want to eat anymore I used to control my appetite but now all I do is fucking eat I hate myself I fucking don't want to eat anymore but I can't control it anymore

[@Beautybri14B]

I respect this wow

[@amyle1408]

Respect.

[@ugotztabeekrazee]

this is one of my favorite poems bc not everyone w an eating disorder is u derweight and this highlights that

[@nawfsidebkg7004]

deep!!! heart breaking!!! people judge what they see.... but no one sees what God sees.... the real you, dying inside

[@JwGina]

this hit me so hard!

[@angelsimpson8235]

"I say love your body, and turn mine into some broken waste pipe."

[@kennaholdeman8338]

" I say love your body and turn mine into some broken waste pipe." I know this feeling. The feeling of encouraging others while you destroy yourself.

[@IcedReality]

You are the most beautiful girl i've ever seen.

[@HannahMusic333]

I believe you.