BEING ABUSED & HOMELESS | MY STORY

[@RyanandAiden]

Finally just been able to dedicate a full half an hour for this video. This was extreamly touching Ryan. I'm so proud of the guy you are today if you went through all that. Props to you mama! Love from us both

[@MatthewandRyan]

Awww, that's so sweet! Thank you so much!

[@Sophiexo104]

You have done so well for yourself from being abused to doing their masters degree! You should be so proud of what you've become

[@MatthewandRyan]

Sophiexo104 I really am 💗

[@leeroy2432]

Ryan, This took sheer guts and courage and you really should be proud of it and im sure matthew is too. As a recent subscriber to your channel i am fining myself more and more in love with your videos however this one just stands out. you've spoken from your heart, told the world which is something you didn't necessarily have to do but you did and that took guts you should be proud! You are living proof that things can get better you've been in many tough situations and have come back fighting and for me thats inspiration! Im so glad thanks have improved for you and wish you every success with your future and look forward to more videos from Yourself and Matthew! Remember the light, Believe the light and make the right judgement! xx

[@MatthewandRyan]

Thank you so much, this comment means a lot so thank you xxx

[@leeroy2432]

You are more thank welcome it was a pleasure! Also thanks for actually being able to read my comment i struggle with dyslexia and only just noticed how many mistakes I made.

[@gracecorrigan9398]

@@leeroy2432 i feel sorry for you x

[@lilyella5833]

this must have been a really hard story to tell, huge respect and love to you ❤️❤️❤️

[@MatthewandRyan]

Thank you so much

[@kylahmalik888]

💝

[@livrice6547]

Matthew and Ryan I love you so much you inspie me so much ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️💕🥰🥰🥰

[@gracious2007]

This must have been a hard story to tell especially through the world wide I respect you and I love you guys whenever something goes bad I will support you ❤❤❤

[@sarah-louisevokes3409]

@@MatthewandRyan it probably hart to say it and love your video’s 😍😍

[@eloise4291]

Ryan, throughout the entire video my main thought was that you are such an amazing person. Most people would hate their mother and father for that but you understand why she did that and you forgave your father. You are an outstanding person and a huge inspiration to me and many others. Thank you ❤

[@MatthewandRyan]

Thank you so much for the kind words!! It's made my day xx

[@katiemurphy6369]

I'm so proud of you for telling everyone about this. I know it can be hard talking about that stuff. My grandma used to clean the house all the time, that might have just been because she was a gipsy from Ireland.

[@gemmadaley1087]

Ryan you are so so strong 'this mad me cry you are a beautiful person you inspire me lots of love to you xxx

[@loganwatkins97]

I am in tears Ryan hearing your story. You are such an inspiration to people and it must of been so hard for you to tell the internet your story. I'm glad you made up with your dad in the end. I am so grateful you got through it and your life now is amazing. I know this was filmed a few years ago but I hope you went straight to Matthew and gave him a big hug. Also I am very sorry to hear that your mum passed away and you never got to reconnect with her. I wish you all the best and happiness Ryan and you and Matthew are truly a fabulous couple. All the best mate!

[@jaketheplank4602]

It's ok we all go through tough times, just be proud of who you are and love yourself ❤️❤️🙂

[@tillymint6660]

Ryan you must be so proud of the man you have become ❤️❤️❤️I chose to follow you on tiktok and I’m verry happy about the decision I made to do that 🥰🥰because you make me so happy you and Matthew you really do ❤️And thx for always being there for us xx 😘

[@vonfluffinstuff5796]

Hey sweetie, you are definitely an inspiration. It's great that you look on the positive side and i can't believe that you have come through all of those problems with a smile and looking forward to an amazing future ahead. Big hugs hun 😙😙

[@MatthewandRyan]

Toni von fluffinstuff Awww thank you so much babe 💗💗

[@elishaventurini2539]

The ten dislikes are people who were crying so much it was blurry and they thought it was the like button

[@StephNicUK]

My missus was almost in tears watching this. You are incredibly strong & brave and are able to inspire loads of people☺️💪🏼 xx

[@MatthewandRyan]

Thanks babe

[@MrLourie]

Hello Ryan, thank you for sharing your story. I don't know what to say, except that I am glad you've come out of it the strong, and intelligent, young man that you are. You are a beautiful example that even through harsh familial situations, one can achieve their dreams. It's not my place to judge your parents, but you have every right to feel as you do, either good or bad. I don't think I personally could be so forgiving if I had gone through all you have. You truly are a wonderful man, and an inspiration. Just continue to stand tall, and proud. XXXOOO

[@MatthewandRyan]

Louis Riehm Awww, thank you so much for your kind words, I'm so glad you understood the video 💗

[@spiderie]

I'm just so proud on how far you have come since, keep your head up high and keep believing,wishing you all the best! Matthew keep him safe at all costs 💕 wishing both of you all the best!💕👑

[@paul3547]

I'm sorry you went through that your whole life. But look how far you've gotten in life now, your so much better, You have Matthew, Rosco, and living a happy life. So happy for you.

[@littleworldofshane9575]

Ryan this took so much guts to post all over the Internet your so strong to stick through all that when you need anyone to talk to remember your subscribers love you so so much and we are always here for you Xxx

[@diyslime2640]

Awww Ryan that’s terrible, I hope your ok, remember that you are an amazing person, and you make amazing videos, huge respect to you Ryan, hope your well, that must have been a painful childhood, hope your future is better, i hate that you had to go through that, you are an amazing person, love you so much, ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@D665]

Oh Ryan, I just want to cuddle you! You poor darling! Look how far you’ve come though. Keep being grateful for what you have now xx

[@bonnie4835]

Ok no that the tears have stoped I have to say that you are such a strong person to have the courage to put this video out and thank you for sharing your story. I know I’m a couple years late in the comments but I just felt like I needed to reach out and send you a message. Our story is somewhat similar from abuse to parents choosing other people over their children to foster care to living on our own from a young age. I hate the fact that the school board in your district really dropped the ball when you and your siblings where younger and you guys needed help with your home life because it wasn’t safe, that’s where my journey to foster care started at age 9 a teacher questioned my home life and called a social worker and my mother chose her boyfriend over having me at home I was in care until I left at 15 after 7 different foster home because they where not a good fit or just a horrible place and the people just seemed like they wanted a pay check rather than to provide guardianship. So I left to move in with my amazing boyfriend (still together 18 years later💗) I also was very close with my Nana she was the world to me and help me through everything but had her hands full at home so I could never move in with her she was my world until 2017 when she passed. Being on my own that young was hard as hell but it’s made me a stronger person and who I am today so I wouldn’t change a thing because we ended up getting pregnant and I had our son at 17 (he just turned 17) I’m so happy that you have a relationship with your dad now and you where able to start over. Your such an amazing guy and I’m so happy that you’ve achieved you schooling goals and that you found such an amazing guy to be with Mathew and you truly have something special, some people spend forever looking for the happiness and love that you two share. When you you look at each other it’s so clear how you feel for each other and I can’t help but smile watching the two of you. Well my quick message has turned into a novel so I’ll leave this with wishing that the two of you continue to have the amazing relationship that you have now and wish you both nothing but the best with whatever comes your way. Congrats on the new house and MATTHEW...i think it’s time to for you to go shopping for something sparkly for your BAEBEE 😉lol Love you guys all the way from Toronto Canada hope you never change and just continue to shine and spread love 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗

[@BethanyAnsell]

You are so brave Ryan. I am completely in awe of you! The world needs more people like you. Keep shining xxx

[@MatthewandRyan]

Bethany Carter Thank you so much Beth! Xxx

[@stillluvit]

Matthew, I'm sorry that happened to you. In the end, parents are just human. I'm glad you and your dad could become close again. 

[@MatthewandRyan]

It's ryan aha but thank you x

[@stillluvit]

Oh, good grief. Sorry. I knew that. :)

[@peterwilson2598]

Ryan that was an incredible video I am so glad you have come through all if this. You are truly inspiring. I hope lots of people watch this. keep strong ryan xxx

[@MatthewandRyan]

Peter Wilson Thank you so much for such a positive comment 💗

[@claireamphlett-thomas7057]

Matthew and Ryan I am so so sorry this happened to you. But thank you for sharing to give hope to others that are going through similar difficult experiences. Also credit to you for your tenacity of spirit in becoming the fabulous creature you are 💕

[@MatthewandRyan]

Claire Amphlett-Thomas Awww thank you so much for this comment Claire 💗

[@ChristopherCherry02]

Ryan you are so strong. You are carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders. you will be in my prayers. of course I don't really know what it has been like for you. no one can. but I encourage you to really find a way to find closure for yourself and don't hold what you're feeling inside. Cry if you need to. it's good to be strong but don't be afraid to open the floodgates and let it out love.

[@MatthewandRyan]

thanks for the kind words x

[@Michaela-lu5bf]

Im so sorry this happened to you. It just shows that you really dont know what goes on in peoples lives. ❤️ Xx

[@itzch0colatewaffleyt53]

Im hear to say that you are loved, appreciated and no one deserves to go through that. Take care. ♥️♥️♥️♥️

[@TürkIran.loveee]

I just saw this as a new subscriber. This touched my heart. I am sorry to hear this Ryan, you suffered so much. This is soo bad. I’m so sad to see what a life you had. Thats so sad you had to go through that as such a young age, that’s just sooo horrible. wish you all the best in your life, please let this be an inspiration for you to do well anytime.

[@joannastrutt1207]

I'm so glad you managed to get it out with fully crying well done for letting it out your system

[@samanthaw9852]

Your such a strong person you can make it through anything, so inspiring xx

[@caramccool6520]

I am so sorry ❤️ you are so amazing 🌈 you deserve everything 🌸 I have so much respect for you x 💚

[@itzch0colatewaffleyt53]

I am sorry dude. You had to go through that. So sorry for what happened to you. I hope you and Matthew are doing well. Love you

[@hoperice3888]

I truly started crying. Omg. What an emotional story. I know it was hard for you to tell.

[@zoeweinberg3974]

Thank u so much for telling us this. I am 12 and completely know what u went through. I would never be able to tell my story. And my story is still going. You are such an influence on me. I’m not in the lgbtq community. But u are such a good person. And I live with my dad to and the exact same thing is happening to me. And my dad always takes her side. I’m safe now no one hurts me I have my friends and they will always protect me. I’m so happy someone understands me. Thank u so much I love this.

[@MatthewandRyan]

Love you Zoe, stay strong always! xxx

[@audreylaflamme9757]

You are an amazing man! You have incredible courage and you tell so well how family is important and how much we can love them even in the bad times. Abuse is never acceptable, but i also believe how important it is to give the appropriate help to the ones in need. Just wanted to let you know how much i love you and Matthew's videos! Just found your chancel à few weeks ago and it is amazing! Thank you for being you! 😃 Love from Canada! P.S Hope my writing skills in english aren't too bad and everything mâles sense! xox

[@MatthewandRyan]

Thank you so much, love you xxx

[@lisaswan2861]

Am really sorry 4 what u have been through over these years 😔😳🥺 it's so 💔 and the fact that u have that power to talk about it in public is awsom thing 👌👏 and the fact that u did it to help others is ultimately the niceties thing I have ever heard and seen, and the other fact that u forgive them 4 what did they Don to u its just...... Am totally speechless u took it the maximum level 👌👏💯👑thank u very much for that u r an incredible person and u do deserve the best in ur life 👏😍😇💯 just keep on pleven your self and be even more broud of your self 👏👏👏👑💪& plz if u saw this plz let me know👌👍💯🙌👏❤️

[@zee12k51]

love you so much well done for expressing how your past was and i will always remember you as an amazing human being dont let no one tell you otherwise

[@fionafisher1525]

Stay strong Ryan, you are amazing ❤️❤️❤️

[@sashaknight738]

we are all so proud of you!!❤️you’ve came such a long way and ur so inspirational,this must’ve been such a hard story to tell, so much respect for you❤️your truly amazing!!! Keep going strong❤️all the fans will always be behind you❤️❤️

[@elenacampbell795]

This must have been really hard to tell! I want to give you loads of hugs 💕 love you ❤️

[@MatthewandRyan]

thanks babe love you too xxx

[@anyaisswagg6889]

I'm so sorry Ryan your so brave to share This with us I'm so sorry for what happened To you . I love you and Mathew 🌈❤️💛💚💜💙

[@thehappystitcher1796]

I'm so sorry you had a toxic family and well done for making a success of your life my lovely.

[@deeved5956]

Love ya ryan, you should feel proud of yourself talking about it and becoming such nice young man x

[@Aintgotnojams]

This must have been hard to talk about and as a subscriber this inspires people to talk about their problems and what happened in their past ❤️🌸

[@chloebirchall6382]

I hope things did get better for you in the end, you didnt deserve all that that's so wrong :( so sorry that happened to you hun xx

[@johnleahy4051]

Woow what a sad story i was in tears from start to finish ryan you have turned into good looking guy and kind and funny thank you for telling this part of your life you got my respect for you well done love you xx

[@rubyjoynes6617]

Ryan everyone has bad times in life but this looks really hard for u to talk about but we love u 💖😘

[@debbiewilkins8972]

Omg Ryan I can’t believe how strong and confident you are doing this video well done love you xx

[@TürkIran.loveee]

Thanks for inspiring me to always do better in life. This made me realise how important forgiveness really is. 😃

[@Katiexui]

Awww ryan that made me emotional 😭😭😭😭😭 it must have been rlly hard explaining what happened to everyone who is watching this vid Im sending love and respect to u and Matthew!!!! *mostly u ryan for this vid* 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

[@simonkeeble982]

Ryan you are AMAZING this has taken pure gut to make this video. I support you love u all my respects.

[@marisetimman1640]

You're a very forgiven person. With a very very big heart. You are such a sweetheart. I really would have adopt you . You are a beautiful person. And you did it all yourself. 🙏🏻Big respect. Sorry for my English, I'm from the Netherlands, I hop you understand it. But you truly can be proud of yourself 🤗😘

[@jon9157]

Was really interesting hearing this....really brave to talk about it so publicly! You have done amazing 😎💪

[@MatthewandRyan]

thank you!

[@justjubie0771]

Oh my god! I can not believe you went through that Ryan! You are a strong man and you are one of the greatest people ever! You gave me the courage to come out as Bisexual and Matthew did as well You and Matthew are my Heroes! Please keep doing what your doing no matter how hard it gets and that goes to all LGBTQ members as well! LOVE YOU!!!!

[@katinkalubbe6119]

You are very brave and it got feel this was very bad for you to talk about. I really live watching you're videos. You and Matthew are really the most loving couple and I love watching or following you are you platforms. Big hugs and love all the way from South Africa 😘🤗

[@rosie-maiknight8903]

I'm so sorry that happened to you I cant believe you lived like that it must of been really tuff to tell and live like that to

[@MatthewandRyan]

[@christinaparker3307]

That was a great video. So sorry that you had to go through all of that in your life. Never worry how long your video’s are? I Love you and love seeing you and listening to what you have to say. Love y’all so much 😘

[@TKM12]

Awwww bless you Ryan, I wish I could meet you and Matthew and you are both so amazing and adorable. I love how you are both so inspiring and honest to us fans ❤❤❤❤❤ 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

[@robertmacconnell7692]

stay strong,ive been abused and still am and i have pstd.

[@cruzshelley_yt4177]

Awwwww I love your story Ryan I was crying when you were tell the story about your life I know you have a lovely life I love you and Matthew I wish I could see you one day I live in Brighton xx

[@absandsim]

This is so sad ryan I hope u are ok now thank you for sharing your story ❤️❤️❤️

[@jackgaskell9779]

I've only just found this in 2022 but this is amazing 💞💞😌

[@kerrybrown801]

Your so strong Ryan ❤ i going to take your advice Thank you for making this hard video ❤❤

[@gracewelham3545]

Your such an amazing person and can't believe this stuff happened to you . I'm so glad u now have Mathew in your life. Xxxxx ❤️😘❤️

[@MatthewandRyan]

Aww thanks Grace x

[@kelseybarton5913]

You are amazing I've been through a similar experience it makes us who we are!!xx

[@annieellis361]

Your story is so sad but always know that I support you ❤❤❤❤❤

[@zazacrazygirl2976]

I just want to say how much I love you and I will always be a massive fan and will always be there for you

[@tomdrayton8431]

We can’t change the past but we can learn from it and that’s what Ryan did

[@scarlettsexton6254]

Ryan, you've been through hell and back, but your still you. That story really inspired me, i want to see more stories from you, ik im 3 ish years late but i only just found this one x💕😂

[@andymacheta8078]

Soooooooooooooooo proud of you

[@beckybluebird1]

Stay strong Ryan you are amazing ❤❤❤

[@-ifh]

Yeah

[@Super_Mario128]

* sending warm hugs and rainbows 🌈 to the both of you *

[@MatthewandRyan]

waterfieldV Thank you 💗

[@soulrichardson]

Omg the saying don't judge a book by its cover I didn't like you guys a few weeks ago hearing this I'm your biggest fan I support you

[@emilyjaneewald2235]

Love you Ryan your so strong always keep you head up beaut ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@tanyarae560]

Totally agreed that as single parent, yes if you have a new relationship the partner. They need to except if they have children

[@randomperson6309]

you were so brave to share this video we ❤️ you

[@lewismulholland5502]

Ily ur incredible and I hope you know how amazing you are 😘

[@cruzshelley_yt4177]

Ryan I love you and Matthew your my favourite youtuber xx

[@wimromijn2444]

you guys are awesome!

[@itzch0colatewaffleyt53]

I love this channel. Go for your dreams. 😊

[@vloggerlife5374]

Respect to you tho you are pretty and help me with everything you can do everything that you want I love man don’t ever do stuff that you will regret I love you

[@huntah_2418]

I realy wan to give you a dig hug I feel soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sorry for you my friend lives with his nan cus hus mum is very abusive

[@oreograce3174]

Your story is so sad 😭

[@carlosoriano4811]

Such a great video , thank you for sharing your story , I love all your videos (:

[@MatthewandRyan]

thank you ! x

[@Cxdi.]

You were so brave and confident to do this video u inspire me so much and I love you so much and I’m sorry about your childhood 🥰😭❤️💖

[@anuarvonen]

Omg !! What a life story !! You Lovely One !! have. Thank god !! Everything is nowdays much better !! Hugs !! Anu Suomi Finland ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

[@sarahfowles7666]

Well done for coping. My mum had a hard life too.

[@funnyandfunky716]

I'm so sorry.... it's so sad but that's life but I respect you guys so much because you went through so much. I actually have something very similar and I bet it was a really hard story to tell but were like family and you can tell us anything! Love you guys so much and I will always support you guys through everything and I trust you guys so much but atleast you have us, Matthew, Roscoe, your dad now but its better now I hope so I respect you guys❤🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈

[@charlie-annewilliamson]

Very touching video. 😔😔

[@debbieharding9617]

I feel so bad that would have been so hard and Im so proud of how far you have come from that and you should be proud of yourself for sharing your story (btw this is my mums acc she wont let me have my own my name is Olivia) ❤

[@crystalthompson]

Hi Ryan, I loved this video. Does make one feel more connected. You talk about an old channel you have/ had, how does one find it? Thanks

[@MatthewandRyan]

If you just look for ryanmarcpayne :)

[@lilyjohnston9912]

I still love your video ♡

[@phoebespeed9808]

This much of took so much currage I cried during this video I hope your okay now and I hope you become amazing things like you are now . Btw you know my dad he is called Jarrod if you forgot

[@MatthewandRyan]

Aww thank you so much for your comment

[@jacquelinelouisekaur]

I was abused when I was younger too by my ex-stepfather

[@katiemurphy6369]

I've subscribed and love you're videos

[@dianabrown1409]

that was so sweet thank you but how did you both meet

[@a.dumbass.soutparkfan4143]

One thing I'm curious about is how you and Matthew met maybe you could make a video on it🤔

[@DefinitelyBear]

Hi Ryan my brother maximus he passed away from GM1 he is 3 now and he passed away at 2 and there is no cure for GM1 it affects the spinal cord

[@sarahliming552]

You're so brave❤️❤️❤️

[@MatthewandRyan]

[@lexislife5465]

I love that earring ❤❤❤ 🦖🦖🦄🦄

[@jrichardharwood506]

You are free now Ryan...the world is your now .......