Bipolar Disorder & ANGER

[@PolarWarriors]

I'm so grateful that you all are here. What started out as a "weekend hobby" has turned into a beautiful community of Polar Warriors. I can't thank you all enough for watching, liking, and sharing my videos. We are in this TOGETHER. Love you all

[@susiehuckaby4317]

So grateful for this community you have helped me so much about being bipolar and techniques to help especially the anger hope you’re doing well

[@fasthoggen11]

Polar Warriors this helps me a lot. I felt this way this weekend. Everything just made me angry.

[@SpaceShipDeathstar]

Anger shifts with the bipolar curve. Just as how productive you are able to participate in your world. I really like cars. Have a bunch, sold most due to my condition. Maybe I missed a video on that subject. Still I'd like to ask if there is better/healthier way to run with it. The best phase is being hypomanic - I might even be able to regulate myself. Manic - doing something is no problem, but stopping before it afflicts healt is super hard. On the depressive side I do not even go outside. Most of the time I am not super depressed but I am also super uninterested in leaving the tight space between bed and laptop. I would have been physically able to get stuff done the last weeks still I did not. When I shifted back to hypomania I did not even want to touch my computer for the nice weather and all the stuff I have lying around. This also connects to the issue of spendings. This is my best index for how manic I am. From beeing totally uninterested even in my own cars to the buy all the cars/buy all the parts. I am lucky to to be very well educated about the problems of beeing bipolar. So for the most part nothing bad happens anymore and I am also quite disciplined with my spendings. It just happened now that I again float in hypomania, that I look back at my life, before the huge outbreaks. I had genuine fun doing stuff (there were depressive elements, nothing that stopped me from going on). Nowadays I wait like for two thirds of the year till the hypomania kicks in and I am "back". Also talkativeness. All the words I am unable to get out in depressive times, they just come out endlessly now. So, sory for the long post.

[@CelesteAHall]

@@SpaceShipDeathstar appreciate your comments. Since my anger, & mood flips, have driven almost everyone away from me I sometimes feel so misunderstood and alone. Having ability to feel connected and obtain confirmation & understanding that I just have a different normal... So grateful to BiPolar Warriors !! Stigma decreases with understanding.

[@marccrilly4500]

Thanks for all that you do

[@adamquinn4677]

Man u captivate it and explain it perfectly i couldn't even put it into words thanks for your work

[@fasthoggen11]

Adam Quinn he absolutely did. This explains a lot.

[@Rastasoul1]

Yes he really did! 🙌🏾

[@stephenfermoyle4578]

yes he does

[@AzureSkyzz]

How long does it typically take for the anger to die down?

[@JIMWSMITH]

I find something pisses me off , then it stays with me all day. It wont shift from my mind its unbearable at times.

[@nellenearthur282]

I feel your pain

[@lappietova6277]

Recognizable. Your mind gets its own live and you can't control. My solution is making myself force doing things. And brake the thinking circle. At certain time i ask myself: can i do something about it? Is it no, let it go.(easier said then done). Is it yes, make a planning what you gonna do and when. Remember its better to wait for some time, because then you are more away from " the splash" and its less emotional. Then you take action. The moment you arrange that you can let it go more. When "in the head spinning" is terrible i alway go for mindfulness or go bycing or swimming till i'm tired. Then i can "reset myself". Just like a dog training. Wish you all the best&stay save. Your fellow warrior.

[@NickRyanBayon]

Same it can last days sometimes if severe weeks

[@QWERTY-ov9tm]

That's a tough one. I tend to struggle with that too. Some things I can shrug off. I've noticed what gets to me is repeated behavior from an individual. The irony is that I do the same thing as well and it's that mirror that upsets me. I'm like, "ugh! That person acts just like I do."

[@julesservantofjesus972]

@@QWERTY-ov9tm Exactly! I get so irritated I lose it! I have actually scared myself before!

[@bethanydenney6006]

My marriage is ending due to my husband's bipolar rages, mood swings, resentment, delusions and totally negative interpretations of me and life in general. He's also been told he's schizzoeffective, which might explain him hearing voices. I love watching these videos, and sometimes I could get him to watch, thinking it would help. These videos help me realize it isn't all ME like he likes to tell me .I feel bad for people with bipolar, truly, but it also has quite a bit of sad and hurtful fallout for their partner :(

[@victoriaperea7860]

I'm in the same boat right now. We have 3 adult kids who he's always been close to and a role model for. The 2 of us have been married 29 years and together 32. I guess we were lucky to know the man that didn't show symptoms of Bipolar till his forties. The kids and I rarely find that we want to be around him because of his negativity and mood swings. It feels like a death to me. I've lost someone I loved. I listen to bipolar warrior every couple of days and it has really helped me to understand his disorder but the person that really needs to hear this information is him and he refuses to listen. My husband is VERY self centered and I wonder this is a trait that goes with the disorder.

[@tomcleverley18]

@@victoriaperea7860, in some ways being selfish is human. I have BP and my wife and I have been married going on 27 years. I am not (I will have my wife read this message as I have her read most that I send) as you describe your husband. I don't think that it's just a BP thing, but I do think that BP could very well make it worse and be more difficult for him to realize that he is not being reasonable with his actions and reactions. I have lost a couple of friends that I am pretty sure caught me in an episode before I knew that I was sick, sought help, and started medication. I expect that he will feel badly after he realizes what he has lost. I wish things were better for you and your husband.

[@victoriaperea7860]

@@tomcleverley18 Thank you for letting me know that this trait may just be accentuated by his BP. It really is the hardest thing for us to deal with. It seems like he only thinks of himself and doesn't do anything unless there is something in it for him. One of our sons lives with us he is visually impaired and often needs rides to appointments or to a friends house. My husband charges him gas money and like $10 each way! He hasn't worked in years and doesn't contribute to our household and you would think it is the least he could do is help out with giving our son a ride. It isn't even his car or his gas! LOL I'm feeling just a little bitter.

[@kkech1]

Being delusional is kinda part of having any mental illness. We tend to project our negativity on others, so we don't have to face reality. It's very hard to admit that you're sick. It seems to suck away all the good and accomplished sides of us. Admitting that we're sick feels like reducing us to only our negative traits. So we tend to overcompensate. It's nice to remind myself that I'm strong as an ox and near genius level smart. But i also have bipolar. So there's that. Try to remind him of both his positives and negatives, when he's his normal self. And that it doesn't make him any less human.

[@fleurfidan502]

It is so sad, but my ex won't medicate, won't listen, won't try to change. I had to get out after 10 years. He argues everyday with his narc mother. The rages are humongous. I have cancer and his out of control behaviour is not helping. I pleaded with him stop arguing with his mother, but it is like he craves the high it gives him.

[@sharonmendes5272]

I loved my husband one week, then I see him as being the problem to my being unloving towards him the next week. He hasn’t changed, nor has he said anything unloving. I accuse him of being too fat, or not doing more, yet it is my own drastic shift in how I am becoming the one who blames without positive proof. When I “come back” to feel loving towards my husband. It is as if, I “left” him and became Jekyll.... Sick of such a pattern.

[@kellyhendrickson2178]

SHARON MENDES sounds like what I go threw with my Borderline Personality. Wishing you the Very best! Big hugs. Xx

[@GreenAndTheToe]

I relate to you on this. I’ll be like “why do I even love him? Do I love him? I mean he isn’t like the best one out there” to “I cannot live without him. He is the best one”

[@sathidevi6657]

I am Dr Jekyll during mania & Hyde when in exhaustion

[@felix121984]

You are very compassionate and unconditional! Good luck hope he gets help !

[@mermaidodessa7067]

I totally feel you.. I have the same issue and I think I have the best man ever. I'm so scared of losing him

[@susanyeadon6657]

My anger episodes involve smashing things...or imagining awful scenarios where I can diffuse it. I’ve never before diagnosis had such a depth of anger

[@calypsowhiteheart7807]

Same

[@VeggieRice]

You may want to ask a mental health specialist about BPD

[@susanyeadon6657]

Jacson C I was already diagnosed

[@abegarfield543]

Mine is at risk of ruining my life. Mental health isn't something the British police have a lot of information about and trying to explain it after the fact is pointless. I can get quite violent too and unfortunately I'm pretty good at it.

[@kinetickhaos6144]

@@abegarfield543 oh my god I'm exactly the same 🤣

[@TheRiverJordan3613]

I destroyed the love of my life with anger. The relationship started beautifully and I wasn’t diagnosed, didn’t know how my anger would get control of me until everything is ashes now.

[@badcompany7654321]

I'm so sorry

[@sophievanderbilt1325]

Kud Home I will have to disagree, as someone who fell in love with and married a man with bipolar disorder. He divorced me when he was abusing his meds and it ruined our love. He then obsessed over getting me back, and promised me the moon and the stars. We are together again now, but it isn't the same. Resentment and bitterness has turned us into a completely different couple. He still threatens to leave me again and again, depending on his mood swings or if he's properly medicating. Sometimes he blames our divorce on me, tells me I'm the one with problems, and has convenient memory loss when he's the one at fault. There are many days that I regret going back with him. Please don't put someone through this.

[@TheRiverJordan3613]

Sophie Vanderbilt thank you Sophie, that’s a sobering word. I wish it could be different but I’ve probably run out of chances. I’m still in a very confused state. She used to tell me I didn’t remember in arguments but sometimes I did remember and couldn’t get my perspective across. The whole thing became toxic but I’m left with this aching longing for what once was and it repeats and repeats and drives my depression. Thank you for your comment.

[@sophievanderbilt1325]

Theriver Jordan I'm truly sorry for what you're experiencing. I hope you find peace in whatever decision you make. I just wanted to bring light to how your relationship with her probably won't go back to how it was. I know my husband idolizes our dating/engagement phase (which was wonderful!) and he still longs for our younger years. But we can't go back to that, as we have broken trust and different feelings now that we're older. Time changes a lot of things. It's just different. I still love him very much, but it's a difficult life for us to be together. I wish you the best, really I do.

[@kkech1]

@@TheRiverJordan3613 This hits too close to home, bro.. I was undiagnosed too at that time. Killed a perfect relationship with toxic behavior and obsessions. Needed a good year or two to get over it. I still occasionally think about all of it, but know it can't ever be the same again. At least that breakup triggered a psychotic manic episode, so it pushed me to get professional help. Focus on understanding yourself and your ailment. Forgive her and yourself for everything that happened. You didn't know better at the time.

[@BipolarPerson]

I have so many issues with anger especially when I’m manic. I have driven crazy many times running stop signs, gotten in physical fights and said the meanest things to people. It’s because I’m scared out of my mind. The fear in my episodes in unexplainable.

[@rasmusinterstellar]

My insane anger is also related to an uxexplainable fear, the fear is so intense & insane, in most cases of my anger...

[@kkech1]

Uhm, do you have random goosebumps and paranoia? Fear even your close friends and family might turn on you? If so, that might be from psychotic episodes. Happened to me once about 2 years ago, but i blamed drugs at first.

[@AncientEnergyEyesOpen]

Thank you for saying this. My gf of 12 years is going thru her 2nd manic episode. Her anger is so intense. Reading your words makes me wonder if her anger towards me is because she's afraid I'll leave her.

[@Sarablueunicorn]

@@AncientEnergyEyesOpen could also be borderline

[@AncientEnergyEyesOpen]

@@Sarablueunicorn that's my thought too. What Kras said up above made me think that. It seems more psychotic now than mania. We finally got a doctor to take us seriously, so we will see where it goes. Thank you

[@lunarhalo_studies4105]

I absolutely love your videos. Since my diagnosis I’ve shared your videos with my mom to educate her. It’s made such a difference. Stay safe during this difficult time 😊🌸.

[@NaturalLoveZ25]

LunarHalo_ Studies* me too! With friends and such. Recently this was my diagnosis I was uneducated about it beforehand sadly.

[@laurabrooks1686]

You must have been a fly on my wall as you posted this video. It's a struggle to know if the anger is legitimate many times. It's a blurry line between feeling confident in standing up for yourself and feeling the need to be heard and understood so desperately it turns ugly. It's human to have things you are always passionate about and sometimes mentally healthy and well adjusted people must be uncharacteristically confrontational to be heard. It's so important to be very self aware and trusting of the close relationships in your life. If not, it will be a lifelong battle to maintain your self esteem and happiness.

[@johnruhland9428]

Bingo

[@marciadupiche1656]

So true. I can relate completely. You are not alone.

[@royschou407]

I agree with everything you said, I feel the same way

[@royschou407]

Hi Laura,how are you doing?

[@moniquelaviolette3131]

Finally someone is talking about this. Thx

[@fleurfidan502]

My ex has such extreme rage everyday. I couldn't take it anymore.

[@dangad5393]

Feed him lithium orotate, theanine and ashwaganda

[@saedayamson539]

My son's father the same and I was fed up

[@camillepanaligan3920]

For those who are bipolar, do you ever get SO mad crazy and feel like your whole body is gonna explode? And u feel like no one has ever felt that level of anger/rage that is eating u up inside and then you feel weak and...... GOSH I CANT EXPLAIN

[@stevestarr6395]

Yes!

[@Thewritingelf]

Absolutely!

[@thefrog4990]

Yes. Often over the smallest things, or for no reason. Or for things that happened years ago and I'm thinking about it again. I'm always pissed off tbh.

[@shuiwahlee5836]

All the time

[@Skummyemo]

Yes. More than you could ever understand.

[@CelesteAHall]

I often have to warn people "Don't poke the snake." Some listen...

[@socialpsycho184]

i have recently came to terms with that i am pissed off.. almost always.. and when im not i am absolutely ovet the moon about that, no feeling heavy, no feeling hopeless and no uncontrollable anger.. its in these moments ive learned what will push my "motherfucker button" also learned that you can know what will potentially set you off.. and you can educate family, friends and co-workers about this.. but it wount stop someone from going and pressing that button anyway. i hate this fkn disorder.. mainly cause i likr being in control or at least being to be avle to control how i react.. but that button overrides control and rasional reasoning.. and when it gets activated i get pissed off about the fact that i am pissed off and tgen pissed off at the fkr that activated it and then the actual trigger.. that shit spirals quickly and its so hard to stop and realize what is actually going on.. people should really think about what it takes us who is afflicted by this condition to not just "loose our shit" and fuck all the consiquences.. that for me is the hardest.. stopping the symptomatic me from taking over constantly being actively mindful of yourself and your surroundings and in order to stay what looks to other peoplr as "ok"....... im never ok.. not even close.. but if i can go a day with fighting just myself and not fighting with soneonevelse i call that day a win.. and btw.. the fact that i have to live like this and i see other peoole just going about their day all happy and shit. well.. that pisses me off to. i have learned tho that being angry and acting on it is not the same.. but when the notherfucker button is pushed all bets are off.. and then im back to being a controlles angry hostile asshole. i gotta say tho, these videos have hrkped me alot. i tend to sketch now when i feel an episode coming. it helps me focus on the now and calms me just a little bit.. cause to the paper i can talk to and say anything.. it doesnt care.. i can take all the issues ive sketched and throw it away after im done and it won't come back with hurt feelibgs or resentment.. this is hard to find in people.. cause they just dont get it.. and how can they.. i mean..im the one with this illness and i don't get it.. i do know is that i need an outlet.. 😳 a healthy outlet.. so.. step 1... find a healthy outlet.. step 2... use it

[@kinetickhaos6144]

@@socialpsycho184 Are you bipolar one or two I am exactly like this and I need help my life is crumbling and this covid made uk mental health useless I'm suffering

[@glitterginger]

Or "Dont poke the bear" problem is EVERYTHING can poke a bipolar person. It doesn't matter. There is no rational thinking.

[@RxTerps]

Losing my girlfriend scared the shit out of me. I didn’t realize I had bipolar till now , she loved me more than anything and I loved her back but my bipolar messed with my brain , I feel so bad for hurting her. She hates me now and I can’t stop feeling guilty for the damage that I did, I’m honestly a piece of shit and I take full responsibility for it. I didn’t deserve her, I knew since day one I would lose her one day, I always thought she deserved better than me . I’m a fucking idiot. I didn’t know what love was until I met her, I never saw real love, I saw abuse, fighting, anger, and cheating. I can’t believe I damaged such a good person and I was too fucking blind to realize I was in the wrong. No matter how many times I apologize, it’s not gonna work, she made up her mind. I’m going to get her a birthday gift and it’s farewell from there. I love you Sara and I’m sorry for not realizing I had a issue until the damage was done, you deserve the best life, you deserve so much more that I could give, I love you and I thank you for the lesson you taught me. I didn’t know I could love again until I met you, I love you and I hope for the best . Fuck me for ruining the best real relationship I could have ever had. I’m currently getting in anger management and counseling. I need to fix myself

[@miked9596]

Where u at now brother. Can u get us an update on your life and ur age

[@shuiwahlee5836]

🙏🙏🙏

[@sally-kz7nz]

Your story is so sad. I'm in a fairly new relationship with a bipolar man and I'm slightly terrified. So far it's going well but he keeps saying he's scared he's gonna end up hurting me cos he drives everyone away who loves him. I'm going to give it a shot tho. These videos and comments are immensely helpful. I hope your life is better now

[@antoineborg1327]

Hope you feel better now, even when we speak we feel better, Keep strong and positive is the better way.

[@brenainnmacthomais]

I go straight to anger when I’m off my meds-no matter if I’m manic or depressed.

[@andreakustner-branson5544]

@RainbowDreams30 so true

[@presleyloves]

It's soul-sucking, and actually terrifying to be around the BP person who has this extreme anger. I was around it for years, finally left

[@aehinojosa2781]

Robert, you've done it again! As usual you have really broached a very difficult symptom in this adventure called bipolar disorder. I have recently been dealing with anger issues. Lately it hasn't taken much for me to get all worked up over other people's actions. I feel guilty when I catch myself being overly critical of people. It's been a real struggle to keep a balance view of things and people without getting angry. Sometimes I feel like it wants to consume me. But, I remind myself that the anger will pass if I allow it to. So far I'm managing but not without some difficulty. Thanks Robert for a great video.

[@lynndiedricks8903]

Same

[@stansmith7445]

When i have episodes, they usually don't get physical, but i start saying some rude and crazy shit and can't control it. I start shaking uncontrollably and it takes me about an hour to cool down.

[@melinabobina9107]

I feel like I started out like this and got progressively worse

[@jonibakwood]

I do the same things but my heart starts to hurt when I get to over stimulated

[@TampaJohn]

It’s strange that when I was diagnosed BP and got my meds in order, my road rage subsided. Now I drive like Hoke in Driving Miss Daisy.

[@Foxwood1]

I wish people understood the difference between Bipolar, Borderline Personality Disorder, and Intermittent Explosive Disorder.

[@noriyealice5916]

What’s the main differences

[@kapibarra134]

The sad reality of this channel is that more people who live with bi polar disorder are watching this than people who actually have it, it is so frustrating to see how some people dont want to confront there demons, i thank you for your videos and hope this message gets to the right people and believe me it helps.

[@rayswoodshop4467]

My wife says it is "fun" to watch tv with me. I attack every commercial that comes on. My reasons for my anger are sound but others do not see why I get so angry . We dont watch much regular tv. I am basically pissed off at the whole world.

[@sarahsmile2883]

Yeah so amplified that I've drawn up divorce papers twice and then I come to my senses. Welcome to my anger.

[@vanessagutierrez2325]

Sarah Smile same

[@kellyhendrickson2178]

Sarah Smile me too. I’ve tried over 19 years to divorce my husband 4 times and thousands lost in attorney fees. 😔

[@sarahsmile2883]

@@kellyhendrickson2178 the struggle is real girl. Hang in there

[@MB-pf9ox]

Same with me. Then I come to my senses in like 3-7 hours. Luckily my Fiancé is an angel!

[@MB-pf9ox]

Sara smile as in Hall & Oates :-)

[@freddyrocks88]

I’ll get annoyed first and then builds up to anger inside my safe space where I can use something to extinguish the anger

[@Hereweare75]

Can you please do a video on Ghosting, cutting someone off, ignoring someone that you cared about until..... Is that Mania? Can this be forever? How long does this usually last? Love your channel. Thank you for sharing everything that you do.

[@tamaralikecamera]

My husband gets his release by blaming everyone and says, "everyone is irritating me needs to leave me alone!!" And it's intense and the rest of us are confused and hurt. It's really tough living with him and deciding if he's being a true jerk or is this an episode.

[@tellege08]

Thanks Rob! This is a video that will be watched often. Still getting a place just for me to cool off and pull myself back together.Thank you so much for sharing your challenges and of your Victories too. I know we all have different challenges, Right now with all that's going on i have to remember what's most important to me and stay away from triggers and manage my emotions. Thanks Rob! 👍

[@mivkayla]

God damn. YOU JUST DROPPED SOME KNOWLEDGE ON MY HEAD. My eldest sister currently struggles with bipolar anger. The scenarios and behaviors you spoke about actually describe her! I really am just trying to understand her better. Thank you for all the good you do for people.

[@TheButchersApron]

Hey man, yesterday I had a really bad episode (after reading the article about “woka-cola” telling its employees to BE LESS WHITE) and a dark, evil shadow fell over me and I was so goddamn angry I was seeing white (if you’ll forgive the pun). My wife left me 6 years ago this May and I have been alone raising my 6 year old son all by myself. Within the last two months I’ve reconnected with a childhood friend, she and I are making a go of it but with the perfect storm of external agitations (not just woka-cola but an entire host of unbelievable hardships shit down my throat for no reason) I experienced yesterday put me in a bipolar rage I did my best to subdue but failed miserably. I warned my girlfriend that I am bipolar and don’t take my medicine (because as we with BP know it’s fucking awful) but I don’t think she was ready to see it in all it’s hideous form. I essentially sabotaged myself and put myself in great danger of losing her, but luckily she is very understanding. I forwarded her this video this morning after she asked what she needs to know to understand/help me. I feel like you did an amazing job of explaining what it is we go through, in fact I sobbed a little bit because I am so familiar with this anger but was never able to understand it myself. Now I do, and I feel like this is an invaluable resource for anyone experiencing the misery of day to day life with this terrible disease. THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART, I love you brother.

[@theOGjayzee715]

Another great video. Always gives me hope. I also show these to my family and partner. You can explain things in ways I can't express to them sometimes and it helps. Thank you.

[@lulalive5331]

Thanks Rob. You help me so much, a lot to understand my husband feelings. I’m always here waiting for your next video.

[@JayakrishnanNairOmana]

Amazing video. Great job articulating feelings and situations. Better than any Dr on the internet.

[@cccc285]

I notice I'm way more paranoid than usual when I'm angry at something or having a bad day. Everything makes sense to me and I can't imagine how no one else understands and it's annoying. I get angry because I feel like "it's not a coincidence" when something happens or something like that

[@stevestarr6395]

Yes, anger can be a major thing with me if I’m crossed by someone and yes it’s a burning anger that I hate and know it’s wrong! 😞

[@4psuche911]

Mine isn't even anger anymore; its rage. I've broken things, screamed until I felt my head was going to explode, started huge unnecessary arguments without seeing that I started it, put holes in walls, caused hairline fractures and countless bruises, busted knuckles, left whole sections of skin covered in scratches, etc.. I hate it. I keep trying to explain to my fiancé that most of it is a reaction and I'm having trouble repressing it.. People just think I'm not trying anymore. The real issue is that there's no solving what started my rage. No one's going to apologize.

[@Xphearous]

- has anything worked for you? I have the same problem but maybe even worse. I have 2 or 4 episodes every damn day and my voice and hands never get a chance to heal. Ive broken every dish, mug, door frame and window in my house and scream for about an hour non-stop, yelling words such as "kill me please! Make it stop! Fuuuuhhh, god please make it stop, i want to die! Help!" On and on with every breath i take, and it only stops about 40 minutes of endless uncontrollable rage and emotional agony (all these negative emotions of jealousy, remorse, grief, loss, injustice, anger) and then i collapse and my heart is beating 200 bpm and im sweating and bloody and can only lay there on the floor breathing rapidly and heavily. Feels like a heart attack at the end of every episode. I cant take any more of this. Please, has anything worked for you??

[@lacyoneal1670]

Once something goes bad during a day that I am in a mixed episode or overtmania I get extremely frustrated and lash out even if it's intended towards the wrong person it's literally like snowball affect but not just that if I'm in a mixed episode I will have extreme anxiety/hypomania kind of overthinking 2Xtreme I don't know just learning how to put all this contact I have to get my meds adjusted again I believe one emotion at a time /one minute at a time one /breath at a time } rationalize and be patient{ what works best for "NOW" Even still there's extremely hard days .. but thank you for this video I really enjoyed it again it's like BRAIN nourishment

[@mr.sherlockholmes6130]

Thank you Sir for sharing . I was with 2 women who were Bipolar and I am no longer with them . One for 20yrs had a Beautiful daughter. She had episodes of Rage and was also very promiscuous and I could not deal. I dont cheat and the other lady was the same and I left and never looked back. Sad I'm 53 and with no one . Will not be with anyone ever again . I wish I had this info yrs ago I might knew how to deal with it . God bless you all. I love God and wish the best for everyone who is bipolar. I want ever be with another bipolar again. I hope with the info we have we can treat this sad disease.

[@felix121984]

White boy !

[@samanthahardy9903]

Anger is one of many reasons why I have chosen to be on my own for a number of years. I have bipolar disorder and feel it's better for me to not be with a significant other. It takes it's toll on relationships and with friends and family. Not many people can tolerate my mood swings and inconsistency of highs and lows. It's very confusing for a partner to see the person they fell in love with to seemingly change overnight into someone else. I don't want to put anyone else through that again. I've loved and lost so many people over the years through my own irresponsible actions which have resulted in a lot of heartache on both sides that it's better to be on my own. Fortunately I have a supportive family who try to understand the condition but it's not easy on them either. I'm 52 and can understand why you left your previous partners due to the hypersexuality and anger outbursts. It can make you question, "Was it me? Did I do something wrong? Was it them? Did they do it on purpose?" So many unanswered questions. Often it's neither of you. It's the condition itself which is the cause. It can be a difficult choice to walk away from someone with bipolar disorder. However, sadly the person with the condition can't walk away from the bipolar themselves and have to deal with it.

[@djviewpoint]

Appreciate the content, glad there is a channel that can articulate the struggles of being bipolar.

[@susiehuckaby4317]

Does anyone have trouble concentrating I have the hardest time reading the racing thoughts get so extreme it’s like I feel I’ve lost part of my life and the things I love because of it any helpful suggestions would be appreciated thank hope your all doing well

[@fasthoggen11]

Susie Huckaby I do all the time. I wish I could read a book.

[@CelesteAHall]

Hi. Yes I relate. I love to read, like 4 at a time in different locations around house & yard corresponding to time of day, and when my racing thoughts interfere I speak some of them into a digital voice recorder. Sometimes it helps ;-)

[@lappietova6277]

Stop reading is my tip. Sometimes a book lays for weeks on the last spot. I also can't see a movie. Because i cant focus. So i start doing things(try not do several things at the same time) focus on one you like most. Make a list what must be done and can be done. And go bycing, walking with the dog, swimming etc. Try to speeding down your thoughts and doing like in mindfulness. When i'm in balance i start reading again. Hope you have something you can use. Greetings from a fellow warrior. Stay save.

[@susiehuckaby4317]

scott harvell me too I been trying even read self help book and can’t get through more than a page or two

[@susiehuckaby4317]

plaubel28 I’m sorry hear that makes it hard to lose the things you love

[@milagrosmendez77]

Yup! Me rn. It’s a consuming anger. Even people breathing around me angers me...which makes me wish I could make them stop breathing at some point. That’s when I walk away...

[@romanace3432]

I was recently diagnosed with bipolar type 2 a few months ago (I’m 24) I’m still learning about it

[@dawnnj3235]

you know you got it bad when you start crying when your mad

[@julesservantofjesus972]

Oh yeah! When I cry, I'm REALLY angry!

[@TheDbugg]

Me too

[@weboflies999]

My brother, I'm 99% sure is bipolar. It is so difficult. Vacillates from nice and pleasant part of the year to outright mean and vengeful the other. I'm at a lose.

[@n.c.6211]

Exactly. And people don't help because they "help you find the reason why you are angry". I have always felt isolated, but at the same time every little thing annoyed me at some point. I thought I was cured again...of course it wasn't the case. I am trying to use mindfulness. We can make it :)

[@PolarWarriors]

Yes we can Nicoletta!

[@mikelowe9994]

My brother insists there is nothing wrong with him. He lives in the basement of my elderly parents. He makes them cry every day. How is that normal?

[@Zamiiz]

When you said “when you don’t have that door to slam you’ll have anxiety because that outlet we’re used to is gone, which makes it worse” that had me stop in my tracks- my mom is an easy trigger for me, but now she moved out and I don’t have her anymore, and my anxiety and angry outbursts had been incredibly more frequent. Now knowing and having insight into this is a big step to controlling it. I probably wouldn’t have figure this out if it wasn’t for your video, thank you

[@mermaidlu5125]

Ugh my daughter is bipolar it’s impossible to live with somebody so angry violent and crazy

[@charriwithrow]

I can relate! help her find a hobby that helps me I am into coins and currency it redirects my anger!

[@naniktriw3862]

I start slamming things if I get angry. I slam stuff in my bedroom, in the kitchen, etc, my spatula was bent, my pot was broken too. I kick everything secretly. Also, I said rude words to people close to me. You know, they just call my name and I shout to them. I always think my issue is anger management. I feel like it gives me a sense of relief. After that, when I have broken the relationship, I realized how bad I was.

[@saedayamson539]

The kind of words I received from partner was horrible

[@IntercessorsSquares]

GOD HEALS ALL SITUATIONS. We pray people rather reach out to Him for solutions. Let His healing GRACE & POWER productively spread throughout the world, in Jesus' name. Amen.❤❤❤

[@donnastitz1497]

I am soo angry that the donald is our president of the USA. I don't want to argue politics BUT WTF ? I am obsessed . The donald is going to give me a heart attack :/

[@teresadowden]

I find myself trying to not talk or engage with others like at church because i don't want to say the wrong thing or get triggered.

[@chronos47]

This video is extremely well timed. Woke up angry. Needed to be reminded that it amplifies everything and have to be mindful.

[@RayDayPlays]

I cried in relief just feeling validated. thank you.

[@MatTheLesser]

I blocked my therapist number because she didn’t respond to my emergency text. My episodes come from financial stress

[@jonwebb6644]

Spiritual exercises have been helpful for me, such as, prayer and meditation. I also focus on accepting people, places, and things that are beyond my control.

[@MatTheLesser]

Wow I feel like I’m looking into a bi racial bi polor mirror right now …wait what? Yea especially that driving iritic part and the obsession angry shaking volcanic thoughts

[@darlanail6234]

Question: At what point were you able to to regain insight? My SO denies his diagnosis if bipolar 1 with psychotic features. He loses it if it's even mentioned and also if meds are discussed. He refuses meds because he believes he is under spiritual attack and oppression. We have been together 17 years and almost 2 years ago this started. My funny, smart, attentive, well groomed and organized man is no longer. I miss him so much. I guess I'm looking for hope. Will he ever believe he needs to be medicated and get back to a more normal life?

[@PolarWarriors]

Hi Darla! I really think Rob's video with his mom might help a lot. The thing is, medication is important because if he goes into psychosis he can get into trouble out in public, be roughed up by police and put in jail instead of a hospital. Medications help keep us stable. The main thing is really to work on yourself, create boundaries and make sure you are okay. We can't give from an empty cup. I do suggest once these weird times pass to get involved with the mental health community in your town or city. There are many support groups that will help. Take Care. Dianna Polar Warriors Team Member Rob: I really need your help to keep a good thing going here... PLEASE consider supporting Polar Warriors work on Patreon. Even just $1 a month makes a huge difference. Thank you so much

[@darlanail6234]

@@arlindfazliu26 wow, thank you so much for your suggestions. I will definitely get the books, I look forward to reading them. I hope he will also. Thank you.

[@darlanail6234]

@@PolarWarriorsthank you for responding. I will finish watching that video. Yes he had been in jail a couple if times and taken to the hospital twice. It's horrible. He doesn't seem to be in a psychotic episode as of right now but he is so depressed and doesn't speak much. If he does engage in a conversation most of the time he's the only one that gets to speak and walks away when done. I will look into a support group outside if the few Facebook groups I'm in. Thank you!

[@arlindfazliu26]

@@darlanail6234 No worries. If you wish to read it online, you can download her books for free at this website - gen.lib.rus.ec - all you need to do is type in the book's name, click in one of the links provided below and click 'get'. The book will be downloaded directly to your device. There are over 2 million books available for free. Enjoy!

[@darlanail6234]

@@arlindfazliu26 i just saw this. Thank you. I will download.

[@mariaalmeida391]

Thank you for creating this channel it's been very helpful

[@TexasWench]

My wife would often chastise me during an anger fit, not understanding how I could go from 0-100 over something as innocuous as dropping a spoon onto the ground, and the response being so severe -- and yes, it very, very often included breaking things to satisfy the beast; destruction made me satisfied, vindicated, placated. She struggles to understand such an intense sensation, but has been very supportive since my type 2 diagnosis. I try to explain how it feels to be so on edge, like a pot of water just a fraction under boiling temperatures. But I have kids and can't have that as the standard from which they learn how to react to the world. I've resorted to catching myself on the cusp of explosions where I stop, close my eyes and take a long, deep breath. And if I can maintain myself for a few seconds, it's usually enough to take the edge off enough to lose my need for violence against my environment. Though it does leave me feeling cheated and sometimes bitter being robbed of my outlet very often. It'd harder to control at work where I'm at peak anxiety, but also my anger is tempered out of sheer necessity, which I can only manage just barely, as I provide the sole income for my family. It's a strange comfort knowing of and hearing from others like me, that I'm not the only unhinged maniac out there. Stay strong, everyone. All we can do is take it minute by minute, day by day, but remember that we struggle apart, but together.

[@erios1010]

I'm so fucking tired of this disorder! I can't figure out how to manage it and i feel like I'm losing my family and will never get better! That rage comes out of nowhere and it is scary to them. I know i wont hurt anyone when it surfaces but it's so intense that it would scare anyone. Then I calm down and have to face it all! I hate it. I am trying to go to therapy and help myself but at this point my wife doesn't want to take part in the treatments and therapy and is just tired of the excuses. I try and hold myself accountable always so I own it when I have a bad episode and apologize but by then the damage is done

[@kathleenkinneberg559]

I get so much validation for how i sometimes feel therefore i don't feel like such a freak.

[@MatTheLesser]

I’m just commenting over and over because it helps

[@AngelicDestiny23]

Seriously crying right now because you have explained everything I have felt but was unable to put into words. I am thankful for finding this page thank you for having this channel here and helping (I am sure so many) me find a voice for the confusion going on inside me.

[@PolarWarriors]

You are so welcome 🙏🏽

[@aoede6766]

How about jail time? That type of anger usually leads to violence.

[@michaelhood9024]

Only a minute and 40 seconds in and wow...i didn’t know anyone else could explain in such detail what i feel.The anger is just so hard to control,i lash out and do things i wouldn’t even think about doing when i calm down.

[@danid3533]

Wouldn’t say we’re addicted to anger it’s just happens to be there lol Wrong look, tiniest irritation even a sound can set it off then it’s a roller coaster from there lol

[@betweenthepoles]

This is so pertinent to my day. I have been trying to clean out some boxes today and after a while I got frustrated and started just yelling and swearing and taking it out on my husband. It’s so hard for him - he has trouble understanding my disability because he himself has some issues and refuses to admit it. I have always been prone to road rage. As I matured I learned how to handle it... better. But once in a while, some jerk REALLY ticks me off. I was on an on ramp to the expressway and this idiot was trying to pass me even though there really wasn’t a lane. I sped up and all of a sudden he gunned it and drove almost 100 mph just to pass me. I got so upset that I drove like a maniac until I was right behind him and I followed him that way until I finally had to get off at my exit. Then the rest of the day I couldn’t get over it. You were right about this behavior not reflecting my actual personality. I am known to be kind, helpful, easy going. I don’t even kill mosquitoes so endangering people with my driving is definitely not me. Once the anger is gone it is replaced by extreme self-loathing. I did actually turn to Buddhism when I had to be on the expressway every day. I carried a mala with me and repeated the Tibetan compassion mantra for each bead while listening to temple monks chanting. It really helped. 🙂 If someone or something profoundly upsets me, I can ruminate for days. Can’t think clearly, can’t sleep. Mental illness is the proverbial monkey on your back- clinging, taunting, always there.

[@missbehavin3370]

Bravo!! U helped me tremendously in sharing ur life stories😇💋

[@artistrg3487]

Your last sentence speaks to me, having lived with ADHD, generalized anxiety and OCD most of my life.

[@lindatrombley3]

My stepdaughter is bipolar and has raised all 4 of her kids by hersellf and now has beeb in a relationship with a partner for years. So proud of her. However I have a foster brother who is also bipolar and makes bad decisions, gets angry at people over nothimg and walks out of their life. He cant have a lasting relationships. He walked out on me forover 20 yrs. He came back 3 years ago and just recently got mad at me over nothing and took off again. I dont know when I will see him again. Hence he has been homeless all those years.

[@kellyallen5684]

Thank you for these, sir. I am a rapid cycling bpd w/ schizoaffective and a lot of unresolved PTSD; and I am a single mother of a toddler. I am terrified of what I don't recognize in my own behaviors, and your insights help me to stay vigilant for her.

[@matthewalderink8855]

People think I'm a violent hoodlum but I'm not I just go through this anger faze when my bipolars low and im quick to snap

[@tomcleverley18]

Robert, thanks again for all the effort you put into all the BP Warrior videos. We are all better off for your efforts. I'm not often in this situation, but I can recall (especially before I started medication) some times when I had misdirected anger or was more angry than justified. I have said before that we who suffer with BP need to do our best to be good to those we love when we are well, and try very hard to minimize our bad when we are not well. Take care and GOD BLESS.

[@ronaldmiller2740]

THANKS FOR YOUR HELP TALKING,,.. I WISH I COULD SEE MORE UPDATED VIDEO...

[@PolarWarriors]

Hi Ronald! Rob shares more on patreon. Dianna Polar Warriors Team Member www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors

[@iron60bitch62]

I’ve been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder and I have mixed feelings about it.

[@whoawoahh]

Lol nice

[@RubeeKikuyu]

SMOKING - That's it! I stopped after 23 years smoking back in 2007 and boy believe me when I say that this heroic act was opening Pandora's box; it seems to me almost 2 decadres after that smoking (tobacco) kept everything under wrap, I felt good, I lost it year after year since stopping.

[@PolarWarriors]

Hi! I quit smoking a decade ago and man are you ever right about quitting! By far the hardest thing I've had to quit! Dianna Polar Warriors Team Member www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors

[@madgeconnon2651]

Hi Robert this video was me 100% when I get mad. I use to take my anger out on my boyfriend of even my Mom. Depending on who was around at the time. But since I have been watching your videos and applying them to my life. My anger is not as severe as it has been. But when the anger does creep up and I yell and say things that I don't mean I always apologize for my actions. And tell the person the reason why I was so mad in the first place. Coming to terms with having Bypoler has not been an easy road but a necessary road. Thank you for making these videos Robert that have literally changed my life.

[@Robertodicartlos]

The worst part is saying things we don’t mean..

[@argelruiz2341]

My boyfriend and I moved to another city after nine months of living together and everything tumblerred down in 30 minutes (yes, 30 minutes). I suddenly found myself arrested and I lost everything (literally and figuratively). I've been officially diagnosed and I'm taking medication, I was lucky and could keep my job. Have read lots of books and watched videos about bipolar disorder and my life makes much more sense now. I'm still in the recovery process for the rest of my material world but feel completely empty emotionally. I cry every day and recently have had very strong anger "episodes" (don't know if that's the best way to call them) I feel I can't control myself... It's exhausting!

[@yesyesyall0]

5:22 you just enlightened me... thank you

[@lailafelinda611]

I'm here because each time I have a fight with my bf i will scream like a crazy person and even hit him, slap him and choke him. I even have these thoughts that everyone hated me. I have a very tough childhood. I need to see a doctor.

[@choctenetxhips6780]

I've been having these problems since I was in high school and I'm 21 now. I got diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder at age 16 and have found myself crying because it feels good to not be alone. My emotions may be magnified by my episode right now, but coming across these kinds of videos helps a lot.

[@Bob-jm8kl]

I've described my anger like a shark smelling blood in the water. I go into a frenzy and cannot stop...until I exhaust myself. Anything can set it off, which is as disturbing to me as much as people around me. When I'm grandiose, it takes on another dimension.

[@victoriabarry1561]

I have found a picture of Jesus to be helpful. He already suffered on my behalf so I don't have to.

[@rehlorocco]

I have bipolar disorder, ADHD and PTSD. They seem to play off of each other. Your channel has helped me so much ! My hats off to you for all the work and volunteerism that you have gone through to bring us your messages! God Bless You!

[@PolarWarriors]

Hi, Rob offers one on one support on Patreon if you are interested. He also posts more personal information about his day to day struggles like his recent hospital stay. For the month of July he is offering free phone calls to patrons. Another Patreon exclusive is Rob hosting and moderating weekly support groups on discord! Take gentle care! 🙏 Sometimes we all need someone to talk to: www.crisistextline.org/ teenlineonline.org/talk-now/ Dianna Polar Warriors Team Member (H)old (O)n (P)ain (E)nds www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors

[@bakerieYT]

You just explained a decade of anger in 5 minutes. Thank you.

[@tiggercampbell6198]

before medication I used to snap whenever anyone interrupted my bipolar thoughts..which I could never grasp because they were so fast..so I thought the interruption might have deleted a world changing idea..now after so much therapy Im able to not freak out ..but if i can't find something..my keys the remote .I lose it..but I found out that's add..

[@PolarWarriors]

Hi, Rob offers one on one support on Patreon if you are interested. He also posts more personal information about his day to day struggles like his recent hospital stay. For the month of July he is offering free phone calls to patrons. Take gentle care! 🙏 Sometimes we all need someone to talk to: www.crisistextline.org/ teenlineonline.org/talk-now/ Dianna Polar Warriors Team Member (H)old (O)n (P)ain (E)nds www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors

[@Mercury.Black.]

Great video, Rob. Keep up the great work!

[@ms.realityspace]

Both mania and depression bring anger for me. Loneliness seems to be the core trigger; I can usually break it down after the anger episode and see that. I then blame myself for this loneliness, and the anger is turned inward.

[@j.a.steele3347]

Ty you have no idea how you make me feel when I have no answers and no where left to go. I'm lost.😢 You are the best thing that has happened to KZbin, for us. God bless you. 💔💝 Julie and Lily 🐈 My rescue cat.... that rescued me, more than I did her. From Sydney, Nova Scotia, Canada. 🍁 Kindest regards. Please be safe and well, we NEED you. 🥰

[@PolarWarriors]

Wow! That is so nice of you to say! Be safe and well too!

[@julesservantofjesus972]

@@PolarWarriors I want to thank you for your videos. They make me feel better, like I'm not a nut job. Oh can I just say that you have the best hair?! God bless you and your family! 🙏🏻✝️🙋🏼‍♀️😊

[@imjustsaying8244]

Man once I’m in a bipolar anger episode, that’s like telling a vicious hungry lion , hey stop ripping that gazelle apart, remember how bad you felt after you ate that rabbit earlier. Now just breath….. see now; doesn’t that feel better now.

[@martinsvenberg]

It just struck me earlier... Normal people say that something is worth dying for. We say the opposite, its worth living for. Like calamata olives.

[@lalajean452]

Yeah i am seen as a monster because of my uncontrolable anger . I get it from my mom side actually , my cousin , my aunt , my mom , they are all angry people but mines more uncontrollable since i can also be physical when i didnt control it . Back in the day punching is the best way to take all of this because i just cant hold it i need to release it . Its all coming back , now my siblings are the target . Our youngest has it too but like my mom shes more verbal and im more into both so when i get angry at her sometimes i cant with how she handle her words so it could end with eaither yelling or i cant control myself and go physical .

[@bravestarr2001]

I've broken my knee and knuckle (several times), as a result of bipolar anger. Great, succinct video with zero pretence or 'feel good' gloss. This man talks sense.

[@jaredferguson2999]

Just dislocated my shoulder like 2 days ago because I somehow threw a woven basket at my floor hard enough. It was gross, but in the car on the way to the hospital I completely forgot there was anything wrong with my arm and continued arguing. I really want to NOT be this crazy

[@jasminecats1370]

Ohh wow I really need a punching bag bad

[@calypsowhiteheart7807]

I've become addicted to the poisonous ruminations

[@MatTheLesser]

No one wants to be there for me now because of my rage. I hide it hut they know I don’t enjoy people so they stay away my girlfriend said you can leave because we faught but the fights are extreme. I just want to stay isolated u know I can’t though and I don’t want to apologize to people who puss me off. I’m not doing well right now as you can tell

[@PolarWarriors]

I’m sorry you are struggling right now. I’ve been going through a lot of challenges this time of year myself. We have a really great community of people here and I hope you will continue to stop by. You are among people who understand what it’s like to live with this difficult illness. -Rob

[@masterofnone8381]

man, this is me right now. recently diagnosed. i still have no idea how any of this works, but i have some kind of pent up rage that just comes out sideways at my wife. i’ve been so lost for the past month. hoping to get more clarity. thank you for what you do.

[@Juggaliath]

me today, woke up just raging inside. fuck

[@maiarytorres2276]

Master of None what made you get diagnosed ? I’ve been trying to get my husband and there are times we get close but I cannot get him to see a dr

[@MatTheLesser]

I can’t do this it’s too much nothing seems to work or maybe I’m trying nothing I’m just feeling hopeless I don’t even want to be with this woman. I care for her but I have made things toxic

[@PolarWarriors]

Hi, Rob offers one on one support on Patreon if you are interested. He also posts more personal information about his day to day struggles like his recent hospital stay. For the month of July he is offering free phone calls to patrons. Take gentle care! 🙏 Sometimes we all need someone to talk to: www.crisistextline.org/ teenlineonline.org/talk-now/ Dianna Polar Warriors Team Member (H)old (O)n (P)ain (E)nds www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors

[@eileenryan7132]

Thank you, Rob for always shedding light on a very misunderstood condition. Your suggestion of directing anger into productive activities is spot on. Personally, I found that principles of Christian and Buddhists beliefs of reducing the suffering in the world, has been enormously helpful to me in trying to fuse the huge amount of negative and positive energies we have into something that may actually help reduce our own. Spending lots of time sending out love to everyone in as many ways as I can right now, whether it is giving my empty aluminum cans to the homeless, using my medical knowledge to research ways of mitigating the suffering of the sick, or listening to friends who have worries of their own....finding ways of bringing the light of being into someone else's life. We also need to make sure that in the meantime, we take care of ourselves, eating right, sleeping well, exercising to the extent possible, meditating with online meditations, and lastly, using our resources ~like you~ to help others understand that we are truly gifts to the world, because we feel everything so deeply!!!! Namaste....peace be upon you fellow warriors!!! ǯϧ † ۞

[@tomcleverley18]

JESUS CHRIST'S love for me, my Faith in Him, and the love from my wife have been a great help in my dealing with BP.

[@julesservantofjesus972]

@@tomcleverley18 AMEN

[@mysteryandmeaning297]

I read that without meds the bipolar brain actually heats up thus exploding in anger outbreaks. The medicine cools the brain. Brain synapses. Interesting.

[@RAE.ofSunshine]

Loved this. Feels so good/normal to see another human admit to breaking things when mad. Makes this feel so much more real and somewhat controllable like the tips you've explained. Thanks alot