Bipolar Disorder Destroyed My Career!!

Hi Guys,
Navigating a career and job with bipolar disorder can be challenging. Some of us either choose not to work or are on disability but many of us are still able to have very successful careers. Unfortunately because of my inability to monitor my symptoms with medication my work history is horrible but with the proper medication, counseling and good lifestyle choices your story doesn't have to be as challenging as mine was.
I’m Steph and I have bipolar disorder type 1 with psychotic features and mixed episodes. What that means is that not only do I have extreme shifts in mood and hypomania but I also experience psychosis and have manic episodes where I am basically happy, angry and sad all at the same time. I experience delusions, visual and auditory hallucinations, and paranoia.
I do this channel for a few reasons but basically I want to help people understand how to have loving relationships with their bipolar friend or loved one. I want to build a community and it helps me talking to other people about my experience and I really hope it helps you.
Please let me know your thoughts and subscribe. Your comments make me want to make more videos and make me feel less alone.
In today's video I talk about Bipolar Disorder and how it affects work. Being able to have a career as someone with Bipolar can include extra challenges. I want to share my story and my work history with you so you can see just how challenging it can be and how Bipolar symptoms can ruin a career pretty quickly.
IN 2021 25% of disability benefits were going to those with a psychiatric disability. Some of us have such severe illnesses that we can’t work at all.
Managing the workplace for someone with Bipolar is difficult because there are some of us with such debilitating depression that we are physically unable to get out of bed to get to work and miss a lot of days. I had a lot of people on my channel talk about how they’ve lost another job because of their symptoms or how hard it is to function in the work place just with interpersonal relationships with coworkers anxiety and stress. But there is more to the story that can happen and so that is why I want to share my work history with you to give you an example of how quickly a career can go down in flames.
Here are some other videos you might find helpful and please check out my original music. You can navigate by using the playlist tab where I have everything from unboxings to roller skating but my most important videos are my bipolar manic life vlogs and my original music since a lot of it is inspired by my struggle with Bipolar Disorder and Relationships.
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If you think you might be bipolar, please see a doctor immediately. There is help.
Thank you for watching.
#bipolar #bipolardisorder #mania

[@sarahpeske9937]

Steph, This video speaks volumes. I won’t lie I cried the whole video because of how this parallels my own personal experiences so much. I am still trying to figure out my early hypomania episodes that resulted in some off experiences but when I was put on three different anti-depressants all at once and my doctor didn’t read the bipolar signs not only did I lose my townhouse, went bankrupt from over spending by almost $90k, and then there was my job history. I was someone who would stick with a job for years and that was me. I gave 2-4 weeks notice when leaving and here I ended up with 7 different jobs in less than a year and most of which I either just walked out on or gave less than a weeks notice. It was so uncharacteristic of me. I feel so much shame about my job history. Especially with regards to the company I did my best at. I got 5 promotions in 3.5 years doubled my salary and left and moved out of state. Got another great high paying job as a property manager for a luxury apartment building and struggled the whole time with mania. After I left that job in Jan of ‘23 I went downhill. Lasted three weeks at my job that paid $100k+bonuses. Went to another property, last 3 months. Went to a hotel and became a caregiver. I never slept for more that 2-3 hours a day for over 6 months. I just worked worked work and screamed at everyone. It was awful. Left those jobs for one job, last 6 weeks there. Went to a hotel and transferred to a new one 3 months later and here I am. Now I am a full time night auditor at a hotel where I have less interaction with people but I know that if I go manic again and a guest starts getting aggressive with me, I’ll probably walk out or yell back. I know this (in my right mind) is not the way to handle things but as mentioned, your brain just takes over and you literally go psychotic. I have been having mixed episodes up until about a month ago. My depakote was recently upped and that has help tremendously. I hope to stay on track where I am for awhile but I'm barely making ends meet and am definitely make 1/3 of what I made before. Thanks again Steph for making these videos, they really help me feel less alone, especially when reading through the comments.

[@BipolarPerson]

Unfair, that's what Bipolar is completely unfair. We are at the mercy of doctors in a broken system. I hope one day in the future doctors become more careful about subscribing SSRI's they've hurt so many of us with BP1. I hope the new job works out and the depakote keeps working, thank you so much for your support and sharing your story it means a lot to me and anyone reading. ❤️

[@tommakkoo1357]

Thanks, Steph, for your vulnerability and authenticity in normalizing the mental health journey.

[@waceyseufer7083]

First off, yes, you definitely make us (well, at least me) feel like we're not alone. Thank you for all you do. Keep going! You were the first person I stumbled across and your videos have Really helped me. So thank you! I'm 34 and just got diagnosed this March. Last year I had a BIG mania w/ psychosis episode that lasted 8 months. It was horrible. I got a VERY noticeable face tattoo, arrested 3 times, and a lot more. Second, yeah. it definitely took a toll on my job. I worked for the county I live in for 2 years but it got really bad once my bipolar 1 kicked in for the first time. I live in a tiny community and lets just say a very good percentage of the population here has totally different opinions of me now. So much that I can't get a job anywhere. At least where I live. It's honestly kinda hard to even go out in public now. I'm still at the beginning of my recovery so I have hope that things will get better. You really do help more than you know. Thank you. Have a great one, and YEAH! UPLOAD MORE VIDEOS!!!!! xD Keep going, dude. You rock.

[@BipolarPerson]

Thank you for sharing this and your support! Man I never even thought of tattoos being a mania left over! It will get better I was humiliated going back to work but if I take a step back anyone judging me they were the one with the problem. It's really is unfair an illness makes people think that's who we are but forget about them I think if you keep trying you'll find someone to give you a break. It does get better with time. ❤️

[@ErikIng-jv7xr]

@@waceyseufer7083 Thanx for sharing! 8 months in psycosis? Dident know that it was possible to stay in that long. You May apply for a world record there :) Im familiar with tiny comunites and people changing opinons.. Its hurtful as fuck. But remember that you dident ask for the Bipolar membership. And most people have enough with themself.. When i Read about youre face tatt o i tought "Wow finally someone on my level" .. 😎 And yes,it gets better. But its hard. There are so many components that are fucked at the same time.. Depression can be hard enough alone,without all the life changing trauma from a episode on the top. Its a Wild ride from hell and back,but chaos will Fade. There is also some very important do and donts with bipo1. Steph do mention some in this video.

[@sloene72]

Thank you for details because I don't understand what it really looks and feels like and that explains a lot to me. Thanks again. I hope you are coping better? Is psychosis worse?

[@picartso7764]

Thank you for sharing your experiences Steph! I agree that structure and exercise is key to managing BP. You look gr8 ... and pls keep playing your music. Best, Sue

[@BipolarPerson]

Thank you for your encouragement and kind words! ❤️

[@kamyareshraghi4244]

you are a very strong person!

[@K-zw1ei]

Hey Just watched your whole video. Thank you for sharing your experience and struggles, i resonate deeply. I'm in the same age bracket as you, and my history with work and school has been tumultous. I had my first episode around 17-18 right before college, then was hospitalized for about a month. I would have 1-3 different jobs in a year, longest job I held was retail for 3 yrs as I finished my bachelors (which debilitated my mental health in hindsight due to awful managers). Then one day I had enough and quit, just like some of my previous other jobs. Never cared about 2 weeks notices, struggle with coworkers etc. Took nearly a decade to muster up courage to finish college as well. Just recently got a diagnosis for bipolar, depression, ptsd and anxiety. Meanwhile Im just doing uber for the sake of mental health while looking into SSI on the side. Anyway sorry for the rant, I thought I was the only one with these hardships. This illness is no joke and can hit us any time. The hardest part for me was accepting it as I continue educating myself on it. I'm glad I found this video and channel, you got my sub. much love

[@BipolarPerson]

Hi!! You are definitely not alone! I had my first episode at 16. A few people have said Ubber Eats or driving for Lyft is a great alternative to a traditional job most of us can't handle. Getting approved for SSDI is hard I made a video to help people see what I did wrong. Here is a link to see if it helps. I'm so glad to have you! Please don't be a stranger and keep in touch also let me know if there is a video you want to see. 😁❤️kzbin.info/www/bejne/ZojYoJiYr5Vqjbssi=sZV2ERhEJ3LCOJV3

[@missyhash3018]

This is your best work yet baby girl

[@PolymorphicPenguin]

Thank you, Steph, for sharing your experiences with jobs and bipolar disorder. I wish there was more public awareness of mental health problems so that your work supervisors would have been more understanding. For me it has been my anger that has caused problems for me in the workplace. I don't know if my anger is caused by bipolar, but it seems likely to me.

[@BipolarPerson]

Probably, anger is definitely a symptom.

[@Ashweee223]

Thank you for sharing your story with us, Steph. I'm sorry you have suffered so much. I wish you all the best and hope your life continues improving. ❤

[@missyhash3018]

I seen your brain damage as you spoke of from engorging myself in your videos for the past days you have improved and healing is evident I’m worried about if someone can’t and I know it’s out of my control but I’ve seen you and it does take time it’s heartbreaking

[@kimberlymiller655]

What is engorging mean? I don’t understand all your comment.

[@bobtt4496]

@@kimberlymiller655 he probably meant gorging, which means “eating a lot”

[@ShadyPlatinum777]

I’ve quit jobs because of bipolar, I almost quit my current job multiple times when in an episode. Thankfully I didn’t

[@benzapp1]

Thank you for sharing this.

[@ptlovelight2971]

Hi Steph, thanks for the new video and sharing your story. It seems that SSRIs are a huge point in starting the "spiral" in people w/bipolar. Would you be willing to make a video about that? Also: I'm curious to know your thoughts on diet, nutrition, and metabolism when it comes to mental illness. Some people have had great results by simply changing how they eat. Others claim it didn't help at all. I dont have bipolar, but my mental health definitely improved Once i cleaned up my diet. Would you be willing to speak on that?

[@BipolarPerson]

Yes and yes!!! Thank you! 😊

[@ErikIng-jv7xr]

McDonald's was my first job as well, where i got sick for the first time and had to leave! The inner personal dialogue and circular thinking takes so much energy..I actually never connected it to BD. You say that episodes like this dont have to happen if you're on meds. etc but in the end you say for some of us it have to happen. I think that is a good way to put it. Meds,therapy,staying sober,work out,getting enough sleep etc. Is great But its not a 100% guarantee. If the madness wanna come thru the door it will make it. And when it worked itself all the way up to where medicine routine falls out,then all hell can break loose. Anyway, if you're BD Take meds ,Stay sober and Stay connected...and keep the candles lit! ❤

[@krislove6171]

Your videos are very interesting as it's really helping me to understand my very best friend 🧡 and what's going on in her mind. Please keep these videos coming. Plus. It's good to track any progress you are making on your own journey ✨️.

[@BipolarPerson]

Thank you, I will! 😁

[@craigbrowning9448]

My Stepfather had a Bipolar sister (ironically she was his most pleasant relatives, when sane). Her husband was a Beer Drinking in front of the TV grouch (he was also a devout Catholic that got her pregnant when she was in a Manicy Phase and that's how the end of getting married). My mother claims one occasion she encountered him at the local VFW hall, he was very charming, extroverted and "Mr. Twinkle Toes!" So in truth he had his own psychiatric issue also. Only met him as the grouch in front of the TV and her when she was able to function. One time when she was "Off the wagon," she asked my step dad's mechanically inclined cousins if they had a wheel for her (non-existent) Lamborghini. This is commemorated by having a picture of a Lamborghini on her wall after incident.

[@ikarely]

Yeah it’s pretty much taken over my life. I feel so trapped with the pain that comes with this. It’s been rough. Your story helps though 🫶🏼

[@ABCXYZ-vg9gh]

I can relate to this. Thank you for sharing. ❤❤

[@ziganda26]

Ive had to give up lots of jobs over the years because of my mental ill health. Spent a lot of time out of the work environment completely because being around people all day was too much for me too handle

[@cygnusaurus]

Ruined my career too. And my life along with it. Thanks for sharing and best wishes for you.

[@BipolarPerson]

Sorry to hear that, it can definitely do that. It can seem like we are constantly rebuilding things we tore down in mania. Thank you for sharing.

[@my_wikkle_pony]

probably best to just get disability and for money try to be self employed on the side. i gave up working years ago

[@chinmeysway]

is that even legal to have income AND disability?

[@craigbrowning9448]

Up to certain amounts.

[@wingnut71]

I had to quit work this year due to a major depressive episode in 2022 that landed me in hospital for ten weeks. I had switched medication because the old one i was on for 10 years wasn't working as well as it used to anymore. Unfortunately for me the new drug was completely ineffective on me, so it was like i was not taking anything at all. After developing an extreme suicidal mood I just could not go on. It sucks that after 34 years I can't go to work anymore.

[@BipolarPerson]

I'm glad you survived! I'm sorry you had to quit. I wish more people knew about the true struggle with medication.

[@erikakulnys]

Thanks for sharing. This video is affirming and informative. I have suffered from psychosis and know how damaging it can be. I really appreciate your story. I myself cannot take the drugs as they make me very sick. I am so glad they are working for you.

[@BipolarPerson]

Hi! I'm sorry about the psychosis and there are many different medications hopefully you can find one. I had to try around 12 before I found the one that worked for me.

[@erikakulnys]

@@BipolarPerson Thank you ❤ I tried over 20 of them and every single pharamaceutical for mental health makes me immediately suicidal and my mom committed suicide immediately after she started taking anti-depressants. Currently suffering from severe akasthisa, migraines, uncontrollable movements, and anhedonia and pssd 8 months after being injected with clopixol. Some people can't and shouldn't take drugs. I m so glad they work for you.

[@BipolarPerson]

I'm sorry, I hope it gets better. Do you have any advice for others who might have the same problem, has anything aside from medication helped ease any depression or other symptoms? I'm so sorry about your Mom. That's a really painful experience.

[@BrittanyDupuis-k3e]

Hey girl these vids are loved

[@jackieg.seventee]

I love your bravery.

[@craigbrowning9448]

As someone on the autism spectrum I've been on disability most of my life and did a little bit of part-time work where I can, in things I'm interested in. I have always been socially awkward. Seemingly the most Painful of these were attempts at "Intimate" relationships (given the average "Available" female person out there, it's probably just as well) I've never felt like I could pursue an intimate relationship with anybody I wanted to be involved with. My father was a bisexual and pedophile (in spite of being very conservative) hand had sexual expeditions involved male work colleagues and he Blackmailed an older cousin into some flings. In my awkward communication style and possibly having absorbed some sexual predator behavior from my own father it's helped keep me out of relationships. Not that I have sexually assaulted anyone but I feel like I give off "That Vibe." I remember when I was in my later grade school and early teen years, (I can't say that he totally neglected me but he largely did) and he would always tell me about how "Your dad needs a woman!" And later essentially an late teen and early adult (probably when he was probably not as sexually functional anymore) he wanted to be a father again! When this time I had been exposed to some mentors and things I was interested in. During my mother's first year of being remarried I lived with him again and it was torture. He'd talk to me like I was some kind of juvenile heroin addict or something like that, to become my guidance counselor from being almost totally not in my life. Part of this was that I developed my own political opinions based on being out in the world extended I could be and not in the family bubble. But it wouldn't be until I was in my forties and I finally learned about the autism spectrum issues. I always knew I was learning disabled. My initial clumsy attempts at dating Percy the Suzuki cause I didn't find any members of the opposite sex I was interested until I started attending Junior college, where I encountered young women who were interested in the same things I was interested in. I always filled I would have better luck "Being Chosen" than trying to "Choose" somebody (again concerns about my father's sexual predator vibes). I even took a class that was the "Sociology of Relationships, Marriage snd Family" and what I needed was a "Sociology of Relationships, Marriage and Family for people on the autism spectrum with sexually abusive fathers" class.

[@BipolarPerson]

It's both a relief and frustrating to find out there's a reason why we are so different. I'm seeing the world take more notice of those on the autism spectrum and with the internet and communities being built I see progress. So much trauma stays with us from childhood it's good you are facing yours head on. Thank you so much for sharing your story. ❤️ I'm sorry about your Dad. It seems parents are never who we want them to be and sometimes they just suck. I found forgiveness for my Mother after her death. Sometimes the pain just creates such a big wound it's hard to heal.

[@Coco-c5s]

I have severe brain damage FROM THE MEDICINE. IT CREATED THE SYMPTOMS.

[@BipolarPerson]

Hi! I'm so sorry to hear that. Sometimes we can be misdiagnosed and given the wrong medication and have horrible experience but please keep trying to find the right medication. I had a bad experience the first time I was put on medication. But then I had years of no medication and my life was destroyed multiple times. I take a different medication now and things are better than ever.

[@Coco-c5s]

@@BipolarPerson no I cannot walk or talk anymore from the medicine. I CANNOT DO ANYTHING ANYMORE.

[@BipolarPerson]

I'm sorry. Can you tell me what medication and what ailment caused you to not speak or walk. What is this medication?

[@Coco-c5s]

@@BipolarPerson clonazepam they gave it to me for tinnitus/sleep from the cortisone withdrawal

[@BipolarPerson]

I'm so sorry Clonazapen is a controlled substance and I'm not sure why they gave it to you but I hope you get better soon. I had a horrible reaction to the wrong medication too before. What you have experienced is very painful and I'm sure difficult to overcome. Sometimes things are just so unfair. Sending you all my love and support.

[@LeighlaMarieTherapy]

What advice would you give to someone who has a loved one who was diagnosed with Bipolar but is in complete denial and won’t take their medication? Sometimes no-contact feels like the safest route but also feels cruel.

[@BipolarPerson]

Hi!! This is the million dollar question no one knows how to answer. I made a video about 6 months ago, I hope it helps, let me know if not I'll make another one. It's a really really hard to know what to do because everyone might react different, and it really takes a toll on loved ones. You have to take care of yourself but also make sure the person is safe. I hope this helps. kzbin.info/www/bejne/jYbVfoVqqpmhiaMsi=ntrBeEFdk-d9xBDH Actually I think I'll make another video more centered around how to support someone in denial that one is more focused on psychosis. Thank you so much!

[@kimberlymiller655]

Same exact situation as Leigh.

[@BipolarPerson]

😢 The post on my community page that I put up today about the Ted Talk is the very best example that I can possibly give. It's typically not denial, it's a symptom (anosognosia) you just can't possibly understand or accept you are sick. It is a very strange thing getting your brain to understand it is broken. Please check out the link. I promise it will help! I'm sorry I know it's hard sometimes harder on loved ones.

[@LeighlaMarieTherapy]

@@BipolarPerson thank you! I’ll go check it out. I love my family member and have so much understanding…but he refuses that he’s sick and when he goes into psychosis, it’s so hurtful and damaging. Also scary with young kids around as well bc he’s unmedicated. I have to protect them and unfortunately that means no contact for now (unless he can find a way to get it under control).

[@BipolarPerson]

I think you are doing right by your kids and him by restricting contact and he will thank you for it. My parents brought my 14 year old little sister to see me in psychosis and it was very damaging to her. She is 22 now and also has Bipolar. The guy wrote a book and my husband said it got him through my episode. He understands perfectly well now and is such an amazing person. You obviously are too. ❤️

[@bennytan689]

I have bipolar disorder right now I can’t sleep and I struggle to keep myself positive . Just laying in bed wishing I have a job but I do worry this might happen if I do get a job . After watching your video now I don’t know what should I do . Should I get a job or not :(? Please help me and also I’m seeing my psychiatrist next Friday because I have difficult falling asleep.

[@sloene72]

Wowaa thats interesting about the cardio. Is not mania when you had energy for cardio?

[@BipolarPerson]

Hi! 😁 When I am manic I can't focus long enough to do anything and there is little need to work out because my metabolism jumps through the roof when I'm manic. I'm usually furiously putting things together, cleaning or making plans I will never follow through on. Full mania I'm psychotic and more concerned about people being after me than working out. But yes everytime you work out your brain releases endorphins making you happier. It also decreases stress hormones and activates parts of the brain and releases chemicals that improve mood. It lowers your risk of cognitive decline and so much more. What we put in our body and how we move it significantly affects ones level of happiness. I am barely starting to realize how mandatory cardio exercise is for a healthy mind. ❤️

[@justmadeit2]

Hi. If you don’t mind me asking, before your diagnoses 7 years ago were you ever on any medication of any type, for anxiety or ss ris ?

[@BipolarPerson]

Hi! Yes, when I was really young I was misdiagnosed with schizophrenia and put on meds for that until I had an allergic reaction years later I went to a doctor for depression and I was put on Lexapro (SSRI) which sent me into mania. SSRI's really bad without an antipsychotic for BP1.

[@justmadeit2]

@@BipolarPerson I don’t have bipolar but do get depression bad and o.c.d too, considering Ssris but in the past felt weird with side effects

[@BipolarPerson]

There are so many SSRI's there is one that won't have side effects for you don't give up you don't have to suffer. Depression can be dangerous. Medicine can really help.

[@ErikIng-jv7xr]

Thank you so much for making making this video,Steph. There are so many things i wanna comment/talk about. But first i wanna ask if you or any one else here have heard the latest episode of Joe Rogan with Sebastian Junger? 11minutes into the episode there are some really fucked up statements coming. "To have a relationship with someone with bipolar is almost impossible, to have a romantic relationship with them is even thousand times harder" This message is send out to 14.5 million listners. What the fck?

[@BipolarPerson]

I just looked it up and it was painful to watch. Made my stomach sink. I really want to respond to his content with a video. I'll try today, BUUUUTTTT perspective.... It's ironic some guy going around talking about seeing dead people is judging people with bipolar like that. He's permanently delusional without a diagnosis. 😂

[@ErikIng-jv7xr]

Totally agreed. A video would be cool,take youre time(if you do it). When he says that he have two friends with BP After telling Joe that it was almost impossible to be friends with bipolars. Its like him bragging "well for normal people its impossible, but you know,for me, fucking Rambo , everything is possible" What a idiot.... Some guy had a comment and asked if other BP reacted on the video, i sendt him this answer : "I Can not believe that Joe Rogan let him get away with that. " To have a relationship with someone that are bipolar is almost impossible, to have a romantic relationship with someone that are bipolar is even thousand times harder" To leave something like that unsaid on a podcast that reach millions of people is really, really bad. Its so stigmatizing and can be really hurtful listening for anyone struggling with BP. Especially when Joe doesn't question it and accept it as the truth (when its not). If Bipolar would be a ethnicity this would be considered hardcore Racism. There been so many guest's on his show that have bipolar and i'm pretty sure Joe also have friends struggling with this that he is aware of.. And those people have friends ..and relationship's. Also...worth to mention, If Roagan podcast has 14.5 million listeners.. Then likely around 37 000 of them would have bipolar. Roagan was a coward this time.

[@BipolarPerson]

I didn't think about that. So basically 37,000 people just got a shot to the heart and all their loved ones just got told you might as well give up now. Thank you for telling me I'm definitely making a response video.

[@ErikIng-jv7xr]

@@BipolarPerson I actually forgot a zero. 370 000 is the number 🤓

[@BipolarPerson]

I finally finished the video thank you so much for telling me and your support!

[@ROME7852]

prayers life with this its not easy i am struggling too

[@MohammedAlthyaybi]

i have Bipolar Disorder and i lost many jobs because of it. im 36 now without any job still i don't have kids. it just i didn't expect the time will go very fast. my degree after 13 year from gradution is nothing plus it is german study. no one want to hire me because im old now

[@BipolarPerson]

I felt my life was passing me by at some times too because bipolar takes so much time from you. I was in the same place at 36. It will get better. ❤️

[@kimberlymiller655]

It’s never too late to start from here from where you are. I feel you and hear you. There are granny’s graduating with their grandkids. So you can do it because you started and reached out here. So keep reaching out and see yourself as what you want to be.

[@nasaman23]

How do you know if you have brain damage? Reason I'm asking is that I have been wanting to get a brain scan of myself but they claim it doesn't "show anything" 😞

[@BipolarPerson]

I just believe I do because I spent a long time in mania and after the last episode my memory is really bad. I forget to ask my psychiatrist about it. Doctors don't use brain scans to diagnose but there is evidence that shows a decrease in grey matter in the brains of bipolar individuals. So the longer one is in mania or depression the more grey matter goes away and the more damage is done.

[@missyhash3018]

I researched brain scans it’s very limited locations yes if your famous etc but you are leading a movement of improved system

[@baladadisidenta8219]

May I ask how much money is disability in the USA? In Greece it is only 338€ and you are allowed to work part-time (if you can) for reasons of social integration.

[@BipolarPerson]

It is not very much. I don't know how much it is but it is not very much. But there are things like housing vouchers which will get you much lower rent. You can still work too but you can't make more than 10k a year.

[@missyhash3018]

You can start a nonprofit or whatever we need to have a place where these people can go and get trey

[@missyhash3018]

Treatment

[@Briy903i]

Wow kinda sounds like me, I’m on my 4th job this year. Idk wtf I’m doing.

[@missyhash3018]

Screw jobs this is about living life and working it out when you feel people and so much

[@garynoel4071]

Thank you 🙏

[@missyhash3018]

How long can these episodes last ?! My son is in a facility since June but this has been going on since May and he’s still there …

[@BipolarPerson]

Oh no! I'm sorry. It really depends on the person but if he is in a facility and taking medication sometimes the medication can take a month to work and that's good he's getting help.

[@NiNitosix]

Never could I hold a job. I did have a business where my employees were working for me and I really didn’t have to do much. I wouldn’t have a disability check coming if it wasn’t for my girls. (Employees) my back is why I’m getting it. I don’t know why I didn’t report the severity of my mental health. My first job after I got my first car was throwing papers. lol. I’m better away from others.

[@BipolarPerson]

Maybe because of Imposter Syndrome a lot of people Bipolar have it. Where we think our symptoms are not as bad as they are or we are "faking it." For exampe if you don't self harm you might think "I'm not bipolar enough." I just learned about it a few years ago.

[@NiNitosix]

@@BipolarPerson very interesting! thank you for sharing that… I’m going to look it up. You know, like I told my husband yesterday it’s not that I’m looking for things to be wrong. It’s that I’m looking for an answer to find out what IS wrong.

[@missyhash3018]

I want to talk in person

[@Jaddaprog]

Thanks for sharing

[@BipolarPerson]

Thanks for watching! 😁

[@missyhash3018]

TEAM STEPH

[@missyhash3018]

Just look at your talents

[@BipolarPerson]

😁❤️thank you!

[@FirstmaninRome]

That's rough, I thought you were ex-wife for minute. That was her diagnosis, But, I think it was more full on psyzoeffective disorder cause it was all over her family. Yeah, you gotta stay on the meds, for sure, she was a twice fired teacher.

[@aprilhassell1747]

What does sad but elevated mood mean?

[@BipolarPerson]

Hi! I'm not sure if I said that right before but I meant like racing thoughts and having a lot of energy but also being really sad and angry.

[@aprilhassell1747]

@@BipolarPerson ok. What were your childhood traumas?

[@BipolarPerson]

That is very long answer. A lot I think I can make a video about this.

[@aprilhassell1747]

@@BipolarPerson ok

[@BipolarPerson]

There is one video that talks about it a little bit here but I really appreciate your question and will make another video about it. kzbin.info/www/bejne/jIitnJafg8Z6macsi=OC8PlYtSzWwfoRwX

[@rossM378]

Do you have brain fog, and how to help it . Thank you

[@BipolarPerson]

Hi!! I don't think I have brain fog but I have a really hard time paying attention going into thought so deep in my head I don't even hear what someone is saying to me. The thing that helps me with that is meditation. The best thing to do too is always convey any side effects you might be experiencing to your doctor. I hope this hekps. 😁

[@digitnomad]

Why don't you fix your BP1 in hospital? and then, control the symptoms on maintenance meds? you could just start your own business instead of internship.

[@BipolarPerson]

Hi! I wasn't properly diagnosed until 7 years ago . Since then I started extensive therapy and medication and my life is way better. I wish I had been able to take it sooner. I could start my own business hopefully I soon. ❤️

[@snowps1]

You're probably homozygous A1298C MTHFR. This can lead to bipolar disorder. You should see a functional medicine doctor.

[@BipolarPerson]

Thank you! I have a psychiatrist and am doing very well on my current medication plan with my doctor.

[@orangestoneface]

mania damages brain so ...meds.

[@BipolarPerson]

yes! and depression also causes deterioration of brain grey matter.

[@orangestoneface]

@@BipolarPerson and the memory brain part smaller by a third in depressed, and schitzophrenia damages brain iq gets lower fast to eighty or but also those schiz meds damage brain but l guess less than the illness. and in bipolar so many suicides so ..meds. and sobriety l guess cos drink drugs prolly make sui.. suggests that brain shrinkage in depression was likely the result of weakened dendrites - not the loss of brain cells. Dendrites are cellular extensions found in the neurons, or nerve cells. This suggests that depression changes may be reversible and the brain can heal.

[@orangestoneface]

@@BipolarPerson ono youtube hidin my answer again ,do you see my other two answers

[@jodygivens58]

I recently went manic and bought a brand new car and now I’m left wondering what in the world was I doing or thinking 🫤

[@BipolarPerson]

Fun times, I've done that too! I hope it's not a financial burden. That's one that's hard to get out of. Thank you for your support! ❤️

[@jodygivens58]

@@BipolarPerson it is actually and I keep beating myself up over it. It’s like a different person takes over while manic. It’s scary to say the least 😞

[@BipolarPerson]

Yeah it sucks but don't forget that's a symptom not something you could control so you can't get mad at yourself for that. Just keep going and maybe put a credit hold on your social it's mainly for identity theft protection but it might also help make it harder to get credit on the fly.

[@jodygivens58]

@@BipolarPerson that’s a good idea. My doctor and I are still trying to find the right medication so it’s touch and go for now. I also have had job issues because of bipolar but I wasn’t aware at the time that I had bipolar. I’ve just come to terms with it. I spent the last two years denying it. Thank you so much for what you do. It helps so much ❤️

[@Fogo234]

@@jodygivens58 July 1 2024 hi from Canada 🍁. I spent at least 20 thousand on crap men usually buy big ticket items like cars boats helicopter. Can you get your psychiatrist or dr to write a letter to explain your situation.my husband returned most everything with his friend and the letter. we also cancelled all my cards no cheques I was at 45 given an allowance a wk it was humiliating you can tell this was my first and only manic time. I found a new psychiatrist who specializes in bipolar and that made the difference. Good luck