woow you look extremely similar to ayalla renan (youtuber)

NF happy good song

🏆💪I am the first to comment on this awesome performance video! 😍🤍

Thank you for reducing stigma and normalizing

Me ❤

Starting to feel like being on meds has shifted my personality almost as much as an episode would. It’s a ‘new’ me that everyone-including myself-is adjusting to. My wife loves it, but my boss… not so much.

i have depression, anxiety and adhd. maybe i have something else top. i am depressed most of the time….

I’m sad for what you’re going through. I recommend getting on disability.

First time to come across your videos.. Bless your heart ❤️ thank you for having so much courage to speak up and for being so open and so honest.. it is not easy Please do check the concept of self fulfilling proficey

Steph, thanks for sharing so candidly the parts of your life that have been such a source of painful shame for you. You are compelling and unashamedly in contact with your vulnerability. I had a question because couldn't help but notice you don't mention seeking assistance from a psychotherapist or someone who is psychodynamically or psychoanalytically trained to help you understand the nature of your unfolding psychosis, as opposed to a psychiatrist who dispenses medication for the flight of the mind but does not work with the dimensions of the psyche in a way that could be meaningful for you. I couldn't help but link the start of your break from reality with your fathers departure from your primary family unit and the 4th episode (the worst) with your own creation of a family unit with you husband with your marriage, something which having clearly so affected you would be perhaps bound to have a level of stress albeit unconscious and thus could explain the 4th episode and the severity as the mind tried to digest such a huge level of stress and the close contact with your own potential threaten of disintegration, which would be very reminiscence of what the mind endured in the past . I've read psychosis can be interpreted as the minds way to keep things from falling apart, to avoid the complete breakdown and disintegration of the psyche, despite the fact that even the most florid episode from the outside may in fact look just like that. I notice you didn't speak of anyone being available for you emotionally though any of this happening to you and I can't help but think that that point may be connected to all of this. The only reason I say all of that is because I feel you had to handle a lot of things, very difficult things, from a young age all on your own and that is a very difficult path to walk and that maybe you deserve someone to be there for you emotionally. Go well.

It seems that you are not well... I hope you get the help yu need! Or at least I hope you are a lot better from where youa re!

Good luck 🎉

Dude I had so many ideas for you!!! Yes you have been sooo helpful but how about how to start a KZbin channel we have no idea- your gonna have haters of course but wtf your positive outweighs that stuff

I understand where you are coming from sending prayers

So sorry to hear that, I have bipolar 1,and still haven't adjusted to my acute psychotic episode. It was so bad it was like I was in another reality that felt as real as this one. it was pure hell

Bipolar is a term for people whos body have a hard time maintaining a stable homeostasis . A person who is bipolar usually have very sensetive nervous system that is very sensetive to stimuli and people, foods, places , lifestyle ect . This is not the devil, demonic or possession, those are ignorant and archaic terminology which only serve to strike fear into people. People with bipolar need reduced stimulation, solid routine, healthy food, regular sleep, low stress, healthy relationships. All of these things are very difficult to achieve in modern society but they are possible with perservernece , commitment and support. The world is crazy, so perhaps bipolar and other mental illnesses are actually very healthy reactions to unfavourable conditions imposed on modern man We may only look at the average person to recognise very few people even have baseline health in our modern society

can you imagine? lol

Thank you. I can relate

Assisted suicide should be an option for some of us.

Ive had to give up lots of jobs over the years because of my mental ill health. Spent a lot of time out of the work environment completely because being around people all day was too much for me too handle

I have bipolar disorder right now I can’t sleep and I struggle to keep myself positive . Just laying in bed wishing I have a job but I do worry this might happen if I do get a job . After watching your video now I don’t know what should I do . Should I get a job or not :(? Please help me and also I’m seeing my psychiatrist next Friday because I have difficult falling asleep.

Watching you is like looking into a mirror. I mean that in a good way. There so many ways bipolar disorder manifests itself. One I have the most trouble with is obsessive thinking. It’s wonderful when I’m on a high, but can be terrifying on a low. In addition, regardless of my mood, it affects those around me because of my behavior… and I don’t even realize it until later on. After it passes. Thank you for the video.

I'm sorry you are going to quit these videos for now. They are helpful to me, but they may not be to you. I went ahead and subscribed to your music channel, and am listening right now. I don't remember a lot of my manic episode. Even things I remembered for a while, I forget now, and I think that works fine for me. It's possible digging into the past isn't always the way to move forward. You are not a hard person to love. I think you are great and you are strong and you are interested in helping other people even after you have been through so much. Bravo!

This is so sad ❤😢 i love you you have such a big heart 😢😢😢

How do you know you will be done for a year? You never offended me lol

I do really appreciate you for sharing so much with us about this illness and the other random stuff in your life and I wanna let you know you really helped me a lot . After watching your videos I was able to muster the understanding and the strength to help my mom which is also bipolar 1 and in denial . Even tho she is off the road right now, I was able to help her to not get on the streets and was able to go to a proper psychiatrist and hopefully she may come off from that mania one day and get her life back in order, maybe one day , but at least , she is safe for now Thank you so much, wish you all the best and I know what means following a passion and I'm glad if you wanna pursue that, I as well if I could somehow work on my passion each day even if it's only for a short moment I would feel great because I will know the day hasn't been wasted even tho the results won't come right away or maybe not come at all, but at least, I tried my best on my passion , after all, that's the only thing I can control, me trying, the results tho , hehe, who knows :)) . See ya Steph , take care ;

Not give up life

Ok my spouse has type one with ffixed and me unipolar

It's a pity that offence was felt by others from this channel. None of us are perfect. Bipolar can be very tough. Doing this channel is extremely brave. It ought to be applauded. It's your channel. Nobody's obligated to watch it. It's part of your journey & is done with good intention. Best wishes for your music, & for your husband & pets too

Just found your channel but I'm looking forward for your one year update ❤️

God bless you

Good luck to you with your music❣

Your videos have been a big help to me. We all need a break from time to time - enjoy your hiatus :)

self awarness is so hard when you are bipolar i do struggle with that too.

Hey man! Thank you so much for all your help. I was just diagnosed this year so your story stuck with me. I was undiagnosed for years too. I hope whatever you decide to do makes you happy and it's what YOU want to do. Hope to hear from you in a year! Much love! -Face tattoo dude.

I was diagnosed with Bipolar-1 Disorder with Psychotic Features in 2022. I'm not always aware I'm in an episode either and its unfortunate. I was diagnosed at 27. I love your videos and can't wait for you to be back!

I have bipolar 1 and enjoyed watching your videos. Hope u come back soon!

Which videos are you referring to? I don’t recall any offensive ones

So sad

Although I have not commented before I have been following you for about two years and have really appreciated your honesty and commitment in sharing your story. I looked forward to receiving notifications of new posts from you and am sorry to hear you are taking a break. I wish you the best of luck with your music and hope to see you sooner than expected.

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You are a beautiful person going to miss you sweetheart love your beautiful channel

I've not been offended by any of your content. I'll miss you Steph ❤

Hi Guys! Thank you so much for being here with me in life. I will be back I promise October 3, 2025 and I will share everything with you guys about how the past year was. Because I am trying to repair my relationship with my family some videos might go private or get deleted. Please read the description. I'll be responding to comments but on a monthly basis after today. I'll miss you guys! Thank you again for being my friend and all your support! 😍

I haven't found any of your recent videos offensive but you live around woke people so it makes sense they're offended by everything. don't take it personally. it's a mind virus. nevertheless, social media breaks are good for mental health, and hopefully you'll have a lot more energy to work on your passion!

Hey have you ever tried Amitriptiline( tricyclic antidepressant) for your sleep? I have insomnia due to Multiple Sclerosis and this med saved my life ❤

Thank you for sharing this ❤

Shes beautiful ❤

The good news is that we don't have to take the entire blame. There is an all knowing, all powerful, grand overseer of the universe who sometimes takes the form of Garfield - that from time to time - targets and f's with us. I think that is what happened here. It was that malevolent force I know only as: I am not Garfield.

Travel and sleep are huge factors.