"Chameleon" Blixemi ORIGINAL SONG.

[@Blixemi]

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[@GlitchingRobin]

Why do most of your songs make me cry xD

[@Dittowrong]

Can we use this song for a MAP?

[@HapiTheClown]

Why is it impossible for you to make bad music?

[@killersparky4044]

You posted let's go

[@TumbleBell]

Ok but Blix is this song about your experiences? Or was it just an idea?

[@jesseriker5786]

I don't even CARE that this isn't a Warriors song. *I LOVE IT*

[@jesseriker5786]

Omg yay you hearted my comment ty I love u so much

[@Mel12722]

SAME! AND YES! SOMEONE ELSE WHO LOVES WARRIORS!!

[@ItsAceXD]

EXACTLY OJDSFOIJDSFSD

[@mandychen8875]

Same here Another warriors fan!

[@jesseriker5786]

wow this grew BTW I'm on book one of A Vision of Shadows lol

[@bearstacean]

Everyone’s saying how great this is and it definitely is but Blix, are you ok? If not, me and all your fans have your back. To you and anyone who relates to this song, stay strong. You are so worth it. You’ve got this. Everything’s going to be ok even if it doesn’t feel like it now 💞

[@quillcow]

Gosh, I appreciate this comment so much. It really made me feel better since sometimes I feel like I need to change or some crap but I know I don’t need to. Thanks ^u^

[@talkingfez1265]

I hope you're better now. Amazing song, BTW.

[@sailthemarigold_7864]

HollyBearr We all have your back!

[@arcus_isweird2923]

Yeah Blix! We’ve got your back!

[@AlexCantThink895]

[@TennelleFlowers]

Oh. My. GOD. Blixemi, I'm crying. This is BEAUTIFUL. What a touching, personal song! You really just took a bat to my knees today, huh? Oh my god. 100/10 More please!

[@theheartrateofamouse]

TennelleFlowers Ikr and also keep up the good work

[@Rose-df2vq]

I agree with you Tennelle

[@ItsAceXD]

YESEXACTLY

[@kayumdoesstuff]

Tennelle I agree with you!

[@shrimperz]

Ok

[@wogglywiggler]

i’m only a minute in but i can already tell this is about trauma. I can’t tell you how much i relate to this

[@sophiaredwood5825]

Me too 😭💞 God bless you, friend. Hope you’re alright :))

[@tigerlowe5002]

Soon as I just saw the title, I was afraid cuz I knew exacly this is what it would be about. Welcome to the club. I swear I am not crying right now XS

[@lol_sxmstar]

umm..sorry if im offending anyone but what is trauma? sorry lmao im dumb I dont know a lot of things..I might know what it is but just dont know what its called tho..but ya wut is it?

[@jaedynjoke3481]

Banana Gamer Girl there’s a ton of information online but basically trauma is the mental effect of any distressing event

[@irisflower6041]

Banana Gamer Girl it’s when you go through something that sticks with you your whole life either a event or something someone did that every time brought up gives anxiety like abuse or something like that I’ve been through almost everything so I understand this song so well

[@rueinred3153]

I-I don't have a comment. For once in my entire life I am jokeless. I don't have a swipe or a jab. I can't see one flaw in this. For once, someone has left me breathless. For once, someone has left me bare and I have no shield. You do not know how much I relate to this. You do not know how much this describes my life. You don't know how much I've looked for something that is this. I will watch this over and over until the day I die. Blixemi, you may have changed my life. You don't know how many years I spent wishing that she would see me for who I am, and I know that she never will. But with this song, I think I may finally be able to let go. I truly was a chameleon, changing my thoughts to turn on my faithful friends and changing my attitude to use my negativity as a shield. I think there's a chameleon in all of us and, one by one, we'll let it free. Blixemi, you have let your chameleon free with this song. And you may have let mine go too. I can't put into words how much this song means to me. I'm sure you'll be okay. I'm sure we all will.

[@YasmineTheBaker]

You know, I’m fricking pissed off that you do t have more likes

[@rueinred3153]

@@YasmineTheBaker You don't need to be, but it touches me that you care so much!

[@Chai-the-Artist]

I love this so much, i had a lot of social anxiety too, so i guess i was a chameleon too

[@rueinred3153]

@@Chai-the-Artist we might all be.

[@Miocosplayyy]

I sent this to my manipulator to explain why the thing she loves isn’t what I actually am and she stopped being all manipulative because she didn’t realize she was doing it.

[@pinkbunnygirl43]

Thank you for sharing this. 💕

[@AlexaTheFox_Official]

Hi! Yes, this is very beautiful. ^^

[@Star-k9q8d]

Hai pink bunny girl! Big fan!

[@lintedgybun8995]

Oh hey

[@iluvdogs26]

Hi pinkbunnygirl! I am a big fan of you and just wanted to say hi!

[@jennifergannaway1871]

Hey pinky, love your vids!

[@starcycle4308]

This song hit me so hard and I don't know why. I can relate to it without even realizing it. So thank you, Blixemi, not only for this beautiful song, but also for this chance to learn.

[@autumn8920]

Omg, you got heart!

[@starcycle4308]

@@autumn8920 Hey Autumn. Thank you so much for the heart, Blixemi.

[@lol_sxmstar]

@@autumn8920 same

[@lol_sxmstar]

@Papa John Tube idk I have haeart

[@justsomeskinwalkerwithinte5663]

can someone explain what the song is about I don"t entirely understand it

[@stormwatcher6234]

I think this is relatable for so many people out there- whether in a mentally abusive households, a toxic relationship of any sort, this song brought tears to my eyes, good job Blixemi, the emotion in this song was so heavy, yet so beautiful.

[@scorchinganimationsstudios8450]

It's also relatable for people who grew up in okay houses and healthy relationships Specifically for me I thought I had to think like my parents without being told that so even though they weren't what I thought I adopted their beliefs Took me a while but I think I finally figured out who I am and I couldn't be happier

[@copyk4371]

Woah that hit deep and was so emotional yet so powerful at the same time. You did a great job with this, your voice, the lyrics, the music; everything about this song is beautiful Blix

[@stitch_playz9710]

As a person who has been forced to live in an environment where I need to change “My color” in order not to be hurt, physically or psychologically, I find this a touching and personal song. Thank you, Blixemi.

[@radical_rose9089]

This is amazing Blix. At this point all we can do is stay strong. This song really hit me. This song, lyrics, the melody are just beautiful! Look at you now! You making many people on the internet have a happy place! Your videos entertain us, and I'm glad that we have someone like you! ❤️

[@starcycle4308]

💖💖💖

[@theoldandforgottensky3206]

Defiantly not crying. This just hit a nerve with me. I didn’t expect this to be this relatable Edit: 300+ like.a? Y’all are the best

[@FishieFishFosh]

I’ve just got sand in my eyes... *yes there’s sand in the house ok*

[@ShadowsBeVibin]

Same....same

[@andiv_r]

Cookie Poofs yep same.

[@Rizzleajthesunskunk]

I know, right... its crazy

[@lol_sxmstar]

@@FishieFishFosh i went to the beach a few hours before sand everyone lol

[@ArsonistFriday]

So at first when I watched/listened to this, I was like 'oh the changing colours are a pretty cool reference to the chameleon', however as I listened more and more, I realised that the colours could have hidden meanings. It's pretty clear that this song is an abuser and the victim, so maybe the colours have more significance. Now, I'll be going from colour order in the video, and I'll only be using the negative traits of those colours because it's clear this song is quite dark. Yellow: the colour yellow, in it's negative form, is used to symbolise cowardice and deceit. Now, since the victim looks young when they are still considered 'yellow', we're going to assume that this is when the abuse started to affect them. The victim could be cowering because of the abuser, so they turn to using lies and deception to blend in, as told by the lyrics. Blue: the colour blue is quite obvious. depression, sadness, etc. I'm going to assume that the victim here went through a depression-like state because of hiding themselves and having to deal with the abuser. Blue can also mean emotionlessness and unfriendliness, so maybe this is the start of the victim trying to fight back against the abuse. Red: the colour red is also pretty obvious, as it symbolises anger, stress, and defiance. This is when the victim is finally done with the abuser and lashes out, as heard in how powerful their voice is at this part. They're defying against the abuse, wanting to get away from it and the abuser themselves, even if it means lashing out and yelling. Grey/Monochrome: the monochromatic colours used at the end are to symbolise detachment, coldness towards people, and also depression-like features. The victim finally got away from the abuser, however they now feel lost and alone. It's a sad reality, but some victims of abuse actually prefer to be with their abuser, because they genuinely feel alone once they're gone. The way the victim's voice grows quieter at the end clearly shows this, proving that they feel alone after the abuser left. Anyways, I hope this was able to bring insight into this amazing piece. Blix, you did an amazing job and the way I can hear the emotions in this song and the lyrics is beautiful.

[@lizardstea]

Even if I don't know the full story. The comparison to a Chameleon makes so much much sense and it's such a deep meaning. It feels so deep because I can relate to changing myself for others. Hope making and showing this song helped you Blixemi.

[@lorelaim1963]

Agreed.

[@oaksheart2222]

Blixemi: **posts** Fans: *i am speed*

[@starcycle4308]

Ikr XD

[@flippedscript2769]

Wow that was... wow. I can’t even begin to describe it. Every part of it was amazing, from the lyrics, to the vocals, to the background art. You really knocked it out of the park with this!

[@thenameiswater2921]

I admittedly avoided listening to this for ages because "chameleon" and the thumbnail just kind of told me this would be a heart wrencher, and Tennelle forwarned me. Listening today and just sob k thanks for the pain.

[@MossyHollows]

I can relate to this alot. Occasionally when I was really little my dad would hit me and he hit hard. I used to just hide in small spaces where he couldn't reach me or I could blend in. Maybe that's why I like small spaces now, because that's the only place I was safe. Then after my parents split up my dad neglected me because my sister was more important to him. I tried to do things that would make him proud of me but it never worked. Eventually my sister stopped coming over to my dad's house and they started emotionaly abusing me. The told me I was a disgrace and that I was embarrassing. It's gotten better some but I will never forget how much he hurt me.

[@Jax-zo8dl]

I'm so sorry. No one should feel scared in their home. No one.

[@lol_sxmstar]

oh my god..so sorry..

[@snail7333]

No one should have to go through that. I'm so sorry.

[@camelandbunny4772]

Oh man. I'm so sorry

[@uwumara_ghost_girluwu3662]

I’m so sorry that’s awful!!!! 1like for this comment and subscribe to them is one hug and one tear from us.

[@unioncrossed7384]

“through years of bandages hands, you’d think i’d break the pattern. but i’ve grown so used to you the cuts are home to me.” that hit me. i’m going to come back to this song in one year to see if i feel better. thank you, blixemi.

[@reindeer705]

It's been two, how're you feeling?

[@hushfur]

Come back, you doing okay?

[@ParkadeParade]

This- I have always had problems with being a follower and following toxic people, so this really hit me.

[@starcycle4308]

*Nods quietly*

[@YasmineTheBaker]

*Gives gentle virtual hug* same

[@raven_2911]

I can regonize myself too. And i forgot my colors. They are not gone but i need to know who I am.

[@tigerlowe5002]

For some reason I can't see my last comment. Or most of them at all. I just wanted to say how much this hits me and how much I relate to this. You are such a wonderful, inspiring, talented, creative person Blixemi. You don't have to be what others want you to be or see in you. Don't let anyway silence your voice or wash away your colours. You just have to be yourself and stay true. We love you as you are

[@Niss-so6ed]

That song is so beautiful Blixemi!! You did such an amazing job on it!

[@Iamfrozen131]

How did- how did your comment yesterday

[@Iamfrozen131]

Was this unlisted then republished now

[@KindledSpark]

@Keagan A It was unlisted and they were a patreon so they got to see it early

[@Iamfrozen131]

@@KindledSpark oh I forgot about patreon.

[@elizabeths.4796]

Oh my Squirrelflight. The lyrics are just outstanding and the storyline of the song is so interesting and heart breaking. I love this song and it made me feel so many things at the same time. Gorgeous job (as always) Blix!!! 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻❤️❤️❤️

[@wiselife3532]

i’m with you. also, ‘oh my squirrelflight’ 😭 i’ll use that forever now, thank you for blessing me dear human.

[@waltzing_rats]

Holy Firestar!

[@elizabeths.4796]

@@wiselife3532 nooo you cannot do thaaat, Oh My Squirrelflight is my thing ;)

[@jddickens2405]

@@elizabeths.4796 Squirrelflight's my fave character >:D

[@Mudpelt_GachaOfficialChannel]

I’m two years late but what ever Oh my HolyLeaf

[@grumpygato99]

I've been looking for a song like this, someone who sings of being a "chameleon" and forgetting yourself. I like the choice of chameleon as I always antagonized myself with what I called it (catfishing, lying, acting). just in the past year I've broken away from being a chameleon myself, and worked to figure out who I am. its nice to see that echoed in a song and know I'm not alone in feeling this way

[@Sillycatboi]

patreon time, This song is... Super Awesome..! Blixemi! you always make my heart warm, and sometimes Cry, you are.. so talented creator

[@DomiaAbrWyrda]

*I'll be complete* and *Chameleon* ? I hope you're alright,, Your songs help me really much. There's a tone, an atmosphere that I can't place into words, that just touches my heart the way no other songs can.

[@유머포켓]

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[@uwumara_ghost_girluwu3662]

Same

[@Sundappy]

Try to blend in, Stay inside their graces. Spent so long inside those walls. . Walls that trapped me, On that night collapsed me, Yet I was so used to it, That I called it home. I really am a chameleon aren't I.. Hope you'll love me after all hit me hard. I hope one day she'll love me after all too Haha. Though it hurt me, I csnt help but still want it?.

[@silver_fall_draws5884]

“You’re build like a glass to shatter. Your pieces sharp- ... but they’re mine to clean.” That hit me harder than my emotions ngl ;w;

[@Echoed-Mews]

I, I can't relate fully, I dont think, but I, I understand to it, I, Blixemi, are you good? This song hits hard, and it speaks volumes, I hope you feel better Blixemi, all of the fans and stuff are looking out for you!! So keep on keepin on!! Cuz you're epic, and anyone else who relates to this, or is sad, y'all epic!! Ohand also some of me reading way too deep into colours and lyrics! Or not digging deep enough 0-0 *Lets start with yellow & the lil kiddo, as thats how it starts,* I think yellow represents, complicit and naivete, also maybe some shame? Seeing the issue with them not the person, the kid is also sitting in a relatively closed off form, trying to protect them self and keep themselves safe, even if it means acting like they're fine, given yellow also represents joy and happiness, so they may have been acting like everything was all fine and good, and swell, despite the fact they knew it wasn't, orr *Ok on to blue & Like, teen(?)* So as we know blue represents sad/depressed, fear, nervousness The person is also drawn looking nervous, and looking down, "You're like a glass thats built to shatter. Your pieces sharp- ...but they're mine to clean." I feel that it means the person who made them sort of form an act and a facade (Lets call them Corren,) often lashes out, and lets say "shatters" in anger, leaving the child to clean up the after math, "But I've grown so used to you, the cuts are home to me." makes me think that the child grew more complicit, just accepting this was happening, and changing themselves, to try and be more liked, to avoid "this", "My colours bleed" makes me think colours represent *them*, and who the child is as a person is slowly bleeding into their fake "colours", the new fake colours slowly *becoming* them, "Hope you'll love me after all." Makes me think Corren may be like a parent, guardian or potentially sibling, (I would have suggested potentially a lover, but I dont like the idea of an adult and a child, presuming that Corren was an adult when they seemed to be a young child) I'll be presuming a guardian of sorts due to the fact they live with them, and its more common for guardians to live with their kids than siblings to live with their siblings, I think anyways, Corren probably would say: "I hate you" a lot, or remarks like "I wish I never had you" Is what I get from that, "I’m easy, please believe me I won’t give you one reason. To see beyond my camouflage as your chameleon." The camouflage is their act, they're slowly getting more and more into this new person, *OK!! Finally onto Red, ill call this late teen/adult phase, sorry blue was a lot to unpack,* Red usually means anger, rage, in my books anyways, "Built by a lifetime never knowing where I stand I’ve changed so much of me keep your peace I’ve forgotten who I am." The person who they are now, who was "Built by a lifetime never knowing where I stand", they aren't *THEM* anymore, they're a construct, an "actor" of a never ending act, and they play the "I’m easy. I’m obedient," Easy, obedient, and good child who cleans up after Correns "shatters" They've changed basically so much of them, for so long, they have no clue who they are anymore, (which is the part I probably relate to the most), *Grey now I guess!* "My colour has faded too." A short line, that hits hard, yet again, colour probably refers to their personality, who *they* are, and without Corren, they're left alone, with "themself", and without the cameras blaring, watching their every move, theres no reason to act anymore, but the act went on, for so long, they don't know where the act starts, and they begin, where their colours are and the camouflage lays, the colours all spilled together to create a grey hue, This bit where it goes through Yellow, Blue and Red, im going to try analyse, Yellow: "Try to blend in," represents they first tried to hide, be unnoticed Blue: "Stay inside their graces." I feel represents sucking up, becoming someone else so they'd be loved and praised, Red (and the others too, flipping through the three colours): "Spent so long inside those walls!" I feel that represents, the anger pent up from over the years, the suffocation felt, they spent so long trying to blend in, changing themselves that: "My colours bleed As I make believe It's kept me safe and warm so long!" Their colours bled too much into their act and now, they cant find the colors of before, the colours are repeatedly shifting in this bit as I feel they rapidly try to find *them* in the mess of colours, but they cant find who they we're before. "I'm scared to show-! Or let people know-... Can't give them one reason To see beyond my camouflage... as their chameleon" If im completely transparent, I have no clue what this means fully, it could mean a plethora, but imma only explore one as its almost 5am for me, Ok!! "I'm scared to show-!" "Or let people know-..." Their worried, and fearful to tell people what happened with Corren,, "Can't give them one reason To see beyond my camouflage as their chameleon" Due to their complicit nature/act they developed from their home life, they may have gained some "toxic" relationships(??) Because they're now someone elses chameleon, They feel unable to show people the real them because, they probably dislike who "them" is, AnYwaYS iTs 5Am nOw Thanks for reading!!! Sorry if its worse at the end, I always am terrible at closing things off, anyways the colour thing, could just be because they're the three primary colours, sorry sorry bye!

[@bonniemiller4371]

Wow you could make a 20 minute video out of this!

[@Omnomnomnom65]

As a person who can relate to the song completely, I can say, for the most part, you're correct! Yellow, i'd say in my experience, is fear, and not fully understanding why "Corren" yells and hates why they do. Blue means depressed and emotional (or the opposite, not emotional art all) They are trying to figure out what they did wrong, and what they did to deserve it. That phase is very sad for most people. This stage is when I had my "emo phase". Red does mean anger, rage, when they finally piece together what is actually happening. When the person singing it realizes what's happening, (In my case, my parents got divorced and my mom remarried and my dad got jealous, so he made me travel alone across the country and I had to act like I loved visiting for years when I hated it and I really just wanted to cry :,) ), they are scared to show their real emotions to "Corren", so they usually put their emotions off on other people, (Also known as bullying). I am very embarrassed to admit, but I was a bully for about a semester. You were kind of wrong with grey, though. Instead of all the colors mixed together, there are no colors at all. they all disappear. You don't know what you feel. You just feel numb. Nothing. And most of all, you feel ALONE. This is when you might need help from a friend, or therapist. Now, you said you were confused about the lyrics "I'm scared to show-! Or let people know-... Can't give them one reason To see beyond my camouflage... as their chameleon" It means the person or singer is scared to tell Coren, or let people see, their true feelings. Thats-Thats all it really means. Throughout the entire song, thats what it means.

[@Doofing_Cookies]

I didn’t know I was reading textbooks today!

[@qatno.]

You can tell, this wasn't a half-way effort. It was an escape. When you realize how much was put into this song and how much was stabbed within us all, this really is her greatest. I just want to make sure that she knows, more than anything else, we understand. We can help. And you can be you. You have no need to make yourself so you can fit their needs. You are a chameleon, you can blend in or stand out, and be any color of the rainbow that you want to be. None of us are alone. If we are all breaking for somebody else, that isn't good. You need to tell somebody. Don't be afraid. Be bold, and stay you.

[@lol_sxmstar]

@Papa John Tube yup..

[@aspenpawarts9333]

Darn this is amazing. My brain can’t stop thinking of Warriors with this lol

[@cookieglitz]

ikr same lol

[@aspenpawarts9333]

Maybe BlueStar? I kinda can see that.

[@Kami_Guns]

I mean I'm thinking of squirrelflight rn

[@aspenpawarts9333]

brxken Actually I can kind of see TallStar or some cats from windclan in that era, especially because of the parts in the beginning.

[@alex-zd2kw]

brxken i mean yeah

[@joannestevens1680]

you good blixemi? this song really makes a big impact on me, same with ill be complete. Your fans have your back, be yourself

[@Eevee_Hearts_2000]

This song carries so much weight and passion. I remember the first time I heard it when it first was released, I cried. By the third verse I was sobbing, and replayed it several times. Each time was a tear jerker, and it became my favorite Blixemi song, and one of my favorite songs ever. The colors give so much meaning - especially when the abuser also goes through the colors. Both victim and abuser go through yellow, blue, and red, but only the victim goes into gray, and then at the very end a brownish gray. I think that's important; it represents a cycle of abuse, and how the final victim breaks free from this cycle, never to be an abuser to anyone else. In my opinion, the little chameleon isn't just an art style choice to reflect the song; it's an important part of the story. The chameleon is the tiny bit of the victim, the part of them that wants to be free from this suffering. At yellow, our victim looks about 8 years old. They're small and fragile, but heavily dependant on the abuser, and can't think of ever leaving them, hence why the chameleon, their inner desire to be free, isn't interacting with them. It's there, and waiting to be acknowledged, but isn't actively engaging with the victim. Instead it sits beside them, waiting for them to realize it's there, if only they'll realize it. While the abuser is yellow, they're rationalizing that this is okay. They were once a victim to this to, and they're telling themselves their okay, which means their victim will also be okay. The little victim, we'll call them Z, since they're the end of the abuse cycle, is yellow, not only to reflect the abuser, but because in early stages of abuse, the victim is told that it's their fault. They did something to deserve this. This deceit and deception causes the victim to believe this and thus not try to escape the abuse. Z is yellow because they've deceived themselves into believing that this is okay. That they've done something to deserve this, and don't deserve to escape; which also ties into the chameleon being distant. They're purposely ignoring the little voice inside that telling them it's not okay for this to happen. Analyzing Z's clothing, they look like pajamas, which may mean the abuse is worse at night. Z's sleeves are also short, which means the physical abuse has yet to occur. At least not on Z's arms, as we see no bruises. The early form of abuse tends to be verbal and emotional abuse in young children, which is what Z looks to be. "Like the smoke foretells the fire," may elude to the abuser having a smoking issue, involving cigarettes and/or drugs. Z's emotional shutdown begins in this stage. Z begins to shove down all their desires, wants, and feelings, so that the abuser will like them. The next stage is blue. Here Z looks to be about 14. The chameleon is now interacting with Z, as they've finally embraced that this isn't okay, however they don't know how to voice this. The emotional abuse from the past several years has led them to believe it's all their fault, and so even they Z recognizes this isn't healthy, they've yet to truly embrace that they need to escape this mess. Z is nervous as they look down at the chameleon, as seen by how they twiddle with their hands. The abuser is blue here to resemble that putting Z through the same abuse they went through only hurts them. Many abusers who come from a cycle of abuse suffer PTSD and depression, and the abuser takes it out on their victim. Z's sleeves get longer here, up to their elbows, and they're also in casual wear, which is indicative that physical abuse has begun and happens during the day. Z feels responsible for this, as the abuser is suffering as well. Z feels as though they have to take care of the abuser, who is fragile and sharp, and suffering because of them. The comparison to a glass bottle may also elude to a drinking problem. It's clear in Z's second blue verse that the physical abuse is heavy. They know they should stop the pattern, they know they shouldn't let this continue, but they still hold themselves accountable, and feel indebted to the abuser since they raised them. Without the abuser, Z doesn't know where they'd be, and they've long since accepted this is how the abuser communicates, and that even if it's not okay, they'll be fine. Z only wants to be loved, and believes if they're good enough, the abuser will love them. In the next stage, Z looks to be 18. Now a legal adult, Z fully embraces the chameleon, the little piece that's always been telling them this isn't okay. Z now knows they have to break free, and that this is the right thing to do. Z's sleeves are long, indicating that over the years the physical abuse has gotten severely worse. Z is red to indicate defiance, and a willingness and passionate desire to change. The abuser is red because they're angry. Z is the first person to break the chain of abuse, and so the abuser doesn't know how to handle this. All these years, Z has never spoken back, but now Z refuses to back down, and the abuser is flabbergasted. Z doesn't recognize who they are anymore, but still, they refuse to be a part of this any longer. Finally, Z leaves. Z is free and no longer bound to the abuser. But...now Z doesn't know what to do. Z is lost and struggling, and debates going back to the abuser, but instead the little voice inside them rings louder and truer than ever. Z can never go back there ever again. Gray represents the small in-between phase where Z doesn't know what to do anymore, but it quickly shifts into brownish gray. Her true color. Now, the chameleon is closer than ever, consoling and guiding her. Z suffers trauma, and doesn't know where to go from here. Their entire life revolved around the abuser, but now they're alone. Z is afraid, and afraid to trust and be themselves. But with their inner voice guiding them, the part that only ever wanted to be free, Z knows someday, somehow, they'll be okay. They've broken free from the mold, from that neverending cycle, and now it's up to them to decide their life.

[@WarriorLionstripe]

My goodness. This song...it’s just...This is exactly how I am like at school. Always trying to change myself so that my friends can still hang out and talk to me. To change myself so that I can feel like I finally belong...To finally have friends. And then I hide who I really am from other people, but then they change again, and then I change with them so that they and I can still be friends. It becomes an endless cycle of wanting to be accepted by others that I forget that it’s okay to be myself. But then I find myself forgetting again... Only people I consider close know who I truly am...just some annoying high school kid that wants to be accepted.

[@barbararice7625]

I think that irl you would be a great friend if people would just be more open-minded towards people. For the most part, I'm a lone wolf but there are those people that I hold close. I want to make a little safe haven for outcasts like me, but I'm not really sure how. :/

[@WarriorLionstripe]

Barbara Rice I was once an outcast. I’m seemingly returning to that point now that I am in High School ;-;

[@WarriorLionstripe]

@@olivetmeadows3773 Agreed. I have gotten a bit better as a Tenth Grader, but I am still trying to find that balance.

[@the10nlykirito84]

After over 3 years of this being in my playlist i think i can say; I'm not crying, You're crying!

[@colorfulchameleon9891]

Blix, are you okay? This song has so much passion I can tell it's not just a made-up story. Who hurt you, how, and where can I find them to make them suff- I mean, to talk it out with them.

[@depressoespresso8958]

woah woah woah who in starclan is disliking this

[@sketchycatdash]

The Dark forest of corse!

[@alex-zd2kw]

Isabelle Benton Facttsss

[@lol_sxmstar]

youtube is drunk no one disliked it..god wouldnt allow it

[@moonbeam_2578]

*Tigerstar*

[@starcycle4308]

Ashfur

[@Kittieeepaw]

Wait why do allthe comments say one hour and one day ago? I just got this notification

[@rioisnotokay-ipromise-6115]

Patreons get it earlier!

[@staygroovypal]

Kitteee UwU patreons and all , they get to see the song a day earlier than others

[@thelastbraincell2838]

Pov: you come back to this song 2 years later only to find out you relate to it on a PERSONAL level now 😅

[@dawnmatesandcrew6867]

I can’t describe how much I love this Good job blixi

[@silverpheonix8989]

The speed with which i clicked on the notification when I saw “Original Song” was actually stupid. It’s a really good song though, good job!

[@hutaotao3266]

ahh you have no idea how much I relate to this song, I have a covert narcissist mom, and it's really hard. I've gone through similar stages of my life like the ones you've presented. I hope that everything is ok and know that I love your content

[@HapiTheClown]

I cant find anything wrong with this song. It's just great

[@CottonCor]

oH mY gOd i LoVe tHiS sO mUcH I’ve never really had to deal with this but even just listening to this song makes me sad

[@CheezItCheetos]

I can't even describe how beautiful this is and how much I relate

[@JB_Land]

I’m NoT cRyInG yOuR cRyInG This song was so touching and amazing. I love it

[@MilkTeaKay]

Already watched it so many times but oh boy did I click fast

[@dalmationgamer1234]

sameeee

[@charlie.chicken.crust.]

Same!

[@kosho3829]

Okay, little off-topic, but here are some song ideas: Flametail - A Flame Stuck In Ice (Or something like that) Onestar - The Darkness That Dragged Me (Again, something along those lines) Clearsky - I'll See You In The Sky Firestar/heart - The Fire In Me Bumblestripe - The Dove Flew Away Tigerstar - My Hollow Heart Leafstar- Lost And Found Blossomfall - A Mother Of Betrayal Tree - The Ghosts I See Brightheart/paw - What Am I Not Seeing? (Flametail's is about his mistake of falling into the ice.) (Onestar's is about his relationship with Darktail and his mate) (Clear skies is about how upset he is about Bright stream's death.) (Firestar/hearts is about his adventures when he was younger.) (Bumblestripe's is about his obsession with Dovewing.) (Tigerstar's is about his plans about destroying the Clans.) (Leafstar's is about her clan finding their way back with the others.) (Blossomfall's is about how mad she is with Millie.) (Tree's is about his power of being able to see ghosts.) (Brightheart/paws is about how she thinks of her face.) I hope you are doing okay! If you need support, I'm happy to help! I also hope you like my suggestions! It was a beautiful song and it made me cry.

[@burriedberries2100]

This song has a truly deep meaning that I'm sure relates to a lot of people, even to me in a way. This is honestly one of your greatest works and it astonishes me how far you've grown, and just know that every single one of your fans is so proud of you Blixemi

[@splattoons183]

This is so deep, yet so beautiful. Amazing job blixemi

[@dragoon2529]

Jeez those invisible ninjas and their invisible onions, they really went ham this time. In all seriousness, be yourself, I was trapped in a place where I couldn’t express myself without judgement, it was horrible. Just be yourself

[@giraffeboy2649]

And their invisible knives

[@SPARKALSTHECAT]

Tbh i didnt cry, but felt extremely sad :((

[@dr.fattyzaddy5590]

I cried during this song im definitly subscribing. your voice is a gift

[@thepagansystem]

Normally, I don't comment on videos but this song touched at such a deep level that I just had to. The amount of feeling and pain in this song is something that resonates with me on a deeply personal level. Growing up in an abusive household and family drastically changes a person, and it leaves a permanent mark. I'm incredibly thankful that I was able to get out of the abusive situations I've been in in my life, ans doubly thankful for the people I now have who I know love and cherish me. Abuse can take a long time to heal from--and its effects never trully go away, but it does get better if you can take yourself out of that situation. Thank you so much for posting this song Blixemi. I hope you've gotten to a better point in your life now. 💕💕

[@valievines2455]

Blix, this was an AMAZING song, and I really love it! It also worried me, though, and I just want to let you know that we are all here for you, ok? We all love you and you don’t need to change or fake who you are for us because we will love you no matter who you are :3 If you ever need help, all of us, your subscribers, viewers, patreons, friends, and family, will be there to support you. No matter what you’re going through or who you are. We love you Blix, and I hope you know that

[@alaskanoodle6457]

I just found out that Blixemi got her songs on Spotify! Now I can listen to all of them!!! Thank you soooo much Blix! I love all the songs you make! ❤️❤️❤️

[@jarofflowers8305]

Why is this me lol. I-im not crying, UR CRYING! it just hit an, um, a nerve. Yeah, it hit a nerve

[@alex-zd2kw]

yes i am crying

[@jadebabydoll23]

i don't cry

[@teffley2766]

I keep coming back to this song because I love the instrumentals but every time I do it makes me sad I relate to this far more than I should

[@iluvdogs26]

Blixemi, I love this song, but are you okay? If you need help and support know all your fans and viewers have your back!

[@Jax-zo8dl]

Always here

[@nemesism]

So true!

[@HyacinthTheArtist]

Same.

[@LinkyMew]

I was only a minute in and I could already tell this was something dark. Are you okay?

[@AstrokeAndIchor]

As I always say, "every-song has a meaning". Blixemi, are you okay? If not I can understand. Ily continue to mak GREAT music!

[@eggsmeister]

"Built by a lifetime never knowing where I stand. I've changed so much of me to keep your peace, I've forgotten who I am." Oh my dayssss, you just expressed my mental wounds better than I ever could. Thanks for making this Blixemi, this was really moving for me.

[@Cheeto.1098]

"Through years of bandaged hands, you'd think id break the pattern. But I've grown so used to you, the cuts are home to me." These words are so relatable.

[@rindoodles5956]

OMG Blixemi! If you need a hug, we're all here for you! Loved this song!

[@willowfrostthegreat3710]

I needed this tonight thanks blixemi I always have to act in a pleasing way to my dad or he will explode Over time you learn wanting to cry and not being able to is worse than actually crying Blixemi thank you so much for writing these great songs and making my life easier with your amazing music.

[@DericNeal]

Blixemi I don’t know what your going through but this song really hit my heart. We are here for you and we will always be there for you. After listening to this song I’m not lying when I say I cried. You are like a close friend to me and it hurts my heart to see you in pain. 💝💖

[@AddietheCat_696]

I GOT THE NOTIFICATION AND SCREAMED

[@wizardgod4325]

Lol your name is addy the cat that's my friends cats name lol

[@depressedvillainobsession2771]

Hey Blixemi, just wanted to tell you that you are wonderful and don’t need to change for anyone. Your songs really hit home sometimes and impacted my sister and I.

[@katestainton5456]

In school, I kept changing who I was to please people but I had some friends but I felt more alone than ever this song helped show me that I can't keep changing I need to be me. Thanks for empowering me to not change myself but to stand up and fight not just please others. You hit us all hard today blix. Thank you for showing some vulnerability by not only posting this song but singing it too. We love you and your fans are always here for you.

[@bbokari2429]

"Hope you look past all my flaws" That right there hit close to home. I have VERY bad social anxiety and this is what I think every time I leave my home. Thank you, Blixemi, for making this song!!

[@scrimbos]

BLIX!!! AHHHH I LOVE YOUR SONGS SO MUCH AND THIS ONE IS SO BEAUTIFUL

[@memehivefive7145]

I see if you make another song and this is just.... You've upped your game I can tell, you made such good songs and now this song is just truly amazing.

[@anemocrow2080]

Everything about this is amazing. The lyrics, the vocals, the emotions, the art. Absolutely stunning.

[@moonblossom6540]

Blixemi, you are one of those few you tubers who bring tears to my eyes while making my laugh and smile at the same time. Keep up your incredible work, and we all believe in you. I love you Blixemi, and all your fans have your back.

[@charlie.chicken.crust.]

Before I start let me just say, this song is amazing! You are a very talented person but with that said, Are you okay? After listening to this song a few times I started to feel as though something wasn't right. And after reading the comments I have been starting to worry. We are all here for you and no matter what happened we will support you and help you get through what ever this is. You are my idol and it hurts me to see you in pain. We are all here for you Blix!

[@smolcaleb]

this is an underrated gem

[@boyalert2798]

Dammit why does this have to be so accurate to my life… my mom burned in her opinions of me into my head and I can’t get them out now that I’m free. She literally told me to stop being myself because it made me ugly and wrong. I also felt faded. But find yourself a support system and you might find your colors again. As Tattletail would say: “no more mama”

[@Omnomnomnom65]

This is so relatable. I try to let myself be the side character and support all my friends, and I somehow forget about myself. I've hid my anxiety from everyone for so long, I guess I put my colors to help them for so long. I didn't realize what my true colors were. This is my new favorite song, and the most relatable song. And my Parents both hurt me by being so strict, I only act good and happy because I'm scared of what they'll do If I tell them. Sorry for boring anyone with my story! Thank you, Blix, once again!

[@haworthea_7704]

I’m not crying... It’s just a stupid pieces of dirt that got into both of my eyes... And the dirt got into the same place in each eye... And it is effecting them both the same exact way... Hehe..... But seriously tho Blix, we all will catch you if you fall, if you are feeling down. Beautiful song girl, keep going.

[@tigerlowe5002]

Oh my goodness ! That was so amazing and so deep and hits me on so many emotional levels. This song is exactly about what I thought it would be about (I'm getting some serious I'll Be Complete flashbacks) I love all your songs and it's great to hear some more personal pieces. Idk what happened but I can relate so much (I know I say all the time) I always tried to find out who I am (I still dont know it) and be myself and go my own way but always felt and still feel like everyone hates and only critisizes me (for every little, obvious thing I know myself and heard 1000 times but can't control or is just who I am) I can't fight it anymore and am so tired of trying to Prove It (reference entirely intended) that there's more to me than All That They See (ok I stop Xp) in me. So now that I am officially an adult, I've also become a Chameleon, nothing more but a reflection, a shadow of my former self. I feel like I betrayed and threw everything away, I used to be and fight and stand for, just to fit into that image and avoid more trouble. But at a high price, that has caused only more trouble for me. May I also say that the 2nd Blixemi totally reminds me of Frozen's Anna because of the hair ? (Though such songs always remind me more of Elsa) But enough about me. Blixemi, you are such a great, talented, creative, inspiring person. You don't have to fit in and be everything everyone else wants you to be or see you as. You just have to be yourself and stay true. Don't let anyone ever silence that voice inside you. Nor wash away your colours. I also gotta admit, I want to write my own sings since...before I even found your channel in...2015 ? O.O But I know nothing about music and still feel so insecure. But you are one of the reasons and inspirations that helps me keep my dream alife. And I'm rambling about myself again. I just wanna let you know Blix, you are a great person and we love you just the way you are

[@AnxiousRealism]

Oh god, this was *DEEP*. This was so good! I love it!

[@phenioxflameanimations6433]

This song is so cool! I write my own songs but I can’t do music.

[@spinelisbestgem1353]

Pheniox Flame same, i wrote a song but it’s not good

[@arrow2666]

Pheniox Flame I’m the opposite- can’t write a song but can do music

[@lol_sxmstar]

I made 2 songs, but theyre really bad..I dont even understand them and they stink. I dont even know what the first one was about, and the second was about my dog favoriting my dad and not opening his eyes to realize that there are more people who care about him than my dad :/ he only notices my dad..I deleted the doc tho so I cannot share it :c sorry

[@lol_sxmstar]

WAIT I DIDNT HOLD ON Gotta Let Things Go You chew on your bone All day Just waiting for him to come home And when he does Your ready for him You greet him you follow him wherever he goes You love him Until he leaves you again I know you love him I know you want him I know you need him But sometimes the people you love aren't always Home Open your eyes Wake up and smell the coffee Look around you Cause he isn't the only one that loves you Try to actually pay attention To the other people that love you But all you do Is ignore them I know you love him I know you want him I know you need him But sometimes You have to let things go When he's outside You whine and you cry Because you want him near you But he can't always be with you He got other things to do So you gotta learn to Let things go I know you want him I know you need him I know you love him But you have to let things go Ohhh Have to let things go Go You gotta let it go (2 times) Open your eyes Wake up and smell the coffee Look around you Cause he isn't the only one that loves you Try to actually pay attention To the other people that love you But all you do Is ignore them But all you have to do All you gotta learn Is pretty simple All you gotta do Is to let it go Let things go

[@lol_sxmstar]

I found out that I also made a warrior cats song..instead of dont stop believe in its We are forest cats I’m in Thunderclan. Over there is a Riverclan. I can spot a Windclan. And over the Thunderpath is Shadowclan. We live in the forest All protected by Starclan This life never stops It goes on and on and on and on Cats, waiting Just to catch a mouse They do this everyday All clans, hunting just to survive They’re prey, hiding somewhere in the night! Working hard to get my prey Everybody wants some prey But since its leaf-bare It’s so hard Some clans will win; Some clans will loose Some were born by a twoleg nest Oh, the fights never end They go on and on and on and on Cats, waiting Just to hunt a mouse They do this everyday They’re prey, hiding somewhere in the night! We are forest cats We team up sometimes But thats only in the Darkest Hours We are forest cats We fight for life We are forest cats When we die we go to Starclan Thunderclan,Riverclan Windclan,Shadowclan Skyclan, Rogue or Kittypet We live in the forest! ik its odd lmao

[@mayaortiz1982]

Hi Blix, this song is amazing! It hit me with the feels. Don’t worry, Blix. Us fans are here for you. Love you, you’re amazing

[@Gendernt-Mc-Silly]

I may or may not have sobbed the first time I listened to this

[@Clover_tongue]

Owwww too relatable!!!!!! As a person from a sub par family situation, this strikes a chord. Brilliant song blix!! Totally not sobbing now.

[@psychobsessed_]

A new Blixemi song! I’m only like 30 seconds in and I can feel the urge to like rushing in

[@stormberry9948]

Oh wow, Blix. This song really hit me in the chest. The changing background, the song, the melody, this is amazing. I don't care that this isn't warrior cat based, this is so cool. Keep up the great work.

[@rainebrackettexe]

AHHHH THIS IS AMAZING BLIX!!

[@andiv_r]

We’re you trying to punch my heart? because if so... *it worked.* **insert sobbing noises**

[@BumbleTus]

oh Bliximi. This immediately hit home for me. Beautiful work, as always, there's so much emotion behind this.

[@dinogamer4046]

This is so beautiful Blixemi!

[@sillygoose986]

oh. this hits hard. to blixemi: it's been a while since ive watched your videos. im not a part of the fandom anymore. but this song hits so hard, hits close to home. im not a warrior anymore, but i pray to starclan that you're alright, or will get there soon. love you.

[@kittyclearsight3564]

This is such a good song, it really hit me in my heart because of how relatable it is to me. Everyone else who relates, stay strong and hang in there. You got this

[@gamervee6125]

I haven't looked at your channel in a while, I didn't even know about this until today- Thank you for this. For sharing this with us. It struck me harder than I thought it would, heh. Hopefully one day we can all learn to outgrow our camouflage, and show our true colors again. Until then, at least we have each other to help us through. 💚

[@lorelaim1963]

Art thou cutting the onions?

[@thatbendyfan]

This song is so heartfelt, and really relatable to me. I always have these feeling bottled up, and I pretend they're not there, and I put on a fake smile every day to keep people content, and see me as a normal person, and I hide how I feel, so it really helps to know there are people out there feeling the same way. Sorry this is so long! Have a great day!

[@wolfiegirl83]

Wow.. I can't even begin to describe how much this hits. And as someone who's changed to make others happy for so long..as someone who no longer feels many emotions from hiding them for so long..as someone who hides behind a mask everyday, even around their own family.. This hit home much harder than I expected. And I'm sure lots of people out there can relate.

[@tulipallium]

I don't know if I said it before, but I have a love-hate relationship with this song. The only part I hate about it, is how much I GET it. How much I understand, and how much I KNOW. I hate singing along in pain knowing exactly how it feels. But, I love it because it's just SO good and the emotion, the melody, the SINGING!! UGH! I love it so much!

[@Doofing_Cookies]

I can see it! I’m a dude but I get it, cause I’ve experienced it more than once… Quick edit, not in the changing personalities aspect, but similar

[@xmn_flowerx9577]

Bro I literally have the chills❣ This song is something I can relate to on a personal level. Also, I am sending good vibes your way. You cannot stop them. They are coming.💝

[@diagnosiis]

Well, apparently haters got their notifications on, cause there is already a dislike

[@alex-zd2kw]

they heard the song and they were too impressed and taken back from all the talent and accidentally pressed the wrong button

[@iluvdogs26]

Haters gonna hate. I dont know why anyone would dislike this

[@nostalgiccookieinmagiastar128]

This is the people pleaser anthem. Great job blixemi.