BULLYING: My Story of Survival P4

[@streamofawareness]

Wish I would've been in that locker room with you. I would've asked those lovely fellows, "Who brought Vienna sausages to this sausage party?" (Vienna sausages are tiny! XD) Okay, serious now, I cried when you said you have that suicidal feeling every day. I get it sometimes when I feel bad or make a mistake that affects other people, though the thoughts have no intention of being followed through. It does help to remember why we held on for so long, and sometimes I think God meant for us to heal each other.

[@DonnyWinter]

streamofawareness You are a jewel.

[@iancowden8120]

You are incredibly strong and amazing. No one deserves to be treated like garbage. Thank you for sharing your story.

[@DonnyWinter]

Ian Cowden Thank you so much for the comment, I appreciate it. :)

[@blueravenfire]

yeah, so very true self-bullying can be just as bad as bulling itself because the words of the bullies still haunt you even though are no longer around. i still suffer with self-bullying to a degree because of all the years i got bullied. thankfully cyndi was there when you needed her and stop you from committing suicide and that you are here today to tell your story.:)

[@DonnyWinter]

***** *super hugs* :) I appreciate you

[@blueravenfire]

***** thanks you are welcome :)

[@louiswinter3489]

I love you, Dad

[@DonnyWinter]

Louis Winter Love you too!

[@johnthonwood8746]

thank you for posting your experiences. I know it was hard for you trust me im too scared to even post videos of me on the internet. But im glad you did because ive really looked up to you after that day you commented on one of my facebook post when you uplifted me after i had a horrible day. Now watching this makes me respect you even more knowing that you powered through that and grew so much as a person. Your a big inspiration for me and one of greatest people i've never met.

[@TizianaPinessi]

First of all, it is very brave of you to talk about your deepest feelings so openly. Thank you for sharing your experience. I think this helps people be more aware that other people have feelings too. It is easy to forget that other people's feelings can be hurt. Easily sometimes. I have subscribed only yesterday to your channel and would like to know more about you. How old are you? What's your occupation? What are your dreams for your future? If you made a video like this, in order to let me(and everybody else) know you better, I would be very glad to watch it. Do you know why I instantly liked you? Because you have this state of mind, attitude, I don't know how to call it.. You always want to be kind to others, no matter what they do. This is just wonderful. About those suicidal thoughts, it hurts me inside to see your struggle. I do not even know you, but it is clear to me that you are worth and deserve every bit of love that you get, because you are a wonderful person.

[@tginactive]

I'm so glad Cyndi came along and saved you, because now, I have you as one of my best friends. I don't know what I would do without you.

[@DonnyWinter]

Tiffany Gray Music I love you so much.

[@SahraRau]

You are so loved and I am happy that you've held on and are still here to be the amazing person that you are. I don't know what I would do without you!~

[@DonnyWinter]

Sahra Rau I don't know what I would do without you either. I love you

[@rar3kainrandomness]

You poem sounds like my song lyrics...I realize after hearing your poem, that I still feel this way. I wrote so many suicide notes from middle school up. When I was 11 I started playing guitar, and when I was 12 I started writing music. I've put of few on my channel. Like, you said it never goes away, once you have that thought. I'm 33 years old. I've tried to kill myself a few times. Once I took a bunch of pills, but ended up throwing up. Another time I ran a hose from the cars exhaust into the window.....I sat in that car for 30 minutes or so, but nothing happened. I've tried to suffocate myself, taping plastics bags over my head. I'm still here for some fucked up reason though. I'm 33 and it never really gets any easier for me. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder when I was in my early 20's. I listen to your stories and I'm right there with you, because I have been through so many of the same things. It's different for "girls" though....they destroy you emotionally instead of physically. I'm a transguy and I also have this weird feeling like "i wasn't even bullied correctly" like, according to my real gender. I would have taken a punch or a black eye any day instead of the emotional abuse. I honestly can not shake it. I had someone message me on facebook, apologizing for the way they treated me in school. I forgave them immediately like "oh, yeah, its cool...i'm over it" but im not, i never will be I'm fucking ruined as a person.

[@DonnyWinter]

+rar3kainrandomness That abuse, the physical and emotional, stays with you over time. What we do as survivors is find ways to survive every day. *hug*

[@rar3kainrandomness]

thank you (((((hugs)))))

[@StevePigChannelforAndroidFone]

***** , it's an honor to know you & a blessing that you fought, to stay alive. Never give up, its not an option.

[@DonnyWinter]

***** Love you too!

[@Neku628]

Donny, do you plan on doing part five? You are really brave for sharing your experiences.

[@DonnyWinter]

Hellbound Iscariot I plan on doing three more videos about this subject. :)

[@Neku628]

***** Cool, I can't wait to see it. I need to stop watching some documentaries that drive me up the wall. It's horrible what people can do to each other.

[@anmuloced8673]

Ogemaw was hell.