Nonbinary Transition: How I Decided I Want Top Surgery

[@catsinconverse6229]

This video is so important. I relate to everything you say. Getting a binder was huge for me and the decision to get top surgery. My self-esteem soars when I wear it. I can't imagine how good I will feel when I finally have top surgery.

[@mallorysmith1820]

I agree with you completely. There is no mold for nonbinary people or social expectations which makes things somewhat confusing.

[@ededdleman1115]

Celeste Fellatio

[@calebkelly7813]

im so young but i really want top surgery. And I have no idea how to talk about my future in transitioning with my mom

[@amirbond7618]

Michael Mercury I agree I know that I for sure want top surgery and facial hair but I don’t know if I want to completely transition and use hormones

[@somethingelse5545]

There was this one part of the video that really hit a nerve with me. When you said that growing a chest was traumatic for you. I was like wow I feel the same way. Like I didn't fit in with anyone and was bullied for not fitting the box I should have. But yeah I'm glad you made this video it gave a lot of insight. Have a great night ✌🏼

[@Rainheart95]

This helps a lot, as someone who's experiencing a lot of the same things you're talking about. I've been really confused about if I was feeling dysphoria throughout my life, and have been recently trying to figure out my gender identity. I live in a place where I wasn't exposed to this growing up and I'm starting to realize I truly felt and still feel things just as you've explained. The signs were there but I just didn't know what it was, and while I'm still trying to figure myself out, this video really helped. Thanks 😊

[@ohitsthem7601]

Im genderfluid and i just had top surgery 3 days ago. Im so grateful you shared your experience, I feel less alone

[@CelesteM]

Congrats on your surgery! I hope your recovery is going well!

[@ohitsthem7601]

@@CelesteM thank you!!

[@neoncatsss]

thank you for this video! i'm decided to get top surgery this year. i also identify as non binary and one of my main fears is basically knowing that im kind of transitioning to something that 'doesn't exist', it makes me really nervous. but yeah wish me good luck jaj

[@lost_in_the_Moonlight]

My Chest never feld like it was part of my body, like an Arm or an Leg would. Its more like something i dind't ask for, but got anyway - and can't get rid of (atleast not jet)

[@oldschoolpanini5021]

Thank you for making me feel less confused...you are so brave

[@52ryan52]

Celeste, thank you so much, this spoke to me on a deep level. I totally relate to not feeling comfortable showing my chest post surgery. It feels foreign. I'm wondering if this has shifted for you. I'm about to dive into your later videos so sorry in advance if you've spoken about this.

[@CelesteM]

Yes, actually very quickly! I did talk about it in a few videos - there's one basically all about that here: kzbin.info/www/bejne/eWHKgpqIbcmcpsk I also talked about it a little bit in this one: kzbin.info/www/bejne/en6VoYR3ZbehY8U and I think a few other times sprinkled around 😊

[@celesteberenbaum7526]

I am genderqueer and recently came to terms with the fact that I have chest dysphoria and I want top surgery. I related to a lot of what you said in this video. After watching this I explored your page more and saw that you're asexual ~ another thing we have in common! But that's not all...my name is Celeste too! It's cool to find my twin on the internet! Thank you so much for making this content, it's both educational and encouraging :)

[@roxanneabudarham4501]

your experience is very similar to mine! i finally brought it up to my gf, who said it was 'very obvious' and is so supportive. she's helping me get started on t :3

[@amr2002amrTM]

6:00 same. I moved from this place that I had guy friends and gal friends but like I moved to a place (in the south) that had mean boys so I didn't make any more guy friends. I had sensory processing disorder that I was diagnosed with as a young child. In hindsight I see that I subconsciously masked my spd for over a decade I tried being myself but I got bullied so I subconsiousy decided to only open up up When friends who accepted me. Also, when I hit puberty and would wear slim fit shirts, my top dysphoria came out as "this shirt makes me look fat" whereas in reality, the shirts would just make my (small-ish > I never needed cup bras) breasts very noticeable. When I moved from that place, I realized I didn't really seem to care what I wore (the southern place had a uniform so I couldn't explore my clothing style very well) so I went shopping with some new friends. I discovered I didn't really seem to vibe with feminine clothes so I began to question my gender and the use of they/them pronouns. I first cut my hair then I used new pronouns and finally a new name which happened all really quickly in sucession because I was coming out of the closet at the same rate as I was discovering it since my family is so supportive and accepting of me. In hindsight, I see that my spd and nonbinary self living in a judgemental society, subconsciously decided to loose all ability of self awareness so that "I can't possibly have gender dysphoria if I ignore the existence of my breasts" so I wouldn't wear the proper bras I needed to and my whole personaity/identity was my fandoms. It would baffle me that someone knew who they were when they had no interests or fandoms... Now I understand the importantance of gender identities, sexualities, etc. And have been learning more and more about myself and being more confident and self aware by being true to myself. Btw, I'm afab, use they/she pronouns and have top dysphoria and I ha e huge gender envy towards people with flat chests and never toward anyone with breasts but have no plans yet. Which this took a while to come through as I was discovering my ace/aro spec self and distinguishing between attraction and gender envy, etc.

[@shiningsilvallly]

I’m an asexual female. I’m not trans or non-binary but I still want this done. I don’t like people staring at them. I makes me uncomfortable. They bounce too much and it’s a pain to put on shirts. I’m not planning on having kids either? Is it possible to have it done even if you want to stay female?

[@CelesteM]

Yes! I know a few cis women who have done it. The only thing to keep in mind is if you're hoping to get it covered by insurance, you may have more trouble. Also, some surgeons may not be willing to do it, but obviously there are some who will. Good luck 😊

[@laiclaro9100]

I feel like sometimes I can only breathe properly when I wear a binder, so I really get you. I hope I can get a top surgery soon

[@aprilmichelle703]

Thank you for sharing your story. 💙

[@lillianbeck6369]

I dont feel comfortable with boob either im 17 and wanting top surgery ill have to wait till i have more money and 18. But im wondering how hard is it to get top surgery like the process of it especially since I identify as female (im a butch)

[@CelesteM]

I don't know any specific details, but I know a few surgeons use informed consent so you don't need a doctor or therapist to sign off saying you have gender dysphoria for you to get top surgery. You're just informed of the risks and you agree to them. So I'd look into that for your situation!

[@Oxygencat]

wow i relate to most of the things you're saying, it's really confusing. not out (yet) on anything else than being bisexual/pan

[@davidsasson3286]

I wish you the best.

[@nunyabizz7345]

I can totally relate to this

[@YouJustGotDunhamd]

im nb and i want top surgery but . its gonna have to be out of pocket and its gonna be like 7k so lol probs never gonna happen and i wanna kMs

[@lubradshaw291]

I really hope it happens for you 😊

[@YouJustGotDunhamd]

@suhpremacy lol this comment was 3 years ago i feel like i went into a time machine!! at the time i wrote that comment i weighed probably around 115pounds and i had H cups, so weight isn't always a correlation. but i ended up having top surgery last year! i was right in my estimation, i paid exactly 7,200 for the surgery plus like 500 for flight and hotel.

[@YouJustGotDunhamd]

@suhpremacy as for chest pains post op, i really havent had any except for my scars hurting some when i push myself too hard at the gym. i think those sort of things vary case by case

[@Tina06019]

@suhpremacy I am so glad you posted this. I don’t think it’s good to be underweight, but some females who are overweight can shrink their breasts by normalizing their weight.

[@nunyabizz7345]

Your story sounds similar to mine

[@movedtohell5953]

I cant find much for bottom surgery. I mean it is a thing but all i find is top.

[@lifehelpexpress9504]

Jamie Raines recently had bottom surgery this year and posted a video on it. Check out his videos.

[@joeyfiorentino8393]

So if you are non-binary how come it's such a point of consensus in your life. I don't care if people want to pretend they're a boy or a girl ,even transgender and whatever elder you want to make up. But talking about being non gendered is a contradiction in and of itself

[@jamsquan9415]

shut up joey no one likes you

[@58jennypenny]

I was thinking the same, isn't non binary you don't think of yourself male or female? so by removing your boobs you will then go on to present as male?

[@kathleenrojas4427]

Please don't do it..your perfect the way you are

[@CelesteM]

I'm over a year and a half post op now, sorry! And I'm perfectly happy with my decision, which is the only kind of perfect that matters.