Chapter 5

Pre-order my new song "Troubles" here: renmakesmusic....

[@RenMakesStuff]

Thankss as always for the supprt on these! My new song comes out on Thursday, I would luv for it to be able reach as many people as possible who are still left int he dark like I felt, buying and pre-ordering the song on iTunes and bandcamp here: renmakesmusic.lnk.to/Troubles is the best way to help make that achievable. Love x

[@inesschulz4033]

Ordered and gifted ❤

[@Tinkerbell9332]

Already on it my friend 😉

[@RoxyKandyKoRn55]

Already ordered mine as soon as u said it would be on Bandcamp🫶🌹

[@redzwestisbest]

So how many people have reached out to make a movie out of your life through the #1 album? Definitely could see it. Who would play Ren? Thinking like Timothée Chalamet...who could play young or into the 30s. who would everyone else choose to play Ren? Or would we just have Ren play himself?

[@thatcanadianwhitetrashguy]

Hey Little Bro. i think You wetre heading the right way but the Gut People shud have given You an Additive, NOT an Antibio. Your Natural gut was telling You Something about your Illness and the Doc. killed the Messenger. I started watching you cuz of a Family Resemblance, I think I know what is Wrong and it is in Your Gut. Your Missing or are Low on Certain Bacteria and that is the Cause.

[@Veeliscious]

You left out the part when you met up with Sam that day that not only did you offer him to sing through your amp whilst you played guitar, but that you also said he could keep all the money both of you made, and you kept that promise. There isn't a jealous or greedy bone in your body - you are generous, selfless and inspirational in every way and I cannot think of a better role model in our world right now to show how humanity can make this world feel a better place

[@Hexenkind1]

I bet he didn't wanted to brag about it.

[@Veeliscious]

@@Hexenkind1 I know he wouldn't have, which is why I felt the need to let people know for him as it just speaks volumes about the kinda guy Ren is & why we love him

[@erinweeks89]

Thanks for sharing this. It speaks volumes about this guy. True beacon of hope for so many of us 🙏❤.

[@amusedBYfools]

Being selfless and generous shouldn't be an anomaly. Are you a ME or a WE?

[@Shiroar]

Damn this was maybe the biggest rollercoaster so far. From the first meeting with Sam and Connor, to the creepiest “therapist”, to your sister secretly setting you up and someone somehow managing to sleep on a shelf in a wardrobe, and finally to more loss as you lost multiple friends from the chronic illness community. What a life you have had. Thank you for sharing your story. Thank you for being such a great voice for the missing. You truly have the strength of a mountain and the heart of a lion ❤️🦁 I hope you don’t forget to look after yourself through all this 🫂

[@Tinkerbell9332]

Patience is my favorite of his! I started a piece on canvas with a night scene of mountains near the sea with a lion on the bank and a heart on it's chest and a shieth on the sand!

[@pirada74]

Amen

[@tetsumcneil1545]

I turned 32, fell down getting out of bed and for the next five years went without diagnosis for why I couldn't walk. 15 years later after a hellish journey I am learning to fence and going to the gym every day. Your story feels so personal and relatable, thank you for telling it.

[@aimlesscruz]

Don’t forget to respect the privacy of the people in the stories REN tells. We want this journey to continue. Be respectful!!!

[@staceyhawthorne8194]

Dude has made his own autobiographical documentary about dealing with a debilitating disease. That's the epitome of overcoming.

[@Tinkerbell9332]

" You can't stop a wave, but you can learn to surf it! " This is one my favorite quotes of yours and it has stuck with me.Life is definitely something you need to find balance to navigate through and you do it very well. Continue being the waviest guy Ren! You're helping people navigate. Thank you! And patience is my favorite!❤

[@woodywoodman2319]

Yes... another he enlightened me with... that he'd heard, liked, and shared... A Rising Tide Lifts All Ships!!! That's such a Ren thing to say!!!

[@Tinkerbell9332]

​@@woodywoodman2319😉I listen to his words. I love hearing him talk about life! The " Peace" post he did a while back and that beautiful article he wrote called " heart is where the home is" really just made me want to try harder! I admire Ren a lot!

[@admi1191]

"You can't stop the waves but you can learn to surf" is what an old lady I knew years ago used to say. It's been a saying in the new age movement for a long time.

[@kennethmichael5404]

I wrote a slight variation on this after first hearing "Hi Ren". I've shared it a few times, felt it worth sharing again with you. "I suffer, therefore I am... but I will not relent... and I will learn to ride the waves".

[@Tinkerbell9332]

@@kennethmichael5404 Thank you for sharing that!

[@pyrpyr5Wolf]

Your story is hitting hard as a 32 year old with severe pain, fatigue and brain fog from long covid(which gets treated exactly like ME; "have you heard this magical thing called pacing and breathing slowly?"). I was lucky and had an amazing time in my twenties but I went from running 50km a week, doing martial arts, cycling, hiking *everything* to well, being stuck in my bed with ME/fibromyalgia symptoms and GP's who refuse to do anything because my blood tests are normal. Thank you for giving us chronically ill people a voice and strength of the knowledge we're not alone 💜

[@QueenBabylonnia]

I can understand totally. What gets me is not the fact that they don’t know how to treat, or actually know what’s going on. It’s their denial of the overall ignorance they have and because of the ignorance they just dismiss people. They have many consultants nowadays, (normally surgeons) and unless there is something they can operate on , or operate on unnecessarily, their interest diminishes. Also, the fact they Only treat the one thing they see, the one thing/part of the body they are trained on, and ignore anything else, not seeing the whole person or that the one thing may be part of a greater thing.. one day people will be seen as a whole being with all parts being seen as that what they need to function properly.

[@erinweeks89]

Curious to know if you've explored Lyme -- much of ME is unfortunately misdiagnosed and is frequently an underlying Lyme concern or co-infection. I hope healing comes for you 🙏 keep hopeful.

[@pyrpyr5Wolf]

@@erinweeks89 I considered it for sure! I'm a biologist but I've not had a tick since 2018(in an area without Lyme) and ticks from areas with Lyme would be prior to 2013. At the moment I'm fighting with my GP to get referred for an MRI as I have ms on both sides of the family and almost all the symptoms!

[@SBean80]

This chapter just confirms what I commented on chapter 1, you truly are an emotional intelligent empath…a bloody resilient one too! ❤️x

[@Brooke_lux.vita.et.amor.]

Agreed! The best analogy I have is Kintsugi. All the more beautiful for the ways it's been cracked or broken, and STRONGER when the pieces are held back together with something...Golden.

[@Hexenkind1]

Was wonderful to hear the "Sam Tompkins (and Connor) origin story" from your perspective. No envy, just joy for your friend Sam. Amazing.

[@mauraleib]

I’m always struck by the repressed frustration and anger in the words “although you test me MY GOD” every time I listen to this song. I think it’s this spirit that helped push Ren to keep going. ❤

[@dougjfindlay]

You do indeed have the strength of a mountain. Keep sharing that strength, brother, and we all grow stronger

[@AidyShaw]

Patience is one of my favourites, turns out I took can have the strength of a mountain

[@luisrivera3056]

I remember the CNN anchor Jack Tapper who's daughter was misdiagnosed in emergency room while appendix was rupturing, infection and toxicity started to spread and attack her organs, finally she was diagnosed and treated after almost dying, Ren this was a year ago and proves how much the world needs to here every word you have to say.. this is your purpose and honor...

[@MoreKellBellPlease]

Thank you, Ren. I'm so thankful you are alive. And I watched Unrest and cried the whole time. My heart goes out to all of you with chronic illnesses

[@alimac1469]

I'm going to go find it now and watch it.

[@agnes998]

Ren….Ren. You take the deepest, darkest time of your illness and you contrast it. You give THAT MUCH hope, kindness, understanding. You matter so much. You MATTER so much. Thank you. Never stop.

[@AidyShaw]

Ren is important.

[@GarnetJ]

Your strength, courage, and hope are an inspiration! I love the story of how you and Sam met. Your kindness and generosity shine through so vividly. Those moments of serendipity are truly special and I don’t think they were merely coincidences. Thank you for sharing your journey. We love you! 💕🫂💕

[@Man_of_Tears]

What a horrendously beautiful song. From so much brokenness and pain comes light; like a seed cracks through its shell and forms sweet green leaves

[@Cynthiabecker24]

Hey Ren, My brother passed on Sunday. I'm using The Big Pushs song Precious to honour him at his end of life celebration. Cheers💙🙏✨️

[@Hexenkind1]

Sorry for you loss. 🫂

[@patrickquinlan3056]

My condolences on the tragic loss of your brother. "Precious" is one of my favourites.

[@thehangingparsiple5692]

Sending you great, fat digital hugs. 🙏❤️😔

[@eveline5858]

Sorry for the loss of your brother, a prayer for him, a hug for you 🤗

[@somogyieva]

I'm so sorry, my sincere condolences, a big hug🫂

[@InterdimensionalWiz]

shaking the whole world beneath us, brilliant man.

[@MissMeKate]

I found you during the MevsME days, and saw firsthand how much of yourself you sent outward to others. I'm glad you found the strength to pull back and invest that energy in healing, resting, and living. You deserve every ounce of vitality and freedom that has finally found you. And so do we all. Hopefully your story and Troubles will go some way towards getting the help everyone needs to live well with this cruel illness. But you do not owe us your peace of mind, or your energy, and I hope you and those around you can protect it. ❤

[@patrickquinlan3056]

What can I say? The medical profession let you down, the alternatives also let you down. I'm familiar with healing, reiki and even the "Nam myoho renge kyo" nonsense. The pseudo shaman gets the biscuit though. Thank you. Very moving. Very healing.

[@aliceheal6127]

The world is blessed to have Ren. The strength, humility and honesty he demonstrates is very admirable. I hope everyone suffering with such a diminishing disease can find some relief and strength. It needs more voices like Rens to reach aid in research and help. Stay strong. You are loved, wanted and worthwhile. ❤

[@Sjeeh]

@SamTompkinsUK. I love this story, Sam helped Ren and Ren helped Sam. Love both of them. Their vibes and energy when they are together is chemistry .

[@krakow5223]

I had forgotten about this jewel of a song. It was just what I needed on another day with a debilitating migraine ❤🙏

[@thechewatson]

Baby reindeer reminded me of Ren because it was new, honest, brutal, fresh, raw, talented and brilliant. Ren just reminded me of baby reindeer in a different way. Eerie… Thank you for sharing your whole story Ren

[@talinsaghdasaryan6675]

Ren... Your courage to put all of this out there in such an honest, raw and vulnerable way has moved me deeply. Your strength to go through all of this and still have hope and still believe that there are things worth fighting for and still put in the work, advocate for people with no voice and try to create a better world is awe-inspiring. I don't know how you do it. I genuinely hope that the hardest years of your life are the ones that have already gone and that you get to experience more kindness, beauty, love and peace in the years to come. Thank you for being you.

[@Brooke_lux.vita.et.amor.]

We are all waves of the same Ocean, and empathy is vital for this world. You paint the canvas from the heart with your words of living through Hell, with bits of Heaven peeking through! Thank you and Jennifer Brea for Unrest, and I'm gratefully going to watch it right now!!

[@davidpearson6785]

Ren lost me at the whole story of meeting Sam and Connor. That was beautiful. What a heart ❤️ this young lad has, so open, so forthright. Can't you just feel the release ren is getting from all this , he's bottled all of this up and we are privileged that he's sharing it all with us. A true good Samaritan, and just an absolute legend. An inspiring human being, I love ren , massively proud of his courage , determination and warmth. And now his well deserved success. What a guy

[@Julieseven]

The story of how you met Sam is so incredibly amazing I could listen to you telling it ten times a day and not get tired of it. As someone who likes to write (not an author as I haven't finished anything publishable), stories like these are better than anything anyone could ever write in my opinion. Life and kindness are the best authors we have, and that moment is surely a masterpiece. Thank you for sharing your incredibly arduous journey. I am beyond relieved that you're finally getting better and hope you will remain in as good health as possible for as long as possible. You're a light to so many people and I truly feel like the world needs a lot more people like you.

[@keesakay]

Your heart carries the weight of the world....Know you are more than enough just being you.

[@jorice5528]

This chapter hit me good, know that desperation of searching for anything that may help, all manner of crazy places & people that desperation takes you to. Tomorrow I start gamma globulin infusions 🙏🤞🙏🤞 Thank you just feels too little to express my gratitude to you Ren, for sharing your journey & story, through your music, poetry & these chapters, but Thank You is my sentiment amplified by a million hugs of gratefulness ❤

[@_raumplaner6575]

I love the story about how you met Sam. I already knew it but the way you told it and the video montage was like I was there when it happened

[@Codex7777]

Thank you, once again Ren, for sharing! No one in my life has brought me to tears as often as you have but... it's a good thing! 🙂 Not only has it been cathartic, they were frequently tears of happiness too! You've made me laugh and smile as often, if not more! Love you man and all that you create! Thank you for reigniting my love for music and for shining a light in the dark! Keep on keeping on! Much love and respect! ❤🙂❤

[@yinunit]

Thank you Ren for taking us into your trust, your heart and your soul. I am listening to these chapters intently and it has given me some insight into chronic illness I didn't have before. Hopefully I'll be of more use to society now! Big Love

[@AgnesPerditaX]

I am deeply caught in the whole Chapters stuff but the part about faith hit me hard and off guard. It is so so so relatable! Including some kind of jealousy! Wow! 💙

[@TiggerSpoonz1995]

Ren You gave me the strength to continue when my mind didn't want to continue surviving, you managed to find a way of verbalizing all the thoughts i wish i was able to. I'm sure my experience is similar to many MANY others in the community, but while listening to your story & how you never seem to give up, regardless of the hurdles god threw in ur way, Listening to you're music it makes me feel like you've become the tide that lifts all our ships, here in this community. So thank you Ren for sharing your story & that showing your weakness teaching some of us to be strong along the way❤

[@Veeliscious]

May you always have strength and find ways to overcome, even if part of that needs to be acceptable 💪 🙏

[@JoeForrestart]

I first heard Patience and saw that video just after the album went to No. 1, it brought me to tears and is still possibly my favourite song of yours. To know you now, and the success you'd just achieved, then see this younger version of you with the same fight and determination, it brought your whole journey together and I felt every word of this song. I felt so proud for you and how you kept going, how those words were pure truth, as I knew something the young man singing his truth in the video didn't.. where he is today. What a beautiful series this is.

[@memully]

I love you Ren, and all the work you do. This song with those words in the chorus "'Cause, I've got the strength of a mountain I've got the courage of a deep blue sea I have the heart of a lion And the stars burn bright inside of me And although you test me, my God I stand so proudly, can't you see I've got the strength of a mountain And I'll take all you throw at me", Not only speak for you! For me it makes me think of Palestinians and especially Gazan's. If Ren was a country, you'd be Palestine....and that gives me hope!

[@MePrettyThing]

I can’t believe you also found Nichiren shu The chant & sound bowls were what held my fascination, if I was to follow a religion it most definitely would be buddhism I think resonance has to be the most powerful, be it a musician like yourself, & god knows you definitely reach into the dark abyss of my soul But also, rhythmic beats/pulse/hum reach my bones Thank you Ren❤

[@canecasavettes85]

Mr. Ren Sir! You do have the strength of a mountain! You said that you were made to be broken a beat! There is a reason. Look at the number of subscribers you have! I’m 49 and tell everyone about you! Your music is really connecting and the people who find it respect it! My understanding is that you’re not a religious person, but your music is getting out there. With everything you went through, I think you are blessed! You bring so much to so many!

[@shastaalexander3992]

You helped me 1000%, enough said. Good things are going to come your way. Straight angel..his name is ren...

[@sarahjanequinn1882]

I hope this therapist got reported 😱 I am an intergrative counsellor with chronic illness, and this is NOT at all safe. Thank you for sharing your journey; unrest was so empowered coming across it years ago. I saw your young self a few years later. I was diagnosed in London. Strength 🌄🦁 🌊

[@IsaacDDuke]

Favorite song of all 5 chapters so far. Ive already heard for joe… “Patience” is dope. I felt it was a bit empty/sparse and needed some harmony, so I looked it up on Apple Music. Collab with composer for Rings of Power???? What in the world? That’s quite a feather in your cap, mate! Wicked Sick! It’s easy to look at these chapters as the sad past before the happy present and of course we are looking forward to the Lyme diagnosis!!! But, your story is still being written and there will be troubles in your future as well. Sad to say, but hopefully you can hear advice from this guy I saw online about learning to dance with the two sides of yourself, and learning to relax. Oh wait! That’s you. Or is it all of us? Hi Ren, we love you!

[@brianpors]

Thank you again Ren. I hope you get to feel some of the healing powers that this share is giving to so many wonderful humans.

[@laurascorner-f1m]

Thank you Ren, for being you, being here and bringing us into your life in such a personal way that isn't seen by other creators!! Keep that head up! Love you!❤

[@davidpearson276]

I don't know if you will ever see this. I want you to know what the angels see when they look at you. They don't see you the way you see your reflection in the mirror. We see a true warrior that has taken extreme struggle and pain and transferred the energy into something beautiful. By doing so you are changing the world for the better. The deep feeling of needing to save the world is exactly what you are doing. We thank you so much for being brave enough to just be you. May you always shine bright and find peace in that light.

[@fiercecalysp0667]

What a great story so far. I am glued to these updates. You absolutely rock Ren

[@crazycool340]

Holy shit bro. Grew up chanting Nam Yo Ho Ren Gae Kyo from age 7. Tons of trauma growing up. Awakening happened at 14. It's been 10 years. I practice Hypnotherapy and Chi-Gung healing and many other modalities for reprogramming the unconscious mind and supporting complete healing. I'll work with you for free if you're open to a convo. Your music has touched my heart and changed my life. Your Nichiren Buddhist shout-out gave me chills brother. I work with several Lama's these days. Grandma has been a Nichiren Buddhist for 60 years.

[@selahr.]

Been living while I’m dying for 15 years now. I can totally relate to much of what you wrote, but I don’t think I could have been so succinct in explaining it. Thanks for the raw peek behind the music.

[@karenlackner192]

Ren, To any deity that you have cried out to, be it They, It, He, She…. you have been heard. The light is truly upon you and you are glowing !!!! May you always feel that light upon your face & heart & soul. Thank you for continuing to share your story. Many blessings upon you.

[@TheLizItIs]

I am SO GLAD you’re posting all of your music from your other page! These have always been my favorite. I show this song to people all the time. Much love Ren. We’ll all heal one another together. The oneness is all and all are one. I’ll do my part to help you heal by healing myself. ❤

[@bethstratton3391]

Ren, I love that you clung to hope and let it champion you on, even if it cost you emotionally at times. However Ren, your ability for ‘Patience’ helped you through. Patience, when learned is a gift for those that are seekers, but most importantly as I can quite clearly see you already know, it is a lesson that through teaching can be passed to others (Buddhist teach this). However, how those others master patience is down to them. You have passed on this lesson multiple times through how you conduct yourself, through the beautiful truth of your song, this story and through the love you outwardly emanate for others well being. I thank you for this chapter and I offer you in return the meditative mantra of Vajrasattva which I have been mediating on periodically throughout this last year in the wish that your success goes from strength to strength: oṃ vajrasattva samayam anupālaya vajrasattva tvenopatiṣṭha dṛḍho me bhava sutoṣyo me bhava supoṣyo me bhava anurakto me bhava sarvasiddhiṃ me prayaccha sarvakarmasu ca me cittaṃ śreyaḥ kuru hūṃ ha ha ha ha hoḥ bhagavan sarvatathāgatavajra mā me muñca vajrī bhava mahāsamayasattva āḥ English translation: Om - supreme praise. Vajrasattva, ensure your samaya remains intact. Be steadfast in your care of me. Grant me unqualified contentment. Enhance everything that is noble within me. Look after me. Grant me all accomplishments, And in everything I do Ensure my mind is virtuous. hūṃ - Vajrasattva’s wisdom mind. Ha (x4) - These represent the power of the 4 immeasurables, tempowerments, joys; and kāyās. What joy! Blessed One, who embodies all the tathāgatas, Vajra(sattva), Never abandon me! Grant me the realization of vajra nature! Great samayasattva, I am one with you.

[@dazzadaddazza]

it's very comforting hearing the way I feel and how you describe it, I'm 54 now, my mind is about 16. I love your openness and you have helped so much with feeling that I am not alone, I dont know what is wrong with me but everything you describe feels the same, I am suffering now so much I dont know where the comma or apostrophe on this keyboard is.. you have been a beacon of light. I compose music too and write and paint etc. You have helped me through lots of hard times.Thank you Ren, you have helped so many people. To know pain makes you empathetic and you have helped so many people with the same pain. Like you said in a rap,,,, I just want to give you your flowers. Looking forward to your next music. Take care x

[@joanm2232]

Thank you for bearing your soul each day. Take care of that precious spirit Big Guy! Love and Big Hugs!

[@im2yz4u17]

Honestly, I could not figure out if I should be crying or laughing at Ren's trials and tribulations on his journey of healing.

[@patrickquinlan3056]

The correct answer is crying. If this makes you laugh you probably need help urgently. Edit: To be fair there were one or two funny moments but I was a long way from amusement.

[@petermilligan2001]

Thanks for telling your story. I don't know how you managed to stay so positive. Shame on those doctord for multiple misdiagnosis.

[@cfc105]

for every hope that dies another one takes it's place☮🕉

[@DogDocKat]

Such an inspiring, heartbreaking story. Love that you can find some humour in parts of it. I'm so proud of you for sharing your story. Thank you for having the strength to survive and I wish you nothing but love, light, health and happiness 💜💜💜💜💜

[@suesee4855]

Ren, half way through I was amazed how you made the uncomfortable tender, yet palatable. Then you as a kid sang. "I have the strength of a mountain ", and I wept. Knowing that those words were proclaimed while you were currently drowning in a sea of uncertainty was heartbreaking, powerful, moving and inspiring... I too have made my rounds spiritually. When I left my childhood faith at 21, I felt free at first, but then envied those foolish enough to believe. I eventually came back to faith, and that too was challenged by a common skepticism as you. I found that any books of the Bible that got black-balled spoke of reincarnation. I suppose it's hard to control the masses if we believe we can just do better next time. I've currently landed on Jesus is my favorite guru and reincarnation seems logically merciful. After all, we made it into this body once. What's so crazy about thinking it could happen again. That and there's something inside me that feels eternal. And given your resolve, I bet you feel that too. Anyway. I want to say that I love you, but that seems odd and intrusive. So as one who proclaims my love to family and friends freely, I'll say that I have love for you - in like - a cool aunt way. And if I was your aunt, I be your favorite because I'm cool like that! Thanks again for your soul offering. I'm here for it. Much love ❤️ Sue

[@nina_kai]

I always felt exactly the same way about people of faith 🙏🏻

[@LiaLynn777]

Thank you for showing the people left in the dark, that they aren't alone and that it's possible to get better. I'm still in that dark spot myself, but these videos are validating, comforting and give me something to believe in, so thank you Ren❤️. hope you are doing okay!

[@MarlaNelson-yj7df]

Thank you for the truth. Your music truly touches my soul. I pray you find comfort and happiness in life!

[@sylv772]

The weird, the wonderful and a very troubling encounter with a therapist. What a strange and terrible journey and yet dotted with moments of light and always the music. Brave persistence and a generous heart.

[@Emiliosnanar]

This song has been my daily mantra for a while now . Each day, I stand tall and decide to fight and be strong , I can take all that life throws at me 😊 thankyou 😘

[@Sjudit84]

I wish I could really believe, like believers do. They all seem a lot calmer in life. I'm plagued by doubt on a daily basis, or cynical to the core about stuff like this. Too many unanswered questions, too many grey areas for me to give myself to it. Life would be so much easier though...how many times I wished my brain would be simpler, not going at a hundred miles per hour, 24/7. Even curiousity towards basically anything and everything felt like a curse. It must have been hard for you to take on the burden of so many people's suffering, even if you wanted to help them. I feel like you still do it day by day online through comments on your videos. Not sure how much one can take, even if you are in a better state now than before...

[@just_al_]

We all love you Ren, keep being you and never give up ❤

[@ebaker8]

Love this song. You sing this so beautifully. Thank you for sharing your story and your beautiful talent. You are in my prayers.

[@bozeebo3959]

I love your story to the full moon and back 😄😍 And damn aren't you an inspiration for the weary folk like myself 🌼

[@RiveVideos]

Patience rocks the soul. So raw - utterly bare - and heart-wrenching...your story boiled all the way down. Learning your story and hearing your music has broken our hearts 1,000x. Never ever give up bro - you have always made a difference, and that is crystal. Each day and each step you take is not only for YOU, but for the rest of us too. You have proven we are all beautifully entangled, and that each of us matters. Never forget you are loved!

[@ernakittsteiner6510]

Can truely relate to feeling blessed but also cursed after they discovered my Syringomyelie due to a heavy car accident during which I broke my neck. Stay strong! I'm allready living with this since 1992 and won't give up. I'm turning 57 this year and wouldn't want to live another life, allthough I wouldn't mind having less pain😢 . Got loving family to support me, that's sometimes a burden but most times a blessing❤ the way to the diagnose of my chronic illness was very frustrating and up till today I only know a few docs who are able to handle this. Cannot imagine how to cope without my own knowing about this disease. Frustrating but true we have to find the 'cure' cause only few others can. Blessed be the internet which gives us such a widespread approach to the other ones out there. ❤ to all of you out there

[@jane28dorset]

Holy shit balls. I am so sorry this happened to you. Living with sickness then having someone do this is just awful. It's heartbreaking hearing your story yet it is so beautiful how you speak and share it. Wishing you the best on your journey :)

[@katekendall6574]

Wow I remember watching this documentary years ago and heartbreaking for the lad and his guitar with so much talent. I'm so happy you're doing what you love now and reaching so many people. Thankyou for being a voice ❤️

[@eveline5858]

Never feel useless Ren!!! you are so important to all of us 💜💜💜 Merci du fond du cœur de partager ta vie ! (Thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your life)

[@rachellenoir2072]

This is so hard to watch. Feeling such empathy for Ren, and so many memories of my past, and present wrapped up in my own parallel story. It’s cathartic, but it’s not easy.

[@kimella995]

Your song patience has just made me cry 😢 so much, I have days I can't cope

[@GGG_3]

everything in this video is what led me to get to know Ren and be a fan some years ago, i was on youtube i rarely check out random music on youtube, my sister played me a Sam tompkins song months before loved them but they didn't get stuck in my mind so that day i saw a video of Ren and Sam tompkins busking it's one of their most famous ones i didn't know it was even the sam tompkins my sister played for me before but weirdly I checked out the video and i was OBSESSED i couldn't believe how 2 ppl on the street sound this good but i showed it to me sisters cuz that how it goes and Ren caught both of their attention 😅 while tbh i was more mesmerized by Sam like he sounded insane so i took a dive into his music then i think a week after i was like i need to check out that guy that was with him too so i did i checked few songs from Ren's music and i absolutely loved it i was staring to catch that there are deep feelings and stories behind it so i related to it so much and felt like i wanna know more about Ren and his story so i googled him and stumbled around his M.E vlogs on fb and God like i just kept watching one after another till i watch the one that I believe caught the most attention and it broke me i cried for like half an hr i couldn't remember the last time i felt this bad and cried this much for a stranger i didn't know i felt horrible for what he went through i was a bit relieved to know that these vids were from some years back so there was a possibility that he maybe found a way to get better, i prayed for it and thats how my Ren journey began and i was more amazed the more i knew more about him i was in shock to learn how much he overcame and how he fought for his life i felt inspired that if he went through this hell and kept going maybe i can too, and fast forward to today and i couldn't be more proud of Ren and where he is

[@GGG_3]

i literally suck at expressing my words and thoughts so my apologies if anybody decided to read this

[@plantarcristaeM...]

"I have the courage of the deep blue sea"...I love love love it. I love your waters. I love your mountain. I love your stars. I have hope, for us all. Thank you.

[@Swaantje98]

I stumbled upon your music through blind eyed back in 2018 and instantly fell in love with love music part 2 which made me listen to all of your music for the next 6 years ever since and feeling deeply connected. It‘s impressive how life works out sometimes, like there are a lot o serendipitous moments in your story which absolutely changed everything. Thank you for sharing your story!

[@kite666G]

I love this "patience" song so much, I play and sing this almost every day and it helps me find strength again even on my bad days.

[@derpydude4102]

This one has truly been insane king you're and inspiration to us all

[@TL-vp8uh]

Ren, you truly enspire me! Western medicine needs to be gutted and re-trained to look at the entire mind and body connection and not a single-minded focus. God bless you, and thank you for sharing your story with the world.

[@ezrasace]

Thank you for your courage to put your struggles and pain in front of the world in order to help those who are unable to speak theirs.

[@badsabre5917]

Well this one mentioned two of my favorite songs I have ever heard. Blindeyed and Patience. Patience is so inspiring. Especially that version. I hope nothing but the best for you brother.

[@MariaCalfaDePaul]

Ren I haven’t written in a while. I am so happy and proud of you. You are continuing to grow as an artist and more importantly as a human being I love this series and I think you are helping so many people. You are a blessing and your song “Patience” is absolutely beautiful. The words the guitar parts and your voice married into a lyrical and musical work of art. God bless you ! ❤

[@dancerbird76]

Patience is one of the songs that most resonates with my cancer journey. 💜 You took us to all points of the emotional spectrum with this chapter…..thank you for bringing us to closer understanding of your journey. 💜🫂🫶

[@angelapursley2811]

What a beautiful song Ren!!! I admire you. I am so glad I found your work!!

[@kimcolter5036]

Thank you again Ren❤ you woke me up and am slowly getting out of “bed”. Your music helps but this helps even more. Knowing that someone, now I have the rabbit hole people, can actually understand the feeling of absurd desperation to figure this sh*t out. Stay stubborn, prayers and love 😇

[@jasonremy1627]

Thank you for the fifth time this week, Ren.

[@CindyBaucom-sb1hd]

Wow. Thank you again for sharing. You make a difference.

[@docdurdin]

“What does not kill me makes me stronger” was an aphorism written by Friedrich Nietzsche in his Twilight of the Idols. Ren, You have experienced a lot of Nietzsche moments in your life, and like he, your search goes on. My empathic nature tells me you are still not where you want to be yet, even as you speak and continue to write and record. What is normal? What is healthy? What is Sanity? So many out here are way worse than you perceive. Inside looking out, or outside looking in is one and the same. The boy in the bubble.

[@AlwaysAutumn782]

You have such a beautiful soul my friend ❤❤❤❤ Thank you

[@beckygethin94]

Just caught up had to take my baby girl to hospital, this one got to me both emotionally and unsettling. I'll say it over and over again. You are an incredible human being forever grateful for you and thankful for everything you are doing. ❤❤❤

[@rexduffy7881]

I love your attempts to escape from your hell trying religion, mysticism and nutters as an alternative to failing medication ; told with some humour . Like so many tracks,I have always loved this one.

[@MANI-gp6wn]

You are an impressive man, multi-talented with off-the-charts intelligence. You’ve had to live your life in a crucible, but you have emerged made of steel. Hardships can be defeating or you can defeat them and you have done so. Separately, I find that when I’m feeling overwhelmed or searching for spiritual strength, it helps to focus on the minuscule miracles that abound all around us. Look into a baby’s eyes when learning something new; see the unfathomable complexity of a few grains of sand; marvel at the color of a new spring leaf. Life is beautiful and I’m reassured of a higher purpose for living whenever I change my focus away from the big and into the small. Many blessings.

[@KristinPedemonti]

Thank you again, Ren for sharing your story. Loved hearing the Connor & Sam origin stories. So sorry bout that horrendous 'therapist' & stalker. Your generosity + ability to constantly see humanity even in the awful is so beautiful! 🖤♥️Troubles, preordered. 🎉

[@lawrencebuckley7156]

You are loved by many! Thank you. So inspiring

[@naturalginger999]

Sam has a beautiful voice😍

[@Glanzern]

That song at the end was a masterpiece.

[@renkg8360]

Thanks for giving hope to so many. ❤

[@tonjesolheim8146]

… and ending the chapter with the most beautiful song ❤.