Chapter 5

[@RenMakesStuff]

Thankss as always for the supprt on these! My new song comes out on Thursday, I would luv for it to be able reach as many people as possible who are still left int he dark like I felt, buying and pre-ordering the song on iTunes and bandcamp here: renmakesmusic.lnk.to/Troubles is the best way to help make that achievable. Love x

[@Die_Nessie]

Ordered and gifted ❤

[@Tinkerbell9332]

Already on it my friend 😉

[@RoxyKandyKoRn55]

Already ordered mine as soon as u said it would be on Bandcamp🫶🌹

[@redzwestisbest]

So how many people have reached out to make a movie out of your life through the #1 album? Definitely could see it. Who would play Ren? Thinking like Timothée Chalamet...who could play young or into the 30s. who would everyone else choose to play Ren? Or would we just have Ren play himself?

[@thatcanadianwhitetrashguy]

Hey Little Bro. i think You wetre heading the right way but the Gut People shud have given You an Additive, NOT an Antibio. Your Natural gut was telling You Something about your Illness and the Doc. killed the Messenger. I started watching you cuz of a Family Resemblance, I think I know what is Wrong and it is in Your Gut. Your Missing or are Low on Certain Bacteria and that is the Cause.

[@Veeliscious]

You left out the part when you met up with Sam that day that not only did you offer him to sing through your amp whilst you played guitar, but that you also said he could keep all the money both of you made, and you kept that promise. There isn't a jealous or greedy bone in your body - you are generous, selfless and inspirational in every way and I cannot think of a better role model in our world right now to show how humanity can make this world feel a better place

[@Hexenkind1]

I bet he didn't wanted to brag about it.

[@Veeliscious]

@@Hexenkind1 I know he wouldn't have, which is why I felt the need to let people know for him as it just speaks volumes about the kinda guy Ren is & why we love him

[@erinweeks89]

Thanks for sharing this. It speaks volumes about this guy. True beacon of hope for so many of us 🙏❤.

[@amusedBYfools]

Being selfless and generous shouldn't be an anomaly. Are you a ME or a WE?

[@Skittenmeow]

"It’s hard to accept love when you feel ugly" damn Ren, I feel this too hard

[@facundoveliz8635]

The comparison of Sam being Ren living on an alternate reality where he never got sick got me. His strength to not feel jealous, but proud is so inspiring

[@Goober-o6p]

Is there a difference between jealousy and envy? Iv been jealous of some friends lives but I happy for them. I didn't want me to have whatever was instead of them. It was more that I wanted the same things. I always use envy as when some1 is jealous because they want what u have but don't want u to have it either. (Sorry for waffling and prob not making sense)

[@facundoveliz8635]

We watched 5 whole videos about Ren talking, trust me, you are not “waffling”

[@SuziQ.]

@@Goober-o6p, I think of envy as wishing you had something, but not wishing for your friend not to have it. I think of jealousy as more pernicious, but maybe neither of us have found the right words. I just looked it up. Jealousy is a feeling of resentment or bitterness towards the person who has what you want. Envy is a mixture of admiration and discontent, without malicious feelings towards the friend.

[@WAITINGFORTHEWORLDTOCATCHUP]

Being genuinely happy for another person speaks volumes as a human. The sense of contentment you feel is definitely an accomplishment but it also shows the wisdom of that person bc they get the way life works and when you see another human that has that same soul…it’s the best feeling in the world and all you want is for that person to shine & when they do it’s as if you are seeing yourself shine. 🥰 it takes a lot of disappointments in life to have that type of compassion. ❤️

[@jsc9000]

ME takes away so much & makes the world very small. The overwhelming feeling is grief (tho it took me many years to realise this) & as the world gets smaller the grief grows. There isn’t enough energy to be jealous. Emotions good & bad burn through energy at lightening speed. So when good stuff happens, when others create, achieve, live out their dreams, do anything that touches your heart or warms your soul it’s as joyful & pure as it gets so there is no room for anything else.

[@aimlesscruz]

Don’t forget to respect the privacy of the people in the stories REN tells. We want this journey to continue. Be respectful!!!

[@Hexenkind1]

Was wonderful to hear the "Sam Tompkins (and Connor) origin story" from your perspective. No envy, just joy for your friend Sam. Amazing.

[@staceyhawthorne8194]

Dude has made his own autobiographical documentary about dealing with a debilitating disease. That's the epitome of overcoming.

[@kristinbrantley9075]

I can say this sincerely and not be creepy because I am old enough to be your grandmother. You are beautiful inside and out.

[@sabrinaevans8746]

Ren has a substantial cougar fan base! I’m 65

[@kristinbrantley9075]

@@sabrinaevans8746 so relieved to know I am not the only one!

[@Reece537]

50 and love REN 😍

[@Dad.Daughter.Healing]

Love this lol

[@Tinkerbell9332]

" You can't stop a wave, but you can learn to surf it! " This is one my favorite quotes of yours and it has stuck with me.Life is definitely something you need to find balance to navigate through and you do it very well. Continue being the waviest guy Ren! You're helping people navigate. Thank you! And patience is my favorite!❤

[@woodywoodman2319]

Yes... another he enlightened me with... that he'd heard, liked, and shared... A Rising Tide Lifts All Ships!!! That's such a Ren thing to say!!!

[@Tinkerbell9332]

​@@woodywoodman2319😉I listen to his words. I love hearing him talk about life! The " Peace" post he did a while back and that beautiful article he wrote called " heart is where the home is" really just made me want to try harder! I admire Ren a lot!

[@admi1191]

"You can't stop the waves but you can learn to surf" is what an old lady I knew years ago used to say. It's been a saying in the new age movement for a long time.

[@kennethmichael5404]

I wrote a slight variation on this after first hearing "Hi Ren". I've shared it a few times, felt it worth sharing again with you. "I suffer, therefore I am... but I will not relent... and I will learn to ride the waves".

[@Tinkerbell9332]

@@kennethmichael5404 Thank you for sharing that!

[@Shiroar]

Damn this was maybe the biggest rollercoaster so far. From the first meeting with Sam and Connor, to the creepiest “therapist”, to your sister secretly setting you up and someone somehow managing to sleep on a shelf in a wardrobe, and finally to more loss as you lost multiple friends from the chronic illness community. What a life you have had. Thank you for sharing your story. Thank you for being such a great voice for the missing. You truly have the strength of a mountain and the heart of a lion ❤️🦁 I hope you don’t forget to look after yourself through all this 🫂

[@Tinkerbell9332]

Patience is my favorite of his! I started a piece on canvas with a night scene of mountains near the sea with a lion on the bank and a heart on it's chest and a shieth on the sand!

[@pirada74]

Amen

[@caleyhook4091]

Just brilliant x

[@SBean80]

This chapter just confirms what I commented on chapter 1, you truly are an emotional intelligent empath…a bloody resilient one too! ❤️x

[@Brooke_lux.vita.et.amor.]

Agreed! The best analogy I have is Kintsugi. All the more beautiful for the ways it's been cracked or broken, and STRONGER when the pieces are held back together with something...Golden.

[@tetsumcneil1545]

I turned 32, fell down getting out of bed and for the next five years went without diagnosis for why I couldn't walk. 15 years later after a hellish journey I am learning to fence and going to the gym every day. Your story feels so personal and relatable, thank you for telling it.

[@TToBBaTime]

Damn, I'm really grateful you've decided to let your fans inside more of your story and life. ❤

[@CrescentRoses]

"95% of my time in my bedroom" Goddamn that line hit me. Shout out to all those with chronic illness and introverts in general. Remember - you don't have to have a chronic illness to have social phobia. We all have a story that SHOULD be shared with other people. Never forget that either. ❤❤❤

[@phylbrey1121]

and that he only had energy for busking once every 3 weeks

[@kimzwolinski9919]

I love the addition of a song at the end of each chapter. ❤❤❤

[@ElleCooper]

You are a beautiful human.

[@InterdimensionalWiz]

shaking the whole world beneath us, brilliant man.

[@ebaker8]

Love this song. You sing this so beautifully. Thank you for sharing your story and your beautiful talent. You are in my prayers.

[@pyrpyr5Wolf]

Your story is hitting hard as a 32 year old with severe pain, fatigue and brain fog from long covid(which gets treated exactly like ME; "have you heard this magical thing called pacing and breathing slowly?"). I was lucky and had an amazing time in my twenties but I went from running 50km a week, doing martial arts, cycling, hiking *everything* to well, being stuck in my bed with ME/fibromyalgia symptoms and GP's who refuse to do anything because my blood tests are normal. Thank you for giving us chronically ill people a voice and strength of the knowledge we're not alone 💜

[@QueenBabylonnia]

I can understand totally. What gets me is not the fact that they don’t know how to treat, or actually know what’s going on. It’s their denial of the overall ignorance they have and because of the ignorance they just dismiss people. They have many consultants nowadays, (normally surgeons) and unless there is something they can operate on , or operate on unnecessarily, their interest diminishes. Also, the fact they Only treat the one thing they see, the one thing/part of the body they are trained on, and ignore anything else, not seeing the whole person or that the one thing may be part of a greater thing.. one day people will be seen as a whole being with all parts being seen as that what they need to function properly.

[@erinweeks89]

Curious to know if you've explored Lyme -- much of ME is unfortunately misdiagnosed and is frequently an underlying Lyme concern or co-infection. I hope healing comes for you 🙏 keep hopeful.

[@pyrpyr5Wolf]

@@erinweeks89 I considered it for sure! I'm a biologist but I've not had a tick since 2018(in an area without Lyme) and ticks from areas with Lyme would be prior to 2013. At the moment I'm fighting with my GP to get referred for an MRI as I have ms on both sides of the family and almost all the symptoms!

[@Scano41]

Any other human would have gave up, Ren you keep doing your thing

[@dougjfindlay]

You do indeed have the strength of a mountain. Keep sharing that strength, brother, and we all grow stronger

[@AidyShaw]

Patience is one of my favourites, turns out I took can have the strength of a mountain

[@luisrivera3056]

I remember the CNN anchor Jack Tapper who's daughter was misdiagnosed in emergency room while appendix was rupturing, infection and toxicity started to spread and attack her organs, finally she was diagnosed and treated after almost dying, Ren this was a year ago and proves how much the world needs to here every word you have to say.. this is your purpose and honor...

[@mauraleib]

I’m always struck by the repressed frustration and anger in the words “although you test me MY GOD” every time I listen to this song. I think it’s this spirit that helped push Ren to keep going. ❤

[@MoreKellBellPlease]

Thank you, Ren. I'm so thankful you are alive. And I watched Unrest and cried the whole time. My heart goes out to all of you with chronic illnesses

[@alimac1469]

I'm going to go find it now and watch it.

[@cfc105]

for every hope that dies another one takes it's place☮🕉

[@kimella995]

Your song patience has just made me cry 😢 so much, I have days I can't cope

[@tonjesolheim8146]

… and ending the chapter with the most beautiful song ❤.

[@carlahelin5203]

❤❤❤. Much love and respect.

[@Sjeeh]

@SamTompkinsUK. I love this story, Sam helped Ren and Ren helped Sam. Love both of them. Their vibes and energy when they are together is chemistry .

[@TheLesmc82]

I love this tune & it's words 👏🍀💚🍀

[@lisayoung4987]

Wow Ren, the more you open up your life The More Many of us have somewhat walked that Path. You've been Created in Pure Perfection as Our Gift From GOD for Us to Love Because You Know & Understand Our affections. The World is Yours Thank You ❣️

[@thenakedsingularity]

This is the story of all of us who are fighting the chronic illness. No healthy person would ever understand.

[@elkamarushka]

I had to stop at the 7th minute to write to you and thank you profusely for telling your story as it is mine as well .. just with different characters and different details. I am loving every minute of it, what a story, what a storyteller, and the music, ... my God ... Thank you for this man's heart of a lion ❤

[@Cynthiabecker24]

Hey Ren, My brother passed on Sunday. I'm using The Big Pushs song Precious to honour him at his end of life celebration. Cheers💙🙏✨️

[@Hexenkind1]

Sorry for you loss. 🫂

[@patrickquinlan3056]

My condolences on the tragic loss of your brother. "Precious" is one of my favourites.

[@thehangingparsiple5692]

Sending you great, fat digital hugs. 🙏❤️😔

[@eveline5858]

Sorry for the loss of your brother, a prayer for him, a hug for you 🤗

[@somogyieva]

I'm so sorry, my sincere condolences, a big hug🫂

[@minxiv7]

I'm crying with you because you are speaking so much to my experience in the medical machine. I felt like a guinea pig that all these specialists were experimenting on. Chronic illnesses are exactly what you've described. All the nuanced daily trials and tribulations. You are so talented and brave ♥️ much love

[@GarnetJ]

Your strength, courage, and hope are an inspiration! I love the story of how you and Sam met. Your kindness and generosity shine through so vividly. Those moments of serendipity are truly special and I don’t think they were merely coincidences. Thank you for sharing your journey. We love you! 💕🫂💕

[@experiment926]

I was gifted full blown Chron's Disease when i turned 30. By 32 i sent my Harley off a curve into a 15ft deep ditch. Which resultes in 3 major surgeries in a year. That was 2019. 2020 brought that virus and a choice in love, that taught me a lot about myself, suffering, and boundaries. Along with losing my brother in 2022... 2 years in the mountains alone did me well. Now im back in my hometown helping take care of my Grandmother and Dad. Enjoying the things i took for granted when i was younger. I still have health issues, but it seems so much easier to deal with now. I think i finally got to a point of peace, and having survived so much already, i rarely lose it... When i do, it doesn't take me long to get it back; and that in itself is a lesson and blessing.

[@agnes998]

Ren….Ren. You take the deepest, darkest time of your illness and you contrast it. You give THAT MUCH hope, kindness, understanding. You matter so much. You MATTER so much. Thank you. Never stop.

[@AidyShaw]

Ren is important.

[@memully]

I love you Ren, and all the work you do. This song with those words in the chorus "'Cause, I've got the strength of a mountain I've got the courage of a deep blue sea I have the heart of a lion And the stars burn bright inside of me And although you test me, my God I stand so proudly, can't you see I've got the strength of a mountain And I'll take all you throw at me", Not only speak for you! For me it makes me think of Palestinians and especially Gazan's. If Ren was a country, you'd be Palestine....and that gives me hope!

[@dancerbird76]

Patience is one of the songs that most resonates with my cancer journey. 💜 You took us to all points of the emotional spectrum with this chapter…..thank you for bringing us to closer understanding of your journey. 💜🫂🫶

[@patrickquinlan3056]

What can I say? The medical profession let you down, the alternatives also let you down. I'm familiar with healing, reiki and even the "Nam myoho renge kyo" nonsense. The pseudo shaman gets the biscuit though. Thank you. Very moving. Very healing.

[@krakow5223]

I had forgotten about this jewel of a song. It was just what I needed on another day with a debilitating migraine ❤🙏

[@Man_of_Tears]

What a horrendously beautiful song. From so much brokenness and pain comes light; like a seed cracks through its shell and forms sweet green leaves

[@margaretc5679]

So much gratitude for your courage in sharing this. All of this. ❤

[@katelinthompson3758]

I just discovered your music through a Chris Webby song recently .. and wow..words can’t describe.. I’ve been on a journey of exploring your music the past few weeks and your story and I just can’t put into words how truly special you are.. keep doing what you’re doing… your talent on its own is a topic one in itself.. but your passion and love and advocacy to spread the love is truly so beautiful… wish I could have a way with words like you do to describe it in the way it deserves. Thankyou. 🫶🏼

[@Brooke_lux.vita.et.amor.]

We are all waves of the same Ocean, and empathy is vital for this world. You paint the canvas from the heart with your words of living through Hell, with bits of Heaven peeking through! Thank you and Jennifer Brea for Unrest, and I'm gratefully going to watch it right now!!

[@thechewatson]

Baby reindeer reminded me of Ren because it was new, honest, brutal, fresh, raw, talented and brilliant. Ren just reminded me of baby reindeer in a different way. Eerie… Thank you for sharing your whole story Ren

[@RiveVideos]

Patience rocks the soul. So raw - utterly bare - and heart-wrenching...your story boiled all the way down. Learning your story and hearing your music has broken our hearts 1,000x. Never ever give up bro - you have always made a difference, and that is crystal. Each day and each step you take is not only for YOU, but for the rest of us too. You have proven we are all beautifully entangled, and that each of us matters. Never forget you are loved!

[@_meshele_]

That song. Wow. That's all. Just wow.

[@dazzadaddazza]

it's very comforting hearing the way I feel and how you describe it, I'm 54 now, my mind is about 16. I love your openness and you have helped so much with feeling that I am not alone, I dont know what is wrong with me but everything you describe feels the same, I am suffering now so much I dont know where the comma or apostrophe on this keyboard is.. you have been a beacon of light. I compose music too and write and paint etc. You have helped me through lots of hard times.Thank you Ren, you have helped so many people. To know pain makes you empathetic and you have helped so many people with the same pain. Like you said in a rap,,,, I just want to give you your flowers. Looking forward to your next music. Take care x

[@momishka7]

My heart aches for you our babymanboi ❤❤❤

[@Codex7777]

Thank you, once again Ren, for sharing! No one in my life has brought me to tears as often as you have but... it's a good thing! 🙂 Not only has it been cathartic, they were frequently tears of happiness too! You've made me laugh and smile as often, if not more! Love you man and all that you create! Thank you for reigniting my love for music and for shining a light in the dark! Keep on keeping on! Much love and respect! ❤🙂❤

[@lorimckean540]

REN you are an amazing human being. God bless you and your amazing talent. Keep pushing my dear friend. I am forever a Renegade!

[@davidberesford7009]

That song was very moving to me. Shine On Ren.

[@plantarcristaeM...]

"I have the courage of the deep blue sea"...I love love love it. I love your waters. I love your mountain. I love your stars. I have hope, for us all. Thank you.

[@canecasavettes85]

Mr. Ren Sir! You do have the strength of a mountain! You said that you were made to be broken a beat! There is a reason. Look at the number of subscribers you have! I’m 49 and tell everyone about you! Your music is really connecting and the people who find it respect it! My understanding is that you’re not a religious person, but your music is getting out there. With everything you went through, I think you are blessed! You bring so much to so many!

[@rickysflower09]

Awesome song at the end. You are wonderful. Stay strong. Hug x

[@katiejo6792]

Idk how I haven’t known about you or your music until a few days ago, but I can tell you that I have never been so profoundly affected by an artist in all my life (I’m 43). Thank you, Ren, for your poetic, generational, and unique talent of writing your story and for your musical genius that is far beyond any other musician’s playbook. To say that every word has resonated with me is an understatement. You have a forever fan in me. ❤

[@grrrmie]

Thanks for sharing

[@emmamarriott]

You are an amazing human with a beautiful soul. I no longer feel alone with your music to comfort me. I wish you all the happiness in the world ❤

[@lawrencebuckley7156]

You are loved by many! Thank you. So inspiring

[@darkmoondrops]

Loving these stories. Not loving tat you've been through so much drama in such a short time. Sad to hear how people used your pain to try to manipulate you. I'm so greatful to have found your music. Geeatful for the beautiful people I've met through you. Funny how life works. Be well Ren ❤

[@MissMeKate]

I found you during the MevsME days, and saw firsthand how much of yourself you sent outward to others. I'm glad you found the strength to pull back and invest that energy in healing, resting, and living. You deserve every ounce of vitality and freedom that has finally found you. And so do we all. Hopefully your story and Troubles will go some way towards getting the help everyone needs to live well with this cruel illness. But you do not owe us your peace of mind, or your energy, and I hope you and those around you can protect it. ❤

[@Swaantje98]

I stumbled upon your music through blind eyed back in 2018 and instantly fell in love with love music part 2 which made me listen to all of your music for the next 6 years ever since and feeling deeply connected. It‘s impressive how life works out sometimes, like there are a lot o serendipitous moments in your story which absolutely changed everything. Thank you for sharing your story!

[@TiggerSpoonz1995]

Ren You gave me the strength to continue when my mind didn't want to continue surviving, you managed to find a way of verbalizing all the thoughts i wish i was able to. I'm sure my experience is similar to many MANY others in the community, but while listening to your story & how you never seem to give up, regardless of the hurdles god threw in ur way, Listening to you're music it makes me feel like you've become the tide that lifts all our ships, here in this community. So thank you Ren for sharing your story & that showing your weakness teaching some of us to be strong along the way❤

[@Veeliscious]

May you always have strength and find ways to overcome, even if part of that needs to be acceptable 💪 🙏

[@keebie7047]

You have a Beautiful soul that can be seen and heard through your music. I want to thank you for telling your story and being able to be strong enough to give us a glimpse into your life and helping so many with your words.

[@deborahhalbert3372]

Heart of a lion 🦁

[@matthewdoveton7071]

I’ve just spent the last three days listening to some of your songs like a mind virus. I’ve honestly never been as affected by music like I have yours. If there is a god I too want to thank him for your resilience but in case there isn’t I’ll just thank you for yours. Love you back ❤

[@crazycool340]

Holy shit bro. Grew up chanting Nam Yo Ho Ren Gae Kyo from age 7. Tons of trauma growing up. Awakening happened at 14. It's been 10 years. I practice Hypnotherapy and Chi-Gung healing and many other modalities for reprogramming the unconscious mind and supporting complete healing. I'll work with you for free if you're open to a convo. Your music has touched my heart and changed my life. Your Nichiren Buddhist shout-out gave me chills brother. I work with several Lama's these days. Grandma has been a Nichiren Buddhist for 60 years.

[@Dontforgethis1]

Loved that song at the end !!! I’m binge watching all these chapters today they have been an absolute amazing watch I feel your pain and your amazing just keep on doing what you do your helping so many people thru your music #RENISANICON

[@kellwhitehouse182]

Tears again ❤

[@aliceheal6127]

The world is blessed to have Ren. The strength, humility and honesty he demonstrates is very admirable. I hope everyone suffering with such a diminishing disease can find some relief and strength. It needs more voices like Rens to reach aid in research and help. Stay strong. You are loved, wanted and worthwhile. ❤

[@vonnieknows]

Oh shit, song made me cry😢 oh wow❤

[@sarahjanequinn1882]

I hope this therapist got reported 😱 I am an intergrative counsellor with chronic illness, and this is NOT at all safe. Thank you for sharing your journey; unrest was so empowered coming across it years ago. I saw your young self a few years later. I was diagnosed in London. Strength 🌄🦁 🌊

[@fiercecalysp0667]

What a great story so far. I am glued to these updates. You absolutely rock Ren

[@MePrettyThing]

I can’t believe you also found Nichiren shu The chant & sound bowls were what held my fascination, if I was to follow a religion it most definitely would be buddhism I think resonance has to be the most powerful, be it a musician like yourself, & god knows you definitely reach into the dark abyss of my soul But also, rhythmic beats/pulse/hum reach my bones Thank you Ren❤

[@talinsaghdasaryan6675]

Ren... Your courage to put all of this out there in such an honest, raw and vulnerable way has moved me deeply. Your strength to go through all of this and still have hope and still believe that there are things worth fighting for and still put in the work, advocate for people with no voice and try to create a better world is awe-inspiring. I don't know how you do it. I genuinely hope that the hardest years of your life are the ones that have already gone and that you get to experience more kindness, beauty, love and peace in the years to come. Thank you for being you.

[@MANI-gp6wn]

You are an impressive man, multi-talented with off-the-charts intelligence. You’ve had to live your life in a crucible, but you have emerged made of steel. Hardships can be defeating or you can defeat them and you have done so. Separately, I find that when I’m feeling overwhelmed or searching for spiritual strength, it helps to focus on the minuscule miracles that abound all around us. Look into a baby’s eyes when learning something new; see the unfathomable complexity of a few grains of sand; marvel at the color of a new spring leaf. Life is beautiful and I’m reassured of a higher purpose for living whenever I change my focus away from the big and into the small. Many blessings.

[@renkg8360]

Thanks for giving hope to so many. ❤

[@Emiliosnanar]

This song has been my daily mantra for a while now . Each day, I stand tall and decide to fight and be strong , I can take all that life throws at me 😊 thankyou 😘

[@TL-vp8uh]

Ren, you truly enspire me! Western medicine needs to be gutted and re-trained to look at the entire mind and body connection and not a single-minded focus. God bless you, and thank you for sharing your story with the world.

[@Dona-fu9zh]

so true..sam and conner...fate or destiny...is our life mapped out, or you choose left, right...we all get there in the end...💡x💡solidarity

[@annitagielen]

Thank you for sharing...🎉❤

[@derpydude4102]

This one has truly been insane king you're and inspiration to us all

[@EmilLeeLAZARKazarian]

DO NOT EVERY OR ANY ONE MAKE YOU FEEL CRAZY YOU ARE BRILLIANTLY TALENTED DEAREST ONE ON THIS PLENTY FULL BOUNTIFUL ONE FORGIVE US PLEASE

[@ericgrady5102]

What an inspiration...still hope for humanity

[@keesakay]

Your heart carries the weight of the world....Know you are more than enough just being you.

[@amydiamond5542]

Ren, you are beautiful inside and out. You are genuine & heart felt. Your candid openess is endearing. You are such a beautiful soul... Dont you worry your forever person is still out there and will love you to pieces...Better times are definitely a head of you. Thank you for sharing another chapter with us. Biggest Hug & Much ❤❤❤

[@carolynwarhurst3395]

I have traveled down your path, and am currently lIving it right now AT THIS VERY MOMENT. Thank you for everything you have put out there. Hopefully WE -and I mean WE- FIND AN ANSWER ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@karenlackner192]

Ren, To any deity that you have cried out to, be it They, It, He, She…. you have been heard. The light is truly upon you and you are glowing !!!! May you always feel that light upon your face & heart & soul. Thank you for continuing to share your story. Many blessings upon you.

[@JoRiceRenegade4Eva]

This chapter hit me good, know that desperation of searching for anything that may help, all manner of crazy places & people that desperation takes you to. Tomorrow I start gamma globulin infusions 🙏🤞🙏🤞 Thank you just feels too little to express my gratitude to you Ren, for sharing your journey & story, through your music, poetry & these chapters, but Thank You is my sentiment amplified by a million hugs of gratefulness ❤

[@ThornBoyz2207]

Ren, GenXer here. While I cannot relate specifically to your personal trials your music has been of repeat for months. Your entire discograhpy. Hi Ren to Money Game then I found The Big Push and I'm still digging. I just recorded a video of my neices and nephews in my living room reciting Hi Ren word for word, half of them didn't like it the first time they heard it but they all love Ren because of their old ass uncle LoL...anyway...For me your series on how you got here makes what I have been listening to that more real and impactfull. It's so refreshing to see someone who is real. Searching for the answers in life etc. I do not know if you would change the hell you have been through but from where I am sitting it is what has made you what you are today. It has made you the inspiration that you are for so many. Like would we have the Pink Floyd we have today if Roger Waters father had not died when he was so young?? Seriously, Rogers era of Floyd would have never existed if he had grown up with a father. That is the comparison I make with what you are doing today. I have the utmost respect for you and look forward to everything you put out. Keep it real man. Fn love you bro!!!

[@IsaacDDuke]

Favorite song of all 5 chapters so far. Ive already heard for joe… “Patience” is dope. I felt it was a bit empty/sparse and needed some harmony, so I looked it up on Apple Music. Collab with composer for Rings of Power???? What in the world? That’s quite a feather in your cap, mate! Wicked Sick! It’s easy to look at these chapters as the sad past before the happy present and of course we are looking forward to the Lyme diagnosis!!! But, your story is still being written and there will be troubles in your future as well. Sad to say, but hopefully you can hear advice from this guy I saw online about learning to dance with the two sides of yourself, and learning to relax. Oh wait! That’s you. Or is it all of us? Hi Ren, we love you!

[@AgnesPerditaX]

I am deeply caught in the whole Chapters stuff but the part about faith hit me hard and off guard. It is so so so relatable! Including some kind of jealousy! Wow! 💙

[@Julieseven]

The story of how you met Sam is so incredibly amazing I could listen to you telling it ten times a day and not get tired of it. As someone who likes to write (not an author as I haven't finished anything publishable), stories like these are better than anything anyone could ever write in my opinion. Life and kindness are the best authors we have, and that moment is surely a masterpiece. Thank you for sharing your incredibly arduous journey. I am beyond relieved that you're finally getting better and hope you will remain in as good health as possible for as long as possible. You're a light to so many people and I truly feel like the world needs a lot more people like you.

[@rotisseriepancake]

Your story puts so so so so much more depth in to the song/s that I've listened to, time and time again 🥹

[@rexduffy7881]

I love your attempts to escape from your hell trying religion, mysticism and nutters as an alternative to failing medication ; told with some humour . Like so many tracks,I have always loved this one.

[@watts1234]

I wish like broken pottery I could fill in all of our cracks with your emotional lava which is gold to us. I may never get better but I love the hope your music gives me. The soundtrack to my life sending many hugs and admiration. Xo Heather ❤

[@_raumplaner6575]

I love the story about how you met Sam. I already knew it but the way you told it and the video montage was like I was there when it happened