My First Ayahuasca Experience (Life Changing)

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Today, I share with you my first Ayahuasca experience that's changed my life. This is a story of the one and only time that I did ayahuasca and I thought about not putting this on the channel but quite frankly, I think that the insights are important enough that I couldn't not share them even though this subject matter is a sensitive one because it has left me and the people that
I've been able to share these exercises with feeling more joyous, more energetic, and more positive in their life and I didn't want to hold that back.
So the reason that it's a sensitive subject is because ayahuasca is a hallucinogenic plant / habit-ending drug - or how you want to categorize it - that comes primarily from the Amazon rainforest. It is illegal in the United States of America but tribes indigenous to the Amazon have been using it for a long time in rituals and ceremonies and increasingly, Westerners have participated as well. So you should know that I did not go into this lightly; I went into this very, very deliberately. In fact, the reason that I did it was because I'd had a breakup and I was struggling and I'd had a number of friends tell me that this was something that was in the right time to do and I said, "Okay," but I'm not the type of person to do drugs of any kind. I've never smoked a cigarette, I don't drink caffeine these days, I've never done anything with weed or beyond that, and I don't even drink alcohol I except for a glass of red wine before bed.
02:00 Charlie's reaction Ayahuasca
05:00 Start of Charlie'e life changing realization
12:00 There's always an inner child in everyone
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[@MarkusRobins]

if you think you may want to try ayahuasca, you're probably right. if you think you don't want to try ayahuasca, you're probably right

[@phoenixjones7191]

Damn that's a very very good way of putting it. I've had similar thoughts with LSD and DMT as well.

[@mgal6234]

I am terrified of psychedelics because of a physically traumatic childhood. But it makes me want to try them to heal and remember. So I fall under both wanting to and not.

[@daithimurphy6783]

Melissa G a bad experience on psychedelics is as useful an experience as a good one to heal and grow

[@WheresReis]

Mark Robinson ❤️

[@cheapmoviesnow]

Ive done shrooms but i have a small fear of getting too into hallucinogens because the long term effects on the brain are simply unresearched

[@Micoolaw]

The creative adult is the child who survived

[@Charismaoncommand]

I'm agreeing more and more

[@andreaaristokrates9516]

I noticed when we were done with our required expirements and had two days of free lab time, almost noone showed up. I mean we are studying chemistry, I considered it to be a dream, "playing" in a real lab... We were preparing for another week, but still, you can be picky and try the fun sounding experiments, so we did.

[@captainclaw583]

remind me of Elon Musk He also plays video games specifically overwatch as I heard

[@MattVey]

Nice!

[@ramonbs6075]

Micoola: if you are too creative, you achieve nothing. Because you can’t put the things in order. Both, your adult side and your child side, are important.

[@octane2344]

"We don't stop playing because we grow old. We grow old because we stop playing." George Bernard Shaw. Keep your inner child playing

[@isaiah779]

thank you for posting that quote

[@kamehameha5742]

Eddie Allen Great quote

[@cheapmoviesnow]

Retain the spirit of youth

[@hkqtt]

she takes care of me and you don't...wow, that gave me chills

[@ronniesunshine1163]

"You care more about these peoples opinions than about me" I watched that part 4 times. I knew this was true for me but hearing it in words like this really clarifies it and makes it real

[@sukritchandra2695]

Exactly!!!!

[@precision118]

"because she takes care of me and you dont" hit me like a semi truck

[@musicfilmhead9051]

I got teary eyed really quick...

[@iamyou111]

I got chills all over

[@adequatelysizedart5200]

Was a mic drop moment

[@thomasx3434]

Powerful

[@EmbraceDiscomfort]

This completely got me too.

[@aaronarguelles8322]

Tell it like it is. Truth is truth, you report your honest and unbiased experiment and we can determine what we decide. It takes some big onions to share like this. Much respect.

[@dannyboyssj]

I disagree if anything all ayahuasca trips are biased to the individual, but that doesnt make it a bad thing. I personally i think its a good thing because it allows you to discover things about yourself you may not want to know, but need to know. Honest yes unbiased impossible.

[@zacharybrittain5184]

Yeah this is guts

[@ib4751]

This is probably one of most passionate videos i've ever seen.

[@falcodarkzz]

Yup, this is what the world has lost. Adults caught up in self developement and goal setting, who get to 35, have kids, and can barely interact with them because their creative, free side drowned in the wake of the success boat a long time ago. It's not worth it. Glad psychedelics showed you this.

[@vildonfire]

I'm on the opposit scale of this, where I am 35 and really should get my inner child in check. This video though probably clarified a bit for me, that it's not that im undiciplined and lazy, i just let my inner child have control and decide what we do all the time >.< I need this video but reversed!

[@davecullins1606]

On the other hand if the inner child goes crazy you will never get successful enough to have a child you can't relate to xD!

[@thekmfdmmachine3919]

Dave, it takes zero dollars to make a child. It takes little money to raise the child. On the list of important things you need/provide a child, money is last on the list. Its on the list, but its last.

[@champ8605]

@@thekmfdmmachine3919 money is last on the list for you because you have the money you need to take of them. Think about the parents who need to work 2 jobs to put food on the table and have enough money to keep them clothed and a roof over their heads. Money is important so that the child has the basics to have a good opportunity at life. But it's also important to make time for them.

[@thekmfdmmachine3919]

@@champ8605 yeah, enough to Almost get by. Without the credit card we would be using a food bank from time to time.. Now if we where starving then yeah money would be more important technically. In the big picture money is last on the list.

[@VEE3RDEYE]

You shared this trip report in such a fluid way i loved listening. Thank you for sharing this to such a large audience

[@gypsyjunklady]

"Because she takes care of me and you don't" those words hit SO HARD. I feel like this applies to a LOT of us with relationships that don't technically satisfy, but supply a need we are delegating outside of ourselves. Which is fine if that's consensual, but I think in many cases we secretly resent our partners who are asking us to love them because they refuse to love themselves. Thank you so much for this post!!

[@brandonthemuso8238]

Those words hit me hard as well :o

[@mistsrider]

Yes. I think I didn't have words for it at the time, but I left my ex because of this. She was always asking me to take care of that part of her she'd abandoned, and I loved doing it, but she refused to own any responsibility for taking care of that part of herself or her feelings. At the end of the day I was exhausted by having everything be my fault and not having any space for my own feelings. I adored her but couldn't stay anymore.

[@bigbaddave1095]

That part hit me too. I was watching and my mind didn't process it fro a second and then I was like "WAIT, what?" I had to watch it over again to realize the full impact and look at how that manifests in my life. I love those little "holy shit!" moments.

[@RubberNinja00]

How do I love myself?

[@Corvid]

Accepting that you're loving someone who truly can't love themselves, and will never quite love back as much as you need is soul destroying... It's bad enough feeling guilty that you're wanting more than they can give... and it's basically your own fault for giving everything you've got to try and help them, and have to give in, and agree with the statement you always denied, "you deserve better".

[@MrJRhacks]

I really expected a negative response from the audience, but I am pleasantly surprised to see the viewers are open-minded.

[@BT-nv4ck]

Is it that much of a heated topic? Damn. It's just a drug that you can take one time, no? It's not even addictive

[@MrJRhacks]

It's because people nowadays think that all drugs are bad, without doing any kind of research.

[@DS-uo1zy]

Burning Thermyte people& society are crazy

[@The-Dirty-Straw]

Nah. The audience wouldn't have recieved this as bad at all.

[@hermanubis96]

You clearly live in a parallel reality where stoner movies haven't been extremely popular for the last 15 years

[@PlusSe7en]

Hearing this made me cry. I think my inner child feels the same way.

[@chaitrali_chaudhari]

Same

[@PsychologyOfTheFight]

Ayahuasca was the best thing I ever did in my life. Thanks so much for sharing

[@alexandreparent5754]

I really want to try this sometime. I think it would break something that holds me back in depression even if my life isnt hard. I just find it boring and life made me so hard as diamond to get hurt or being happy that I no longer express feelings most of the time. I talk about my depression without problem because I rationalized everything and its not something that makes me sad or anything. I always thought it was about acceptance that life isnt for me. I need to break the chains and I think I would need a psychologist but I would want to try DMT.

[@brodeythedisciplinebarber1117]

Did you go to south America?

[@BitchItsJules]

@@alexandreparent5754 hey bro I am in the same situation. I am thinking of trying ayahuasca as a last hope to cure my depression which has made my life hell... I have tried psychiatry and talking to professionals but they always tell me things I already know... Been on so many medications too, done all the drugs out there except heroin, but other than weed I havent tried any psychedelics. I went to treatment centers, psych wards, 12 step meetings, therapy, but nothing solved the issue. Meditation and excersice help a bit, and medication lifts my mood and let's me function, but I just feel like an empty shell of a person now, even being happy feels artificial and false, because I know my life is meaningless and depressing and I should be crying daily, but Im floating through it in a state of denial so I don't have to feel how much I'm suffering atm, but the result is feeling so disconnected from everything and myself. I think if I tried ayahuasca it would help me get out all my buried sadness and anger and fear and give me knowledge of how to fix the problem from within. I think for some people their ego has grown so detatched from their emotions that just talking about it has no effect! I am interested in how it goes for you. Good luck!

[@alexandreparent5754]

@@BitchItsJules I am better now, I am exercising 3 to 4 times per week. I have friends and one that is a true friend. I am working on making my bedroom a more beautiful and peaceful place. I am working a lot on myself. My main cause of depression was that I didnt took care of me and forced myself to be as virtuous as possible and working on myself to be one of the individuals that would make this world a better place. I did put a lot of pressure on me and I am taking more care of myself before trying helping the world. You cant clean the world if you cant clean your room. My depression is almost entirely how I felt alone in a world that is close minded and that people dont treat each other well. I worked on how to be the best person to make the society going foward but now its time to take care of me a little. Good luck to you too, whoever you are. Go look for some help if its not the case, there's nothing about being weak. Admitting that you need help needs humongus balls and take a lot of humility. I really hope you will move foward in life.

[@NeuroPulse]

Congrats on re-learning how to feel aswell. I also went about 10 years without crying because "men don't cry". I did not go 10 years without misery. In fact, the hard times were far worse because I was not able to release the emotion. A couple years ago I learned how to cry again. It was extremely difficult and required training. It was ultimately a couple strong catalysts that helped me cry my first couple times. I was amazed to discover that the sensation of crying was actually an extremely pleasurable and relieving release of emotion! It even felt physically pleasurable in my face. Ever since then I feel so much more connected to my emotions if I am in a safe enough place to freely express them.

[@an6350]

Wow it's crazy to hear that anyone could go so long without crying. Men are seriously pressured by society, and it's really sad. I hope you feel free to let out your emotion now, it's really good for your mental health.

[@yassinlwest6258]

Were you emotionally numb? I am, so if you were pleaase help me

[@sarahowen6764]

My inner child wants to play video games, explore outside, and just wrestle with puppies and get dirty. I've been living this "professional" lifestyle and have forgotten who I am. I haven't done any of these in a long time. Thank you for this, Charlie. ❤️

[@Charismaoncommand]

Haha, sounds just like mine!

[@alexismisselyn3916]

Sarah Owen I have struggled with video game addiction, and in my honest opinion, I don’t believe your inner child wants to play video games. I don’t mean to be rude though, you don’t have to take my advice, just please consider it Good day

[@stedjuba259]

Please don't wrestle puppies

[@twinkiemp]

I'm currently in Peru and have done ayahuasca. I had a great experience and got what I needed. Glad you're talking about this!

[@petergeramin7195]

Are you a native or exchange student of some sort

[@sunshine-yr4qw]

How did you get the entire tripped booked?

[@blznft9513]

Cat Catt That’s What Im wondering

[@existinguser7788]

He did this all in one take without a single “uh” or “uhm” wtf

[@acr_master5594]

@Mr. 8-Bit Doggo OOORRR get the entities from ur DMT trip to show u how to change it

[@LTtrio]

hate to burst your bubble... 9:31

[@moneyhooligan03]

@@LTtrio lol did you go back & listen to the whole thing again just to prove him wrong, or did you start the video already listening for vocal pauses? Did you finish the video to check for more or was that one vocal pause enough to present your case? I'm asking cause I feel like what you really wanna say is "I couldn't wait to burst your bubble..."

[@cuongbui9708]

He reads from cue cards.

[@chaol7770]

Thats why we watch him

[@Nono-ql3od]

Holyyyy! I’m historically crying right now due to the realisation of how much I can relate to this. I as well have been repressing my inner child and joy for sooooo long and didn’t realise at all! I’m so happy to have this realisation and this beautiful vulnerable video that has enlightened me soo much right now! Thank you! Thank you ! Thank you !

[@royedwards51]

Hysterically crying not historically - lol

[@finn8579]

"You don't play, you pratice..." That's so me.... Thanks

[@OMIMmusic]

Same... I mean, I enjoy my music but it's more about performing at a certain level and less about JUST writing/recording for the joy of it.

[@DepressionTalks1]

Bro, I really love how honest and open you are about your life and experiences. That's why I love watching man! What an experience!

[@stevenschelling8452]

You are such an engaging storyteller, I can’t remember the last time I just listened to someone monologue for this long without any cuts. Great story great message, thanks for enriching my experience \m/

[@safariinc]

I feel like this is what a lot of women mean when they talk about “emotional labor.” It’s taking emotional care of an adult who is detached from themselves and trying to show them that detachment so that they fix it. Glad you were able to come to this realization and that it was a good experience for you.

[@sabrinakrisb4672]

Good point

[@AscendedMasculine]

Dont seek it, let it find you My first experience killed my ego and I saw God 🤷‍♂️

[@mgal6234]

That’s so fkn awesome. I wish I had the guts to try. Were you religious going into it?

[@erikacisneros1451]

You saw God? I want to know more

[@mr.givings8080]

You saw God? Were you able to talk with Him?

[@vincivedivicilextalionas4036]

@@erikacisneros1451 Take 3 huge hits of DMT if you wanna see God

[@erikacisneros1451]

@@vincivedivicilextalionas4036 was not planning on doing it. It was just a question lol

[@Artem992]

12:45 "discipline and growth-mindedness KILLS JOY". Thank you for this powerful insight - it resonates with me massively. I feel relieved that you've spoken on this conclusion, as I've had that feeling recently as well.

[@KlausHendryck]

Thanks for educating people about it, our society needs these experiences !

[@pegasBaO23]

And also for advocatting safe and legal use

[@martonpap4536]

I don't know about legal but big up for safe and responsible use!

[@pegasBaO23]

Márton Pap Unless I misundertood, he went in special place in the amazon, which either has a special permit, or the ban isn't enforced which in a sense puts in a legal gray area

[@martonpap4536]

pegasBaO23 yes he did you did not misunderstand, what I meant was that drug laws are ridicoulos and inconsistent, therefore I personally have a hard time taking them seriously, that of course is idiotic in itself cause it changes nothing about the fact that the police can lock me up anytime basically

[@mariostsag6685]

A Happy Broccoli heyyyyyyyyy this us Leo????? I think you see leos videos

[@TheFanGuy]

People will be looking back to this video 10 years later as the point where it all began. This is where Charlie Escobar started, with his charisma he built the biggest drug empire of the internet world while convincing the goverment he was running a self-help empire.

[@poison03nae]

Omg yessssss 😂😂 to funny

[@tellitubie123]

Holy shit is that Jordan Chase? TAKE IT

[@bmxion]

Omg, Lol!

[@RS-chino]

😂😂😂

[@luc4lvar3s30]

The Fan Guy im crying!!!!! lmaoooo

[@Syr3]

Man, this video resonated with me SO hard. I too feel like I repress my inner child. I am also always trying to be constantly productive, and I hide many feelings while at it. Heck, even when I am playing video-games, I am focusing on getting better at them! I need to let my inner child play more. Your video made me realize that. Thanks man! It is not the first time Charisma on Command helped me in a deep psychological and philosophical manner. You guys are amazing! Thanks for everything :D

[@chicoloco341]

This was crushing. I have lived an unusually happy life and have always wondered how considering I am a Mensa level community college dropout who makes a decent living yet plays 2 games all year and rewatches all seasons of The Office every 8 months. I've lived my life for the kid inside me and have failed to reach my potential. The kid inside me told me to grow up and now I will.

[@RB_Musik]

4:10 "the shaomin said (ad takes over) I make about $20k to $30k a month"....LOLOLOLOL

[@ProdCharles]

I did an exercise similar to the one Charlie mentioned at the end that worked sort of in reverse, but I feel like this video helps explain that experience - got into a meditative state, eyes closed and lying on the floor, with some calm music in the background that was similar to a soothing jingle on some sort of baby toy/rocker. I was told to imagine all of the things that I am doing and will do to make my loved ones happy. I was just calm, seeing everyone happy - it was wonderful. I was getting more relaxed. Then, I was told to imagine myself as a young child around age 5-7 playing in a playground. The flash to that image of myself as a young child was so visceral: all images I had conjured in my mind had effortlessly parted ways to the sight of that young child in a playground with a brilliant flash of white light. I was told to imagine the child using their favourite piece of playground equipment after a long day of play, that child who didn't have a care in the world about anything we do as we grow up. I looked at him and remembered thinking that this poor little boy had no idea of all the struggles and events life was going to throw at him. Then I had to tell him something that he would take with him to help improve his life forever. It was hard for me to walk up to him, hard to even look him in the eyes - heck I'm welling up just writing this... I told him over and over to just do what makes him truly happy and not worry what everyone else thinks of you - to not sacrifice yourself for the benefit of others - and then I hugged him. And I broke. Could not continue the exercise as I flooded with tears. I got up immediately and left the room and I had no idea where I was going or what time or day it was, but I just wanted to walk away forever. I just walked and walked down this long hallway - I had NO IDEA which direction I was going to turn, if I was going to leave the building, nothing. It was like autopilot. One of the people conducting the session had to run up to me and bring me back. They sat with me outside the room and comforted me until it was over. Even though I knew what the conductors were doing, and even though I had a feeling that I knew what was coming, I didn't expect it to hit me that hard. I thought it was just a meditative mind game, but this video makes so much sense of it, now - at least I think it does. It seems like my inner child unleashed in that moment and brought forward all the years of repressed emotions. They took over for the first time in years and didn't show signs of letting go. It was almost like a punishment, but I probably deserved it. If that instructor didn't come to get me, I have no idea where I would have gone. The experience was extremely cathartic. Despite that, I have a feeling that my inner child wasn't done with me, yet. Cannot imagine how it would be like with the help of ayahuasca. Trust me, you will not be truly prepared for your body's response to communicating with your inner child.

[@esnutaliah]

Thank you for sharing your experience too!! I had the same thing and just commented earlier. Sleep deprivation brought it on, and it's just amazing to be able to hug your child self and give them the love that is taken out by this cold for-profit world.

[@Brisbae]

It sounds like a great experience! I tried Charlie’s method and unfortunately I couldn’t imagine anything at all, especially not on a visceral level as you describe.

[@ProdCharles]

esnutaliah glad you could have a moment like this, too!

[@ProdCharles]

Brisbae it might be because I was assisted by instructors. I had done a similar meditation exercise like it before, too, but we didn't go as far as trying to make conversation with our inner child for that one. Despite being used to entering a meditative state on my own, I don't know if I'd be able to relax deeply enough to continue and follow the dialogue my instructors gave me on my own. I don't know if they exist, but perhaps you could find a script/video/audio that goes through the process Charlie mentions. That way, you only have to be concerned with following instructions, rather than recounting them, as well. Btw, my recount here isn't really the same as Charlie's. I didn't hear my inner child/vision of my younger self speak to me at all, but I felt a violent emotional reaction as a result of speaking to him. This video really does explain why that happened though, especially since I'm never emotional and never cry.

[@MelodeathxTed]

I'm too scared to do it. Scared that it will tell me something that I can't bare to hear. I've rejected myself and it makes me sad just to say that.

[@gulfgiggleanimations4472]

The worst thing that I've ever done to myself is convincing myself that the things I do are work and not play. What's the point of being an animator if it's not fun? What's the point of being an artist? Or an Actor if the only joy that I find in the entire process is when there's just another piece of content created? I've been using and honing these skills as a means to an end, the end product, and it's usually pretty decent. I never drew as a kid because I wanted to hone a skill, or for the sake of the finished creation, but because it was just fun to draw things. I realized this all because of all the KZbinrs I hear saying something along the lines of, "Making youtube videos they want to make." It's not for the joy I bring to others, it's for the joy that I bring to myself through the process.

[@mdalion]

What if you're not an achiever, but a complete time waster? Would I need to speak to my inner adult? Asking for a friend.

[@jinXeD546933]

The "time waster" is just another (culturally conditioned) adult framing of your experience.

[@Mackathne]

Sounds like you could almost come up with the answer to that yourself, just think a little. You've already identified what you feel like is a problem, so figure out small ways you can help yourself get into the habit of being productive. Try cleaning a small portion of your room or house. If you notice something that makes you feel a little uncomfortable like a pile of clothes or some tangled wires, or even something much bigger like a habit of pushing things to the last minute, then make small steps today to fix what you tell yourself you will do tomorrow. I heavily suggest watching some of Jordan Peterson's motivational video clips that people put together on KZbin. Some profound stuff. And let me tell you it's amazing how beneficial taking those small steps can really be on your mood / psyche, especially once you really solidify them into a habit.

[@hautemama85]

😂😂😂

[@silentladyd]

I have a similar question. And I think the worst thing you can do is to put blame on yourself or others that you lack willpower. So my advice would be embrace it, make peace with it and then start small, make small changes, figure out what makes you tick, what drives you out of that state and start finding stuff you are passionate about, slowly build self confidence by leaning a new skill, focus on what makes you happy

[@dethmaul]

Maybe tour inner child desires structure. Yeah kids are carefree, but a little structure is urgent. You see kids with no direction running wild, same thing with puppies.

[@carlyconnell1828]

Another powerful way to get in touch with your inner child is writing with your non-dominant hand! After getting in the mindset of your child self, try writing questions to your child self with your dominant hand and just wait for the answer as your non-dominant hand responds. I cry every time I go through this exercise, and it's nice to have physical reflections to look back at later.

[@MartinALopez-gz5kf]

kinda like the ouija? your non dominant hand responds with its own mind? (I'm being serious)

[@NintCondition]

5:58 I sobbed. Straight out sobbed. Tears shot from my eyes. When you tried to shut down your inner child I felt gut wrenchingly sorrow for the little you that you rejected. I don't even know why I had this response, it came from what seems out of nowhere. Through your talk it made me realize that I am the opposite of this. I play to much, my inner child runs my life and not in a good way. I procrastinate, I find humor in almost everything, I have fun doing the simplest tasks and i avoid work that i don't find enjoyable at all cost. I also eat like crap and i realized that I'm stuck. I do not know what to do about being stuck or how to balance this part of me. If anyone has any suggestions, I'm open to hearing them because I know that there are so many things that I just let me pass by and if I put effort towards I would be much more productive.

[@your.dark.lord.]

Finding something that really motivates you.

[@yamiyobi]

I scensed some actual emotion during this monolog. Amazing

[@mrhammers78]

You must be scenscitive

[@maikolosav]

I had never heard of ayahuasca. This was a very unique video for me and I'm really glad you had such an enlightening experience! Thanks for sharing.

[@donutboy2497]

I never thought I would see a dmt video on this channel haha

[@NowhereMan7]

Can you link it?

[@ItsAsparageese]

DMT is an element of ayahuasca but they're not the same experience, doing DMT straight is a whole different world especially depending on its source and its processing. Please don't contribute to public confusion by equating the two, it really skips some important nuance

[@tatjanamarusic3529]

@@ItsAsparageese could you explain how they're different?

[@everytimesthefirsttime]

A decade without crying?! Jesus, I can't even go 3 days without tearing up at least a little bit at whatevers happening (usually happy things)

[@daviddungworth3710]

This has honestly been the most eye opening , life changing video I’ve seen on KZbin. I have struggled personally with deep rooted problems that I never knew the answer to. I never would have thought it was my inner child screaming for help as I always thought I had a happy life. Thank you for his awakening it has been a huge wake up call to actually enjoy my life

[@xXLegendarybeatXx]

really cool that you share your experience with us!

[@oIJustForFunIo]

Dude, I cried watching this...

[@djwestbrook36]

Let the inner child out

[@marshall731]

Same man, this video struck deep cords in me

[@Divinitykim]

[@alexdevcamp]

Same

[@sbman3235]

I'm from The Netherlands and it's remarkable how 'common' psychedelic drugs are here. I mean, you can go to a so called smart shop (like every big town has at least one) and buy truffles there. These shrooms vary in intensity and are completely legal. Even the mildest variant takes you on a mild euphoric trip that puts certain aspects of life in a very different light. I tried it once with a friend who was very insecure about how things were going in his life, so we bought some with a couple of mates, sat down in the woods and tripped our asses of. It's amazing what psychedelics do to your brain and what lessons you can learn from yourself.

[@wulvershon8948]

Weergaloos lmao truffels are nothing compared to this

[@baggens55]

@@wulvershon8948 I have heard that the ayuascaros recommend partaking in psychedelic experiences every few months (including mushrooms)

[@wulvershon8948]

Games Played Badly what you mean recommend? I think It’s a great it change me for sure but I don’t think I would recommend people to do it lol

[@blznft9513]

Wul Vershon Does it help with memory ? Like improvements

[@wulvershon8948]

Blzn Ft what you mean memory? Yes it changes you for the better and inproved you but im not Sure what youre trying to accomplish tho its not a harddrive you put in your computer and get 1tb lol

[@allegory3826]

Hell yeah brother, 16 ceremonies over two summers into the jungle. Life changing, medical background myself, non drinker or smoker. Ayahuasca very much feels like mushrooms to me, would recommend if you want to work on yourself more in the future. Set setting and intention.

[@kingmaya222]

This is so synchronistic. I used to watch you but unsubbed a while ago because I didn't want to put too much pressure on me being charismatic and pleasing other people. I really started my spiritual journey. Then today I asked the universe for a sign they were with me. I felt disconnected in some ways, and recalled my own trips and wish i could have similar experiences. Never tried ayauascha but looked it up to listen to other people's experiences. Your video was the first video to pop up, and it was posted 22 hours ago, 22 being a special number for me. Watching this I realized I too need to focus on my inner child. I wish you'd do more videos like this one, I really enjoyed it.

[@gustafrindestal]

"Let them flow.. Let them flow.. Can't hold them back anymore.." I have also worked on releasing my true feelings. Now I realise it's nothing to work on, just to let them flow. Let them flow.

[@Charismaoncommand]

Flow is the right word :-)

[@gustafrindestal]

Thanks a lot! Flow state is magical

[@johnherosalvador2708]

Isn't this lyrics from Frozen?

[@gustafrindestal]

John Hero Salvador Yes, you are so right my friend! But a little bit remixed. "Let it go. Let it go. Can't hold it back anymore" is the original

[@fishjohn014]

Really don't think your audience knows much about psychedelics hahaha

[@Charismaoncommand]

I think that is a very safe assumption haha

[@nickcherries]

Charisma on Command I was so happily surprised to see this upload

[@fishjohn014]

Charisma on Command more Jordan Peterson videos too plz!!

[@shuc.8089]

So i want to clear something up about psychedelics like LSD, Shrooms, DMT.. What they can cause is a split in your personality. It is because those drugs cause DMT to produce in your brain, which in result cause you a minor or major ego death/loss of ego. What this means in detail is that you feel the one-ness of everything, the holy spirit is what christians call it or 'prana' they call it in hinduism. Everything that is conscious has a soul or a energy-system flowing inside of them, which is connected to the source. This is what many feel as the 'unending feeling of love, or mass consciousness', they feel how they are connected to every other living being. They feel the nature, they see life in a tree for example. But achieving this through meditation like buddha is the goal, since drugs can only show you half of the truth, and when you were not ready mentally and spiritually it can cause major disorders like personality and memory loss. Just look at 'kundalini awakening horror/fail' and you see what can happen.

[@bingethinner7045]

Shu C. This is true. LSD can bring mental disorders to fruition much earlier than usual. Three of my friends were different after doing it a few times; 2 diagnosed with BPD 1 schizo.

[@verocious266]

Comparison is the thief of joy. Being an achiever it's hard not to compare yourself to others, otherwise you wouldn't push further. It all comes down to a balancing act.

[@Livmylifelivi]

You must watch Ralph Smart’s videos.

[@gregkral4467]

Dude, that is really deep, actually it almost feel like your experience explains a lot in my own personal life.... I never felt like a kid since about 6, then it was just..... stifling, shutting up, getting lost in books...... gotta play more, haven't even taken a vacation in like 16 yrs...... stresses.... wow. Very insightful, thank you so much for sharing your experience.

[@monicacollins8289]

Ayahuasca is now legal in the US. My daughter is going to her third retreat in two years, and this time I'm going too (my first time). We'll be in the mountains of the California coast. This video has helped reassure me and ease me into the next two weeks of preparation. Thank you.

[@joser.guerra9267]

I congrat you for manage yourself. I had 2 experiences with ayahuasca, it is a psychedelic tool for introspection, who get into your subconscious mind. And you can see and feel very deep things of you. Is for braves

[@mgoskay]

Jose R. Guerra how is it differ from other stuff like alcohol, weed or truffle? They give the same effect eventually if you consantrate on yourself and your feelings the same way you go in for Ayahuasca

[@cthecheese1620]

Muge Muge Have you ever used Ayahuasca? I’d imagine not if you consider the drugs you just mentioned to “do the same thing”. Mother Ayahuasca and her gift isn’t like alcohol while weed and shrooms are nowhere near the same either...

[@Mussi93]

Muge No, just no. The substances you named don't have the same effects at all, no matter how hard you try to concentrate and focus on yourself. Alcohol is one of the most numbing substances and cannot be compared in the slightest to weed and mushrooms. Weed and mushrooms can have similar effects, depending on the dosage and person, because both have psychedelic effects, but they are still very different drugs.

[@TheSitch]

Muge Stronger psychedelics literally unearth deeply repressed feelings. It's like they cast a line deep into your subconscious, and reel out character traits that you may not have previously fully comprehended the effects of. Some might be suppressed, and leading to an underlying sadness that you never fully understood, where others could be leading to the people you love being hurt. Once such traits have been revealed to you, you can begin to face these problems and better yourself and your relationships with others. Also, you feel like you live a hundered lifetimes and shit, and that's pretty dope too

[@ronnielopez295]

Correct

[@Foxarocious]

I'm really happy you've spoken with that side of yourself and your words have made me realize how much I actually listen to that kid. I had the sense that I was losing him, but I actually speak to him every week. The crying with joy is something I've trained myself to do as a way to practice gratitude for everything. You basically affirmed to me that I'm doing the right thing and reminded me that it's my choice of how much I allow him out. My teenage self is super repressed, though, I feel...as a result of not dating or experiencing/exploring my sexuality back then. I'm enthused to see what I can do for that now lol

[@X-AEA-12]

This is so sad that people let themselves forget to just Be.

[@widjadija]

edgarae1 how can we forget when we are surrounded by reminders? Social media-“they’re doing well, they’re having fun, they look so happy, I should be there too.” Family-Whether it’s their fault or their own fault, people often find themselves trying to live up to their friends’ and family’s standards and try to impress them. To just be today, you have to learn a few skills that are really difficult to learn, including but not limited to: not caring what others think, know what YOU want in your life instead of just listening to others, and following the compass to your own happiness. This is one reason I love Gary V. He can be misunderstood with all his “hustle” posts and videos, but his message is definitely to do what makes you happy and yeah it’ll be a hard conversation with your friends and family, but it will be worth it in the end.

[@frosty129]

Just Beryllium?

[@Susitamarie]

Been thinking about ayawaska for years to purge my childhood trauma. I feel it is the only thing to bring me peace and be able to live the autumn of my life in a mindful loving manner feeling good about myself.

[@oscarperez5539]

Look up transformation mastery for that

[@Susitamarie]

Alex Ox. But it’s not a drug. It’s medicine from god. It’s amazing that with all the different plant life in the jungle that the shamans knew the bark of this and leaves of that can create such a life changing and spiritual experience.

[@82566]

Iam entertaining this thought myself, researching all I can right now

[@Susitamarie]

@@82566 it’s not for every one. But can be the best medicine for the people who need it.

[@81klong]

Wow, I feel as if I've been drawn to the video for a purpose. This is the very first video I've watched of yours and I feel like it was speaking directly to me. I've forgotten how to have fun and to be joyful just for the sake of it. Everything in my life is done for a purpose and an outcome and not just because! I'm going to try and connect with my inner child and find out how I can heal. Thank you, loved the video.

[@Charismaoncommand]

~ Awesome!

[@Beautifulcoil]

I highly recommend anyone with mental issues check out microdosing. I can't express how greatly it affected my life.

[@movement2contact]

Which substance?

[@MiningFaith]

I'm really curious... I have been doing research on microdosing for a long time now, but could not find an authentic personal experience. I would be very very thankful if you could describe how microdosing affected your life and your mental health. I also would love to hear about the substance you used and the dosage. You would do me a huge favour, mate :)

[@planetsheen1020]

Stefan Elfert there's a great subreddit about it

[@johnnyarenas9962]

Definitely not if they have family history of schizophrenia. Depression, yes.

[@johnnyarenas9962]

movement2contact 1p-lsd, ald-52, psilocybin mushrooms

[@QuentinDamour]

Quite surprised to see this topic on this channel, a happy surprise ! :)

[@evanphillips6256]

"you don't play, you practice"... wow.

[@alexmeier1]

The most genuine video you have ever made. I still felt the ego shield up, but less than usual in this video.

[@samuelburningham5266]

Yeah, a little more emotion in this video ngl...

[@chickensandwich8808]

I find this video great because it highlights something not just about yourself but what a lot of people struggle with. That is that our greatest strength can and often is also our greatest weakness. Your entire channel is a testament to your talent to analyze and process the information in a way that is easy to digest. You obviously love what you do, but at least at the time of this event you went to, you hadn't really learned how to "turn it off" and I know I struggle with that as well in my own areas I feel strong in. Like your story about the guitar and always trying to figure out how to get better, but never just allowing yourself to enjoy the abilities you have cultivated without having to worry about being "better" in that moment. It's really all very enlightening.

[@missmiss7845]

I’m glad you shared this experience!

[@SashleyStevens]

To be able to feel a full range of emotion is incredibly freeing

[@Charismaoncommand]

100% agree

[@nick_czarny]

I always learn something useful on this channel but with this upload I feel that I have learned something truly profound. Thank you.

[@Charismaoncommand]

~ That's awesome, thanks Nick!

[@ellewoodard4139]

Brotherrrrrr, I play oboe and often find the joy’s been sucked out of playing but I wasn’t sure why. I love singing, it’s my favorite thing to do. I sing for myself not for anyone else, I play oboe for my school, for auditions, for colleges. “You don’t play, you practice” sent me straight into tears. Thank you, your channel helps me more than anything.

[@tashd363]

Thank you for reminding me to connect to my inner child. My experiences have taught me to take care of her but I forget so often 😔. Brings tears to my eyes hearing your story. Thank you ❤🙏🏽

[@animefreek217]

Glad you had a health experiences with this! Drugs aren't all bad :)

[@nigelliotta3440]

I got an ad right when at "...the shaman said-" with a guy who immediately started talking about having 3 WiFi networks. 😂

[@amna0alhawaj]

Being this honest on social media is so fucking brave it's so admirable. Thank you for showing your vulnerable side it teaches me so much about being a true leader. ❤

[@blackmamba6046]

You talked about feeling joy and you quickly specified that you are not talking about feeling joy over getting an award for you work but feeling joy for no particular reason. And yes I agree that's absolutely the best :). But the funny thing is that when you get into that mental space it allows you to truly feel joy over that award too. And over any achievement such as the money raising event you had organisés but thought of as not that big of a deal. You weren't actually able to tap into that joy cuz you didn't think that what you had achieved was enough. And that's a case of so many people. I know because I was one of them until I have changed it through shadow work thanks to psychotherapy, hypnosis, coaching and other healing modalities. I have also done ayahuasca. I had 3 sessions in Peru. And all of them were different. And in one of them I felt this absolute bliss and joy of being. All of the sessions were incredible experiences.

[@3fo5]

Dude ! You are too Awsome! Much love and Respect. Thank you for sharing your inner child with us.

[@svengalilord]

A person is more ecosystem than entity. Within each of us is a whole range of different personalities with various needs and desires

[@GabrieleRanonyte]

Your story only made me realise so much about myself I can’t even begin to imagine how much experiencing ayahuasca myself is going to help me realise! Wow thank you so much for this video! 🙏🏻

[@alexjohnson5916]

You are truly one of the most knowledgeable people I have ever had the pleasure of listening to. I learned so much from every video and I will be repeating every video and I will likely look into your university. Thank you for all the love and hope you spread

[@KaoticReach1999]

With so many people with PTSD an depression being cured an more studies looking promising, this isn't surprising

[@rubenwagner7361]

Hey Charlie! Could you make a video focussing on Freddie Mercury and entertaining/hooking up an audience. This may be hard because he was mainly singing, but I think this makes this ability of him even more remarkable. I know you've did videos like this in the past, but I think he is a great example and deserves a video on his own. Nevertheless keep up the great work, really love your videos. Greetings from Germany

[@JoshPalerLin]

Amazing. Thanks for sharing 💙

[@DublinAviation]

I like your shoulders their curvature is vigorously pleasing.

[@MaxLangworthy]

Dublin Aviation what

[@iusegentoobtw]

I like it

[@travv88]

lol plainest shoulders I've seen

[@Abraxis86]

His style is like hot butter melting into my nether regions.

[@diego_wagner]

This comment

[@geoattoronto]

Wow. Incredible! That was so very clear and well done. And I am writing a book on the Inner Child. Beautiful. And I am in tears.

[@BrettTorina]

Improv. It's a "play"ground for adults that has wide ranging benefits across both personal and professional goals. I've never belly laughed so hard and felt so vulnerable at the same time. Can't remember if you've done vids on improv or tried it yourself but thought I'd throw in my 2 cents. Appreciate the work you're doing and keep enjoying the journey

[@SalemGTV]

Wow, this was incredible. I really didn't think id make it through the whole video, but I'm glad I did. I remember when I bought my ps4 back a few months ago I felt really guilty saying things like "its a waste if money and time, you sold it for a reason, you could be making progress, ect." But I knew this mindset wasnt healthy. I totally get were u are coming from. But like we all do, I have my own problems to fix and I think I might try this ayahuasca thing out.

[@Elliebellebama]

I've never done any drugs, but if I was it would be ayahuasca!

[@Charismaoncommand]

I felt similarly. I don't have an interest in escaping or even enhancing normal experience for enjoyment, but my research showed this could have a really therapeutic effect which is what attracted me to it

[@vinny5638]

This is an interesting mindset, everyone does drugs. The term drug has been stigmatized to make people immediately think of unhealthy street substances, but any physical object that produces a physiological affect including flintstones vitamins and energy drinks are drugs. Drugs aren't bad, they're tools, and a tools moral implication is defined solely by the intent of its user.

[@Beautifulcoil]

I don't think it's safe. Please start with small doses of LSD first.

[@utm0st]

Wouldn't be that smart. Ayahuasca as a starting point for psychedelics could result in a bad trip. You should experiment with low doses of LSD or mushrooms first

[@MK-hs9ck]

Liberamente It's extremely safe, nobody has ever died from doing Ayahuasca.

[@gregkral4467]

Hmm, sounds like it may be very helpful. Been a very rough 40yrs.... BTW you have a great smile, and you are fun to listen to. Thanks.

[@hatatubeshah870]

I did Ayahuasca 3 months ago in Colombia. I live in Canada. It has been hard to settle back to my life. I realized how disconnected I was to my true self and emotions. After you experience something so deep and spiritual, there is an invisible chain that breaks off you. You get in touch with your animal instinct. Then you can never ever ever ignore that in you. I tried to seemingly be content with my life when I came back from Colombia. It has been 3 months. I could no longer take the dissatisfaction last week. I said fuck it man. I let go of a job I hated and got rid many of my long term superficial relationships. Its hard but I already feel way less miserable! Thank you mother nature, gave hope to LIFE

[@Mraccusity]

Whoever said that intelligent content can't be personal? Glad to see you use your KZbin channel in this way.

[@aaronasmus284]

Wow man, that was very interesting. I've heard several accounts of peoples experiences on ayahuasca, and they all seem different. I've never heard one like this though, and it made a lot of sense. Very cool. I guess it is hard to notice an imbalance if everything looks good in your life externally. Great video.

[@OneWithMagic]

thanks for sharing this experience, probably the most important video you have made.

[@Charismaoncommand]

Thanks so much!

[@aidenhall559]

"The forbidden room" is just a test

[@Mydogisfoxy]

Thank you for being vulnerable. You're helping people and the planet.

[@nadineg1889]

Wow! This video is one of the clearest views of the inner child that I've heard. Makes me want to be in touch with that part rather than as you said 'caring what other people think'

[@acr_master5594]

Joe "Geometric Patterns that are made of love and understanding" Rogan

[@epistemicmind4175]

Dude its awesome you shared this! Thanks! Really Appreciate it!

[@Pnankissoon6]

Charlie you really do look and seem happier. This is something I also am ver interested in. I would like to know...how did you knew where was a valid source for ayahuasca?

[@Oatskii]

Thank goodness you posted this. I’m a huge advocate for psychedelics, especially DMT, to assist with mental health and to elevate the average human mind. There is something very important to be learned by stepping so far out of what is comfortable that you fall off the earth. This has personally been a major driving force for my successes to date, and an inspiration for how I want to design my life. Thank you for having this on your channel with all the influence you have. Many blessings to you from the lover ayahuasca

[@msteaguer1908]

At 6:54, you helped me- inner child. I have not listened to her, she's tried so many times yet I would take account of others. I stopped feeling, I pretended, yet there is this need to have deep laugh lines on my face. I'm scared, she's scared and misses being protected by my late parents [physical presence]- being protected and having that safety net. I will pay attention to her, as she wants to have frilly dresses blowing in the wind, being a drama queen when needed, being pampered/taken care of. she wants to spring forward on a white bicycle with blue flowers [my Dad got it for my 6th birthday, I rode in the rain due to the excitement]. I need that strong cocky man to protect me. Thank you, I was forwarded to your channel.

[@DJBremen]

Thank you for sharing this.

[@OpenMind3000]

Why have I missed this video? :) Love it :) Psychedelics can be a great tool.

[@daMysteryy]

cool, dass du auch hier bist :D

[@noahrichter920]

Hätte dich hier erwarten sollen 😂

[@AnaTheWiseBanana]

This was really insightful. Thank you.

[@Charismaoncommand]

Glad you liked it :-)

[@noticetheocean1883]

It’s so cool that more people are getting into stuff like this. This break up is leading you on a journey of self discovery.

[@TendoTheDude]

Dude, this is an incredible video. This is by far the most profound and educational video you have ever made in my opinion, and that's saying something because all of your videos are such.

[@KhemistrySet]

Sounds like you had to reparent yourself... You’re right - when you rediscover your inner child there is nothing like rebonding with yourself. Great job!