Ep 89 - Hi👋....it's been a while

[@valeriesugden718]

I feel you- two years ago this month my husband died from pancreatic cancer and every day I miss him, and every day I work on converting the pain to joy. Knitting became my therapy. I might only wear the sweater once or twice a year, but knitting that sweater got me through that dark time. Thank you so much for being honest.

[@chevyrell]

Awww, I’m sorry about the loss of your hubby😔 the waves of grief are rough bc they come out of no where!

[@thekindles1183]

I lost my mom to Pancreatic five years ago, and it is waves of grief throughout the years. Hugs to you! I'm so sorry for your loss. - Kimberly

[@katiemcdaniel8134]

You don't owe us an explanation at all! Just know that you bring light to my day and it was a really nice surprise to logon and see you posted! THANK YOU for sharing so much of yourself with us, we all love you!

[@KimClinger]

Those of us who have lost someone we love like you did your dad, know! My heart goes out to you…❤ I jumped all over the notification that your video posted. Thanks for coming back!

[@charlesoberdorf8478]

Donna here, it is ALWAYS a treat to see you! You are my favorite knitter. I lost my son to stomach cancer and a month and ten days later I lost my mom to lung cancer. That was 6 years ago and I still can't listen to certain songs I get mad every spring and don't want to talk to anyone. I picked up learning to knit bc my mom had needles and yarn in a basket when I came to her house that she left me. It helped that I had something to concentrate on other than the sorrow around me. Thank you for talking about this subject.

[@chevyrell]

Oh, my, that’s so much in such a short period of time😞 I try to think of it as there have been many before us that get through and we will too….. not that that helps the hurt any. I find knitting/crochet to be soothing to the soul, and don’t know what I would do without it 💜

[@karenjordan1822]

Hugs to you. Thank you for sharing. Life has its curveballs and even if it’s not a surprise, it hits you hard. My heart is with you. One day at a time. Hope to see you soon. 💜

[@pamleverette3860]

I LOVED seeing you and ALL YOUR STUFF! Grief is such a weird thing…honor it and allow yourself the space to feel all the feels. Happy to have you back!

[@jacquelinesharp7374]

No apologies necessary for not posting in awhile. I am just glad to see you when I can and life needs to come first.

[@debratisdale3116]

So happy to see you back! Understand about the darkness. You look great and Dan is a hoot. Thanks for getting back into it - you are one of my faves.

[@miriyummy]

You had me at that Royal Quilting block! I want to knit an afghan out of that pattern, nothing else! And yay, it's a free pattern. And I'm so happy you're back. My parents died in 2002 and 2009 and the grief comes and goes. I wish you lots of comfort in your memories of your dad.

[@star_athena]

I don’t always comment but I watch every video. I really related to this one in particular. Thanks for being here and reminding us you’re a whole person with ups and downs. We always say, no rain, no rainbows. And funny, I also got a graffiti chip sack! Too cool! ❤❤❤

[@chevyrell]

No rain, no rainbows…. I love it.

[@TomsCraftingCorner]

You are an amazing person Chevas, I love you, and I’m glad you are doing better and that you are back 👏❤️

[@carolbeck3645]

OMGOSH, I've been waiting and watching every few days !! I got so excited when I seen you pop up ! I've been crocheting since I was 11 or 12. You're the reason I'm knitting now !! Your amber shore shawl push me to finally start knitting. When I seen yours, I wanted it so bad ! It's so beautiful ! I love the colors and everything ! I've got the pattern now but I haven't leaned brioche yet but I will. So happy to see you again ! And I'm glad you are feeling better ! I've been having alot of life problems to, so I haven't put up a video about as long as you, but seeing you kind of got me excited to get back on my knitting projects ! I'll be looking forward to seeing you again soon !!

[@tiffanykasadara475]

Chevy! That fan! And the sound it makes! ❤

[@jenniferbarrett3272]

Just love you, Chevy. I laugh so hard at your antics and appreciate your honesty! Grief is hard and depression sucks- glad you hung in and crawled on out the other side. I know it’s not easy. Good luck with the garage sale-I hate them too, but always good to clean out the %#}}% a bit. Your colourwork sweater is the bomb-I look forward to seeing how it turns out. Cheers!

[@geraldinehudson4669]

It's been well worth waiting for a post, you are just as entertaining as ever. I am looking forward to seeing your cardigan when it's finished. Sending you lots of love. 😊

[@holliewood6117]

Oh, Chevas! So much love to you. I’m sorry you’ve been struggling with the big D lately. And the grief. It’s hard and yes, time is the only thing that helps. I understand and I see you. ❤❤❤

[@mbshaddix]

I’ve missed your face!!! And the joy you bring. ❤the blues and grief are rough and bubble up at any time. One day at a time, as you say. We love ya and missed ya.

[@lizadair6218]

So good to see you again! Don’t ever feel sorry for needing time away. Your Voyage sweater has totally inspired me. I’m going to make one with all of my sock leftovers!

[@chevyrell]

Yay!!! Tag me so I can see it 😁

[@kerriewrench1325]

I love watching you, does not matter how long between podcasts, never stop lol

[@tracyvirta6692]

So good to see you. You are not alone. We are all here for you and have our hands reaching out to you for hugs and support. It truly is one day at a time. Love and support of family and friends ( along with a good mental health provider) gets us thru life. Supporting you from Michigan 🧶💕

[@deborah-k-IN]

I am happy to watch you whenever you post an episode. I prefer you take time for yourself. I love the yarn ring. 😁

[@gigiknitsnstuff9832]

Wish you could have heard the excitement when I saw your video posted!! So very sorry to know you have been blue; that kind of loss is beyond hard. Very happy to hear you are getting back to feeling like yourself again! We have all missed you!!

[@lindagrutzmacher4364]

I did the same thing! I saw her episode and immediately went to Ravelry and put it in my cue. I can't wait to try it out and to see yours. It will be a while before I get to mine because I have things i promised the grandbabies that I have to get done first. Great seeing you again. Just come to us when you can. We'll be here.

[@adrienneoliver3825]

Hey!!! I'm glad you liked your happy mail! So happy that you posted an episode. We know that life happens, and you have things to handle. My dad has been gone a year May 24th but It's my mom's passing almost three years ago that rocked my world. Like you said the only thing that helps is time. It hurts so much because we loved so much. XOXO

[@chevyrell]

Awww…..sorry for you losses😞

[@trinakurek3951]

I was just thinking the other day it had been awhile since you had popped up. It's always a good time hanging out with you. Looking forward to the next time. Take care of you.

[@suebigger5097]

I have missed you so much 😢 I’m glad you’re okay and just busy. You always as us show us such cool stuff. Have a great tie in all your endeavors. Please try to come back to us more often, you are missed. Love your shit show. Take care 🥰❤️

[@ianthomson3718]

Great to have you back Chevas. I didn't miss you too much, cause I recently bought myself some Moxy Lollys so been watching roller skating vids and guess who popped up in one! :-). Yep, we get knocked down, we absorb, we get up and learn how to keep going xxx

[@chevyrell]

Yay!!!!! Hope you are having so much fun🤘

[@KKemperCheesebrew]

It was so good to see you Chevas!! You got to take care of yourself, it's very understandable!!

[@teresasleeper2458]

Oh and 1 more thing, you do not ever have to apologize to us viewers! You take care of you ! ( and each other ) ❤

[@NotQuiteEnoughYarn]

Great to see you. Sending all the virtual hugs for the darker stuff and hoping that all went well for your Dad's memorial. Hope the garage sale wasn't horrendous. Take very good care xx

[@chevyrell]

It could’ve been worse😏😝 not rushing to have another for sure

[@KristinF3246]

Good to see you again! I’m happy you are back and glad you are doing well. We all have those moments when we need to regroup….so to speak. Big uncomfortable hugs 🤗❤️🧶

[@wendyknopp1252]

Awe! It's so good to see you. I hope you're finding jot as hard as it is. I l9ve seeing your projects, new goodies and what you're up to. ❤

[@wolvesarebeast2]

I've watched your podcasts but never commented before but I'm glad you are doing better. Sometimes life gives us good and sometimes bad. Just know I appreciate your creative info !

[@carolmorrison5173]

Love you Chevy , take all the time you need.

[@TheDaneYard]

Glad to see you! Big hugs. Marie Pickard

[@barbaraireland6772]

So excited to see you again. As others have already stated, we love you, missed you, and in no way would we put any pressure on any of you wonderful podcasters out there. You guys do amazing work for us to enjoy. And we all can't state it enough or in good enough words the sympathy and empathy we feel for the loss of your dad and others.❤ On your thoughts regarding making things you don't wear, etc, I think and behave the exact same way. I try to wear all the things I have crocheted, and mostly I do, and I try to keep my collections of yarn and other fibre crafts and tools, down to a minimum. I support local makers and producers for the most part. Have tried other yarn crafts, including picking up knitting again, but it all comes back to my passion for crochet. I am also trying to make something for each of my nieces and nephews as legacy pieces as I did not have any children. And I want them to remember me😂. I think there are worse things we could spend our money on, and why do we feel guilty for enjoying what brings us mental health peace and joy! We women are so good and feeling guilty. Anyway, I always love you Chevas for speaking out loud about things that I, too, have bouncing around in my brain all the time. You are the best, make us smile, and bring us joy. We support you from far and wide in your struggles as we have experienced similar things. We deeply thank you for your public presence, honesty, and hardwork!❤❤❤

[@chevyrell]

Thank you so much for your thoughtful words💜 I also think about legacy pieces a lot. I hope that’s how Kole will feel about his monsters. 💜💜💜

[@yarnsandbrews]

Good to see you back again! Grief, sadness, the blues... they're all such powerful things... I'm glad you're coming out on the other side. For your colorwork sweater, you could unpick the ribbing at the bottom and knit that longer (in the opposite direction). Just a suggestion... colorwork can be so challenging sometimes!

[@TheSarahLindy]

Knitting has been on a back burner for me as well for a few months. Just life & stuff, and I feel like i need to be more intentional about making time for it… thanks for sharing ♥️ Sometimes the BS gets us down no matter how hard we try to overcome & I forget how much something small like that can lift us up.

[@franmatthewman253]

So lovely to hear from you darling girl. My mommy passed away in October last year and I’m still in the year of firsts. I totally get where you’re at mentally. I have good and bad days and everything in between. And it will side swipe you out of nowhere. Just keep on trucking through. ❤❤ P.s We call it a “car boot sale” in the UK as you drive your stuff there and sell it from the back of your car usually on a wallpaper pasting table 😂

[@chevyrell]

Aww….sorry to hear about your mom. We are members of a club. We don’t wanna be members of. You are not the first to bring up the boot, how interesting !

[@csp3190]

Am I ready?!!! I am sooooooo ready! I was starting to worry about you, you had been silent for so long. Wanted to check on you on Instagram, but didn't want to pressure you to record something. Never pressure from here, but I do love to see your face come across my KZbin. You make my day, gurrrrl. And even in your gray days, remember that there are a lot of us out here who love you to pieces, even if we've never met IRL. Maybe that will brighten the skies just a bit.

[@carolroy5435]

Hey Girlfriend! 👋 Dan's rockin' the Grizzly Adams look for sure 🧔 Tetris is my jam too. (Husband loved Duck Hunt...go figure) Took me FORever to beat the game (like years) but it happened. ❤

[@MelBatoon]

I've been gone for a Hot Min! But so great seeing your face and catching up on allllll the things! Much love. :) Mel

[@ljack4682]

Great to see you again. I also have quit knitting things that I don’t wear. Sometimes I still try things but that is fun and chalk it up to just learning something new. Take care of yourself. ❤

[@josephineelsken5546]

Hi Sweetie, Thank you, I was gonna start calling the hospitals! ❤ you.

[@pammyers1982]

Missed you, Darlin’. I hear you. I’m in that place atm, so completely understand. Happy that you’re back! 🦋 I love your tissue holder and the tags for your projects! 💜💜

[@chevyrell]

Awww sorry to hear your in a funk too. We are riding these waves together 🌊

[@gabyf001]

I'm so sorry you were feeling so down. Sending big hugs and love to you.

[@lizurquhart4105]

Hi Chevas! So great to see you. Glad you’re starting to feel better. I recently had the same conversation with myself about making things that I will actually wear! Like you said we grow and our ideas of what we what to make and wear changes as well. I live in a very hot region and have decided to no longer knit pullover sweaters. I discovered that I prefer wraps instead of triangle shawls.

[@pattyrushing9756]

So glad you feel like you are heading in the right direction but I dont think you need to apologize for feeling a family loss from your world. It is a truth that significant loss puts our world out of sequence. It makes all routines seem as though they don’t matter as much BUT slowly you understand that you need the routines of “normality” to make you feel as though the loss is slowly getting bearable. If we are lucky enough we will all understand that one day our memories will one day make us smile and feel loved instead of making us feel empty and sad. Hang in there and I wish that you begin each day smiling.❤ Patty (Southern Festival Girl)

[@chevyrell]

💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

[@daylemenges7177]

Glad to hear you're feeling better. Since I learned to knit, I have been selective about what I make. That probably stems from my frugal upbringing...if I won't use something, I refuse to spend hard-earned money on it. I have heard so many people say they don't wear their makes and that doesn't sense to me. I spend too much money and time to not use/wear them.

[@karynzlatkis]

Hurray for the sh*t show 🎉🤩 You’ve been sooo missed! ❤

[@ritawood3323]

❤ Big Hugs 🫂 Depression is real and it’s great that you are so aware of your emotions and feelings and what works for you! I too have just climbed up from deep depression so Thank You for being so up front about your own. I feel your podcast is viewed by many more of us that suffer through than you might know but your transparency with your journey has/will touch many more hearts than you realize. Keep growing your passion for knitting what you will wear! I too have decided this is my focus. Love your podcast!

[@chevyrell]

💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

[@shannonoliver5414]

So good to see you again. I can’t wait to see your Voyage cardigan. 😊

[@jeannepien4565]

Love seeing you again. I'm sad I missed you and Michael at Yarn Con. As always it was a great time and I bought yarn. Here in Milwaukee Wisconsin, we have rummage sales that start on Wednesdays.

[@darciclifton944]

I was just thinking about you last weekend and had to look to see when you’d last posted. My thoughts are with you. Losing someone isn’t easy and even when you think you’ve accepted it, it can hit you hard unexpectedly. Hugs and stuff.

[@mamadotscreations]

Ohhhhhh, how I've missed you❤. Welcome back!

[@sunnyw4148]

Always wonderful to see you whenever you show up.

[@ThePlayfulKnitter]

Thank you so much Chevas!!! So good to see you again🤗🤗 I’d love to spend a day in your company! We have to make that happen some time😊 Christina is one of my very good friends and I’m thrilled you like her amazing pattern. Take care! Sending you lots of hugs❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@janetc4813]

This is funny, I am actually working on those socks right now. Glad you are doing better

[@deborahspins2909]

So happy to see you! Hope you continue to feel better. 😊

[@jackiewalsh3869]

Missed you. I chuckle through your entire podcast. The sh*t show makes me happy. Hope you survived the garage sale, and you're right ,in NJ we call it a yard sale.

[@michelera6365]

Welcome back. Taking care of yourself is very important! So glad you are better. ❤

[@pattigolden1]

She's baaaaaack!! 😘 My favorite s**tshow!! I'm kinda like you, I knit stuff that I just wanna knit, I'm also slightly wool sensitive so I can't wear a lot. 🤷🏻‍♀️ Luckily I have an amazingly knitworthy BFF. STILL haven't knit socks. 😉

[@thekindles1183]

You're amazing. I always appreciate the honest chats, creativity and laughs. Your dad's memorial seemed perfect but I think those do trigger all the feels and memories you miss. Many hugs. I thought your husband's input was so funny and loved the two of you chatting. Stay well, and all the best, Kimberly

[@alisavanrooyen1030]

So nice to see you back!

[@AnditheKnittress]

This is the perfect way to end a Friday!

[@joowen1949]

Your chickens are beautiful. I learned to crochet when I was 12 and like you I find that “fudging” is easy when the directions are not clear. It’s always to treat to open my IPad and see that you have posted a video. Thank-you

[@andreacrazy4knitting]

With you on intarsia: they can have it, I don’t want it. And totally care about the talk about walking/running along streets.

[@shereewaddell3417]

So glad to see you.missed you

[@therese1226]

OG here. I get it. I struggle with “stuff” and it can be hard. I’ve missed you and I hope you can move forward at your own pace. We’re here for you, babe. ❤️

[@YarnStorieswithOlivia]

I love that you kept Dan’s piece in and decided to share this episode with us as it’s never too late for some Chevas time, in fact it’s exciting to see a surprise episode. Sending you hugs and as much Tetris time as you need. xx

[@KnitashaKnits]

First of all, you NEVER owe us an explanation! Secondly, the shit show is a treat wherever it pops up, third, SOO happy to see your fabulous face. Love ya!!

[@kathyp1509]

Glad to see you again!

[@marymitchell6733]

You certainly do not owe an apology. Things happen to famous people like you, just like the rest of us. Your vlog is a joy as well as food for thought, no matter when it appears. I feel like KZbin pressures y'all to keep to a schedule, but we are all aware you have a real life filled with family, travel, job, etc. Just do this because you like to do it,not because you owe us anything. Good luck.

[@chevyrell]

Oh stars, I’m far from famous🙈 I just feel bad disappearing without notice. So therefore, I wanna be honest that if it happens in the future, something’s probably up.😉

[@nlturcott5168]

Glad you are sufacing from the darker days. We all come to terms with our life events in our own way. Just happy to see you up and about. Thanks for the delayed joy. Knit on.

[@tattercandy]

great to see you , look after yourself

[@nanettekroupa1371]

Oh sweetie, no worries about not podcasting. I understand deep loss and grief, just do what you need to support yourself as you go through this. That being said, it is great to see your face again around here!❤️❤️😘😘

[@rmlrhonda]

So good to see you. ❤

[@sun101rype]

Blessing to you

[@patriciashetler4736]

Thank you for this cast. You think like me and deliver your sentences like me. But I am much older but love this!

[@sallyhendricks-bauer3697]

I was just thinking about you the other day and I knew as you say, life happens. Well just know I have missed you and I hope all good things for you! Love from Idaho, Sallyfromidaho on Ravelry

[@linseyh7137]

Luv ya girl! Sending hugs! 🥰🥰🥰

[@heatherconner9338]

Yay!!! ❤ welcome back ❤

[@bethbamszoo]

Welcome back! Your voyager is so fabulous! I have had the same thought as you about wearable pieces and am focusing on that this year as well. Too bad, I am getting bored with the things I would wear as more “staples”. I started thinking about project vs process knitters. I have always thought of myself as a project knitter but now realize I need some process items going too in order to stay interested! Project to me now is focused on what I want for my wardrobe and could see using regularly. Big decision for ,e now is do I gift or donate the items I don’t use or wear.

[@chevyrell]

Yes!! I like knitting the things I’m not wearing 😖

[@christylaukaitis6121]

Glad to see you back. I was hoping to run into you at Yarncon. Maybe next year.

[@beaglesandbobbles9472]

Glad to see you!

[@annie1040]

It's so good to see you back. Totally get your time away from everything, and send huge hugs. Also agree with you about Dan running, it's not vehicles that cause accidents, it's the arseholes driving them.

[@estelagreene255]

Love the Voyager cardigan!!

[@talitharitter3176]

Sorry to hear about your dad. I lost mine a couple of years back as well. If it’s one thing I’ve noted, it’s that grief is an onion. Some layers are all crusty and thin and will never make you cry, and then you hit those thick, juicy layers and you’re like dang, DANG. Sending you big hugs on this journey. ❤

[@chevyrell]

Such a great analogy! 💜

[@jellyfish1969]

I'm READY!

[@angieanderson6082]

Happy to see you again!! Hope life slows down a bit for ya, and everyday gets a little brighter than the previous day! ☀️ Congrats to Cole on his graduation! 😉

[@jennymiles4426]

Hey Chevas- with your ribbing going down a needle size is worth trying but you still might get an uneven rib. What I’ve done recently is Combination knitting and that works, really get a very neat even rib. Andrea Mowry has a tutorial but essentially you knit the knits as usual but one the first round with your purls you bring the yarn UNDER the needle instead of above. This twists the stitch so on the next round you purl through back loop. Takes a bit of getting used to but it really works. And on the topic of wearing/not wearing your knits. I’m like you, started knitting with a zillion different colours that look great together in the skein -ended up with crazy colourful garments that O don’t wear. Now I’m looking to my wardrobe seeing what I need , a vest to go under that cardigan, a solid colour dark navy shawl to match a few sweaters. And knitting more Danish designs, more neutrals. It’s working out well, worth doing and I still enjoy the process, looking forward to the FO.

[@chevyrell]

Ooh!!! I want to look up that ribbing technique for sure. Thanks for the suggestion.😁

[@nadjas.4275]

So good to see you Chevas! 🧡It's just like you said - always a treat to have you around. I hope you're doing good right now and that there's more light ahead 😘See you when you're ready - take good care and have a wonderful rest of the summer!

[@Mercedesse.kreativ]

Exactly! Tetris and Mario in the early nineties !

[@sarahmisfitknits]

Always a good day to see your beautiful face! You never have to explain anything. Life happens and you should do the things that make you happy and take time to recharge when you need too 🖤 I loved hearing how you are reflecting on your knitting lately (Knitical Thinking! 😂). It is important to refocus sometimes on what you do wear/use and what projects/colours were not working for you as life changes. Also, a good brain space to be in for a home edit pre-garage sale! Hope it well and was therapeutic to have a ‘lighter home’ in the end. Less things gives more time for knitting! Keep taking care of yourself you gorgeous human! 😁

[@chevyrell]

Knitical thinking! That is brilliant😝

[@lilianemann1441]

Giiiirrrrl, you've been missed!

[@Crochetedpossum]

💯 on the intargia! I too have considered duplicate stitching lol!😂

[@bucklebunny6661]

Here in Colorado we use a mix of words for a Garage Sale ( my hubby calls them all Garbage Sales 🤦🏼‍♀️ ) Yard Sale, Moving Sales. We have got several nice things at moving Sales , Have fun & drink plenty of water. Stay Blessed!!!

[@chevyrell]

Yes, we have all those names as well. You always know an estate sale has a high probability of having good stuff, garbage sale, lol.

[@CindyHeartsCrochet]

So good to see you! I like going to yard sales but hate putting one together. Blah! See ya next time 😊

[@juleeperkins8142]

So glad you came back. Totally understand how grief can hit when you least expect it. Sending you hugs 💜 So happy to watch the Shit Show Supreme again. We’re here when you’re ready!

[@bobbiallison1117]

I adore your podcasts, you are that one for me that makes me look forward to getting caught up! Thank you for coming to see us and sharing your pain and your happiness. You are just so apologetically YOU!