FEBRUARY | Time of The Month 2016

[@doddleoddle]

"I spend my life in places I feel like I'm not supposed to be" same

[@georgiewatson1627]

+. “emotionalhowell” excuse you?

[@hatcheese2270]

same

[@HanaBryanne]

"miserable lesbians" for fuck's sake I just choked on my tea

[@millyparker1328]

Possibly the most British sentence ever

[@HanaBryanne]

+Milly Parker LMAO I'm American but that's true

[@EmilyCooper-cf1qj]

No to make it more British it would be- "Miserable lesbians" bloody hell, I just chocked on my tea

[@TomSka]

My stomach is twisted from watching the Oscars scene part. I was genuinely afraid Leo wasn't going to win again.

[@TheHazelHayes]

It gets me every time.

[@sarah.labrosse]

I feel special being one of the only people to respond to this I would say something better but I have no words of intellect.

[@ibushra9513]

This might be a strange reason but your vlogs intrigue me because you are so extroverted and I am a complete introvert so seeing your life is like seeing another world. Thanks for being willing to share!

[@ShaleeHolmes]

All snuggled up in bed, my cat beside me, make up removed, hair up in a bun .. 30 minutes of Hazel - bring it on.

[@patrickxoconnor]

Life Goal: Have a life and friends as exciting, caring and fun as Hazel's

[@eddiedoyle1886]

Watching this made me so happy. A month ago today I was at the foot of the bed as my father died, he was a lovely man. I'm 14 and he had been ill for 4 years of that but I cannot put into words how perfect those 14 years have been. I love him. Yet-there aren't so many things that can explain the pain of loss in any respect whether it be death or the ending of a relationship other than the word: empty. I can't understand how feeling empty can feel sore, how can you hurt something that isn't there, how can you numb the pain of something that isn't there? But I managed to find something that makes me feel as if perhaps I can be happy again, these videos. You know when you save the best sweet for last so that it is the taste that stays in your mouth afterwards-that's what I do with these beautiful videos-leave them till last so that I remember how fantastically happy the last 30/40 minutes had been. All I can say is thank you. Thank you hazel-truly. X

[@daryanen]

I don't know what it is. I am watching someone who lives an ocean away from me film herself, her friends and whatver she's up to and this makes me happy, hopeful and best of all, inspired. I don't know what I'd be doing if TOTM didn't continue in 2016. All I know is that regardless of what I will go through this year, there will be a video at the end of the month that wil make me insnely happy reminding me that its ok to have ups and downs. It's a sprt of reward for surviving the month. Just like you're always here for us, we"ll be supporting you as well. So thank you, Hazel. You mean an awful lot to me, more than you'll ever know.

[@MelissaKreil]

Hazel Hayes you beautiful creature of life. I'm sat here drunk in my room right now crying because of all the joy and authenticity you bring to this world. Thank you. You've helped me and continue to help me get through depression and anxiety and all the shit in this world.

[@cupcakecalledsarah]

Another video full of thought, emotion and fun. Still can't get over how stunning you looked at the Baftas either! Also Dan's news voice is absolutely gas 😂 I hope that work on those pillars is going well x

[@TheHazelHayes]

He should be a political correspondent!

[@cupcakecalledsarah]

Or he could possibly star in a drama about a political correspondent? maybe one that's been caught up in a wonderfully juicy corruption scandal

[@AliceRed]

What I love about this series is how one minute you're at the BAFTA's, and the next you're building IKEA furniture... and I enjoy each and every moment. Thank you for sharing your life with us.

[@12470random]

I seriously consider watching TOTM at half-speed so that my first watch (because I watch them over and over) lasts just that much longer. Don't ever stop creating these; they bring me and so many others so much joy.

[@Jule1St11]

These series make me realize how uneventful my life is (in a bad way) but it also inspires me to try to reach a point in my life where i'd have that many friends and than many things to do Thank you Hazel for sharing your life

[@SomeoneCalledDana]

That theme music... It gets me every time.

[@layoverbear]

SomeoneCalledDana same honestly

[@lucymoon]

Great music in this one too

[@TheHazelHayes]

Thanks Lucy!

[@annamichalska8283]

well, I've never thought that spending half an hour over a video could be a good thing and that I'd enjoy it so much. you've just made me feel so inspired to be more social. to find some friends I can make pancakes with, and drink wine and sing some jazz together. i hope i will. :)

[@TheHazelHayes]

That is literally all you need in life

[@tomscoldfriedchicken]

Watching you read comments made me realize I've never expressed my appreciation for TOTM and that the ups and downs of your year harmonized with mine. I began 2015 in an awful place but I grew SO much as a person and the year ended exponentially better than it began. It's been really beautiful and supportive to watch your journey as well. Thanks Hazel.

[@alexasunshine83]

i wish i was part of hazel's squad 😭

[@yeshe7622]

I'm too old haha

[@chloesiv1247]

omg alexa!

[@freyagething1795]

The beginning of this video was heart warming, seeing how much comments, just a small thing, can affect someone was truly enlightening. I must say, it made me feel as though I do have an impact on your life, that I, just me, could improve one day. That idea makes me so unbelievably happy, purely because I've mostly felt pointless these few weeks. I recently thought about my affect on the world and I always assumed it was non-existent. This video made me realise I can change that. Thank you Hazel Hayes, I hope the idea that you can help someone in a way like this inspires you to continue creating the beautiful content that you can, I find myself looking forward to it more than I probably should. You have improved my day and put a smile on my face, I can't wait for what's yet to come, so, yet again, thank you Hazel Hayes Xx

[@elle-xe2nf]

THE INTRO MUSIC GETS ME EVERYTIME. I look like a panda from my smudged eye make up but I don't care because watching these videos is so incredibly therapeutic for the soul. Thank you!

[@TheHazelHayes]

+Ellice Hulton Let it aaaaall out :)

[@thegreendaygal]

In January, where I annually slip into my seasonal depression, I was broken up with. It was devastating. I was left alone at the darkest part of the year for me. I rewatched all of the series from start to finish and it honestly made me feel like I wasn't alone in this experience. It got me through those first few months of the year where I feel absolute shit. While laying in my bed in the dark, binge-watching a series you, as the creator, probably weren't intending to be binge-watched, I was able to get through everything that was holding me back. I have been watching your creations for years now, but I, as well as the rest of your subscribers can feel so much more connected to you. It is incredibly brave to capture such honest, raw, and unadulterated parts of your life on KZbin in this personal way, but I totally laud you for it. You are an empowering woman who is displaying experiences online that many of us go through as well, but we forget that we aren't alone. I look forward to TOTM every month, and you never fail to dissapoint. I think it is so wonderful that you feel comfortable enough with your audience to share so much with us. Thanks again, Hazel.

[@mariannebubbly9463]

As some one who's a little lost in life at the moment I hope to be one day as confident and fabulous as Hazel!

[@ricardaseven6083]

what always gets me most are those little signs of friendship, those unintentional smiles you give someone and the small hugs...i'm just really happy for that you have such wonderful, caring people in your life

[@melissa6733]

So I've just been sitting here for a little over a half an hour in my bed bundled in blankets watching this, and it's exactly what I needed. I go back to school tomorrow after a two week break, and I really don't want to. But watching this has inspired me to hope to have a life as positive and lovely as yours (now I of course realize not everything is perfect all the time, but you get the idea). A life where I'm surrounded by friends who love me, and who I love. A life where I'm doing what I truly love doing, and simply not giving a fuck. A life where I'm just seizing every moment and every opportunity. Seriously Hazel, you are an enormous inspiration to me, and you've given me hope. And I truly love this series, and I just think every damn thing you do is perfection. Okay, I should sleep. But I just wanted to cast this little piece of appreciation out into the vast void of the Internet haha. Stay wonderful! Xoxo :)

[@samallen3111]

I'm twelve years old, so you may assume I'm really happy. But I'm not. Without sounding too boastful, I'm intelligent and mature, and that means I know what I want to do with my life. I know the sort of people I'd love to meet, the places I'd love to go, the things I'd love to do. But I can't do any of those things. I feel trapped. But TOTM has helped me realise that I need to appreciate where I am right now and, instead of changing my life, change my attitude towards life. You're bloody brilliant Hazel Hayes and I hope you stay in my life forever, thank you. ❤️

[@lillianrule9660]

Please don't stop I watch this when I'm sad and I'm so excited every time you upload time of the month. I love youths please never stop TOTM.

[@MiriamGallacher]

the clip at the start made me super emotional, i think i tend to think of comments on more popular youtuber's videos as simply throwing my words into a void and hoping someone sees them, so a lot of the time i don't bother. bless the people who leave such a heartfelt, thoughtful comments. another amazing video, you looked absolutely stunning at the baftas and at every other time. so happy you've got your pillars a bit more intact, so happy for you and jack, so happy for you and dodie. thank you for another stunning insight into your life.

[@isaginationchannel]

I usually just shed a few tears at the end of a TOTM video, this time I cried all the way through. brilliant, just brilliant hazel.

[@sydneyhalpern8625]

Goodbye cereal killer kitchen you will be missed

[@TheHazelHayes]

😂😂😂

[@AilsaB123]

i still go back to your august totm. your words genuinely helped me get through the hardest thing ive ever had to deal with so thank uuuu

[@lisouv5228]

This is definitly my absolute favourite series on youtube! Everything we need in life is in those videos, positivity, friendship, tears , laughters, fairy lights, hamburgers and pancakes and pop corn, creativity, talents, wine, hope and optimism,politics, even more laughters, love, et caetera et caetera. I really really admire the person, the woman you are, Hazel, you inspire me to push myself, to try to be more alive and to share more things with my friends (and to put more fairy lights above my bed). But I can also see with your videos that feeling down and going through bad times is normal, in fact it's okay it's just life. And when everything is too much and I feel like I don't want to get out of bed I make myself a cup of tea watch your time of the month video, cry a lot and at some point it gives me the strenght to get up and do my best to face the day! Thanks for sharing your life with us in a really creative way

[@leahatkinson2451]

Rewatching this vlog in 2021 after reading Hazel's book and seeing all the moments like taking down the pictures that covered the kitchen cupboards like they did in the book is just surreal

[@lucymoon]

That initial montage though!!

[@Yvaia]

Hazel and Stephen remind me of John Boyega and Harrison Ford: "it's my best friend Harrison Ford! We ate Nigerian food together!" And then Hazel's "oh that's my buddy Stephen Fry! Oh man, Stephen, my friend!" Amazing.

[@Sophia-nt5zn]

Hazel, I know you are unlikely to read this, but I am going to tell you that I am so proud of you. I can remember many a TOTM which would show you at such a low point, and I would cry with you. Now, watching everything you have achieved, and the smiles on yours and your friends' faces, I'm smiling with you. I am so glad you've showed us both the highs and the lows of your life, because it shows what a beautiful, flawed, fabulous human you are. I am so glad you are feeling mentally better, and I hope you remember that life is what you make it to be. Thanks, Sophia x

[@Phanasouredits]

i just wanted to say that theese totm videos show me that theres something to stay alive and get to be an adult for

[@user-yr3tt9ki9j]

I think Hazel actually has the nicest, kindest and funniest comments section on youtube. No one's going "first" or "i don't like your eyebrows" or something, instead everyone's so supportive.

[@AlanMarcum73]

Hazel don't you ever think you are anywhere you don't belong. You are a superstar and you will be getting your own Bafta someday. I absolutely love this series and I have to say it makes my day, week and month when I see them posted. You have been thru a lot in the last year and you have emerged better and tougher on the other side. You are such an intelligent, graceful and beautiful young woman. You are an inspiration to everyone that if you work hard and strive for your dreams you will be rewarded.

[@danielleletessier593]

Hazel signing just makes my heart melt

[@imanik5784]

I think I screamed as loud as you guys did in this totm when Leonardo DiCaprio won his Oscar this year when I saw this in my subscription box. Thank you Hazel, because this series always makes me happy! Much love, Imani. ❤️ Have a nice Easter! 💐🌷🌼🌻🐣

[@BeckyH1807]

As a 20-year-old coming to the end of university I'm finding your TOTM videos very comforting at the moment. You never try to deny that life is anything other than the most wonderful thing and at times the absolute shittest. If most KZbinrs made a video like this I think I would yearn for the life they appear to have and (not to say your life doesn't seem wonderful) your videos make me really appreciate everything that has come my way thus far. Your friendships are so genuine and appear to bring you so much happiness, it makes me reflect on my own relationships and the people in my life: it makes me value them. I don't really comment on videos much, but thank you for continuing to produce something so incredibly wonderful and beautiful. Thank you for managing to capture in the truest form what real life is.

[@Michellecrossan]

1. Why you make me cry? Felt all the feels. 2. Your moving out montage and song (that was you singing right?) gave me chilllllls! 3. You're a champion and I cannot wait to see what's lying ahead for you in 2016.

[@BettyOK99]

You and Jack are both so funny and lovely. Hope you two are very happy

[@bbyfcetm]

It's the beginning of the video and yeah Im not crying at all

[@adriennedanielle9154]

For some reason I cannot get over the juxtaposition between a night at the baftas and a morning spent assembling Ikea furniture. I am continually inspired by this series each month. Thank you for taking the time to make it, as it truly has come to mean a lot to a lot of people.

[@natashamcc3793]

My favourite part of this series is that I've never read a single comment which has tried to make your troubles invalid, saying you "should feel grateful" or anything ridiculous like that. Ever viewer has completely connected with these snippets of your life and it is so utterly heartwarming. I have binge watched the last 14 totm in two days and cannot thank you enough for the laughs and cries. So much love xxx

[@anonymouse903]

I absolutely love watching this series, it's one of my favorites to watch on youtube, but I can never help feeling a little hopeless for my future. I see Hazel do so much and be so busy and I just can't see myself doing half what she (or any other functional person, I guess) does. I get tired just thinking about it, I'd never have the energy or motivation.

[@TheHazelHayes]

When I feel like that I start small. x

[@jo_sco]

This video just shows how fabulous your friends seem

[@cheatherbain]

You are without a doubt one of those few inspirational and down to earth people I have ever connected with.

[@caramalone6633]

Bet Hazel sits at home editing thinking I wander how many people I can make cry this month ;)..... Beautiful as always x

[@haddaviesstudio]

Currently watching this for the second time and in tears all over again

[@georgianightingale6103]

I struggle a lot with anxiety and depression. Your TOTM videos give me a chance every month to escape my own life for 30 minutes and live through yours. You are such an influential and wonderful woman, you have honestly inspired me so much. I look up to you immensely as a female creator and I love seeing you grow and develop both in your video making and personal life. I feel like I have rambled a lot here but every month I shed tears and smile ridiculously at these wonderful little parts of your life. Thank you Hazel, you have helped me more than I could ever imagine.

[@katyjones6229]

I've recently watched my dad suffer with mouth cancer. the charity is call watch your mouth (I don't know weather anyone has herd of it but..... search it) it's really hard there was such a hard chance he would never be able to eat drink or ever talk again. he had two operations one was 21 hours long to remove the cancerous lump and the other was 23 hours long as one of the bones died and he almost died himself luckily, he didn't but watching your videos it's helped me stay strong land still is. so just so you know thank you I love you so much. You are like the strongest person I watch and even know of xxx

[@BilliesPetRock]

I wish you the best of luck with your dad x that's really sad to hear.

[@georgianightingale6103]

My dad had mouth cancer when I was younger and unfortunately died when I was 7. I wish you the absolute best and I hope everything ends well for you in this horrible situation

[@katyjones6229]

thanks guys xx

[@MorganEatsYou]

When I hear that clinky music at 3:50 it just brings happy excitement because it reminds me of time of the month. Love you lots hazel!

[@annika9594]

There doesn't need to be a backstory as to why these are so wonderful for me personally, but just know I'm just another person on the internet thanking you for making this series. So thank you and keep going, you are one of the strongest people I admire.

[@aimeewillems1724]

Recently I've kind of been losing faith in KZbin and I've been starting to wonder if creators who really care about their content still exist. I've just watched your January and February 2016 videos and I honestly don't think I've seen content like this on KZbin in a really long time. I know it's probably all been said before, but the emotions you put forward in these videos are so raw- both the positive and the negative- they have really resonated with me and there's so much I've been able to take away from this. What isn't so great is that now I really want to watch all of the time of the month videos, but I also have to revise for my A levels which are in a month. Dammit hazel if I fail my exams I'm blaming you and your bloody amazing videos!

[@Taymanator0051]

You read my comment from December! Cool. Really, really amazing to see this coming back (or rather still here) and it is STILL my favorite part of this platform. It's wonderful to see your life and feel like I'm almost there with you. :)

[@ElizabethGillen]

Hazel is without a doubt the prettiest person I've ever seen

[@lovejoy26]

I love the way people have grown to love this series more and more over time. When this first started I remember thinking of it fondly as a jolly fun project designed to document life and share stuff in a cute little monthly package but nowadays, every time of the month upload feels like an inspirational, emotional and critically acclaimed event!

[@georgia190nov]

Half hour of my day brilliantly spent. Favourite series on KZbin without a doubt😌

[@carolineharvey2534]

Promised myself that watching this would be my reward for finishing my ancient history assignment. Wrote the whole thing in basically one sitting and cried at least once but it was totally worth it to watch this video! :) Gold star for assignment motivation Hazel! (and for the editing and the lols and the feels as well :D

[@SJYoungcreates]

I loved how it went from huge interviews, the baftas, huge interviews to us watching a microwave. Really good work and it's always nice to see you singing in a video again x

[@ShanWell2003]

This series has not failed to keep me smiling. Even though I'm 12 I feel more bonded with you watching these videos. 😊

[@thoseawkwardvloggers1]

This video was so refreshing. Sometimes, after seeing all of the marvelous things that they do, it's hard to remember that KZbinrs are real people just like anyone else, that do things like watch TV in their pajamas and sing loudly with their friends. The thing that helped me the most about this video was the comments that you, Jack, and Dan made about not feeling like you belonged in the fancy places that you had been taken. It reminds me of a feeling that I get about not feeling like a real KZbinr because I don't have thousands of subscribers, fancy equipment, or my own group of KZbinr friends. It's nice to know that I'm not alone, I guess. Thank you for constantly inspiring me to keep going as a KZbinr, Hazel. You'll never know how much you've helped me.

[@GollyMissHolly8]

I look forward to these every month. I'm not eloquent enough to put what I mean into words properly, but... I'm an actress currently auditioning for drama school, and it's tough, every rejection feels like a dagger to the heart, but it also makes me stronger. For some reason, I feel that you Hazel would understand this more than any other creative on youtube, perhaps because you actually let us see that side, the side that's not all award shows, Red Carpets and sets. I know obviously lots of people do understand, being in a creative industry is hard, there are thousands of us... hundreds of thousands, there's little funding, few jobs, and it seems the people who have a more privileged background are the ones becoming most successful. But watching your pitfalls and your highs in such explicit detail reminds me that life goes on, and you have to go with it, it won't be bad forever and if you really believe in something enough, it will happen eventually, one way or another. It's funny, the harder you work, the luckier you become. So thank you, for providing me with something to reference to when I'm feeling at my lowest, and for the first time in a long time giving me someone I feel I can really relate to. Thank you for sharing, I hope I one day have the pleasure of working with you. Love Holly, (19 1/2 years old)

[@miriamv4273]

you know how sometimes a movie makes you smile without you even noticing it? Like, when it's so good and touching it just makes you genuinely happy? That's what Time of The Month does to me.

[@ryansinclair1945]

I discovered this series 3 days ago, over the next 72 hours i would find myself smiling and laughing more than i have in the last 4 months of the year, being closer to crying than i have in the last 2 years, and most important of all, finding myself wanting more to fill the gap in my heart until the nest months is uploaded.

[@niamhd1963]

I only started watching these videos in September (so the first one I saw was August) but I always really look forward to watching these videos and an actual smile pops up on my face when I see you in my subscription box. I really enjoy watching you and seeing how much you have changed even since August makes me so happy. I also watch this to see you and your friends because you probably know this already but you have the most amazing group of friends. If I'm honest, part of the reason I watch these is so that I can watch and hope that I'll have such amazing friends when I grow up. I don't know if you'll see this, as I know you get a lot of comments but if you do, thank you Hazel Hayes, for making these videos and just being a wonderful person.

[@DontWigOut]

My productivity always seems to go up around the time one of your Time of The Month videos comes out. Seeing other people get shit done and work for a better version of themselves drives the people witnessing it to try harder. Thank you! Best of luck for all the things you work towards this year and onwards. xo

[@annisarheannon]

oh my goodness i thought i was done crying about time of the month december but here i am tearing up watching you read comments! thank you hazel for inspiring me as a female creator and cheers to another month!

[@batpeoples]

This is what KZbin was made for, I live this series, thank you Hazel. I don't have anything major going on in my life, just floating through uni, but you make me want to go out each day, and be my best self. Eternally grateful ❤️

[@lizziekevin]

You looked so super duper glam at the Baftas! Really looked as if you belonged there. Another great Time of the Month, I'll always love sitting down, getting comfy and watching the hell out of these

[@littlemissoptimism]

My favourite part of this month was all of the music, particularly your version of The Chain which kept me crying after hearing all those amazing comments.

[@marinab.3304]

I love that you're including your own covers as the soundtrack of the series, it's lovely hearing you sing so often now

[@emilyvale2834]

Well done Hazel for continuing this series, even when things have been hard for you. Keep going, stray strong! :)

[@emilyvale2834]

*stay

[@EmilyCooper-cf1qj]

I read this thinking it was Dan then I looked at the name!

[@emilyvale2834]

+Emily Cooper Yeah I'm just a creepy phan :D

[@EmilyCooper-cf1qj]

+Emily Vale same

[@EmilyCooper-cf1qj]

+Emily Vale yay a phanship

[@christina11235813]

When a comment makes Hazel cry, which in turn makes you cry, you know that shit is powerful.

[@aliceash396]

I'm trying to watch this whilst I eat breakfast but I'm 3 minutes in and I'm crying already. For goodness sake Hazel!

[@jodiekeren2398]

this series has honestly made my past 6 months. i've been really struggling with my mental health quite a lot, this month in particular, and this has been one of the things that has kept me going. i am in no place to say that my life is hard judging by the other comments but i just want to say that in watching these videos you give me a break from everything. just a few brief minutes of clarity and calm in which i can stop worrying about everything and just take a minute to breathe. so thank you for that. i am now able to just stop worrying about the future so much and just focus on the now. you mean the world to me and so many other people hazel and we truly mean everything we say in thanking you you bloody gorgeous human being x

[@abbiecopson9034]

There is genuinely nothing I enjoy more at the moment than watching these videos.

[@beccagaraty3030]

I want to be able to put into words what this series has done and continues to do for me, but I can't. Words aren't enough but please know this has saved me. In so many ways but mostly because it shows you're not alone whatever you're going through. Thank you Hazel, this is everything xx

[@JemmaHumphreys1]

Whenever I feel lonely, I watch Hazel's TOTM videos, and I always feel a little better. I feel a little more 'normal', a little more inspired, and a little more aware of how every single little moment matters. Thanks Hazel

[@DearAliya]

"We're going to see miserable lesbians" LOL

[@llauranne_]

I'm so happy you're keeping this up! Every time I finish watching one I have a little feeling in my upper ribcage like a physical build up of creative energies that you inspire.

[@renlish]

That song at the beginning... Hazel... you slay me. So talented. Also, as a 37 year-old who has done nothing with her life apart from try to not die in one of a thousand nasty ways... You give me something to aspire to.

[@molliieannex]

I know there is a lot of controversy on whether KZbinr's should be inspirations or role models, but I must say as a human being you are extremely inspirational - going through so much and sharing it with thousands upon thousands of strangers, the highs and the lows, being real and raw and helping so many people through their tough times, including myself. I won't bore you with the details, but through being anxious, depressed and suicidal (I am well on my road to recovery and am now starting to become a happy and confident woman), your videos have been there to watch if I needed a half an hour break from my own reality. i want to thank you, on behalf of every other viewer for being real, as you are one of few who puts yourself as the real you on line. I wish you a happy rest of 2016, and to keep being strong and smiley! xxxx

[@amyanzalucca8615]

Your Time Of The Month series is one of the few things I look forward too. My mind is not in a good place at the minute but your vlogs help me a lot. Thank you and I am very proud of you for what you are doing and the effect you have on so many people.

[@annefien]

This month was one of the worst of my life. After a lovely holiday visiting my parents and siblings, I got home and the next day... My brother passed away. February was an absolute shit for me, and yours was so wonderful. It was so great to watch and it's so great every month!

[@lissidun2465]

I'm so sorry about your brother ;-;

[@in_cursive]

Hazel, you are fast becoming one of my favourite people to watch on KZbin. KZbin as a platform I feel in some ways has become a little disengaged from everyday life. As more and more KZbinr's gain celebrity status it is hard to distinguish the person from the performance and the sort of brand identity they create for themselves. This is not the case with you. It is clear you pour everything into what you do, bearing your life and soul in its rawest form to a camera for all of us to watch. We all appreciate you so much and respect everything that you do. I hope you continue having a great year, I'll be with you all the way :) x

[@CrazyBeautifulLife58]

Every time I watch one of these, it inspires me to do my own life to the best of my ability. I just love how you're so passionate, driven, hard-working and glam - all the things I aspire to be. Thanks for this, indirect life coach Hazel!

[@FakeRedHeadABrunette]

These videos do so much to my heart, it breaks, it leaps with joy and excitement, it melts... It's so raw and beautiful, and it's so hard not to feel disappointed at the end because it's over. This series is like spending time with a friend, and a bloody great one at that, and weirdly it distracts from the awful ups and downs of life with more ups and downs. And yet, I stop thinking about the worst news I could have ever been given, from the incredible loneliness and my loss of purpose, because right now this video seems like I'm spending time with a friend who has made it through the bad, who is showing me that this hurt won't last forever and is positively radiating happiness compared to maybe 6 months ago. This is going to be your year Hazel, it may not be mine but you're helping me through it.

[@alice.arnold]

I wish I could pour out into writing about how your videos and this series especially have helped me deal with my own issues, but I don't think I can. I'm not an amazing writer and I'm not great at explaining how I feel and why, mainly because I over think it and make myself feel worse. So what I will say until I know how to explain what I mean is; thank you so much Hazel. Thank you for showing us not just the incredible things in your life but that even them can't always make the bad things go away. It's helped me understand that I'm not really alone in what I feel and that means everything to me. I really hope that each month gets better for you 💙

[@lellepad]

I didn't realize how much this series moved me until you read the comments aloud. I was crying by the end and I noticed that THAT is why I watch this. This series feels, to me, like listening to Adele, Taylor Swift, or Alanis Morissette in regards to how having self awareness shows us our strength. To document what we are feeling in a singular moment in time and still find its complexities helped me realize so much about my own coping patterns and how I don't really deal with my stress. This series gave me insight into how to manage growing up and still move forward. Thank you. There are a lot of people that you have saved. Just by showing us that when we are down and out-that we can still be mindful. You have not only saved me from myself, but you have also saved me from hurting the feelings of those around me in those little moments of carelessness because my own worries and stress are really the only things I can see. This series gave me a hindsight oriented view on how my mood PAIRED with perspective can be a very freeing thing. I live my truth, yet I carry the power to support myself in those moments when I'm down. When I take care of myself in those moments I'm not going and bashing around like a bull in a china shop with my loved ones experiences too. You've taught me to be more empowered, giving, open, and receiving of love. Its very seductive in those dark moments to reject love and to close ourselves off. And I needed a different perspective to really evaluate those patterns that enabled my old ways of thinking. Now I'm moving forward with intent on healing and opening myself up to the gifts of life. Seeking out the light to balance out the dark. (Who knew that chewing sand would ever be described as a light to the dark? Lol.) Anyway, thank you You're a delight and a gem! Thank you kindly, and have a lovely day! :)

[@kennie121498]

This video has made me so happy. It's incredibly inspiring really. I've only watched the last two of these and I am already hooked. These videos amazing. It takes so much courage to put more than just four minutes of your life once a week on camera, granted to show some sides of vulnerability. From this, I see such a courageous individual who shows that everyone is able to fight struggles and come back as a powerful individual. These videos are so emotional to viewers as well as yourself because we see the amount of time and how passionate you are in each of these. Everyone experiences the hardships of life. It's how they act upon it that highlights their strength. Hazel, you have showed this beautifully. I cannot wait to watch March's video. Sincerely, Makenna

[@abbysmith7676]

I am utterly amazed at how you can make my cry within five minute and have me grinning at my computer in another two. You're ability to convey emotion so intensely is really amazing and its part of why I love these so much. Another great job, Hazel!

[@MaredElin]

I'm sitting by myself with a very strong cocktail which may or may not mostly consist of an entire bottle of vodka, and I'm already in tears just at the sound of your wonderful cover of The Chain. I don't think I'll make it to the end. This is it. This is how I go.

[@GeorgeofClubs]

this is my second ever totm but I think Hazel Hayes is my new favourite person

[@alimurphy1386]

I just find it amazing how much this series can touch my soul. You are an inspiration. You have a way of letting your viewers into your life so that there is this connection that is truly incredible. Thank you.

[@HatsDoesLife]

Sitting here with the flu, it's been so lovely to watch this Time Of The Month, feeling a little warmer inside after seeing you smile more and hearing your beautiful singing voice! xx

[@HappyVlogging]

I decided to today make myself dinner so I could eat it while watching this and just chill for a bit and just 2 minutes in you have me sobbing in my Camembert and Cranberry Sandwich. what a great start. -.- :D All of this is so great tho. I can only agree with all the comments you read out and am so stoked to continue going on this journey with you. I highly respect this series and the work that goes into it. I tried it myself and I couldn't do it. I gave up after 3 month and the things I produced weren't near yours but that is okay. This series keeps on inspiring me and getting me excited for life in the future. Even tho I really wanna start documenting my months again, watching this, I will wait till the time is right. Till I am somewhere where picking up a camera makes me as happy as watching this and not puts an extra burden on me. As always great. I feel like this series is not just growing itself but making you grow as a person as well and I am so excited to see where yo might end up one day. Who knows, in just 5 years you could be on the stage rather than behind at the after. Keep it up but only as long as it makes you happy and fulfills you. xo :)

[@Kayleigh]

Hazel, thank you for continuing this series. I really do enjoy watching these videos, and at this point, I look forward to them each month. Your pillar system that you mentioned last video has helped me to redefine my priorities and for that, I am grateful. Hoping one day to meet you in person and thank you.