chatty draw with me 🌈on discomfort & trying new things

[@intergalacticpeachpatrol]

i'm 100% relating to everything you're saying about imposter syndrome and trying new things/making the "bad art"... and stylizing. gah. stylizing is so hard for me. i feel so drained when i draw lately, 'cause i feel like i'm trying to be the people i look up to and that it's not a world i should be in... like i should look in from the outside, and that i'm not deserving of being in it myself. this world being the artist world. like. oh my god. just make the art! it's so exhausting for me. so exhausting. i feel you.

[@MeganBeretta]

I feel you so much on the fear of making bad art. Even though I know it's the only way to grow and get better, it still sucks to create something and feel like all you can make is ugliness and that you just want to draw like the people you admire. Your style is so whimsical and dainty and my stuff never seems to capture that simplistic joy that yours has. Sigh... Guess I'll just have to keep trying=)

[@Hanna-tl2ew]

I love how when you scroll through the comments there are sooo many long paragraphs and so many kind words, what a nice community ❤️ wanna be part of it so I subscribed 😂

[@CeciliaSalcedo26]

As a baby graphic designer who just graduated uni last year I work in a pretty similar colour scheme when doing personal work because I love the way it looks and conveys my ideas! Like warm reds, yellows, oranges, pinks gives me sunset fantasy on a beach somewhere in the tropics haha. Every single time I try another colour combo or try to step out of my comfort zone it's SO hard, but slowly I've been trying to integrate more colours and styles and it feels really nice to expand my practice but also has helped to be really confident in what already works for me! Feeling really inspired by your videos recently and I want to thank you for that! I find it's so hard to come by moments of full on creative inspiration, watching your videos lights a fire under my butt to make more work, and keep going, even if it's not perfect!! Much love to you and yours

[@FineSaltGrains]

Cecilia Salcedo Maybe you could keep the colors you are comfortable with, but then add a color every time, get used to that color, then add another, and try to find color schemes that match. Like if you tend to do a lot of tropical colors, maybe add a turquoise to it. Or look at a scene of a landscape you like, then take the colors from it and kind of keep that same aesthetic of what it attractive of that landscape or artwork. Just some advice! (Idk if it’ll help you, but it helped me come out of my comfort zone with colors.) ❤️

[@koschke3909]

Do a favorite art supplies video PLZ ✨🙌🏻

[@CarlaBaku]

The glorious rose outside your window is a Cecile Brunner climbing rosebush. Their flowers are so abundant and pretty, and they smell wonderful. They are a sweet, old-fashioned flower--what a lovely thing to look out at! xx

[@moose1277]

oh a new video just as I'm watching your old ones!!

[@gigipinkone]

I was doing the same thing!

[@ChillOutImABlueberry]

I LOVE the lil arch backgrounds! They remind me a bit of Medieval triptych art works - precious wooden panels that fold out to reveal beautiful paintings :)) thank you for the video! So so interesting!

[@veronicaporlier]

Omg - so much of what you've been talking about this entire video (feeling anxious about making bad art, giving yourself grace, etc) I have had trouble with for so many years and you just put them into words. Thank you for inspiring me to just go for it and letting myself make "bad art" so that I can get better!

[@sincerelymimee]

your cakes always look so whimsy and cute!!! And exceptionally pretty when you go in on the icing. Wishing you, Connor, and Soph all the best! I've felt oddly exhausted the past week as well... I think it's just the way it is sometimes given the circumstances... doing my best to just be aware of what my body is capable of each day, and what it needs to feel happy!

[@breannagraham5831]

@@sofeiwu1602 😭wtf

[@sincerelymimee]

@@sofeiwu1602 I'm one of her patrons on Patreon!

[@elizabethaman7]

Ok so I’m a writer, and in the world of writing we talk a LOT about rough drafts and how messy they are. I love the idea of you having sort of “rough drafts” of your artwork and then going back to do “second drafts” of them to make it better. Anyways your art is SO delightfully whimsical and I love it.

[@gremren]

it's really nice to see you have doubts and reservations when me, a little creature, looks at your work and just goes "wow". not that i'm happy to hear you struggle!! but it's a nice reminder that this feeling is universal, no matter where we are with our art

[@naomitrollopeillustration]

Chey, I've been feeling EXACTLY the same way. Over the past few weeks I've been plugging away at my art with no real love for it or particular direction. I've felt so disconnected from my style and the direction I want it to go in, and also suuuuper insecure about the place my art has in the world and where to take it, and wanting to push myself out of my comfort zone without quite knowing how! I think it might be a quarantine thing. I also think it's a mark of an artist bettering themselves because it's almost like you're aware of a plateau you've reached, and how you need to get better in order to progress both technically and stylistically :) So I want to THANK YOU for talking about it right away in your vlog, because I've been feeling quite thoughtful and down about my art for several weeks. Makes me feel like I'm not alone in this whole thing :)

[@james3929]

the "you have to make bad art" part hits close to home 😞 as an artist myself, i sometimes find it very difficult to be completely satisfied with the works i produced.

[@famousartsoup1651]

Your comment hit home for me. I often ask myself too, "Why is it so hard to be completely satisfied?", then I feel bad about not being satisfied on top of my feelings of dissatisfaction.

[@ranzocampo]

Your videos always make me happy and it's a therapy for me to keep watching your videos ((':

[@rararaka2348]

when i first started doing a sketchbook i thought that everything had to be a perfect finished masterpiece in it. it was so stressful and i was never happy with with I did. recently tho I’ve just been doing anything, and trying new things. wether it looks amazing or bad it’s something to improve on and way less of a pain.

[@MorganGale]

I love studio vlogs because everyone has their own unique process & workspace. Nothing wrong with doing something differently. 💛

[@asialanzi5471]

honestly your videos are just a pure delight! they always radiate such a calm and refreshing vibe! you’re definitely one of my biggest inspirations for my channel! thank you for everything! ily

[@arielbond7281]

Just wanted to say that this video really helped me to get out of a funky feeling I've been having over the last few days. I've been doing a lot of my usual resets and they just weren't quite getting me out but watching your creative process good and "bad" (I think what you make is stunning) helped me to refocus and calm. Thank you for being you and open about your discomforts, you are so brilliant ✨❤️

[@jenniferosborn725]

✨Cheyenne your art is so beautiful!✨ Thank you for your honesty it's so refreshing!! For years I have put my art aside and to hear artists talk about their anxieties and fears of making bad art but just working you way threw it gives me hope for my art! 💙✨✨

[@ambercarroll7288]

that last drawing/painting is gorgeous! 100/10 would absolutely buy as a print

[@maibritton2882]

I have been feeling the same way about being creative. The best thing that you did was to draw for 4hrs. We are harder on ourselves then other people. Much love.

[@JisuIm]

this was so immensely lovely and calming, you have such a beautiful way of articulating your thoughts & processes. it feels like you're taking my head scramble and neatly formulating it into words & i just!!!! i feel so at peace after this vid. ur great and your art brings me so much joy in little ways every day, so thank you for creating & for existing. LUV U

[@laurenreader9123]

That little circle fade at the end makes my heart happy ✨

[@lili_stiv]

it's really good that you talk about these things because I feel like us artists will always look up to people, that will look up to other people and no one is ever satisfied with their art 100%, it's an endless cycle, but it's good to just try to love the "bad art" as hard as it may be because at the end of the day it's still what matters to improve!! I guess I just wanna say thank you for being so open about all of this, I look up to you a lot and it's humbling to see that everyone is trying to improve and that everyone goes through the same problems, you're amazing and your art makes my heart warm every single time I see it, so keep up the amazing work ❤

[@ratnapping]

I found your videos through your studio apartment tour and just your general comforting and warm vibe is really great especially with everything going on now

[@sunflower7829]

I'm on my period and in a stupid amount of pain and feeling a little lonely, but as soon as I starting this video I sort of forgot about all of that and couldn't help but smile. I'm so thankful for this channel ♡

[@talitharahmah7504]

I’m started out on my art instagram and I always have this voice at the back of my head that I’m not good enough because I don’t necessarily come from an art background. I study engineering and so I’m not pursuing an art degree so I always feel like an imposter trying to become successful in this field. Especially since I mostly do abstract and so I don’t feel like I’m making solid work of art, when I know that’s not the case. It’s so absurd to think that you can still feel insecure or not good enough, when I consider you an established artist. You’re amazing and thank you for sharing your thoughts.

[@anyas6437]

i think your head in the clouds illustration turned out beautifully! the plaid pattern underneath the green color looks really cool and dimensional (:

[@ashbash5526]

I remember watching your previous vlogs where you had a Pokémon nuzlocke play-through playing in the background to keep you company while you work, and now I’m finding myself playing your videos while I do my own work, so thank you for keeping me company during this strange and lonely time 💕

[@annieguo3440]

Seriously huge respect to you for persevering with that second piece! As a beginner artist, I’ve been having the same problems these days where nothing seems to work in my drawings, but I’ve had to just try and turn my frustration into lessons learnt and just take time to draw for fun and let loose- that seems to be working a bit more to just get out of my head but your videos are just so good for curing art-block too! 😊

[@laurenadams6245]

I love the polar energy of Chey's message to the 100k. Love it. Kick the jerks.

[@mobstakat]

you are one of my biggest inspiration to start my own KZbin channel! I'm slowly figuring it out but I'm so glad to stumble upon your channel!

[@honeyflowstudios3323]

Wowowowow authentic voiceover for the WIN 💫 thank you for just being exactly you in exactly the perfect rambling raw you. It’s gorgeous.

[@ayahbensalim]

I always approached style as something that comes naturally but is constantly changing as I grow as an artist, I think stressing and worrying over style can kind of hold you back bc it makes you scared to even draw /anything/ and then you’re stuck not making art or feeling like you’ve been in the same place :/ art is hard sometimes

[@siamesegirlmrb]

i feel you SO much!! i have felt much pressure to just create this quarantine, mainly because i want to, but it's so hard to even start because i'm automatically judging myself and my process. you got this! also you have an incredible eye for personal detail i feel, so i'd looove to see you draw and design rooms!

[@beanhope8739]

Omg I know exactly what you mean about your head being in a thick fog, I describe it as like my brain has gone fishing and I'm left with the cold murky wooden sign. also, am I the only one that would love that first sketch as a print?? Edit: It's something I was talking about with my therapist this morning; about getting out a harmful mindset and trying to make progress on the topics we were discussing and how much of a battle it is to not see a past version of myself as "better" than what I am now and trying to get into a mindset that is accepting and encouraging of the path I am on, and then also working on maintaining that. and boy is it hard.

[@MariaLuiza-oq7le]

I admire your work so much. I've been following you on yt for three years, I found you because of the bujo community, and I have loved to see you grow as an artist and as a person and I love your aesthetic and how beautiful and bright your house is. I was so glad you redid the painting because it really shows that we can't give up on ideas that we like just because they don't turn out perfect from the start. It's one of my favorite drawings of yours and it has such a beautiful meaning. We try and try again. As they sing in Lost in my Mind by The Head and the Heart, "we can't stop moving forward". Sending you all the love.

[@MadelenMolina]

Hey Cheyennne, thank you for sharing your work. I know and everybody know you are doing a awesome job! Keep it up :D it is okay to have those off days but doesn't mean you are not a great person and a great artist. YOU ARE AWESOME!

[@montanajayde8979]

Thank you so much for this video. It was like hearing my own thoughts! I also painted a head in the clouds sort of piece recently and find it sad but also comforting that I'm not the only one in a complete slump. Just where is my art going? Where is my life going? Blah. Thank you so much for the company and the advice. I feel ready to pick up a pencil now! You are amazing, keep up the great work!

[@MsRazmatazz]

you are an amazing artist and human being. i understand your anxiety, i feel it too. and i understand this does not change anything - but you can be proud of your artistry!

[@nibblesxsips]

Thank you for showing us your process. I'm nowhere near as talented as you are and I get imposter syndrome all the time, but seeing what went wrong helps me realize that mistakes are okay and even expected when you're creating art.

[@juliloopsies]

this made me smile so wide, thank you so much for continuing to put out videos and share bits of yourself with us! lots of love~

[@byJessicaElena]

Oh my god Cheyenne!! I related to the part about struggling with where you want your career/art to go so much and was sooooo soothed by hearing your approach to take stuff one month at a time!! THANK YOU

[@dimab8256]

I really liked the florescent green plaid piece! It had retro London 60's vibes, real cool and different🌷

[@noorawan7646]

Oh wow, I loved the second drawing (as well as the first). The plaid pattern and the colours too! I also do understand and relate to having crippling perfectionism in my art practice (and in life in general too), you're not alone there

[@chouavang1294]

Thank you so much for sharing this! I needed to hear this and I'm sure I'm not the only one. I really appreciate you spilling your heart out for your followers. I've been jobless for the last 4 months and have relied heavily on art as an escape for me especially during these uncertain times.

[@HelenMcLean]

Cheyenne Barton & a morning coffee - Perfect! I want to try the watercolour pencils and crayon now... You have inspired me to get an art journal going, thank you xx

[@FineSaltGrains]

I love your videos so much. It always feels like I’m talking to a really closer friend. It’s therapeutic in a way, it makes me feel like I’m not lonely anymore. I hope you love your art and videos as much as thousands of people do. And I hope you love yourself and see how much valuable you are to so many people in your life. Thank you so much Cheyenne.

[@piboco-picturebookcollecti3861]

Just found this channel, and I think I'll be hanging out here once in a while. 🧡Just had an amazingly cosy and peaceful time while watching. Thank you. :)

[@riarandomo]

"Strange and disconnected from my art" is exactly how I've been feeling! I didn't realise how much my little solo trips to libraries, cafes, marketplaces and shops really filled my head with ideas and connected me. Thanks for the idea of going back over old work, I'll try that!

[@user-sr6dq9gq5j]

you should do a painting/project with a house that has those arch shapes as windows, but also you could be challenged by the house. and also be comfortable because you are drawing people and stuff that you default to!!

[@DannalrOfficialSite]

You have no idea how much your videos make me so happy and calmed :)

[@gillianisobel7437]

I was having a lot of anxiety tonight and I couldn't fall asleep so I decided to paint and put on some videos and this one came on and wow it helped so much! Thank you for all of the honesty in this

[@jindofu9911]

ahh its so prettyyy!! ur artwork is so nice

[@thisismelissalang]

Hi there! I'm loving the direction of your style with these new paintings. I feel ya though, imposter syndrome sucks, especially when we have so much inspiration to look at, at our fingertips. I do the same thing when watching other people's drawing vids...but for you only being about 2.5 years in and already have 100k subscribers and a community that loves your work I think you're doing just dandy!! : ) Keep doing what you're doing, it can only get better : )

[@designed_by_nina]

Keep up the good work! We're proud of you

[@littlevirgobean]

seeing that you uploaded always brightens my day! love your videos cheyenne, they're always so peaceful x

[@krahvata]

I'm listening to this while doing a graphic design project for school that is due in two days. Always a procrastinator!

[@estherti2855]

Ahhh your work is so cute and whimsical, Cheyenne!!! I've been following your social media accounts for the past few years (even back when you were on Tumblr!) and I love the progression of your style!! As a design student with "crippling perfectionism" and no art experience in high school, the imposter syndrome is far too real. I'm glad I have my boyfriend, who's also a design major, to motivate me to keep practicing consistently! Also, getting out of my comfort zone is such a struggle!! I always gravitate towards cool colors (probably depression lol) and I find it SO hard to use warmer colors instead. And I never expected you to yell this at 1:27 but that hits a little differently in June 2020

[@emilyfrain]

your videos are also so inspiring, I love watching them while I draw 💫 thanks for another wonderful video Chey!

[@JohamAhmad]

Thank you!! Thank you thank you so much for your videos they are the one constancy in my life that NEVER fails to give me endless joy

[@Olivia-yc4uq]

The colors, the movement in the limbs, the vibes!!! So good

[@thicket9555]

i have quite a short attention span but i can sit and watch you videos for hours, i absolutely adore you 💞💞 stay safe

[@abigailhoffman1571]

This helped me so very much. I've been having much of the same problems with my art and this helped me to feel valid and motivated! Your voice and personality is so charming and reassuring. Thank you Cheyenne ❤

[@meandacat_games]

thank you for talking about how you feel making art right now. i just graduated from art school and i feel so disconnected to how i was working before the quarantine to now. i'm trying to start a zine trade with a few friends but i spent the entire day yesterday beating myself up for not being able to focus and just actually /make something/. hearing that other creatives are feeling the same way makes it a little easier to be kind to myself right now. as always your videos lightened my day, thank you for being so positive and sweet

[@shysprout]

your head in the clouds piece has got to be one of my favorite you've ever created! I know you didn't love the colors but I hope you get to make it into a print someday bc WHEW i love v much

[@imanilytle3312]

The patterned background did come out nice! Thanks for doing these videos - I always edit my photos while I listen to you chat. It's always soothing and inviting. Can't wait for the next one!

[@Gelloufish]

I've been away from art for the longest time (5 years literally no drawing) and feeling not very confident in my recent works (kinda comparing it to my years ago works when I was at my peak). I'm really in a dark space right now and I'm fumbling around feeling defeated but wanting to try more but keeps on failing. It sucks. And listening to your process in every one of your videos I could watch always made me nod and agree and relate and I can't help but feel safe(?) knowing I'm not in this process alone. I know it sounds more like my personal struggle but I'm truly am thankful for your insights.

[@CrazyAGCat]

aww, this was exactly what i needed to watch right now :) i've also been struggling with my art and my emotions overall through current events, and feeling that need to be productive at all times even if i'm drained. listening to you talk and watching your process really inspired me, and now I think i'll go doodle some people and make some pretty arch frames around them like you did, cause that's really appealing! :)

[@glowworm2540]

I've been looking forward to the "please be nice to people" part ☺️

[@meredithgordon5447]

you’re so wholesome!! i’m so glad to be one of the followers!!

[@winstonruchie4520]

Thank you so much for giving us so many videos during these hard times, I know it must be hard to stay motivated but seeing a new video from you always brightens my day

[@kellyrabbit2]

Cheyenne! I am so happy you spoke on the subject of “imposter syndrome”, I’ve been feeling the same way as I just started my art instagram and it was really nice to hear someone with a larger platform to admit and speak about it. Thank you. 🧡

[@emmaforbes6396]

I'm glad you said sometimes you get intense imposter syndrome after watching 'come draw with me' videos, because I feel the same, I was starting to feel like I was the only one! It actually took me a few days to watch this video for the same reason. But the video gave me a reassuring calming feeling, definitely during this strange time, so thank you :)

[@ChristianneHare]

Today has been such a hard day so far but I turned on this video while doing some dishes and it helped me feel so much better thank you 💕

[@valentinabunnell1862]

Cheyenne!! Your art is beautiful and your videos are so peaceful and cute and so relaxing for me at this time 💕 I graduated college last year and have struggled with my confidence in where I’m headed and I so appreciate you sharing how you feel that way. Also: in the background of your vids/IG I see your beautiful bookcase, in a video could you possibly talk about your books/bookcase and recommendations?? That would be amazing ✨

[@ariellesketch4501]

Love watching your process! Beautifully done! I just bought some gouache for the first time, have you ever posted a tutorial on how to use them? I'd love to watch

[@sans4l1ly]

Currently doing a school project and watching you in the background. luv u chey

[@hijadelcerro]

Its funny the cloud painting ended up being really cute even though you struggled. Cool 💗

[@detectiverose]

Connor's goat cry of "CLOUUUUUT" and Cheyenne's blurred face in the upper right corner saying "FUCK 'EM" is all I need in life and we're barely 2 minutes into the video.

[@fedorczuk15anita]

i loved the first minutes of this thank you for using your platform for good :3

[@fioki]

hearing cheyenne saying "fuck em" is a GEM

[@cloudedabby4068]

the ideas are so creative, it's inspiring 💖

[@skpper2124]

Your videos calm me so much. I thank you for that. 💕

[@lilliebarlow6666]

god i love these videos, ur voice is so soothing! x

[@cookie-kei]

The fear of making bad art is so very real for me lately, and the introduction of this pandemic isn't helping either. I have a hard time being kind to myself which is mostly in part to perfectionism. I have good days and not so good days, but I try and am still trucking through! I am in the same boat that I am so for screaming it from the rooftops, yes make bad art! Experiment try new things. Be afraid but be active,,,,and then in the quiet of my workspace I run from my sketchbook. ;;;;

[@арвуля]

i'm both disheartened and encouraged that pretty established artists (at least in my eyes hah) feel this way hah i've just recently got my head up above the waters of years lasting depression that completely killed my interest in anything, including art, and I'm finally feeling that I'm able to commit and FEEL that i like something (lol sry for säd stuffs) and i feel like art might be something that i'm still drawn to, and everything you say kind of applies to me just starting out and ugh it's so frustrating and just... like i know the only way is through but GOD fuckin dammit it's probably the hardest part gonna go be rude to some nazis brb! hellos from finland

[@baffledmouse]

So I have been feeling very similar, especially what she was saying about being scared to make bad art. I am generally happy with the things I make and enjoy the process of making them, I only begin to think that they are bad once I post them on social media and they don't get the reaction I expected. For now I am just making art as a form of therapy for myself as it helps with my anxiety. I think if art helps you, do it! And try not to worry about the finished piece or what people think of it, just enjoy the process (easier said than done I know.)

[@hereforhaiku]

I.. love u... das all I gotta say. Your art and personality are A1. Congrats on 100k :D

[@tirlen]

I love your outfit it’s so cottagecore

[@lindzloot6134]

Your art is too cute! Wonderfully done.

[@yesterdaybaby]

Really enjoyed this video, the art is so lovely! I've been arting casually for such a long time and honestly I really feel the same with that foggy, insecure, not sure how to put pencil to paper thing. It's been so weird and disconcerting especially since working my day job from home takes up all my usual "making" spaces.

[@BriarMaeriSibyle]

savage cheyenne at her finest

[@jamiehager956]

You are so inspiring in so many ways!!

[@rohanfox7673]

I'd love to see you do some more realistic observational drawing! Of landscapes, or still life.. I appreciate your art style (though it's sometimes a bit too cutesy/twee/pastel-y for me, but that's a matter of personal taste) but it would be cool to see you do the stepping out of your comfort zone thing! Though I totally get it being a super hard thing to do! I did what is probably my first landscape (at least as an adult) the other day, I kept making mistakes but remembered what Bob Ross said about them being "happy accidents!". I love watching your videos! Your voice is super relaxing and you seem like an awesome human! :3

[@viv6700]

i’m very interested in that neon green tho 👀👀👀

[@kovacspistol]

Wow! A fresh vid and I'm here an hour up!! Thanks for sharing such a relaxing entertaining video!!! :)

[@sofiainesgottig1886]

Hello! I got so Happy for this video... I try to make a perfect Sunday, and your videos gives me the vibe I need

[@TinyLyra]

I didn’t know you had Twitter!!! 😯🥳 such good news! Also I have had some luck with making that crazy green colour work a bit, I can send some pics/palates to help with experimentation if you think that would be useful? Love love love the video, I’ve been planning my morning in the hammock with my pink cup of tea since I saw there was a new video up last night, and it’s all just as wonderful as I thought it would be ☺️🌼 p.s. hello Sophie!!

[@TinyLyra]

Ooh okay I just finished the video and I just wanted to quickly also say that it was really incredible to get to see your process as you worked through each idea and so cool to see you reinventing and experimenting and getting to hear your thoughts at the same time! One of my favourite videos of yours ever I think, such a cool concept ☺️

[@meganversteeg4658]

That small flip to 2019 painting makes me want a sketchbook tour!!!! Pleasseeeeee 😂😫😍