Childhood Sexual Abuse Survivor-Michelle

Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Michelle, a survivor of childhood sexual abuse now living in Orlando, Florida.
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[@michelleaustin507]

Thank you everyone for all the positive feedback and encouragement I hope my story reaches someone that can relate I’ll pray you get the help you need ❤😊

[@at7512]

Thank you for sharing Michelle... I know the hurt, I know the shame, just by sharing you are making a difference.. wishing you peace along your journey 🙏🏽🙏🏽

[@juniorsanchez7441]

You are amazing thank you for sharing wish you the best in life

[@laura4dsunshine]

Baby, take your sadness to God. Just talk to the Creator and tell him your hurt, just tell him all about it. God works in mysterious ways. My first DNA test, it said I had a certain percentage "Micronesia" 😊🙏. Keep the faith. This world is wicked.

[@itsjust_deanna]

I’m a survivor of foster abuse as well. I’m so happy for you and all you have overcome. You are truly inspiring, keep fighting ❤

[@marvinjames6398]

Thank you for sharing your story. You're an amazing person, stay strong for you and your family.

[@EBlueTX]

The amount of people on this channel who experienced sexual abuse as a child is scary . There is so much evil in the world right in front of our faces they need to start locking people who hurt children up for life !!!

[@lil_debbie]

I know so many people it's happened to - it's astounding. I asked my therapist if it's normal!!

[@trent3872]

Epstein was about to spill the beans when the Clinton's murdered him.

[@dubaiedge]

Yeah, but try & get people to believe children. Hard road. I wasn't believed.

[@Horheles16]

1 in 4 girls and 1 in 6 boys. There are not enough prisons to lock all of them. It happened to me too.The prisons are allready full. How could you accomodate 1 milllion predators? I would adress this diffrently.

[@EBlueTX]

@@Horheles16 But their seem to be enough prisons to lock up people for drugs and hold people for decades for crimes they obviously didn’t commit but were convicted because of their race . I would do your research. It’s not that their isn’t enough prisons it’s that predators and other people who hurt children are on the bottom of the priority list for our goverment . Hence school shootings also not being handled properly. The government cares more about taking women’s rights , LGBTQ plus rights , Se* workers rights , and keep laws built on racism in effect more than they do the things that actually matter . The children are the future . Read between the lines baby lol they goverment is most definitely not o our sides . Wonder why this country is in so much turmoil yikes.

[@ChimneyCakes]

She's been through so much but she still seems warm towards people. Amazing woman.

[@LourdesHernandez-bx2gi]

I completely understand where she is coming from!! I too was molested by 3 different people in my childhood, almost a 4th one but luckily I was 14 years old and was able to tell my dad right away. I never did tell my parents about the first 3 until I was an adult. I suppressed it all and suffered from major anxiety and depression. I’m 53 years old and still hold so much trauma inside. I wish I could protect all the children in the world who suffer at the hands of all these child abusers.

[@justayoutuber1906]

I get so angry when I hear people have hurt or abused little kids. I can see why men in prison often kill pedophiles.

[@vanessaaac]

So sad how her mother left them in the car like that. 😢 I can’t imagine what you have been through Michelle but I am happy you are still here! You seem like a good person and you are obviously here for a reason! I hope you finally get to live a happy and fulfilled life! Thank you for sharing! 🙏

[@Big87653]

It’s even sadder that the foster mother was allowing them to be abused by her husband. Disgusting.

[@wedge5896]

The foster mother was abusing them as well, both sicko's

[@RichardOrchard-ih2rx]

Why are you happy a drug addicted leach is still alive to suck off the taxpayers of California and keep the world a shitty place? 🤓

[@montananerd8244]

With the baby being a month old, I think it's reasonable to assume postpartum psychosis played a role. Still heartbreaking, but often not caused by evil.

[@sharrose7594]

Love and prayers to you

[@switch231]

I had the pleasure of living in Guam for 3 years. The Chamoro people have a really rich culture and they accepted me and my family with open arms. They are some of the warmest people I have ever met. When I meet someone from Guam in the States, I always try to pay it forward if they need anything.

[@kurtericmunroe9358]

Being open and warm is exactly why Europeans were able to harm all those smiling faces over the centuries. STOP being so nice.

[@thematriarchy2075]

​@@kurtericmunroe9358Mmm, and "those" smiling faces had no wars between their own? Just asking, not a denial.

[@karenfryberger4260]

@@kurtericmunroe9358 Why not be nice? Are you suggesting people should continue harming others?

[@naelyneurkopfen9741]

@@kurtericmunroe9358 What an ignorant, hateful, bigoted bunch of bs! You must have no knowledge of human history whatsoever! Shame on you for spreading lies and hatred. You're far worse than those you accuse.

[@karenfryberger4260]

@@thematriarchy2075 Of course indigenous people have territorial issues, animosity between communities/tribes, wars and commit atrocities. That doesn't give Europeans a pass for centuries of exploitation, subjugation and genocide of indigenous people encountered during "exploration" - which largely translated to land grabs and looting whatever was considered valuable to the conquering nation(s).

[@Catajbr]

What a horrible experience. Those foster care people need to be thoroughly investigated before allowing children to be left alone in their care. I've heard other horror stories like this one. The whole foster care/adoption system needs a complete overhaul with tighter regulations in favour of the safety and protection of the children and their natural parents if they want their children back. This woman seems to be doing much better and survived the nightmare thankfully. Those people who abused this woman and her sister as children should be in prison for life.

[@user-wq3ty4uj1p]

Dirty rotten bastards, those poor children

[@12stepmeditations55]

If you believe there should be harsher punishments for these type of abusers, PLEASE contact your lawmakers and tell them so.

[@sophitran]

She’s such a beautiful resilient spirit that endured a terrible life experience. I’m sorry this happen to her and I pray that she will continue to live and go beyond survive but thrive !!!

[@yootoob1001001]

Resilent for sure. She also has a positive outlook to go with it somehow. When I was listening about her arm I was thinking the same thing along with putting myself in her shoes and for me, waking up to my arm every day would probably be like a daily scolding rather than being grateful to still be alive. Listening to her gave me food for thought about that, because perspective can make or break us.

[@imcatdacker]

.😮 9:26 😅 9:26

[@InSeshion]

Her bandaid analogy at the end was beautiful. I think anyone who's had mental health struggles, big or small can relate.

[@RichardOrchard-ih2rx]

You don't know how to spell whose. My first grader is smarter than you. 🤣👍👍🤡🤡🤡🤡

[@user-wv8oq3zx2t]

Why do people adopt children if they don't love them?? Insane.

[@eevagirl]

Narcissistic

[@myeyeswentdeaf6213]

Foster care checks

[@Noname-ni8qm]

​@@eevagirl they give them money for sure,also in many cases are pedos

[@selcenerdem]

Most of the time just to abuse them or gain reputation from surroundings

[@3ZN357]

Taxes

[@Bonz-vc8zd]

Growing up adopted is tough. I was adopted from Chile and once I turned 30, I wanted to learn my health history, met with a adoptee organization, and they found out through police and files that I was stolen from a underground mob, stealing children from lower class/poor mothers and lying to them about new borns death and then make money off shipping adopted children to the USA or Netherlands. It messed me up a little.

[@ashmacc7868]

I'm so sorry. That's heavy stuff. Sending hugs and love and hoping you stay strong ❤

[@andreavanda5402]

I'm so sorry for everyone who went through this horrific experience.

[@LittleRedMoon16]

That is awful to have happened to you. I hope you’re okay.

[@TeaCup1940]

This was sadly very common in Chile as in other countries like Georgia as well. It is very wicked that there are people that would separate a baby from the mother just to make money. But as the Bible says, the love of money is the root of all evil. Not the money itself is evil, but the love of money.

[@ashleyromero5302]

That prominent family in CT should be shouted out, I hope all of Newtown knows what animals they are. I can’t believe they had no legal recourse.

[@innermeetme]

I would love to know their names.

[@victorynjesus421]

Michelle, thanks for sharing your story. I suffered child abuse and molestation as a kid. I suffered depression since I was 7 years old, but I wasn't diagnosed until I was in my mid 20s. I had no idea what was wrong with me. My stepfather never offered loved to me and my siblings. My Mom loved us so much, but she didn't know how to show it. She wasn't affectionate with us. We really needed that love. I grew up suffering depression and anxiety and feeling that no one loved me. Thankfully, I moved to another city and after I had my 2 kids, I began to get the help (therapy and medication) that I needed. I love therapy! And I don't play about taking my medication. I look at my depression and anxiety as this is just like me having diabetes. This is a medical problem that I will likely have to deal with throughout my life. God is so good, He saved me and showed me how much He always loved me. Through Christ and therapy, I learned how to love myself and others. Truly, God saved my life.

[@willylumplump6685]

I feel for you. Going thru depression at such a young age will definitely damage your mental and invite demons In Your spirit. It's A miracle you survived! God bess you! People look for love thru sex and that's ass backwards. We sex too early before establishing our love, especially at a early Age and pay for it for the rest of our lives. Humanity is doomed. And we killed it! Talk about self destruction! I'm surprised we're not extinct yet but if we keep on this path we soon will be. The devil lied to us. To keep us away from God, we thought we would get love thru sex and end up eliminating love in the pursuit of sex and fell into a spiritual trap of self destruction and depression and despair. In the end, nobody wins. How can you know the Lord if you don't know what love is? So, just focus o loving the Most High and the Lord. Even tho we don't why he loves us, he does so love him more. Please pray and be grateful and give thanks. You're here because you have the power to help others. Plant the seed of ❤️ love and you'll be great and will accomplish amazing things spiritually. Trust in the Lord. God bless you.

[@stefdiazdiaz7067]

Sad thing is that medication may end causing damage to internal organs, my grandma died because of it, very unfair.

[@kristymurphy1363]

She is a amazing woman! So happy she was able to help others. I’m a product of sexual , mental and physical abuse I’ve never told my story and have never got any help with it I struggle everyday

[@LoneWulf278]

I really hope you get the help soon. ❤

[@CassieBee88]

Kristy, I am the daughter of a woman who was a product of this environment. I have seen it affect her whole life. Her self-worth and self-esteem have NEVER existed. It inadvertently affected me, even to this day. I don’t trust men, I think they all have bad intentions. Even when I see fathers with their daughters, I get almost disgusted. Love between father and a daughter was misconstrued for me, and I saw it as one-sided rather than beneficial to both parties. I’m saying all of this to say, I am hoping you get the help you DESERVE. For your sake, and especially for the precious baby that you are holding. You deserve to live life fully.

[@PJHEATERMAN]

@@CassieBee88 I'm a man and i believe a large segment of the male population is predatory. I have two daughters and that was my concern while raising them. Fathers with a healthy mind only want the best for their children. I only say this to refute your bias towards all males.

[@CassieBee88]

@@PJHEATERMAN I apologize for saying all, I knew better than to do that. I know there are good men out there, I just don’t know how to tell who. I did have a male in my life (my grandpa) who also refuted my bias, he was an absolute gem of a person. My issues are definitely mine, and I apologize for saying all men. I am raising two boys, who will one day be men, and I do know how it could have affected them if I allowed my biases to get the best of me… outwardly. I’ve tried very hard to break myself from that thinking, because I know it’s the thinking of a wounded person, rather than a healed one

[@RichardOrchard-ih2rx]

​​@@LoneWulf278you hope the original commenter you're replying to gets help soon? 🤣👍👍🤡

[@Rock.me.gently.7]

Thank you Mark for giving people the chance to tell their stories, the good and the bad. There have been times when people’s stories are so sad and intense that I can’t watch the entire interview in one go. On sad interviews it grabs my heart when at the end of an emotional, sad interview, you get up and hug the person that you are interviewing. That speaks volumes. Again, thank you 🙏🏼

[@terrytownsend5583]

You a spokesperson

[@lourar.2800]

This story is heart breaking 💔 childhood trauma can last forever. I'm happy that after all the abuse and demons she battles ...she can be a good mother. I'm proud of her.

[@adamwilling2457]

I am a childhood sexual abuse survivor and recovering drug addict. I was addicted to crack cocaine and meth. I also had an alcohol problem. I also have recently been diagnosed with autism at 43. I've been clean since April 2017. I'm also gay and married. I can relate to some people that you have interviewed. You are doing a great service to the world. You treat everyone with respect that you interview.

[@mariacawley746]

God wanted you here for your family. Never take your life; it affects so many, and the trauma will always be there. My husband did it at age 27. I am 63 now, and my only daughter is 43, and we still feel the pain. Life is worth living. Sending you love and prayers.

[@renatalegorreta7935]

She is so brave, so brave at being vulnerable. She is so real and deserves to be in peace. I love her.

[@dubaiedge]

True survivor, & not an ounce of self-pity. Remarkable. Yes, the adoptive mother took her anger out on you. Best of luck to you. 💖

[@user-dc1kk1gq6v]

Michelle, you are such a strong and courageous woman. I applaud you for not giving up. Depression is real and it’s debilitating. I can relate to your story. I was also molested (by a family member) when I was 4 or 5). I too suppressed it and it came back when I was 10. I’ve been through tons of therapy for that. The effects of my childhood have affected my life and mental health, but I work everyday towards healing. Thank you for sharing your story. Please continue to share and talk to others about it. You never know who can benefit from your experience. You have a beautiful soul. May God continue to help and guide you as you continue to heal.

[@clancykeegan748]

Thank you. I got through my childhood trauma believing that we are here to learn lessons about life. Some people have harder lessons to learn. Who knows why? When we've learnt the lesson we are taken home. God's timing. Well done for being brave enough to have four kids, after all you went through! Being a good parent and breaking the cycle!!! You've won!!! ❤🙏

[@rubyredd6366]

Love how transparent she was throughout this interview! Happy that she strongly believes in therapy, and her antidepressants are helping. Daily, she choses continue to fight through her adversities and raise four children, and find a husband that embraces her and together they lean on one another. She's an inspiration to so many, she has a forgiven heart, she's a beautiful lady inside and out, and although her younger sister and other siblings are not speaking, they too need to deal and process their pain accordingly. Best wishes to her for sharing her story. Clearly, I don't understand why fostering or adopting children are always abused! Thank God her sister got the courage to report her adoptive monster parents! Yet, she still felt terrible that her adoptive father was taken away, yet the system failed them because the courts failed them by NOT punishing them! SMH! Please know you're a strong, relentless, loving mother even if you think you're children weren't physically hugged, collectively with your husband, are #winners wether you know it or not! Sending loving thoughts and Prayers! Never forget what a lovely strong vibrant woman you are! Love your demeanor and your calm Spirit. God Bless you! ✨️🙏✨️ Mark, great interview thank you! ✨️

[@Hans80]

Listening to her is like watching someone lifting weights that are too heavy for humans to lift. You're incredible.

[@mariaescobar9990]

Exactly! She sounds sooooo tired )"

[@jenniferkapper1]

Thank you so much for sharing. As a mother it kills me children are treated and abused this way everyday. I’m thankful you’re living and so beautiful with a partner who is good to you. Know you are loved 🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@organicliving4211]

Thank you for sharing your story, Michelle ❤️I went through very similar experiences and it has affected me since the first incident of sexual abuse over 35yrs ago. I feel depression a lot of times also, and I’m encouraged to do so because of you sharing your story and what has worked to help get the depression under control. Thank you and bless you and your family ❤️🙏❤️🙏❤️🙏

[@fleetsma5119]

She is beautiful to look at and in her soul! The rampant sexual, emotional & verbal abuse that takes place is reinforced by a culture of silence. SPEAK OUT AGAINST ABUSE!

[@thematriarchy2075]

Yes, speak out, but also against the objectification of people. Beautiful or not should not even be a thing to mention.

[@naelyneurkopfen9741]

@@thematriarchy2075 We are biologically designed to notice and be attracted to beauty. Denying biology, our nature, is lying to yourself. Going against nature is destructive. Just stop with the nonsense. Stop trying to dictate lies.

[@investingprofessional7040]

​@@thematriarchy2075🤡

[@ashmacc7868]

​@@thematriarchy2075compliments are o-k

[@thematriarchy2075]

@@ashmacc7868 Empty compliments are like empty calories, useless. It is nice to acknowledge others not their face, but their being

[@scottnance2200]

How can someone who suffered such trauma be so calm, articulate, and self-aware?

[@sinch4044]

Many people in your life who you may simply see as quirky or a little sad or normal have probably been through trauma. Everyone deals and presents differently. Please don't imply that anyone with trauma cannot conduct themselves with grace.

[@dubaiedge]

There's a lot of us cycle breakers out here. You walk amongst us, but won't know it.

[@WongSpy]

it's called healing, you try to move on as hard as you can, day by day.

[@jordannawritesuk]

It's not necessarily called healing- I am a survivor of child sexual abuse from my father and I have no where near healed. My mind is a mess and I need serious help to sort my shit out but I am still very self aware and articulate myself well. Some of the most "put together" people you see, could be some of the most traumatized.

[@lolitajohnson3932]

Yes, she obviously found the strength in ?God?

[@lesliemarvin160]

My husband has mental health issues. We are trying to get a proper diagnosis and proper medication. It's a journey. Thank you for sharing your story. It gives me hope for our future.

[@kizmutyaba4965]

Hopefully you both can find some sort of solace

[@krischanlive]

I don't know about medication for mental problems. Therapy and small positive changes in life can work wonders. Wishing you both all the best

[@lesliemarvin160]

Thank you for the support. My husband has been in therapy for a year and a half and taken DBT and working on getting CBT scheduled. It really is day by day or sometimes minute by minute. He's working hard to be the best version of himself and we are very proud of him.

[@21656303]

The resilience of the human spirit is truly remarkable. Thank you for sharing your story, I hope you continue to heal and grow

[@1428monsterdrink]

Trying to escape from pain is what creates more pain. Breaking the cycle is so incredibly hard! You did great ❤

[@wilcoxtam810]

Pornography always features in these stories and yet we as a society love to pretend like it’s no big deal

[@jessicasinmas]

Agree so much with you, I believe porn should be banned , can someone explain what is d good side of porn , because all I hear is d cause of evil

[@angelablaney4575]

Pornography shouldn't exist. Full stop!🙏🙏♥️♥️

[@kimchiface00]

I hear you, Michelle. I've seen so many people speak on this channel who are adoptees, but it's still not acknowledged that adoption is TRAUMA. Society just accepts the narrative of saviorism that adoption profiteers created. It denies the true experiences, losses, and struggles that adoptees go through. Adoptees like Michelle are so brave for speaking up about their stories. All the love and support to her.

[@fitisdead8029]

i love this channel man, i gotta travel far sometimes for my work and i listen to ur interviews in my car audio system.

[@lauramason5667]

She’s a beautiful, inspiring person. God bless she, her husband and her children.❤

[@a.wanderer5006]

..Lesson by Michelle: think twice before you tell adopted parents how great they are for adopting kids, especially in front of those kids.

[@naelyneurkopfen9741]

Adoptive or otherwise, there are wicked people raising children. There always have been and there always will be. Look at what set her whole story into motion. Her own mother destroyed the family, then left her own children to die in a car, in the jungle. Her own father chose to give his kids away because he didn't want to be responsible and take care of them himself, as he should have.

[@LOVERGEIST777]

bless this lady everyone is going thru an invisible battle so that is why it is so important to be kind

[@littleroundgoddess]

I wish you peace and comfort. You clearly have what it takes to heal. Youre resilient and worthy of joy. I'm so sorry for the abuse you suffered.

[@vinha916]

doesn't mean she is at peace.

[@BeeKay4444]

@@vinha916what an unnecessary comment.

[@cringirl]

Sometimes survival is subtle. You would never know, just to look at her, the hell she's lived, and that is heroic. Breaking the cycle can mean a lot of things, but I love that she ultimately includes disclosure and openness over shame and secrecy. Thank you for sharing Michelle. Thanks again, Mark!

[@kindkyra]

She is So STRONG this whole story she is STRONG and is still going , done came so far

[@nonharrybulz9380]

She’s a very pretty woman with a kind soul. I wish her peace in her life

[@wolfmoon3431]

Thank you for having the courage to share your story Michelle. The accumulative trauma you have suffered and it's after effects resonated deeply with me and my own personal experience. I am 38 and spent most of my life trying to overcome the trauma and associated experience of my formative years through many different forms of therapy and counselling (many of which, were helpful in managing my mental health conditions but none allowed me to truly move forward or find the emotional stability I was so desperately searching for)😔 I found the spiritual therapies most beneficial (like reiki) but the positive effects would only last long until, in 2020, I had a deep shamanic healing session. It really was a crossroads in my life and if it was not for this healing, I would not be here now. It truly cleared the trauma and allowed me to move forward from everything in my past with a clean slate and soul. I can only describe it as being miraculous. I no longer have any mental health conditions and it enabled me to come off my anti-psychotic medication which, I had been on for 22 years and although, it helped control my anxiety, it was not helping with my emotional stability whatsoever. I do meditate daily as well which, I have found crucial in maintaining emotional/energetic balance but I am thankful everyday to the shaman that facilitated my soul's healing and allowed me to live life again so I just wanted to share that possibility with you. I hope you find the healing you need to overcome the trauma of your past (as I have done) and I wish you a happy, healthy and peaceful future 🕊💞🕊

[@brandypou7590]

She’s a brave and resilient woman. I do have to say one thing… I feel like a lot of words were said but I still don’t understand her story. Would love for her to come back when she has more clarity in her words

[@TheMilimanatary1]

God bless her!!! I will pray for her. I know what she deals with on the daily. And there are many people out there with similar experiences. She's not alone. I hope she begins to feel more comfortable talking about it openly. PODCAST? Guest Hosting? Once she shares more she'll begin to see the value she has in life. She's very valuable!

[@Dimythios]

It's the look in her eyes that make me sad.

[@dreamerthinker5956]

Courage and beauty and authenticity, heaven sent. ❤ She worries about jumping around in her story or rambling -- and she doesn't need to ever do that! She's healing (others) as she's speaking.

[@dorisgazdaugh5119]

Michelle, first, I’m so sorry that you and your sister went through what you did. We are a tough strong people. I was state raised from the day I was born following many orphanages and foster homes, then to people like yours adopted me. At 7, I left at 16. I truly know of the pain and destruction. I am 69 have been sober for 27 years and still have not seen a therapist. I’ve heard a lot recently about people who do lately so I’m more motivated to get one now. I think it’s because I don’t want to relive the past but yet I know I should go. Thank you for your story and now more motivation. Your a angel and God Bless you in your continued recovery ❤️‍🩹. Much respect

[@martintrj5620]

Thank you for give a voice to the voiceless, thank you for taking the time to help these people tell their story. I am subscribing to your channel. 👍

[@lisareed9972]

OMG…I just want to hug Michelle!! I would love to let her know that God loves her!! She is a beautiful soul and she is worthy of being on this earth. God Bless you Michelle! My heart breaks for the things you have had to go through. Please be strong for your children. They need you! I will be praying for you and hope you have a beautiful life from here on out! You deserve it!!!

[@justyne8627]

Told with strength and complete honesty. I wish the world were better than what you endured. I'm older and I'm still realizing how evil evil is. Your story also helps me understand what was most likely behind the behavior of some I've loved. Yes, in the good ol days there was no such thing as depression or abuse. There were good kids and bad kids. And unfortunately some physical abuse was known as 'discipline'. I now know that to be 'ridiculous'. And nothing spoils a child - or anyone or any thing that breathes - more than a lack of love.

[@zoltankaparthy9095]

What an in credible woman. My hat is off to her. She has fought her way to health. Yes, I believe in therapy, 12 - 15 years of it and it saved my life.

[@tiggtiggs]

Dear Michelle, your empathy & appreciation, the highest expressions of humanity represent your inner wealth. You have many gifts & the world is a much better place with you in it. You are amazing! ✌💖

[@princessangie7158]

was really good friends with her daughter this family is amazing and michelle is so welcoming and loving ❤️❤️❤️ sending hugs michelle ❤️❤️

[@elaibesummers906]

So sorry you went through such a traumatic childhood. Nothing for you to feel ashamed of Michelle. You sharing your story has definitely helped me and others. You know it wasn't your fault. We all deal with trauma in a different way. There are some real evil people out there. My sister said she does not remember. i remember it all!. Every day is a struggle but we are survivors. I specially can relate when you said you were not affectionate with your children but you did say you love them. I can also relate to nightmares. I pray continuous, love, light and healing over your life.💜💜

[@laraoneal7284]

Children are the most marginalized demographic in society period. I’m so sickened that this happened to her and her sibling. I hope she’s in some kind of recovery process. I pray for her healing. If one suppresses the abuse they are also suppressing their immune system. It’s called ACES. She needs to research this. She should also listen to Dr Gabor Mate’. He explains how this dynamic works. She is in a lot of pain.

[@amywalton4201]

Thank you so much for sharing your story. It’s so relatable and it’s a necessity for us to hear. I’m glad you live through your ordeals and you had a supportive husband and your children have made it thank you for sharing. It means a lot.

[@SlimDaddyKin]

I was molested by my grandfather's nephew, at the age of 4 till i was about 8 years old, im 23 & i still suffer from PTSD anxiety & depression from it it honestly fucked up my child hood, so NOBODY DESERVES this torture its inhumane and disgusting, evil watch your kids please they're the most purest thing on earth no sins nothing just a little kid and deserve to live a life of a normal child & a great childhood, for all the victims of molestation you got this its unfortunate of what happened and it shouldn't have happened to you and i want to let y'all know you ain't the only one your predator will die & rott in hell, and you will be successful in life, don't be afraid to speak up & to never hide stuff that you need to speak about talk to your children watch them protect them educate them about the Bad people teach them to never lie about bad things & let them know the boogeyman is real. May god bless you for internal life

[@devanbear101dv]

I hope her husband and children get therapy too to handle what happened. They endured a lot too with the suicide attempts.

[@odessaknows3783]

I can relate to alot of things she speaks of like sexual abuse and physical abuse in my childhood, having children young ( 17) and Stuffing it all in and not having time to think about my Trauma because I had to grow up fast.. Like her,I have a wonderful husband who is like my therapist but I have therapy every week. I have experienced a lot of reckless stuff and attempted to take my life once.. Now I feel like I'm healing a lot and doing better. I still have Nightmares, night sweats, mood swings , I go through depression here and there and PTSD. If anyone is trying to wake me up and touches me when I'm asleep I jump and am startled very easily and I gasp. I can also relate to wanting to show your children love but not quite knowing exactly how to but to always tell them "I love you" and make sure they have what they need. Thankfully My kids came out great kids and are now young adults and thriving in life. Michelle, Always remember if you Loved yourself enough to live through the nightmare of your childhood, You can now love yourself enough to live a happy and good life.❤

[@BeeKay4444]

Hi Michelle! I just wanted to tell you how incredibly brave you are to share your story. I’m sorry the adults in your life didn’t protect you as a child. Sending you healing love and light. ❤

[@sandraalegria3439]

I used so I wouldn't cry ,I understand wanting to be emotionless. You are beawitchingly calm and beautifull, give your peace to some that need you to heal them. You are healer your tone of voice and aura are very bright light.

[@lightfaeries7]

You should be proud of yourself , you're inspirational. Take good care of YOU !!!

[@thegeezerrr2042]

What a lovely girl.. I hope she sorts it out with her brothers and sisters.. I was an only child and always longed for a sister or brother and when I see people fall out with theirs over stupid stuff it's so sad.. I wish her and her family all the best for the future.... James.. England

[@people_watcher]

Good morning Mark and the SWU family. I hope we all have a fantastic day

[@BeeKay4444]

Back at you❤

[@InLikeFlynn21]

This isn’t Reddit. We are watching a video listening to a very sad story…you come in acting like it’s a party. Shut up. You’ve unnerved me.

[@InLikeFlynn21]

@@BeeKay4444you shut up too

[@BeeKay4444]

@@InLikeFlynn21 lol. Keep choking on your negativity!

[@Surviver-e2o]

“They adopt us for all WRONG purpose” that is so sad. I am wishing you and praying for you to get well heals once for all. You are brave and so proud of you!

[@MultiMikeford]

My niece is a cutter. It's hard to watch for family. Im praying for you. Just a lesson, not a life sentence . Turn the page on this chapter in your story. You're so pretty with a great personality. Good luck mama you got this

[@judysteadman799]

Being able to speak about it . Amazing surviving that Abuse. ptsd and bipolar. 🙏 🙏

[@ThatViralspot]

THIS is what I call a survivor! No blaming. Understanding. Emotional struggle of growth. Forgiveness. Then the aftermath. At work holding back a tear because my experience is the exact same as yours.

[@magdabak5797]

What a shit comment. Every victim of abuse deal with the trauma their own way. There is no better way or worse way. Some of the victims will never be able to forgive and that is also ok.

[@calcifiedweatherfrog4945]

She should blame, she should blame all the fuckers who harmed her. Fuck this bigger person narrative when it comes to trauma.

[@stefdiazdiaz7067]

Well sometimes blaming may be perfectly reasonable.

[@420Khatz]

At 18 I jumped off a 4 story overpass and shattered one of my spinal discs. The doctor's ended up having to fuse what was left of the shattered disc to the disc above it. They said I was incredibly lucky to not have been paralyzed. I am now 30 and experience a limited range of spinal motion, suffer from pain that only gets worse over time, and a visibly disfigured back that has eats away at my confidence as it also worsens with time. And even though I am now thriving and happier and more confident than I ever could have imagined in my wildest dreams... I have to live with knowing I did that to myself.

[@waffles8664]

stop bragging it's not all about you

[@420Khatz]

@@waffles8664lmao literally never said it was bud. and where tf did I brag?😂

[@waffles8664]

@@420Khatz It sounds like you were saying your story was better than her, as you were braging.

[@420Khatz]

@@waffles8664 idk how you got that impression from what I said. I posted my comment to express that I relate to the woman in this video- having overcome so much and got so far, but still having to live with the damage you've done, and knowing you did it to yourself. What I did is definitely not something to brag about, it's actually my biggest regret.

[@waffles8664]

@@420Khatz Just imagine if you had God in your life how different you would be in life.

[@awakenotwoke1973]

So much trauma and suffering for a clearly lovely person to have endured.

[@strugglingblessed6638]

Your sharing is encouraging Michelle. I know what it's like to live a life where you have no choice but to live each day moment by moment. It becomes more healing the more we get it out. We no longer give our struggles a place to "live" inside of us any longer. We have control over it. Faith and Belief and Truth are must...Trust in God IS the healing. Continue to live in God's Grace and Mercy and LOVE! You are precious Michelle. God Bless you again for sharing. 🙌

[@thatgirl5630]

This woman radiates beauty and resilience. I’m praying for her to stay strong and to have a happy life 🩷

[@simonsays101]

Thank you 🙏 Michelle for telling your story and I wish u all the best in life ❤

[@6885annt]

She’s beautiful inside and out! I’m sick that she was adopted by such wicked mean sick people. And they were not punished?? How is that? I wish they were punished then and still being punished.

[@martemcclain3546]

You are such a beautiful person. It is awful that so many people did you wrong and that caused you so much pain and trauma in your life. Hang in there and know you were saved for a reason. Many blessings for you to live a happy life from now on.

[@klasota1616]

What a beautiful and charismatic woman.. hope she continues to heal and share to help others

[@blueeyes2007]

You are beautiful and very strong! Just wanted to let you know, I feel your pain and wish you the best.

[@user-mu2to7uy1v]

You are an amazing women. You have come through so much and are needed on this earth

[@ow3wells]

Too much for a child to deal with❤

[@MarkMark-ji6ts]

Very personal, very raw. What a wonderful soul. Peace be with you.

[@jazzysophie9943]

Michelle, how I feel for her. I feel her pain. I understand her pain. The things she went through, although a little different, but I have been through hell and back. Listening to her story, I too have a difficult time showing my love. How her adoptive family treated her was horrible. And, they're NOT even in jail. These monsters got by with abusing Michelle and her sister. I do hope she finds peace within herself. This lady is such a remarkable lady. Maybe, if she wrote a book that might help her heal. I'm 70 yrs old now and I keep saying one day I'll write a book. But, I'm afraid of the past. I feel Michelle is afraid of life. She doesn't know how to feel and/or just be. I hope the very best for Michelle and her sister. This lady needs all the love anyone could offer.

[@user-wq3ty4uj1p]

What a beautiful young woman. God bless and keep her safe

[@peterkenny3994]

Such a beautiful young lady, I hope life gets better for her,

[@genaevenson5233]

Your absolutely stunning and so articulate loved listening to you tell your story. Keep up the fantastic work you’ve done so far. Big hugs from Washington state ❤

[@SydSquid828]

Michelle Thank you for sharing your story. ❤ it is very brave of you to be open & honest. I was also adopted by evil parents & I know how hard it can be to recover from the traumatic experiences in childhood. Please know you have so much to live for & anything that has happened to you was not your fault. I love that you’re in therapy & taking the medications that work for you! Keep pushing through, taking it day by day. I’m happy you’re healing & seeing Life is beautiful ❤️‍🩹 Sending Love & Light your way

[@SunGODdess9999]

😢this is heartbreaking ❤️‍🩹 praying for complete healing

[@kathypetersen7558]

God bless you, Michelle. Lots resonated with me regarding mood swings, depression., anger, and rage. Maybe I should see someone.

[@trangt.7488]

You’re a beautiful soul! Thank you for sharing your heartfelt story. ❤ I wish you nothing but peace & love .

[@carolineafolabi-deleu4527]

“If you want to bring happiness to the whole world, go home and love your family.” Mother Teresa

[@amaltux2593]

SHE IS SO BEAUTIFUL. I'M HAPPY SHE HAS SURVIVED

[@kathypatterson4630]

I am so glad you found the right help!

[@NikoHL]

Therapy does help. I was sceptical, but when I went through a trauma, therapy helped me in my recovery.

[@SPK-op4rr]

Can we do a part 2?? There’s so much more

[@simonsays101]

I can definitely relate to Michelle and some of her story with mental health and addiction. And S.A.

[@PG-on1dx]

To come out of that much abuse and to still be such a good person is truly an amazing testament your souls strength. You're amazing. I'm sorry you were adopted by monsters that were more interested in being selfish and virtue signaling instead of actually nurturing and providing a safe environment for their adopted children.

[@meb250000]

My god, how can she be a normal person after everything that happened to her!! God bless her!!

[@simonjusticier333]

Very few are normal, whatever normal means. Most of us live lives of quiet desperation.

[@krischanlive]

Simon I agree

[@maryastark8075]

​​@@simonjusticier333Profound, and sadly so true. As a child (am 46 now) my best friend, had no idea that most of her mother's family had perished during the Holocaust. When she was 17, her mother committed suicide, seemingly without any outward signs of depression, mental illness or warning. My friend, fell into a deep depression and also attempted to take her own life. We are still best friends and she is also a survivor of what was kept secret. However, it took years for her to research and understand what actually happened to her family and the torture that her great grandmother, grandmother & mother held inside. Cycles must be broken. Those generations were taught to never speak about trauma , related depression or mental illness. My friend deeply believes that if she had been taught about her family background that she could have possibly prevented her mother's suicide, and at the very least understood. It took over a decade of guilt, feelings of abandonment, anger & self hatred. She began self medicating with street drugs prior to being forced into seeking help. I believe that her decision to travel to Germany, visiting the death camps and learning what really occurred was her turning point. It appeared to enable her to finally start her actual healing process. Bottom line, IMHO it is essential that this culture of silence end. I apologize for the length of my comment, but my friend's quest for her own sanity took well over a decade. The truth is often painful, but not knowing is far more dangerous. Prayers with Love that we all find Peace. 💗🦋💗🦋💗. Just want to add that both of us are lifetime NYC residents. Forgot: My friend has two sons that are attending college, and working. She managed to maintain her marriage. Outwardly they appeared to be a "stable" family. No one ever knows what happens behind closed doors. 😢. As her "closest" friend I too was so naive.

[@heathera2874]

YOU ARE SO INCREDIBLY LOVED MICHELLE. You are an Amazingly Resilient and Beautiful Soul. Thank you for sharing your life story. I am praying for you and your family during my hourly prayers. ❤️🕊️

[@sandraalegria3439]

Thank you for sharing. I'm 59 I still don't know who I am. I'm ok with not being ok now. The question is upon all of us who have suffered abuse,why am I survivor ?

[@ddz1375]

To testify and perhaps unknowingly give a glimmer of hope to a soul who belived the lies they told us while they hurt us.

[@kizmutyaba4965]

When you say you dont know who you are what do you mean?

[@BeeKay4444]

Sending ❤ from one survivor to another.

[@sandraperkins203]

I stumbled ob this chanel. These women are brave beautiful and strong. Listening to their stories is healing for my journey. Blessings for sharing your journey ❤.