Sexual Abuse Survivor interview-Bonnie

[@bjrfineart]

I would just like to say thank you so much Mark for allowing me to share my story. This was the first time I have ever had the courage to publicly share these very personal experiences. I am completely humbled and overwhelmed by the incredible support that I have received. I cannot express how grateful I am to each and every one of you who took the time to reach out and share your experiences. This has truly touched my heart and soul. I’m so inspired by all of your strength. Thank you for listening without judgement or pretension and sending your love unconditionally. You have given me so much strength, wisdom and peace. Never underestimate the the difference you can make in someone’s life. From the bottom of my heart I love and appreciate you all. - Bonnie ❤

[@damjan3385]

Has your body healed from the abuse or do you suffer long term physiological problems?

[@tinalindsey1598]

Bonnie you are a survivor! You are meant to still be here. Please try to help children who have been through what you have. You will heal through helping. It is there you will feel powerful, in charge of your future. Volunteer with kids please. There are so many out there who need YOU. ❤❤❤

[@JB-nr7iy]

Bonnie, please tell your grandson that you helped so many people today. Hearing you speak about your childhood felt like I was listening to someone tell parts of my story. There is so much that you have said that I have never been able to say. Things I have even refused to acknowledge to myself. I respect your bravery so much and your will to not only survive but to positively impact so many. I have been struggling a lot lately with my own purpose. Thank you for being so raw it has truly helped me today.

[@luvisadogfromhell]

💙 Sending my love and gratitude to both you and your brilliant grandson.

[@coffinbirthcutie9126]

You’re a hero and a survivor Bonnie ❤❤

[@CR-db4qf]

How did the doctor who operated on her at age 5 not raise red flags?? Time and time again, the system has failed her. So heartbreaking.

[@OaksArm]

The people closest to her failed her. It’s got nothing to do with a system.

[@OrangeHeadTM]

It was also decades ago, so much shady shit happened in the 70/80s that would have never survived in todays ago.

[@maplecookies2036]

Back in the day.

[@wesleyAlan9179]

@@OrangeHeadTM Yes! That's what I was gonna say. Back then it was a different time, no internet, ect.. People were just so ignorant about these important things. They just didn't know any better.

[@greeneyedlady5580]

​@@OaksArm People failed her, especially her mother, but she was also failed by at least one doctor and several school systems.

[@cgindustrial1859]

Does anyone else see a classy, loveable lady? She deserves happiness.

[@xxpollypocket]

Definitely! I like her instantly, she exudes warmth, kindness and gentleness. What a woman for what she’s been through! And, what nice outfit she has on!

[@cgindustrial1859]

@@xxpollypocket Just lovely all around.

[@claychandler3468]

Be her man and love her unconditionally. She deserves the best

[@albin2232]

She's wonderful.

[@kenyatasims6991]

@@cgindustrial1859that’s not all I see ‼️

[@keelynnemalek8498]

The fact she has never touched any drugs or any substance after all of her horrific abuse and torture is absolutely miraculous to me, she’s extremely strong mentally and she will definitely get through this and therapy will help even more, Bonnie……You are absolutely incredible. You are truly a rare one ❤

[@bjrfineart]

Thank you ❤

[@CS-xn6vb]

Junkies touch drugs because they want to be cool and fit in. Then they get addicted and blame it on trauma

[@krollpeter]

This is a horrible story. They took away so many things from her, her innocence, her childhood, tried to destroy her heart .... but one thing they were unsuccessful: They did not manage to take away her dignity! Bonnie can be proud of that.

[@jessicagrover402]

@The Amber Heard Playlist!! is this really your comment after hearing this woman’s story. You’re an idiot. Not surprised you’re an amber Stan. You’re disgusting

[@cutelove99]

HER MOTHER HER FATHER WILL ANSWER TO GOD!!! ANY OTHER ADULT ABUSED CHILDREN AND THE ADULTS THAT DID NOTHING,, GOD WILL PUNISH.. DRUGS TO KILL YOURSELF ISN'T GOOD,, WHY KILL YOURSELF LIVE,, GOD WILL BLESS YOUR LIFE,, PRAY GOD WILL REVENGE..

[@nicoledunn4058]

You never had a mom. My heart breaks for your childhood, but I am amazed at your will to survive. Sending you love and strength.

[@lm5661]

Her mother failed her children my God. This was tough to listen too. I wish her nothing but happiness and healing. Hope therapy goes well.

[@DavidBarry-kn2uk]

@J C made up?

[@DavidBarry-kn2uk]

what a mother!!!!!

[@Lauren-cu6ht]

Her father failed them too.

[@frankhedden]

Yo mutti, was good my bruh the fuck?

[@ariasworld9991]

Yeah, it still happens 😭😭

[@annahazlett19]

Her mother, father and stepfather should be prosecuted and brought to justice and made to pay for the terrible crimes they committed against her and her siblings. How can they be walking free and probably still abusing children. There is no justice here . Heartbreaking

[@astridlabodhisattva1098]

She could bring charges if she wanted. In most states, if not all, there is no Statue of Limitation on sexual abuse of a minor.

[@StephieGsrEvolution]

Child abusers are rarely punished here in the US. It's more difficult than you think to get most DAs to take these cases.

[@SickandTired95]

And the neighbor.

[@blacktara3936]

Have REPEATEDLY seen well known and heinous child abuse go ignored by 'the authorities' and CPS is the worst of all. They actually ignore & enable the abuser. They're monsters.

[@mzraparslan6622]

I can't believe ıt, how can a society be so rooten, and fucked up? The main theme of hunderes of videos ı watch is rape, infidelaty or killing after being raped.Millions of young people lose their life either from durags or from cheap and dirty sex. NO FAMİLY LOVE AND COMMITMENT...I do not believe God too much but is Amerca causing the death of millions of innocent kids and women in the MİDDLE EAST and paying the prıce for it ?

[@NorthPillow]

That mother is really the root of all this horrific shit. Happens again and again and again to this woman who seems like a sweet person

[@MrEpz4321]

I got surprised that they didn't portray her as a victim.

[@josephxd6574]

Her mum is truly a scum bag

[@Bluesmusicno1]

I agree

[@NorthPillow]

Im not sure what the motives are for not believing of not wanting to believe.... deeply strange and disturbing. Maybe if we understood the root of this refusal to accept facts we could prevent more of these cases

[@jamiecrawford8133]

I am guessing a lot of these women went through this and in their sick, vindictive minds have an attitude that if they went through this their daughters will experience it too..

[@disasterofalldisasters]

I don't understand how this incredible person can still seem so human after everything she's been through. Remarkable strength.

[@marcsalazar2910]

I've been watching these Soft White Underbelly videos for a while now, and this has to be one of the saddest one I've seen thus far. I, as well, endured childhood abuse and trauma, and my parents also neglected and abandoned me. My childhood was hell. It's hard to watch because it's relatable, but it is also, in a way, very inspiring. Bonnie is such a beautiful soul. You will make it out of all of this.

[@bjrfineart]

I’m so sorry for what you have been through ❤stay strong 💪

[@Rosemary-up1ql]

I agree so sad, I as a child would have been your school friend,always drawn to the children that seemed sad,or mean for no telling reason or neglected,I'd give my things away. Dont know why I just did

[@katie3569]

So sorry to hear that as well.

[@googlyeyes9428]

Bonnie you are not fucked up, you are beautiful and brave, you ARE a great success, your grandson is right ❤

[@myeyeswentdeaf6213]

She might be one of the strongest people I’ve come across. I hopes she understands how how strong she really is one day.

[@newsystem420]

It was beautiful hearing how her babies changed her life with unconditional love. Makes me happy for her she had that blessing❤

[@nessygee7561]

Amazing she survived. If it’s not to private, I’d love to see a part 2 after she’s been in therapy. To see more of her healing.

[@marylougeorge9890]

Yes!

[@Femboy420tx]

I feel her pain. My uncle abused me sexually and my mom which is his sister didn’t want me to press charges. It was weird. How can you protect your brother over your only child?

[@taemac10]

Insanity 🙏

[@geena2712]

Yes I understand this way to well. My uncle abused me as well. I was told not to tell my aunt because how would she feel. My thoughts were I am your child how do you think I have been feeling my whole life.

[@Femboy420tx]

@@geena2712 right?! Exactly. Idk why they would rather protect a pedophile regardless of being family or not

[@Gurl-5150]

It's disgusting to ever protect ANY abuser.

[@blissbased]

​@@Femboy420txbecause it reveals the truth about them - that they are cowards and passive bystanders and No parents at all, they have failed.

[@nikkitime1923]

She’s so inspiring. She took the worst situation imaginable and turned into a loving person. Wish you the best in therapy, it’s work but so worth it.

[@yellowmoon4564]

Yes

[@JShawnPaul]

Wow, never judge a book by its cover. Just looking at this woman. I would never think that she’s been through this much.

[@thundergun933]

and you would be correct.

[@JShawnPaul]

I know that’s what I just fucking said chick

[@ashmacc7868]

​@@thundergun933 how very suspect of you. Conspirator.

[@thundergun933]

@@ashmacc7868 how v sus of you. See how that works? Everyone is entitled to their own opinion.

[@apriljean85]

It's so disgusting how common child sexual abuse is. It's ridiculous! This was a heartbreaking story and is just awful how many people failed her and her sister as a child. I hate these monsters in this world. I wish them all so much torture, way more than they have caused their victims 😡

[@brittneylyntalks]

Completely agree! It’s appalling. They’re not humans.

[@Linda-in9ns]

I agree so sad!!!! 🥲

[@Bachconcertos]

They will spend eternity in hell.

[@Linda-in9ns]

@@Bachconcertos Yes my heart breaks so much for these poor children that go threw this horror!!! 😞💔

[@SickandTired95]

I agree. Even the mom, she deserved to be punished for not protecting her babies.

[@dogmom2023]

I was sexually abused by 3 men in my family. I'v never told this secret until now.. two of the family members have died horrible deaths. The other has lost his legs, the use of his arms and is no longer mobil. I guess that is my relief of the pain . The Lord is always been my savior to know him is to love him I know that he loves me unconditionally even with all my F-ups in life. I've never been able to hold onto a relationship. I'm in my late 50's and will always be alone.. Thank you for sharing beautiful lady. We are survivors.. God bless you always and forever..

[@Anna_brand_newsha]

I'm so, so sorry it was happening to you. I just want to hug you and say you are strong and brave!

[@janathurmond9390]

Amen. God takes care of his children. Im very sorry that happened to you.

[@ivanamicimici]

You will find someone. Tell it to yourself every day. You deserve someone to hold space for you.

[@Beccamae75]

It sounds like he didn't take care of her or the lady in the video. He didn't take care of me either. ​@@janathurmond9390

[@KaraLey98]

@@dogmom2023 you are deserving of love!! Do not stop being open to iit-I’m very sorry you suffered an assault which ruined so many years, but hopefully did not ruin your chances at happiness! withstood…

[@michelleleinonen-valdez1589]

This is the worst story of abuse I have ever heard and I have heard some shit. She was so brave to stop the cycle of abuse and the courage to change how her kids were raised. I know how it feels to be not wanted not loved and I'm so glad I got counseling. You can do it your very worthy of the best and love.

[@marylougeorge9890]

❤❤❤

[@bvedant]

There's another story on SWU where a biological father of a girl anally raped her so terribly she needed stitches... I don't have the ability to watch it

[@CelticCaliber]

same. came from a family of intense abuse and this is the worst i’ve heard. what a beautiful human being. i’ve never wanted healing for someone more.

[@kathrynherzog6784]

Bonnie, I’m blown away by your resilience. I’m so glad you’re going into therapy. I think it will be really hard. Watching you speak about the horrors you endured is such a gift of strength to anyone having to deal with trauma. But you deserve so much of that strength for yourself. And OK not to be as strong as you have been. OK to break down. It sounds like you’ve given so much love out that that love will be there for you to hold you up when you need it. Wishing you the best as you heal through this. Thank you so much for sharing. You have no idea what it means to those of us caring for others who have experienced trauma. I’m filled with hope.

[@tootsingtonfabulucy1050]

I have no words. I cannot believe that children can physically and mentally survive this and go on. The human spirit is strong. You have true grit and are an incredibly successful person - a true inspiration for resilience. I hope you thrive.

[@lalakuma9]

So her mother knew that it's wrong what her husband did, because when another man molested her, she got her brothers to beat him up and reported to the authorities. But when her husband did it, she protected him instead. Absolutely despicable.

[@Jen-Chapin]

I thought the same thing. Unbelievable.

[@a.leehilliard4716]

There are so many mothers like that. My mother did the same.

[@rachelrae860]

Jesus,, her mother is truly a disgusting piece of shit!! I hurt for her!!! Some women just should NOT have children!!! And the dad and step-dad are depraved heinous disgusting men as well!! I'm so happy you're gonna get therapy. Your so brave Laura and thank you for sharing your story. Believe me by sharing your story you are at the very least gonna help 1 person if not 100,s. Your voice is powerful. Mark another great interview ❤ Bonnie I'm sending you so much love strength and light❤️💪🌟

[@karenfryberger4260]

@RachelRae Hello there. Sorry I didn't "check in" earlier. So many comments - and many so awful - I got worn out. So, anyway, I hope something makes you smile today, even if only for a moment...aka thinking of you.

[@wakingohiomama9110]

Bonnie dear I too am a survivor, yet I find myself grateful that it wasn't to this extent isn't that crazy? I fell into drugs and alcohol at 13. I'm 50 now, and STILL fd up. I never dealt with it until here recently. May God be with you and bring you peace and joy all your days!

[@jennamacfarlane3780]

I cried listening to Bonnie. Her story is a lighthouse beaming in all directions, helping people navigate their lives. To have survived the trauma and to articulate the pain, Bonnie, you embody courage. Your words have illuminated my life. Thank you so much for speaking on Mark's channel.

[@terrytownsend5583]

Eye roll

[@ethanbailey5154]

@@terrytownsend5583bro what ?

[@noodlen.9779]

I don't understand the doctors who treated her for her internal injuries as a child and why they did not alert the authorities for what she went through. It's not just tragic it's totally criminal.

[@tillysanders2593]

Her Mother was complicit. My Mother is still married to my abuser. At 52 I had a mental breakdown. Sigmund Freud - 'Unexpressed emotions will never die. They are buried alive and will come forth later in uglier ways.' I would urge her to seek good longterm therapy. Best wishes Bonnie , please take care of you now xo

[@lisarodriguez6966]

That's incredibly rough. I can't imagine that depth of betrayal from a parent and my mother came close but damn, I hope you've gone no contact and best wishes on your path to healing.

[@daisygirl1217]

'good therapy' is right. Now all therapists are the same. She has a complicated and horrific story and should only be handled by a qualified trauma therapist.

[@tillysanders2593]

@Lisa Rodriguez Thank you. I moved 3000 miles away from her in my 20's , very little contact .

[@tillysanders2593]

@Daisygirl1217 Agreed . Finding a good therapist for trauma councilling is crucial.

[@psyskeptic9979]

Freud's theory of emotion and repression were wrong--and led to false memories in many people in many therapies.

[@jaimelovemac88]

It never ceases to amaze me at how quickly these people get into the darkest parts of their lives when someone is willing to sit and listen to them. My heart goes out to everyone who suffering.❤

[@tinasmith7630]

Yes but until u hav walkd in her shoes, do not judge. She has probly never truly been heard much, so wen askd to share she is sharing her testimony, and it's very very Powerful. It's a true survival story.

[@abbeyb331]

I'm a therapist. It's almost never difficult to get people to go there. They are just waiting for someone to ask them.

[@tinasmith7630]

@@jaimelovemac88 Then if it never ceases 2 amaze u how THESE people get into n share the darkest places in THEIR lives, with such ease, like u said its Probly because sme1 had 2 decided 2 listen. If u had walked so closely in their shoes, would u not realise that?,

[@tinasmith7630]

Gosh, humility wd not go amiss. All done, hpe u find sme healing.

[@cherylnasco1866]

I too was sexually abused by my dad, step dad and a cop that was my mother's befriends husband, My mother also physically verbally and mentally abused me. I still have reoccurring nightmares and I'm 63. I'm so sorry this happen to you 😢 my mother and I didn't speak either she is dead now and unfortunately that gives me some sort of Pease and closure! You are so strong. We have a lot in common because I worked as a Nurse in the hospital and am a care giver as well. You got this! I will keep you in my thoughts, heart and my prayers!

[@StephieGsrEvolution]

So inspiring you cared for others all these years despite all you went through! 💗

[@shi5757]

You are beautiful inside and they didn’t win if your still standing today❤

[@cherylnasco1866]

@@shi5757 Thank you so much! ❤️

[@cherylnasco1866]

@@StephieGsrEvolution Thank you so much! ❤️

[@psyskeptic9979]

Did you ever repress these memories?

[@tammic2016]

Just when I think I have heard the most horrifying story of child abuse on this channel, someone comes along that has an even more horrific story. Everyone failed this woman and her siblings. Mainly her mother. My God how could she allow this to happen?!?! I am so glad she’s going to go to therapy and hopefully really start healing. Best wishes to you sweet Bonnie.

[@rachelms06]

You inspire me. To be so calm and strong and never addicted to anything after all that awfulness, it’s beyond inspiring. Thank you for being brave and doing this.

[@christopherpierce1310]

Her story is heartbreaking. I hope she gets the help she needs. She is a remarkable lady

[@brittneylyntalks]

Her life has been a complete nightmare. I truly pray therapy brings her peace. Shame on all the sickening adults who assaulted her or turned the other way. Those are monsters.

[@timebot000]

..so why aren't they imnediately arrested? Why does our society keep letting these people off? At the least, mandatory Therapy while they are institutionalized!!!!!!!

[@brittneylyntalks]

@@timebot000I agree 10000%

[@timebot000]

@@brittneylyntalks thx... I'm so tired of emotional vampires getting off on victims stories and nothing much is done to the Causes, the ones who either can or can't be rehabilitated. My good looking 'abusive family' is still in high places gaslighting me for escaping and talking I'm also not fond of how prisons operate either (my late brother spent much of his life in them)..but hey let's change the world😶

[@brittneylyntalks]

@@timebot000 I agree so much with you, from your own gaslighting family to wanting prison reform. We need prison reform so bad in this country!

[@StephieGsrEvolution]

Children's lives do not matter enough in this country.

[@cherylc4468]

How can a little girl have to have surgery at 7 for sexual abuse and not be removed from that house. I really hate cps for all the harm they cause taking children away for little to no reason and I hate them for not taking children away for this reason. That mother should do jail time.

[@cherylc4468]

@@MG-zu4st thats a given....her fuckin mother let it happen.

[@davecaldwell445]

As heartbreaking and horrible as Bonnie's story was to hear, I am in absolute awe of her courage and glad she put this on the record. The depth of the abuse was sickening and incomprehensible, but I'm sure she is not alone. I hope people in similar situations see this and be emboldened to speak out. You may have helped others, Bonnie. Peace be with you.

[@irenelakhan5331]

How can your mother let this happen?

[@e_b_]

Bonnie, you ARE an inspiration! You are hands-down one of the strongest people I've ever heard Mark interview. You went through literal hell and you fought your way out of that and created a life for yourself, and here you are reaching out to help others with your story. You are a living example of the power of the human will to survive and triumph. ❤🙏

[@TMichelle555]

If she had surgery from sexual trauma why didn't the doctors step in ????! Why are we constantly failing abused kids, makes me so angry

[@greeneyedlady5580]

Likewise!

[@Mmmmkaaay]

No kidding. They're supposed to report abuse.

[@StephieGsrEvolution]

Well, this would be about 47yrs ago. The system was even worse then. CPS was involved and the cops looked for him, but her "mother" hid him. It seemed like he was gone before she was 7.

[@michmellis]

This is horrendous. Such a sweet woman. To endure physical trauma from the sexual abuse as well as the psychological trauma :'(

[@mzraparslan6622]

Be very and very careful when coosing your husband or boy friends, use your logic and intuition, not your emosions...

[@nightowl238]

I could never understand why someone would ruin a little girls world..the way this lady is talking feels like all of this is still fresh.. bless her soul she will never heal from this

[@thematriarchy2075]

What does "heal" look like?

[@angelicbean7635]

​@@thematriarchy2075 healing to me would be to feel the love a real father . And to be a whole person like my friends who had this .

[@thematriarchy2075]

@@angelicbean7635 Sorry, but i don't understand what you are saying. Live a real father?

[@braedonmcknight154]

Why do they call it sexual abuse "surviver" as if they are gonna die from being fingerd too hard !?

[@reikitarot4659]

Love

[@Kelly-go5pt]

This is the first story I’ve ever had to turn off. When she described the surgery she had to have and I stopped to think about the severity of that and at that age- and from being abused by the person who is supposed to protect you… I just burst into tears. How can a human be that selfish? To put their sexual desires before the health and well being of their small child. It is so heartbreaking to think of what this woman and so many countless others have endured. To know such pain so early in life. Bonnie, thank you for sharing your story. I know it will help countless other survivors and it is something we need to talk about, no matter how uncomfortable we are. Something needs to change in our society. This is something too many people go through that has such devastating consequences on the victims but usually none on the perpetrator. Sending you so much love, Bonnie.

[@lisaglane133]

Her mother should be in jail.

[@leannewilliams1660]

The pain in her voice. Well done for seeing help and speaking out. I'm sure u will inspire so many. ✨️

[@aknaj89]

IT IS ONE OF THE MOST HORRIFYING INTERVIEWS I HAVE EVER LISTENED TO. It hurts to hear that. Cannot imagine how strong and resilient she and other survivors like her are. I wish you EVERYTHING you have dreamed of. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ ❤❤ ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@justinofboulder]

Thank you for sharing! Bonnie, you are so far from "F@cked up"! You are a beautiful gift to this world! I cannot even fathom the childhood that you endured, and you have done (and continue to do) the absolute best you could have!

[@StephieGsrEvolution]

She is amazing! 💯 🤍

[@pannonianbrute]

This lady is a hero…..tough as a nail and refuses to be broken, despite all the odds being stacked against her in life. While this was extremely hard for me to watch, and I cant even imagine what it must have been like for her to live through, it’s people like her that give me the motivation and strength to take life head-on in the toughest of times. Sending lots of love, and thank you.

[@deannapowell7237]

This woman is incredible. Absolutely the strongest woman I have ever listened to. And I've listened to a LOT of stories. She is such an inspiration!!!

[@truesavings1988]

Wow, what a powerful story. The strength and courage you had to not give in to the ugliness you’ve endured your whole life is incredible. How parents can look the other way and not protect their precious children is insane to me. Proud of you for your strength to overcome. Praying for your peace and well being.

[@sarahnyhan]

You helped me. Thank you for being brave and fighting for yourself. I believe you and I am so sorry they did all that stuff to you. And especially that your mother fed you to the monsters. The world is a better place because you are in it. I wish we could hear more about your relationship with your husband.

[@musergames]

As someone who has started therapy a number of months ago, I was trapped, stretched and exhausted, now I am so much more free, give time to myself and can sleep far better. Mark really hits it on the head with just tell them everything. First session, I went in the door apprehensive. It's hard for me to open up about my feelings and I am usually a little cagey on subjects that make me look vulnerable. But I told myself that this was it, the turning point and to just let the person in. I am glad I did. Look after yourselves first, then others when you can carry them too.

[@Keepitpink]

This woman deserves so much love. She’s absolutely amazing.

[@lesjo3198]

Omg!! This is sooo heartbreaking! Bonnie, you are the epitome of strength and survival! All women need to hear your story and hear the message you give of needing to self love, learningto find respect for yourself. I am messed up too and a survivor of sexual abuse in very early childhood. These types of abuse hurts the child to the soul that does not heal all the way! I hear and feel your pain! I pray that to God that you and all sexual abuse survivors find peace. You are doing a phenomenal job in life, be proud! Thank you for sharing!

[@Sangria]

Bonnie, thank you for sharing your story. I hope you find peace in your life

[@ccziv]

I have so much empathy for you. Years of living in an environment of active trauma leaves one with CPTSD (complex PTSD). I’m also in my 50s and it’s nearly impossible to get this particular monkey off your back. Know this: you are an incredibly strong human being. I can probably count the number of people who had such severely traumatic childhoods, yet managed to STAY AWAY from hard drugs/addiction/prostitution… well, I could count them on one hand, Please know that you have helped me! (Although I’m not entirely sure I count as a person.) You’re an INSPIRATION! Therapy does help, but be very careful to choose a therapist who is a good match for you. Lot’s of mental health providers claim to be “trauma informed,” and I strongly suggest you ask what that means to them (how they approach CPTSD, any special training or certificates in trauma therapy, etc.). Far too often I see therapists who want to talk (and talk and talk and talk) about the specific stuff that happened to you. This can be useful up to a point, but I’m sorry to say revisiting the horrendous traumas you’ve survived can often make your life WORSE. The best kind of therapist will see that due to chronic exposure to stress and danger, your physiology has been effected. The only way to make a better life for yourself is by learning how to regulate your body AND your emotions. There aren’t many therapists who understand this. Here a a few that do that can really show you the path to being the person you’ve always wanted to be and living the life you’ve always wanted to live. The first you can find on KZbin as the Crappy Childhood Fairy (Anna Runkle). She is extremely generous providing free content on KZbin and she is perhaps the first (only?) person I’ve found who has a profound understanding of CPTSD and a very straightforward, practical approach to show you the path to healing. Within her videos, she recommends various writers/clinicians who you can trust not to take you on a wild goose chase. The work of Dr. Gabor Mate is a mix between academic and accessible. He has a great deal of insight into not just the emotional but physical (in terms of personal health) consequences of trauma. And I’m blanking on his name, but the guy who wrote “The Body Keeps Score” is a very well known and well respected scholar of the effects of trauma. None of the people I’ve suggested here write pop-psychology “self-help” books. All are serious people with ideas worth your consideration. I’m so sorry for the looooong response! I know you because I *am* you, and I, too, just want to help. I especially recommend the Crappy Childhood Fairy. At 52 (don’t worry! I’m older!), you deserve to have the experience of feeling seen/known/loved. Sending you buckets of love and well wishes as you begin this crucial chapter of your life . ❤

[@SickandTired95]

I’m going to look for these books. Thank you for the information.

[@Teragram68]

Crappy childhood fairy is great, I watch her too. Keep surviving, keep healing, sending big hugs to you on your journey. Bonnie is amazing also, thank you all for the inspiration and your honesty, you’re are all beautiful humans. Good luck with the therapy Bonnie, you got this. ❤xx

[@inmyownwords9798]

I watch them both ❤

[@sandymclean9630]

Bonnie I send you so much love & respect 🙏 I am extremely sorry for what you have been through

[@luvisadogfromhell]

Connie , if you read this, thank you. You had said you shared your story, in hopes that it wouid help one person. I wanted you to know that it helped me. I think you are amazing and courageous. I heard your message loud and clear about not giving up. My childhood was extremely traumatic. I survived neglect, abandonment, and abuse, including rape at age 3. I was diagnosed with CPTSD and more recently with Lupus. On those dark days, when the pain makes me want to give up, I'll remember your light Connie. 💙

[@Keysha_Wilkins]

Thank you so much Mark and Bonnie. I made an appointment after watching this. I'm 49 and I know there is still help and hope.😢

[@rosered103]

My heart is filled with sorrow that there was no one for you to reach out to for help. I'm sending Healing Prayers your way for a great! rest of your Life.

[@NikkiNiNiNi]

She had a terrible childhood…brought tears to my eyes. When she repeated what her grandson said to her I started crying even more. Thank goodness he said those uplifting beautiful words to her she deserved to hear it.

[@bjrfineart]

He is the best! Thank you ❤

[@marylougeorge9890]

Bonnie, in No way are you a mess. I admire you for your openness. The gentle tone of your voice. The relationships you have with your loved ones. All are examples of the success you are. These are all reasons you Must remember if ever you feel like you’re f’d up. I am So proud of you for your honesty and choosing to be the opposite of the way you were taught. Without a doubt, I Know you’ve helped More people than have commented. You’ve helped individuals who were victimized to know there is hope for them. I’m excited that you and your sister will begin working in therapy because you’re going to experience a freedom you never imagined. I’m happy you have one another. I’m praying for you and your loved ones. I hope you’ll come back to update us on your life. Sending you bear hugs and cheers and prayers from this Michigan grandma. ❤️❤️❤️ Congratulations on your long marriage!!! 👏👏👏

[@marylougeorge9890]

@@jacobus57 In my experience, my sincerity comes across and individuals accept the love I give.

[@nadiasoho1]

I feel so angry watching this. Bonnie, you are a warrior. I can’t comprehend that amount of mental, emotional and physical pain you’ve been through. Want to give you a hug and tell you that the choices you made weren’t your fault. You were failed by so many ppl. Thank you for sharing your story. You are an Angel xx

[@jaycerena2793]

Her strength is beyond words! thank you for being here and sharing your story❤❤️❤️🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@michaelhaile6371]

How could her mother allow all that to happen? She needs to be in jail with the men that did it

[@liquidlunch3826]

You beautiful woman...we need you here! Just this interview helped me in minutes...you can do such amazing therapy for so many people! You got 100000000000 percent!

[@erikkaadams6038]

My heart goes out to all the kids that's got sexual abuse getting sexually abused her story really broke my heart

[@charitysmith5245]

Sending you much love, Bonnie! You definitely are an inspiration to not let this stuff ruin your entire life. I'm 50 and just started therapy as well.

[@leneo1731]

I am so deeply sorry for what you've went through. I can't even understand how you managed to stay away from drugs, how you stayed alive! You must be so strong! You are without doubt going to help people. You were dealt two parents who are absolutely sadistic. The fact that your mother failed you so deeply is unbelievable. I'm sure that you've been a great mother to your two girls. Often it's the most fucked up people who love the most. The thing your grandchild said says it all. You're amazing! I'm so happy that you're going to therapy finally. You're a success! Bless you, you beautiful woman! Lots of love and positive vibes from Norway.

[@matteframe]

CPS came to her house to investigate child sex abuse, and because her dad was hidden, they just left? That makes zero sense.

[@thezoo3950]

Oh my goodness this poor woman and her siblings. My heart breaks for them. 😢. What a horrible person and I can't believe her mom is still with him! Praying for her and her family. 💜🙏

[@StephieGsrEvolution]

​@@Stalkedbyapsycho trauma bonds

[@powderandpaint14]

How could her mother let that happen again with a step Dad?!

[@bernadettecrawford3656]

How sad for a little girl to suffer so much, you are so brave to share your story and doing so helping others. ❤

[@brittanyhunter3331]

There is something so special about her-for her to sit there with a sound mind, in spite of all of the horrific trauma, is a real miracle. The resilience to overcome what she has speaks volumes about her purpose on this planet. I wish her so much good and all of the healing ❤❤❤

[@ivanrussell3083]

So if she needed surgery @ 5 how TF did they not press charges against her mom/dad? 😮

[@CelticCaliber]

no kidding. i’ve never ever heard a story like this.

[@TJZuk3]

The power and strength of this woman is incredible. What a story, may your strength continue

[@JamesCourse66]

It’s so awful for a person to go through ONE sexual assault. Then to go through multiple… I feel so sorry that some people have suffered so much.

[@Getebiikwe79]

This entire channel is shedding light on so many horrific things endured by children, mainly. Although, it is truly is heartbreaking, it brings truth to these stories that have been hidden within families. I feel so badly for the children. I was a survivor of sexual abuse as well, but nothing as intense as what we see in these interviews.

[@thiziriii]

Thank you Mark for creating this platform for these people to share their stories . Every time I watch one of your videos I realize more and more how this world counts so many vicious , sick perverts who take advantage of children . Shoutout to this woman to have the strength to share her experience and I pray for her to find peace and happiness .

[@aimbetternotperfect]

Oh Bonnie. I’m so so angry at all those that hurt you. I’m heartbroken for child-you. I’m so proud of adult you though the pain is still evident. I hope you find the right therapist fpr you (remember that if you don’t like a therapist it’s not therapy that sucks or doesn’t work, it could be the therapist). You have done so much work, and therapy can help you go further and deeper. Thank you for sharing. Sending you all the positive thoughts ❤

[@ivyleaguestyles]

Her story got me in tears 😢 life is so unfair ….I just don’t understand 😔😔

[@johntopp8431]

For sure one of your best interviews Mark. A brave woman that overcame so much, Thank you both for an inspirational interview.

[@bvedant]

It's relieving to see someone so viciously abused still be so calm and sweet. I'm so happy for her that she continues to live another day being a kind person and she deserves all the love and support

[@bjrfineart]

Thank you ❤

[@carlyt1824]

So beyond proud of you Bonnie. You are the strongest and beautiful person ever. I will never even be able to fathom what you went through. But the fact that you were able to turn it around, become a better person for your self and your family is so powerful. I look up to you so much you are a hero and survivor.

[@lloydguarnes2021]

At first I was so speechless just listening to everything she mentioned, the harsh moments and memories she and her siblings had to go through. No one deserves to go through that kind of Life. I really feel so sorry for her and her siblings. It's a real crazy world out there. She may encounter Post Traumatic Stress Disorders, I wish and pray for her cure and rehabilitation. I certainly hope that this brings Awareness to people like her who is seeking Help, God Bless Her.

[@andrearooney3576]

why is her mum and step dad not in prison?

[@AnastasiaA-gd2mi]

My heart shattered when I heard your story, Bonnie. You’re such a strong and amazing person! Heart

[@carlyt1824]

Wow. I’m at loss of words. This woman and her siblings were robbed of their childhood and any chance they had of freedom. How cruel that just little babies couldn’t even come to their own mother for help. How can time and time again the system fails children and can’t save them. I’m so sorry for what you and your siblings went through. I’m proud to see how u have recovered and stopped the generational abuse. We love you❤.

[@princesjasmyn]

She is an incredible, kind person and I wish her all the joy and love that this world has to offer.

[@mandatron670]

Thank you for sharing your story. Words can't express how proud but yet sad I am for you. I hope you have peace today ♥

[@november89]

Such a brave woman for telling her story and a true survivor, so strong 🥰

[@Peaceatdawn143]

Bonnie you are such an inspiration! I pray for your continued healing from your horrific childhood. I would love to see an update on her in the future 🙏🏼❤️

[@CelticCaliber]

i have a family full of unspeakable trauma and this is one of the worst stories i’ve ever, ever heard in my life. i’ll never forget this.

[@CelticCaliber]

bonnie, you are one of the best people i’ve ever seen.

[@bjrfineart]

@@CelticCaliber❤❤❤

[@christyloucm]

She is so beautiful of a soul. She has done so much already to overcome. She has tried so hard to break cycles. She is such an inspiration to me. I would love to hear from here again.

[@kellybishop7238]

How brave she’s been and so strong to survive. You have a beautiful soul and I am so thankful you shared your story and wish you all the best. Know that you have helped so many by sharing

[@petrus666love]

Bonnie I have no words , I truly hope you manage too find your peace one day , bless your heart ❤️

[@jonsson7295]

I'm so sorry for what you went through. How in the world is their such evil... The cruelty in the "mom" and step-dad is unimaginable. I cried hearing your story Bonnie. Made me want to go back in time and rescue the three of you. And those two pos's are still out there as nothing happened. I hope they have an awful life, and that karma strikes them good. I think you are so strong Bonnie, I'll take your words with me. I've also decided to never be like my parents, thank God we had the strength to break the cycle. I'm also so happy that you'll have therapy, and together with your sister, that will be so good for you. Hard at first but so so helpful! I hope you can bloom into yourself now, get back to your hobbies or new ones, it's time❤ I hope Mark will do an update with you in 6 months or so😊 Thank you Bonnie!

[@islandbirdw]

It’s the kids that suffer most in these domestic abusive situations. It’s the marginalized that are the most vulnerable. I guess they figure no one will believe them. What makes people think anything like this should happen to babies. So glad your able to finally speak your authentic truth. You are in the light now, no need to go back into that darkness. The truth must come out and you are so strong.

[@truecynic1270]

Oh, Bonnie, my heart not only breaks for what you endured but how emotionally hurt you are. I'm sure you've heard many people say " this is not your fault" " you are blameless in this crime" and other well-meaning sentences. But I want to thank you for have the courage to tell your story and remaining as proud as possible throughout. I see and understand your struggle and your commitment to staying as strong as you are today. Stay strong. Stay PROUD. Thank you for living!! AND know that there really are people in the world who admire YOU

[@duhg6059]

Bonnie thank you for exposing these evil mothers who know their kids are getting abused by these predators.. i knew a retired dective and a prison phsycologist they both said these predators target single women to get to their kids and the women know and allow the revolvong door of predators.. my wife left me after 30 yrs for a felon who did prison time for child abuse and moved that creep in around my 11 year old son.. court mediator told her looking at his criminal record you know he looks bad on paper? Your bf can never be alone with your son.. thats the best i could legally get where this pos has 50 percent access to my kid.. these women that knowingly allow this are as sick as these men.. tough to have to allow my son around that creep.. oh and as a kicker the kid that got him prison time ended up missing in 2015 they have not found her body.. i spoke to his second exwife she told me she has 5 daughters (not his) and they all hate him.. hmm what was he doing to them to make them hate him then get prisin time then as adults the oldest went missing.. sick mothers sick men..

[@chrisjohnson3590]

What the actual? How can this be so prevalent, it’s unbelievable, what is wrong with people? You are such an inspiration to other victims. Anyone watching this who has being abused and kept quiet, do everything you can to get these monsters banged up.

[@bjrfineart]

❤

[@loveandwhimsea]

You're so brave to share your story. It's such a heartbreaking one.

[@Michelle-lu3oj]

Thank you for having the courage to tell your story. Your mother did not deserve you or your sister. You are an inspiration just hearing the terrible things you went through growing up and the bad things your parents made you do ie. stealing and fighting and that you choose not to follow in their footsteps in living your life and not to bring up your children up this way. You choosing to not be a victim and not take drugs and alcohol and to live a decent life after all you have been through is an inspiration. Good luck with your therapy it is time for you and your sister to heal from this torment. Your story will help many and thank you.

[@mysticmama740]

I really admire Bonnie. I mean damn, when I think my life is rough, I hear her story and praise god for having been free of abuse. My god, my heart goes out to you and your siblings. You have a captivating and poetic way of speaking. I want you to know your story, and courage, has touched and helped me in so many ways. I will def keep my kids close and be sure to teach them about abuse. So much of what you shared touched me down to my soul...beyond the place where words go. I love u. I wish u the best and continued healing. Youre a remarkable being.

[@anicameo3277]

Her story is heart wrenching. It was difficult to listen to the end. Her mother should be in jail as well as her father and stepfather 🤬 she is truly an amazing woman to have survived, I wish healing for her and her sister 🙏