Childhood Sexual Abuse Victim-Elisha

[@clarkfredericks3309]

Elisha, I am so very proud of you. I did my interview with Mark a month ago and on it I say to heal, you need to Break your Silence. I'm in my 50's and just starting to heal. You are light years ahead of me by finding your voice in your 30's. Everytime you tell your story it will get easier. And please seek out a trauma therapist, one who specializes in EMDR therapy. Again, I'm so proud of you!!!!!

[@WhiteRosss]

Awesome to see you supporting the SWU community as much as you do Clark, you truly are inspirational man. This one got to me too.

[@KimbradleyMasterGardener]

Good to see you, Clark! Nashville Tennessee

[@CannabisRexxx]

Clark, I just watched yours yesterday! Amazing strength ❤ Thank you for sharing your story.

[@pambeforethestorm9784]

So comforting to see you encouraging another SA survivor! Thank you for reaching back to help others after sharing your story, and with advice on which therapy to get!! I salute you!! 💯💙🔥🔥🔥

[@diannapavic]

Clark , you are the most inspiring person ❤️ Huge respect to you. I'm still healing for the abuse I have suffered as a child. God Bless you 🙏 Sending my love. Dianna X

[@sierraboone3936]

I went to school with one of her boys. She raised him right! He’s so loving & respectful! He servers for our country. So much love to y’all’s family.❤️

[@elishal1282]

Thank you for watching and supporting us Sierra ❤

[@NetiNeti-gm5bz]

What is wrong with being a pacifist?

[@brookeschultz4354]

@@elishal1282 Do you have an Amazon wishlist by chance?

[@elishal1282]

@@brookeschultz4354 hello thank you for asking. I did just create a list. Basically haven’t really been able to give my boys the Christmas all kids deserved, so I did create one to get gifts for them. I can send you an invite if you would like

[@pnina271]

@@elishal1282 Hello elisha, my name is Pnina, I'm from Israel, I saw you and heard about your story, the trauma and terrible abuse you went through. My heart just hurts, I wish I could take away the trauma and horrible experiences you went through! I really wish you find peace, some way to heal the pain. As a mother of three children I am very sorry for the abuse you went through. May you have lots of success and peace of mind. You are a hero!

[@lisatree2936]

The way she tells her story makes my heart break for all the little boys and girls who can't even go to sleep without fear. *tears

[@dontbelongherefromanother]

This happens more than one can imagine

[@ashleyallen7138]

I have small children and it brea my heart into a million pieces imagining them tormented like this❤️

[@marylougeorge1385]

@@dontbelongherefromanother Yup.😢💔

[@elleg3651]

Thank You

[@user-gm8mf8zo3k]

😥yesss.

[@bolimeful]

Her story also shows how cruel the system is. She's so brave, not only she survived, she's also able to share her story.

[@michaelcimags6991]

The system? Dont forget to include her own mom

[@bolimeful]

@@michaelcimags6991 That's why I wrote 'also'. Her mom and stepdad were obviously monsters.

[@elishal1282]

Thank you for listening

[@bolimeful]

@@elishal1282 Thank you for sharing, I admire you so much.

[@hotandbotheredinvegas]

@@elishal1282 Oh Elisha, my heart hurts for you. I cried your entire interview. You are such a strong and brave woman. I will never in a million years understand how people can hurt their children and I also will never understand how women stay with men that abuse their babies. It would happen ONE time! There wouldn't be a big enough place on this earth for them to hide. I would find them! You were let down by so many people and I am so sorry. Life isn't supposed to be that hard for a child. I hope you have been able to find strength to put this all behind you. You are so beautiful and deserve Happiness, Love and a world filled with Sunshine! I hope you have a healthy loving relationship with your boys. I will keep you in my prayers every day and ask God to bring Peace and Tranquility into your life and not let anyone ever hurt you again ... Sending you Love and Hugs from Las Vegas 💜 Laura 💜

[@nbazzi6134]

It takes a lot of strength and guts to tell the world your abuse story. Thank you.

[@user-gm8mf8zo3k]

Yes it does because sometimes people judge you.

[@lisamariealaniz7538]

Agree strong person

[@ceceprincess4758]

It does

[@sweetsuzie9346]

It's funny how you think being molested doesn't affect you in your 20s, but shows up when you are 30-40 yrs old, and you realize it DID affect you dramatically. I can relate. You are doing great, just hang in there, I hope you find peace one day.

[@chrisk7091]

I didn’t even remember anything till I turned 42 then it came down like snowballs

[@denusewitherspoon]

Honestly it didn’t effect me until I realized what I went through.

[@butterflylovenj7300]

As a victim I completely agree with you.

[@gelyred81]

Yes this is a fact. How our minds block things until something triggers it and we realize what happened.

[@NetiNeti-gm5bz]

@@chrisk7091 yes if you don't heal your traumas it comes back with a vengeance. It's better to heal it as fast as one can (esp when one is ready)

[@Brp720]

Mothers who put a man above their child are terrible people. I feel so horrible for Elisha, and I hope she can find inner peace after everything that has been done her.

[@redrosey7829]

Agree

[@a.w.3772]

I agree! Never put a man above your child!!!! Ever!!!!!

[@Myrtle5834]

The full responsibility isn’t just the mothers- every child also has a father who should be equally responsible. Also- most parents who’s children are being abused and are in abusive relationships themselves is because they too are often incredibly traumatised from their own childhood abuse. None of it should be happening but it’s incredibly complex

[@godschosenone3952]

I agree! We are here to protect your kids. Please give every one of us the strength to help, please.

[@bringbacknormal416]

The fact that she is not dead, on drugs or abusive and is actually working to not only give her baby daddy $900 a month while trying to be the best mom to her boys... as someone who has never known love a single day of her life... that's not only incredible but it is so rare that it seems to be nearly impossible. Her position is every woman's worst nightmare and she is not fucked up? I know that despite my strength that I've developed from pain I certainly would not be able to handle a day in her shoes, wow I'm in complete awe over her its truly inspiring to see this angel of a woman tell her story.

[@thematriarchy2075]

Not to take away anything from her, but there are many more people who went through abuse, that are not self-destructive. To say it is rare, is simply not true. No offence intended.

[@bringbacknormal416]

@@thematriarchy2075 she has only had a couple of therapy sessions... most people need years of therapy to be half of what this woman is. She understands her wrongs and how badly she was abused and despite her suicide attempt she keeps trying to bounce back, to be the best mom possible.. She still holds all of the pain, she can barely tell her own story without tears... even apologizing for crying. She still loves her mother who not only allowed that man to abuse her but who also participated in the act... which lead to her to making bad decisions as an adult. She understands everything yet all she wants to do is be a better mom. I have listened to many trauma stories from all walks of life, I have my own situations as well and I have never seen one person that has had similar experiences and not give up in one way or another. Maybe you have, maybe there's a whole other world of people I have yet to see be this way.. but she is the first for me. It takes a lot of willpower and strength to be able to not give up... to me she is a rare and very powerful type of individual. There's a lot of broken people in this world, some people are open about it while others are not. She reached out to give an interview so that others would understand why she posts about her children all the time... not because she is healed and brave enough...not for sympathy... not to be a hero... A person who has never been loved but her main goal is to be the most loving mother she can be is not a typical person at all.

[@thematriarchy2075]

@@bringbacknormal416 Is it you, Anastasia?

[@Enzome12.]

Most people who were abused do not end up on drugs , dead or abusive. I was abused.. many of my friends both men and women were abused the pain is intolerable at times sure but most carry on living very everyday lives or many have exceptional lives.. you just don’t hear about this because we don’t speak about it in public.

[@elishal1282]

Thank you Haley, I really felt how much you understand my pain through your comments, I appreciate you very much and please keep us in your prayers ❤

[@cescacabello5476]

Never apologise for crying. You're a strong and brave woman for facing up to your truth. Your story reminds me a little of mine and it brought tears to my eyes. You should be so proud that you are trying to be the best mum for your boys. I wish you all the best.

[@pambeforethestorm9784]

I agree, I got so upset when she kept apologizing and it is the fault of the Monster who hurt her, NOT hers!! I hope she continues to heal and continue being a great person and mom to her boys ❤️

[@elishal1282]

Thank you so much ❤

[@pambeforethestorm9784]

@@elishal1282 Keep pushing , you are beautiful and so worthy of every good thing coming your way!! I'm so very proud of you! 💕💕💕

[@silethaking279]

🙏🏾💕

[@missgrinch5940]

I want to thank this woman for having the courage to tell her story. This was quite emotional for me as I am also a victim of childhood sexual abuse. I hope she finds some peace by sharing this with the world. My "stepdad" was also my abuser. It changes you forever and you'll never be normal again but you can get better.

[@littledetailsbydarby3240]

Hoping for the very best for you too! You’re so brave for sharing your story as well 🫶🏾 I hope both monsters burn in Hell and suffer a long, cruel, painful existence for what they’ve done to y’all. You’re free now, he is evil and u didn’t deserve that BS… heal and move forward and make sure you do all that you can to have a child grow up safe from abuse 😊

[@ceceprincess4758]

I'm normal

[@amandaredeagle9572]

The fact her mom stayed with this man,😔 the shame isn't hers to bare, it's her mother's shame. Child predators are not ppl to be rehabilitated.

[@terywetherlow7970]

Women thru time are never able to have enough resources to escape these shiddy environments. Mom is trapped as well. 2022 little has changed. So sad.

[@dontbelongherefromanother]

@@terywetherlow7970 it's like they are trapped against their will to leave based on twisted emotions of love, strained financial resources, and fear of their abuser

[@merriferrell2818]

It was not her mother's fault. Like many women in abusive relationships she was probably afraid as well as economically dependent. Stop blaming women for the violent and abusive behavior of men...if he was beating her up you can be sure he threatened her if she left

[@dontbelongherefromanother]

@@merriferrell2818 exactly, people on the outside looking in don't understand how deeply controlled victims are in these types of relationships. They are not only mind-controlled but financially restricted or dependent financially on their abuser. Also, the love bombing keeps victims in a psychological hold to abusers. They couldn't leave even if someone held the door open for them. Just an analogy of how mental forces play a significant role in victims staying

[@skylar8628]

@@merriferrell2818 her mother was also touching her though in this situation i don’t feel for the mother at all

[@lindawright5984]

It doesn’t matter how old you are, it still hurts. My mom never believed me and I’m in my 60s and still hurts.

[@elishal1282]

Thank you for understanding. So many people will tell me I should “get over it and move on” when people don’t realize the damage all these experiences have caused to my mental and how that damage has effected everything I do in life. Living and trying to be strong day to day is so hard and I know life is not supposed to be this hard. So thank you for your comment because for a while I was feeling like I was weak for still feeling pain. Now I know I’m not weak, I am human. Prayers for you and prayers for us all that have suffered. May we all continue to be strong ❤

[@NetiNeti-gm5bz]

Everyone can fully heal, you just need to be ready and the right teacher will show up, and when the student is truly ready the teacher disappears (as the saying goes)

[@redbone9321]

That is terrible. You mom should’ve known you wasn’t making this stuff up.

[@deehill2774]

I wish I could give you a big hug.

[@godschosenone3952]

And you keep telling her. If she is still alive. A breakthrough most happen for you.

[@jane---489]

*_You just don't appreciate how fortunate you are until you hear such a horror story from another human. Utterly heart breaking ..._*

[@michaelsaenz]

How are you then?

[@zek7353]

Yeah. I used to resent my parents (just a bit) for neglect, inattention and some perceived failing on their part as caregivers and protectors but this channel has made me appreciate what I had growing up.

[@Vineeth..v]

@@zek7353 My mind too came to that conclusion after I discovered this channel. I used to blame parents and others for my situations and the narration that keeps playing in my mind. I assume God/Universe has a weird way of talking to me, and this channel is one at an unexpected time of life showing me to appreciate my childhood.

[@M5TABBYCAT]

Absolutely

[@bbbryne893]

Interesting thing abt her story is that this trauma was passed down. But it ends with her. So proud of her for telling her story. She is breaking chains!

[@liamodonovan6610]

She is such a sweetheart she seems like such a strong person she deserves so much better

[@freespirit2594]

My mother’s father abused her sexually, emotionally & physically. She’s in her 50s & it still effects her but she was never that way with me. People that survive these traumas are warriors

[@Jenny-uv4dl]

I was SEXUALLY abused from age 4 thru age 17 then experienced martial rape through out my 13yr marriage I dont trust ANY MAN even my fiance who has never done anything tht deserves not to be trusted but I can't fully trust I've been betrayed by every one in my life I ever trusted a little I have severe PTSD I've stopped screaming in my sleep I do talk and hit in my sleep I've improved with therapy and rx without those 2 things I would be dead I first attempt ed suicide @age 7 nobody noticed thts the abusive household I grew up in I've been a cutter since age 9 still deal with very very strong urges to cut in highly emotionally charged situations I freeze or dramatically over react during arguments I can't handle them I can handle an argument with a complete stranger but not with fiance I've cut ENTIRE birth family out of my life either they don't acknowledge how abusive childhood was(mom) or are severly mentally ill ,emotionally warped or addicted to hard drugs(meth opiods) I don't need ppl in my life who hide behind god and a religious cult(seventh day Adventist) to excuse their behavior it says heaps heaps about you as a parent if all three of your children have either severed ties with you or severly limit their contact with you and 2 out of your 3 grandkids abuse is HORRIBLE &HORRIFIC LEGACY

[@elishal1282]

@@Jenny-uv4dl is there any way I can connect with you personally, maybe we can help each other head. Your story is very similar to the parts of my story That was untold.

[@Toddtoddy78]

I swear if I ever catch anyone sexually abusing any child I’m going to beat them to death. I’m so sorry that you had to go through all that.

[@redrosey7829]

I will do the same, those are monsters

[@marylopo4107]

From one parent to another, do not let your child ever hear you say that. Only say I will make sure they don’t hurt you again, say nothing more in front of them. That is what stopped my child from disclosing to me because abusers create a trauma bond and they don’t want that other person to be hurt they just want it to stop

[@crackbabisims]

At 5-6 years old I was brutally raped and molested by my aunt. I suppressed and blocked out all of the events that took place 4-5yrs old. At 9 I started showing symptoms of depression. At 12 I began self harming via eating disorders, cutting and burning. At 14 I had already had my first manic episode. I had runaway several times. I didn’t know why I felt this way, I knew something was wrong. My psychiatrist asked me “we’re you ever sexually assaulted?” That one question brought it flooding back. All at once I was again reminded of what had happened. CPS and the detectives told my mom that there was no point because no one would ever take my case. She got nothing and I got a life sentence. I am glad she got her justice, they think women aren’t capable of depravity like child rape and molestation but they do it. They really do do it. Please for the love of all things good in this world watch who you leave your children around. Please, save the innocence. We are survivors, not victims.

[@elishal1282]

Thank you for sharing your story with us, and thank you for being a survivor ❤️

[@patri1689]

Sorry to ask but are you a male or femal? Thanks in advance.

[@crackbabisims]

@@patri1689 I’m a woman

[@patri1689]

@@crackbabisims Thanks for your response. I am not being insenstive but i would kinda understand the melostation part but how is it a woman can do rape? U dont have to respond if it triggers any of those memories. Btw, i'm glad to hear you say not being a víctim bit a survivor.

[@apebitmusic83]

@@patri1689 really? You can’t think of any way that a rape/molestation could happen between 2 females?

[@lizzfalcon9770]

The people who should’ve protected her didn’t. But yet she’s here doing what she can! Prayers for you girl!!! You are truly so special !!!

[@elishal1282]

❤❤❤ ty

[@af5011]

We walk by so many people not knowing their backstory and what they have been through. She looks like such a sweet lady. Im so sorry that she went through that.

[@elishal1282]

That is the truth. I always look at people driving or whatever and will say to myself “I wonder what’s on their mind or wonder how they are doing” because everyone is goin through something. Thank you for listening ❤

[@godschosenone3952]

Your mother is a piece of work.

[@anaya1662]

I just want to hug her so badly. You can still see the scared little girl praying for the abuse to stop. So so sorry for her. She's such a beautiful soul. Why is there so much evil in this world. So proud of her courage. God bless her🙏

[@baghodler508]

Mark , help this woman get some therapy, she's got me crying at work. I feel for her and she deserves help.

[@ceceprincess4758]

Dont watch at work. I watch these at home

[@Hekmaaatun]

Please help her!

[@mount-of-olives]

I had to pause this many times because the similarities in my life are insane. You held yourself beautifully and you are loved ❤️

[@T-Lex]

Same

[@erikaelimei]

The pain in this sweet woman’s voice breaks my heart. I teared up on and off throughout this video. She seems like the sweetest soul. Elisha, if you happen to read this, I am so proud of you for sharing your story. It takes a really courageous person to do that. I think you are absolutely amazing for doing this interview. I hope you can find a trauma therapist to help guide you through the pain you are still facing. You are amazing. Best wishes ♥️♥️♥️

[@antm2296]

Half this woman’s life has been destroyed by her own flesh and blood. Drugs, poverty and failure of the system have contributed. But ultimately it was the acts of two people that started this process. One of whom served 5 pathetic years and one walks free. And the worst thing about it… most cases go without a conviction and most stories go unheard forever.

[@asiawells476]

So true, that’s one of my biggest fears not able to share my story. I’m still trying to an accept that this happened to me an I’m 29. She’s so so strong for this. I pray she gets the help she needs we all need that’s been there I love you all

[@Soshesaysjessica]

You broke a generational cycle of accountability and apologies, that's great.

[@elishal1282]

Thank you ❤

[@roxanateodora8874]

@@elishal1282we believe you!

[@stopbugginandtakearedpill2957]

💔🥺 I'm so sorry.... your bravery is unmatched through your childhood as well as now to tell your powerful story... God bless you...

[@abbybernal3770]

My daughter is a victim of SM. The father of my youngest child was touching her when she was 11 (he raised her since she was 5). The moment that she told me, I immediately reported it and they escorted him out of my house. I will never understand women that choose men over their children. I'm a mother before ANYTHING! Idc who you are, if any of my babies say your doing something they're mentioning it for a reason. I am so sorry that you had to experience 🥺 God be with you and help you get through this.

[@ihaveadreamformykids4400]

Some women have been so abused that they get numb about their surroundings. They get desensitized, sadly.

[@izzydeadyet7336]

I don't know how you were strong enough to wait for police! If that would've happened to my own kids growing up I would've went ape shit and probably would been sitting in jail away from my kids..

[@Ariel-ck9he]

Wow. This woman brought me to my knees when she talked about the birthday party. I wish we could all somehow celebrate her the way she deserves.

[@elizabethrenteria5428]

I don’t know why but her telling us how no one showed up shattered my heart. She must have felt so alone and rejected. And she deserved to be so loved and protected. I just want to hug her and protect her.

[@nhlibra]

Hi Elisha, I could write paragraphs to you. You've been through so much. Im sorry that important people have let you down in life...including a system that allowed your stepfather back into the home where you were living. You deserved a protective environment growing up. It must have been so confusing. Your tears were felt by me and many of us listening. Never apologize for expressing your pain in this way. (Mark, please offer fresh tissues). You are a beautiful young woman. The fact that you are able to keep your focus on your 4 boys made me feel so hopeful for you. I would be very proud of you if you were my daughter. I hope for better days ahead. I hope you connect with a quality therapist that will guide you through your trauma and deliver real healing. God Bless you 💕😊❤

[@elishal1282]

❤ thank you for your words of encouragement, thank you for listening and thank you for caring. Please keep myself as well as my boys in your prayers

[@QueenB572]

@@elishal1282 We will all pray for you! Never give up! Your boys have a very strong mama! ❤

[@mosval9383]

@@elishal1282 stay strong sister U r worthy and u r more than enough.

[@hartpartyof3910]

You are so brave. Don't ever apologize for expressing your emotions.

[@ddz1375]

My abuse started when I was three or four. I was groomed mentally and physically and fully penetrated by the age of five. He was my mother's lover, she was cheating on my father. My pop rolled over. I too tucked myself into my blankets like I a hot dog in a bun. Please know that you are not to blame for feeling pleasure when the abuse happened. Mechanical stimulation and the body and its reaction are not your fault, it may feel like a betrayal, that your body betrayed you but it just did what a body does. Please don't blame yourself. It's taking many years and it will take many years for me to reconcile the abuses I suffered. I'm in therapy but I have been off and on for decades. The abuse has affected my entire life. I'm in my fifties now and trying to live life without being retraumatized by myself and by my actions. The guilt lingers because as children's our minds can't grasp the other person and their responsibility in the matter so we blame ourselves. It's not your fault. You are beautiful, you are a warrior, you are a good mother. There is no greater strength than to protect and raise your children in the manner to which they should be raised up. May God bless you and keep you. Try to find a therapist that you trust, the first one may not be the one for you but keep trying. I believe in you. I believe you.

[@misse3255]

😢😢

[@Belihoney]

You sound like you did a lot of healing to reach the awareness you have. I hope you keep thriving ❤❤

[@elishal1282]

Thank you so much for listening and I hate that you understand. I never thought about a therapist, because what is that?!?! But hearing so many people comment about it, I was def look into speaking with one

[@ddz1375]

@@elishal1282 a good therapist will help you cry your tears in safety. They will help you understand your guilt and explain to you that you were not guilty. Seeking help is not a weakness for we do not have the answers 2 hour questions and our dilemmas. It doesn't have to be hardcore therapy just someone to calm your mind and to strengthen your soul. God bless you.

[@BoyBawalKo]

@DDZ that's hella real that you are addressing the shame/guilt associated with feeling sexual pleasure during the abuse. This is often over looked, not talked about, and as a result never reconciled. If more people understood that it wasn't their fault then they wouldn't have to feel dirty, unworthy, or that they were responsible for the abuse happening. I would imagine more people could come forward about their abuse sooner.

[@donacatanguma]

I’m surprised that one of the families that didn’t allow their child to attend the birthday party offer to have her party instead at their home. People say they care about children but it seems that most people have a “stay out of it” attitude. My heart breaks for the little traumatized girl that still lives inside this woman. 😢

[@come_on_barbie_123]

I've come to the realization that most ppl don't really care about kids

[@donacatanguma]

@@come_on_barbie_123 Yes, agree w/you 💯 %. What I always find shocking is how many children are abused by their foster parents, who are part of a care system that theoretically was designed as a safe, nurturing haven, for already abused, neglected, and/or abandoned children. It’s similarly shocking to know how many mandated reporters of child abuse and neglect actually do nothing. This happens primarily in school settings. There is now a federal law that stipulates that any professional, working with children in any capacity, that even suspects abuse, is mandated to report their suspicions to the appropriate authorities. How often do we hear of cases where a child’s life could have been saved “if only” someone had said something. And even if a child is actually rescued, there is absolutely no guarantee that they will not become permanently disabled by their inability to overcome their trauma(s) for whatever reason. And yet, as a society, we tend to punish these victims of childhood trauma for not taking personal responsibility for their behaviors. And, with anonymous reporting available, there really is no excuse for anyone to not help a child. “One of our most serious collective syndromes is the fascination with, and yet cruel neglect, of youth.” - James Hillman Founder of Archetypal Psychology

[@BoyBawalKo]

The reality is parents have so much on their plate already that they don't want any of that drama. They know a sex offender is living at the house with the graces of the mother of the abused. Why would you risk your kids going over that house? Who's gonna offer to through a birthday party and have to debate whether to invite mom or explain why they don't want the step dad around. Why even risk your kids being good friends with that kid and having that step father not too far away from your kid? It's messed up, and Elisha does not deserve any of it, but this is how it plays out. It's painful how the cycle of generational abuse traps people.

[@donacatanguma]

@@BoyBawalKo Americans have perfected the art of being both sanctimonious and deliberately indifferent to the plight of others. I agree with C’mon Barbie above, in that people really don’t care about children; children have no power and no defenses. The beloved aphorism, “it takes a village to raise a child”, sadly, is a total myth in actual practice. Our culture’s “cult of the self” probably does more damage to children (and to others, especially the vulnerable) than any other political-economic force in our society in the present moment. As the founder of Archetypal Psychology, James Hillman, so aptly wrote: “One of our most serious collective syndromes is the fascination with, and yet cruel neglect, of youth.”

[@BoyBawalKo]

@@donacatanguma most people don't care about others but since you're one of the people who do care, how would you react in that given situation? Would you let your kid go to the birthday party knowing a sex offender is present? Would you offer to throw a birthday party at your house and not invite the stepdad? If you were forgiving enough to invite the mom, would you wonder if at some point in your lives she would allow her sex offender husband around your kids? I think people care but the situation presented is incredibly more difficult than most people are willing to chance.

[@nicolenepstad8609]

“For the times I was still learning” really hit me. I was a teen Mom, growing up with your babies is hard. You’re such a strong woman, never forget that.

[@Sunnyday069]

I put that one right in my pocket when I heard it. 🙌🏼

[@threeblessings575]

I want to hug her..my heart breaks for her, her pain is palpable..that big sigh was truly felt, thank you for allowing her to get it off her chest..Elisha, I would love to be your long distance pen pal? I can tell you are a beautiful soul.

[@PaperMario64]

Sexual abuse is like murder. They kill the person you used to be.

[@ladev91]

It's absolutely terrible. And when it's a child, you strip it's Innocence for the rest of their life.

[@toriviei]

She is so strong for telling her story. I'm proud of her for telling on him as a kid and for sharing this on here, as well. I hope her future is filled with healing and good moments, she deserves it so much. Sending love to you, Elisha 🧡

[@WhiteRosss]

Elisha having to try your best to pretend like you arent living a nightmare every night is so taxing on the human psyche, one of the things i've learned most from watching SWU is that system failure doesn't discriminate, trauma doesnt discriminate, drugs dont discriminate, neglect, violence, all of these issues can come for anyone and everyone. Thank you for sharing your story with us, I'm sure it took a lot of courage

[@deigamohamed707]

We’ll said

[@noahseward3791]

Agreed

[@elishal1282]

Thank you Jay for listening ❤

[@WhiteRosss]

@@elishal1282 of course, wishing you nothing but positive from here on, stay blessed 🙏

[@krollpeter]

@@elishal1282 You have had so much bad. But you did not lose your dignity. And that is very important. That man has lost his dignity, and to my opinion your mum, too. But I guess she did not know better, because of her own history.

[@jonathancossette6252]

You know what, this girl has a huge heart, and that, to me at least, is what matters most in this story. I think she's amazing. Never give up.

[@k.iiyyyaaa1507]

you

[@earthsknowledge631]

If you are reading this, just know you are not alone. ❤

[@PAPDOG1973]

What a beautiful human being. Bless her, I hope she reaches all the happiness and enlightenment she deserves. God you owe her big time.

[@phillipkopp5809]

It's funny because while listening to her I was thinking her soul is beautiful. You can tell when someone is genuinely good. I surprised myself because I'm not the type of person who describes people that way.

[@elishal1282]

Thank you guys ❤ God bless us all ❤❤

[@phillipkopp5809]

@@elishal1282 your video had me leaking a bit from my eyes while listening at work. Keep healing.

[@pinupjordan]

When she said that no one came to her birthday party, but she didn’t understand that it was who she was living with and the situation that she was in that other parents wouldn’t let their kids come, and it wasn’t her, ooooof…that made me so sad. She is a beautiful, strong, survivor. Thank you for sharing your story ❤️

[@stephownsyourface]

You are so incredibly brave for sharing your story and reliving your trauma, Elisha. You are such an intelligent and capable woman despite your past. I believe you even if your own mother won’t. Sending love and light 🤍

[@noelia7950]

It’s crazy how that as a child she worried more about her mothers safety rather than her own, when her mother didn’t even care about protecting her daughter enough to leave this monster alone. not only did she kept quiet about her abuse, she never told on her mother either. I’m sorry you lost your children but You are a strong, beautiful woman and I pray you heal from this.

[@elishal1282]

Thank you ❤

[@NessahSimmons]

One of the best parts of her story is she still has a good relationship with her children. She seems like an overall good person. I hope her mother one day realizes the pain she caused her daughter.

[@yayaserenity2397]

Elisha I just want to give you a big hug. You're such a strong woman. Sending prayers up for you.

[@elishal1282]

Thank you love ❤

[@Phatdadde21]

She is so courageous to tell her truth. You are not alone. Alot of us have childhood trama that affects us to this day. Thank you! It not only helps you but other people also by talking about it Your a great Mom and did the best you could do . ❤️

[@katherinetreiman9480]

Your boys are fortunate to having such a loving mom. You have dealt with so much that you don’t deserve. I hope your life gets better and better.

[@missgeorgia8112]

Your tears are healing tears don’t ever be sorry, you’ve had so much trauma in your life but you are still here and love your children, be proud of how far you have come 🙏🏽❤️

[@tiffanyhelke7322]

My heart just broke. Praying for her and wishing her the best of luck.

[@myfriendisaac]

I’m in tears within 3 minutes 😢🤧😭 Sending her love & healing!!!

[@ladycats3810]

It’s the birthday party part that just broke my heart even more for Elisha. She deserved a party and felt so hurt. But like she said it wasn’t her. But people should have invited her over and at least have her a card and a gift. It’s the thought for her

[@joanofarcxxi]

I just want to give you a big hug and tell you that you are wonderful. You are very brave and strong, I can't imagine going through such abuse and pain. Your mom and step dad are sick broken warped people. There are some really messed up people in this world, they are monsters, they destroy others, including innocent children. I am so sorry this happened to you. It's so heartbreaking. Thank you for sharing your story. May you be blessed.

[@julietlarranaga2688]

I wish Mark would let them know they don't need to apologize for crying. The shaking in her voice shows how much fear she's had, still hits her when she speaks... So terrible . God bless her 🙏♥️

[@a.leehilliard4716]

He says what he has to when it's necessary. If youve watched enough then you know that.

[@bbygurl101ful]

You are a remarkable strong woman , Thank You for telling your story. I don't think people realize how common this is. I cried hearing your story , I am a survivor of child abuse , my abuse started when I was four and went through self destruct mode . I forgave my abuser and the people that have hurt me through life . I forgave as part of my healing and knew the baggage wasn't mine to carry. Counselling on it's own doesn't work for everyone but used with alternative therapies can attain better success rates of healing. Love and Light , Beautiful one.

[@marcyb6647]

This is one of the most powerful interviews I’ve watched

[@elishal1282]

Thank you Marcy! It was very difficult and it was difficult for me to watch. Your support goes a long way

[@charmainepriestman915]

Dearest Elisha I'm sorry for all you have experienced You are a brave and beautiful lady and a fantastic mother You have shown so much courage and grace in this interview Sending you lots of love from South Africa ❤❤❤

[@drevee3482]

You don’t have to apologize for the way these memories make you feel and the impact that monster had on your life. You’re a beautiful human being, and I thank you for telling your story. You’re not alone 💕

[@blondiegrimes]

Her story is so on point to what happens in abusive homes with children. You learn not to tell anyone the "family" secrets, you learn to blank out the feelings and think it's normal. As a child, you carry that trauma into adulthood.....I wish that she finds peace within herself and gets to experience true love..💖

[@elishastratton3794]

My name is Elisha too, Ive been through sexual abuse by my father as a little girl as well. My mother chose him over me My heart cries for every soul that ever has to go through this💜 I would share my story as well if I thought it would do any good. To this day, my abuser/dad goes unpunished...

[@portiz877]

Sending you so much love ❤

[@ihaveadreamformykids4400]

You need to report it to avoid it happening to someone else you love. Sexual abusers never stop until caught.

[@karinaramirez-rattan4140]

She needs to write her story for all to know... She's on the verge of a beautiful break through... Her life is just beginning now that she's seen a glimpse of passion... God has something soooo special waiting for her!!! I'm praying for her... You got this!!!

[@angelabeasley555]

I too have gone through sexual abuse, but it was my cousin. Thankfully so, my pain has healed. Praying for her to heal and maybe her getting with a good counselor. Glad she has spoken out on her trauma. Now let the healing begin ❤🙏🏾💜

[@angelabarlow2012]

Amen 🙏. That's what it took for me to start healing and be able to have a semi normal life, was talking w an amazing counselor at 35 years old i FINALLY told my mom and dad and step mother that her son, my step brother had been molesting me for a few years when I was about 11 to 15. I still think of it often, but I can live my life! I pray to God she heals to not feel so traumatized. 🙏

[@wesleyAlan9179]

Very powerful interview. I'll never forget this one. Thank you, and I'm hoping the best for you into your future 💜🙏

[@elishal1282]

Thank you Wesley ❤

[@beatrixb3586]

I'm so glad she told on her stepdad when she was a teenager! How brave! And how brave to have that sit down with her mom. I hope her life gets better from this point on. It makes me so angry that people, actually children suffer so much abuse and the the burden is on them to be so strong and so self aware and be able to "repair" all the psychological and physical damage that was done to them during their formative years. It's fucked up. I hope she gets everything she's been working for.

[@ravenbeaudoin109]

“Anyways” is my go to when I’m deflecting from my trauma. Realized this while watching this beautiful strong woman tell her story

[@elishal1282]

It’s crazy how we don’t notice until we do, thank you love ❤

[@chefhushi19]

The saddest part that she mentioned was, when she said her mom threw her a birthday party and not a single person showed up. Must’ve been heartbreaking for a little girl, wishing her all the best. God bless!

[@aylahunny3754]

I never comment, but I couldn’t help myself.. I don’t think I’ve ever cried so much.. I’m so very proud of you and it takes courage to tell your story.. sending you love and prayers.. take good care of yourself, you are AMAZING!

[@h.s.l6875]

It's heartbreaking how the childhood abuse and the lack of a mother's love shaped her life, or should i say- destroyed/ warped her life. It's a powerful testimony, and i hope it helps ease the burden she's been carrying all these years- secrets weigh a ton. I so hope she manages to find peace and love- that she so very much deserves.

[@Jenny-uv4dl]

My mother only gave me the birds& bees talk to prevent me frm being raped after I was molested she was too late I had already been raped at age 4 my mother with held food until I ugly cried and begged forgiveness for something I didn't do then when I grew to were I could reach plates she started silent treatments again had to beg forgiveness for an imagined sin while my sister could and did anything she wanted ( in adulthood sisters husband stole parents car drove to a large city traded it for drugs parents got back car mostly stripped didn't file police report cuz he was dad a two small grandkids) I was repeatedly molested by church elders of the cult (seventh day Adventist)my parents belonged too my parents did ZERO usually only thing tht happened was we would change church's or molester would he won't lose status nothing some of these men I remember hearing had been molesting children for 25+ yrs and ZERO had been done first time I told my mom I had been molested she told me not to ever sit on my dads lap again I might misunderstand him now as an adult I say WTF? I had been molested I knew wht a bad touch felt like my dad and I had been close until tht point she must have told him the same cuz I never sat on dads lap Again so I was rejected by dad kinda denied a mother's love over a lifetime ( I have zero contact w/her 15+ yrs) no wonder I was molested raped ended up in an abusive marriage were spousal rape happened I almost became an addict/sex worker all because I was denied emotional support of a parent

[@angellycabean]

what a beautiful, _beautiful_ soul this woman has. you're courageous, inspiring, and seem like you're an amazing mother who gives your kids reasons to be proud.

[@Jadegurl95]

I feel for her. This is what I went through. She is way better than me at being able to tell her story. She is so strong!! I admire her strength and her struggles I hope she heals. Thank you for sharing.❤sending her so much love

[@christophermccann1368]

So proud of you - I love your strength to tell this story and really want to hear more of your progression as an adult. You are reaching so many people (including myself) and helping them get a more 3-dimensional view of people who have had past traumas. SO much love to you Elisha!

[@elishal1282]

Thank you very much. I do plan on doing a follow up video soon, just have to have the affects from this video sit for a minute before I get to that point. I’ll be sure to inform you when I do ❤

[@bryana4391]

I’m so proud of her, I wish her nothing but healing for her inner child

[@sarahnyhan]

I also have family members in Midland. I'm so sorry for all you've been through. Thank you for sharing. Your mother's inaction tells you exactly how she felt. She may have been abused but that doesn't negate her inaction. I wrote a book called The Trial - Giving Myself Permission. You might relate to it. I recorded myself reading it on my KZbin channel.

[@sarahnyhan]

@Texasgirlinacrazyworld Thank you! You can go to my KZbin channel and listen to the videos entitled "The Trial". Or you can go to my website which is my first name and then my last name. Or you can search on Amazon for the book with the title: The Trial. Subtitle: Giving Myself Permission. I don't think KZbin will post my comment if I try to include the URL.

[@sueletterivera5290]

Hi Mark! Please help her get therapy with the donations if possible as she would be if it from this and hopefully make a difference in her life . This hit me hard emotionally . Elisha is brave and deserves love in her life ❤

[@leahlogsdon3969]

What an ignorant response. She is trying to help.

[@Milioem]

@@leahlogsdon3969 you’re not helping

[@Milioem]

@@elishal1282 no one owes you anything. Find your own way.

[@elishal1282]

@@Milioem dang, are you ok? Do you need therapy? You seem like you have a lot of anger built up inside of you. Sending light, love and happiness your way ❤💋

[@Milioem]

@@elishal1282 I do a actually need it, maybe I too can sell my pity story & hope mark gives me some money

[@LilithVB16]

I just want to hug her. I know this pain all too well. My story isn’t exactly like hers, but it is close enough. I still can’t bring myself to speak publicly about it for a myriad of reasons, including safety. I am so proud of her!!!

[@karlsmith2052]

Sad, sad story. What an amazing woman! I hope she is able to move and and find peace. The thing that comes through very strongly is that she doesn't blame herself for what happened.and that is a great start.

[@gabrialjackson5878]

I am so glad you addressed that with your mom.I am so glad you aren't silent. I'm so glad for the people you are helping. This is true heroism on display. I am so moved by your story. I pray the love you deserve finds you

[@amymartin7533]

Wish I could give you a hug. You’re so brave to share your story. I’m so sorry you experienced such horror. Our court system is crap at protecting women/children. 😭 You deserve so much more. SO MUCH MORE. ❤

[@elliec7677]

My goodness, I cannot imagine the fear she must have experienced growing up in that household. No mother should ever stay with a man who harms their child in any way. I’m so sorry that you went through that. You seem like a beautiful person with a kind heart despite all of the heartbreak you have been through. Your boys are so blessed to have you 💗💗💗 I hope your mom really has her eyes opened to how much she’s hurt you and I hope that she spends the rest of her days trying to seek forgiveness for it. 💗

[@user-id2nw9pd1d]

I appreciate so much your transparency and being willing to be so vulnerable. I completely get it. I was sexually abused between the age of 2 and 6. My family to this day maintains that my perception was off and that I'm crazy. I had to detach from them. I don't talk to them at all. It was a very hard choice. You shouldn't discount any of it..."it was only touching" isn't okay. Maybe he didn't penetrate you with his penis but with his fingers...it's all NOT okay and NOT your fault. Another thing you mentioned really struck me...about how you saw two people making love. I get it 100%. I feel like I was cheated because I have a hard time connecting feelings with "making love". I get it when you said you go somewhere else. I still do and I am 55...with 2 kids. You are so beyond brave to share your heart. Thank you soooo much. It isn't lost on me. Much love

[@NurseRatched-k7c]

💜💜So sorry. Keep healing Survivor.

[@elishal1282]

Thank you ❤️ prayers that you completely heal as well 🙏🏽

[@jac.colo777]

Elisha - you were/are so smart for continuing to come forward when you were young! Such a warrior, so brave while faced with zero support, safety and protection. Today, too - you're so strong to seek out the interview with Mark. I hope that process of coming to this platform with your story gives you additional healing, as well. This community of people who value the work Mark is doing will be nothing but supportive to you and I hope you'll be able to feel that and be emboldened and empowered by it. I love how you described that you post about your grown sons as though they are still babies. That is so wonderful. I'm sure they feel how much you love them. I tell my kids as they grow..."you don't know this but as you get older, when I look at your faces...I first see you as you were when I brought you home as my precious baby and then all your accomplishments and growth flash by until I see you as you are today in this moment. So, please don't be annoyed with me - I'll try not to treat you like a baby when you're grown but I can't promise ANYTHING!" Maybe, that's why we moms take so long to answer a question - we are pondering our kids from infancy to the present in our minds. Sending you all the blessings and light you an handle to lift you to find all the love and joy you so richly deserve. 🌻

[@shannonhuddleston1851]

She's completely over it! I definitely know this feeling, I pray you find your peace 💯❤️

[@sherrygeorge8613]

If you are reading this Elisha, just know you aren't alone. I was sexually abused by my father from age 5 to the time of the reported the abuse at 13. You are so strong. You are strong for telling your story with so much courage.

[@lizpadilla5770]

Many tears shed for Elisha and I pray she continues to be there for her boys and seek therapy. What a brave woman to tell her story.

[@camdecay]

ik theres some controversy around this channel right now, but my compassion and sympathy for the people on it remains the same. it must’ve taken so much for this beautiful woman to come onto the internet and share her story. i truly wish her the best as she continues healing from those childhood wounds.

[@EcoJulie-vx6rx]

It’s hard for me to cry to this channels videos and this absolutely broke my heart. Failed as a child and saying how she loves her boys is upsetting how she didn’t get that treatment and she’s so strong, her kids keep her going, I really hope she finds happiness within herself ❤️

[@nativeamericanfeather9948]

I can relate so much to this beautiful soul💝 My step dad beat my mom,she severely beat us,I was abused,molested,neglected,& she made me use drugs when I was 7:( I too would pray & just cry. I was an introvert,quiet,and was left alone alot. Also left alone to take care of my little brother. I am so proud of you♡ you're so brave and strong! Hugs and love to you

[@janbeck7989]

You're a good person. I know this was so hard for you. Thank you for your story. Hugs and prayers for your complete healing.

[@petervl2255]

This is a heartbreaking story. It shows the worst side of humanity. Hurting and abusing a child is the most evil act a man can do. More power to this strong woman.

[@chuckiemyers]

It's truly sad how common this is 💔

[@katienichols6930]

Thank u for sharing with us. I was abused by a cousin for years and it took me years of healing and therapy for me to get past it. And sometimes it still haunts me. Bless you honey. Some people don’t understand how hard our stories are 😢

[@elishal1282]

Some People really don’t understand, people want you to sweet memories under the rug and continue life as if you never had trauma. I once felt weak because I have not healed but not I know it’s ok to still feel pain. I am human. I def want to heal and I am praying that this was my first big step

[@p.vinson9149]

Elisha, I am sorry about the terrible things that have happened to you. You did not deserve to be abused, mistreated and neglected. You are worthy of LOVE. Praying for your healing, comfort and peace. God bless you❤️

[@artiawhitley3820]

Hi, I was born and raised in Midland! I still have family there. You don’t look familiar but I’m so sorry you endured such pain!!! Wishing you healing energy from this day forth. Prayers to you on your healing journey 🥰

[@elishal1282]

Thank you ❤❤

[@caehlers]

HUGS to this amazing survivor - she deserves the best this world has to offer.

[@AliceHenderson-vz7kn]

9th

[@ceevee8110]

I hope you read this Elisha… what a lovely kind, grounded lady you are. I would be honoured to be your friend. The shame is his, not yours. I’m sorry your Mom wasn’t supportive, she clearly had addiction issues - you had such bravery to speak up and follow through at such a young age. You are such a good Mother. An inspiration, you are literally healing in front of our eyes. X🇬🇧🇬🇧🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿🇬🇧🇬🇧.

[@ickyalli]

i wish her nothing but a chance to heal, she has gone through the unimaginable and its such a horrible thing that happens so often in families. im proud of you for your ability to reach out and speak out from your abuse. its such a hard and difficult thing to do. youre doing great, blessings from texas

[@solutionsinprayer2701]

As a minister, I want to give Elisha a great big hug, pray for her and encourage her to live a life that makes her happy in Christ. There is life after trauma and I pray she heals completely and wholly. She's emotionally broken but God can heal all wounds. I promise you he can.

[@solutionsinprayer2701]

Helena, don't be consciously deceived...I respect your response and opinion however, this channel is not for people to debate negatively about social atrocities, It's to understand, be more informed and to encourage people who've experienced hell on earth..For me it's not about debatable viewpoints but to show support for others in the kindness that I've experienced knowing Jesus Christ.

[@a.leehilliard4716]

Religion has nothing to do with it. Pulpit pimps like you are part of the problem

[@gretchenhejazi9463]

My heart truly breaks for her. I believe she is a lot stronger than she even realizes. I hope she gets therapy. I hope someone steps in on this program and helps her get every bit of help she can. I would also appreciate any updates.

[@KATIEB1989]

This interview was hard to watch 😥 I 🙏 she can get some therapy and heal from this. You are so strong for sharing your story!!

[@meowmom3296]

Thank you for sharing. I've had insomnia for 50 years. SA never really goes away. God bless you sweetheart 😘 ❤

[@MEL2theJ]

This interview ripped my heart out 💔 I myself wasn't ever a victim of sexual abuse so her explanation really shines light onto the darkness of the suffering. So proud of this woman not only for sharing her gut wrenching story, but mostly for breaking that generational curse as a mother herself. We ❤ you Elisha