Ren - Su!clde - First time Reaction & Discussion (Official Music Video)

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And here's (part of) the writeup that Ren shared before the premiere and sent to his email list:
I first met Joe when I was 8 years old, my friend Josh said I had to meet this guy, so we both walked over to his, it took about 10 minutes from my house. I was greeted by this kid covered head to toe in freckles, he grinned at us, climbed onto the back of his sofa and screamed “Swanton Bomb!” then front flipped off the top and landed right onto his back on a stone floor. He lay still for a moment, twitched a few times, then got up, grinned at us, brushed himself off, and did it again.
This was Joe. He’d do anything to make people laugh. He ended up becoming one of my best friends. He was there when we stole our first cigarettes out of his mums pack, way too young. He was there when I had my first kiss, with a girl twice my size on the back of the 42 bus. He was there when I first got so drunk I threw up in the woods after drinking as much white lightning Cider as we could. I was there when he did his first backflip on skates, and saw him do a 720 off of the pier cave, that moment became legendary.
Joe was the funny one in our friend group, he’d make us laugh till it hurt. No one had a bad word to say about him. It was impossible not to like him. Usually we put celebrities, athletes and actors on pedestals, turn them into role models and admire them from a far. The person I admired was Joe.
Him and Sagar knew every word to the songs id write, we’d get drunk at parties and they’d be singing along as loud as they could. It gave me a lot of confidence back then.
On Christmas Eve 2010 I was sitting in a pub with Joe, he’d been feeling low after a couple of consecutive break ups. He tried to check himself into a mental health outpatient facility a few weeks earlier but they turned him away because he didn’t have an appointment. He turned to me and said that sometimes he wished he could just walk into the sea and keep walking. He said it in a kind of half joking throw away comment type of way, then took a sip of his drink, walked over to the juke box and put Dig by Incubus on. If I knew that was the last time I’d see Joe id have hugged him, told him how much I loved him, how much I looked up to him, how much we all loved him, and I wouldn’t have left that pub. I didn’t know that, so I finished my drink, said happy Christmas and left.
Two nights after Christmas I got woken up by a phone call at 3am, it was my friend Ella. She told me Joe was on the Menai Bridge, a large suspension bridge connecting the main land to the isle of Anglesey where we lived. He’d been on the phone to her in tears saying goodbye. He told her to tell everyone he loved them. I pulled on my clothes as fast as I could and started running toward the bridge. It was up a hill. I lived about a ten minute walk away, I could run it in five. As I ran I started dialling then redialing his number. The line was busy, which was a good sign, it meant he was still on the phone to someone. As I got about halfway, the busy tone changed. It told me the line was out of service. I got a sinking feeling and picked up my speed. I arrived to the bridge minutes after I left my house. It was deafeningly quiet. I was the first person to arrive. I got there probably about 2 minutes too late.
Joe’s body was never found.
Initially we refused to believe he was gone. The coastguard came out that night, with boats, and helicopters. Me and my friends spent the next 10 days putting up missing posters everywhere we could, walking up and down beaches with flashlights, getting about 3 hours sleep a night. When you’re walking up and down a beach with a torch when its dark everything looks like a body. We still haven’t found Joe.
As his birthday came around, I wrote a song, freckled angels, a song I dedicated to Joe which I sang in front of his friends and family. A charity football match was put on for him, raising money for the RNLI where I won two bottles of wine in a raffle, I drank them both as quickly as I could, naturally, turned to my friend and probably slurred something along the lines of “This is the last time I ever drink” That was 12 years ago, I haven’t touched a drop of alcohol since.
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[@REN4eva]

​It is interesting and important how many deep discussions that happens because of Rens music. That in it self is a revolution in todays musical landscape

[@TatjanaTomljenovic]

Yes this is important.I agree with you.Something may happen.

[@tinadunbar4577]

Yes, life's not all a bed of roses and we're all joined by music. Thank god for Ren. His motivation comes from his heart and soul, its nothing to do with fame or mega bucks. He is a true true artist, as we scottish say, youl never see the likes again. I'm sick of the industry and celebrities keeping their distance from Ren because of what he sings about. We love you Ren, millions of us. ❤❤❤❤❤

[@frankensteinfpv]

Yes! Had some great conversations with strangers this morning alone after this release! Ren is changing the world for the better!!!

[@ricksurratt9034]

61 year old male kicked me in the chest

[@lindseybriggs2771]

I've watched KZbin videos off and on for whatever reason for what? 15 years or something? And only in the last 3 months have I begun to comment on them.

[@the_gaunt51]

"May we all be so bold".

[@Valineris_The_Phoenix]

We all cried. 💔

[@REN4eva]

Just cried my heart out. For Ren, for myself and for everyone else that are grieving a loved one. Ren is magic. He can grab the feelings out of your soul and put them in a song that he sings back to you and it hits you in just the right place

[@Kaos189]

Absolutely

[@craigwilliams6963]

This exactly!!

[@kristinabradshaw]

Ditto. 😢❤

[@yinunit]

Very well expressed

[@themousaimum]

Oh goddess stop the cry. I am not a cry.

[@darkmoondrops]

Since January, ive cried so much that i have realized that i had stopped feeling emotions. Thanks to Ren, i feel again. Years and years of trauma really takes its toll. Slowly...i closed off. Im so glad a friend sent me Hi Ren. This man has changed my life.

[@nevercrashed]

I feel this too I found Ren while waiting for therapy which I have now started years of feeling numb to actually being able to express emotions again shows the power of his work.

[@REN4eva]

I am glad for you! Finding Ren has been a gamechanger in my life, too

[@sammyd8860]

Ren added the last couple of minutes immediately after he had done his interview with Knox Hill, in which, for the first time, he really talked openly about the circumstances around Joe's death. It feels like he had kept so much buried inside himself and it came out in the interview, and it felt good to honour Joe properly. Here he talks about his guilt for being too late to save him. This is just so tough, being far too tough on himself. I am glad that Joe's story is spreading wider and that people are honouring him but Ren, man, please stop beating yourself up. It was not your fault.

[@GarnetJ]

I think this is Ren’s way of dealing with the regret and guilt. It was clearly tearing him up inside 😿 But the first step was opening up in the interviews which inspired him to add the last part. He even said the song felt incomplete … it was just waiting until Ren was able to tackle those emotions. You can tell that it’s already helping Ren by how he talks about the song. And raising money for the RNLI that led the search and rescue efforts will hopefully give him some closure when he brings the check to Anglesey. I think he’s also going to spend some time with Joe’s family. Hopefully they will get a sense of closure. Regret and guilt are powerful demons. Sometimes we need to shine light, love, and compassion at them to diffuse some of the grip they have on us. This song is already having an impact. People are really opening up and connecting. That’s the power of music … and the power of Ren ❤

[@joshuawiedenbeck6944]

He also mentioned Joe saying something to him at the pub a couple of days prior that, in hindsight, ended up forshadowing what he did. Ren feels regret for not taking his comments seriously, as Joe was always joking around when they were together.

[@sammyd8860]

@@joshuawiedenbeck6944 Yes. He said that Joe played Dig by Incubus on the jukebox. Check out the lyrics. If this story is true, and not just poetic licence, then it looks like Joe was maybe trying to reach out. Which could make Ren's sense of guilt run even deeper.

[@jrbush1]

Yes the first half was the entire song. The video was done. It was ready to release, and Ren was like, I want to add a bit at the end.

[@phil61kop]

To hear the tears here like we do on 'Freckled Angels' is part of what makes Ren so real and relatable. For me, the songwriting, the delivery, the storytelling, the emotion, and the versatility make Ren unmissable once you have discovered him.

[@payntpot7623]

Ren's honesty and vulnerability only work because he balances it with responsibility. I can imagine now, a spate of self--centered people attempting to copy or re-create these ideas and sentiments, but it will fall short and possibly glamorise, rather than bring an awareness. Ren always has a hope, or positivity to his writing. His brilliance lies in his duty to his listeners. A duty many lesser artists won't have.

[@coleeg69]

RIP Joe, rens best friend... knoxhill interview Ren covers those events he went though.... he was legit 2 mins too late till he jumped. Joe was telling someone to tell everyone else his goodbyes while Ren lived the closest to that bridge he got dressed and ran.. only so few mins to late. Never found his body and he was posting missing person flyers out looking for hope that he was still alive. Ren is truly a beautiful talent human being. The 🐐

[@sussj3330]

Ren never misses. Thanks for being open Chris. So true, when we open up it gets a bit easier.

[@joerogers7011]

Man, Ren isn't normally the genre I listen to. But I'm addicted to his body of work. He REALLY makes me think and feel. I wish I could hug him. For him and me.

[@JamieR]

Man that ending is challenging to listen to. Shedding tears. He clearly pried himself open and let his story unfold like an open book. Completely naked and vulnerable. That takes a lot of guts.

[@ElWray8]

One of my favorite Ren beats so far, and one of the hardest songs to get through. lol Jesus.

[@pauly414]

Another song that just blows your emotions wide open, Ren is a very special human being and has the insane ability to draw inspirational artistry from tragedy. He can do no wrong, the genius continues to make tsunamis!

[@Jos-mc8lx]

Well said !

[@dianeemanuel8541]

What a tool this song could be for broaching difficult discussions with people who one suspects might be in trouble or for the families in friends who don’t understand. It captures the feelings of being so down- the distorted vision of the world- and the experience of those left behind. Haunting.

[@judes_music]

There is no filter between his heart and his music, he's one of those rare humans, impossible not to love him. Also, what you said about communicating your pain in empathy reeeally got me. You're so right. And I want to add: Share your pain with empathy for others who might experience it, as you said, and also, instead of just unloading stuff, share it in empathy with yourself. And also thanks for keeping the sneeze in, especially in this video. I'm sure Ren will appreciate that (and his friend would have). Love your videos xxx

[@OokamiKaii]

thank you for being honest about your mental health as well.

[@TRPLD]

My whole body aches after hearing that song... I'm so incredibly moved it almost hurts...

[@chriswicecarver3715]

There is so much to this. The line that resounds the most with me is at the very end..."that's not the way that it work, cause I was late like a jerk". There is self-blame for his friend Joe ending himself. That is a very very tough thing. Holding yourself somehow responsible....that's deep and gets me every single time.

[@claudiarovers9787]

Yes we need to talk about it. I have learned that not talking is what makes my depression go deeper and deeper. ❤

[@staceyjayneplatt9527]

Love this THANKYOU 🙏🩷💙

[@Av3rageD4D]

I totally said bless you out loud when you sneezed 😅. Ren has an amazing ability to connect people through pain, very special.

[@curtisholsinger6023]

The iconic line from Spider Robinson, "shared pain is lessened; shared joy is increased" comes to mind. Great reaction.

[@alexiaspaedt-mcintosh5311]

I have cried during the song and every reaction. My heart breaks for Ren. Such a powerful and incredible song. RIP Joe. Please if anyone is reading this and are in a bad spot reach out for help.

[@damianbraganza2593]

So deep. It's beautiful stuff. Intoxicating, heady. Just serene art. This guy.... X

[@beebloodpunch9029]

There is no prize in the music scene that can truly honor Ren. However, he deserves them all! Damn! 🤷‍♂️

[@rgCA_01123]

Thank you for covering this song so beautifully and giving it both the attention and space it needs ❤ Processing this kind of art can be both heavy and a bit of a release at the same time. Going on the journey with another person who gives the respect it deserves helps tremendously. We are truly not alone ❤ Thank you, Ren ❤

[@Its_Frank_Franchini]

Hi chris! I was one of those guys that didn't liked that kind of expressiveness in music but as I listened in "listener's ears" instead as a "producer's ears" was so much easer to understand and enjoy this kind of music, and right now I'm going through a lot of difficult times where I'm the only support to my girlfriend (I am the only support that she has) that's very ill and I am mastering in this moment the songs in my album that im trying to "sell" so i can raise money for her and my point is that im literally taking out of the map my expressiveness for something that sounds good, because I've recieved comments that my music was basically useless, so maybe I'll try to maybe recover that expressiveness in the future with my other releases (Thank you if you read this long comment)

[@kirstenwyatt9675]

Where the sound pans from ear to ear, it reminds me of EMDR therapy, which is more usually done with vision, but it is used to help process traumatic memories.

[@j_vasey]

yes being vulnerable and relatable, I especially related to the 'Tranquility' line.

[@tattoodude8946]

Ren is bringing humanity back to music - back to the world it almost seems. I'm here for it and it is time. We need to push back against the hate and all the cries for us to hate - all the forces pitting us against one another. It is time to be human again.

[@MissMeKate]

It takes something incredible to craft something this bitterly beautiful. Ren and Joe are creating a tremendous legacy from the pain.

[@JoannePriscilla]

Chris, I truly love the authenticity in your reactions and the respect you are showing to the artist and his art. When something touches/moves you, it shows and your not hitting that pause button to cover that up with nonsense talk like some other reactors do. And sometimes there simply are no words/comments needed. You give room for that too, which I really appreciate.

[@dianeemanuel8541]

You have taught me so much about the techniques and artistry that Ren in particular uses. You’ve given me knowledge- concepts and names to better understand and describe what I’m hearing that moves me so strongly. Thank you❤

[@caupain66]

How our choices do EFFECT others!

[@yilomina2047]

Ren is such a gift. I hope his music brings as much meaning and healing to him as it does to us

[@greglecig5549]

I’ve watched this 4 times now and I’ve cried harder as each time goes. I’m just floored by this man and what he brings out of us.

[@MF.Alchemy]

This video is obviously so powerful. Beyond words. But your react was heartfelt. So real. Wow. #onelove

[@karenm6887]

I honestly have no words to describe how this touches me. Magic. Deep.

[@barefootalien]

I love that you didn't try to analyze it. Your ending was perfect. Beautiful.

[@D3ADPO3TRY]

Thanks so much for another true and honest reaction. You are a cool human being, and Bless You. Literally.

[@chrisseiler42]

Speechless ❤😢❤

[@Melly01]

I knew I could only watch a minimim of reactions to this song and I knew I wanted yours to be one of them. I'm glad you did one.

[@MalcolmMXTaylor]

What this song makes me think about most is we see news headlines about male suicides hitting new highs in recent years, and we all know there is a reluctance in men to talk about 'weakness' and to bottle it up inside. Ren shows that there is no shame in opening up and seeking help and simply speaking about that I'm sure anyone with those thoughts can listen to this song, relate to it, and speak to a friend or family member and come out the other side in a better place. This song will save lives!!! I've been looking forward to your reaction and analysis for the last few hours since the premiere and it was perfect!!!

[@richard-v8p8c]

Another masterpiece. I'm not a musician, not a singer, just a listener. Maybe people will disagree, maybe they won't, but I truly believe Ren is a generational talent. Just awesome. Thank you for sharing your reactions to his music.

[@brianbru]

I love the fact you didn't even think about pausing the 2nd part of this song because you were just feeling it. It's one of the most powerful minute or so's of music ever written and performed in my opinion.

[@yeah_noface]

share, but SHARE is actually bars. thanks for this

[@lynette.]

In this he highlights both sides of the story. His pain as the one left behind hopefully will give pause for thought.

[@davideastham]

Thanks Chris - RIP Joe Hughes ❤ Here are the Lyrics if anyone wants them **** *************** Oh I, Oh I, Oh I've fallen through the cracks of the night sky A light goes out on the other side, suicide, suicide, suicide Oh I, Oh I, Oh I'm treading on the tracks in the night time It never really felt like the right time suicide, suicide, suicide I'm so fucking lonely beneath this, narcissistic, cant keep a secret, miscount sheep, I can't sleep, a misfit Some say troubled, but some say sadistic, Bruises my brother, one time or the other, my skin felt counterfeit, silicone, rubber Bruises my sister, skin pop the blister dig deep resist the feeling when it hits you Oh I, Oh I, Oh I've fallen through the cracks of the night sky A light goes out on the other side, suicide, suicide, suicide Oh I, Oh I, Oh I'm treding on the tracks in the night time It never really felt like the right time suicide, suicide, suicide [sample] Sick boi, sick boi, bitten by a tick boi I feel like its not me its the world thats sick I'm so fucking washed up and sea sick masochistic kid with a split lip six feet deep I can't eat im nervous won't stay down 'cause my body purges useless my mother, cant keep in my supper skin so pale 'cause my cheeks leak colour Truth is my father, you choose your karma draw for the sword then drive through the armour Oh I, Oh I, Oh I've fallen through the cracks of the night sky A light goes out on the other side, suicide, suicide, suidice Oh I, Oh I, Oh I'm treding on the tracks in the night time It never really felt like the right time suicide, suicide, suicide Suicide suicide suicide Suicide suicide suicide Suicide suicide suicide Suicide suicide suicide It's hard to take off from the ground when your wings are cut, Your stomach burns when you're drinking from an empty cup, You know the entire ocean came from my tear ducts? I see the world through fibonacci sequences and Double Dutch I guess there’s some that’s born lucky, there’s some that’s not I tried to cut away my bitterness - hatchet job I locked my youth in a trunk inside a pick up truck Then dumped the whole thing over the same bridge the night you jumped I think about that sometimes , vividly What it felt like to look down and see tranquility One sudden movement in a world of possibility Only one movement to expose our fragility I fucking miss you and I miss myself I miss thinking that were indestructible as well I miss chilling by the pier cave and kicking back Wirth Callum, Hugo, Sagar, Justin, Stevie and the fuckin lads I miss missing that, I numbed myself to close the gap, I never even call em up the distance is my plaster cast, The truth is that the day you jumped my childhood jumped too, But I still can’t find the anger all I find is missing you Man I miss you, with all my rhymes I picture running 5 minutes quicker, I'm right on time I picture pulling you back over the edge and then were crying And holding you my brother and telling you that it's fine that’s not the way that I worked Coz I was late like a jerk There's not a day where I could find a way to break from the hurt Your body missing so we never got to wave to the hearse I hope your listening , I love you man, I miss you absurd Fuck

[@Kim-hf2ip]

Bless you

[@thorstenhiep3590]

Thank you Chris for always finding the right words! Ren is the biggest inspiration for us musicians and humans.

[@elenaorujev3494]

Thank you for sharing your experience and genuine emotion. Ren is amazing at bringing out our humanity!

[@MsMegF]

Dangit I cried again…..

[@jonathonthomas1255]

I am at 6:15 rn in the vid and what you're saying has just opened my eyes to the fact that I do the same thing. Thank you for this revelation

[@KamilDziadkiewicz]

may we all be so bold - omg you've killed me with this one - such a brilliant comment and so fitting. For a split second I saw you on the bridge fo the USS Enterprise

[@salishseamermaid]

What a great point about communicating our own pain with empathy for the person we're telling it to. Obviously there's a time and a place for just putting our own feelings on blast without constantly worrying about how others will be affected, but in general being mindful of the trauma to others is an excellent practice.

[@Dan-su4lr]

I have never seen in all my music years which there are many someone as talented as Ren. Master singer guitarist song writer story teller. I would be curious to know if he produces and directs as well, he keeps creating masterpieces. I hope he continues to share his genius. So much emotion from his works.

[@robbieskokowski9786]

Thankyou for sharing your struggles I have struggled with depression since adolescence. Thankyou

[@globally123]

The way you said thanks Ren at the end shows you are a good spirited bloke,love and peace from Wales U.K

[@Jason_xofilos]

What is amazing is how vulnerable Ren was at when he wrote this and created this video plus currently releasing to it all of us. 2nd is Ren’s loss of his childhood when he lost his innocence and feeling of immortality. He reminds me of the Maestro Tuomas Holopainen who composed most of Nightwish songs, poetry in his lyrics, and music. One theme Tuomas has is Dead Boy meaning a loss of childhood. Finally, while emphasizing the pain Ren’s friend Joe was going through also showing how hurt he was by the choice his friend Joe made along with the guilt of just possibly missing getting to Joe in time to save him or even to say goodbye plus Joe’s body was never found for closure. In other words, the choices one makes affects more then oneself.

[@manjitu4253]

Rens sacrifice in expressing his pain...is helping us to bring to the surface and into the light our own suffering...so we can have the discussions and heal... beautiful reaction my brother xx

[@TwistedReality13]

Ren is his own genre. The guy is out here redefining what it means to be an artist.

[@Jos-mc8lx]

Ren ...HUGE H~U~G brother and RENegades !!! All the blessings you need

[@Theogvineofthedead]

It's not new to create a concept album but I feel like ren does it well. The only better artists at this endeavor are The Dear Hunter and Coheed and Cambria. But ren is right up there with this concept album It is interesting to see people surprised at callbacks and continuations to a theme throughout songs, to me that's what makes a phenomenal artist, from Floyd to coheed to ren it's just what makes phenomenal music not just good music.

[@CosmicRideMusic]

Love your reactions to this. The sneezing at that particular moment was priceless, yay levity. I love that you connected something for yourself in mid-video as well. My favorite of your reaction videos so far I think. Thanks Chris.

[@TheJmario35]

Is amazing how Ren uses time. Most of us would have spent it trying to bury the guilt/pain feeling into the deepest corner of our subsconcious to avoid never come back to it.. He has not only applied tons of bravery to return to it but used all the musical experience earned during all of these years of music, to return to his "internal wardrobe".... and open fully that pain/guilt box. With it, Offer all of us this incredible master piece while honoring his friend to his best knowledge and skills. Wherever his friend is right now, have no doubt that his feelings of gratitude&love for what his best friend has done for him is... immeasurable. From my side... We also thank you Ren.🙏🙏🙏

[@PDXmaker]

Always love your reactions Chris. Ren is one of my favorite artists alive right now. I am grateful he is alive. As someone who has felt so hopeless and suicidal in the past (due to so much intense trauma, ptsd, depression, anxiety and a life of intense chronic pain and illness and suffering) - and as someone who has lived to see things get better, to heal and grow and experience light and love and joy again - these words and video bring me to tears. It hits hard. I can only imagine how hard this was to write and sing but it’s fucking beautiful and heartbreaking and honest. Grief is all the love we never get to fully express to someone once they are gone - big love equals big loss and grief. Ren certainly poured out the love in this one. To anyone out there feeling alone tonight… even if you can’t find the light in this moment, I promise it’s still there. So many of us have felt lost in the darkness and truly believed leaving was our only way out - but I promise you there is hope. Call a hotline, call a trusted person, talk to a therapist if you can. If you need help, call or text 988 for free support from trained counselors. There IS light and joy and love and healing awaiting on the other side of this darkness if you just keep searching for it. I am proof. It takes work, and it’s not always easy, but the beauty of life is worth the fight. You are not alone. You are loved and you are stronger than you know. You deserve a shot at happiness, healing and peace. You deserve a shot at feeling the sun on your face. 💜

[@analisasmith7927]

Wise and caring words found at the end ❤️

[@kennethmichael5404]

This one was tough....no doubt. I've already watched it several times and I've yet to keep a dry eye. The song starts out about Ren, he said this himself, but then he said that for some reason it felt incomplete. He started with the piano and the first line of that final sequence and said that the rest just kinda poured out of him. The emotion you hear, his tears, the breaking in his voice .... it's all genuine and real. That comes across vividly. Once again, Ren uses the power of his personal experiences and his musical talent to draw an emotional response from the listener. I'll never stop saying this- Ren is Special.

[@federiconicolaslema6334]

6:23 Thanks for that!

[@seth1455]

Thanks for mentioning Ren's letter, it's an important part of the picture, and to you man I like listening to what you have to say and I'm glad to have you around.

[@terrymartin5839]

I can't stop playing this song, and I cry every time. What a peak into the grieving mind. I hope others can relate and use it to help the healing process.

[@emilianoserranosouza1991]

This one is really deep and hard, amazing song and reaction!!

[@saikousocial]

Holy fucking shit what did I just click on I just got body slammed by a truck of emotions at that ending

[@horsehollerer]

Such a classy reaction with a great message. Well done, Chris

[@SlyFoxFo]

What more is there to say? The rapport between you and Ren grows deeper by every song made, reacted to, and discussed. At this point, the emotional response and subsequent "Thanks, Ren" is more than enough to convey what was needed to be conveyed in this video. Thank you for sharing this, Chris. I wish both of you much strength and resilience to fight the demons that haunt us all. Much love

[@joshuacraig6447]

Saw you on The Charismatic Voice channel for "Chalk Outlines," so came here and saw you were reacting to "Su!cIde." Love your reaction. This song hit me hard.

[@wollmo05]

Chris, thank you for this beautiful reaction video. What strikes me most is your confession that you, too,, suffer from anxiety and derpession. In all of your output you always appear to be very confident, optimistic and above all very supportive to your audience. I have learned so much from you and the Discover Your Voice course. You are a perfect example of someone who has fought his demons and turned all that eneregy into creative and very helpful content. That is so inspiring. I have been following your channel since the beginning and the way it evolved into one of the best music teaching channels on the YTube is more than fascinating. Thank you!

[@dawnpatterson8708]

This one......hurt. It took me a bit to realize that this is a GIFT of perspective. There are many who are so lost in the depths of despair. That they can't see a hand, friend or those around that love them. This was an intensely personal glimpse into the pain that a loss such as this creates. Yeah, it hurt. It was supposed to. If it makes just ONE person take a minute to think. About how a split second decision WORLD affect aother? It was well WORTH the pain. Thank you Ren, for sharing. Thank you Chris, inviting us in on your journey to discover who HE is. Through his music . And teaching us something along the way. Take care AND be safe.

[@woodywoodman2319]

You must feel a certain way knowing you've helped him personally with his singing!!! Like a proud big Brother perhaps!?

[@bobdobbs1168]

Great reaction. This will be a tough one to watch all my favorite reactor videos as I will cry every time I watch it.

[@frank5.3]

Take care of yourselves, friends. I can't promise it will get better, but just survive, because it might... 💔❣💕💞💓💗💖💝💘 A profound analysis, thank you Chris

[@bosoundaries]

tears of sadeness and tears of joy - ren as usual - i love you!

[@JohnDoe-ds6pr]

It doesn't get deeper than that!

[@SteveWhipp]

That last 2min ripped my fucking heart out. I've never had a song do that to me so well. A masterwork.

[@deborahhalbert3372]

Painful, powerful, real. Many tears have been shed since this was released, but more importantly so many discussions online & elsewhere have opened up about this difficult subject. Keep talking 💔

[@StriderTwo]

The suicide of my best friend 20 years ago just came flooding back to me , that crushing feeling I had then , why didn’t I see.

[@rexrogers1859]

Thanks, Chris. ✌️💛

[@josephstude5638]

love you Chris. Keep your head up.

[@laurencemayshroom5940]

Didnt realise you had reacted already so apologies! Crazy how any different line from this can resonate with so many people. Already seeing across the multiple reactions. It's amazing that he can touch everyone's heart in one way or another. The line " the distance is my plaster cast" resonates with me massively on a pre and post the deed level. 2 friends in the last 2 years that I hadn't spoken to much before combined with being away from where I lived and therefore constant reminders. Ren doesn't realise the medicine that he is. The thought channel to save you having to think it yourself.

[@lillyvanpug]

Going through these reactions and feeling the love, support and empathy in the comments is healing. So much positivity and comfort going around. This song is heavy, but it opens up a conversation that is needed. This song is what we didn't know we needed. We have to talk about the subject, not hush it down and hide it. He transfers his emotions to us and makes us face the pain and sit with it. At some point, we all have to feel our pain. It can't be pushed down forever. Whoever feels like there is no hope- please reach out. Please talk to someone. The world needs you 🖤🖤🖤

[@bmorin73]

This one hurt Chris, great job as always on the reaction and holding back the tears ..i couldnt...not going to lie it gave me chills knowing how much his friend Joe still lives inside him everyday and how he suffers with his passing still..Love how relatable Ren is

[@EtherealFrequency2024]

Great insight on venerability as an artist. Thanks for sharing.

[@raymond2896]

I've watched this 3 times and have had these things flowing from my eyes. What is this i dont have feelings coming from this broken heart. I miss who i was but going forward with who i am. I'm better now than I've ever been. I live in this vessel through jaded eyes but eye see hope on the other side. Give me solace to live with my pain so i can love me and life again. Thank you Ren you've helped me love me again. Love to all my brother sisters family and friends for the rest of you life to short love yourself again!

[@benjaminvoloz8114]

Watched the premiere. Left me speechless. Hats off to Ren.❤

[@donald1379]

I cant get enough of Rens music this song was incredible....no lie had me in tears.....Thanks for sharing

[@BeardedManCrafts]

the end of that song cut me deep such fucking insane lyrics to the heart

[@yinunit]

Precious talented soul. We must all wrap our arms around him and each other

[@jasonmcsweeney1294]

.how clean must the soul of this man be who can write such music?

[@ThatGuy-bp4gz]

It's so helpful to hear that you suffer from anxiety and depression. I'm so sorry that's the case. I know that struggle. Yet you are so gifted and creative that it's not something I could have guessed. But Ren seems to be uncovering all these connections we have as human beings. I read one commentator describe Ren's genre as "humanity." I've never heard anything like him before.

[@thehood3093]

Damn, what a powerful song. Chris, thank you so much for sharing your struggles. It is my dream to become a vocalist and songwriter, but I struggle with crippling self-awareness and the idea of people hearing me sing is still incredibly terrifying to me. Hearing that you struggle with the same thing encourages me so much. It makes me feel like I will also be able to overcome it and achieve my dreams! ❤