Who's Crazy/ My Psychopharmacologist and I (ANIMATIC) | Oc Animatic

Holy-- I'm so sorry it took so long.
I had to cut out a part. Anyone who has seen the Musical or Heard the song will know what part i cut out. It wasn't too noticable tho ^^
I plan on working on more animatics for this musical Next To Normal.
It's a really good Musical that many people don't know ;;;;
I DO NOT OWN THE MUSIC
I ONLY OWN THE ART
Characters used are my Oc's
Poseidon & Clover
Random Guy Used as Dr. Fine
Random Girl (for now) used as the daughter
Update on the Hamilton Animatic.
So i had to scrap everything because I didn't like the character i was using and I kept coming up with new ideas for it even though i already had art down for those scenes. So i'm going to restart it all over again.
I'm sorry you guys have to wait so long on it. Since i know most of you rather see Hamilton than anything else haha...
Also I am Damaged is still in process don't worry. I just hate animationing and i'm not used to it, at least well done animationing. Since it's going to be lined and not sketched.
On another note, Should I just use the regular characters from the actual musical instead of putting in my oc's ?
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[@peurchao6935]

One of the things I love about this song is so subtle I barely noticed. Every time they seem to say that her delusional state has come back, that’s when she ‘flirts’ with the doctor. Whenever they say her delusions have gotten better, she treats him like one would their doctor. Anyways, great art! I really love these characters, and your skill amazes me.

[@tahraethestoryteller6079]

Oh my god I never thought about it like that before!

[@tsubakiproductions7802]

I noticed that the 3rd? time I watched this video and its really good

[@jamiestanton2698]

Ppp pool ll pop

[@julianrcb4697]

"these are a few of my favorite pills" The Sound of music reference though is chilling

[@xout5940]

JulianRCB yeah

[@lordoftheducks332]

The first time I heard that part I was like “OMG ITS SOUND OF MUSIC!”

[@mehspacedorito]

tmw I just finished my first weekend in a production of sound of music

[@bandanar1321]

So...do we all agree it sounds like 7rings of Ariana Grande ?

[@mymae_]

@@bandanar1321 I was thinking about one of julie Andrew's songs- My favorite things

[@Mushberrys]

i always cry when the husband sings everyone is either worrying about his wife or themselves even his daughter and he feels like the love he and his wife had is nothing now and you can hear he wants to regret it but he loves her and he can't. I hate that she doesn't realize he is hurting also.

[@misnomer6345]

Ew a kpop stan

[@supasonic5781]

@@misnomer6345 what does that have to do with anything

[@feodorawicked5014]

@@misnomer6345 Ew an asshole.

[@savannahs.5874]

@@misnomer6345 ew a gross loser with an anime profile pic

[@KateCantDraw]

Yeah it's crazy

[@i-am-a-fangirlbe_afraid2187]

The "Use may be fatal" and "love is insane" are beautifully tragic and haunting

[@hidayayoussouf8883]

I made you go 1k You're welcome

[@Ejiro__Kirishima]

Yeah the “use may be fatal” is something very haunting honestly way to many *necessary* medications. I wish less medicine had that as a possibility. That “love is insane” part couldn’t be truer, it’s always a gamble when loving or caring someone, I think it is well compressed into words in that specific line.

[@elizabethgatchell4546]

I think it was more about the fact the she was talking prescribed like 20 different meds, let alone that some of them alone might kill her in high enough doses.

[@bellacutie25]

You really feel those lines when you've got people in your life like that.

[@ariannairizarry251]

The *without him I'll die* hit me hard too.

[@rhyshall6890]

As someone with BPD that last line where she says she doesn't feel like herself hurts so much because it's so raw and real. A lot of medicine makes everything dull and grey and it's no surprise people stop taking them just to feel again.

[@eridanampora9497]

"Use may be fatal" that was haunting

[@emmamartin2052]

Glad I wasn't the only one who got that vibe.

[@AlaysiaSelvin]

same

[@bethisjolly8537]

Eridan Ampora the scary thing is that's a common thing!! I was watching a documentary about mental illness and there was a bunch of people with different illnesses and they did a q&a about the meds they were on and so many of them had meds with like scary symptoms like that. It's freaking scary.

[@thayse7744]

Eridan Ampora OMG HOMESTUCK

[@Sneakyraver]

Unfortunately it's super common. Somewhere Lithium is mentioned and that one has a super low toxicity level...Lithium toxicity is super painful too

[@bonepointriverstone]

Poor guy, waiting in the car for someone who apparently doesn't love him anymore.

[@rangikumatsumoto84]

She still loves him . The point is she is taking all these medication and each one alters her true personality a little more each time till she is just numb inside it's not his fault or hers .

[@charlotteantibroscience8773]

@@rangikumatsumoto84 I don't like how this reinforces some people's idea that antidepressants are bad. There's a lot of factors needed to be taken into consideration

[@rangikumatsumoto84]

@@charlotteantibroscience8773 that to me is not the message to me the message is some doctors over prescribe medication and that happens a lot with mental health. I've been though it many times . Feeling numb is just as bad as other mental issue's.

[@liamfaoisidheold]

@@charlotteantibroscience8773 True.

[@lovinganonymouslover]

She isn't taking antidepressants, shes taking Bi-Polar medication, I took some of these over my life.

[@SadEyes1412]

Poor guy. He keeps holding on to someone who doesn’t even love him anymore.

[@BuBs1970G]

If he leaves people will call him a monster for not caring and just wanting her for vanity.

[@Bananer-Oil]

She loves him, but the medication is altering her personality to the point where she feels numb. It’s not her fault nor is it his.

[@renno2679]

God I love all these people coming into this animatic and saying things like this without knowing the whole story lmao. I mean I don't blame you. This is kinda out of context.

[@ArchivedFox]

Whats the context? Ive never even heard of this musical before a few minutes ago

[@Ejiro__Kirishima]

Umm she still loves him... have you read any other comments someone has already said how it isn’t that she doesn’t love him the medicine just alters her personality.

[@marmelium]

As a personal note to anyone afraid of treatment for mental illnesses: my mother struggled with the exact same illness mentioned in the song, bipolar depression with delusions. She was suicidal and it was one of the scariest times of my life. Medication saved her life, and years later it gave me mine back too. There are wonderful medical health professionals who will listen to you and help you find what works. The first medicine I tried greatly alleviated my anxiety and depressive symptoms so I could focus on loving myself and becoming confident. It's the most free to be myself I've ever been, and my only side effect is that I get sleepy after 11:30 PM (fixed my sleep schedule anyway so I'm pleased with it tbh). Even without medication, there are plenty of treatment options. My therapist has been such a help that I've invited her to my high school graduation next week--something I never thought I'd live to attend. There really, honest to god is a better life out there. I'm always up to talk more about my experiences too if anyone needs it.

[@immapegasister]

Sarah K. Congratulations on your graduation! Thank you for this, I'm glad that you could properly explain that sometimes medicine and therapy really do help. I have bipolar disorder and severe generalised anxiety and the medicine really does help, but I know everyone's different.

[@epiksans8191]

Hi! I know it's been a long time and my problems may differ from yours, but I need to discuss this with someone. I was recommended to see a doctor to pick up sedatives or antidepressants, but my mother is skeptical about this and believes that therapy from a psychologist and physical activity is enough. Can medications really help? Should I try to discuss this with my parents if I don't really trust them?

[@brysonlambes7175]

I do think that's ultimately the point of the show. This song shows the holding pattern the family has been in for a long, and ultimately they change it up, try a new treatment, and diane decides to try therapy rather than medication.

[@zebracakes1141]

For anyone wondering about 4:49 "stable" means she's is not making progress but she is not getting worse it doesn't mean she's in a good position or that the doctor is saying she's cured it means at the moment she has made no progress with the assigned drug

[@lovinganonymouslover]

To those asking why it was weird when she said "I dont feel anything" and he said "Patient Stable" Bi-Polar Depression symptoms are: - Dramatic Highs and Lows in split seconds of Emotion. - Random Emotions for no other reason beside your brain deciding to do it. - Manic Episodes and over exagerated behavior when in Public places, similar to a anxiety attack. - Manic Behavior, high or low. --- Those are a few of them, I know because I have Bi Polar Depression. When they put us on medicine, Seraquil, Depakote, Zanics.... They are trying to in a sense make us feel nothing, have a emotions constantly be at an even stance. People who are Bi-Polar Depressed, can not drive unless with someone else... Most times when younger rely heavily on help to stablize themselves, some abuse there drugs to make themselves calm and its usually us who end up in Mental Institutions... So for us to say "I feel nothing" in a sense... Our pychologist could consider that stable, stable emotions and calm behavior. We can control our emotions correctly and think more clearly... Its horrible and scary being Bi-Polar Depressed, you lose so many peopled because you physically, emotionally and mentally can not control yourself when your manic; we NEED to have some trigger word that sets us to relax but sometimes it doesn't work. Like with my family its "Lets go take a walk." from my mom and "Purple Pandas" with the rest. But when your stable in the eyes of your psychologist... Your not yourself which is worse. EDIT: I just noticed how many likes I have, wow thanks for all the likes and comments. I'm glad most all of you understand and relate its horrible... Its truly horrible. A year later from this comment (5 since diagnosed) and I'm still not "stable". I take seroquel (Thanks bumblebee) 500ml and it just.... I don't know if any medicine can truly work.

[@aguedagonzalez2203]

Alekz Alekzander Duckworth-Novak I know how you feel, because I to have bipolar depression. it's really scary

[@cup_of_suga853]

My dad has it and i love him but sometimes it's scary to be around him.

[@splendasmom]

My ex had bipolar disorder, and would constantly quit his medicine because it made him "feel like a zombie", and yet the doctors said that's what was normal. It wasn't normal at all and made him scarily aggressive. I hope medicine develops to figure out something better.

[@phrogchamp8576]

*seroquel

[@celestinem]

I just commented on the video how after I heard that I yelled "patient stable my a**"

[@nothanksbigno7019]

“These are a few of my favourite pills” Sounds really scary and gives me immediate throwback to the song “these are a few of my favourite things” which just makes the whole thing even more dodgy eek

[@sheepstea9583]

Her: "I don't feel anything..." Doc: "patient stable" Me: whaaa

[@calliesnell3704]

julisaur as long as she isn't feeling sad then she is stable in a doctors eyes.

[@jess_serin]

it's considered "stable" for someone with depression or is bipolar.

[@urmomlovesme811]

@@jess_serin No, stable means the patient is not getting any worse, doesn't have to mean she's getting better just means she's not getting worse. The patient might have absolutely horrible mental health but they can still be classified as stable, as long as their not doing worse than last time.

[@jess_serin]

@@urmomlovesme811 that's what I was referring to, because she says she doesn't feel anything. Sorry if it was unclear

[@urmomlovesme811]

@@jess_serin oh okej

[@PhoeBonBel]

The actual musical as a whole is so sad. The death of their son is so emotionally and mentally breaking the wife loses her mind and loses her memory due to treatment, while the husband just silently suffers. I honestly feel so bad for the husband :((

[@StakeMammon]

Does everyone just ignore her husband's lyrics in this song. It makes me sad that the only thing anyone notices is how the drugs are affecting her when they're driving him insane as well.

[@StakeMammon]

And it's bullshit. He has it just as bad if not worse than her because he actually realizes how insane all of it is. He's not trying to escape his problems through pills and that's very admirable.

[@SadEyes1412]

Mammon same

[@erikabautista7072]

Exactly and he's not even taking any

[@tangerine3843]

Sergiu Plesoianu that wasn’t all tho

[@claudefrollo3378]

When they're both singing I listen to the girl's part when she says "without him id die", while the husbands part is more redundant except for the part where he's longing for their sex life back

[@thayse7744]

"I know him name" -MARCO??? -POLO!!!!

[@yourlocalnoob4938]

Game, not name.

[@amitieltruth1003]

Thayse Bachmeyer I think that's a shirt brand

[@pendingauthor2536]

MARCO

[@dr.romaniarchaman5426]

It's Dr. Fine..... Which is a weird name, and I'm not sure why his name tag is covered with a shirt brand..

[@__ray__]

@@pendingauthor2536 POLO

[@mistyabcs6243]

DAN: Who's crazy? The husband or wife? Who's crazy? To live their whole life believing that somehow things aren't as bizarre as they are Who's crazy? The one who can't cope Or maybe the one who'll still hope The one who sees doctors or the one who just waits in the car And i was a wild twenty five And I loved a wife so alive But now i believe i would settle for one who can drive DR. FINE (spoken): The round blue ones with food but not with the oblong white ones The white ones with the round yellow ones but not the trapezoidal green ones Split the green ones into thirds with a tiny chisel Use a mortar and pestal to grind... DIANA: My Psychopharmacologist and I It's like an odd romance Intense and very intimate We do our dance My Psychopharmacologist and I Call it a lovers' game He knows my deepest secrets I know his... name! And though he'll never hold me He'll always take my calls It's truly like he told me Without a little lift the ballerina falls (voices [HENRY, NATALIE, GABE, DAN] start scatting in background) DR. FINE (spoken): Goodman, Diana. Bipolar depressive with delusional episodes. 16 year history of medication. Adjustment after one week. DIANA (spoken): I've got less anxiety, but i have headaches, blurry vision, and i can't feel my toes. DR. FINE (spoken): So, we'll try again and eventually we'll get it right. DIANA (spoken): Not a very exact science, is it? ALL VOICES: Zoloft and Paxil and Buspar and Xanax Depakote, Klonopin, Ambien, Prozac Atavan calms me when i see the bills These are a few of my favorite pills DIANA (spoken): Ooh. Thank you, Doctor. Valium is my favorite color. How'd ya know? DR. FINE (spoken): Goodman, Diana. Second adjustment after three weeks. Delusions less frequent but depressive state worse. DIANA (spoken): I'm nauseous, and I'm constipated, completely lost my appetite and gained 6 pounds, which ya know, is just not fair. VOICES (along with DR. FINE and DIANA): Maybe cause the following side effects one or more DR. FINE, DIANA and NATALIE: Dizziness, drowsiness, sexual dysfunction (the following TWO stanzas are sung as a duet) DR. FINE, DIANA and NATALIE: Headaches and tremors and nightmares and seizures HENRY, DAN and GABE: Diarrhea, constipation, nervous laughter, palpitations ALL: Anxiousness, anger, exhaustion, insomnia irritability, nausea, vomiting DIANA: Odd and alarming sexual feelings VOICES: Oh and one last thing DR. FINE: Use may be fatal GABE: Use may be fatal DAN: Use may be fatal DR. FINE (spoken): Goodman, Diana. Third adjustment after five weeks. Reports continued mild anxiety and some lingering depression. DIANA (spoken): I now can't feel my fingers or my toes. I sweat profusely for no reason. Fortunately, i have absolutely no desire for sex. Although, whether thats the medicine or the marriage is anybody's guess. DR. FINE (spoken): I'm sure its the medicine DIANA (spoken): Oh, thank you, that's very sweet. But my husband's waiting in the car DAN: Who's crazy? The one who's half gone? Or maybe the one who holds on Remembering when she was twenty, and brilliant and bold And i was so young, and so dumb, and now i am old [the following is sung the same time as DIANA] And she was wicked and wired The sex was simply inspired Now there's no sex She's depressed and me i'm just tired, tired, tired, tired Who's crazy? The one who's uncured Or maybe the one who's endured The one who has treatments or the one who just lives with the pain DIANA: [same time as DAN] And though he'll never hold me He'll always take my calls Its truly like he told me Without a little lift the ballerina falls My Psychopharmacologist and I Together side by side Without him I'd die My Pyschopharmacologist and I DAN: They say love is blind But believe me love is insane DR. FINE (spoken): Goodman, Diana. Seven weeks. DIANA (spoken): I don't feel like myself. I mean, i don't feel anything. DR. FINE (spoken): Hmph. Patient stable. Next To Normal Who's Crazy / My Psychopharmacologist and I Lyrics

[@DJVaughan]

DARK-LIGHT IN-D Thanks 🙏

[@ameliamysterywave4456]

Your my lyric god

[@spazzyjazzy3361]

Dude. Thank you

[@miarosewylie7244]

Omg thx I had no Idea what Diana was saying in the mixed lyric part 💛💛💛💛

[@Ejiro__Kirishima]

Omfg this is amazing, you could understand all that? Your a god!

[@trishiasuministrado3915]

musicals i just got done with: Hamilton, In the Heights, 21 Chump Street, Dear Evan Hansen, Heathers, Waitress, Wicked, Dogfight *sees this animatic* *adding Next to Normal to the list*

[@trishiasuministrado3915]

online cuz the way to go there alone costs more than the ticket to watch it T-T

[@rise9666]

What about "Be more Chill"?

[@cj-pe5mj]

You'd definitely like Be More Chill

[@ohboi7962]

Anyare Sumi boi I just got done with: heathers, be more chill, hamilton, 21 chump street. Hmm.. What should I go for next?

[@jemimaashton5144]

Slender Dude dear Evan Hansen for sure (and next to normal is what I'm doing right now) happy new year!! :D

[@redlady752]

When the guy started saying "And me I'm just tired, tired, tired", that hit me deep because you can just hear the exhaustion in his voice.

[@teddyrowe6353]

Guys he can't be Jumin cuz he's in the drivers seat. Edit: YES I AM LOVED

[@Ramblinggg]

Washi Washi this made me laugh thanks X3

[@yuhyuhyuh1692]

Washi Washi Jesus christ 😂

[@makiharukawa206]

Washi Washi THATS SO ACCURATE ANDBWHSH

[@dad4484]

FUCK DAMMIT WHYYYYY

[@thatonecommenter9845]

OH MY --

[@oliver-bv5rj]

the scene at the sink with the pills was so cleverly animated and the smooth many frames animation is so impressive! I love next to normal so much and i’m so glad i’ve gotten to watch this

[@maxlove818]

"They say Love is blind...but believe me Love is *INSANE* " that's a deep line and show how much he cared for her, you guys hear all about the sex but he's regretting the life before when they were young and had everything under control, when she was full of life and wasn't a nerve wreck. The future they planned wasn't this. When you hear the "sides effects" of the medicines it means everything she suffer: sexual dysfunction , nightmares, Diarrhea, nervous laughter, Anxiousness, anger, exhaustion, insomnia, irritability, nausea, vomiting.. etc. He is going through it too Think your loved one had mood swings. that some days he/she laugh without reasons and next day is irritable. Think some days he/she say to you to stay away and then had sexual needs and think about someone else. Think he/she is so sick some days you have to stay with him/her and take care of his/her needs while some other times it get angry without reasons and treat you like garbage. For example Her line about Her husband being in the car is to reinforce what she wrongly think that he is *uninterested* in her because he didn't accompany her inside and sit next to her (She talking about the same guy who each day make sacrifices and take her to the phsycopharmacologist) And Hestill stay with her. While putting the blame on himself for picking this girl. "I was so young...and so DUMB... and now I'm old" saying he choose with the heart and stick with her in her time of need but time had taken his toll. He is tired of the whole situation. the "Who's crazy?" song is his breaking point.

[@kimmiewise1044]

As someone who wants to Study in Psychology and Psychiatry, I just really liked the list of drugs being sung to the tune of ‘My Favorite Things’ not only as a useful way to study the names of drugs but it’s so flipping catchy-

[@marqicuis]

I always expect so much more at the "use may be fatal" bit. Like it's going to get more intense and intense with the piano riff getting more erratic but just when it starts to pick up it fades out again. Makes me sad every time

[@snailspec6943]

"I don't feel like myself... I mean I don't feel anything." "Patient Stable." ... woah okay then, if that's what you consider stable

[@Sneakyraver]

That's what a lot of pyschs do...that and "talk to your therapist"

[@valeriec.2096]

"Stable" means the patient isn't getting worse.

[@amberlee7343]

I was waiting for someone to bring up this line. A lot of Bipolar disorder drugs do this to people. Because it deals with such extreme mania and depressive episodes, the medicine tries to bring them to a "stable". It's one of the big problems with these kinds of drugs and why a lot of people with bipolar disorder won't take their meds, they feel like it's taking away apart of themselves. Obviously everyone's different but for a lot of people that's the case and it really sucks, I just love that they added that and pointed it out.

[@smoffe8610]

Scared Sketchy I mean if she doesn't feel sadness or depression then she's stable in a therapists eyes

[@TheKhopesh]

Sadly, that's pretty much as close as modern medicine can get to normal. Stable just means that the doctor doesn't think she's going to off herself, which is the biggest concern in bi-polar cases.

[@AbraminWonderland]

Wow!! I really loved the way you animated Clover/Diana's hair, especially at the part where she was a falling ballerina. That was a super cool artistic choice. You also gave her really great facial expressions that really made me feel her pain. Super well-made, and I can't wait to see what you do next!

[@kenneththenakedmolerat1667]

He knows my deepest secrets, I know his name. Marco Polo.

[@ChrisPorterEggie]

If you guys are wondering about the Musical this song comes from. It comes from Next to Normal I put it right here in the video 4:36

[@Krustycrabs]

Chris Porter omg pls do superboy and the invisible girl!

[@boom-be1jq]

Chris Porter I spent all day yesterday watching and listening to the musical. Its Amazing!! Thank you Soooooo Much!

[@atalee1980]

Chris Porter Wait i have a question sooo she has a thing for her docter and shes married? and great video btw 😀

[@jiffy763]

Loyal Lexus She doesn't have a thing for the doctor. This song mostly just captures her illness and "delusional episodes".

[@atalee1980]

jiffy763 Oh okay thank you for explaining its because i was just wondering because in the song how she says "And i know how he will never hold me" its bc i thought she was talking about him tho thats why ☺ Thank you tho 😀😊

[@justsoprettyful]

Why does she say "But my husbands waiting in the car." like that? I haven't actually seen the whole musical I just like this video haha

[@jolenemach8668]

okay so from what I can get, she said that because she had no sex drives and such then added that she didn't know if it was the marriage or the medicine, which the psychopharmacologist replays back that it was probably the medicine applying that the psychopharmacologist thought she was sexy. She says thank you and then says the line your confused about.

[@boom-be1jq]

Jolene Mach I think it was supposed to be like a joke, as if lingering sexual feelings were still there. The medicine obviously makes her feel those drives towards her doctor, and she explained that it seemed to be winding own for her and her husband. When he said it was probably the medicine her mind interpreted that he wanted to. . . you know. It's comedic because it shows dispite what she said, those drives are still there for her doctor. I could be wrong though idk.

[@jiffy763]

boom 7 Yeah this is correct. The doctor doesn't really have these feelings for Diana - this is all just part of her delusions and increased sex drive. The line "my husband's waiting in the car" is meant to be nonsensical and taken as a joke

[@justsoprettyful]

Okay thanks guys :) I get the jist of it now

[@Junkuza]

Pretty sure it can be taken two ways; firstly the way most people are taking it, as in it's her way of perhaps coyly escaping what she believes is flirtation and the other way is simply; If your loved one, someone you felt strongly for and wanted to protect, was in a place that (even just imagined) could be awkward or in anyway bring discomfort, would you really be waiting in the car? It's practically saying "That's sweet of you Doctor, but if you're right then why isn't he here?" or... It can be- I suppose it's just how you look at it.

[@IlastarothTayre]

Wow, this was so unique and interesting! I know the musical word by word, but had never seen such a representation of the characters in this scene. The husband is what got me the most, along with the pills "jingle". Loved it.

[@xnellsbellsx]

21 chump street... hamilton...heathers...wicked... and now this....WHY???

[@otakub3atz2397]

Might I recommend "Dear Evan Hansen" :)

[@elderknights7882]

Nelly M check out Waitress!!!

[@kassidy7283]

Nelly M Check you In The Heights

[@xnellsbellsx]

curse you all and ur amazing musicals!

[@phloxxi7079]

AND LISTEN TO "BE MORE CHILL"

[@alexisengle4744]

The ending is something i have a great fear of. Taking medicine for something like that and not feeling like myself. Its scary I think.

[@lamplord3870]

Yoo, if you like drawing your OCs you should totes keep it up- do what makes you feel happy, not what other people want! You're you and your art is YOUR art, so heck if someone isn't spiffy with ur ocs or what musicals you like that's not ur problem that is 100% theirs. People who enjoy ur art enjoy ur art!! This is fuckin lIT as always, you're getting better every time u draw omg KEEP IT UPPPP

[@ChrisPorterEggie]

adshgjfk Thank you Lamp

[@shaleamontanez4591]

that's weird I TOOK PAXIL FOR ANXIETY and it seems strange that he's like her "drug dealer" and I don't really understand the music but damn it's accurate

[@ChrisPorterEggie]

Lol that's what Therapist are some times xD drug dealers. Since she has anxiety and bipolar depression all the pills she is taking are things to try to make it go away/ lessen the affects.

[@shaleamontanez4591]

Chris Porter I get it now! lol just her relationship with her husband wasnt really clear

[@ChrisPorterEggie]

If you watch the musical it will make more sense. Or even look up the lyrics because even when i first heard it I couldn't hear everything they were saying.

[@deskengineer1394]

Chris Rangel yea Next to Normal is 10/10

[@emifukukado2218]

ikr I take sertraline zoloft and hearing it in a song is just weird💀

[@katt-katt2606]

I honestly don't understand why he says at the end "patient stable" if not feeling anything is... also depression, it's something you feel when you have depression, you feel numb and stuff

[@ChrisPorterEggie]

When you're in deep depression you feel nothing, but it's a different type of nothing. It's incredibly deep sorrow. She legit doesn't have the energy to feel, like she's not sad or upset, but she isn't excited or shiny. She's walking through life and she sees stuff and shes there, but her feelings or like someone not being able to have an opinion about a certain topic. Her body and mind are pretty much confused. And as long as she's not in a deep state of depression it means the pills are working. I kinda hope that made sense.

[@katt-katt2606]

Chris Porter I mean, I say it because I've been there, not necessarily numb and feeling sad but just... barely there at all, just existing and not feeling much of anything, feels tiring but that's about as much as you get to feel. Like, you feel absent in a way, not really there, so I just say it in my experience at least. I hope this doesn't come across as mean or anything, that's not my intention so I apologize if it feels that way

[@ChrisPorterEggie]

No, no. Not at all. I understand you. I think people feel it differently. I described it how i felt it. I've been dealing with depression so I understand ^^ I think it's because she has the feeling of being just there it's hard to think. Sometimes hard to process the things around you and unlike depression you think too much sometimes. Like happy pills (anti-depressions) Are made to try to balance the serotonin. Ah idk it's extremely hard to explain ;v;;. But i do get where your coming from. I just think she too had a hard time explaining it and that's the best way she could possibly put it.

[@ryleespencer212]

Yuki Morales One of the themes of this musical is questionable morality in modern-day psychiatry, hence the terrible treatment.

[@nanik4913]

Its common that when you get on meds that are incorrect or wrong dosage, that you feel NOTHING. you dont feel anxious, dont feel sad. but you also dont feel excited or happy anymore. I spent my entire middle school years in a hazy numbness of any feelings before I went to a new doctor and saw I was on way too high of dosage that made me a zombie. The sad truth is that so many doctors think that its better to be a zombie or a shell of a person than being depressed or anxious So when she says "I feel nothing", shes not speaking of depression, shes talking about how the meds have changed the chemicals in her brain to make a her a hazy zombie, therefore shes 'stable'

[@morganlemons1694]

This is so amazing!!

[@aidoll3692]

Morgan Lemons lol. I didn't know you liked musicals. Which is your favorite?

[@dad4484]

Dad?

[@gigigooty6472]

Oml it's Lemon Daddy.... your everywhere it's insane

[@liljahallsey6361]

Oh jesus you ARE everywhere

[@glucky9046]

I am afraid. My father is stalking me

[@elizam7219]

Honestly this whole musical has helped me understand my grandmother better as she has bipolar disorder, just without the delusions

[@hamilcat1138]

Everytime I come back looking for this it takes me 5 minutes to remember the name but each time it's worth it

[@ChrisPorterEggie]

I know you all don't mean bad by it or anything. But i've had these oc's since i was 10 and I'm getting really tired of seeing comments of " I only clicked on this video because i thought it was jumin and mc." "the oc's in this video look like jumin and mc from mystic messenger." " the guy is yoosung and the girl is mc!!" " I thought this was something for mystic messenger." "omg it's yoosung and mc so sad." " it's like the bad ending for yoosung and mc ;;;; " jumin and mc, yoosung and mc, mystic messenger. You know i was once in the mystic messenger fandom and I loved it but one thing i don't like is having my original characters being compared to other characters whether it's made from a popular otome game, anime or anything else. it makes me feel like i'm not creative. And it's upsetting cause i made these oc's 7 years ago. Wayyyy before the game was even a sparkle in the creators eyes... I don't mean to be so upset about it. I'm just tired that most comments are just about that. Not only with me but don't compare ANYONE'S oc's to another character. It will make the artist feel bad about their oc and make them not want to draw more, or make them feel as though they are uncreative..

[@user-yh3px8rg2q]

Chris Porter is this from a musical and if so what musical?

[@user-yh3px8rg2q]

Chris Porter oh nvm I just watched all the way till the end it was kewl I leik it💜

[@hypertension2963]

You can't expect to create characters with such simple designs, not saying your style is bad or anything along that it's just that your oc's don't have anything that makes them different from any other oc. A guy with curly short hair and a girl with long straight hair, nothing that makes them easy to identify just by looks. characters that have something special are easy to identify (scars, birthmarks, hair styles, etc..) just. giving my 2 cents

[@fellolance9354]

Chris Porter PREACH

[@hopem895]

i dont think its cool to bash his OCs he said hes had them for a long time. it doesnt matter if the design is simple or not. i personally loved watching this. next to normal is a fantastic musical and i think this does a good job of capturing the feelings in the song

[@Astralfox528]

Anyone els always feel something after “without a little lift a ballorina falls”? Just me? Something about it just hits too personal

[@tsukiboom9769]

"I don't feel anything." *hums in content* "Patient stable." .... that hits so hard in such a dark way. Messed up man but ain't it the truth nowadays.

[@andrea5833]

It's supposed to mean that she isnt getting any worse she's stable bc they now are able to start to improve the patient

[@ChrisPorterEggie]

ALL THE SONGS I WILL BE ANIMATING FOR NEXT TO NORMAL. 1. Who's Crazy/ My Psychoparmacologist and I 2. Make Up your Mind/ Catch me I'm Falling 3. There's a World 4. Aftershocks You may suggest some songs from that musical that you would like to see from me.

[@TheDimensionDweller]

Chris Porter I Am the One or its Reprise are both fantastic.

[@Fates_Hands]

Chris Porter I would love if you did one for super boy and the invisible girl. Pretty please.

[@rohanjohn1819]

Chris Porter You Don't Know/I Am the One... I'm Alive... I Miss the Mountains... Just Another Day...

[@Dinonuggiez420]

Chris Porter please do just another day. It's my favorite song and I feel that so many people have dysfunctional families and I feel that a lot of people, (myself included lol) would relate. Since u are so fuckin perfect at capturing resentment and fear, I feel like you would flawlessly animate it!

[@twistedbrasshorn]

aaaaa, it would be so cool if you animated wish i were here ♡

[@dabiggestsnail]

I love when you use your OC's in animatics!

[@ChrisPorterEggie]

Ahh thank you sm ;v;;;

[@waxwings4777]

Everyone is talking about the "Use may be fatal" line or the "Love is insane" one, but I'm over here like "What about 'It's truly like he told me, without a little lift, the ballerina falls' line???"

[@sophiagarner8495]

I love when I get introduced into a new musical via animatics

[@felix2617]

"These are a few of my favorite pills" SOUND OF MUSICCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCC No..? Just me..? Ok... it was kind of an old movie... I'll just... go...

[@thatonecommenter9845]

Nicole Rosewood actually, I thought of it too, kinda! I've only heard the song "My favorite things" but did link them together.

[@smoffe8610]

Nicole Rosewood I loved that movieeee

[@Virginny]

Yeah no shit sherlock. Everyone knows the sound of music.

[@paintingdragons1828]

Acculy the use of the sound of music demonstrates the perversion of these copeing mechanisms

[@chinchilla0708]

Sound of music is not that old. I've been told to see it since i was born and i'm 15 and people are still asking id i've seen it.

[@strawbaby4720]

I loved It! But I didn't understand why the psychofarmachologist said "patient stable" at the end

[@ChrisPorterEggie]

Because she is neutral. As long as she doesn't feel sad, it means the pills are working. But in some cases with pills it drains you and it's hard to feel anything. So your kinda just in a daze going through life. As long as your not in a state of depression it's good for them. So her having balanced feelings/none means shes on a clean slate. I hope that makes some sense ^^

[@strawbaby4720]

Ohh, I get it, thanks for explaining!

[@tabethafox1847]

good way of putting it. Hated those pills. its kinda a dance of dose too

[@Draconea77717]

The ending is sad but true... That can be how it is with psychologists and patients.. Patient is medicated, ends up not feeling like themselves or feeling nothing at all and the doctor declares them stabilized Meanwhile loved ones try their best to be supportive but can only watch as you become a hallow shell of your former self... Thank the gods my husband told me that when I took my meds I wasn't myself and we had my dosage lowered otherwise I would still be taking the same dose that made me feel well... Nothing

[@ChrisPorterEggie]

can ya'll not read or smth?? I have the title of the musical in the video and in the comment area once more THE MUSICAL NAME IS ( NEXT TO NORMAL)

[@katedraws4881]

sorry i am dyslexic.

[@bi_anca7554]

Chris Rangel THANK YOU😂😂

[@LilahENoir]

It gives me the chills, it makes me sick and terrified, especially that "I don't feel anything" - "Patient stable" and "me, I'm just tired"... yet I repeat it again and again and again...

[@N3XTREVOLUTION]

I remember when i used to feel things before my medication and my relationship was spectacular but now i dont feel a thing. I dont have any sexual desire or want for a relationship. I dont even care about being alone anymore.

[@spencerstuckel1866]

the "use may be fatal" part had me shaking

[@abbimohrman4186]

Is it bad that I'm obsessed?

[@lordoftheducks332]

Never

[@brookeodriscoll7448]

This animation paired with the song and ur style, is one of the best things I've ever seen!

[@elizahamilton3125]

Dear Evan Hansen, Be More Chill, Heathers, Hamilton, Waitress, Wicked, 21 Chump Street, In the Heights, Rent, Les Mis, Phantom of the Opera, Newsies, and now this?????? goddammit i love musicals

[@cristaltophat]

Diana: He knows my darkest secrets, and I know his. . .Name Me: woah this is getting pretty serious.

[@marinabradley8169]

At 1:40, the ballerina scene is gorgeous, very well done! Props to you, Chris Rangel.

[@moafighting1597]

Me after aging 2 years and taking 2 college pyschology classes: That end result is not ideal dude, we want the patient to still have feelings-

[@makkieolivares2199]

The thing is the leson in this song is that some pills can ruin your personality and the way you act so it it may help your anxiety but it can make you lose everything you have in life

[@virgilisanxiousvirgildraws5294]

the fact that feeling nothing is "good" is very much what society thinks is stable.

[@TILLYDOLLY]

The ending hit me on a personal level…. “ I I don’t feel anything…. I I feel numb’……. doc: “oh ok that means your stable things are working”….. OMG NO NO NO NO AAAHHHHHHH! ……. Standing ovation from me!

[@sanv3275]

I actually really appreciate the parts you removed, I fell like the song is more focused and stable that way, I love your animation, it nearly brings me to tears and takes my breath away each time....My mother has Manic bi Polar depression so this means a lot to me... thank you

[@aguedagonzalez2203]

I have bipolar depression as well....

[@aguedagonzalez2203]

it's really scary

[@kuroorchid2455]

what got removed??

[@silvazeking100]

@@kuroorchid2455 At around 3:16, in the official track, Diana says, "I now can't feel my fingers or my toes. I sweat profusely for no reason." This is then followed by the line about the lack of desire for sex.

[@tyreecorfe8052]

This video was awesome! My only critiques is how huge the inside of the car is at certain angles such as how far Poseidon is from the steering wheel at 0:45 as opposed to 4:28 where he can easily reach it, and then how he is sitting in the driver's seat, but then his positioning at 3:50. Overall this is probably one of my favourite animatics featuring great imagery and expression but I find just the positioning a little awkward. Awesome job!!!!

[@moafighting1597]

Me watching falsettos and going WHAT IS THAT SONG, I knew I had it on a playlist and bam I found it in under a minute!!!

[@arizarimariiquabner4441]

Too everyone who was here since the beginning and still listening during covid. I salute you my fellow soliders. Much love to the creator

[@emmameowzers]

this really reminds me of my parents my mom has severe depression and my dad has a personality disorder they won’t get a divorce cause they both think they’re too old and no one else will take them

[@CreepsMcGerald]

There's so much power behind this song that's so subtle. Almost like depression itself...

[@keirysbethmorales6259]

I love this so much i come back to it every time i remember it , also ignoring the husband’s feelings is ignoring the meaning of the song is sad but both people are being affected no one is completely selfless in a relationship

[@kuinoaaa5720]

OH MY GOD THIS IS MY FAVORITE ANIMATIC IVE EVER SEEN (and I’ve been around the block) CAUSE THIS SONG IS REALLY GOOD??? AND I KNOW THE STRUGGLE OF HAVING TO BALANCE MEDS WITH MENTAL CONDITION AND PHYSICAL CONDITION AND ITS SO SMOOTH AND WONDERFUL ANd honestly you’re art style is gorgeous some of the frames or small scenes were so captivating, like to ballerina one when she falls and the hair is super great and flowy. Absolutely awesome.

[@user-nb8tk6hh6x]

May cause the following side effects-EVERY DRUG COMMERCIAL! see if you can take our antidepressant that could make your depression worse

[@luckyclover6323]

wait you can tell by the tone of her voice and how she speaks lets you know when shes not being herself and when she is.I just found that interesting and im wondering how other people havent noticed that um-

[@abigailschroeder2104]

i have been looking for this all morning because it popped back into my mind and i SO BALDY wanted to hear it again

[@alisschretien1210]

how is it so relatable... it is exausting to always try new medicin, and the side effect are often so bad you kind of want to just stop taking any, in which case your state deteriorate... at least, for the illness i got. i feel so sorry for those around me... for having to coop with me and all this.

[@Luna-cp5rl]

This is incredible! I loved every second of it! So happy that you finished it :D

[@ChrisPorterEggie]

Thank you ~ Lol me too ^^

[@dusthusky4802]

This video reminds me of the darkest time in my life. I watched it all the the time back then and it helped me vent. thanks for making it

[@-simplicity7551]

"I dont feel anything" "Hm! Patient stable" ....😭

[@alicia-chankawaii8993]

This is just fucking sad, and the part when she says, "I don't feel anything" and then doctor says "Patient stable" i was like Bruh!? huh???!! how, the fuck how can she be stable?? like bruh!! BRUH!! but then again i see the comments sections where the are people talking of the reason why she said that, and i was like, oooh, now i get it, but hey, this animation was . . . MAGNIFICENT on point, amazing i love the characters i love the art, i love how my back gave me the chills of how freaking amazing was the animation and the song NAILED IT!!.

[@horses529]

There needs to be more Next to Normal animatics. This show is so amazing

[@killianbrooks170]

The fact that I'm either on or have been on the majority of the listed pills,is rather amusing - and I like the fact that they used actuall drug names for the song ^^

[@bbrattzzz]

*caresses the screen*

[@miyomaiyo1177]

This is one of the reasons why I don't want to reach out for help. All of those side effects, possibility of Psychiatrist being awful at their job, just everything about it seems scarier than living with Anxiety and Depression. I'd rather feel those than...nothing.

[@miyomaiyo1177]

Emmanuel Ramos I actually havent started with a psychiatrist. I almost did, but after they said they thought I might have schizophrenia, my mother said I didn't need one, even though I still obviously do. But I'll take that into note for if I ever do get one.

[@miyomaiyo1177]

Emmanuel Ramos I'll take that into note as well. My only ptoblem is that my mother wont even let me go to a different one. It's just...a bit confusing.

[@miyomaiyo1177]

Emmanuel Ramos No, in fact, she's studying to be a nurse so I couldnt see why she would be. I know some parents are against it, but my mom is fine with it. She even gets mad when my stepdad wont take his. So I really dont have a clue why she'd be against it, other than the fact that she might think I'm faking it. (She told the psychiatrist that I was "manifesting" it)

[@miyomaiyo1177]

Emmanuel Ramos Haha, yeah. It's just stuff I dont really understand. Maybe I'll get one if I move out. Or something happens. I dont know. But thanks for talking with me.

[@neverforgetpapa5386]

Miyo Maiyo a bit late in saying this but i've been on a bajillion different medications and i only started getting better after deciding to stop all of them. i guess it depends on the person. the withdrawals were awful but after feeling like i had control again my life improved a lot

[@hollisjo4023]

The song makes me so uneasy and sad, but somehow I've watched this brilliant masterpiece so many times. This piece feels so different from the rest of the soundtrack because it's so desperate and the waltzy, My Favorite Things feel is so eerie when you see how messed up the family is.

[@naomijohnson8068]

I just want to thank you for making this. As soon as the song started I had to know where it came from and now I've listened to the whole musical. You're art is so beautiful and keep up the amazing work.

[@tati172]

the ballerina falling, the side effects and the argument made me feel so shocked, you are an amazing artist and Ican't wait for more n2n videos!

[@leighlahenderson4886]

This is my first time seeing one of your videos and this is amazing

[@ChrisPorterEggie]

Omg Thank you sm

[@leighlahenderson4886]

Of course!!

[@Scrambled3GGZ]

Love Rose same!!! I loved it so much!

[@kiyaxl4111]

Same! It's sad that people have been comparing her OC's to Mystic Messenger characters though, Me being an artist myself knows that artists don't like it when people compare their original characters to other things or worse, say you stole it.

[@rainy9578]

Well done on finishing it Chris!! I really love it, the art is amazing as always so keep up the good work Chris

[@illyriamarsss]

love the line “valium is my favorite color”. wonderfully done art!

[@jiffy763]

Hi, this is an amazing work of art! Next to Normal has been my favorite musical for years and I am so glad you're helping it become more widely known. It totally deserves more attention and I think it's generally a very important show for anyone to watch. This was refreshing to see in the midst of all the heathers/hamilton animatics - great job!

[@_m.s6604]

No one is talking about how good this musical is tho. It's not as popular, so tbh I was surprised when I saw the 1.8m views, but good job dude

[@maliaalcantar8395]

Totally made my day!! I always love seeing your OCs in animatics 💙💙💙

[@shunn1703]

When she said that her husband was waiting in the car, I had realized I had forgotten about him.

[@bluelicious123]

I love this omg and thank you so much for giving me another musical to become obsessed with also I'm sorry people are comparing this to mystic messenger, I see the confusion but I know it's horrible when your original content gets called something completely different If it makes you feel better this is beautifully done and the characters are beautiful!

[@kathleensyme6757]

She feels sad because she can only go to her psycho-pharmacologist for emotional comfort. Her husband only thinks about when she was "young and brilliant and bold", but now that things are hard he wants to opt out. All he needs to do is listen to her more and she needs to understand how she's causing him pain and they can both have a happy marriage still. Sure she will still need her psychopharm--but damn they need couples counseling like for real.

[@savannahs.5874]

If you watch the musical youd understand it isn't anything like that. The husband just wants her to get better and to stop pretending their son is alive because its emotionally destroying both him and their alive daughter.

[@kograhemora7048]

That whole relationship between WHO IS CRAZY? It slams right the the feels every time. The animation covers a great balance (or rather intentional inbalance) between the two sides of that and really captures alot. Great work! (Imma go cry now)

[@Thesis_Rose]

I used to when this when this was new all the time. It was my favorite animatic I had watched. I have come back and was finally able to understand what this was talking about.

[@cegg2980]

ok so i just want to congratulate u on the AMAZING job u did. everything was so fluid and beautiful!!! i love your art style!! the ballerina falling and the side effects parts where my favorite, mostly because of the movement. great job ❤️❤️

[@audidrey6622]

I honestly loved 1:45 she looked so pretty what even💖

[@dr.peppersghost915]

Wow- This is one of the best animatics I've seen for a while! And I'll definitely have to give this song a listen again.

[@thelavenderbard]

HOLY SHIT I LOVE THIS SO MUCH! Honestly I wish this musical got more popular it's so important to me and I feel like it was just brushed off, to see art of it just makes my fucking day omg please keep it up!

[@piouswhiskey1549]

I have been prescribed ever one of those pills . I have never related more to something in my entire life .