Citizen Soldier - I'm Not Okay (Official Lyric Video)

[@CitizenSoldier]

Stream/Download 👉 citizensoldier.band/imnotokay Shop for merch 👉 citizensoldier.band/merch Talk to us on Instagram 👉 citizensoldier.band/instagram Follow us on TikTok 👉 citizensoldier.band/tiktok Follow Us on Twitch 👉 citizensoldier.band/twitch Please SHARE it with someone that needs to hear it.

[@unknownp1506]

I'm only 30 seconds in and I'm already trying to find the chords Edit: how do you guys make such relatable songs

[@sabarisalim4735]

Wow It's just wow... Like you penned down what many of us are trying to say ❤️

[@gnomio1362]

te amooo 🖤😭

[@xXnofsteruXx]

This band is straight up the soundtracks to my hard days. And they did it again. 5/5 without a shred of hesitation.

[@Luna_B_8]

Seem title as an another band's song, was it on purpose ? Anyway who cares ^^ once again you've done an amazing job with this song ^^

[@alexisn9615]

the fact that so many people can relate to this is so heartbreaking :(

[@CitizenSoldier]

We're all in this together 🖤

[@marloulaboc5561]

im one of those. 😟😟

[@tommyracicot]

@@marloulaboc5561 me too

[@smokey8865]

i have listen to this song and i just caught me off guard how accurate it is to my life

[@xceryxdemurstra6323]

@@smokey8865 first time I hear most of their songs they set me off because I relate to them that strongly. Some more then others. This one more then most.

[@anannya8348]

"The people who smile the brightest feel the deepest pain"

[@lill_sweets3271]

Send you a Hug...❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ

[@biri_o]

I smile a lot but not in pain. But I'm here for you@

[@jacobbritton4099]

Feel this a lot more then you know

[@anannya8348]

@@lill_sweets3271 thank you so much I really need it. Sorry for the late reply

[@anannya8348]

@@biri_o i guess we feel the same i'm also here for you anytime 🤗

[@floatingsky731]

"Saying insults to someone are as easy as throwing a stone in a lake, but you will never know how far that stone will sink"

[@CitizenSoldier]

We hear you

[@lill_sweets3271]

Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone... No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...

[@deadjack2317]

@@lill_sweets3271 heh, yea right

[@heathdetweilerRealtor]

It’s horrible how impactful words can be. And how easily they are carelessly throw out.

[@anonymousllama014]

Who/what is this quote from?

[@Eva23hope]

One of the worst feelings is gaining the courage to ask for help and for the person you trusted to give up on helping you.

[@antilagboostaddiction8322]

All to have them shut you down

[@SynobyteIdiotGamer]

that person wasn't who you thought

[@stonedgoddess420]

Yep. My best friend did that just cuz I got banned on snapchat. Now she won't even talk to me. I'm so lost.

[@krystalnguyen3285]

Do you want to share with me by chance? I don't mind listening

[@krystalnguyen3285]

@@stonedgoddess420 Do you want to talk to me? I'm here if you want to. 🌼

[@hyperdillusion6325]

The hardest thing about deppresion is when you know that people around you love you. It holds you back from leaving this world and let's you know you can never escape the cell your trapped in even though your holding the keys

[@kirstynhobbs4505]

But the longer U stay the more it hurts-

[@tmac.ogsrandocontent9771]

It's really difficult but I promise you you'll get there not going to bs you like most do and say itll go away cause it just wont it will come back. It's a life sentence but please remember nobody said that this life would be easy but I promise you it's worth it. I know the guilt you feel I feel it daily. But you are seen and understood by others. I just wanna come through my phone and give you a hug.

[@tmac.ogsrandocontent9771]

@@kirstynhobbs4505 yes but it's so worth it. Please read my reply it applied to you too. 🙂

[@kirstynhobbs4505]

@@tmac.ogsrandocontent9771 thank u for sayin that, I'm aware it won't just go away but it's destroying who I once was

[@crypticjoker5097]

truest shit ever.

[@mattyman051]

“Cause being who i really am has only left me more alone” DAMN IT

[@TK-uz4ts]

If you are struggling don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. Life is worth the pain we go through so stay strong. I wish you all the best

[@whatimsoconfuse]

@@TK-uz4ts my mom or dad wont let me get a therapist, while my friend today told me they are getting antidepressants and a therapist cause they scored high on the anxiety/depression quiz thing.

[@TK-uz4ts]

@@whatimsoconfuse If those arent options for you then I recommend reading the books "Mans search for meaning" as well as the "Power of now". They did more for me than anything else could

[@mattyman051]

I finally found someone who likes me for who i am, just so nobody worries or whatever

[@tempy8969]

Same,

[@NaniteYT]

"Being who i am, has only left me more alone" describes 100% of me.

[@ambermartin7535]

You are not alone, I'm the same way. A lot more people than anyone knows. Stay strong! ❤

[@N_boi978]

Same

[@01keyboard]

Who are you?

[@SpiritOfTheGalaxy143]

I get discriminated against, even by teachers, because I have mental disorders like autism, adhd, ocd and more. U even got shouted at for having a mental break down because my ear defender got broke by someone else for no reason. Fuck her and everyone else who hates me for no reason

[@javelldunn3379]

Same thing 😢💔

[@elocin4568]

It's like a hymn for all of us broken hearted 💔🥺

[@mauricecherry1209]

Another song that understands me more than my family

[@CitizenSoldier]

We hear you Maurice 🖤

[@toastmrtoast3413]

Same...

[@SCP-qe2ob]

Same

[@savagewolf23e49]

Felt hang in there ik its hard

[@mikeytankersley3916]

I hear ya...

[@lill_sweets3271]

Sometimes when I say "I am not Okay" I want someone to look me in the eyes, hug me tight, and say "I know your not."

[@CitizenSoldier]

We hear you 🖤

[@dbztranks6601]

I feel that

[@lill_sweets3271]

@@dbztranks6601Thank you...❤️I wish they would recognize...

[@mrsleeve325is]

@@lill_sweets3271. I really wish I had done that for someone not all that long ago, I just didnt know how to at the time..... Give them time if they truly care about you they will see it and realize it.

[@lill_sweets3271]

@@mrsleeve325is Thank You ❤️... I know that sometimes you don't know how to help these people and it's hard... I just wish... That they would say more then "ah okay" or "your Stupid"...

[@Simplxy_Absurd]

"you'll never understand how hard it is to say I'm not okay" Preach 😞🖐️

[@alexsimpson8042]

Yep no one really understands so I fell you

[@bradleyocampo9838]

I agree 💯💯💯

[@lorireed8046]

Yet ... when you tell them they mock you for being weak.

[@Moochi4]

Glad I'm not the only one I've been so numb and jadded and it's so hard to tell people I'm not okay because they say they understand but they truly dont

[@rachellstewart7029]

@@Moochi4 nope they pretend to understand but they are fake as hell....

[@shortysusagirabbitry5244]

“Because being who I really am, has only left me more alone.” That really sums it up

[@Packers217]

Same

[@bretthambly3570]

Same here

[@PLJ95.]

Yep, trusted sooo[ooooooooooooo😢 many times, it's like a beautiful dandelion that's actually GOOD , but keeps getting crushed, chopped, smashed , oh let's not forget the chemicals...but IF I trust...try to get up for LOVE , try to grow or shine, nope little dandelion....what or who would ever do this Peace Healing,Compassion , MERCY COME

[@PLJ95.]

I HUMBLY CRY OUT FOR PURE LOVE, can't Take much more, One hope ...I feel MORE LOST THAN EVER BEFORE 🕊🕊🕊🌻🌻💞, try to get up 23 yrs of fighting for LOVE, holding on to every precious memory where that LOVE won, broke through, past the pain. Gave me more than a sick bed , bathroom, repeat kinda pain Mercy please HEAL THE MILLIONS CRYING , I know YOU HEAR ME, and I'm not lying 😢

[@sebastiansanford7930]

You know what's funny? That this song understands feeling more than actual people do and this song doesn't make fun of you it talks to you and tries to help

[@adaman.shr.3538]

Why tell me please why why why WHY

[@k_Woodbeck1]

Yep

[@kidinferno9077]

Music, the one form of speech that understand people so world wide, without making fun of anyone or bringing them down to there knees making them ask why they should push on further, it takes them by the hand and pulls them up, because it has the understand of what we feel to be able to do so, Music is a very powerful thing.

[@ferretflashes1721]

It definitely does, it represents me on a daily basis yet all of my friends still believe me when I say that I'm fine even though I'm not. Literally the only difference between me and this song is that there is so much that I want to say but I A.) don't know where to start and B.) don't know how to put anything that I need to talk about/feel into words

[@theresesisson1183]

@@ferretflashes1721 me too I believe took room 2 set yup

[@lowcarbmom32]

When you can’t explain your emotions, music like this speaks it for you. The problem is, you’re the only one listening. 💔

[@epicknightgames9979]

Songs nobody else around you would understand. When I try to explain... I'm told it's just a phase. So yes I listen to them alone.

[@amelietaghon606]

Right!? I try by showing my friends lyrics that I relate to, or by singing songs to my parents that explain my feelings, I try to let them know what I'm going through. But all they ever say is: beautiful song or nice voice or idk, they don't look further than what they hear or see. They don't see that I'm crying to the lyrics of the song I sent them, they don't feel the knot in my stomach or the lump in my throat when I'm singing the words to an almost musical version of myself. They don't.

[@jordbarker6154]

Sorry but not true all the relatability you get from the song all that emotion that you feel when you listen that's all of us listening with you all you have to do is realise that the people around you don't understand but there is still a world full of people who do understand you just don't know them yet 😊

[@amelietaghon606]

@@jordbarker6154 awww that's like the sweetest thing. Thank you for saying this I really needed that 😍

[@Gothic_glowworm_purge]

I feel that

[@sayomi7131]

Sometimes it hurts to know that some songs understand you better than anyone else does.

[@TK-uz4ts]

If you are struggling don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. I wish you all the best

[@flaming-dragon6849]

I know just what you mean. My wife and I are so misunderstood by so many just because our disabilitys.

[@ianhughes982]

@@flaming-dragon6849 ❤

[@Sling1989]

Absolutely...

[@lazarmarinkovic8486]

@@flaming-dragon6849 Alt least you have one another to help each other weather the storm...

[@GRIM_REAPER420]

THIS SONG WAS ONE OF THE REASONS MY DAD GOT HELP AND NOW HE IS DOING MUCH BETTER THANK YOU Citizen soldier you have probably save my dad from himself

[@deoxisjani]

That's wonderful ❤

[@GRIM_REAPER420]

Thanks guys

[@sapphic-attack]

The lyrics, written out: Tonight the monsters in my head Are screaming so damn loud But I built walls so high So they never even make a sound It's a mask, it's a lie It's the only home I've ever known Cause being who I really am Has only left me more alone I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it The reason I keep quiet With so much at stake I always feel like a burden Let it silence me You'll never understand Why it's so hard to say I'm not okay I wish I had a scar Had a bruise on the surface Any kind of proof That everything I feel is more than Just some sad excuse My life's invisible abuse I'm either judged or have to hide The only symptom you can see Is I don't wanna be alive I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it The reason I keep quiet With so much at stake I always feel like a burden Let it silence me You'll never understand Why it's so hard to say I'll never have the words I can't explain this hell But what if it kills me If I keep it to myself To myself I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm never safe It's not a phase If I finally break Would you still stay Tonight the monsters in my head Are screaming so damn loud Another wonderful song from Citizen Soldier 🖤 If I made any mistakes with the lyrics, please let me know.

[@darlingcadieuxvachon9741]

The only mistake you made that I see is that you put ''out'' instead of ''of'' in ''Any kind of proof'' ! Otherwise, good job and thanks for the lyric !

[@sapphic-attack]

@@darlingcadieuxvachon9741 Thank you! Fixed that just now

[@karczochowa_rypka]

The only symptom you see ➡ the only symptom you CAN see ;) Still, great job buddy, thanks!

[@M-O-K-O-I]

Thanks for sharing

[@aidenplayz5926]

This is a lyric video! The lyrics are already on the screen.

[@shescountry0916]

This song speaks volumes. I spend all of my time pretending that I'm ok to everyone. In reality, I'm waging war within myself. My head is a very dark, dangerous and scary place to be. I don't want to talk to anyone about it, because I don't want to burden others with my problems. Why? They have their own to worry about. 🖤

[@unknownspaceworld]

Hey it's okay to open up we all do at some point it understandable that people have there own problems but some people will help

[@CitizenSoldier]

We hear you 🖤

[@shadowhawk4164]

I know how you feel M A, trust me you are not alone, I guess that is why we love music so much, because it explains what we cannot say out loud, it knows us more than the people we have spent our whole lives with, it seems to know exactly how we feel, it explains what we cannot and music has literally saved people’s lives, music is everything and I don’t think humanity would have survived this long without it, music is so much more than sound, so much more, sorry if that didn’t make sense, I have not slept yet

[@WilliamKister]

I think if we were all honest with each other, we would all find out we all have a lot in common.

[@MemeLord42]

Same but I usually listen to heavier music so I can’t hear my own thoughts

[@s_o_l_t_y8389]

Just remember if you're sitting here listening to this I'm proud of you. You made it 100% through your bad days so far. You got this I know you do. Just take care of yourself and believe you can. I love you even if you are a stranger.

[@CitizenSoldier]

I appreciate that! 🖤

[@Stitch8199donemilio]

You know... these kind of comments are the ones saving lifes, thankyou so much for doing this.

[@s_o_l_t_y8389]

@@Stitch8199donemilio I try to do the best I can to help

[@oliviafronkova5678]

Thank you so much

[@gamedayplays7894]

i love you too

[@DestineyMcCullough-]

“Being who I am has only left me more alone” has never felt more true. People say to be yourself and genuine but anytime you are you get judged for it

[@kellycabral10]

And this is where the saying comes in handy In order to grow, we must put ourselves in uncomfortable situations. And sometimes that means losing a lot of people even family But trust me when I say it's all worth it in the end. Being yourself is all that matters living to impress other people. It's not a life at all and that something people need to learn really fast. I'm a 36 year old woman who literally has had no family, so I know the feeling and I. M trying to figure out how to raise my kids and not fuck them up the way my family messed me up so so much. The best decision I could have ever made was walk away from family and be true to myself. And this is the happiest I've ever been. I pray that everyone gets the courage to not be afraid to be who they really are. Because we only get one life, so live it for yourself. Not for others. There's no point in keeping other people's peace. When you're at peace is not kept you come first❤

[@chevyguy1128]

I know how you feel I feel worthless not good enough I just want to be happy

[@KushenFrosty]

Has someone with a lot of mental health problem and beinf appart of the furry community i just can't say anything anymore i always get judged for no reason and its annoying i just want to be happy but if you say anything "weird" you get hated by a lot of people

[@kentwaters5903]

Or laughed

[@kentwaters5903]

How to start the conversation if you want to come out and need help P

[@dylansanders115]

People that make music like this should be known as heroes

[@aubriemckenzie7112]

100%

[@hannahbuscher6832]

Yes

[@Aryae_Sakura]

These guys are Heroes to me. And they probably will never know the full extent of their amazing work they do.

[@chocoholicBella]

I completely agree

[@B3autiful_killa]

Yes

[@Njcellgeek]

“I always feel like a burden. Let it silence me.” Yes. Exactly. 😢

[@shadowjolteon4201]

😢

[@HaileyHernandeZ-d4n]

Same

[@rommedina2945]

Same

[@SynobyteIdiotGamer]

whyndo you think this way?????

[@JoeyandCamo]

😢

[@theperson1852]

"cause being who I really am, has only left me more alone" Those lyrics meant a lot because I cant be myself were I live, because I have to pretend to be what I am not.

[@CitizenSoldier]

We hear you 🖤

[@25-niluhmadea.g13]

Same here.. i have to change my real self.. and now i dont know who is tge real me..

[@klunoxall7164]

Same here.. I know how you feel Where I live, literally everything I am feels like a sin If people knew I am a pansexual furry- I would get beaten up or worse.. So I understand how you feel But you gotta keep fighting and don't give up alright? One day you'll get away to a better place with people who will accept you 💚

[@emilykershey1706]

Same here and it's truly painful. All I hope for is to someday soon be somewhere where I'm free to be me without the fear of my family judging me over any little thing I say or do that is against their wants out of me.

[@CrxmsonLxe]

I have to deal with that to😞

[@85DJGHOST]

Feeling this song I cried for the first times in so many years. I can't take this anymore like I really can't. I just want to end it every single second of every single day

[@Salty_Goose]

If you're reading this that means you're still here. Come back tomorrow and the next day and the next because everytime you do that's just another day you survived when you thought you wouldn't. Keep your head up and fight back :)

[@CitizenSoldier]

True! 🖤

[@AkizatheNacho]

Counting the days i'm coming Back to this song/comment: 1

[@TeeJayVR26]

Thank you ❤

[@Salty_Goose]

@@AkizatheNacho you got this!

[@Salty_Goose]

@@TeeJayVR26 You're welcome!

[@ElysianAngel]

I dont want to be one of those people but I've never been here this early... I so far love how it sounds.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks! 🖤

[@ElysianAngel]

Yep. Definitely love this song. *(Promptly adds to music library)*

[@darlingcadieuxvachon9741]

I'm happy to see that you understand this. I'm only 16 years old and my parents doesn't even care about how I feel and I'm protected by a children protection thing... (Called dpj here. I'm in Quebec) Even those doesn't understand and try to help me, instead they put me in a psychiatric hospital for only being sad and being not able to go to school (I had the disease of always being tired). I'm still traumatized. And now my parents treat my like a burden. I always have to wear a mask because if I don't, they'll kill me even more. I hope to everyone not to feel this way, because this is awful and I've never felt this low before.

[@bluem.artemis159]

@@darlingcadieuxvachon9741 i really sorry, i even don't know what to say, you don't deserve feel like this, i hope you find a moment to heal.

[@AtlasMays]

@@darlingcadieuxvachon9741 did you have narcolepsy? That's a Hell of a thing to have at 16. Best of luck

[@Mat-he7mb]

The hardest part of depression for me is always wearing a mask. Always saying I'm okay when inside I'm broken. Always fighting for my life only because I don't want to hurt the ones I love. Anyone who knows this feeling just know you are not alone. If you need someone to talk to I'm here with you. Seriously just reach out.

[@TK-uz4ts]

If you are struggling don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. I wish you all the best

[@melainehutchens738]

i feel broken all the time since my grandpa passed away in 2014 and i keep tell people im ok but im really not ok i feel so broken he was like a dad figure my actaul dad wasnt there for me at all

[@aletcloete6910]

I agree

[@heathblack5014]

Hey mate my name's heath I'm going through a lot of shit atm if I was to get a reply that would be greatly appreciated

[@hillarybetzler860]

@@melainehutchens738 I know exactly how you feel. My grandpa was my father figure all my life cuz neither of my parents were around. He passed in 2012 and 2 days ago was the anniversary of his death. I will never forget that night and honestly I havent been ok since. But I hide it as best as I can so my grandma can move on and not worry about me...

[@Austin_BlueNight_official]

Music speaks louder feelings than normal words could ever express

[@ZukiEditz]

Came home from school a few hours ago and now I'm sitting here, crying like an idiot....I once wanted to say "I'm not okay." but I knew it would get ignored. So, I kept my demons deep inside myself and it's breaking me now....I'm definitely not okay. I don't want to live anymore but your music is one of those things which save me from the darkness inside of me. I keep going. Even if I don't want to....the reason is this one person out there who needs me. She told me that if I would attempt suicide, she will follow me. We're like sisters even tho we aren't sisters in real life. And I'm so glad to know her

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks for sharing this. Appreciate you! 🖤

[@neonhaze3725]

It's people like those that shine their light on us when we're covered in darkness. Keep those people close and they'll help you through the hardest and darkest times

[@whydoineeddis8988]

Hey pika I'm here if you ever want to talk

[@Anonymous-eg3wk]

I know almost exactly how you feel except nobody has ever seen my pain. I have always been seen as the one everyone can rely on when they need someone to pick up the slack and it sucks. I am so happy that you have found someone to help you keep going.

[@whydoineeddis8988]

@@Anonymous-eg3wk hey, I'm also here if you ever want to talk :)

[@axioswolf3821]

I hear so many say that if you suffer from depression, reach out to someone because we want to help. They don't understand that depression makes it almost impossible to say something...for many reasons. That's why I always encourage people to reach out to anyone that you think may be suffering...you don't have to reach out and directly ask them about depression. Just talk to their heart, their true feelings. Earn their trust...eventually you may make it easier for them to tell you what's really going on. But most of all, you will be a friend to someone who really needs one.

[@dawnsamv870]

I turn people away because I never want to hurt them, I don’t want other to feel like it’s their problem to solve.

[@danpetrica7435]

True ,but it's hard to open to someone

[@karmaxis]

Such a good point. You clearly understand depression, unlike most people in this world

[@christinasavoie8582]

It's true that some people need a support system. Though sometimes it's easier for a person to deal with their problems on their own. I needed to deal with things at my own pace , and figure out how to battle everything that was going on inside my head. I hated everyone around me, and didn't want them around me. I couldn't trust anybody. I did everything in my power to get better. I did have people reach out to me, but I told them I needed my space because they couldn't help me with what I was going through. They said they understood and gave me space. Which was the best thing they could do for me; understanding that I needed to be alone for however long it took. It took a really long time. But I'm feeling so great now. It feel amazing not feeling like a big heavy demonic boulder is clinging to me. It was amazing how light I felt and how easy it was to breathe when it was gone. Such a strange sensation. I'm still dealing with some things ,but I'm moving forward using everything I learned to not make the same mistakes. Going through everything I did opened my eyes to changes I needed to make with myself and showed me who I could rely on and who actually cared that I was living and breathing. Those people accept me for everything I am. I don't have to hide anything from them. I was being so difficult but they still stood by me. I've learned: *Not everyone is your friend. *Trust your gut. (my gut was right about a lot of things, but I didn't trust it, thinking I was mistaken.) *Be open about how you really feel/Speak up (I always smiled and pretended like I was okay because I didn't want to cause problems. I also felt like I wasn't allowed to be sad or mad about things. Because of this everyone thought I was so happy-go-lucky all the time. So my melt-down was shocking to them.) *Don't be yourself around people you aren't close with. *Even your own blood can be heartless towards you. *Only do for others that you know will do the same for you. *Stand your ground *If you can't vent to someone, then write out everything in a notebook or type it out. (I was skeptical. But I tried it out on the notepad app on my laptop to type out something I was frustrated about. And it really helped get it off my chest without me yammering someone's head off. Sometimes telling someone stressful stuff, can get them stressed out as well. So being able to write it down or type it out is a great option for some people.) *Think things through

[@trinistar8]

This comment made tears full my eyes. As a person who suffers from anxiety and depression, I like to reach out to another who also deal with it. And with the best of my abilities talk, laugh even cry with them. And let them know they are not alone. That’s all we need.. Someone who understands

[@EyeTea]

The lyrics being the inspiration, You should Never be ashamed of who you are. People criticize you because they only see the “bad” in you while neglecting your qualities. The problem isn’t you; it’s them who can’t see you for who you are. Embrace yourself, you’re worth it.

[@CitizenSoldier]

This 🖤

[@AllThingsConsidered333]

💔❤️💔❤️

[@kentwaters5903]

Taking time to listen is an act of love

[@nataliedaley03]

I will forever be the one that says "I'm OK.." with tears in my eyes. This song touched me tonight!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks for listening Natalie 🖤

[@W4nt3D95]

Dont be like me, don't lie to anyone saying you're OK when you're not. I know I'll get through this, but if you think you need to, find someone to talk to, anyone it could be

[@natasharichards2048]

It's ok to not be ok. It hurts to admit, more than anything, but it can really help. Humans are social creatures, sometimes you just need to cry on someone's shoulder.

[@micheleparker4712]

You look just like my sister

[@jessetuominen9551]

Crying makes you strong 💪🏻

[@lillijacobsen7214]

I was on the brink of commiting suicide when I heard this song.. I felt safe I felt like I was heard in a way that even my family won't take time to listen. All they say is its just a act and I don't really feel that way. So I stopped talking to them about my problems. Thank you for making me feel understood 💔❤️

[@lill_sweets3271]

Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone... No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are... You've been hurt, but you're alive. Think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive, to breath, to think, to enjoy, and to chase the things you love. Sometimes there is sadness in our journey, but there is also a lot of beauty. We must keep putting on Foot in front of the other even when we hurt, for we will never know what is waiting for us just around the bend... ❤️💫

[@ajs6488]

Thank you lovely. I'll start doing the same. Worthless to talk emotions or feelings to someone that is cold hearted.

[@justchillin7552]

You ok I’m here if you need me I’ve been through a lot I’m still here my goal is to help people understand our feelings and if they put off what we say about suicide and depression only they make us feel like no one cares about us

[@jasonlacefield2649]

man im sorry that people are like that no one wants to actually make sure the people around them are actually okay anymore i wouldnt say i was close to suicide but my brother basically did the same to me just dont give up on them because they gave up on you too many folks are already doing that i hope youre alright now and live peacefully too all

[@annepaxton3907]

I understand that feeling I have been there so many times

[@chrisswanson9430]

"When words fails, Music speaks." ~ An old poster I used to have above my bed. This is why I love you guys so damn much. I've lived in ignorance of the all problems plaguing for so long I forgot how to really explain and get them off my chest. I stopped seeing my therapist simply because I can't articulate what was going on inside my head. And yet somehow whenever I hear one of your songs, I can point to it and say 'This! This is what I'm feeling.' The lyrics always find a way to untangle the mess of negative thoughts and give me clarity as to what is causing my suffering.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate those words Chris! 🖤

[@nbtasnim3298]

I feel you.... Because I honestly feel the same. People say "Eyes are the gateway to one's soul" but I think it's the music that is. The music I usually like or listen to relates to me one way or another - perhaps my thoughts or my past or my feelings... Anything even if the tiniest bit.

[@Xaforn]

I hear you. Have you ever tried the MTBI personality test? It can be a life changer, it was for me. Learning how I think and process was a huge step into being able to communicate what I had inside. But yes, these songs are a great weave of threads and words.

[@mariellaeck5698]

Incredible song, the lines are exactly what I feel right now... beautiful..

[@eduardoangelico717]

I'm feel exactly the same as you, and all of who really feel this music

[@geoffreyhamilton6484]

I lost my wife of 16 years recently. Today was the first time hearing this song. This song resonates with me in a way no song ever has before, to say it touched my soul would be an understatement.

[@whitneybalmes7993]

I am so truly sorry to hear about your loss and I can clearly hear your pain. I too lost my spouse after many years.. However, I brought that loss onto myself after almost twenty years of marriage to a very loving, thoughtful and very patient man. Because of my inability to cope appropriately with the suicide of my father, I sought solace in all the wrong places with all the wrong people and self medicated myself right into a divorce and mental and physical health issues that would take years to resolve. A divorce I very unfortunately deserved and even more, regretfully have had to accept and learn to live with. I not only betrayed, disrespected and hurt very badly and deeply my best friend, but also my (at that time) two beautiful teenage sons. Even after the divorce he continued to show concern for my well-being and helped me in times of need for several years. He stuck around so much longer than any other man I'm sure would have. Anyone else would have kicked me to the curb long before he finally turned his back. He has since remarried. Many years have gone past now and my life has been restored both mentally and physically. Miraculously and by the grace of God, I now have a loving relationship with my son's and have been forgiven. It has been a very lengthy, tough, emotional and at times unbearable road to recover my life and lost relationships. With time, as with myself you will grow stronger and with that, you will have the strength to accept what once was is now gone and the beautiful memories and time you shared together will always remain with you. You are and will remain always a part of one another and nothing will ever take that from you. I pray God will give you peace over your sadness and give you strength to move forward without the need to have answers for why and give you comfort during those quiet times of feeling lost and lonely. I pray He makes Himself and His loving presence known and imprisons any thoughts of doubt or fear you may have, reminding you that you are never alone. Our circumstances are clearly very different and for very different reasons but, having said that it's important to acknowledge that experiencing loss for whatever reason is extremely painful for everyone. I have accepted my loss and understand I am ultimately accountable. But I am able to find reasons each day to live life and move forward. I tell myself, I would much rather have had a moment of beauty than a lifetime of nothingness alone. My prayer is that you are able to do the same. For you are enough and you are worthy of a beautiful life. God bless you.

[@nicoleb7056]

I'm sorry for your loss... My husband I would of been married for 14 years April 17... But I can't do this anymore. I'm drinking now to become numb and finish it all.

[@Bob-pj6tz]

Losing my hub of 41 yrs is not ok .time is making things worse I just miss him more he told me he never met anyone as strong as me.but I used it up.i just didn't know####

[@smokin91x]

I'm a soldier. I've deployed enough that my time out of country equals my second daughters age. This song is literally my brain daily.

[@lill_sweets3271]

Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ...

[@marleysankor]

Thank~YOU for your service!! #IAppreciateYou 💗

[@davidgibson6364]

Thank you so much for your service you are not forgotten and may God bless you

[@curtisanderson1949]

Thank You so much Brother for Sacraficing All You have for me collective i can't speak of but personally i can 💪💪🇺🇲🇺🇲🇺🇲🇺🇲💪🙏🙏🙏

[@erichorridge6666]

Thank you brother for your service for ex service man 🇬🇧🇬🇧🇺🇲🇺🇲

[@kennethmccormick902]

That first "I always feel like a burden let it silence me" always gets me...

[@lill_sweets3271]

Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone... No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are... You've been hurt, but you're alive. Think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive, to breath, to think, to enjoy, and to chase the things you love. Sometimes there is sadness in our journey, but there is also a lot of beauty. We must keep putting on Foot in front of the other even when we hurt, for we will never know what is waiting for us just around the bend... ❤️💫

[@ulty1472]

Same here

[@lorireed8046]

@@lill_sweets3271 Yeah like Mother Moses that waited till she was 80 years old till someone saw her worth. As MOST of us won't make it past 60. Ugh.

[@the11boom]

Me yesterday to my dad "I'm sorry" Me "Why?" Him "For being a burden." Me

[@lorireed8046]

@@the11boom What did he say back?

[@jakebello7988]

"The only symptom you can see is I don't wanna be alive." HOLY FUCK CITIZEN SOLDIER YOU'RE GONNA BRING ME TO TEARS

[@snowflakecanary5933]

Ikr

[@x-kaylaunited]

Yeah 👏👍

[@xy_pheria]

"It is what it is" Until it can't be just as it is anymore..

[@VikingHorseCreations]

So many people seem to go through the same darkness and have dark days. So why are we still judged by the society, even though we're so many? I never understood that. Why is it bad to be simply human, to feel pain, anger and sadness? Every emotion is valid. Why don't we reach out for each other and go together? If no one had to fight alone, the pain doesn't get too hard go near maybe... But instead they think you want attention and are just dramatic...

[@CitizenSoldier]

You’re not alone friend. Much love to you 🖤🙏🏻

[@hikariyamini6157]

It's not the same darkness but others think it is they think that our darkness is the same down hill short termed struggles they've gone through and judge us based on their own experiences...

[@xceryxdemurstra6323]

@@hikariyamini6157 exactly. They don't see the true depth of the darkness and pain that so many do suffer through... They see it as just a phase you'll grow out of. But true depression. Is not a phase and not something you will EVER "grow out of". It's something that will make every single day a fight just to wake up and get out of bed in the morning. It gnaws at your mind and spirit and beats you down so far you feel like you'll never be able to get up again...

[@apostolachecosmin7175]

@@xceryxdemurstra6323 truth is you're never gonna grow out of it, it's gonna get more and more dark, I'm 24 by now and each day is getting more and more dark.

[@luciferpetrenkoff5040]

My issue was I lived with my mom and any time I let the mask slip to tell people how I was feeling I just got told to quit talking stupid and quit acting like a girl, so I just shut down and didnt let anyone in at all and just kept burying my darkness on top of each other

[@enter2175]

*" you'll never understand why it's so hard to say"* I love it

[@user-nc5pe3dw2i]

Im 23 and I feel like a child when I say this but your music helps me cope so well. I put on your music and cry my eyes and just scream away the pain with your lyrics and its what keeps me going every day. Thank you for existing the whole world needs to hear you

[@lill_sweets3271]

Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone... No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...

[@jaylah0193]

Dont feel like a child. I'm 25 and honestly I do the same thing. It's not childish in any way.

[@brittanyparks8242]

There is nothing childish about music that speaks to your heart and soul, especially with a topic as deep as this.

[@harperusyt420]

bro im 30 and i cry myself to sleep still

[@brittanyparks8242]

@Shane Harper we do that when we have too much pain and no way to release it. 😃 I've done that more than I care to recall, sometimes for hours.

[@Travis00q86]

Last week, I drove to my parents' house in the middle of the night. I knocked on the door, my mom opened the door to let me in, and the first thing I said after sitting down was: “Mom, Dad, I'm not ok.” But as soon as I said that, I immediately regretted it. I laughed it off and said, “Oh, I was just messing with you.” Do you know what they did? They laughed too and didn't think much about it. Which made me feel more miserable and worse than I had when I was driving to their house that night. I actually had a lot of things I wanted to talk to them about, but didn't have enough courage, and they didn't pay attention or give it a second thought anyway. So why even bother? On top of all this, now I have to deal with the disappointment. I truly feel really let down and disappointed. What a pity.

[@linkybearable]

Hey. I am sorry u went through this. If I could make contact with u privately I would so that u know u always have a friend to talk to. Stay strong. Thinking of u

[@AssiaBalde]

U should have tried to open up to them.its not easy at all but me am not ok i do listen at m'y favourite songs .or just text to m'y best freind,when i Say am not ok she IS around even if i dont have thé courage to share but she Always makes me feel better at thé end with her love and care

[@AssiaBalde]

If one day u need to talk dont hesitate i also went throught allott.

[@shawnbaker8821]

Wish I had someone to even attempt to talk to

[@dawnbellows7642]

I don't know you but I'm a mom. If you need to talk reach out to me. I'm here day ight. I'll pick up the phone, FaceTime etc. Don't feel like nobody cares please. I truly mean it ❤❤

[@nic288]

loved the "I'm not okay" in different languages at the end! the song, like any of yours, really makes me feel understood and not alone. thank you all so much!

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate you Nic! Thanks for listening 🖤

[@AshTheLampshade]

"I always feel like a burden, let it silence me" Damn, I felt that that one hit my core. I love this song so much; it's composed beautifully, and gives me the courage to speak up about my doubts, fears, and anxieties, it helps me get help, and I love it, and I love Citizen Soldier for this song, as well as all of the other songs they've made

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks for listening! 🖤

[@Maddyvlogs_]

“You’ll never understand how hard it is to say….I’m not okay”🥺

[@Vanist_Meira]

I was just scrolling music in a very dark place. But the moment I found this I just stopped, listened, and cried... Never has a song so perfectly captured all the things I feel I can't say out loud...

[@youareenoughngp]

I'm proud of your strength! ❤

[@kaisserfurchten4213]

I know I'm just a kid...only 15 years of age..but I have a story to tell Look at the sky, see those stars?.. they represent us humans, they shine so bright they don't care about what other stars say nor how brighter other stars are shining, they stay brightest to thier fullest potential, much like them we can shine as bright as then but we let society hold use down. Be like the stars and shine as bright as your can, till you very last moment Never be afraid of failure..be afraid of not learning "From my lungs through the dark, spoken straight from the heart" -citizen soldier

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate you Kaisser 🖤 Stay strong friend

[@Goofytitan69]

This is very inspirational

[@mikemateika3071]

Age is irrelevant!! My thoughts for you are make your thoughts known. Also live for yourself.

[@dr.doomengloomin6757]

Age has no bearing on the suffering of the soul, my friend. Just take a deep breath or two and stay in the present. I am still here, I do not understand why or how, but I am. The Japanese I think it is, have a saying, get knocked down 7 times, stand up 8. In life one thing is for certain, you are going to get knocked down, we all do, it is the hard knocks school of life. But each time to stand up one more time, you grow stronger. Just remember, no matter how dark the storm may be, This too shall pass. I am rooting for you, I know you can find a way. Life still has a lot to offer.

[@theotherguy21]

You wanna talk ? I'll post my snap of insta

[@irlfiore]

Was looking for "I'm not okay" by My Chemical Romance. Came across this instead... lets just say I'm not disappointed

[@CitizenSoldier]

Glad to hear that 🖤

[@anastasiagause1633]

Same here and im so glad i found them. I wish everyday i didnt relate to this song as much as i do.

[@donaldmashburn1039]

@@CitizenSoldier I've heard of you but never listened. So glad I took the time to hear your words. Keep it up you will help more people than you know.

[@IcyLapis]

Same

[@Ruelle_100]

Yea they never make a bad music - not gonna lie i love all of their songs

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thank you so much 🖤

[@theflamingrock3295]

Same

[@derpytard455usgenuine6]

My question is, how?

[@SpecialInterestShow]

Ikr? I think it's because they take such care to make their songs so meaningful

[@Cuteemogirl94]

Because they have so much to say

[@tanmaysati7428]

Anyone in 2024? Masterpiece ❤

[@ashleychapman8656]

I know im not okay i just want to end my life as i write this feeling unwanted and unloved and like i be better off dead

[@Olly328]

​@@ashleychapman8656 Actually, I love you, so that's not true. 💖💖💖

[@cliffcrowder4245]

Me

[@Neon-zq5of]

If anyone ever needed to feel understood all they need to do is come to you guys and everyone else who's here. These songs really have changed things for me so thank you. All your guy's songs have such power and meaning behind them but I think this one is the strongest yet.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate those words! 🖤

[@Lena-wx7hs]

Found them yesterday and already noticed the community here is absolutely great. 😉 You can be proud, Citizen Soldier! 🖤

[@funwolfieGamerz1111]

Hey. Hey, you. Yes, you. You're the one reading this, aren't you? Well, let me tell you something. You need to know. DON'T SCROLL, please.. I know, I know I'm a stranger here on the internet. But, I guarantee you, you need to hear this. Are you in a dark place? You aren't alone. We all were there, y'know. Feeling Suicidal? Please don't. I think you matter. Even if I don't know you, I still think you matter. You are the best stranger I've met. So, do something for me real quick. It's quick, I promise. Drink some water. WAIT! DON'T WIPE THE WATER OFF YOUR LIPS YET! Look, see how they shine? See how they twinkle and glimmer? it's like you. Even in the tiniest bit of light, you shine. If you want to take your life, think about something. Out of the 7 billion+ people on this earth.. Someone out there, they think you're perfect. They love you, so much. Imagine how much you'd hurt them if you left.. even if it seems unlikely, I can assure you. Someone out there, they love you. So keep fighting. You'll win, no matter how hard it is. "Fight the storm to see the rainbow". Remember that, okay? Good, I love you. Stay safe, handsome/beautiful :)

[@mklai3664]

This is one of the most amazing comments I've read. Thank you for this, I needed it

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks for sharing this 🖤

[@alinailie1472]

Thank you :')

[@emilie.louise.chandler8852]

Thank you I needed today xx

[@Kayla-bi7lv]

Please don't ever delete this comment. Because, I really needed this right now, in this moment. I'm going to have to keep coming back to this comment because it is the only thing good right now

[@angele6462]

Damn my KZbin recommendations knows how I feel better than all the people around me ...

[@celestemariefuchs2177]

why is this so true

[@madelinenewell4848]

Fr tho

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks for listening 🖤

[@rileyhudson8963]

Same

[@Andreyenne]

@@CitizenSoldier hii can you make a song For me and my girlfriend... If you like...'

[@elgatomoscato230]

I dunno if this will help anyone, but I'm 31 now and I've dealt with a lot of betrayals from friends and family, realized in my time of crisis that I couldn't count on anyone but me. A long time I wanted peoples support and never got more than a few breadcrumbs to string me along, to convince myself that they cared about me. What I've learned is that its ok, to not be ok, to sit with your grief and really feel it until you understand where it comes from and how it affects you. I learned that the pain comes from wanting connection and never receiving it, despite your efforts of reaching out or taking the initiative of your relationships. It happens and it hurts a lot. No matter the kind of loss you've taken, remember to love yourself above all, that things happen to you but they don't define who you are. That everything is temporary in life, so too is the pain and loss. Stay strong and we'll make it through this storm together

[@______20yearsago77]

Out of all the your songs that I have heard, this should be the one that I can relate to the most. The lyrics are just on point. I really want to tell my friends and family about my problems, but I know they won't understand. I want to be honest when they ask "are you ok?" but I know very well how they'll act. I tried once... it didn't end well. Since then, I didn't dare to tell them that I'm not okay again again. Thankfully I found Citizen Soldiers, and this community. Thank you for sharing these songs. It's one of the things that keeps me going. 😊❤️

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks for sharing this with us and for your support! 🖤

[@nikolaseleftheriou1835]

You are loved by us friend. Share your story everyone has one. We always listen. We always read

[@urfaceburn9969]

I understand this all too well

[@thescripting5036]

@@urfaceburn9969 Same I was about to say the same. Exactly how I feel

[@anghuimin7911]

Lyrics : Tonight the monsters in my head Are screaming so damn loud But I built walls so high So they never even make a sound It's a mask it's a lie It's the only home I've ever known 'Cause being who I really am Has only left me more alone I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it The reason I keep quiet With so much at stake I always feel like a burden Let it silence me You'll never understand Why it's so hard to say I'm not okay I wish I had a scar Had a bruise on the surface any kind of proof That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse My life's invisible abuse I'm either judged or have to hide The only symptom you can see Is I don't wanna be alive I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it The reason I keep quiet With so much at stake I always feel like a burden Let it silence me You'll never understand Why it's so hard to say I'll never have the words, I can't explain this hell But what if it kills me If I keep it to myself To myself I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it I am not okay I am not okay I'm never safe It's not a phase If I finally break Would you still stay? Tonight the monsters in my head Are screaming so damn loud :)

[@areallymessedupdude]

Thank you!!! Very much!!!

[@seven8048]

this is a lyric video though 💀

[@adi4032]

Water is wet

[@stupidboyninap6267]

@@seven8048 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

[@shyedacio6842]

@@seven8048 some people prefer it when it's written like this, and it's easier to memorize:)

[@chasers556]

Citizen soldier is one of the few bands I know that not only truly cares about people with relatable songs, but also that reaches out to all of their fans. I commented and within minutes they said thanks. It is amazing. Lets show them some love just like they do for us!

[@CitizenSoldier]

We do our best. We're a family 🖤

[@Nocteul]

@@CitizenSoldier And this is why you guys are my favourite band

[@SQYRL]

As I have been diagnosed as Bipolar, boy does this song ever hit home! I am crying inside for help while my mouth spews mean and hurtful things at the ones I love!!!! This is a living hell!!!! Thank you for a song that helps to explain this mess

[@MikaSL53]

My brother is Bipolar. I don't wish it on anyone. I hope that you're getting the help you need. Please don't give up if the medication(s) you're given don't work the way they should. If they make you feel drugged & unable to focus, tell them they need to try something different. I watched my brother struggle for so many years. He hated how the meds made him feel, so he'd stop. Unmedicated, he could be so scary and angry. It's difficult to look beyond that to the person inside that you know & love, but we did it. Those hurtful things you spew are not you. Don't give up. Keep trying. It took several tries for them to find the right meds that worked well for my brother. Bipolar, like many things, isn't a "one size fits all" type of illness. There is a brighter side, and I hope with all my heart that you're able to get there soon.

[@--Bo--]

"I wish I had a scar, had a bruise, on the surface any kind of proof that everything that I feel is more than some sad excuse" I'm littered with scars so why does it still not feel like its enough. No matter how bad it gets why does it still feel like I could be lying to everyone, maybe I'm playing it up and it's not that bad. What if I'm fakeing and don't realise. I'm not. My diagnosis and hours of therapy prove that so why does it still feel like I'm fooling myself.

[@lill_sweets3271]

Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone... No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are... You've been hurt, but you're alive. Think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive, to breath, to think, to enjoy, and to chase the things you love. Sometimes there is sadness in our journey, but there is also a lot of beauty. We must keep putting on Foot in front of the other even when we hurt, for we will never know what is waiting for us just around the bend... ❤️💫

[@miz.beehaven5570]

Me too. I have so many outside scars, from a head on collusion driving accident which killed my mother. I have multiple scars from that night, from top to bottom!! Bit they are nothing compares to the scars I have inside myself!! I've been told I have survivors guilt and PTSD!! Also been told to embrace my scars as they show I went thru something and survived, but when I see them, I only see that she didnt!!

[@sirenict7647]

Its all part of it. Part of the illness is your mind making you feel not strong enough. YOU ARE. DON'T LISTEN TO YOURSELF AND OTHERS WHO DON'T UNDERSTAND!

[@fernandopacheco7564]

It's your mind's way of trying to rationalize the way you feel because it doesn't understand what you've been diagnosed with. The human mind when faced with something it doesn't understand often tries to convince itself that it isn't real and it's all in your imagination because being that messed up inside is something the mind can't handle. It's hard to feel as if you're only making it up and fooling yourself and everyone around and the self doubt it creates is so tiring because you can never seem to just accept what you're being told and what you know is actually wrong, believe me I know. but you just have to push away your doubt and keep focusing on getting better. It's a long road ahead of you but hopefully one day you'll reach your destination.

[@kaginalauraarc4658]

Your comment just understood me more than anyone has ever did in my life

[@nataliemariejones3167]

“Tonight the monsters in my head are screaming so damn loud” hits me like nothing before

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks for listening Lindsey 🖤

[@nataliemariejones3167]

@@CitizenSoldier always

[@lill_sweets3271]

Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone...

[@jerrodthompson8307]

I get it 100%

[@eunahjang]

Hey, if you ever feel worthless, know, Butterflies can't see their wings, Flamingos all see themselves as the same as everyone else, And Beethoven never heard his work. *You matter, even if you can't see it*

[@CitizenSoldier]

💜

[@Bambie6432]

This is a work of art. Thank you

[@oikawatooru3755]

tysm...🖤

[@loust1264]

okay first of all, butterflies can see the wings with mirrors, pretty much how you cant see some parts on your back. no, flamingos dont see themselves as the same as everyone else

[@antoniaquinones8731]

@@loust1264 it's a saying

[@DjNorthrudge]

How can I live if I haven't even started yet....and then losing Ur mind then Ur emotions

[@Ethiowonderland]

"I'm either judged or have to hide " that hits hard

[@pinkie123ist]

It really does. Kind of what I go through on almost a daily basis

[@MikeyProHD]

​@Emily C you will overcome your pain. I promise you! God will help you if you let him

[@Ethiowonderland]

​@@pinkie123ist Yaa I feel you, you are not alone .

[@eisthebestletter7836]

Yea it hits hard. It describes me.

[@Alex-nt7mh]

Now I can tell that I have favourite artist😶

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks Gabrysia 🖤

[@tomaszgWauW]

Ja to samo🥺 Same me*

[@donaldjohnson4502]

FR!

[@NAMJOONIE-x9t]

I agreeeee ❤️ (3 months late tho)

[@Skarman314]

Same

[@robertgarretson8971]

Me and my band played this for my brother on his funeral and I started to cry in the first section RIP PHILLIP LOVE YOU BRO

[@gavinortengren3273]

Robert, I'm so sorry that you had to go through losing your brother, I could never imagine going a day knowing I wouldn't get to see my little brother again. I really don't know what else to say except to do what you can to remember, because that's all we really can do.

[@Webz_69]

Rip

[@davesnapsyou]

This song perfectly represents why I don't share what's inside me, but at the same time the longing to someone to see that I'm not okay.

[@emilyhubert8903]

To everyone that puts the sweet comments trying to help, thank you. When i feel down and listen to things like this, i always go to the comments and read your comments and tbh they always make me feel better. Again, thanks!

[@lill_sweets3271]

Thank you for this text... I Send you a Hug too... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone... No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are... The world is mean and will always be!! Just shine with pride in this mean world, don't let the pain make you hurt, don't let the bitterness steal your sweetness, You love, you laugh, you life, you do experience, new things.... you fall, you stay, you get up...❤️💫

[@jasonalley8857]

This just makes me wanna cry, I've never heard anything that actually describes how I feel so perfectly. No one seems to understand. But you do

[@CitizenSoldier]

We hear you. Glad to hear that 🖤

[@damiensky6974]

I understand you...

[@mikode]

I hear you and I know your struggle. We are not alone.

[@Someone3.1415]

The more often I listen to it the more I notice how it fits in so many ways. I think the line "I wish I had a scar, had a bruise on the surface and kind of proof that everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse" I often feel like I don’t really have a reason to feel like this. My family is nice and I know that they would miss me. I currently have a best friend that is very important to me and she is great. I never really was abused or bullied. I shouldn’t feel the way I do. It’s mostly just my head and (unintentionally maybe) self destructive behavior that fuels these feelings. The fact that I had multiple best friends but they never stayed past three years and that my current best friend has been my best friend for two and a half years doesn’t help. (It feels like that part of my thoughts is at least the only justified part of all this due to my past experiences) I also sometimes feel like we might not be that good for each other because I constantly (partially unintentionally) try to distance myself and am not good at keeping contact (like on WhatsApp) while she has past bad experiences with friends ghosting her (something I kinda unintentionally do) which in return makes me feel worse. And there is a lot more of weird stuff in our friendship that I kinda enjoy but it also makes me occasionally feel even worse because I don’t know what to do and what she expects I already rambled too much about this stuff that doesn’t even interest anyone anyway. At first I even wrote more but I don’t think I should write all my trauma and all my current thoughts and problems in here Anyway still love the CS songs because they just so often hit the spot

[@e.b.9473]

Same here. I shouldn't by all accounts feel the way I do but there it is. And some days, it's an uphill battle to get through it.

[@bryanclift3554]

Same here, this is how I feel.

[@raylacookie3086]

when you said the line, that lyric just came up

[@a_921]

I'm not a professional, but from what I've understood, there are two main types of depression. - The "obvious" type caused by specific events, usually temporary. i.e death of a loved one - The long lasting, returning ones with "no reason" (There is a reason, of course, but not like something you can point your finger at and say "fix that" or "just wait it out and it will go away". So don't beat yourself up over "not having a reason". * long distance hug *

[@Kai-gw9bv]

like you wrote about me...

[@pancakegenius07]

This song hits me deeply... Telling people "I'm ok" or "I'm good" if they ask how I'm doing, has been a habit of mine for as long as I can remember.

[@CitizenSoldier]

We hear you 🖤

[@solmariefalcon9189]

“The only symptom you can see is I don’t want to be alive“ I don’t have the words to describe how hard that hits. This whole song, all the lyrics they’re just so powerful.

[@lill_sweets3271]

Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone... No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are... You've been hurt, but you're alive. Think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive, to breath, to think, to enjoy, and to chase the things you love. Sometimes there is sadness in our journey, but there is also a lot of beauty. We must keep putting on Foot in front of the other even when we hurt, for we will never know what is waiting for us just around the bend... ❤️💫

[@elisae.h.7725]

listen to this other one they made.. this one SERIOUSLY hit me like a train and then... plot twist. I loved it.. i think you need to listen to it (or listen to it again if you did in the past) Citizen Soldier - Would Anyone Care (Official Lyric Video)

[@brodiebuckingham2846]

Same It's like this song is a song about my life all these lyrics hit me but the only symptom line is so hard for me to not cry to.

[@suhasinijacob3695]

Yes. "You wanna die? Well you see everyone feels that way at some point in their life. Look at me. I went through all of those things and i too thought about ending my life but i kept myself strong. You're my child. So be strong." That's what i was told when they discovered i harmed myself multiple times "Why do you get offended by small things? You're so sensitive. I don't even remember saying that. And so what if i said that? Just forget it. Fine I'm sorry. You always target me" This was what i was told when i asked them about the things they were saying about me. The worst part is that they never denied that what they said was not true...they just tried to explain me how the things they say about me are true

[@beetleknight4661]

Yea it hits like a truck, especially after 5 attempted suicides it hits *really* hard, but after all that I found someone that gives me ths strength to continue and that's my girlfriend she has helped me so much and through so much shit an-wow I'm rambling sorry

[@purplerose51165]

This speaks volumes to me. Sometimes I wish I could scream I'm not ok. I can't. So I listen to songs like this

[@lill_sweets3271]

Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone... No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are... You've been hurt, but you're alive. Think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive, to breath, to think, to enjoy, and to chase the things you love. Sometimes there is sadness in our journey, but there is also a lot of beauty. We must keep putting on Foot in front of the other even when we hurt, for we will never know what is waiting for us just around the bend... ❤️💫

[@stephaniecintron6862]

I needed to hear this. Its exactly how i feel

[@youareenoughngp]

Stay strong, my friend! ❤

[@morganspurr6257]

“I have so much to say, and no one to hear it” I felt that one in my soul guys

[@CitizenSoldier]

🖤🙏🏻

[@mistymitchell7280]

Same

[@cliffb8982]

For those 953 ppl that said they disliked this song..... I'm glad you can hide your feelings better than all of us who like it. Thank you for this song. I'm not ok is the hardest 3 words to ever say to someone, especially when they love you.

[@hiroshima9219]

And those 3 words are: I'm Not Okay

[@miranda9714]

Dear people, even when you are not feeling okay.. Write it down and do not forget that there's someone in the world who loves you!

[@newmansgaming7815]

Where? Where are they though.

[@mandata143]

I'VE BEEN HERE! (October 25, 2022)

[@jakeblue8201]

@@newmansgaming7815 I love you

[@magnumg3932]

You are great.

[@GhostCracker0]

But what if someone finds where you wrote all your feelings? What if you literally don’t know how to put some feelings into words, even on paper? What do I do then?

[@brianthompson7482]

I've always had my ups and downs But never have I been down so low as I am now after releasing prayer only works for some people and some of us have no hope

[@andrewthompson2901]

Citizen Soldier are the only people who i don't skip the adds on.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks Andrew! 🖤

[@marinanickels7678]

Hey, listen, We live in a world that is so messed up. Out world is filled with sorrow, depression, anxiety, injustice, judgement, and hatred. But guess what. You, yes you make this world just a bit better. This world would be worse without you. Never forget that u are here for a purpose made just for you. And without you that purpose will never be fulfilled. You make this world better for the rest of the people on earth. So stay because. I love you. ❤️

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks for sharing that Marina 🖤

[@TheMisanthropist69]

"Being who I really am has only left me more alone." I relate so much to this line, it's crazy.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks for listening Phil! 🖤

[@beth7521]

Me too

[@europewormuth1202]

Same here

[@Sincerly777]

I recently came across this. This is God-send. I am a 12th grade and a 19 year old. The people at my school is socially bullying me. I feel like ending it everyday. But, I know I need to stay strong for my loved ones. Life is really tough. I don't even know if I can make it at the end of 2024.

[@loveandfaithfulness4479]

Keep holding on to God. No matter what may be trying to keep you down, keep looking up to God. He will always be your hand in helping you get back up. We serve God who can do all things. Romans 8:31 tells us, “What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?” this means that no man, woman, boy or girl is a threat to the purpose God placed on the inside of you. This means that the only way you experience defeat is when you surrender. In moments of worry and anxiety, we are called to bring our concerns before God in prayer. Instead of allowing anxiety to consume us, we can find peace and comfort in knowing that the Almighty God is attentive to our needs for He cares for us deeply. In the storms of life, God is our only hope. His faithfulness and His goodness are present Even during the darkest storm. we have a lot of growing up to do. We should continue to grow in our relationship with God, and there is no point where we can say we've "had enough" Jesus tells his followers not to worry about food, drink, clothing, or tomorrow, and instead to seek first God's kingdom and righteousness and He will give us everything we need. Give thanks and be appreciative of the small and big things that God is doing in your life. Doing that means that you are looking for God throughout your day. You’re looking for God in your situation. You’re looking for God in your struggles and your pains, and keeping your focus on God instead of focusing on all the bad that’s going on. It’s what God wants you to do. He wants you to keep your eyes on Him. for the Lord will give you understanding in everything. The reason why Jesus tells us not to be anxious is because the Father cares for us. He has your back and will help you through anything, All you have to do is Repent and have Faith. The Bible teaches that God's sovereignty is an essential aspect of who He is, that He has supreme authority and absolute power over all things. There is nothing that God is not in control of. Everything that happens, God either causes to happen or He allows it to happen. However, Everything God does is done in love. There is always some reason for it, and for those who love God and are called according to His purpose, He will work everything out for good. Ultimately, the enemies we face, are not people or objects. It is not our body, It is not physical enemy. Our battle is indeed spiritual, In each of those cases, we can choose to fight the wrong battles, or we can rest knowing God is fighting for us. We fight this war by daily putting on the whole armor of God, always praying, standing firm in the Word of God, and staying alert. We need to live each day guided by an eternal perspective. So rest in knowing that when you keep holding on, you will see that in your weakness, God will be your Strength. John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."

[@noahweeks433]

Those sitting up listening to this past 12 because it's the only music they can relate to I want you to know you're not alone and if you need a friend or just someone to talk to drop a like or comment and reach out

[@alexbroadway29]

Hi

[@gamingaster5457]

ello

[@michelleedgeman9683]

3:08am 💔

[@alexbroadway29]

How are all of you doing?🤍❤️

[@michelleedgeman9683]

@@alexbroadway29 Same as always, praying for an ounce of light in our lives. Thank you for asking!

[@averageokie3959]

LYRICS FOR THIS SONG..for us slow readers 😉 Tonight the monsters in my head Are screaming so damn loud But I built walls so high So they never even make a sound It's a mask, it's a lie It's the only home I've ever known 'Cause being who I really am Has only left me more alone I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it The reason I keep quiet With so much at stake I always feel like a burden, let it silence me You'll never understand Why it's so hard to say I'm not okay I wish I had a scar Had a bruise on the surface, any kind of proof That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse My life's invisible abuse I'm either judged or have to hide The only symptom you can see Is I don't wanna be alive I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it The reason I keep quiet With so much at stake I always feel like a burden, let it silence me You'll never understand Why it's so hard to say I'll never have the words, I can't explain this hell But what if it kills me If I keep it to myself? To myself I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it I am not okay I am not okay I'm never safe It's not a phase If I finally break Would you still stay? Tonight the monsters in my head Are screaming so damn loud

[@mafertron6138]

*_“I wish I had a scar had a bruise on the surface any kind of proof... That everything I feel is more than just a sad excuse”_* That emotional truck hit me kind of pretty hard is like so freaking accurate if you know what I mean... Hope you don’t

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks for listening 💜;

[@lill_sweets3271]

Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone... No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...

[@laceygilmour2216]

Self harm sucks😓

[@lill_sweets3271]

@@laceygilmour2216 Send you a bug hug❤️

[@Walker-pb2ec]

I understand same truck hit me full force

[@jayevans8757]

Sat here in tears singing this knowing these words are so true is the hardest pain anyone will ever understand feel like citizen soldiers knows me yet we never met

[@K1ngSc0ut24]

Why is it that.... When I'm crying for help when needed, nobody sees me.... when I need someone the most, they aren't available.... when I'm in the biggest amount of pain, people don't want to help.... When I'm falling apart in front of them, they just brush me off like I'm nothing.... When I say "I'm not okay", they don't see my scars....

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks for sharing that 🖤

[@lill_sweets3271]

Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone... No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are... Just look outside the window at night... There are millions of Stars and just like humans, you can't always see them but they are here and care... There will be an Angel who protects you and will not give up on you...❤️👼💫

[@M-O-K-O-I]

I do know myself, it doesn't help much. but i want you to- no, i NEED you to know. We're out there. Total strangers, i know. But we listen. And we care for each other. We care for you. And just like this, people do. People probably all around you. Make them take notice. You're beautiful in your own, Special way. You just need to show yourself. Don't give up, you deserve to be seen, need to be heard, and especially, need to keep moving on. It'll get better. If you need it once more - let me tell you, there are people. People like you and me out there - who care. Alot. and loosing you, seeing you hurt more and more, would also hurt them - hurt us. Hang in there, favourite stranger on the internet.

[@justmoon9798]

Hugs...i feel your pain.

[@patriciaspires5450]

Because you are crying out! But you feel you can’t let anyone know so you keep it bottled up inside of you because you know one will understand! I know what you are going through! I pray for you .. please pray for me!

[@charlottesmith8974]

I hate how relatable this is. I never talk to people because when I do I feel like I’m bringing down the mood and being a burden 😭💔 Edit : thank you guys so much for the support 😭❤️

[@lill_sweets3271]

Send you a Hug...❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not a burden...

[@littlered9193]

Me too....

[@alexisn9615]

same, like my friends are so damn supportive but I don't tell them how I really feel because then it feels like I'm just being a burden :/

[@venancionoces2530]

🖤🖤🖤

[@gargimandal3665]

Same

[@elmartin7694]

Suicide thoughts summarized into a song. And yes, I've been there that this song hits like home. Now if you're expecting for a positive advice from me, I'm sorry to disappoint you.

[@lill_sweets3271]

Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... stay strong... Life is worth it...❤️

[@spadesofficial8947]

@@lill_sweets3271 life is worth being alone?

[@lill_sweets3271]

@@spadesofficial8947No... I mean... life is worth being strong .... because even in the darkest of times a light will always shine and something beautiful is hidden behind every dark corner... ❤️

[@lill_sweets3271]

@@spadesofficial8947 and you are not alone... Just look at the Stars ... There are millions of them... Humans are like stars you can't always see them but they are here and care.... ❤️😊

[@dasnavigon]

@@lill_sweets3271 sorry to destroy your thinking. But we are all individuals. We can die when we want. That's good. My heart is alone since my childhood. OK I have a gf but I don't think that it could be that we are together in some weeks. She will break up with me.

[@Packers217]

“Being who I am has left me more alone” hits really hard.

[@loveandfaithfulness4479]

Keep holding on to God. No matter what may be trying to keep you down, keep looking up to God. He will always be your hand in helping you get back up. difficult times can leave us feeling exposed and unprotected but it is only temporary. everything is temporary and that nothing lasts forever. When we only see one solution to our problem, When we only see one way out of our struggle, we need to pray to God to help us to shift our focus toward Him and His infinite wisdom. We serve God who can do all things. Have an Honest confession. Tell God how you’re feeling and what your hang-ups are, He often answers in ways we can’t comprehend. for the Lord will give you understanding in everything. God won’t leave us stuck when we come to Him with an honest plea for guidance. He longs to be our Guide. And when we come to Him, He will show us a path we’ve never seen before, overflowing with hope and opportunity. Always Call for God to open your eyes to the truth. Praise God despite the roadblock you are facing. The reason why Jesus tells us not to be anxious is because the Father cares for us. He has your back and will help you through anything, All you have to do is have Faith. Ultimately, the enemies we face, are not people or objects. It is not our body, It is not physical enemy. our battle is indeed spiritual, In each of those cases, we can choose to fight the wrong battles, or we can rest knowing God is fighting for us. we fight this war by daily putting on the whole armor of God, always praying, standing firm in the Word of God, and staying alert. we need to live each day guided by an eternal perspective. So rest in knowing that when you keep holding on, you will see that in your weakness, God will be your strength. Joshua 1:9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.” John 15:13 Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends. Romans 5:6-8 For when we were still without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly. for scarcely for a righteous man will one die; yet perhaps for a good man someone would even dare to die. But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

[@EyeTea]

It’s ok to just be like “today is a bad day but today is just one day” doesn’t mean it’ll last forever.

[@CitizenSoldier]

You CAN be victorious in your battle. Stay strong and keep fighting 🖤

[@garicanewbold1734]

I wish I had the motivation to learn this on my guitar

[@stardustempress9062]

@@garicanewbold1734 Well. One day or another, you will def have the motivation and strength to go through with it buddy. You will absolutely get what you want in your life so dont ever think so low of yourself. You are so previous more than you have ever known. ^♡^ Love you! You got this buddy!

[@anne48503]

“This too shall pass”

[@angelicaramirez7402]

what happens if everyday is a bad day??

[@graceparker9725]

I don’t trust myself. I don’t belong here. I’m just a person taking someone else’s place. I feel like I am falling through the rabbit hole.

[@CitizenSoldier]

We hear you Grace 🖤

[@williamafton627]

Yeah I know how it feels no one would care if I died or not, I am alone, I am not okay, I desperately want to die

[@alecriggs8653]

@@williamafton627 keep your head fam. You’re not alone. You’ll get through this storm

[@featherguardian6023]

Our greatest enemy will be ourselves

[@anaderojassalinas4763]

Same, sometimes I just think It wouldn't matter if I'm gone, because I shouldn't be here in the first place

[@miriamdunlop2181]

Praying for EVERYONE who is NOT OK !!!

[@williamjones6345]

This song is one of my favorites. It really hits home. People wonder why so many people never reach out, and its because when we do we are left feeling like a burden. Ive just turned to music to help me through it as MOST people just make it worse.

[@gungnirkin2069]

This hits me hard cause i know how it feels to say "I'm not okay" it's the cycle of judgement or embarrassment or they don't want people to get involved and i feel like this song portrays that very well. Between hiding behind a mask and hiding who you really are to people. That leads to bottling it it up to the point of breaking down and wanting someone who will understand what they are going through and support them. Citizen Soldier this song is a powerful message to people.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Thanks for listening! 🖤 We hear you

[@seanmurphy7452]

@@CitizenSoldier brilliant

[@aliciasullivan3312]

I relate to this one song more than any song out there. Even now I tear up just speaking out. All my life I've been alone, judged, abused in every way possible, and noone could ever tell you enough to get help because it's the same repeat story. It's sad how cruel this world can be, but I can see small rays of hope. I really am glad that your here citizen soldier, you have probably helped more souls than imagined. Thank you for all your songs, I can relate to every single one of them. Stay strong and stand tall.

[@CitizenSoldier]

Appreciate you Alicia 🖤

[@ImKloan]

2 words: This hurt....

[@CitizenSoldier]

Hope you’re doing okay friend 🖤

[@ImKloan]

@@CitizenSoldier I'm doing fine, or so I tell myself? Lord only knows but its songs like this that make me realize I'm not the kid I used to be and (even though I act like a kid) I have to deal with the obstacles life hands me❤😁

[@annettecolinin3776]

I am not okey has been a song that really explains how a lot of us feel inside n find it hard to tell people wats really happening. I love this song it’s truly a reality song of life for most people. Thank u for creating it ❤