Who I Was, Am and Will Be - Collective

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This is a song I had written for quite some time, but never got around to uploading it, because there was no chorus or bridge. And I figured I should just upload it anyway, I'm proud of the verses I wrote, and want to share it. Enjoy. =)

[@middle11]

I come back to this song whenever I need to calm myself. Ever think about death? I'm talking about what happens afterwards. It all feels like a trap, whether a person is an atheist or has religion. Just to think on the atheist side. If you die. You're no more. No mind. No nothing. No existence. But then on the Christian side and believing in heaven. Living forever. And ever. And. Ever. I'm stuck between wanting an end and not wanting an end. It's so stressful man. Life feels like nothing but a trap and I'm drownin running out of time

[@FPSPerson]

Hey there Collective! I'm writing an essay for my college English class that asked my why I chose their college. Not on an economic standpoint, but on the life I had that lead me to that decision. This got me looking back at my liked videos through my long history on youtube (close to 16,000...) and especially your channel. When I was going through a tough time in middle school and for the first year or two of high school, video games and youtube was my escape, CodyPOV was my escape, and after you split up, I followed you here. I liked your verses more in the raps you two did, not going to lie to you. When you started getting personal I was ok with it. I felt like there was someone like me going through a bad time. Even when I was out of that depression I loved listening to this song,your EP, anything you posted. It was you opening your heart and showing what your really feel and I respected that. You are one of the people that have helped me get to who I am now. I was sad when you vanished, I loved your league raps on par with Badministrator. I'm glad to see you're doing good for yourself from your most recent comments. I never commented (I think... I was always one of those silent viewers) on your videos back then and now that I've grown a bit, I feel like I should tell you how much you, this song, has helped me. I'm sad that it only has this many views on it. I don't know if or when our paths will cross, but if you release something, I'll be here listening to it. Keep on loving what you do and I'll try to do the same. -Logan Sims

[@CollectivePOV]

Thanks so much, Logan. I'm really humbled by your comment, and I truly appreciate you taking the time to write that out for me. I'm really happy to hear that me bitching about my own life has helped you figure out yours. I wish you the best!

[@KADASUVA]

I find myself in that dark place. It's like walking on needles but I listened to this today. Thank you Collective I feel like I can keep going regardless of how dark it gets, because as you said, 'In the mist there's luminescence.'

[@Eragonoon]

I really dont care how old this is... ill keep returning here to stop, reflect and soothe the soul.

[@middle11]

ive been listening to this song since it came out, and it still hasnt gotten old to me. This has to be the greatest song ive ever heard. It really touches me. Gj Collective

[@TacoDelivery]

1.5 years later still one of the most touching songs ever :D

[@Vichion]

been listening to this for a couple years now, it reminds me what's important.. much love

[@Lulzkat]

Honestly, this song is better now than it would have been with a chorus. The instrumental really let's you take the verses to heart. Amazing work.

[@stergliamis7062]

I don't know if you are still reading these comments, but if you are i hope you are doing well and are happy man. I'm still coming back to these songs to take me back to the days where life felt simpler and enjoyable, but am waiting for the day where it gets turned around

[@ReivasMC]

god fucking damit 5 months later and still addicted to this song please more "reflexion" songs man, you have a true gift for them!

[@Silversen11]

I second that statement.

[@middle11]

I'm still addicted to this song too lol. Since when its first came out :)

[@veriganmedia]

I will never forget you collective!

[@cancoonjoe8094]

Close to 10 years ago, where the fuck has the time gone... God bless you Cody.

[@FerokNuva]

If i was a crying man this would have me in tears. This is amazing and the best part is is that it came straight from the heart. If you ever wanna go on a cruise just hit me up and i'll cry you a whole damn ocean while i'm listening to this.

[@oNoms]

I remember watching this when it first came out. I downloaded it onto an old external hard drive; I found it like two days ago found this song and spent the at least 30 minutes trying to remember who made it. Here I am now c:

[@ZMDoom]

Oh man, it’s been 4-5 years since this song was uploaded. It feels like it was just yesterday when I first listened to it. Oh how time flies! I remember when I first listened to this, I was in about 9th grade, playing League of Legends and overall doing nothing. Now I’m in college. I’d like to thank you, Collective, for producing this piece. When I first listened to it, I was metaphorically lost. I had no direction, no plans, nothing. However, this song caused me to reflect upon myself, who am I, who will I become. Overall, I did not like what I saw. This spurred something within myself, perhaps an anger at what I was. From that point I knew I had changes that I needed to make. Long story short, I took up boxing, meditating, and watching motivational tapes. This allowed me to branch out both mentally and socially. Now I’m studying business in college with the intentions of leaving a mark in the boxing world. But that’s a story for my future. All of this started with that one pivotal point, when I reflected on myself after listening to this song 4-5 years ago. Honestly, even now listening to this song once again, I still look at myself and wonder. It's probably been 3 years since I listened to it last. But I digress, I hope you are doing well, Collective. Apologies for a wall of text, but I did feel it somewhat fitting to thank you. - Zach

[@CollectivePOV]

Hey Zach! I'm lost for words. I'm really honoured by what you said, thank you. When I wrote this song I was feeling pretty lost too, and I wanted to write this to give myself a point of reference, and to set goals for my future. So I'm very happy to hear that it had the same effect on you. I hope you stay dedicated to what you want to accomplish - but by the sounds of your message, I'd say that won't be a problem! I wish you the best, buddy. Enjoy yourself! -Graham

[@bekemark10]

This song deserves a few...million more views.

[@LarsOfLegends]

hearing this everyday, its my thoughts converted into soundwaves.amazing

[@angelod.5562]

This Song changed me.

[@galacticzer04]

@Angelo d. Amen dude

[@Divorox]

Collective Thank you for everything You truly are an amazing artist. you are m inspiration

[@XohmadonX]

Amazing song. Can't stop listening to it.

[@TheVoiceofExile]

Not going to lie Collective, you just wrote a song about my life...this video and the past couple of videos you have posted have honestly been a mirror of what I live in. I'm still trying to get as far as you have with changing your life, but I'll get there one day. Great work, and most of all, Thank you.

[@luiscoronel1524]

i remember when this song first came out i memorized the first verse now that im older i can still vaguely remember it

[@ImNoobAtLoL]

Graham, the one and only! So deep, so good, so amazing. You're the man!

[@LarsOfLegends]

i just love the lyrics, with this you got a metalhead listening Rap

[@coolerthenu1]

Wow, it's been five years and this song is still beautiful. I guess art never ages.

[@Asasnol21]

Superb lyrics and great song keep up the good work collective

[@sybek1996]

This is FUCKING BEAUTIFUL I got myself some feels Collective this is so unique in that it is about you and how you see things and I as a viewer can understand you through this masterpiece.Thanks for being there and reminding me of all that is important Graham keep it strong man, keep it strong.

[@kellytbh7707]

after all the broken promises of uploading more, i can't help but worry. i will forever wonder of graham is doing okay. i can only hope him the best.

[@CollectivePOV]

Naw man, no need to worry! All is good! I apologise for the broken promises of uploading - it was never intentional. I hope you the best as well =)

[@garyliu6078]

I mean now that Cody's been back at it again, how are your thoughts about youtube? Maybe even a long await cameo with Cody, even just once :)?

[@kellytbh7707]

+CollectivePOV i hope you the best with your flow of thought

[@jerjersgt]

Good job collective, when i got a bad gamestreak in lol i listen to bad game by collective. Now when i will have hard time in life i will listen to this. Thanks. Baltarog

[@TheXPerseverance]

I absolutely love what you do man. Every song that comes out i listen to it right away! What you said about escapism really hit me, because I was in the same place when I was younger going through my parents divorce. Keep doing what you do man! It'll be worth the satisfaction in the end

[@gigiobb]

incredible , the lack of bridge and chorus does not make it 1% worse . great lyrics , timing and rhymes , youre fantastic Collective

[@middle11]

so many ppl like u out there who arent known as much as famous rappers yet so much better.

[@MrAnonymousIdiot]

One word to describe such a piece....... EPIC!

[@dredre0702]

This is why you're my favorite, Collective.

[@FPSPerson]

Collective... Thank You.

[@suknusmuskus]

this song describes my life story so well 2 this song is so amazing you should do more songs like this please don't quit making music

[@jeremywoffinden8829]

You are the shing02 of America. I love your songs man, so relaxed and deep.

[@PatrickVoh001]

the part from 2:47 is just plain great i can identify myself with this so good ... Thx Collective for putting out such mindful songs and vids ! keep it coming :)

[@Eragonoon]

Simply.... Beautiful!

[@IcelandicKiba]

collective this is a really good song it's good to see a rap song with thought behind the words and a good vocabulary reminds me alot of eminen but man you get your own spin on the words and I find it very original, looking at a bad situation and stil seeing the good parts of it is a virtue in life thx for making my day dude

[@RyouTheMad]

Ive almost forgot to watch this today,im just in time !

[@Athens_Gaming]

Your fans love you man :) Every video made is super inspiring! Collective seems to be such a genuinely good person and you can't help but notice/admire him for it :)

[@chucknoris514]

Collective, even back when you were in PlayerPOV, I always enjoyed your videos more than Cody's. You always seemed less fake, more real and down to earth. keep it up, you deserve to be big

[@MoonChild426]

Best song i've heard in all categories since a while.. diggin it

[@Fr0styGuru]

This song is amazing.

[@ReivasMC]

I didn't know collective made actual rap songs other than LoL 1 vs 1 mid. Damn I'm amazed, I didn't know you had such lyrical capabilities, I love the song and I identify myself with it... Between some of the things I would change in this music to make MY life story, it is that I was allways seen as a loser when I was a kid, but I wanted to be more. And I'm still "a raging storm" and I don't know if I will ever stop being it, too much pain in the past to allow myself to relax. Thank you for this music, I really enjoyed it. Take care

[@CollectivePOV]

For sure! Sorry I should've thrown it up initially. It's there in the description now.

[@lukacolic4193]

Really captures your emotions.

[@poelogan]

Everytime I try to rap I compare my voice to other artists to see how I sound. Went through countless to see who I sounded most like. Then I found you man and it was an almost perfect match, so Ive been reciting your lyrics everytime I listen to my IPod or am just using my computer. I am obsessed with you Collective keep up the amazing work. Hopefully one day ill be able to write my own raps and be as good as you. Thanks for being my inspiration ~Hollow

[@EoR_2B4GOT10]

just beautiful work again almost as good as ur hearing voices on collectivefreedom just amaizing

[@TheKIT0]

Yes he does make some beats himself (has even uploaded the one or other I think). But for here for example you can hear a voice 00:17 that says "The unbeatables", which means that the beat is from them. There are sites where you can download such beats (dependent on the beat and what you are gonna use it for you either have to pay or can download some for free)

[@FoXzzig]

Let Cody keep his channel with his fun stuff, this is way better. Keep it up Collective.

[@jonterje9671]

This song is amazing

[@RaulAkatsuki]

All the support man, keep doing these , they're awesome , but your soul into it, eventually you will get heard and who knows maybe who you will be will be sumone famous

[@Trottek]

Ladies and gentlemen collective freedom is back with a new song on a new channel.

[@TheDracuska]

This is just beautiful.

[@1337gotan]

You've come a long way. From good to great.

[@TheTyranex]

Amazing song. Really inspirational

[@xkillerofallx]

Sweet a song on the say before my birthday

[@SuperBmw07]

I found myself in part o this song(moments i had in pass and still have) As expeckted from you Colective you make evry new video more awsome. Keep it up and never forget that that what you do is what you are. :D

[@aznspryd]

i'm breathless

[@redstoneprojectrules]

Was waiting for a rap about hes life for so long ;) i knew it was coming ! Thank u collective

[@Whoknowseh]

Rhanks for sharing this song with us man

[@coreygreat22]

collective, keep up the good work, i must go and share this song with everyone because it was that amazig :D

[@NOZxVIPER]

One word: Respect

[@kabutofan7]

You finally released it! Sweet! Amazing as always

[@Thaiman05]

Wow. This is the first song I've heard in a long time that really touched me, since I know people that have nearly the same background. Keep up the good work, be whoever the fuck you want to be and live your life, good times comin!

[@JaskoTheLion]

That was spectacular man, real deep. Go Collective. 8D

[@maklein13]

OH MY GOD, you are so great, can't believe it....

[@shardob5174]

This songs amazing Collective! Keep up the good work!

[@TheWarexas]

would like too see more of this it's awesome

[@JoaoFGP]

This was deep and awesome, great work.

[@EpiclyEric]

Amazing as Always Collective.

[@CollectivePOV]

Thanks man! I appreciate that. =) Glad you liked it Blake!

[@mastone3609]

I absolutely hate rap and this song is legitimately amazing. If rap was all like this, I would be listening to it more often. You should definitely make some more because youve got a talent.

[@TheEveryDayNittwit]

I believe in you Graham and i hope you accomplish your dreams! I really feel you man I have been watching all your videos on this channel and I am and was going through a lot of the stuff you expressed i know how tough it can be. You have been an inspiration to me and i hope you will keep it up! Love you man. =) - Chris

[@Jowzify]

Touching...really awesome work there collective! gg

[@LtTaterSalad]

This deserves so many more views. This has to be my favorite video on youtube. I love it when you speak your mind. This channel is so amazing. Keep it up Collective. c:

[@NoWhiteLighters]

Made my day.

[@ahmadkurabi]

just amazing! this kind of music really suites u!

[@mick0070]

this is deep man love youre work keep on the good job even its not really my kinda music i still lisn to everything you make mate greetz from belgium

[@GabeLIKEzpie]

yay im the first comment, man i gotta say i luv this song and i can really hear the pain and the struggles u had within this song. very nice.

[@RyouTheMad]

wow.amazing Collective

[@1337gotan]

collective you made me cry nearly

[@cro5ever]

collective i love your way of thinking and also your songs

[@LightningDan5000]

Amazing inspiring song! Keep it up, Collective ; )

[@Rainbowfox76]

Really awesome! Relaxing and moving:)

[@FPSPerson]

Love that last verse bro....

[@TheWarexas]

more pls this was just amazing

[@Linx14]

Amazing Collective. Keep up the good stuff man.

[@ostmedmarmelad]

Damn. you could be real big actually. Really love it, please get yourself out there!

[@1catak]

Thank you so much for the DL link i have been waiting for it for a long time aka just a month

[@alopxs]

This is awesome!

[@PsyGwendok]

Wow, this song left me speechless. It's just extraordinary, I sincerely hope you keep making some songs like this one, because I loved it :)

[@Cryothon]

Dis song too good keep up the good songs collective! =)

[@KaMeNNNNNN]

Thank you for this song!

[@Gemueseschmuggler]

need high quality download, please, collective, you are one of the most awesome rapper i know and i know a lot of them

[@DavidVoxDem]

Perfect song, man I've tried writing my own stuff through the years drunk at night but I pass out before I finish them. This is the type of music I wanna make

[@CollectivePOV]

Thanks so much for the kind words, David. It definitely made my day! I urge you to keep going. Honestly, I still scrap half of what I write. I find writing about self-reflection is always the key (at least for me). At the very least, it does a good job of helping you write out and vocalize what your goals are - which is pretty powerful. I wish you the best! If you finish and record something, please either leave a comment or email me and let me know. I'd love to hear from you.

[@LightningDan5000]

Wow... Story of the past 2 years of my life...

[@dredre0702]

Thanks Collective!