TWIN TODDLER NIGHT TIME ROUTINE!

[@lexifisher6372]

Flynn and Wes wrestling together and Maisy sitting there silently judging them was everything😂

[@emmagreersmith]

I was dying 😭😭😭😭

[@pink99644]

She’s just like: “Brothers… 🙄”

[@DarlingDevil4691]

@@pink99644 as a sister to an older brother, I 100% agree with Maisy 🤣

[@liva4060]

such a sister moment

[@iosifinaballerina696]

I know that was so funny😂🤣

[@misscrackwood]

Watching Flynn and Wes wrestle in the bouncy house was just so cute, I don't recall seeing them play like that together in the vlogs! And Maisy giving them side eyes, it was too funny 😂

[@rachelotremba8100]

Yes! And the music playing when Maisy was judging them was hysterical 🤣

[@misscrackwood]

@@rachelotremba8100 it was top tier editing, Kory is awesome for making these moments extra special!

[@jennapanos7406]

Hearing you talk about feeling paralyzed and unable to get out of bed is so affirming as someone who deals with the same thing on almost a daily basis. It is such a hard feeling and I hope you know how much it means to hear you talk so openly about it and I also hope that you know you are not alone in these feelings. I grew up with a mom who had postpartum, and it was sometimes really hard to watch, but knowing how strong she was to go through it, I know you can too - and your children are so lucky to have a mom like you. You're not alone Colleen, and I hope you do what you need to take care of yourself. Thank you.

[@leighwhite5634]

Serotonin levels are down

[@destructionaesthetics]

You're amazing Jenna ❤ keep going

[@novaflorencia]

i'm so sorry that you're going through that. i hope you know that Jesus loves you so so much and there is hope in Him! sending you a hug 🩷

[@sngray11]

I also struggle with that from time to time. I am sending you strength, prayers, and positive vibes that the feelings of paralysis and being unable to get out of bed begin to dissipate for you. 💞 Please know that you aren’t alone with your struggles and what you are currently going through. It isn’t easy, but you can get through this. Hopefully you have a good therapist or someone else that you trust to help you get through this trying time. I wish you all the best and am sending lots of love your way. 💗

[@Faith-Ireland]

I don’t have post partum depression or anything pregnant related since I’ve never had kids but I do have Depression and anxiety. I take Zoloft for it and it helps me feel less worried about worrying lol. But I’ve had a bad week about staying in bed. No energy etc. but next week is a new week and figuring out what works for you would be good.

[@youmakemestrong]

Colleen, it seems like a great time to get reconnected to your (good) therapist again if you haven't seen her lately. To help offset your risk of things getting worse and to help you navigate the tough mornings and exhausting moments. We love you!

[@reneeturcottecicigoi9435]

That was gonna be my exact comment. As somebody who has had depression and panic attacks for 33 years, it’s important that we take care of ourselves mentally. I usually end up seeing my therapist at least once every few years. It’s almost like going to a doctor for a physical, except this checks out my mental health. Also, it’s really important to not talk down to yourself. It took me a long time to learn this. I am almost 51 now and I still catch myself thinking bad thoughts about myself. But now I’m able to stop them quicker and change them to something more positive. I really hope you’re feeling better soon. Don’t be ashamed to take time out for mental health self-care ❤

[@suepeterson163]

I agree

[@destructionaesthetics]

The school shootings must be so scary for parents, anyone would be badly triggered by the threat of danger to your babies 😢

[@camilagrijalva4109]

Agreed.

[@trikywu]

This is good advice.

[@charlottemurphy6765]

Rewatching your vlogs because I miss you Colleen

[@anuja.deshpande]

Maisy's love for books and the way she reads is so cute ❤

[@lilyw9324]

The babies laughs make me smile EVERY TIME

[@ColleenVlogs]

Me toooo! 🥰

[@Edenscomet]

@@ColleenVlogs ily!! 🫶🏻

[@josselyngrove5722]

I don’t have kids but I relate to the feeling of not being able to pull yourself out of bed. I’ve been needing to clean my house for months and I just can never bring myself to it…. I have just been having difficulty finding that motivation to really do anything outside of making it through the day. I wouldn’t say I’m not happy, I just feel tired

[@carolinestacey8701]

Hearing someone else who experiences these spiraling thoughts filled with self-loathing just like me is really reassuring. I am constantly beating myself up over things I have done or not done and perseverate constantly. Thank you for always being so transparent; it is more appreciated than you will ever know! I love you!

[@annadickens9245]

I LOVE the little belly laughs where they are totally cracking up at Flynn!! There is nothing better!! 💕

[@litwithkass]

April is Mental Health Awareness Month and these types of conversations are really important to have! I’ve suffered from clinical depression my whole life but went untreated until I was 30. And let me tell ya, once I got medicated, my life turned around. I feel like yours is compounded by your ADHD and dermatillomania. You are loved!!

[@thatgirl9960]

hi colleen!! i'm not a therapist but from my own experience, when i felt depressed for no reason, my mom sent me to get some blood work, and we found out that my vitamin d levels are abnormally low and thats what causes my depressive episodes that have no real triggers. i dont know how it works for everyone but with me, it was due to poor diet and not being outside enough. i hope this helps anyone!!

[@neida8795]

A helpful tip my therapist gave me was to not focus so much on the why. There are days where I’m depressed & I want so badly to figure out why because then, I think I can control/avoid it next time. But, in reality, you can’t. Instead of hyperfocusing on the why, my therapist just told me to validate my feelings “I am feeling depressed and that’s okay.” I’ve found that this is helpful because there isn’t always a trigger to trace it to. Like Colleen said, sometimes, it just creeps up on you & there’s no rhyme or reason.

[@dolphinattack55]

I'm going through this right now.. I had my baby on January 1st and just went back to work. I don't want to leave him. Even leaving him with his father isn't soothing to me. I've had so many breakdowns since going back to work. You have definitely helped me through my pregnancy, the birth, and now my postpartum. I just want to say thank you so very much for all of your honesty and for allowing us to see that you're not just a famous KZbinr who fakes it for the camera. You are a human who shows us your feelings and you try to relate to us.

[@Greenislife]

This is heartbreaking 💔 I wish you could be home with your baby as long as you want!

[@dolphinattack55]

@LittlePeculiar thank you! I wish every mother was able to stay home with their baby for the first year without having to worry about money. There are some countries that have longer maternity leaves, and they are paid. It just sad that the US hasn't come to the realization yet that the first year of a babies life is critical.

[@Greenislife]

@@dolphinattack55 yeah, the US is sadly behind there. I live in Sweden and as a single parent i get 480 days maternity leave for my baby, it should be a minimum of 2 years everywhere in my opinion.

[@autumnb939]

The way you explained your first anxiety attack resonates so much with me I remember trying to explain my anxiety to someone when it was at its highest as a jar of water that just kept filling and filling until it I was drowning in it and just couldn’t handle it. Also love love love boots #2

[@saraheumlauf1117]

COLLEEN-As someone who holds a degree in the science of psychology, I want to tell you, I'm proud of you for trying something new! I know it may have only been a few minutes in your back yard, but swinging that bat at the ball is good for your brain health. When we exercise our minds by trying new things, it forces our brains to adapt to new ways of thinking and this is actually good for our mental health too. Also, in those moments of anxiety, in the perfect way you described a glass filling upto the top, squeezing our breath from us, inducing a panic- It's REALLY helpful to try to remember to take VERY SLOW DEEP BREATHS, maybe even close your eyes. When monitoring patients with electrodes, breathing exercises proved to calm electrical storms in the brain! Love watching you and your lovely heart. ❤

[@mirjamschaart]

I am in NO way an expert, but what you described is super similar to how I felt during my burn-out. My partner became chronically ill half a year before and so I became a carer, but at the same time I was still in college, writing my thesis, and also working 20h a week. And I just literally, physically, at one point could not do anything on my to do list. No matter how small. I felt strangled in my own body, still do sometimes.

[@AreebaHaroon]

Do you have any tips for dealing with burnout?

[@ColleenVlogs]

This is exactly how I feel recently! 😢 “strangled in my own body” is the perfect way to describe it. Thanks for helping me to feel seen and less alone by sharing that. I’ll bring it up with my therapist and see what she has to say. ❤ sending you love.

[@mirjamschaart]

@Areeba Haroon For sure professional help is always best. But what helped me most was doing things that make me happy. Even if that meant not doing a task that was actually kind of important. Prioritising my happiness helped so much! And never beating myself up over tasks I did not get to do, always celebrating task I did get done🩷

[@mirjamschaart]

@Colleen Vlogs So sorry you feel that way, it's awful! But happy my comment made you feel less alone, because truly, you are never alone! And your feelings are always valid❤️

[@lindseysquire8417]

It means so much that you’re so open about your mental health. It helps me more than you know. ❤

[@YEAHandrea]

I send you much love and support Colleen!!!

[@callienewberry7468]

Colleen, I have watched you for years and have always seen you as a big sister to us. Giving yourself grace and knowing it is okay to not be okay is how we get through hard times. You are doing an amazing job🤍

[@MusicalMiranda82]

Please Colleen. Give your kids their privacy back. Kids are not content, and it should be THEIR decision if they want to be online or not. #QuitClickingKids

[@emmabrown8398]

Sometimes my depression and anxiety doesn't need a reason and just sneaks up! Rude 🙄🤣 thanks for talking about it xxx

[@ashleyyoung2463]

On the topic of depression. Girl...same. I've been so snappy recently then I get so sad and I feel sick and so exhausted. Then the cycle starts again. So frustrating!

[@kovicseni14]

I was listening to the podcast after watching the vlog about you trying the clothes on you ordered and I was sooo frustrated how you said „I literally never buy clothes online for myself“ when your last vlog was about that lol 😂😂😂

[@marissatressler5653]

The high white boots with the sparkling dress gives me Taylor Swift vibes in the best way!❤

[@y4sm33n]

BOOTS NUMBER TWO! The white tall cowboy boots! Stunning!

[@natashacurrie5140]

I’m staring at a bottle of antidepressants and readying myself to take the first step of starting them to make me feel better like I know they will. Mental health is so hard. Thanks for being so open about your struggles, it’s a huge comfort to have you alongside me in my own journey!

[@alexandriaedwards10]

Sending you light and love! Proud of you for taking a step. You are not alone ❤

[@kellsbells3703]

You got this!! One day at a time.

[@karaaaholbert]

My Doc Martens were super uncomfy when I first got them too, but after I wore them for a while and broke them in they got a lot more comfortable and have lasted me for years and years! So maybe if you wear those super cute boots a bit more they might get more comfy :)

[@MagsSteenkamp]

Sending you lots of love and support, Depression sucks I know I have it as well as anxiety, and what few people realize is that it's not something that goes away. Whenever I have a good few months and I think I’ve gotten over the worst of my depression, it silently returns. This isn’t a battle I asked to fight. I’m tired of knowing it’s always coming back. That is what few people realize about depression. So I fully understand your frustration about it and sending you lots of love.

[@bettyboop020811]

I was feeling like this a couple days ago and couldn’t stop crying. I work from home and was crying while working.

[@SorryCharlieBrown]

Hey Colleen, I just want you to know that I started seeing a therapist and a psychiatrist and its all because of you. Thank you for being so vulnerable. I'm feeling much better now.

[@manjitpannu5408]

The beginning where you described depression was so relatable. Thank you for sharing. I don’t know if my depression will ever go away. I feel this way every day.

[@mustangrose]

Waking up drawing in stuff you haven't done and need to do but know you probably won't be able to, is exactly why I've been drawning in anxiety and depression ever since becoming a mom. And I don't work or anything outside of caring for my son. You are not alone.

[@madisynruder3308]

these kids are so free to express themselves, they are so smart i love watching them grow

[@justicebfrazier]

Thank you so much for sharing your mental health struggles. It makes me feel less alone. I love you!!

[@erykabarker52]

i love watching your vloggs so much. you’re so real and a beautiful soul. i’m sorry you’re feeling depressed/ going through depression. it was extremely hard, especially mixing adhd with it. you are strong and will get through it!! don’t beat yourself up for not being able to get out of bed. just take it one day at a time. 💜💗

[@moonbread2334]

I'm also dealing with out-of-nowhere depression and a bunch of other weird physical/mental symptoms right now. It's so confusing and frustrating and it freaks me out. And sometimes I end up spiraling into an even worse state by thinking "why is this happening? is something wrong with me? does this mean it's going to happen all the time now?" But it's affirming and honestly a bit calming to hear you talk about your experience. Thank you so much for sharing and sorry you're dealing with this. I hope we can both find the courage to lean on people for support, and that we'll find some relief soon.

[@monicaseaton9794]

White boots definitely!. I think the taller ones were having a MOMENT! definitely a good vibe. You can't go wrong with either white boot!

[@lianahewitt6927]

I love how real you always are. I’ve learned so much from watching your blogs and I really appreciate it and you

[@daniellasandoval7352]

TTQ: will you ever talk about your prev marriage?

[@tammiedowning2188]

I haven't watched in so long due to having my own baby and going back to work full time. Those babies are SO big now.. I can't believe it. ❤️❤️

[@wilpse]

when Maisy cuddles something she says aw?? that's THE CUTEST THING I'VE EVER HEARD

[@jessicagrover402]

My son is now 15 but he was given a bouncy house for his 1st birthday by his grandparents. Let me tell you that was one of the best gifts EVER! We used that thing all the time. Within the past year it finally bit the dust. Between my son, his cousins and my my niece it paid for itself a million times over ❤

[@ellycehayley3580]

It’s interesting how you describe the feeling of being in a cup of water filling up to explain your anxiety. I use a similiar thing - it’s like I’m treading water in the ocean and the waves just get worse and worse. Currently in the middle of a depressive episode too right now, so sending my love.

[@kaylaslone5965]

The way Wesley says boo every time while playing peekaboo is absolutely precious 🥰

[@Andersonfamilyvlogs.]

Thank you for being so open you help me so much and make me feel better because i know I’m not alone and other people feel this way❤

[@kathiegaris1982]

Just an idea, maybe reading the sad journal entries from when you were young is affecting you. I know sometimes remembering things like that can bring me down. Little you wouldn't want you to still be sad ❤️

[@savannahk7991]

I never comment but i’ve been watching you for yearsss. I just want to let you know I really appreciate you speaking on your experience with depression. I’ve had an experience i’d never had before recently where I felt all kinds of emotions that i’ve never felt and I didn’t have a reason for feeling them. (Im getting help now, yay) It freaked me out, but knowing that other people have those feelings as well makes me feel hopeful. Watching your vlogs warms my heart and reminds me sadness and anxiety are temporary feelings. So thank you queen, love you🥰

[@sarahpellis3566]

The same thing happened to me the other day. Couldn’t not get out of bed. You got this Colleen!

[@Schmelda]

Cory's editing of Maisy feeling some kind of way about her brothers wrestling had me in STITCHES!

[@joalexander8275]

I'm so sorry you're dealing with your depression being bad at the moment - right there with you. Grateful for you though because this video reminded me I needed to reorder my meds! 😅

[@emilyflavell1658]

I had a really bad, really overwhelming day today, but watching this vlog helped me unwind and feel normal again- thank you so much for posting

[@kierstynedmondson7617]

I AM SO SPORTSSSS😂 the most Colleen thing I’ve ever heard

[@keara.ls3]

9:37 Mazie's having a blast meanwhile her brothers are...well... being brothers 😂😂😂🥰

[@martamontero3951]

Just, now that you have all those sad feelings, try to keep care of yourself. Many times we forget ourselves in this pregnancy and motherhood journey. As better you are as better your kids will be. Don't worry Colleen. Lots of love from Spain ❤

[@Izzy-z7u]

Anxiety is so incredibly draining and confusing, i also myself struggle with anxiety, Ive been through the stuff that you explained such as feeling anxious when I’m alone or not feeling well, trust me it’s not something you’ll feel forever. I suggest finding a therapist you like and just doing the things you enjoy! Anxiety is a very scary confusing thing and it’s hard to get through but I promise you it’s possible🫶 love you Colleen!!

[@mommy4life602]

From a nurse: Watch out with bath bombs with kids. They can cause urinary tract infections easily just FYI. I love you gurl!

[@ColleenVlogs]

Omg! I didn’t know that! I got a “child safe” one so I thought it would be okay. I feel so dumb. 😩 Thank you for letting me know!!!!! No more bath bombs! 🙅🏻‍♀️

[@mommy4life602]

@Colleen Vlogs don't even sweat it love. You love your kiddos so much and I know you never would do anything to hurt them. You're such a great mom!

[@abby3448]

Tortilla talk: I’m 17 and suffer from anxiety and depression, a few weeks ago I had my first full on panic attack where I was sobbing and felt like I couldn’t breathe, personally I prefer to be alone whenever this happens. My question is, whenever you get these anxiety attacks, what do you do to help yourself get through it? What are your coping mechanisms? I watch your videos every day and it helps me stay in the moment and it’s become such a routine, thank you!

[@MissAdeleJayde]

If you’re somewhere where this is available, grab an ice pack and hold it to your chest. It helps reduce my panic attacks to at least a manageable level so I’m functional enough to go through other coping mechanisms.

[@abby3448]

@@MissAdeleJayde Thank you so much, I will try to do that!

[@christinereinelt5172]

@@MissAdeleJayde I’ll have to try this as well, thanks for the tip

[@cate5834]

or put your face in ice cold water there is some sciencey thing that happens to forces your nervous system to calm down. also what helps for me is trying to embrace the feeling i know it sounds weird but for me its like bring it on! that sometimes makes it go away

[@maddied3886]

Another great one is called 5 Senses where u point out 5 things u see 4 things you hear 3 things u feel and 2 things you taste

[@candyking380]

Thanks for your honesty in your depression. I understand this so much.

[@warriormamma8098]

Colleen good sleep is crucial. Find a way to make it a priority please. Discuss it with your doctor as you may need meds. At least some nights if you have help with the babies.

[@missmaryreadaloud]

I remember when I was going to college a few times a week and working at my apartment building as a cleaner. Sometimes I was doing homework, going to college and working and then I would feel like all my time was gone. I was also not meeting any people/ making friends at school. It was stressful and I'm sure there were other things going on too. One day I couldn't get out bed to go to work and spent two days in bed. It wasn't like I was tired and needed to sleep. I physically and mentally could not get out of bed and when I did I had to go back to bed. It was one of the worst feelings I've ever had in my life. You are an amazing person, I'll be thinking of you. Thank you for sharing your story and talking about mental health (which still has a stigma about it and is not talked about enough). Mary (education assistant, BC)

[@studywithlexii]

I struggle with that feeling of paralysis pretty much every day, and I have since I can remember. It wasn't until university when I finally started to go to therapy that it became apparent that that feeling of paralysis was due to trauma I had experienced, but never fully processed. For me personally, I started practising somatic experiencing and nervous system regulation with my therapist to help foster feelings of calm and safety in my body. That did wonders for me. I still struggle to get out of bed most days now, but I am able to manage it so much better because I have the tools to do so. It doesn't control my life or my mind anymore, it's more like a side character in my life :) maybe nervous system regulation could be worth looking into for you!

[@BabyRastasaurus]

That depression is so present at the time I. Life when we should be happy is tough. It feels so unfair that we first go through this massive physical burden that pregnancy is and then because it's not enough there are depressions, physical health problems and all this pressure and guilt that others and we ourselves put on us. I am so glad you have your family and friends to support you this much.

[@LacroixLady]

Thank you for being so open and honest Colleen! Your videos help me get through stormy and dark days❤

[@karabradbury6731]

THE TWINS ARE GROWING UP TOO FAST 😭

[@sarenamacias]

FR😭😭😭

[@24K_TRXPVIBEZ]

IKR

[@amysimms4518]

THEY AREE

[@belleclaire910]

They were just born 😭😭

[@Peas286]

They really are ❤

[@lularoo]

I really appreciate your mental health realness - a lot of us are dealing with anxiety and depression day to day and different things work for different people - especially while raising kids! One of my main issues while raising young kiddos was starting myself down a shame depression spiral that would paralyze me - My counselor suggested me read the book "The Upward Spiral" and it was a great book that both helped me understand brain chemicals and the link to depression anxiety and to catch myself when going into a shame spiral. Other things that helped get me out of the funk was mindfulness practices, accomplishing small tasks, and moments of gratitude. Best of luck on your continuing journey through the dark and finding your light :)

[@ColleenVlogs]

Thank you for the suggestion! I’m gonna order that book now! ❤

[@juliette_lg_cote_3d]

The bouncy house bit was hilarious, I couldn't stop laughing at the part where Maisy was "sad" but not 😂😂😂

[@katieeek948]

I have the same doc martins, wear them a lot Colleen. They get sooo comfortable when you wear them a lot. Trust me.

[@ashesrose5]

You need a VACATION mama, don't forget self care is necessary to be your best self for your kiddos. Love from Oregon ❤

[@ashesrose5]

I commented before I saw you went on a date.. 🙌

[@Aprilluv-u2rrd]

Depression is a beast but you are so strong and have been through so much! You got this ❤ love you

[@MissAdeleJayde]

It could be burnout as well. I sometimes will go through periods were I’m so depressed for no reason and a lot of times it’s solely because I’ve had too much going on and I got too overwhelmed and needed to shut down for a little bit. I hope you feel better soon.

[@missnannyinga]

This just made my whole morning. Your family is so cute! 💗💗💗

[@sharonalire1811]

T.T. question.... what would you do for your episodes if you didn't have the support system that you do have? Do any of your support system family have episodes as you do?

[@emilyallison799]

colleen i was wondering if we ordered your monochrome hoodies when should we get them?

[@BrandzBerg]

It’s obvious this week you have felt more down and moosey has been by your side so much more! Adorable, we don’t deserve dogs ❤ the one vlog he wouldn’t even let you film he was just trying to hug you 😢

[@Kayla-ms5um]

I agree im trying to get my school to have a green ribbon week so we all learn what mental heath really is and its more than depression and that there is more like anxiety and how to help your friends or others who have mental health issues. And you will get through this hard time like you always do :)

[@Beatriz-jx4om]

Colleen, you are so brave for talking about this, unfortunately we live in this world that make we believe that we aren't enough in anything. We are not good enough, we are not smart enough, we are not efficient enough, we are not productive enough, but guess what you are a badass mama who deserve self love and is doing the best she can! Your kids are so lucky to have you as their mother and you are doing great, hope you can feel better soon! Xx 💕

[@CultureGirl77]

Totally the purple boots! They actually go with your dress! The dress has a purple sheen to it, so they totally go!!! 💜

[@lukharmom]

Post partem depression and anxiety hit me with my twins at about the one year mark. I was worried about being worried. It was so hard. Now, 20 years later, I'm still on meds and living my best life.

[@rubyschwartz4794]

Maisy reading you the phrases she knows is SO stinkin' cute 🥺

[@Ange_renee]

Thank you so much for sharing! I am constantly watching your videos and feeling so understood. I am going through the same feeling right now so I totally get it. Hope you are feeling better soon much love ❤

[@jennyp4262]

Hi Colleen, I was wondering where to get the sleep suits that the twin wear to sleep im interested for my baby

[@enyac9877]

The twins are SO in love with Flynn! 😍

[@monkman002]

I wait all day for you to post!!! Love you Colleen! Im currently 35 weeks and 3 days pregnant and so depressed and over it. You help me feel better. -Jewell

[@JoanieBowers]

❤ wishing you a wonderful birth of your baby. 🎉

[@stephanierae0830]

Hi Colleen! I’m wondering what brand of sleep suit you use for the babies? I need one like that for my little guy because he’s too big for the Merlin sleep suit now! Love you! ❤

[@kensinaze6252]

I was just on the phone with my boyfriend on the way home from work explaining this EXACT thing you explained at the beginning!! including the “ITS SO ANNOYING” ending to my attempt at fizzling out of the “im sad and mad at myself” conversation. I needed this, I am feeling exactlyyy that today. We love watching you it makes my day so much better and I relate to you so much. I wish I was your best friend lol. Love you Colleen 😊❤

[@mirandajrp]

I love how Colleen says (about the boots at the end) that "they're dr marten "type" boots." But they literally are Dr Martens lol. And yes, any and all Dr Martens are and will forever be cool and cute 😍

[@ilikemypastaaldente]

One night almost 2 years ago now I had a mental breakdown out of literally nowhere. I had just gotten promoted at work and I was feeling so confident in myself and my relationship. Then boom 💥 complete disfunction. It was like a neurochemical bomb went off in my head. I completely stopped sleeping and eating for weeks. I couldnt find the strength to leave the house for any reason. Even after months of therapy and drugs I couldn't seem to understand what had happened to trigger such a dramatic cognitive episode. But all that to say, mental health struggles can happen to anyone at anytime. All you can do is hunker down with your support system and weather the storm. It will always pass and you will come out so much stronger on the other side. Keeping you in my thoughts!

[@Marisela.alexis]

I’ve been having anxiety at work n go to the restroom & cry & try to calm myself down so I don’t have to leave , I prayed n had a good rest of my shift

[@justathoughtmyfriend1403]

Colleen, you talked about being diagnosed with ADHD. Task paralysis is a very common thing with ADHD. It's when you want to be productive in completing tasks but you can't because you don't have the energy or motivation to do it. Because you are not able to get anything done as time passes, the more guilt and frustration you feel. I go through this all the time to the point of tears, especially before my recent diagnoses and I did not know that I was dealing with executive dysfunction and other neurodivergent challenges. If you can connect with a therapist that is well versed in adult female ADHD, this can help. It is challenging to find though. Another alternative is online support groups and forums that have ADHD/neurodivergent peers on there. This has helped a lot in understanding more about my brain and to not feel so alone.

[@avengedbekah]

9:41 is SUCH an only sister vibe with them wrestling in the background lmao PS Has someone talked to you about emotion dysregulation as a part of ADHD? It's an intense symptom that providers frequently somehow forget about! As a fellow ADHD/OCD person and someone who works in the field - mention bouts of depression to your counselor/therapist/whoevs, how these feelings develop, most importantly including the weeks you felt something coming on and how you processed that. They can help determine if you have depression separately (diagnoses wise!) from your ADHD, or if it is secondary to your ADHD (basically meaning a symptom). Treatments for each can be different!

[@stefanie1676]

@ Bekah Bowser Thank the Lord for this community 🙏 This was much needed for me right now!

[@stefanie1676]

Great information that I did not know!

[@midnightsenthusiast]

your vlogs are literally a part of my night routine. comfort person always

[@lesapo5587]

Literally

[@rachelotremba8100]

Same ❤️

[@aidablazquez1835]

Same! But in my case morning routine, I’m from Spain!

[@katierose6703]

I have been so sad lately…I relate so much to the paralyzed feeling. Everything just seems too much

[@emmamenzies3904]

I feel like people forget that men can also experience post-partum depression. Men's hormones also change. 1 in 3 NICU parents get it, it's a rough time. I'm not sure if I've had it but I definitely have unresolved issues from my 2 kids being in the NICU. Survival mode definitely kicks in

[@rugilemackeviciute2596]

Heyy Colleen! Sending love from Lithuania!! 😊

[@alanahsabato2757]

im only 5 minutes into the video but i just want to say, i wake up like that majority of the week and ive learnt over the years and through therapy that sometimes your brain just has that inbalance and obviously youre aware of that cause you said it, but there doesnt always have to be a reason for the depresson and the task paralysis(adhd makes it a little tricker as you obvs know) it just happens sometimes. Take a little extra care of yourself on those days cause thats exaclty what you need, youre my daily boost of happiness even when youre down or talking about something going on for you or with you it makes me feel better having that reminder that everyone goes through something a little similar and that youre not alone just the way your followers make and made you feel in times like this

[@tristinarobinson7144]

Hi Colleen, I just wanted to let you know how inspiring your videos can be. Your always doing something fun with or for your kids even when your having a hard day. Watching your videos always makes me excited to be a mom one day. 💕

[@bayleebrown620]

Hi Colleen, you might not see this comment, but I wanted to share something I am working on to help my self-talk that my therapist recommended to me. I am working on changing my negatives towards myself into neutrals. I find it very hard to change a negative to a positive, but changing them to a neutral is a smaller step in my mind. Example: "you aren't productive enough" changes to "I am struggling with things I need to do." It still feels true to me but is a little more kind to myself. I love you and your videos. You are amazing!

[@_madelinepearson]

Thank you for making me aware of this. I am going off of my anxiety meds because of certain side effects and my doctors have warned me that there is a greater chance of postpartum depression/anxiety. I had no idea that it could happen way after the baby. I’m due in September with my first baby. I appreciate all of the advice I learn from you and other mommas out there!

[@meg3428]

I am praying for you and your future as well as your baby’s! God is is you!❤ remember no matter what the world, devil, or our mind (and the world and devil trying to play off of it) may try to tell us, we are loved by God. Have a great day! God bless you may God’s will be on your life!!

[@Soph12332]

Colleen I just watched maisy said her first word that video was posted 5months ago and Wesley maisy and Flynn have grown up soo Much I am your biggest fan once you posted at midnight with me in England and I was in bed but I watched it when I wasn’t meant to but I am soo glad I watched it I have never missed one of your videos love your channel and your family Even you I love watching your family grow and have fun you are my favourite person in the world and you inspire me to do much more than I would ❤❤❤🎉🎉