Coming Out as Transgender / Transsexual

[@AutumnAsphodel]

Coming Out as Transgender / Transsexual

[@fmarcum01]

This is the first video I've seen of yours and all I can say is that you're fucking awesome! You are very different from the other MTF transsexuals I've seen because they are usually just straight (they are attracted to men) but I've never seen a demisexual woman such as yourself, especially one who is a MTF transsexual but is attracted to women. :) Don't take it personally because I'm trying to be anything but insulting.

[@esunbardo]

I watched your video with the personalitis and I didn't notice you aré trans. Look like a girl

[@hermetickitten]

I can relate to what you're saying about yourself. I too enjoy isolation, sometimes a bit to much and I tend to push away people. I have a couple of really good friends and they are more than enough for me. Hope you are having a lovely evening, beautiful Autumn Asphodel :3

[@BodyBruiser]

I came out as FTM and sadly it didn't end up going very well. I'm glad it did for you though. The 2 best friends I have were very accepting and open about it but my family isn't. My mother is still in complete denial about the whole issue refusing to believe it and thinking it's some sort of phase, while my sister believes its due to my past. This is honestly the hardest part right now, that and being called a name I hate and referred to with the wrong pronoun.

[@sharonannen8859]

+Rokatsu Ryuzaki * Hang in there. It is tough losing your family; I know and I empathise with you. Family and friends will come and go; your only truest best friend will always be your self. *

[@kathern_rocks]

Always love your videos, I have cousins that think they know more about me and this subject than I do, and because of that thier not talking to me any more. It really hurts, but please keep up with these amazing videos!!!

[@SinaiRubio666]

I can't believe you were a male! You're so beautiful I can't even omg

[@jayfender851]

I keep learning about more and more people who are trans and it really makes me feel like I can come out as trans (ftm) and it feels great to think that I might get accepted

[@francesimagina7]

This is my first video I watch on your channel. I am asexual also. I was born an eunuch. Corrective surgeries did not change my psychological makeup. When I grew up in the 1960s no one talked about or was even aware of Transgender. I discovered it 3 years ago myself. I have been posting videos for 27 months. I am older than your parents.

[@sharonannen8859]

+Frances MaGinness * Frances: It is good to meet you. We are contemporaries. I escaped the butchery of 1950s birth-room surgeons. Please read my comment (above); I fought against that lack of awareness as I grew up from childhood into adulthood. *

[@francesimagina7]

+SharonAnne N okay, I don't see a comment above. I will go to your channel. Hey, thank you for reaching out to me. (hug) I subbed you but no place to leave a message. Please send me a Google+ request so we can talk. Thanks.... I am on Facebook too.... I edited this comment... have no idea why that &39#; was inserted up there.

[@zombiedecimator3739]

I know it must be hard coming out as transgender, just comparing it to my coming out as lesbian. It was pretty fucking hard, if you'll pardon my French. Anywho, more than anything, just never forget: 1. You're beautiful, no matter what. 2. You are worth it. You matter.

[@kevtherev999]

You really are an asset to the human race Autumn. I think what you're doing here is completely amazing and beneficial for people of all backrounds. Keep up the good work girl xx

[@jwjw6731]

Absolutely perfect! Please allow me to confirm that everything you said was dead on. I listened very intently and couldn't believe I was hearing my "Coming Out" story. I followed the same exact process and had the same results. I want to add that I too was considering SRS surgery initially and went back and forth for a few months after coming out. That decision and many more will definitely come when you finally start living your life as woman; notice I said as woman and not like a woman. You may have been born a male but you were supposed to be female....thus to be a woman. Thank you so much for your wonderful video. 💋

[@angelabenedict]

Thank you for posting this. I've had many discussions with people regarding transgender and those who feel that a gender change requires a sexuality change. I don't know why it's so difficult for some to fathom that a male can be heterosexual, transition to female without changing sexual preference. I love your channel :)

[@RCSVirginia]

This is a great explanation of what transgendered is for those of us who are rather confused about this entire matter. It does make things clearer. I am putting this video on my "Coming Out As Gay" KZbin Playlist, and I hope that people will happen upon it. As for your passing as a female, you have nothing to worry about: You have been successful at that. Also, putting captions on this video will help those who are hearing-impaired.

[@Yanasubmits]

Some really good advice there Autumn - thank you

[@CalamityKim1]

So many people in my family said about having sex first before transitioning. One of my brothers even refused to acknowledge anything I said because I hadn't had sex with anyone ... You look so amazing once again xx

[@Zabrian]

Autumn you have been a help to me though i fear i waited way to long to finally accept things. I'm still moving forward and just wanted to say thank you you are a wonderful person.

[@pupspepper]

one thing that u could have mentioned is to regardless if u u're 100 percent sure u're transsexual, to get on blockers asap anyways to be at peace for further musculinization of the body. and if u're sure u're transsexual, that your first priority should always be getting on hormones asap, regardless if social transitioning is already done, because the possible fear of not not passing will get less once physical changes come.

[@hoopnote]

People can't believe you've never been kissed/had a relationship because you're so damn pretty. And I can't believe you don't have a bunch of friends because you're so nice and caring. But if you genuinely prefer being in isolation that's cool :) Although I used to think that, but I soon realised it just made me depressed. Having people around me keeps me happy and motivated.

[@A_massive_wog]

It may be hard for people to believe, but Autumn has only been this person, the person that she wants to be, only very recently. She's said before that before and during her transition she was quite different and hated herself. Now that she has started loving herself she can probably express herself far better.

[@dec23]

Everyone is different. I too have very few friends and that's due to me making it that way. I love people but they actually drain me- I know what I can and can't handle. I've always been an introvert since childhood and nothing has changed. I think people don't understand because most people can't be alone.

[@Tanymsun]

Thanks for the info. Though I do see problem in the future coming out. And yes you are a beautiful woman. Do you talk cost in the transitioning video?

[@DeftilSteve]

As a straight male who is not transgender or transsexual this was indeed informative for me and you are quite attractive.

[@Steffi.EchoGraphix]

I understand about not feeling the need for a wide array of friends. I'm glad I found your channel. I understand your points, but would like to add support at anytime.

[@jweihl81]

Great story I am thinking transitioning your story really helps me

[@deletedmysocialcalender300]

Its really cool that you came out as being trans- that can be pretty damn difficult in today's society (ugh) love your vids, keep up the great work ^.^

[@BadTemperedBear1]

Autumn I found your channel only because I was looking for advice on setting up a KZbin channel (which was very helpful and made me go buy the Logitech webcam and the same mic as you). It wasn't until I clicked on one of your side links that I realised you were trans. I had100% seen you as a girl, so congrats on your transformation. I'm sure something like that must be tough but I just think, "fuck it", live your life on your own terms - you only get one life. Gratz on being strong enough to swim against the tide

[@kae2018]

woweee you're so pretty!

[@carnivorechristina620]

I think it so exciting and refreshing with people like you. Sometimes it takes courage to be the person you truly are, but it is worth it.. it's a way to build up your self-esteem. Actually i don't know any transgenders personally, but i'd like to :). Since the persona is always divided into two parts, everybody has a female and a masculine side. :). I am very feminine in some ways and quite masculine in other ways compared to some men out there :P

[@isaacmonarch8861]

Thanks for shareing your experience, i was thinking of going male to female and i feel like i know a little more about it and know more of how to fit in when or if i do

[@Solitude199]

Thank you for your videos, they are very helpful. I have been struggling with my gender since I was a teen, and scared about how the world would treat me if I became female. I am a combat vet, but coming out to my family and kids as a woman in a male body is more nerve racking than being in Iraq. It takes a lot of courage to face your enemy, but a whole lot more to face your friends. My heart has been begging me to do this. I think its inevitable. Thank you for your brave honesty! - Elise/Shayne

[@rockadockdock9504]

I have to say you are the most beautiful person I have ever seen. Congratulations :)

[@pigmydmm]

im it trans

[@gabrielacortes2692]

Every video that you have made has further inspired me to be my self. I just wanted to say thank you.

[@craigsmithson2551]

You are an absolute star, love you to bits, and only just found you on youtube! You're very pretty too! Keep being yourself xxxxxxx

[@gailgradidge9268]

Really enjoyed your video and will watch the others. I thought I knew what transgender was but I was mistaken, thank you for enlightening me. Great work you are doing in sharing your experiences

[@G0TIMAN]

How do you do that you have such white and beautiful skin? You have it naturally or this is makeup?

[@japie11234]

I smiled almost all the way through this video, you're a huge inspiration for me. I currently identify as genderqueer, but the more days go by, the more I start to feel like I want to be a girl full time.

[@celeste6641]

I love your videos ! Your so good explaining things this video was very helpful .

[@adrianchildoon]

I appreciated the demystification between sexual orientation and gender identity. It's encouraging to all that we are not alone in our various settings in that the mental and physical aspects of our lives aren't easily resolved albeit with medication and therapy. Yes, society needs to change however, change starts with the individual in that we need to be true to ourselves and focus on what really makes us happy - life is too short to live in a cage made up by an archaic society. Thank you for sharing.

[@MichaelaMyers505]

thank you for this, you are a huge help to many people struggling with their identities and this is what we all need to hear, that someone else has gone through it and has our back. Soon the trans community will be treated as equals and not seen as a shameful secret. I hope at least..

[@hannahlacy8538]

Hey Autumn, First of all, thank you do much for making these videos! You have helped me overcome a lot of the personal struggles in my life with regards to my identity. I am a bisexual, 17 year old girl. Recently I came out to my mother and told her about my sexuality.. She said that she "will always love me" but that she doesn't agree with my lifestyle. One of my best friends is transgender and she has really supported me throughout my life, especially when I started discovering my sexuality and began identifying as bisexual. Today I told my mom that I was considering binding myself because I don't always feel feminine and sometimes I want to look more masculine. She said that she "doesn't like that butch-y look," and that she thinks that my best friend is a bad influence on me. I know this is a big question, and that everyone has their own issues to deal with, but do you have any advice? Thank you SO much Autumn! Sorry that this question is so long..

[@thebonesaw..4634]

I've watched several of your videos and I have to say that they are just wonderful. You've done a great job explaining them in such an awesome way that makes them so much easier for us laypeople to understand. I also think that you were truly blessed to have a grandmother as understanding and accepting as yours. Having watched one of my own siblings come out nearly 25 years ago, I know how terrifying it can be. Even in today's more accepting society, it’s still such a hard thing for LGBTs to endure. I wanted to ask you a couple of questions (and you may have already answered this but I simply could not wade through all the hate filled garbage that so many trolls feel the need to throw at topics like these): 1. How did you come to terms with your gender identification and your schizophrenia and other disorders? Did you ever worry that any of your disorders may have been influencing (or confusing you) about your gender identification? If you had any concerns, how did you work through that to a point where you felt comfortable with your feelings about your gender ID? 2. If you didn't have any concerns about your disorders influencing your gender ID, could you explain what it was that made it clear to you that they were not involved. Again, I think your videos are just wonderful, your grandmother is wonderful, and you are wonderful and absolutely beautiful. Thank you so much for helping the world better understand these things.

[@bunny-bunny-bunny]

Ugh you're beautiful and I'm glad that everything has worked out for you c:

[@sylviayoung9009]

You look so pretty and communicate so well. Great video!

[@MrGogetaify]

Do you have any advice for people who want to change their gender while they are in, say, high school or going through puberty

[@greygray3455]

You are SO pretty and awesome :) your videos always make me feel better

[@JasonTimes]

My family is exactly how you describe it. They think i'm joking about it, and the reason they think that hurt me I tried to explain to them, that this transition is something I need to do to be happy with myself, and they act like i'm some wierdo. It's paintfull being accept by your friends and not your family. But how you said. I'm doing it for me. If they want to be a part of my life they have to accept me for who really i am. hank for everything you done :)

[@noahsharp6913]

Good for you! Be who you are and don't let anyone tell you differently!

[@2016T]

First! Love your videos :)

[@ValentinaLichman]

you're amazing!! thanks for helpful video :3

[@kryptonichawk3]

I love the way you talk, like how you pronounce words. And your hair is beautiful, I envy it so much! You're so beautiful. I have so much respect for you for voicing your story. I wish you the best of luck - from the gender confused 13 year old :3

[@leotardis6897]

It'd be interesting to see you do a video with your Grandmother. She's obviously been a big part of your transition and your life in general, she might have some interesting insights for people in similar situations (both transgender people and their families).

[@crowley9595]

The only thing that worried me here is the way you said you didn't initially want hormones before transition and surgery, and seemed to think others feel the same. I am DYING to get hormones, they're the only part of transition I know for sure that I want. Is this worrisome, unhealthy or something bad? Is it feasible (I'm under the impression that HRT comes first in the transition-timeline, normally?)?

[@AutumnAsphodel]

Andrew Crowley No need to worry about that. I know some people that I've been in contact with want to start hormones, but are scared to. Or others that are looking forward to it. Or even others that don't want to be on them. Personally, I wanted to be on them, but not until after surgery, which I was not even considering SRS. However, the more time passed, the more I needed to transition and be myself. So, that's why my mind changed. Before I actually started I became ecstatic about it and was *SO EXCITED* once I was on hormones and when it was time for surgery! All the best to you, hope things work out!

[@crowley9595]

Okay, thank you for the reassurance :) I'm so excited to think of getting HRT! The rest is unclear, but I'm hoping that my feelings will become more certain as I break down shame and start unlocking parts of my brain, as seemed to happen for you? By the way, thank you for these videos. They really are helpful, and were one of the first things that showed me transgender and transsexual people were real, and that it was a viable path for me. Before that, I was lost. Now, I'm still kind of lost, but not directionless. Thank you for that :)

[@aardfay]

Andrew Crowley go andrew! : D

[@crowley9595]

Haha thank you, though I guess I'll be needing to change the name sometime :P It's funny, I never once liked my name, though it's female counterpart was always cute to me. Anyway, thank you, friend.

[@jenmonty1007]

you are amazing. my daughter is transgender, age 10, and your videos are awesome for me to watch. you are very inspirational. thank you.

[@robbinbanx7439]

Wow,U look completely different without the gloss black eye shadow!!

[@denise-comicnerd-bray]

I came out just a year ago by watching a video called i am jazz. that helped a lot things about MY self over the years. born as a boy and now i'm..... well let's just call it 'a working progress'

[@aardfay]

now you're turning into a woman ^^ if that is what you wish

[@denise-comicnerd-bray]

aardfay That is what I want. I never been so serious about anything, in my whole life.

[@corpse1025]

When i came out near the end of last year, right before i told her she joked about me killing her and my sister so i felt forced into telling her right a way, it feels like its taken her a long time to realize that i'm serious but now she is slowly accepting me for who i am.

[@mayumisiano]

You're awesome and I can't get enough of telling you this

[@bxbygirllnik7685]

I have had that with my family it seems those you don't expect are more accepting sometimes then the ones you expect to get the support from which you don't.

[@foreverthedarkest]

Girl, you are gorgeous! Have you seen Lost Girl?? You look JUST like Bo!!

[@katyvaters8558]

youre a beautful woman girl!! thanks so much for these vids, my friend ayanda is MTF and she is on a surgery list, i didnt know that you can have lubricant production or orgasms....im super stoked for her now!!!

[@beatbox64661986]

I just came out to my family and friends it was hard but I fill so much better you look great and I like all your videos you have a good night and take care =•]

[@eonarose]

I wrote a letter to my grandma the night before she had to fly out of state. I told her to read it after she left because I couldn't say it in person. I came out to my dad by text though XD He took it better than I thought he would. I think my grandma told him before I did but w/e. It all worked out.

[@Amily6]

you are so beautiful! what do you use on your skin? your skincare and makeup.

[@stephgonzalez2895]

Haleluyah for your voice! You should totally do ASMR videos.

[@lauralaura6115]

thank you for your video, i m french transgender woman , i have 44 years old, i dont speak very good english, but i understand your coming out video. i m affraid about reaction of mother, she don't know more my transition. but she see my nails and hairs growt and i made epilation of face too. i dont find more the best moment for speaking with she. so thank you for your videos, i like your voice too, i hope i can obtain the similar resul wit mine. good weekend. Laura

[@sharonannen8859]

+Laura Laura * Your English is well-written and well-composed. *

[@lauralaura6115]

+SharonAnne N Thank you ;) i learn actually my english ;)

[@palmskirtrebel253]

You know what Autumn? I like isolation too.

[@Sumoners]

good tips, wish i knew them or anything at all 15year ago... my friends allready know how girl im, sometime they only dont understand im not rly gay, 1st who they know i weared skirts altime, 2nd high heels too - but then when i told my dad im girl, he wont believe, altought im wear highheals and dress sametime, lol

[@gabrielacortes2692]

Awwwww .......... This video made me cry.

[@tedoymisojos]

I would like to understand more. Im a female (as in vagina, breasts, menstruation,) and I dont understand what you mean by feeling

[@kae2018]

+Liz Torres you aren't trans, therefore you haven't experienced feelings of dysphoria. this doesn't mean those feelings don't exist. pretty simple......................

[@PrincessRainbowSparkles]

+Liz Torres i think (and im not a transgender woman so i obviously i dont exacty know how dysphoria feels) that feeling female means that you feel comfortable with things that are associated with feminity in our sociaty; for example, wearing female clothes, doing things that usually girls do, but also feeling like you would be happy to have a female body instead of having a male body plus feelings of self hate towards your actual body. Because maybe a boy likes makeup or likes female clothing or likes other things that in our society are considered female but feels comfortable in a male body, so he wouldnt be a transgender. So as I see it, being trans means feeling more comfortable on the opposite sex body, as well as feeling more comfortable with whatever society associates with the opposite sex.

[@matthewsetzer9810]

I know I'm trans but I can't transition yet my family is all religious and I'm just always depressed like I just want to be the girl I am!! At 16 no one takes u SERIOSULY :( what should I do ?

[@groupsaredumb]

Phill Pearson As a Christian (and a trans*) the reason why religion is involved is because to change genders is saying that God made a mistake (and God doesnt make mistakes). However, regarding the high number of suicides involved in the trans community and that suicide is treated in many religions as an unforgivable sin then a dilemma arises as to which is the greater sin; to say that God was wrong or to commit suicide.

[@Vexic929]

groupsaredumb the thing is though, dear, that no sin is greater than another. I am a Christian as well and personally, I don't think that gender and sex have anything to do with each other. Your gender doesn't have to match your sex and that doesn't mean that God made a mistake. It just means your gender and sex don't match up, simple as that. I think gender is a ridiculous concept anyway, it's just a way to create "roles" for people to fit into. It's not even mentioned Biblically so there's no reason for it to be considered a mistake on God's part and so it isn't sinful to admit your gender and sex do not to match up.

[@groupsaredumb]

Vexic929 I was simply stating that whatever gender you were born God wants you to die that gender; not have a sex change. He also doesnt want you to commit suicide either. Oh and there is one unforgivable sin and thats blaspheming the Holy Spirit which would mean that there are sins greater than others.

[@Vexic929]

groupsaredumb But even the "unforgivable" sin is only unforgivable if you do not ask forgiveness and repent before you die, just like any other sin so there is no sin that is greater than any other. In the verse referring to blaspheme being unforgivable it generally means blaspheming by denying him completely which would be refusing to believe and ask forgiveness or repent. If someone asks for forgiveness and repents after they have done so before they are still forgiven but because most people do not it is referred to as "unforgivable" because they have already made up their minds and will not change them. As far as gender goes, as I said before, I don't think it has anything to do with sex. Yes, God wants you to die your gender and your sex and not change it because He made you that way for a reason but that doesn't mean that your gender and sex will match up.

[@matthewsetzer9810]

I'm an atheist I don't care about what you god thinks he doesn't even exist

[@TalesOfTheGamer]

I keep on getting pushed back into the closet for my perceived masculinity. I am attracted to males.

[@meredithk7610]

Autumn I think you are very eloquent and beautiful. i am very happy things worked out for you..

[@bradleynoneofyourbizz5341]

You look so much like Mary Louise Parker you could be her stand in!

[@adrianchildoon]

Thought I'd share with you the song by Macklemore & Ryan Lewis - Same Love feat. Mary Lambert (Official Video) Once again, thank you for the videos - they helped me to look at life from a different perspective.

[@ashleyclark9456]

For someone who went make to female, you're very beautiful. a lot of people never look as feminine and pretty.

[@katey03]

This is the 2nd video I have watched of yours, I thought you were a woman but had some sort of different accent. It is interesting. Good luck to you.

[@trevordegler1544]

Really helpful, Thank you!

[@sonicadv27]

These videos of yours are interesting and as a man i can honestly say you look beautiful, even in a video like this in which you're using very little makeup, and that's awesome for you, i guess :)

[@emilymalkin1295]

I really love your eyes! :)

[@oscarfart7752]

I was born a girl but I identify as a guy still girl I cant afford the operation

[@nisenivid]

Same here

[@TrekkieGamerOtaku]

Me to. It sucks.

[@sharonannen8859]

+Oscar Fitsgerald * True. Full transformation F-M is more involved than full transformation M-F. *

[@emmanuelsoria3840]

dear Autumn should I get a srs appointment for me and how can I make a appointment with you

[@ohmahgawdfilms]

I came out as trans female when I got into college a year ago... and I found a group of people who supported me and got it out of me lol

[@StephanieElizabethMann]

Thank you Autumn, I am a transfemale. I came out soon after discovering I was transgender. I am also a lesbian. I have found that most of the transwomen I have seen on youtube are heterosexual in the sexual orientation is it is good to hear someone who is also same gender attracted. I have often wondered why I was ablt to be transsgender and be married. I have been married and divorced twice and was engaged when I came out. I am now living with no need to be in a relationship and feeling the better for that. Thank you for this video.I considered being trans as normal as being alive so I just told people. I have had all the surgery I needed and feel very very happy contented with myself. The church I went to said they were accepting but in the end they were not. I was also threatened with violence and death but that seems to have passed by now.

[@lmusicandblueroses]

Your so cute . And you are soooooooo beautiful .😍❤️💙💙❤️❤️everything about you is perfect

[@stevenwhitelaw8456]

Another great video

[@emmanuelsoria3840]

I was born as a male but this doesn't mean I have to identify as male I feel like I'm a woman who is attractive to women and men also I like to paint my nails and toes blue.

[@lionheart221988]

You are a gorgeous woman!! Yay for you being out!! :)

[@ediann]

thanks for sharing your experiences on being transgender. you're beautiful. love, emily

[@skinnyralph459]

What was your age when you transitioned?

[@lisakigar9930]

I could not find in from a very young. It is very hard to make friends . I do have good support.

[@killakirby88]

Wow girli your story is so simaler to myn its scarry we even strated transitioning about the same time xxxooox B.V.

[@Deximaged]

Why so many labels?? Demisexual?? Isn't it natural that we want to fall in love and then have sex?? Personally, I don't know too many people that want to have sex without any emotional involvement - are they asexual?? I'm confused, seriously, all those labels seem a bit crazy to me.

[@jjmunna]

I just found your video. I just wanted to say. The best of luck.

[@TatteredAndTornPages]

Your a kind woman.

[@sylviayoung9009]

What is your profession?

[@A_massive_wog]

She said in another video that she does Programming.

[@sylviayoung9009]

Great job.

[@icebaby3456]

Iam a f to m transgender and identify as a male and am straight in that respect but I totally understand what you are saying and would like to say you are a very beautiful women

[@AexSict]

Thanks!

[@10susan10]

Curious - ever taken the 16 personalities test?

[@PEACESEATINGDISORDERVLOG]

The first vid of yours i watched was on multiple p.d. And I thought u were a woman at first, youve done well :)

[@deirdrekerrigan9178]

thank you

[@andrearosa6722]

I have a new trans sister my younger bro came out to all of us his dam and shes on hormones now. Do trans ever detransition. My bro became this way later in life. I have to accept it. Ive talked to her on the phone since she lives in a different state. But im nervous in person by how i may take it n have to get used to exactly how she is now. 🌈

[@lizkarinabl]

i thinkk i love you!