5 Common Things That Happen After Emotional Abuse

[@sev-nutz8524]

It's so odd how abusive relationships are all the same it's like a script we all follow.

[@ralucapuiu9744]

You're so right about the intuition, there were so many red flags all throughout and I chose to ignore them, I was lying to myself and lost myself in the details, trying to justify this person's actions (even after a major betrayal), at the end of the day I needed to look at the big picture to finally see things as they really are, there's no hope for kind and respectful closure with these type of people, they will always try to flip the script to fit their narrative, so toxic

[@joliescott6845]

Thank you for this I’m about 3 month out of an emotionally abusive relationship and only just realized that it was abusive because I kept making excuses for his behavior even after he did so many bad things but I’m so ready to move on and bring back who I really am not the shell he made me

[@lib5864]

I hope you're doing well

[@isaacJjacobs]

I think this information should be taught in schools

[@soniachetty6899]

I thought I healed and recovered but today I broke down 😥feeling suicidal , the lock down makes it so much more difficult to handle but , I continue to pray for my healing .

[@annaolausson6862]

It will come. Normal to have ups and downs. Take care and be kind to yourself

[@russclay906]

You are absolutely correct about obsessing over the situation.

[@thespiritguy3688]

I really enjoyed this. Thanks for uploading. My ex pushed me to going insane and made me believe it was my fault. Her reactions were incredibly aggressive, demeaning and cruel, over some slight she perceived. I began to depend on her validation for my own happiness and everyone was telling me to get out. I finally did when she attacked me for the second time, and then when the relationship was done she slandered me online. But she’s gone, and my life continues to tick over ❤️

[@exodus_gaming5282]

We have seen kinda the same my friend! She was manipulative and abusive towards me and blamed me for it

[@casperinsight3524]

It's deep is an understatement. It's all encompassing at the beginning but gets infinitely better once you accept what is and deal with it. B kind to yourself thru upheaval, youre releasing which is the path to freedom. It's uncomfortable at first but very rewarding. Once you become whole you will never abandon yourself again 👍 You have found your value and will never let it slip away no matter what. Your boundaries are built. Onwards and upwards 😎

[@Professorclown]

I think you're very brave, with what you've been through, and now helping other 'victims' of narcissistic relationships and the ensuing abuse. Thanks for having the strength to continue this great work in enlightening others to this insidious condition.👍😎

[@stardex399]

how does it take strength again

[@jathpurr]

@@stardex399 it can be incredibly emotionally taxing to hear about victims stories and be exposed to that side of humanity over and over again. It takes strength to continually make content like this knowing that you'll be exposed to the stories of the horrid faces of some people but well worth it knowing that you helped someone out of a terrible situation

[@avgonyma1]

5 things that happen after the emotional abuse: 1. Loneliness and isolation: whenever you end any relationship you will feel this. But more intensively after an emotionally abusive relationship (when they isolate you from your emotional support network). Not all of them do it. Or they will turn other people against you, after the end. They want you to suffer. 2. Ruined self-esteem: Your own emotional state during the relationship: you were more independent at the begining of it. The abuse is designed to destroy your self-esteem. That becomes tied to the other person's approval and the success of the relationship. (You have invested a lot of emotions into it. So you keep going back, even after you know it's abuse). 3. Becoming obsessed with labeling the person, trying to learn as much as possible, to know what they are thinking. Because they will not tell you. You want answers. It's natural. And helpful. But at some point it's time to stop and move on. You want to come healthy out on the other side. Stop reading all of that, and listening to every story. You have to learn the lesson, and it's deep. It's different for everyone. Dig deep into yourself to figure out what goes on inside there, and what needs to be addressed. 4. Emotional upheaval: when you start looking into yourself, what brought you into this, what triggered you, why those things were such triggers. And why you have hidden them from yourself. You need to deal with those supressed emotions. (Inner work). It's like pulling out a string:

[@christyb9487]

Thank you!

[@avgonyma1]

@@christyb9487 thanks for the feedback!

[@oceangrownkae]

It’s not quite on point 🎯, a bit out of order mainly 😉 ~ again just saying 😆

[@avgonyma1]

@@oceangrownkae sweetie, it's just a summary, not a transcript. If you don't like it, you can write your own. :)

[@eupiaeupia2647]

Thank you!

[@rubywine2430]

I am so happy i found your videos. I just left a 15 year emotionally abusive relationship and I've really been having a difficult time. But everything you have discussed makes sense - especially the synchronicities and spirituality. Thank you for this. So much.

[@-beastie-2847]

Hi Ruby, I just left a 4 year abusive relationship and as finding things very hard so I seriously cannot imagine a 15 year one. I’m very sorry to hear this, the best of luck to you :)

[@Dreamseeker731]

Great content. I'm fresh out of an emotionally abusive relationship. It was really starting to take a toll on my mental health. I was starting to honestly believe that there was something wrong with me. I was also tired of my feelings constantly being discredited and being told I'm (overly emotional) or that I'm (too sensitive).

[@wolfmoontarot]

Close to 3 years out of my abusive relationship, and I cannot tell you how affirming this video was for me. Thank you so much for posting this. I feel like crying after watching this because it helped me to understand what I went through, and begin to come into healing and acceptance in a larger way. Thank you.

[@Dragonfly_magictarot]

The lessons are personalized. For sure. When you are coming out of it, it literally feels like your vision is getting better and better as the days and weeks pass. I never want to go through this again and I think that's why so many of us want to do the work, learn and move forward with the information.Oh yeah, the synchronicities, numbers, the self-awareness, and the intuition...it just starts happening.

[@kiraveeee]

This happened to me, and on a very public level. I ended a toxic friendship with a couple of narcissists, and they tenaciously and ruthlessly slandered me online and gossiped about me to multiple people, to the point where I lost my job and became hated. Hell hath no fury..

[@sunnyclouds1372]

Omg so true i had to learn the lesson to move one to a happier, healthy future. In the end I can test these narcs without looking for red flags... I just by saying no and I want to take things slow and wait for the outburst or they just ghost, either way I am good.

[@sunnyphoenix5603]

Make sure you stay away after you leave and dont go back! These people are sadistic and get pleasure from hurting you!

[@annejewell9624]

This video is one of the synchronicities I needed in this moment. I put the blinders on and thought I could walk away and leave everything in the past. I’ve been divorced from the man for 7 years and avoided best I could while maintaining shared custody. Used grey stone tactics naturally without even knowing it was a “thing”. I didn’t realize how much I had buried and had not faced and dealt with until his soon-to-be second ex wife contacted me. After a long personal conversation with her I felt both validated and shell-shocked simultaneously. Like a wave of PTSD. The emotions that came up were fierce and unexpected. Now, through your videos, I’m learning and digesting what it was I was living in, what it did to me personally, the spiritual awakening that did, in fact, follow, and how much work I still need to do.... I’m awake in a new way now and I continue to be grateful.

[@deadbirdTHEstory]

Thank you so much. You're videos helped me to finally break up with another narcissistic partner but for the first time before the really bad stuff could happen! Thank you so much. I feel so much stronger than ever before!

[@CSRosano]

OMG! You are the only person EVER who I have heard talk about synchronicity other than myself!! I never used that word but I have told people that when I am on a path to working through anything that I've buried, I start to see things... whether it is a word on a commercial or someone's license plate...or something else like you mentioned with numbers or patterns... it is something that connects what I am going through to something outside of myself and for some reason gives me the sense that I am heading in the right direction. Wow!

[@jamesg2609]

Great video..She left 6 months ago and took all the friends. It's been a struggle thinking about all the fun times and adventures we had . Keep these videos coming.

[@casperinsight3524]

True, But being in relationship with covert narc is lonely and isolated with all the flying monkeys and triangulation etc. The trauma bond is there in relationship and there when it's over. At least if your distanced from them you can heal over time. Staying will only prolong the inevitable and make it harder to let go and heal.

[@ANGRYGMR76]

Casper, it is very difficult to let go. I was hooked within 3 weeks and still fall for the hover. The more I watch these videos to stronger I feel to finally walk away.

[@philipallsopp4818]

No 1 isolation and loneliness. Yep. I was excluded. And after I cut ties, by that time I’d got used to it. I was scapegoated. I’m the 2nd eldest of 8 children, the oldest male, so the easy target. No2 yep. Trying to figure out what was happening, so looking at the details of things that were said and done. I ended up keeping a record of what was being said and kept these texts and emails to keep the context. It was difficult to come to terms with what was happening. I didn’t hear the term “ gaslighting” until 2019. I see patterns. Synchronicity is something that I’ve noticed. Sort of; yep! That fits. I’ve noticed that people are noticing me too.

[@leopluerodong4244]

My ex wife destroyed me. It's been a year, and for some stupid reason i still miss her and I feel empty and hopeless. Idk what I'm even living for. Ive lost her, all my friends, and I barely have the willpower to stay awake during the day. If anyone out there has moved on, how did you do it? As broken as I am, being a man, I cant imagine anyone would ever want me again.

[@mythornshaveroses6472]

I shut everyone out when I realized that I needed to leave my ex. I couldn't hope for support for anything I wanted to do. I was tired of being berated for every little thing. Do you know how absurd it is to have someone ask you how much longer you think you can maintain your diet, when you're doing it to look better for them? It was always something like that. My support had to be unconditional though. It was screaming and yelling, if I even asked a question or raised a concern. It was one specific comment that really opened my eyes though. Telling me that they were embarrassed to talk about me to their friends because I made them look bad. I felt completely abandoned. I cooked, cleaned, did all the laundry, tended to our children and I worked full time to make sure bills would get paid. I remember getting yelled at every time things didn't go their way. Felling like their happiness always came from my tears. I was over it. I found the strength to end that relationship, but I have never really felt free of it. Maybe that's because we still have to co-parent. Leaving broke me in every way, physically and mentally. I have been in therapy for years. It's been nice to know someone will listen. Very few really do. I've used that time to invest in myself more. The one thing I can't seem to do is let myself be happy. I always ask myself how other people will treat me or my children, if I make a decision that they don't like. I avoid people as much as possible, choosing instead to focus on simple joys. Nature, photography and music.

[@recovered4life]

On synchronicities - when I was in Week One of the love-bombing phase, nearing the time we were going to meet for an actual date, I was thinking (always thinking!) about everything, and some loud noise entered my awareness at the dog park. I looked up, and it was a train, applying its brakes, coming to a complete stop, for no apparent reason. Just outside the fence of the dog park. FOR NO APPARENT REASON. !!! A train. Coming to a full stop, right in front of me. I laughed out loud. (And I pursued the relationship anyway, but not for too many more weeks). I will NEVER forget that experience.

[@rosseryankeegirl]

In our 2nd month of dating, I woke up out of my sleep with a dead on panic attack. I had never had one in life!! It scared me initially, and the thought of having it wouldn't go away. I tried to figure this out for months. That was literally my body and brain getting me ready for the stress that it was about to take on. The sign was right there...

[@exodus_gaming5282]

I had a very strong gut feeling in the beginning that it was bad and at the end my full body became sick, I couldn’t even hold her hand anymore. It was so bad and I really felt sick being with her. And even then we had sex… and then I got depressed, anxious.. it was bad… I find it so bad for myself that I still gave my body even when I didn’t wanted to…

[@pbjt2396]

@@exodus_gaming5282 I’m sorry. ☹️🫂 this happened to me too. Although it’s been two years now since I’ve left the abuser, I am only just now learning about the effects of all the abuse on my psyche. It really did a number on me, but what a relief it is to know that I wasn’t just experiencing a rotten reality because that’s my life now. No, it was never because I wasn’t going to have a nice life. It was always because the abuser succeeded at robbing me of my joy and overall esteem. I know it is hard sometime but you don’t have to feel ashamed for anything that happened. It happened TO you, you never got to choose. It wasn’t your fault you were innocent and trusting and compassionate. Don’t let that monster ruin the beautiful life and light inside you. You are so much more than the woman who abused you. It is an insult even to call her “garbage…”. To speak of her is beneath you, so put the thought of her scummy spirit in the mud and bury it deep so it can get what it deserves. Give yourself as much gentle patience as you can, and take it slow one day at a time. It will eventually get better and you will feel happier and more like yourself again soon. Be well, take care, and remember - you are so so loved. If no one has told you today? I love you. 🤗 ❤

[@tweety2004potts]

This video is extremely helpful in my healing as I lost my mother during this time and my whole identity has been in a whirlwind.

[@p.d.2273]

This KZbin channel has actually clarified a lot to enable me to separate from repeating those moments that I go over and over again to try to figure out what is going on with this NP. I've been able to step back and see the typical behavior and change from reacting to it to choosing my response. Thank you for your videos; I really appreciate your wisdom!

[@thatschicken]

I'm having a hard day today. Even though it's been 9 months, I'm only now starting to process what happened. Today I was experiencing a lot of what you would call emotional upheaval. I really can't believe I stumbled upon your video. You helped me understand some feelings that were very confusing. Besides that, your entire message really spoke to me and was what I needed to hear today. Thank you.

[@mayonnawoodley5064]

I just got out of a relationship with one and it felt like my whole piece of me had been taking away , this entire this video moved me I needed it

[@nicolehixson2495]

I left yesterday. Im struggling. Almost 5 years with 1 kid together. He has my son for now. Im heartbroken, lost, and depressed.

[@laurenharper1510]

Dear friend -praying for you to have strength ❤️

[@lisset__]

Yes that is the hardest part.. The child.. Living your child with him and "trusting".. I would like to hear more about that too.. I'm with you sister... Going through the same...

[@laurenharper1510]

Dear Lord I pray for a MIRACLE that suddenly this son will be turned over to his mother in jesus name. Amen

[@nicolehixson2495]

So its been a month since i posted this comment. 1 month. Ive accomplished sooo much! I got a car, i got custody of our son with him getting visitations. I moved yesterday into my first apartment on my own! And my son started head start 2 days ago. I didnt cave. I didnt go back. I didnt loose. I won! I won my life back and im building more and more every day ❤ i also got a raise at work😁

[@jessi3271]

Same girl, we gotta stay strong tho

[@lorangeamere2435]

I was with a malignant narcissist-sociopath for one year and a half, 10 years ago. I did 2 years of therapy after that, (one full year of therapy was dedicated to him exclusively) . Since then, I encountered many other narcissits in various areas of my life (friends, bosses). I ended toxic friendships, but unfortunately fell for a covert narcissist back in January 2019. It lasted 8 months before I realised.. I am currently doing another therapy (it's been almost a year now), and I feel like I live my life in this never ending aftermath. It just won't go away, therapy or no therapy. I still hold a lot of resentment, shame and anger. I don't want to live my life as a "victim" and I am trying hard to be good and compassionate towards myself, but a part of my soul is dead. Have I mentioned I don't even bother dating anymore? My past with narcopaths had led me to become utterly paranoid. And it is so painful, because I used to be this nice, joyful, motivated and trustful person. And now I am just constantly broken, lonely and bitter. It really hurts. Maybe there is already a video of yours about that, but if not, could you please cover the paranoia that follows after an abusive relationship with a narcissit? I am so exhausted of being afraid and suspicious of peoples' intentions. I can't seem to be able to get rid of the multiple betrayals, lies, disappointments ,well.. all the abuse. Thank you.

[@naida6958]

Turn to god I did and it helped me with a narcissist evil demon

[@pbjt2396]

Research “what is emotional blackmail” and read about its effect on you. You will start to see things from a new perspective, which is the effect of the abuse on your self-esteem. That should help clear up how you’re feeling and why. Then that will help you overcome it.

[@jusambro]

Synchronicity has been the most eye opening aspect of this!

[@nosleep9816]

Leaving them made me feel so stupid and powerless. Even tho i left, i put my foot down, the realization that they made me struggle with normal relationships makes me feel so weak. I don't want to be a victim but i've been hurt and im not okay yet. I hope that the future makes me happier

[@hmcmordie3606]

This is beautiful and so true and heartwarming I’ve learnt after most recently 15 years life is a journey I did not realise the lessons I was here to learn until I realised was in a classroom, it’s been my whole life’s journey looking back on other relationships this far at 43 I am on my journey to finding spiritual peace, I am thankful to my narcissist and in turn I give them my love and forgiveness as without them I would not be the loving soul I am today, the toughest lessons are often the best Peace love and light 🌈

[@tlotus3032]

Well said, especially the spiritual part!!!

[@beccajacques346]

Thank you so much for making this, I just recently ended an abusive relationship and have been going through so many emotions. I’ve been trying for 2 months to find a therapist but being a broke college student I can’t find anywhere that accepts state insurance that doesn’t already have a waiting list. This describes almost exactly what I’m going through

[@navyamekera8145]

Awesome video, felt like she could read my mind and knew exactly what happened in my life. Isolation, labels, Emotional bubbling up, synchronities, awakening.. thank you for explaining so well. In fact I saw a synchronity while watching this video.

[@virgoyogini5377]

This provided me with clarity and encouragement. Thank you for your genuine sharing.🙏💜

[@Pitbullmom]

I'm so glad I came across your video. I am almost 2 months out of an abusive relationship with a Malignant Narcissist. It was the worst experience of my life. It really took a toll on me mentally and physically in ways that are shocking. I recently saw a pic of myself just 1 year before getting involved with this person, and I tell you, I look like a different person. Just a year and a half with this person made me look about 5 years older. Ever since leaving, I have been trying to pick up the pieces of my life and start over. Mentally I have been struggling. But something in your video made sense to me. When you talk about how eventually you need to let go and stop trying to dissect everything and what went wrong, you're right. I never have been the type of person to be stagnant in a situation. But I have been going down this rabbit hole trying to figure out why he put me through what he did, and just trying to make sense of it all. But as I'm sure you know, this "rabbit hole" is endless. I've been "toying" with possibly doing a series of videos about my experience with a Malignant Narcissist with the goal of helping others. But I just don't know if I want to relive all the pain and abuse I went through. But I can tell you this: it's time to unsubscribe to all the FB pages about narcissism. Every time I see a post it just brings me down. Getting through that abuse took strength that I honestly didn't know I had, and the process of picking myself up in the aftermath is taking work on a level that takes some true dedication. I just have to keep looking forward, and not backwards. I can't do anything about what he did to me, but I can take back my life and live the way I want to live without worrying about some psycho trying to destroy my life with mental abuse.

[@taramarie1323]

thank you so much for sharing this knowledge, you have helped me more than you'll ever know! Survivor and not looking back now.

[@marielindvall]

Synchronicity: Truly every clock in our flat stopped working within a day or two when I started to cut the emotional bond to my husband. It was scary. Now I can relate to it.

[@tonibates9283]

Been working quite a few of these videos today and it’s made me realise a lot . In my last relationship(that ended 7 months ago that I’m still trying to get over) I was made to feel like the crazy one because I had a bad childhood and still had issues from that . I didn’t realise until now that I was actually being emotionally abused by my ex, he made me feel like I was the problem and I did have my toxic traits but these videos just show what he was doing to me. He never once apologised for anything he done , when the relationship ended and I was begging for him I said I would do anything to change and then asked him what he thought he needed to change to this he responded “nothing, I’m the way I am because of you”. He would also make decisions in the relationship for us two without confirming with me first . It’s crazy to think he done so many things and I was made to feel like the bar person and the one with the issues. Please can someone give me advice how I can finally move on from him?. We’ve had no contact for 7 months, I blocked his number but I still think about him several times a day x

[@spokeraq]

I thibk you need to find the roots of the problem. If we abandon ourselves to a nrac it's because we have inner issues.

[@izawaniek2568]

This is the way it goes❤ Thank you so much Christina❤God bless you❤

[@darlenerego4891]

Thank you so much Christina! I'm going to watch and listen to this video again!

[@makaylahollywood3677]

It has taken me some time- but, for me leaving people has left me feeling both free/lonely almost simultaneously. I have felt guilt/uncertainty "am I doing the right thing?" Over time, my head and thoughts have "quieted" down. The peace increases, the guilt decreases. My past younger self, good feelings, remembered good situations, all have surfaced- it's like I am emotionally thawing out. (I started to imagine giving the negativity back to the person it belongs to, while forgiving myself, and letting it all go). It is all a process.

[@Melissa_Badhorse]

I feel finally free

[@bengulch]

Youre a beautiful human and such a good help. Thank you!

[@christyb9487]

What resonates with me is when you said a time will come when you need to stop obsessing over all the info & digging. Will you please if you can offer any examples or advice on what that would look like?

[@frisbeeshawn5356]

I've been going thru it but I've come to realize I'm not the judge or jury others are gonna be who they are for whatever reason. Is what it is. I'm going to give it to God. No longer my burden to navigate.

[@christyb9487]

YournotrealYoursoreal / // thank you! Giving it to God is the only answer I can come up with!!!

[@TheBunny04]

I think it's the realization, and ultimately the acceptance, that no matter the label, what you experienced was/is real and it is not ok. I obsessed over labeling this behaviour when I needed permission to feel hurt by it. I felt that if he didn't have an official label I couldn't leave because there was hope he might change. Or I would doubt my feelings because I didn't trust them. I thought I was overreacting, etc. Eventually I accepted that whether he has an actual diagnosis or not, it doesn't matter. His behaviour was wrong, it hurt me deeply, and I wasn't happy. It eventually becomes less about what they are (and labelling that) and more about being able to look within and just dealing with your own feelings. Who he is is not my concern.

[@naida6958]

@@christyb9487 Yes after 19 yrs of every abuse I suffered It was god who has showed me the way Which my narc tried to mimic he is a better god person then Me ? No empathy is the devils path In gods eyes no one should judge or call them self better then other I see devil I was trauma bonded Isolated Abused yet projected I kept going through patience and hope in god And believe god will dimish these nasty evils When he wanted me too kill my self Almighty god Send a sign Karma is after them Finding a escape plan as he has my son who is autistic brainwashed too And I can see what he is doing and to him So for his sake I need to play dump and escape Nothing is frightening for narc then a intelligent empath And it is god who gave me the knowledge to see clarity Ps He admited he will take away my spirituality ? I was like what ? It's some thing no one can take as it's a blessing . I realised I was trauma bonded as I was also raised up by a single parent who was a narcissist.

[@naida6958]

@@frisbeeshawn5356 Agreed me too

[@isabelleparise5607]

I will just share my experience: I have felt many good connection with lots of people and some of them I don't know if they where narc but I think some where narc I always felt some connection at some level. Only with one person in my family I never felt a connection with and I can even feel they are not connected to themself. I would say it would be the hardest part is to don't feel the connection.

[@Mookiezbadazmach]

You are powerful Christine. Real empowering.❤

[@juliamichellebigsmoke133]

I’ve been mentally abused horribly for 3 days straight day in and day out and I am so exhausted I can’t even think straight or function I feel very very numb And I don’t know how to feel at all

[@valeriedunn1763]

thank you for this. it really helped me. I am day 1 out of the abusive relationship.

[@fridayguythomas3061]

So crazy about synchronicity I'm watching this video and my bday is 11/11 this video is the first sign.

[@yawnamousaj7856]

She just described me and my life..

[@exodus_gaming5282]

How do you heal from the anxiety of abuse ? Like saying your still afraid of being abused ? How do you heal from that ?

[@karenvanderbeck]

Thanks Christina. 10 years out and I see all of this. Great video.

[@shari968]

Thank you so much for making me smile in the moment when you said “the benefits” I understood so completely and the sense of relief that washed over me xx I feel I’m almost through the tunnel now xx thank you so much for all that you share I have found it so helpful the last couple of days 😇🙏🏻✨

[@yahooemail212]

I see 444 all the time. I like this perspective, it makes the problem of abuse in my life more of a portal to growth and transformation.

[@teresalara2882]

Same here!!

[@R_Thomp]

1. 0:50 a. 1:18 b. 1:41 c. 2:58 2. 4:47 3. 7:55 4. 9:56 5. 12:32 Crazy, all these things happened to me after breaking-up with a covert narcissist...

[@Someoneoutthere67]

Thank you so much for this video.

[@bereal6590]

This is spot on.... and I've identified many issues in myself caused by n.fam that I was trying to get from n.partner which they provided at THE BEGINNING!! Sucked me in... now I see where everything began and why I've never been in or I've disregarded any healthy relationship be that partners or friends etc... 😊

[@DEAN_23]

I needed to understand why my narc did me the way he did, because our friendship lasted over a decade, and then he takes me to his world, brings me into his job, and then he proceeds into a campaign of exploitation and abuse, which ultimately became apparent, when I started taking steps to improve myself, and all because it didn't happen on his terms, he decided to make my life a living hell. So I did need to understand why he did it, so I can ultimately move on without him, and pursue my own pursuits without any further guilt or shame to hold me back!

[@firepatriot42]

Thanks. It's been 3 months since resigning from a job where I was the one everyone used as a scapegoat because of my difficulties. I overstayed my welcome for yrs then left. It's difficult and I'm just about to go and get another position which I enjoy.

[@CallHerDayli]

Thank you so much for this video!!🙏🏽

[@huckmart2017]

444 is a big one for me. Started noticing it a lot when I started to awaken to my subconscious last year and make changes. Seems like anytime those numbers have a chance of popping up in my life, I take notice. Whether it's a clock, a timer, a receipt or whatever.

[@cathleensees4446]

Hi, I started seeing 444 back in 1993. Believe me there is so much to learn about your 444 experience. I have considered writing publicly about my own 444 journey but as of yet have not done so. Please know you are not alone, you are part of many who see 444. Having said that it is a unique message few receive and even less that search for the 444 meaning. From 93' to 95' I was literally bombarded with 444. My 444's showed up daily at least 10 to 20 times a day, sometimes more...everyday for 2 yrs. I had no doubt there was a very important message hidden in my 444's. I had large breakthroughs at the two year mark. I continued over the next 18 yrs to see my 444's but when I see them in frequency I would know to pay attention. After a total of 20 years of living with this number and putting all the pieces together I am completely sure of their message and meaning. It is a message of such great magnitude and significance that I know it is my purpose to share it. Until very recently I have not felt it was the time nor did I know how to go about sharing the 444 message I have been given. I have only shared this with my family and a few close friends. Now after a total of 27 and a half years since my first 444 day, I read your short comment about your 444's and felt compelled to write this comment to you. If you would like to contact me you can leave a comment to this comment or you will see another way to contact me. C.

[@huckmart2017]

@@cathleensees4446 first time it happened for me was super weird..I was high as fuck, playing a game. The game had a wait time before each match. I remember closing my eyes, while waiting for the game to start and I saw 444 flash in my mind eye. It startled me so I opened my eyes and saw 4:44 on the timer. I knew it was significant at the time.but I kinda put it out of my mind. That was easily 2 years ago and I still see it pop up fairly frequently. It kinda creeps me out lol

[@cathleensees4446]

Do you have an email or Fb page? I will in fact write about my 444's but since it began for me nearly 28 yrs ago it is a story of length that I cannot begin to share here. I will however contact you if you leave me an email or Fb contact info. Do you by chance post short video clips to Fb using the same name, Huck Mart? Or you can friend request me on Fb. Make sure you use all 3 names to search for me.

[@Currentlyhere7]

This video made me feel so seen and it helped me so much, thank you

[@dddonttrip]

Thank you for your videos. They helped me in a dark time.

[@laurenstark6332]

Absolutely spot on. Thank you!

[@ladyoftheveil8342]

My angels saved me from utter destruction after his abuse and all his flying monkey's calling me crazy...my doctor woke me up that he could have me locked up and I wasn't the one being abusive ..it was him

[@sunnyphoenix5603]

How do you release all of that anger!after abuse

[@AnneWhyte]

Focus on improving yourself and your life, exercise, etc.

[@karinae.schofield5605]

So freaking true..omg.. they're not going to tell you what you're dealing with because often times they don't see themselves as a problem you're the problem to them. All I needed to know was a three letter word and that word is r u n... run... And I wish I had before 18 years of my life flew by..

[@jamnoise722nd3]

'Flying Monkey's' comes from the film Wizard Of Oz when the Witch sends them out on her behalf to scare Dorothy. Great video thank you!!!!!

[@sidneydeline751]

Thank you Christina.

[@susanmcdonald4216]

I am very thankful for the videos Christina. I am learning so much in my journey and you have been helpful. I remember a clip about shopping issues and wanted to revisit that clip. Do you know which video it is in?

[@TheFirefly71]

I had a dream, a nightmare that the Narc was standing over me whilst I was sleeping and just I opened my eyes and woke up he took his two hands and WHAM - STABBED me full force hard into my stomach!!! That was a sign for sure 😳 just cannot believe just HOW MUCH the person changed and the sick realisation that this NASTY person is actually the real version and that you gave your whole self to this disgusting NARCOPATH!!

[@codygoleman7525]

You make so much sense I was in a relationship for seven years and I felt like I was doing the majority of the apologizing and she kept me out of the finances and the bills and when I would tell her that I wanted to see the bill so I could see what money was leaving out of the house she would get very angry 😠 and she would not let me help in the house as far as laundry and dishes but then she would blame me for them not being done and now I see that I was being emotionally abused and sexually abused and we just recently broke up and I'm not for sure if I even want her back now

[@emilyacoxpsychic]

Again, we create all of the synchronicity’s with and through our reticular activating system… We program our subconscience and then we see the signs. All of the signs that we’re seeing simply record reflect our own subconscience which is being created through the reticular activating system. It’s no coincidence

[@emilyacoxpsychic]

I enjoy your videos… I recently realized however that all of the signs and synchronicity’s are just a reticular activating system… It’s basically the wheel that God gave us and a part of our brain that notices patterns. We are actually creating all of the signs and synchronicity’s ourselves through our subconscious

[@sirandrewm2637]

You are amazing Word for Word exactly on point

[@m0n0moo]

my emotional abuser was my ex boyfriend. but a lot of the time he would play the victim saying he wasn't good enough for, wished he was good enough, he will change, that i am always right and he was dumb. He would do this everytime i stood up for myself....

[@francesbernard2445]

Impossible to pretend that narcissistic abuse is continuing to exist in the world while we are keeping our distance from only one narcissistic abuser. Women who have a known disability while being perceived as soft targets cannot avoid having to cope with the same old thing over and over again. Paying attention and keeping our eyes open about that sort of thing is a gift not a curse when we are doing well to maintain our boundaries. Maintaining our boundaries is not the same thing as living in perpetual resentment and bitterness. However it means that we will have more insights about how the world is than people who have not gone through as much. Which is why a lot of disabled women who got that way through trauma become talented artists while they are trying to communicate those insights besides maybe being average at doing math too.

[@karenwilliams5941]

He tried so hard to make me dependent on him , to bad I'm just too good at being alone 😖,

[@shennareignangelguimbaolib5868]

i have encountered an emotional abuse for 5 years and now it's almost two years, i still feel the trauma withim and it feels like everything is triggering me. i hate myself for this :(

[@lynnmccarthy1527]

Robert and I met in a way even romantic comedy writers would roll eyes at (you can read more about it here). In 2014, I was studying abroad in England for a year, and he was a British student at the same university. We met through mutual friends at a Halloween party and started dating. Though eight-month time was the only time we’ve lived in the same town, during our almost seven-year relationship! Since then, we’ve been in a long-distance relationship. I'm not going to lie, it was rocky at the start, and we broke up for a few months. A 5 hour time difference in touch for anyone, and at 20 years old, that was a huge commitment. We weren’t very good at being broken up, though, and after only a few months we got back “together” - even though we were 4,000 miles apart. In 2016 I moved back to England, where I lived for the next three years, but we were still long-distanced. With an hour's drive between us, though, that didn’t seem bad at all. Due to visa, health, and career reasons, I decided to move back to the USA in 2019. It’s been a lot easier doing the 4,000 miles distance now that we are older and more experienced at this whole crazy thing! Moreover, I was able to track his phone activities Using access operate untraceable and anonymous. Get in touch with access operate through email accessoperate (AT) gmail com WhatsApp/call [phone]

[@robertataylor5794]

I see the infinity symbol everywhere!

[@naida6958]

Thankyou for your amazing videos x

[@momione11]

Iam going to move on.No more ever no i have to work on my self.

[@katemps6976]

So true about synchronicities - for me it’s numbers, repetitive one

[@tanishqavishwakarma9151]

Tell more please .

[@kimlec3592]

Forget what is wrong with the abuser. They rarely change. Get out if you can, when you can. if not, develop your own interests if you are "allowed"...yes, with some abusers, it's not feasible to break away. Retreat whenever & however you can. This is why people get depressed & distance themselves from reality, because being constantly upset is not a nice reality. Therapists are nice, but they aren't there at 3 am when the abuser comes in, roaring & swearing. Reality is there are lots of abusers doling it out, to people who can't leave & can't fight back. This is why people snap & end up sometimes killing the abuser, after years of suffering in silence. Reality is often not that nice.

[@rainncorbin8291]

I cut ties as much as I could. I'm in a wheelchair and have no family or anyone to help. I put him out and I don't talk to him unless I need help with something I cannot do. There isn't much I cannot do. But I work a deal with him. I'll let you shower and eat if you do this for me. He lives in the car. So far so good. He leaves me alone. He doesn't call or show up unannounced and if I need to go somewhere he brings me the car. He won't change. He's incapable of being honest with himself. I detached from him awhile ago. I can no longer stand to be around him. He disgusts me and he's stupid and I have zero respect for this covert narc. When I do need him to do something, I have to babysit him or he'll do a shitty job. I really resent having to babysit at 56 years old. It's pathetic. I'm done researching. Already did that awhile back. It didn't help except that I used the info to stop taking what he does personally. It's not about me. He's just an ass. What brought me in? One night stand. Then I ended up on drugs. I left him for 13 years until I started having back to back knee surgeries and could not work. We became roommates. He wasn't that bad until I lost a leg, he retired and I had to see him every day and found out what a jerk he is. He resented my being in a wheelchair because I could no longer take care of everything around the house and I needed help with some things. It pissed him off. That's when it started going south really quick. We're way past the synchronicity stage. It's been happening for 4 years. I started awakening 4 years ago. I had to shut things off to tolerate him when he was here, but i just couldn't do it anymore. I have grown significantly, I got off drugs and started seeing what I was dealing with. That was a rude awakening for sure. I was like WTF is wrong with you? Are you borderline retarded or what? I'm serious. Their arrogance makes them dumber than a box of rocks. The IQ is pretty low and they have no common sense. He couldn't find his way out of a paper bag with a GPS. i can't deal with stupid, willful ignorance. I don't have the patience. You're an effing idiot and you made yourself that way. I have no empathy for him or sympathy. He deserves to live on the street. I don't feel bad at all. He did it to himself. I warned him and gave him 2 years to find an apt or someone to live with. He did nothing because he's lazy and has no ambition. These people are spiritually dead, likely NPCs with no soul. Pointless talking to them. It does nothing. They can't change because they are programmed and cannot stray from the programming. Like robots. Only robots are probably smarter. But no emotion. He did some shitty things like parking the car on my wheelchair ramp. He put furniture in the hallway so I couldn't get to the living room. I'm grateful he did that crap because it taught me how to do almost anything in my wheelchair. I can move furniture. I can mow the yard with a push mower in my chair. I can weedeat. I go dancing, I work out at the gym. Hired a personal trainer. Getting in shape. Meditation helped alot in making me more patient so I didn't lose my temper at him and give him the energy he was seeking. Helped me to have a safe place to rest within me. I still have some anger though that I'm having trouble getting rid of. I got triggered by a neighbor and realized there's probably more to heal. I Don't trust most men now. Don't like men, except one that owns a crystal store and is a reiki master. Love that guy. He's awake, and just an awesome person. That's what went wrong with the neighbor. Her husband thought he could tell me what to say and do and I lost it. I told him he has no authority over me and has no right to tell me what i can and cannot say. Why do people with more money think they can push you around? He's probably a narc too. Very immature for 63 and puts the wife down in front of a group of neighbors. I just had enough and told him off. I like his wife but he's an ass hole. He acts just like the ex husband only more bossy, more overt. Anyways, that's my story in a nutshell. Feels good telling it!!! I'm meeting new people hoping I can eventually rely on THEM for help around the house and grocery shopping but right now I have to use the was-band. I like that word. Wasband.

[@shannonedwards-brown9528]

I go ages without thinking about it Then a memory pops in . I beat myself about it alot and allowing him to fuck with my head . He knew all I wanted was someone to like me and love me find me.atteacive and he made me comfortable about sharing my issues and he shared his to me. I wasnt perfect I had my down days and be in shity moods . I told myself hes having a bad day and I pissed him off becouse the dress I choose and he brought I didnt like when I tried it on . I felt uncomfortable and I went out of my comfort zone . He got annoyed and shouted at me for being ungrateful and I dont love him and I had to prove that I love him.. I offered to give money to him if the dress not able to be sent back but that wasnt enough . To try keep him happy I wore it out . I wore a jumper over it . He told me to show off to the men in the pub . I didnt do it . He got annoyed that I wore skirt just above the knee and called me slut like his ex was and why I wanted other men to look at me . So I was abit confused about the dress and showing off for the other men in the bar . He knew if he stressed me out enough I just either cry or do what he wanted or shut down .Cry he get more annoyed and say I was trying to manipulate him useally after he got annoyed and shout at me over something like not getting him a drink of what when he asked me to . I shut down and switch off and he get more annoyed becouse I woundmt listen and get simple of things wrong . Teaching me to saduko ( shit with anything to do with maths ) I got the hang of it then forgot how to do it so he shouted at me for it over and over and I had to prove that I cared and loved him by saying what he liked and disliked. He try get me jealous to show how much I cared by flirting or seemly flirting with other women and get annoyed when i didnt react the way he wanted . Blamed me for him getting feelings for a other women . Got me to guess who else he had feeling for and got annoyed when I cried becouse he told me not to before he got me to guess . Then gave me a list of why I was ashit gf and why she was great . I was working with him and that women . He didnt he same shit with that women when we split . He even kept a picture of me and him on his pin board to wind her up. Sent me a picture of it when I stopped having anything to do with him and said that's what he did . He was more concerned about not having my friendship than the being in a relationship. He said the relationship was like a summer romance . We where together for just over and year and was looking for housing to move in together. Red flags I wish took more notice of and not just pushed it aside becouse of my own baggage and I loved the fucker .even get his damn clothes read for him for work whist he sat and watched me do it and told.me what he wanted to wear . Nail on the head was when he covered his face when I got undressed in front of him never done it before and should of clicked that was becouse he liked someone else .

[@chrisstites6260]

She is talking about Repetion Compulsion. That's the "lesson" to be learned.

[@MrDirtythumb]

Thank you!

[@hiwiegehts0]

unfortunately i had the synchronicities also INSIDE the toxic relationship :(

[@w.h.8398]

Wooooowwww you made it for me.. am THANKFUL

[@Mindsetolympics]

This niha told me he wanted to make me angry 😡 looking back I should have known then it was abusive…!!! -Almost at the 3 month mark now 🎉🎉👯‍♀️

[@eggy_neggy]

I’ve been such a big fat mess, yestday I found myself being super toxic to my friend and betraying her trust and realised I’ve never been like that before and it’s a weird pattern I’ve picked up while being in a abusive relationship, I feel so embarrassed and stupid that u did the same thing my ex used to do to me and I dunno if I’m going crazy or it’s normal

[@laureenanderson3122]

Why do some people try to blame the abused person for being giving when that is what you think is needed?

[@j.c.4906]

Thank you

[@glenforbes6009]

I was married to someone with a mental illness for 46 years. Now this person had to go to a nursing home and l am free but feel obligated some how to keep seeing her and l know a visit or phone call is always negative. I'm 69 and live in a senior building and l don,t have one friend l can talk to because l was never allowed a friend male or female because this person was so jealous and obsessive and untrusted. It gets too quiet in my apartment building now and l find myself asking what is the point of trying to live anymore. It seems like because my partner had a disability l had a purpose in life to try and help her but now l have no purpose. I am trying to hold on to my insanity but it seems like it is getting harder and harder due to lack of social connection. It's weird facing my day with an empty apartment today. It seems like l am getting depressed more and more.