Contamination In Your Brain and Body - Feeling of Disgust OCD

[@ocdandanxiety]

Do you feel this disgust feeling with your OCD? What triggers it?

[@atzkids1491]

Hey I have been sick have had 5 panic attacks do you think it’s just because I am sick because I have never had a panic attack before

[@hopper3462]

I have ocd from 2 years but after the first year it had gone away but it came back this year 😢 ! I am disgusted by water even if it dropped from my hand to my another hand I need to wash my hands again !! Help please! 🙃

[@yaipharenbinameirakpam9090]

Same as Soni Gupta

[@yaipharenbinameirakpam9090]

@Soni Gupta Are u taking any medication?

[@MusicLuv80]

I have contamination ocd but I also have something else. I can't use certain words that are scary or has to do with human body, also if I am writing stuff and those scary, or something that has to do with human body, or anything weird pops into my head I can't write. If I finish writing it it feels like it will happen. Sometimes I would write stuff and erase it for hours and hours. I can't even like a picture on facebook if that person has bad posture, or something that would be discomforting. What is this called?

[@norse_cat]

It really stinks when you feel contamination from other people. Like their bad traits or whatever will become yours by touching them or items they touch, etc.

[@wisdomfortranscendence6220]

Woah.. this explains so much.. i literally feel some peoples muck in their aura. I HAVE to leave the room and rub an egg all over me lol

[@CAT-2323]

May be mental, but I SWEAR I feel the germs and gross stuff on my hands until they’re clean. Thing is I have sensory processing disorder as well which I believe is part of it.

[@brandixxl]

My biggest trigger is the bathroom and dishes. I cant touch shower handles, curtains, walls, and hand towels without washing my hands 😭 imagine how much hand soap i go through

[@brandixxl]

Im not diagnosed but I really think there’s a chance because its gotten to the point if the back of my hand even touches something i have to wash them again

[@kxsprrr0]

I can’t touch anything at this point if I don’t know if it’s clean or not and it’s getting really bad and I keep washing my hands, any help?

[@piperjaycie]

I have this ocd. So many people thought I would be so extra worried about covid. I’m not afraid of getting sick more than a regular person. To me it’s like everyone has their own brand of germs. Then their germs are either okay and I don’t care what they do or touch or their germs are bad and I feel like they will contaminate me but I’m not sure of what.

[@Hadesedah]

I feel you , I’m not afraid of actual germs but more the way it reaches to me in some sense , if I’m surprised by how it touched me and that I wasn’t even expecting it , I will have to hit myself or rub myself aggressively against my clothes . I also hate when people aside from my mom kiss me on the cheek , I feel like I have a whole nest of germs on it and it disgusts me .

[@davidstearns4624]

I have the same type of "mental" contamination, and it's so confusing, some things are ok, others are impossible, COVID didn't even worry me, but I can't hug my mother😢

[@rahulkumarsingh8395]

exactly same feeling

[@kasthurisubramaniam3827]

My husband has this type of ocd and its really effecting our life. He started having ocd since he was 15. It was so many different things and the one he is having now started with a funeral of an old lady. He imagined something gross about the lady's skin when she was sick. Then when she died as hindus she was cremated. My husband imagined that the ash from cremation must have dropped on the car, in the house where she died, also to all the slippers or shoes of people who went to the funeral. He completely avoids the whole family and any family gatherings. He even goes to the extend to avoid vehicle that looks similar like their car. He avoids the whole area and people who are from the area where the lady died. Even ordering food from some places nearby is not allowed. He avoids most of the carwashes. Even avoids shops or places that uses similar cooking gas. That lady died more than 10 years ago. He will torture me to do some rituals if he thinks im contaminated. Apart from that he is a successful businessman. Ive guided, supported and pushed him to be where he is today. But now he is willing to let me go because he is too scared to face his fears.

[@TheVioletMagic29]

What if your contamination ocd is not about fear of getting sick though? What if it's feeling out of control?

[@Lilith-p2i]

Nathan, can you please talk about this going crazy ocd? I'm struggling with this type of ocd about a year now, pls do tips or something haha sometimes I feel so hopeless when I do mental compulsions and I am really tired doubting my reality

[@milochamp1586]

Great video. OCD and avoidance of places, objects words, people etc is either a result of a childhood trauma. or a result of being an HSP. (highly sensitive person) You get easily programmed by others as a child. Example: I hate to hear people using the single word used for dead body gathering of people after someone dies or going to those places. I feel contaminated. I will throw away the clothes I wear etc. If I hear that stinky word from someone on a day, I hate to do anything new as I feel that new thing that I do on that day or the new person I meet on that day is contaminated, So I delay new things. Logically you are 100% right. You need to face those. But it has to be done in a safe trustworthy environment. In my opinion, this has more to do with a trauma as a child. OCD is the outcome of that trauma. Perhaps you got traumatized because you are being a sensitive person.

[@fransinclair3356]

I feel disgust inside my body but it isn’t from external it is a fear of the feeling and I feel like I will contaminate others with the feeling of disgust. Haven’t heard anyone having this theme

[@davidstearns4624]

Mine is definitely mental, yet it is because/results in the physical, this is helpful, thank you

[@vireo3923]

I haven't been diagnosed with ocd, nor do I know if I have it, I unfortunately can't afford professional therapy for my mental health. Though this was helpful. I have struggled for years in terms of cleanliness, I'm not a "tidy" person per say, I just like things to be in a certain way and when I get anxious or overwhelmed sometimes I would start cleaning. My biggest issue is that I often feel so disgusted with myself that I need to shower daily, it consumes my mind and I would feel like I simply can't go to sleep without a shower, I tried to not shower several times especially when I haven't left the house or haven't done any strenuous activities but eventually would wake up feeling utterly disgusted with myself.

[@cocmaster9136]

I notice I have many compulsions, like spinning back the same way and counting the steps on stairs. I have to do it and the thing is, it feels good and it doesn’t bother me at all. I actually kind of enjoy it. Is this just me falling deeper into it?

[@justmadeit2]

I hate my brain. Not only do I have severe depression and insomnia but I also have ocd. I think they are all connected. I’m so unhappy, I’d like to not wake up

[@ells_alright9873]

Scary thoughts are haunting me EVERYWHERE with cynical thoughts (supressed agression ig) and maybe my own traumas...

[@ells_alright9873]

And I felt abandoned because I tried to save myself but to some extent I felt worse and to find somebody to help you requires money and sometimes I hate it. I know that almost nothing is for free even if it's about life and death question (sanity is a life and death question too (others and of an individual) and it is so exhausting and causes physical illness and diseases too but medicines from physical don't help because the root is mental problems and the help is not available and it's a viscious circle) and thank you that you do this!!! Mental health and mental help is so important and important not only for individuals, for others sake too and for a better world😂 So, thank u!!! Could u describe how our brain works? Why is it important to somebody to tell something or to express emotions, how hormones work when it all happens and are we just hormones and machines or maybe scientists from ur professional circle can tell that we're not that programmed and consciousness is not only about hormones etc (sorry, I know only "hormones etc"😂). That we can decide because we can see facts, compare them, make decisions and it is like we are bosses and not only our organisms. Free will. Maybe they work together and complement each other. I think I have schizophrenia...

[@thatcouchpotato9528]

It looks horrible and I hate it so much. It's so frustrating.

[@ells_alright9873]

Since my childhood I tend to keep everything inside our house even garbage and it's about my mind too. It's like a dump. I wanna remember everything and thoughts are stuck in my head. People, messages, things, memories. I wanna control myself. Obsessed with it. I think I was afraid to forget everything and that's why I texted a lot in the messengers to read this one day. Maybe that's a normal thing but I think I was obsessed. I think I am getting obsessed pretty easily.

[@atikaraja8958]

But what about harmful thoughts , the voilent ones ??? Like i cant welcome them as you said , they are just so so so much harmful if im thinking about them intentionally .

[@ells_alright9873]

I am scared that I have my own counsiousness and everybody has it too. Why do I see the world with my own eyes and feel it with my own feelings and understand it with my brain? I wanna see more and understand more! I am like trapped inside of my body. I wanna escape. I wanna run from myself as far as I can😭 Just away, just fade, just disappear. I am so scared. I want a hug😢😔😭 I don't feel life, positive feelings and I lost myself, I wanna wake up. I'm afraid I won't be able to go back, to heal and to be "reincarnated". 😭😭😭 Arms r strange for me. My own arms! It's so weird how I move and what if I'm gonna think about it and what if I get scared of it, will I still move like it's happening when u look at legs and think about them and they can stop walking properly as ppl say ahhaha.

[@anuraajsingh128]

You have depersonalization

[@ells_alright9873]

And I am afraid that somebody is gonna freak out because of me. Whe I see or feel a hint of fear, I am getting anxious and irritated and I am like COWARD!!! EMBRACE WHO I AM ALREADY! DON'T BE AFRAID OF ME I SAID I AM AFRAID TO HURT, I DIDN'T SAY I WISH😭😭😭

[@wesleymorton7878]

Hi, Nathan. How do we determine between if a thought is OCD brain, the voice of conscience, or the voice of higher wisdom? I worry about throwing the baby out with the bath water, so to speak, with erp. I have a theme around sticking up for myself where I will feel slighted by someone and need to confront. When I don't confront the person, or if I don't confront in the perfect way, I feel unsafe inside. My brain goes into hyperdrive telling me I need to step up and say this and do that. It goes on for days. It is exhausting and leaves me feeling unsafe and disempowered. I feel more empowered sometimes when I do confront, yet, there are risks there, too. So, I have been avoiding any confronting. Yet, it seems that perhaps some of what's driving that urge to confront is healthy. So, how do I know whether the voice is telling me to do something that is going to be good for my growth vs. feeding OCD?

[@zanefell469]

like the satisfaction of playing in the dirt without a care in the world

[@ells_alright9873]

I have a lot of fears and doubts and I need to find how to prove to myself that I am wrong. Ooh that's gonna hurt😂 And I am such a coward I need courage...

[@ells_alright9873]

Now I am questioning what if I didn't feel that and just imagined... HMMM🤔

[@ghadeermohammed8678]

Hello, I have a question, the reason why am not getting better is because I have thoughts that says This isn’t ocd and I don’t want the feeling of scared in the morning , I have this urge to ask questions and I be like I can’t ignore because it’s important questions,

[@karab7656]

If your brain says it's not ocd, it is ocd, ocds main lie is to tell you your ocd is special and is different than everyone else's. I have the exact same thing! Just answer the important questions with, maybe maybe not, or fully 'Agree' with them like, yes that will happen, but who cares! Your ocd won't get the response it wants which is to look up the questions online or confess to a friend. Hope this helps! 🙏 ps: you may not actually agree with the question or thought, but you can fake it.

[@himanshujangid0777]

Thanks bro❤️❤️

[@ells_alright9873]

I am afraid I'm not gonna be healed because my character feature is to do something out of spite, to prove something, to teach a lesson, to give an example how it could be on the other side, to give a doubt to someone because we can't know for sure. I can't accept anything. I am trying to go through and trying to fix it, change it, control it, hate it. I don't know what to do. Please, don't judge me, I know I am a disgust😭😭😭 Feels like I just forgot about myself, about my feelings, my wishes. I mean forgot in actions. I remember it, I guess, but in the blur. And maybe those weren't even mine. I don't feel free. I feel despair, hopelessness, like I am in a cage. I want freedom, I want kindness. I want someone to take care of me because I can't. I feel so weak. The lack of energy. Feels like almost my last try/effort/resort, ig😭

[@Hadesedah]

Thank you !

[@lokez7382]

I have OCD and I really can't ignore or control it. I can't talk back to it because it just gets worse and I can't even ignore it. So I'm asking for your help, I want to ask you a question so please respond

[@TillieRoseBoysen]

Does anyone else feel on their own body what others are doing to theirs? For example, if someone scratches their head, it feels like they're touching your head? I have to mimick what they are doing to myself to make the uncomfortable feeling go away. I've never heard anyone talk about this before.

[@ells_alright9873]

Maybe if I would be communicative I wouldn't catch ocd :( Or what it is IDK. Maybe I just needed a soulmate and support when required😔😂😂 Sorry... English is not my first language, maybe I am writing like a 12-year old kid. Ahahha

[@sunilkoul848]

I have contamination of someone picking their nose and touching my things. Then I have to decontaminate my objects. How do I overcome it as the thoughts may not go till I do my ritual

[@sherbahadur4492]

Can you explain it more like sometimes individual don't even wanna do something with mental contamination ocd like they can't do because they think that these thoughts gonna rune their future

[@karab7656]

Does this mean if you see a video and it was bad, you may feel disgust and feel unclean? Or is this with germs?

[@sEEE724]

Disgust from words and words can be spoke through videos, bad people with bad traits can be in videos

[@ells_alright9873]

And those were not exactly!

[@myishenhaines1706]

I have mental contamination and physical contamination issues. 😞

[@ells_alright9873]

I feel abandoned and lonely

[@sEEE724]

I’m sorry you feel that way I hope everything gets better for you and that you can get professional help so you feel better

[@ells_alright9873]

@@sEEE724 aww😢🤗🤗 thank u so much for your reply!!! It really matters to me, thank u🤗🤗 and I hope you're okay :)

[@tejaniftybankniftyoptions2008]

Thankyou sr

[@ells_alright9873]

I think I am losing my mind. But still I can text something. Not bad🤔

[@sEEE724]

Are you okay??

[@ells_alright9873]

@@sEEE724hi! not really and wbu???

[@michelleread6797]

Does anyone have any better advice bc this isn’t it lol

[@ryanh4975]

Brushing my teeth

[@cjbrown8245]

Mess it up 😂

[@ells_alright9873]

Do ocd people have hallucinations from anxiety?

[@piperjaycie]

I have hallucinations but I think mine is more from the chronic stress. I have different levels. The first one is seeing water droplets on every flat surface or seeing water pouring down walls. Then bright coloured geometric patterns, then snakes in windows and doorways. After that is the really bad ones but I once they start I know I am super stressed and try to reduce the stress even only temporarily. I also have PTSD which triggered the OCD to start originally so mine could also be to do with that.

[@ells_alright9873]

@@piperjaycie aren't they illusions?

[@Jamd]

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