Obsessive-compulsive disorder: Through my eyes

[@trinityborris5540]

honestly it’s not “eVeRyThIng HaS tO bE sTrAiGhT” it’s “hit the light switch 5 times or else you’ll have heart attack”

[@idkdude3542]

Bruh I feel you

[@rachelh3250]

Eh, it’s not always like that either though. A lot of is manifestations of anxiety. I get weird phrases through my head that won’t stop but it doesn’t usually set off any kind of compulsions for me. But I also bite my nails, pick my skin and get so engrossed in doing these things that I loose track of everything around me, sometimes this manifests into my more conscious activities though and I end up being “obsessive” over them (like watching videos until I realize my feet are numb and I’m very dehydrated but I haven’t moved) I get irrational fears over not doing certain things like locking doors and sometimes I will check to see if they are locked several times because I’m usually so anxious I forgot.

[@soupomnom]

That's how i used to think. but i just stopped listening to my thoughts and it went away...

[@Bookwormxox]

@@rachelh3250 sameeee omg

[@stayathomecichlidmom3579]

@Layla Hutton Its very hard to explain what OCD is. I'm 43 the best way I can describe it in words, its an anxiety disorder that doesn't go away, its a mental fight 24/7. Its exhausting I have remuneration ocd, which changes throughout your life. I've never counted a thing, never had thoughts of something has to be a certain way or I'll die, not one stereotypical "OCD " compulsion. A compulsion is not a preference its a desperate attempt to silence even for a second the noise in your head and in my case my copulsions can change from day to day.

[@rameeshahasan780]

I hate it when my friends are like " I have OCD" when most of the time they don't know what it means. Just because you clean your room once a while doesn't necessarily mean u have OCD

[@nataliek878]

One time I was talking to a few people I barely knew about my OCD. One of them responded with "Oh yeah, my sister has OCD. She _always_ has to do the dishes and if someone doesn't clean up after themselves she FREAKS OUT." Her sister just stood there and kinda nodded her head. I'm like... Thought I was actually going to hear about someone who had the same disorder as me. Guess not....

[@youjustgotvectored3989]

ok ew stop yeah. In middle school there was this girl who claimed she had OCD when she was just a perfectionist. I have OCD, and people supported her and not me. I was the weird, clean freak girl, and she was the one battling mental illness. I was diagnosed and she wasn’t.

[@keishaloves1762]

You just got V E C T O R E D want me to buy her common sense online

[@Panda-oj6hg]

I have ocd and I couldn’t care less if my room was clean

[@Rooted_In_Love]

Exactly!!

[@brownieess1384]

Me as a child: spins 2 times in one direction Me again: spin another 2 times in the other direction so I don't become unbalanced for the rest of my life

[@brownieess1384]

@@ploopydoopy605 oh no 😭💀

[@jess9645]

wait i used to do this but with circling my arms. if i circled my right arm forward 2 times i’d have to circle it back 2 times as well. also i’d have to do the same with my left then both together to make it all balanced. i’d managed to get it into my head that my shoulders weren’t “correct” if i didn’t do it.

[@adhithikarthikeyan9083]

THIS. I literally just commented this exact thing before i saw your comment. Woah i didn)t know other people felt it too

[@frangipani1112]

This was literally me, if I spun I would have to spin the other way at some point

[@MIGUELTORRES-fp2hm]

Sameeeee, I have to do everything on even numbers

[@wid173]

Holy shit, when you said “it feels heavy” when washing your hands I was shocked. I went through a really bad hand washing phase with my OCD and I had that exact thought. My hands literally felt heavy and sticky and I was hyper aware of the way my fingers were touching each other. It’s so insane how powerful the mind is at convincing you of physical feelings that are not actually there.

[@15MPrints]

graciously said

[@lubomirkubasdQw4w9WgXcQ]

i have OCD as well and for me it's not exactly heavy, but the bacteria on my hand feel super gross, and i only was a tiny bit, i don't even need soap and then there is relief. i have tried doing ERP and it helped me a lot.

[@brainoil6442]

cause if you really think about it your brain is the medium through which you perceive your world, everything is filtered through there and if something is up with that hardware your entire perception of reality can change drastically. your physical feelings are just the way your brain interprets them being

[@babykate223]

I went through the same phase when I was younger, I would always want to wash my hands but I would hate the feeling of washing them so I would wash them over and over again, I'm glad someone understands this

[@aishitemasuu]

I experienced that one with washing hands multiple times

[@dylantd9189]

Anyone else freak out when she put the hot iron directly on top of wood???

[@gaatjeniksaan336]

yeah

[@angeleensantibanez704]

Now that gave me ocd

[@JayD1810]

Me

[@sunnyd4204]

@@angeleensantibanez704 you mean anxiety not ocd 😑

[@KnHaT]

YES. And even if she didn't, I would've come back at least 1-2 times to check if I had turned it off properly.

[@emmav1156]

I hate when people mix up a perfectionist with having ocd when they are literally 2 completely different things

[@malloryb.1943]

Emma Vasquez EXACTLY

[@gwen2221]

IKR

[@hammydammy123]

Is being a perfectionist (in my case) hating unsymmetrical things, hating when my hands are dry, hating when my handwriting or others handwriting isn’t nice, hating when people can’t use correct grammar, or just hating when things aren’t organized in general?

[@angelialuu]

what if you have both?

[@lizzylou28]

@@nihalnihal9356 Ikr! I have both, too, and It frustrates me when people tell me that's not possible.

[@tanumita]

My grandmother had severe OCD. She used to wash her hands first with water 50 times, then with a handwash 100 times, and then again with water another 50 times. And then she just kept counting it. As a kid, I never understood it. All my family made fun of her and thought she was some psychotic woman; even her own children and husband. But now I understand, what she was going through and how hard it must have been for her. Grandma, wherever you are now I love you.

[@saritasarita1736]

I am in same place as your grandma. My 6 yr old niece asks why do you do all these things. I have no answer.

[@aashraypopli6290]

That's sad, instead of getting her the right kind of help they made fun of her

[@aileenpearl9227]

Ikr,I hope the enlightenment of others that's they're not psycho's becos their something going on with the :((

[@siam.9271]

Can someone please help me coz I don't know if I'm a *perfectionist* (but i do many otyer things which are symptoms of OCD along with all the things that a perfectionist do coz I'm for sure a perfectionist but want to know I've OCD or not coz I have its symptoms from years ) or *suffering from OCD*, anyways I never thought of this as a disease and I'm proud of it for now reason but I don't consider it as a disease You can ask me question in reply and I would answer of what I'm suffering from and so you can help me know what I'm

[@saritasarita1736]

@@siam.9271 If it's not causing you anxiety, if you don't feel forced to do what you do and if you enjoy doing it then it's not OCD. Better to clear your doubts with a doctor.

[@StopKittenAround]

As someone with severe OCD, the hand-washing part made me burst into tears. THAT exact clip is what I live through every single day. I wash my hands maybe 30 or more times per day unless I had a more calm day with less things to touch as well as less stress on me. I cried mainly because my entire family doesn’t understand my OCD. Some of them think I’m annoying and stupid. They think that my OCD should be easy to fix (sometimes they tell me to “fix” my OCD), but, unfortunately, it isn’t as easy as they think it is. I’ve struggled with this for years. Im scared to touch anything in my house, I have to wear long sleeves or a jacket the entire day, so that I may open and shut doors, turn off the faucet, grab certain things, and protect my arms from getting dirty. It’s a pain. I cry because of how lonely and miserable I feel. The only person who truly understands and supports me is my boyfriend, but my mom also supports me but lately it doesn’t seem so. None of my friends know how bad my OCD is-only a few of them even know I have it. It’s terrible. Every day I have a certain way to do things otherwise I break down. There was a time when I was washing my hands and I accidentally touched the soap dispenser (which was located directly behind the sink) while rinsing my hands and wrists. I cried as I washed my hands again. I’m unable to control how long I wash my hands for. I could wash for 30 seconds to even 3 minutes. My hands may crack and my wrists may burn but I can’t stop it. If I don’t wash my hands after touching something my brain says is dirty, my hand (or hands) will feel detached from my body. They will feel numb to me. The only way to regain the feeling would be to wash them, no matter how long it takes or how many times I have to wash them. I would show my family this video but I feel like it wouldn’t help any.

[@zarmeenfaisal668]

You explained my side of story. Im shocked that someone experienced as same happened to me

[@CassieHodges-pr7ng]

You described my unfortunate existence in almost a perfect nutshell. The only difference is my brain has on its own sorted most things into belonging to a certain time of year (hot season or cold season), and if anything my brain deems as outside of the current season touches me or even gets within close proximity to me my brain uncontrollably freaks out and basically screams UNCLEAN DIRTY UNCLEAN DIRTY until I can perform one of two rituals to ease the anxiety, which is either wash my hands (or take a shower if it touched parts of me that are not easily washed in a sink) or touch its opposite season equivalent. I can usually avoid such triggers pretty easily when on my own, but going out into society at all is usually torturous for me because it never fails that a family member who was just drinking lemonade in the winter will want a hug or one of my coworkers will bring a big pot of chili for everyone in the summer and so now the whole breakroom will be infested with "chiliness" to my brain and make me feel incredibly just, off. I hate being this way.

[@editname654]

I didnt think it could be so similar to what I’m going through but it is

[@bluebee9325]

You all are very strong people.

[@editname654]

@@bluebee9325 tbh if that was true I would probably be able to ignore my thoughts. Thanks tho

[@maybeahuman4580]

i have OCD and i hate how little the world knows how serious this disorder is. I hate when people use mental disorders/illnesses as adjectives.

[@kaylabeaton3635]

Essie Alan Membére yeah exactly, I know people that claim they have pure OCD but then they say shit about the things I do and that it’s weird when really it’s just my OCD, I don’t think they actually understand what it is and it’s so irritating

[@nikitkashyap9192]

Mother- who will do toungle cleaner...?

[@twiceboo5601]

same, I was never diagnosed with it but I've always known the I had OCD. I wish my parents and other people would have taken it seriously instead of making fun of me and saying I'm overreacting

[@elliejohnson647]

Essie Alan Membére thank you!

[@elliejohnson647]

Kayla Beaton same i have this friend who says she has it and then i walk weird bc of cracks in the sidewalk and she’s like oh why do u do that and a bunch of other stuff and i’m just like yea

[@optmega3537]

If I was ironing that shirt I would have been like: “well I’ve ironed this part. Now it’s unbalanced so I need to do the rest..”

[@MandatedReporter]

SAMEEE then the sheets! Then everything else in the closet because they might also present this issue later. I have a steamer because the iron doesn't do it for me.

[@lydiahampton7393]

Or I'd have to check it ten times just to make sure I got it or go over it just like three more times just in case

[@yourentertainmentmedia]

saw a crease on the back part of her shirt. want to iron it myself 😣😣😣

[@siam.9271]

Can someone please help me coz I don't know if I'm a *perfectionist* (but i do many otyer things which are symptoms of OCD along with all the things that a perfectionist do coz I'm for sure a perfectionist but want to know I've OCD or not coz I have its symptoms from years ) or *suffering from OCD*, anyways I never thought of this as a disease and I'm proud of it for now reason but I don't consider it as a disease You can ask me question in reply and I would answer of what I'm suffering from and so you can help me know what I'm

[@HelenaHaakonsson]

Yes! And then put the iron back on the floor standing up, cause it might still be hot and Will cause a fire and Your hole family Will die.

[@izzahari]

Me : touch something with my right hand 1 times My brain : u should touch it with left hand too so it would be balance

[@slaytheday04]

I do the exact same thing with every object

[@dina854]

Me too and idk why i do it

[@zunainmoini8134]

Same here....it was pathetic at some point of time...cant express..why it happens whyyy

[@dearsal6761]

life story

[@del9359]

YES, ALSO: my brain: touch this thing 4 times or you will die

[@skyyyu3]

My heart melted watching this. Growing up, I didn’t rlly know what ocd was and the people around me often use perfectionism and ocd interchangeably. This video rlly opened my eyes to what an individual with ocd may experience. Hopefully, more people learn the difference between ocd and perfectionism and make better informed decisions when using the terms

[@patrickisbetter]

I’m so glad I don’t have OCD. I wouldn’t be able to live with it

[@perkyze]

@@patrickisbetterUse to have ocd and it can get much worst than this trust me. At one point mine was pretty bad much worst than this video. Im glad that it kinda just went away. I still don’t know what caused it in the first place.

[@scoper7897]

she whashs her hands 10 times with soup but theres still dirt on them xddd

[@valentinazelada13]

I’m almost in tears. My little sister has recently been diagnosed with OCD. She gets intrusive thoughts all the time. She even says she’s rather die than having those obsessive thoughts all day. She’s 12

[@softishlucy7515]

i have had ocd for more than 5 years and im 11 and i also have really bad intrusive thoughts

[@joycefernandes2613]

i have the same wish as her

[@TDG..]

@@softishlucy7515 please go to psychiatrist it truly helps

[@rszy801]

@Blinkeu! go and get a check up with a doctor if you feel like you have it. We can't really diagnose someone that they have OCD unless you're a professional

[@strangestspace3402]

That’s awful! I’ll pray for her

[@auggiejam]

As a person with OCD, It makes me mad that some people say that others have OCD just because they are a perfectionist.

[@cheeseycheezy]

yea! i don't have ocd btw, but like, i've heard someone saying "i'm so ocd about... " like ????? 😭 pls there are so many people who use the term ocd wrong 🤡 why.

[@auggiejam]

@@cheeseycheezy it’s so annoying, my friends who know that I have it still stay: “OMG, I HAVE SUCH BIG OCD!”

[@khalyaput5000]

Omg yes, I ever seen a person make a beautiful art and someone literally commented like this : "that's beautifl! you must have ocd" i'm not replying their comment bc I'm tired of replying those ppl who literally commented the same thing

[@gabevietor3685]

I'm quite a perfectionist, but sometimes I get strange urges. I have no idea if it's normal, but every object HAS to be square with each other, and I need to count my steps going up the stairs so that my feet feel right, whatever that means. If something is in disarray, I have to either fix it or keep it out of view or it makes me frustrated, and I make my bed every morning because seeing it unmade frustrates me. I'll also sometimes repeat the same sentence in my head over and over, kind of like in the video, but less frequent. For example, if I focus on an object for too long, I'll start repeating the same description of that object, but it doesn't happen often. I've been searching for what OCD really is from time to time, but I'm still a bit confused, and I don't want to be one of those jerks who labels themself with something to feel unique.

[@hashas1831]

@@gabevietor3685 Dude no because I'm exactly like that. I did a triage online at a clinic and I was told I display symptoms of "just right" ocd. I had never considered ocd so when she said it and asked questions I felt like I was faking because I thought that ocd wasn't like "oh hey I can organize I'm so ocd". I still feel as though I'm faking although I answered as honestly as I could. They recommended some books to me since the woman was a student and couldn't diagnose me. (I'm still looking into the next step but people are booked solid) And the books said there are different types some of which I could relate to more than others. I'm not a professional and barely know anything about anything so like others can correct me if I'm wrong, I'm not saying I'm right I'm only giving my experience in hopes it helps you. So sorry for the rant and I hope you figure things out (If you want to)

[@Weirdchicken04]

*repeats the same prayer in my head 5 times until I'm finally satisfied*

[@ainsleerayne]

Same😭😭

[@trouserone5976]

Same bruh

[@woofmansensei3677]

Same but I wont get satisfied until I get tired of it. Like when I read a verse. I literally have to pause and repeat the first prayer and then again and again. It also happens randomly even when Im just doing nothing that can make me feel like Ive done something bad. I just learned what OCD is just now. But mine's gotten a bit better. I can supress the urge to make something even or repeat something that doesnt look right. But sometimes, I fall into the tempatation of doing it

[@atreyeeschannel7975]

Same

[@KEPSHIVANGShivang]

Same

[@verityrodrigues2652]

I am so sorry for all the people who are going through this, it really breaks my heart knowing that people live a life like this, it must be so hard. I just want to let all of you know that I love you and please don't give up in life, I'll pray for you 🙏🏼🥺❤

[@Jyoonelle]

Thank you 💖💖

[@right..5651]

Appreciate your kind words 💛 Give up? Never, let the games begin. ✝️💪

[@gobindadebnath8412]

Thank you so much stranger 😅❤️

[@ImTh8tDud3]

@@right..5651 amen

[@Khseht]

Thank you

[@izzyiguess]

There was a video I watched that explained ocd a bit differently. Here’s how they explained it; “OCD and or obsessive compulsive disorder is when your mind tells you to do things a specific amount of times or way to do it and tells you if you don’t, something bad will happen. You’re being lied to by your mind and you are aware of it, but you aren’t in control of it and it forces you to listen.” *That hit hard man.*

[@toriveee]

Yes, or at least that's how it is for me. Lol. It's really annoying sometimes

[@MasonMcLeodFilms]

That’s not what it is

[@psychologyhandbook2025]

yes yesss

[@leightonnotleyton3654]

yeah... :(

[@devolutionone]

Sh*t I only put the volume on tv to certain specific numbers if not I feel uneasy and anxious and think something bad will happen.. Is that OCD? My friends also call me a clean freak and if I go to their place and it’s messy, I immediately start cleaning, do the dishes, scrub the bathroom, I don’t even ask them, I just do it but they never complain..

[@grumpymama5048]

My OCD is like, “Check on them, what if they got in a car crash?” Or, “Don’t think about this or you’ll die”. The thoughts won’t go away and it’s pure torture.

[@liltoad3433]

Grumpy Mama that happens to me but I don’t have ocd

[@logankyuketsuki1018]

lil toad same

[@sweetest_fatemel1700]

Grumpy Mama same 😓😰

[@Brawley_jit]

My brothers and sisters I have the exact same ocd you have I know it sucks but I know an amazing person that can help he has a name his name is Jesus Christ Our Lord And Savior he loves you so much and can help you. I was in an extreme state almost two months ago my goodness I felt to the point where I felt paralyzed It felt horrible. I didn’t want to be in this world it was so bad By the Grace or GOD I got help from my church and my family. I’m telling you there’s Hope. I’m currently still going through this ocd but I know GOD has Won this battle already. I Hope this comforts you in some way there is Hope. We all are different. GOD Loves You. GOD BLESS YOU.

[@Cookieswithcrumble]

Random Amen, Jesus Christ loves you too!

[@Samara-ed7kc]

Nobody: My Brain: “you better touch that door three times or the whole world is going to explode”.

[@verycreativename1865]

My brain: "Do that, but put gloves on before, since the door is dirty and other people have touched it, or you and everyone you know, are going to die of some diesease. And btw, don't make the glove slide untop of your nails, since it will rip them of.

[@trochamenlo2276]

Everytime, I go outside, I have to tap the door, 3 times, cause I think, something, that the door might fall in? Then, when I go Inside, I Have to lock the door and tap it at least 3 times, Because someone might break in? I'm not, sure If I have OCD.... Theirss alot other strange things I do for werid reasons? ...I'm not sure.

[@sunnyd4204]

@@trochamenlo2276 sounds like ocd

[@trochamenlo2276]

@@sunnyd4204 r-really? OnO

[@MYK4RM4]

Whenever I search up things, I just silently think 'if you don't spell it correctly, you die.' 😂💀

[@anreadz]

The comment section really did it. People keep mentioning that someone close to them has OCD and it made me feel good that they are watching this and being aware of how OCD affects the life of their love ones. They are opening their minds to understand how hard having OCD is. I hope I have someone like ya'll. Being supportive and all.

[@scoper7897]

she whashs her hands 10 times with soup but theres still dirt on them xddd

[@idonthavethink3931]

Me: accidentally hurts arm on the corner of the table My brain: now hit the other arm so it can be equal

[@leonzrihen4852]

wait i have this to and alot other rituals does that mean...

[@Victor.w67]

With the same strength

[@angelgalz9005]

Ikr

[@manahil7972]

This is so much me lol

[@alan-harper4386]

Oh shit. I have that

[@bepis_lord7883]

As someone with OCD, I’ve found that the quickest, easiest, most comprehensible way to describe it is “having to fight for control of your own thoughts”

[@PoIarisPrime]

Yea it’s like you think you did something that you never did and you start not remembering and you literally have to push through just to get it back

[@lemonlizard1]

wow that's the perfect description!

[@Mancombseepgood69]

dammit man that shit made me tear up.. stay strong and keep fighting all of you beautiful people this disorder does not define us

[@josephdahdouh2725]

I have had this for a long time when I was a teen. But, then I kept pushing these thoughts out. And now I have it still, but minimally. I am terrified that it would come back and I would get OCD someday. Since, really I have had instances where I like to turn on or off lights a number of times, close every door I see, wash hands before taking a bath... I don't remember how annoying my thoughts were, but somehow I took control over it.

[@disconnect.ed_]

@@josephdahdouh2725 you are not fighting alone, i also repeatedly looking at my friend at school or i will lose him when im young, and many other things, but now i have it minimaly and im pretty confident that i can suppress my weird behaviour until i die I didnt said i have ocd, it is similar but i dont know 100% true or not bc it didnt start at the beginning when im 0, it starts when i start doing it and the thought continues

[@laurachambers9447]

It's like when I touch an object I have to touch it again with my other hand so it's even and fair otherwise a weight on me will never leave and my head will be on a constant loop of thoughts

[@oddbobproductions781]

When I was younger, if I ever turned around, I would have to turn back around the other way as of there was a long trail constantly going out my back and if I turned around but didn’t unwind it would strangle me

[@vianneybeco8545]

@@oddbobproductions781 I USED TO HAVE TO TURN BACK AROUND BECAUSE IF FELT UNEVEN and I always have to touch something with both hands or a feeling of uncomfortableness washes over me. I relate to a lot of this. What do I do?!?!?

[@avessstella]

Same xD

[@fatemasajjad5288]

Exactlyyyy

[@kaylia5947]

Dude I have the same thing. For example if I scratched my left arm u would have to scratch my right arm the EXACT (so same speed, pressure, time) same. Is this a symptom of ocd?

[@esraakin3275]

it's actually really comforting to know that there are others out there who also have the same thoughts as you :) thank you for making this

[@moonroom7577]

Nobody: My brain: clap 3 times or someone will die

[@idkhelp4868]

softa bammie SAME

[@GraceAllAround]

Believe in Jesus

[@0100-r6d]

@@GraceAllAround ok

[@sjsjdjfjf5116]

IKR I always used to do random rituals before I went to bed or else I couldn’t sleep it was weird

[@Waluigi-vr4qz]

Same

[@harmlessrat4885]

can people understand OCD is not just cleaning your room?

[@abigailcalhoun9639]

I wish they could. It's taken me practically my whole life to find ways to cope with the thoughts and behaviors. This video is spot on.

[@thedarklord1569]

OCD *varies* from person to person.. It even says that in the video

[@AnonningAnon]

My room has always been a mess and I have a form of OCD called dermatophagia (skin eating). The compulsion to clean is a specific type of OCD. There are many types.

[@Mfoxhound]

I have an obsesion on the Position of the Objects and Forniture, Such as the TV if is not Extremely well Balanced and Simetrical i feel like i cant enjoy it

[@imthatextrakid8292]

Alejandro CH I have an obsesion of checking things frequently (checking ocd) and it gives me anxiety if I dont recheck things that i’ve already checked like 10 times

[@zdravokakosi146]

Me: **thinks of someone who's a bad person and touches table** Brain: do it again but this time think of someone whos a good person or else everyones gonna think you're a bad person

[@harshitha3019]

Why is this so meee😭

[@sugaashi]

I do that but just switch the bad and good ones. Idk why but whenever I touch or do something thinking of someone I care for, I feel like they will get hurt so, I just think of the bad person and do that thing again

[@fvvairy]

that’s me. if i hit my knee i have to do it to the other side. and i get intrusive thoughts all the time

[@khushiseth7196]

This is sadly relatable. I do something similar. Whenever someone says the word "me" and I think of someone I don't like then my brain tells me to think of someone I look up to the next time someone says "me", to avoid any changes in my personality. It's gotten alot better than before, but still

[@alfiueun1472]

@@sugaashi omg! So I'm not the only one😲 it's just so frustrating and uncomfortable when this happens😭

OCD is characterized by a feeling of necessity to do something that is often completely unnecessery and may even harm you, but not doing this will leave you feeling an unbearable mental discomfort. Similar to an addiction, in which you know smoking the ciggarete is bad, but not doing it gets you going insane

[@Linaosaur]

Best simple explanation

[@Fugorsrrs358]

​@@LinaosaurPlease answer my question. I have OCD, I’m afraid that I could harm my cat. Do you think it’s possible to rape a cat? Or is it unrealistic? She’s just fine, it seems like I didn’t do anything (I’m afraid that I did it

[@nothing7177]

“Bang your head against the wall” “Now the other side” “No that didn’t feel right do it again”

[@kjc715]

“Oh well now it’s an uneven amount of times, do the other side again.” “But now the other side feels more caved in, lightly on the opposing side.” “Wait but now IT feels more caved in” “Okay we’re FINALLY okay.”

[@nothing7177]

@@kjc715 exactly

[@Llamallama7282]

Omg yes and when you miss one you have to restart

[@michellenguyen4344]

That first one resonated with me... It would be on loop when I feel depressed and angry at myself

[@railroadforest30]

Exactly

[@seirameimiaj]

Can’t relate, my ocd is more like “don’t think of the word Satan or else you’ll become possessed” ... then proceeds to loudly talk nonsense so that I can’t inevitably hear myself think of the word Satan repeatedly 🙃

[@spoiledbrat4170]

Jim I do stuff like that too

[@cagethaemski]

not necessarily satan and being possessed but i do that too haha it sucks also telling myself if you think of that word one more time your mom or grandma will die and then i accidentally think of it and i’m super freaked out and my day is ruined

[@AlisTarantulas13]

i do that with my breathing, if i think about it i just completely stop breathing because i’m focusing so hard on breathing in the same pattern

[@nikavillanueva3379]

@@spoiledbrat4170 i

[@therejectedbeatle]

I don’t have OCD but I did this when I was younger.

[@ic9407]

Ocd makes me lose so much time repeating certain movements, it makes me lose so much happiness, its a constant fight with myself and with irrational fears. Im rlly happy to see that im not alone. Hope ur doing well

[@hanac5586]

I know right. Reading, writing, drawing, watching movies and even reading yt comments was hell. Normal life felt like a big task. However with psychotherapy and life situation change I'm finally able to live semi normally. I hope you will too someday. OCD is exhausting. I kinda tried to use my OCD against my OCD. I "made" a new compulsion that was about not doing my other compulsions. Oddly enough it relieved some anxiety and I could ignore the urges better.

[@Kolondagrabarkotarovec]

@@hanac5586 i did the same thing

[@MisguidingWish]

Well does it include rewinding a movie or video while watching it.

[@TS-pi5nu]

@@hanac5586 if you dont mind obviously could you elaborate on the reading, watching, etc, why you struggled with that, what did those things made you feel,i hope i was clear

[@hanac5586]

@@TS-pi5nu If I read a sentence "wrong" (didn't feel good in my brain, I messed up pronunciation or I didn't understand what I was reading) I had to reread it 3 times outloud, if I still somehow did it "wrong" I had to keep doing it until I had reread it 5 times and if I still did it "wrong", 7 times etc...same with movies. If I somehow didn't absorb every little random detail and remember it visually I had to rewatch the scene. It made the experience really stressful and frustrating. Similiarly, if the letters I wrote looked ugly I had to erase them repeatedly (those numbers, 3,5,7,10,27) even if the letter was fine after the second try. Then I'd mess up on the third try...keep going til 5 and hope for the best etc etc Sometimes I cried out of frustration, so I started avoiding things that used to be fun, because they became stressful.

[@SHEPPARDSPIEEE]

I have OCD, I was really bad with it when I was around 14-15 years old. I had to do stuff a certain number of times if I didn’t I thought something bad would happen. It got so bad I had to speak to my Mum about it and she was honestly amazing! The relief to talk to someone about it made me feel so much at eased and less stress. Since my Mum passed away in 2020 my OCD has been really bad. Whoever is reading this I hope you find someone who you trust to talk about it because it will make you feel so much better and you will feel like a ton of bricks have been lifted off your shoulders!

[@PriyankaChauhan-iq4bc]

I had it...still sometimes

[@ddg0907]

I hope you are ok, wishing you the best🫶

[@a.jsunar8026]

😢

[@momsecret123]

What is the solution plss help

[@SHEPPARDSPIEEE]

@@PriyankaChauhan-iq4bc me too

[@amber8349]

I always thought OCD was being obsessed with cleaning. That’s why when I actually got it, I didn’t even notice it was OCD. I thought it was just some weird habit that I do. Walking in an even amount of steps. Having to apply the same pressure on my right and my left so it would be balanced. Having to step within the boxes of my tiles. It’s only now that I realized what was actually happening. It even affected my thoughts, I would have to do certain gestures in certain places

[@ahhahahahno9657]

Same. I hate this. It's torture and it wastes a lot fo my time.

[@spikerae3095]

me 100%

[@burakkutenshi_1238]

@@ahhahahahno9657 Your spelling triggers my OCD.

[@idkdude3542]

That is most likely perfectionism it’s like ocd but just a little less like this and you just want to make everything perfect but ocd is thoughts reminding you everything

[@okayhi2594]

Same..

[@impan2051]

As somebody who also has OCD, thank you for showing the world that being diagnosed with OCD does not always mean that you are a perfectionist

[@321boom4]

you are now breathing manually

[@laurabuckley9219]

I also have ocd and I hate it when you hear people that are perfectionists say they have ocd as it’s not the same thing at all

[@Kamisama1000]

Same I have severe OCD, I had a friend sleep over one time because she got locked out her house. I warned her that I disliked people touching things in my room especially my bed. I don't even touch my bed until I bathed. I washed everything right after she left.

[@321boom4]

you’re now blinking manually

[@eohuh178]

i had this since i was 7 or 8, I've been called by my cousins stupid and crazy because of it. I knew about this disorder last year when i opened tiktok and someone talked about this. I had no idea. I thought i was just being crazy or something, it's so hard sometimes

[@robinmikayla3631]

I hate when people says “I have ocd that’s why my room always is clean!” OCD isn’t about having a clean room. I have been diagnosed with ocd, by many doctors, and my room is a mess. But I know where all my stuff is, and if I don’t, well, I’ll have a panic attack.

[@thedarklord1569]

OCD *varies* from person to person. It's not the same for everyone.

[@robinmikayla3631]

THE DARK LORD yeah I know, I’m just telling this from my own perspective. I have lots of friends saying they have it

[@lalalalala37284]

exactly! i have contamination OCD and my room is a mess for that reason lmao.

[@robinmikayla3631]

M Y well, I don’t really know any “great” advice, but I think you should try to talk to them about it, but if they get angry again, try talking to a teacher (if you go to school) or a friend. Someone you trust! When I got diagnosed I went to an psychiatrist. It helped a lot, because she didn’t get angry, and she didn’t tell I was overreacting. She understood and respected how I felt

[@syedsaadahmed2336]

I'd say, us OCDs are more of an organized mess than presumable mess, idk 🤷‍♂️😛

[@saniyaidrisi2000]

The fact that if they won't do this, they could almost go insane, I'm really proud of someone who survive this everyday pretending like a normal human being among the crowd when genuinely all they wanted to do is cry and ran away from all that pressure.

[@nnny7]

true 😭

[@gabrielalvarado7849]

Not at all. Actually participating in the compulsions make it worse. Exposure therapy is very useful.

[@demonface4190]

@@gabrielalvarado7849 the first sentence of your comment is not true at all. At least in my case

[@weirdgamerizabel]

Wth they don't go insane

[@clear804]

@@weirdgamerizabel yeah but it irritates you

[@gracematulovic]

I have ocd and I hate how people think that having OCD is good.

[@brenda-bp7gq]

Having OCD is pure torture

[@unknown_user7021]

Grace Anne i know

[@madelynncreswell]

i have ocd i’m quirky 🤪🤪🤪🤪🤩🤩🤩🤩🤠🤩🤪🤩🤪🤩🤠

[@taniacavazos2474]

Ummm can somebody tell what’s OCD ??? 🙃

[@bryannabermudez2557]

I’m sorry I’m an idiot? What does ocd do to you ?

[@dinochicknuggs8231]

50% of the comments are about her wearing socks with chanclas the other 50% are stories about experiencing OCD or suspecting that you have it

[@nataliek878]

A lot of people have OCD, it's more than you'd think. Since it's one of the more common mental disorders, I think it's safe to say most people here probably do have it. As for socks and sandals... I mean cmon, can you blame them??? XD

[@AS-hl6id]

@@nataliek878 it's not THAT common wtf

[@lucy-sr3qk]

lmao chanclas

[@theallknowingsloth3255]

they are flip flops

[@mhm77887]

@@AS-hl6id it is that common. Do your research.

[@okramcisav]

This brought tears in my eyes, i just want to hug all the people with OCD ❤️

[@user-it3kh9vz6s]

Just make sure your arms touch the same spots on both sides otherwise the imbalance will make us go insane

[@the3dotsguy...610]

"Wash 3 times" is triggering because every time you do something like that more than once it has to be an even number. So it is balenced... Atleast for me

[@lesend2796]

Who's King Now the best way to stop having OCD is to not listen to that monster in your brain ok have courage if your mind threatens you then don’t listen to it i was a victim and I did the same thing and now I don’t have it anymore.

[@crunchyabortion2897]

Who's King Now for me it’s 3 5 10 15

[@camillechoinieree]

same i do everything in 2’s

[@abigailwilliams8889]

@@crunchyabortion2897 My numbers can't end in 2, 4 or 8. They have to end in 3, 5, 6, 7 or 9.

[@tinalove4324]

camille choiniere Mine is mostly even numbers usually 2,4,8,

[@antheia__]

The comments literally broke my heart. I am so sorry for anyone going through this I can't even imagine what it's like to live with those thoughts. Wish you all the best.

[@oopekia3528]

Great pfp aot is the best

[@pipclip]

thank you :)

[@antheia__]

@𝙰𝚛𝚒𝚏𝚞𝚖𝚒 I'm so sorry to hear that... It must be so hard, honestly... I really hope you can feel better soon and live a life full of wholesome things and happiness, because you deserve it

[@ariesleorising9421]

I’ve had it since childhood. I’m 57 now. Thank you for your kind words.

[@vibrantgleam]

@@ariesleorising9421 How do you cope with OCD? (I don't have it but I came here to learn more about OCD)

[@applepen456]

This is heartbreaking. My love to anyone who goes through this everyday. May the power be with you all❤️

[@qopkornz]

Thank you ☺️

[@Kolvatn]

ty

[@emilybemily29]

Thank you

[@littlemissemila1818]

Thank you 💕

[@Vonnie.r111]

Thank you ❤️

[@weynaaaafs]

As someone with OCD, I feel relieved to see the comments that im not the only one who have this OCD. The video is very accurate, with someone who have ocd can relate in this video and i feel the same too. Hope you guys to become more happy and feel alive everyday. We all got this❤

[@DemystifyingMedicineMcMaster]

Thank-you. You are not alone! If there is any education content we can produce that you could find helpful please let us know

[@RMCMXCV]

Me: *Looks at something I own to make sure that it's still there, and not moved the slightest bit* Brain: *Touch it... But make sure you touch it correctly, then stare at it*

[@sarahslavny3499]

I do that too! My brains like: “if u don’t lift up ur computer rn and check what’s underneath it it’ll get wet somehow and break” or “if u don’t triple check ur counters in ur room your dog will die from eating something in there”

[@thespacecowboy71]

My god this is me

[@heymynameisel]

Them: * puts hot iron face down on wooden floor * Me: * *anxiety* *

[@Fernandacatapia]

El Locksmith I feel the saaaaaaaame. I can’t go on with the video well. Bcs i can’t stop thinking in the stupid iron

[@starseed1566]

Yea I just freakout.... cause I would feel bad if her floor is ruined :;(∩´﹏`∩);:

[@Anythingforfreedom]

She definitely did. I was like.... where's your OCD when you need it?

[@timurbekzahin4535]

me too

[@ClemetinexX]

Now you can't disrespect my disorder I'm diagnosed and thats not what anxiety is that's getting nervous

[@lava4real925]

I’m sending this vid to that ONE girl who says “I have OCD,teehee I’m SO quirky 😝”

[@xander8574]

you mean most of the population?

[@aroundtheworldgirl4431]

😂😂😂 You go do that, but I read what she says as "I have OCD, teehee, I'm SO TWERKY 😝" - I was thinking to myself what the hell does twerking have to do with OCD and why would having OCD make you...twerky?

[@dylanrose3567]

@@aroundtheworldgirl4431 Quirky dumbass

[@michaelmodernsonicfan5341]

LOL 😂

[@sam-vo9io]

Asher Rain quirky?

[@__KK___]

My OCD is the intrusive and unwanted thoughts that will replay over and over and where my brain will tell myself things that are just disgusting and not me at all. it’s so exhausting and mentally draining.

[@brandonshiflet5648]

Just a reminder: OCD can also be an internalized thought process that you cannot always see. There isn’t always textbook physical manifestations for everyone.

[@pistolpatpatr.9845]

Exactly what I was thinking watching this. My thoughts are what gets obsessive. Plus Not all ppl with OCD are neat freaks, my room is always messy. lol

[@PrincessofKeys]

@@pistolpatpatr.9845 true I've learned that uts also intrusive thoughts and not only physical rituals

[@ObsessedwithZelda2]

Is this something you can explain? I can’t tell sometimes reading about OCD if I fit or not, because some major elements always seem like a definite no, but I am very strict regarding my thoughts, so I’m unsure...

[@EkM-cl2bn]

@@ObsessedwithZelda2 my OCD is different from this person in the video. My intrusive thoughts are usually something like let's say I'm driving for example I'll have this overwhelming thought that my brakes are going to fail and I'll hurt someone so I have to continuously check the brakes over and over again and then I will obsesses to the point that I have a panic attack and have to pull over. Or sometimes I will have a random intrusive thought that I can't breathe or swallow even though I can and then I have to excessively swallow and take deep breaths over and over and over again to convince myself that I'm okay. This happens to me at night too where I will have an intrusive thought that if I close my eyes they will get stuck behind my head so then I have to stay up and blink my eyes over and over again which results in me not sleeping. Same goes for food and cooking - always have intrusive thoughts that my oven will explode or the food is rotten and will make me sick and then I have to perform certain rituals to soothe my anxiety. I always have intrusive thoughts that my phone is going to blow up in my face too. OCD is exhausting and my doesn't really present in a physical way. I'm pretty sure no one would know I have OCD unless I pointed it out

[@ObsessedwithZelda2]

@@EkM-cl2bn Oh no! Yes, whatever is happening in my head is definitely not so severe as many people with it, thankfully. I have a few things like not wanting to use cups/silverware with visible waterspots which can lead to taking like 5 minutes to select one, but mostly I try to control how I think and feel about things. Like, weird and inconsistent legalism. When I think, I am usually aware of a ’direction’ I am thinking, and for different things I need it to be a specific ‘direction’. Sometimes I will move things out of my way for this, and I feel wrong if I don’t pick the right direction for it. I don’t get severe anxiety, but discomfort and over time it can build into something frantic. As just an easy to think of example. A lot don’t feel so much like ritual as it does rules? Which is why I don’t think OCD fits, but then... man I really don’t know what to call this

[@rawiyahedries218]

Watching this video just made me cry. Be kind to all people. You never know what they are battling with inside.

[@ashiumtanwirahmed011]

Exactly 😭😭😭😭

[@Llinasi]

Okay but did you just leave hot iron facing wooden floor? 😅

[@isabella1744]

with the cord out too lol

[@Llinasi]

I S A 🙈

[@tiaraa.9153]

omg i know even if that's not real wood it's still bothering me

[@м999-я2ф]

For real with the cord out I was so freaking triggered.

[@savannahg5369]

Anastasy I was gonna say 😂

[@eunoiamoon]

My OCD is somewhat similar to the kind potrayed in the video. It's annoying and worst of all, it causes me extreme anxiety if something triggers my OCD. My heartbeat becomes faster, my chest feels empty and I feel this sudden gust of fear during the anxiety attacks. My doctor told me a few ways to reduce this displeasing effect, one of the most useful methods being attention divertion. When our mind, especially one with OCD, is triggered into thinking something bad will happen, that same thought will keep on occuring to us. But, if we choose to occupy our mind by doing something that will divert our attention someplace else, our mind will slowly calm down and those thoughts will not occur again. It has proven to be very helpful during my OCD triggers. I am still healing from it, and I know this journey takes time. However, I believe that I and many others like me who are also part of this community can successfully rejuvenate from the stress and heal from this distressing mental illness. We can do this, everybody. We can. Lots of love from a fellow OCD sufferer. Let's lead the best lives.

[@tunnu4092]

Why don't people understand that ocd isn't only about washing hands and keeping things perfectly ..it's more about thoughts... Excessive thoughts that leads to compulsions... The symptoms may not always be similar for different individuals... Written by an Ocd patient

[@nataliek878]

I wouldn't say that it's more about thoughts for everyone, but I have mostly obsessive OCD so I know what you mean. Everyone experiences the disorder a bit differently. :-)

[@maxscheer2573]

Sarah biology lectures I always tell people I have ocd and they say no you don’t because ocd means you “don’t like germs” and it makes me so mad because that’s not what ocd always is

[@ektatinu4568]

I know. It's so irritating.

[@what2804]

Like when you want to “remove” an unwanted thought it leads to doing something weird, like you do it over and over again until it feels “right”

[@tunnu4092]

@@what2804 That's exactly what happens to me!!! But people think that ocd is only about perfectionism and personal hygiene!!!

[@spottiercamp8183]

As someone who has this and has been dealing with it for there life I can tell you right now that you dont hear voices telling you what to do you just have the instinct.

[@dylanpratomo4971]

You wrote the wrong there. It's their bcs you're talking in 3rd person, while there means you're indicating a place wich is away from you. Sry if it's annoying that I corrected you but I had to

[@seongchwija1846]

Yess you are absolutely right there would be no time to hear any voices. It's just an instinct.

[@siam.9271]

Can someone please help me coz I don't know if I'm a *perfectionist* (but i do many otyer things which are symptoms of OCD along with all the things that a perfectionist do coz I'm for sure a perfectionist but want to know I've OCD or not coz I have its symptoms from years ) or *suffering from OCD*, anyways I never thought of this as a disease and I'm proud of it for now reason but I don't consider it as a disease You can ask me question in reply and I would answer of what I'm suffering from and so you can help me know what I'm

[@iisimplyamy8031]

@@siam.9271 As someone who studies psychology, I'm happy to help! So, OCD usually occurs when you have ongoing intrusive thoughts, despite your effort to get rid of them. Are you having unwanted thoughts, and do you do repetitive behaviors to try to "satisfy" your thoughts or get rid of them?

[@nutsii3880]

I did it when I was little not anymore I didn't knew what OCD was I really felt like not vOicEs just instruct but when I had that I I just tried my best to avoid now it happens once in a while

[@melodymg7475]

The woman: *imediately puts toothpaste on toothbrush and brushes teeth* Me: Oh come on I dont have OCD but U GOTTA WASH THE BRUSH FIRST.

[@kim1720leah]

same lmfao

[@ananuvella]

Thats makes the toothbrush less effective! don't do it!

[@ahhhhhh6085]

@@ananuvella Girl no offense but, that doesn't make sense

[@ananuvella]

@@ahhhhhh6085 well brush bristles can be debuted by soaking and make them less efficient

[@notstable6497]

melodymg I know that pissed me off so much and I had to go and brush my teeth lmao

[@K4IJU]

This video is SO incredibly stressful for me to watch bc of how accurate it is and nearly triggering episodes again 😭 the hand washing, the tedious tasks of doing it a perfect number of times or restarting, THE WALKING EVEN NUMBERS IN THE SEGMENTS ON THE SIDEWALK, and so much more is so deeply relatable; for me another big thing with my OCD is I’ll have a random bad intrusive thought in public around other people, and I’ll ask myself “why the hell did I just think that terrible thing???!” And then my OCD will spam ask me “did you mean it did you mean it did you mean it did you mean it” and I’ll keep saying “no no no no no no” but after asking myself for like 5 or 10 or 30 or however many minutes in a row I’ll start self doubting myself and feel like I’m some monster and want to distance from people out of fear of saying such terrible things out loud which only makes the cycle worse - for a while I managed to have control over it (I think by not being out in public as much and being more online with friends especially with covid, but even in public I’d not really get those thoughts anymore) but recently it kicked up again just like how it was when I was younger and yesterday I spent 12 hours straight hopping from one airport to another and surrounded by people and constantly trying to convince myself I don’t mean the intrusive thoughts and I don’t want to hurt anyone and I’d rather die than hurt someone else emotionally or physically or whatever it may be and yet it’d keep asking me endlessly. My brain still physically hurts from it, it’s so insanely exhausting. As a kid too everyone used perfectionist and OCD interchangeably and I thought OCD was only for cleaning stuff and so I actually only realized very recently too that I even had (and still have) OCD, especially to when it comes to thinking things about philosophy and God and I think what honestly may have sparked it to begin with was me being terrified of God hating me even remotely thinking anything bad or about Satan and having to constantly in my head say I didn’t mean it over and over again. I’m no longer like that at all with religion thankfully, as I got myself out of that trap and am in a very happy self actualized phase of my life and the most me I’ve ever been and I love everything in this world and view it all to be ineffably equally beautiful and so on, but oh my gosh I want to just get over this damn OCD now and I think I want to really see a therapist about it and see how to best conquer it. Thank you for this video, I needed to know I’m not alone in this crazy BS

[@naudiafields1921]

I’m not going to lie after watching this video it made me realize I should go see my doctor about the things I do that I thought were normal

[@nicholascowan1731]

I’ve always known it’s not normal

[@spoiledbrat4170]

I’ve always done it and only realized it was not normal a year ago but I don’t want to tell my mom because she will think I’m one of those qUiRkY girls and just say something like “okay well just don’t count everything you do jeez”

[@LaKanaeFandubs]

And how it goes??? 😱

[@no.mf.dimpless7636]

Yo same I literally do everything on here on a daily 🤣💀

[@Jaxnay219]

Naudia Fields OMG ME TOO!

[@yeetk534]

Omgwhen she put the iron face down that really botheredme

[@zerodevour]

True

[@janarsola1718]

ikr

[@kieraachee2768]

Sameeee

[@thisgurl4205]

Same

[@gred8774]

no one: My brain every time i eat: ok you just ate three gummies, you can't leave it this way please PLEASE EAT ONE MORE AND MAKE IT AN EVEN NUMBER

[@Linbuxian]

Haha yes I have the even number thing too but 5 is an exception. I don’t know why, but 5 is just better than 4 and especially 6. 4 is okay but if I get to 6, no. I gotta go to 8 or 10 but 10 is more satisfying than 8 and so on

[@gred8774]

@@Linbuxian YES EXACTLY

[@queenofmff2935]

Mine was like this, if i had my frizzy drink, i need to balance it with drink one full cup of water. I drink it alot till i feel better.

[@remy9744]

Mine is intertwined with my eating disorder, like you have to make up for everything you eat with exercise, I don't care if it's a freaking Polo and only has 6 calories exercise now or else you will fucking hate every inch of yourself for the rest of your life and so will everyone else

[@amelia-mayhowarth5667]

I like 1,3, i hate 4, eh for 5 & 6, like 7, h8 8, eh 9, like 10

[@ihart.u.5ever]

Could we just take a quick moment to appreciate that really cool closet at the beginning of the video? The shape of it is just so unique omg

[@bcsproductions5988]

No one: My brain: Blink twice at each corner of the room or u will fail as a human

[@gamesps9562]

And in my case, it has to be a brick wall with the white paint, because it's solid and plain.

[@karthikaanilkumara6612]

OH MY GODDD I HAVE THE EXACT SAME THINGGG

[@dylanpratomo4971]

I got this thing where I gotta touch every lamp post on the side walk. Idk y but I gotta do it, it just fells wrong not to

[@LeviAckerman-f9b]

I also do this... This is not OCD right?

[@posie4195]

THIS IS SO TRUE WTH

[@heartchains6182]

my brain: pick up something and put it back down or somethings gonna happen

[@naire.97]

Exactly

[@theheck9424]

Wha

[@user-bl3fl7cu7p]

ME DHWBFHEJE

[@xiinava6418]

For me its *pick something up* *put it down* *pick it up exactly how you did with the other hand* *put it down in the exact spot where it was before* If its not exactly where it was,i have to pick it up again and place it because i HATE draging things across a surface.

[@argbarg6360]

When I pick something up and put it down I’m like okay I’m good now! But then my brain is like “now do it again.” and I do it again and then my brain: “one more time.” And that keeps happening until i feel good about stoping there or until I get to one of my “lucky numbers”.

[@beautifulatrocities7588]

JUST A PSA: just because you like to have a clean house does not mean you have OCD whatsoever, so stop telling everyone and their grandma you have it. Got it? Good.

[@mart5318]

{Beautiful Atrocities} you seem a little mad lol cool out

[@Zubaidah000]

I think you also have Ocd lol

[@vanessa-mk7dj]

Lady chill.

[@sade5431]

You big mad or little mad?

[@sade5431]

Ella Orsi XD

[@machelleamore2935]

I have had severe OCD for the last 40+ years and its debilitating and you feel so helpless at times because it does take over so much of your day. The routines and rituals are enough to drive a person insane. I hate it and ive been trying to stop it for years but revert back to it when under stress or something negative happens. My heart goes out to those who share this awful condition. My prayers go out for happiness and healing to you all ❤

[@Uknown76]

Im 23 and its been really bad this year I was never able to to get a diagnosis as a kid because my parents didn’t believe in ocd they just told me me to knock it off this was my first time moving out and now the thought spirals and rituals are impacting my life im so ashamed but i dont think i can afford to see a therapist

[@DiboraBinebeb]

When she said, “not this foot, the other foot first!” I swear that was the most relatable thing. I’ve been having these little obsessions ever since I was a kid and I can’t explain them, I have to do them or the fate of the universe hangs in the balance. I’ve not been diagnosed with OCD, and I knew what OCD was, but what I didn’t know was that I might actually have it.

[@annymus4502]

What happened?

[@eskimarf744]

same

[@vianneybeco8545]

How are you now??

[@rdxcutie2763]

The best thing to do if you have ocd= “When the thoughts come from one door, just let it pass form another door. Don’t feed your thoughts tea.” (It might be hard but you can do it!, also I recommend watching this guy called Sadhguru, search: Sadhguru on thoughts in KZbin)

[@raisaharis4305]

Same

[@qai4316]

Me: *touches something* My brain: Wipe it before detectives come

[@ztaowithpandaearrings9935]

I have OCD for a long time but I didn't know this thought was related to it I-

[@weebdweeb3951]

@@ztaowithpandaearrings9935 well I havr noticed people with OCD have different experiences with their thoughts

[@kendewendy]

i dont have ocd but i do this all the time lmfao

[@yeevz9701]

same

[@Kavindu_Bandara1126]

@@ztaowithpandaearrings9935 try a doctor please.

[@angelinag9675]

Social media has convoluted what ocd truly is, I consider myself a perfectionist because I like things a certain way but people now would call that ocd. This is a good way to learn what ocd truly is.

[@rebjr6615]

social media?...

[@Ashley-cr4ow]

I think I’m developing ocd :(. I’ve been doing certain actions to control my anxiety. Like I must wear sunglasses all the time while outside now. Even if it’s raining. I’ve been starting to wear them indoors as well. Idk if that’s ocd, but I also rub the frames of my glasses to calm myself down

[@billdates69]

I just noticed that im not perfectionist

[@billdates69]

I been doing the same thing over and over again

[@billdates69]

Like for example i want my clothes to be arranged before i finish bathing. The first thing that came to my mind is that ohh i should put the shirt under the short and the underwear after

[@Midronightess]

I have diagnosed OCD, it's different for everyone, the repeating thoughts and the compulsions are hard to live with. Sometimes i freeze up when im about to say something, or when i need to say something, my mind is repeating and screaming at me over and over "say it, say it" but i just cant get my words out. My experience may be different from other people's experiences, but please don't try and put someone down who has troubles like this just because someone else with OCD "has to be more perfect or more clean", the compulsive thoughts can be lots of things and they can range from mild to very severe and dangerous thoughts

[@palomamayrany1537]

My ocd.. after washing my hands for 10 minutes and I walk out to touch anything my brain says I touched germs again and now I can’t eat until I wash my hands again

[@gero3015]

That just means your a germophobe not necessarily OCD

[@spikerae3095]

@@gero3015 ocd causes things like that to happen

[@justmaya7634]

Omg so relatable. I feel the need to wash my hands twice and then after drying them I just can’t touch the light switch or doorknob. I usually turn it off with my elbow and open the door with my sleeve

[@rdxcutie2763]

The best thing to do if you have ocd= “When the thoughts come from one door, just let it pass form another door. Don’t feed your thoughts tea.” (It might be hard but you can do it!, also I recommend watching this guy called Sadhguru, search: Sadhguru on thoughts in KZbin)

[@LubyLifts]

i feel you

[@judy3848]

I hear A LOT of people say “I have OCD”, when in reality those who do have it tend to keep it to themselves. Perfection and OCD are TWO different things!

[@xgods9192]

Still, you can’t judge people who openly say it, it’s okay to do so. You’re almost saying : “the real persons who have OCD keep it to themselves” and that’s so wrong.

[@therealfrickenchicken]

Having ocd, I found it hard to admit to myself that I had it and I didn’t want others or my family to know either. That was part of it. They can never know. I was basically suffering in silence and starting with telling my family helped me realize it’s ok that I have it and other people knowing that I have it can help me over come it. Acknowledging the problem rather than pretending it wasn’t there was hard because pretending I didn’t have it gave me no confirmation or proof that it was there. I’m not sure if it has actually gotten any better, I think I just have gotten better at dealing with it.

[@sarahhamia1111]

Washing your hands 3 times in a row because of random voices in your head isn't what I would call perfection...

[@danieltommy7893]

@@xgods9192 Yh true, but I think the point she was trying to make is that there are alot of people who self diagnose and say "I have OCD" just because the might be a perfectionist or just really like things to be a certain way.

[@xgods9192]

@@TheLakabanzaichrg bruuh, there’s nothing wrong about openly admitting you’ve been diagnosed with a mental illness.

[@brina000]

In third grade I suddenly started trying to become “perfect” like have a perfect day routine. It’s rlly hard to explain but- I’d have to wake up at an exactly even time, take exactly 10 steps to the bathroom, take exactly 3 minutes, come back at exactly __:05, get dressed in the exact outfit perfectly without messing up (I’d repeat this over and over), eat breakfast in the exact amount of bites I’m “supposed” to, and log into class at exactly __:45. If I messed up I’d have ruined my whole day and I’d have to start tomorrow. I wouldn’t do certain things like hang out with friends or family because I might “mess up”. I’m a bit better, but I’m still trying to recover :)

[@Soappyducky11_]

i hope you get better. my OCD definetily isnt this bad which im happy about but i hope you recover

[@jvstvorothii]

may you have a speedy recovery! :)

[@abigailsweeneyy]

I’m so sorry that must’ve been absolute torture I hope you can fully recover or at least get close to fully recovering!

[@graciesanders3511]

oh my gosh!! that’s exactly how mine is!! mine started in 3rd grade as well!! i hope you’re doing well!!

[@khushiseth7196]

You are very strong and you can do this! Hope you get better soon my friend.

[@maryqueenievillamor941]

"*me just standing somewhere*" brain: jump and raise your hand me: why brain: just do it mom: wtf are you doing

[@siam.9271]

Can someone please help me coz I don't know if I'm a *perfectionist* (but i do many otyer things which are symptoms of OCD along with all the things that a perfectionist do coz I'm for sure a perfectionist but want to know I've OCD or not coz I have its symptoms from years ) or *suffering from OCD*, anyways I never thought of this as a disease and I'm proud of it for now reason but I don't consider it as a disease You can ask me question in reply and I would answer of what I'm suffering from and so you can help me know what I'm

[@fisheraser]

im have ocd and i am a perfectionist, they are pretty different. my perfectionism is like if i see that my room is messy i always clean it, if my notes arent pretty i redo it till its perfect, while ocd is like 1. intrusive thoughts. lost of gross and mean and weird stuff that randomly pops into my brain 2. compulsions if i touch a table or wall or something with one hand i have to do this ritual sort of thing (1st hand 2nd hand 2nd hand 1st hand) and this happens all the time or sometimes i have to do random crap or else i feel like i might die or someone might die or something like that. what are you experiencing?

[@TheAnonEye]

@@siam.9271 don’t ever ask for help in the internet for these kinds of things; go and seek a professional to help you out. Sorry if it came out aggressive 😅 but self-diagnosing yourself with a psychological disorder is a big no no.

[@rollingbarrel4478]

@@siam.9271 If you suspect you have OCD, consult a doctor. They can properly check your symptoms and diagnose you.

[@ryan1993ish]

Lol, I would do that too but with the “IDK shoulder shrug gesture 🤷🏻‍♀️” and my mom literally thought I had ticks or Tourette’s syndrome even tho I told her I meant to do them……and she’d be all like….ok time to turn off tv 📺…..you’ve been watching it too long and now you’re ticking out” Me : 🤦‍♀️

[@thereisnofinishline5773]

this video made me realize that I'm not weird but a lot of people have this, thank you

[@MonkeyBlab]

1% of people have OCD ...

[@siam.9271]

Can someone please help me coz I don't know if I'm a *perfectionist* (but i do many otyer things which are symptoms of OCD along with all the things that a perfectionist do coz I'm for sure a perfectionist but want to know I've OCD or not coz I have its symptoms from years ) or *suffering from OCD*, anyways I never thought of this as a disease and I'm proud of it for now reason but I don't consider it as a disease You can ask me question in reply and I would answer of what I'm suffering from and so you can help me know what I'm

[@-insertpunchlinehere-]

@@siam.9271 So... At the end of the day, your best and most meaningful option is to meet and discuss this with a mental health professional who can help you. OCD is not a common or self-diagnosable condition at the end of the day, so seeing someone will help you to officially determine. What I can provide you is some basic info between it and perfectionism. Perfectionism is generally being very organized or routine oriented. What separates OCD from perfectionism is the obsessive and compulsive behaviors that coincide (the OC). People with OCD have trouble going on with their day if they dont complete the certain tasks or rituals they may have. For example, one with OCD may have an obsessive thought that they caused a driver to crash on the road, and they obsess so much about the possible thought that they take a detour to check, even if it could mean they are late for work or school. Thats only one example. OCD also can derive from certain fears like germs (though its a fine line). Thats all I can provide, as I dont have OCD nor am a mental health professional. However, I hope I could help. Please feel free to correct me if needed.

[@MonkeyBlab]

Yes. Go to the doctor and stop using illnesses as adjectives.

[@rowietheweird4737]

@@MonkeyBlab that's still around 79,000,000 people, and i think they were just saying that this video makes them feel seen and not weird about themselves

[@waterhouse9693]

The person who made this video is an absolute legend. Having to record this, then voice over their thoughts, and having to listen to it again and again must have been incredibly painful to listen and watch. Nothing but respect for the amount of courage this had to take

[@ihelpdefaults568]

Shits ez asf y’all r mad dramatic

[@con-kq7nu]

@@ihelpdefaults568 bozo

[@dontmindmyname7563]

Sorry, but you’re overdramaticizing this a bit. This video was “Put together” if you will, and the thoughts that you hear in the video may not exactly be the most accurate to reality. OCD is a pain, yeah, but it’s not so crippling that we break down crying with PTSD flashbacks whenever we reflect on our OCD. Many times, you don’t even get a coherent thought, just a raw urge, so she may have formulated some of what you see in the video to make it more accessible to the viewer.

[@genso_038]

@@ihelpdefaults568 ong

[@17th_Colossus]

@@dontmindmyname7563 This. I hate when ppl act like individuals with OCD are a fragile piece of glass. We aren’t, and this sort of thing just makes others look down on us.

[@Basement_Bro]

Have had this disorder for years now. And let me tell you, that whole sink episode hits different. Wash three times, over and over. And then once you do, you don’t believe you counted correctly. So you do it again. Then you might as well do it again because your hand touched the sink that was dirty in the first place. That repeating thought in your head. Someone could tell me something and it won’t leave my head until I bring it up again. Thank you for shedding light on this debilitating disorder. I’m fighting the battle every day of my life.

[@morgankennell]

Did anyone notice she payed the hot iron face down with the hot part on her wood floor 😬😬😬😭

[@J214-m7n]

Me😬

[@tanjam3894]

I just commented that like wtf, do you want to burn your house down sis?

[@mockingjay5865]

I knowwwwwww i was like girllll 😬😬😬😬

[@richrdruvalcaba2884]

My ocd is kicking in

[@croy1222]

oooh yeah🥴 and who just has an iron laying around your bedroom?!😂

[@jaydbd7189]

Me: chews a big chip on right side of mouth Me 2 seconds later: eats 2 medium chips on left side of mouth

[@jaydbd7189]

Audrey Shotland neither do I, it’s also especially annoying when it hurts on one side of the mouth like a toothache or something, since for me at least it’s kinda a habit.

[@butterfly6722]

Same

[@journeyyyu2146]

I thought I was the only one 😂🥴

[@taualamalevaahawkins1441]

Bruh same

[@marielyc2424]

JayMC SAME

[@rae123]

OCD can manifest in very different ways. For me it's not washing my hands a certain amount of times just till it feels right. Intrusive thoughts in the form of graphic images, and contamination fears especially having to do with food are my most common symptoms. If you feel like you might have OCD or something similar see a therapist, I had no idea I had OCD till recently, Im 20 years old. Point is: It can look very different person to person.

[@DemonPig666]

Yes same here like il be walking and then my mind will be like Intrusive thought: run to the lamppost in 10 seconds or your family die or Shut your eyes in 3 seconds or something graphic is gonna happen to u or Write something in the top right corner of your page or whatever is on the page will happen to you

[@gxn_exe05]

holy shit. you read my mind. im not even 17 yet.

[@kingkoller1503]

Sometimes I think, that i feel the bacteria on my hands after a handshake…

[@LowdownBoy]

wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times wash three times

[@michaeloluokun9488]

@@kingkoller1503 lol same it feels...weird until you wash it then your brain resets

[@SasksDeMorg]

Ngl that was so hard too watch, cause it was wayy to accurate. The hand thing especially. Seeing u describe it as "heavy" was exactly how I've been trying to explain it this whole time but just couldn't find the proper word for it. The knowing that u will be late but listening to the voices part and the feeling guilty for not being able to ignore them and missing out on stuff, as well as the cracks on the streets felt so real. Ngl it was very comforting seeing this video i feel a little less like a weirdo.

[@regalcartoon5932]

As someone who undeniably has OCD…this video makes me feel so much better. People always say I have OCD because I like things to be need and orderly. Or arranged a certain way. And yeah that may be part of it. But…OCD is so much more. I find myself repeating the same action over and over again till I get it right. Something as simple as walking in a room takes me 5 or 6 tries before I am satisfied. And if I don’t do it till I get it right I feel wrong. Course, when I do it till I get it right…I can tell you it is the most unbelievably satisfying thing ever. And I constantly worry about everything. I have bad anxiety…and a bit of paranoia. But it’s so much more than making things perfect. That’s what no one gets.

[@BubblegumTrollKing]

I've always been curious, why is the "right way" to do something not flawlessly instinctual so that it doesn't need repeating? I don't have OCD, but there are lots of small habits I have for doing certain things that are very specific and also very satisfying to enact that I'm also keenly aware of. I can't imagine failing to do something minute 5 times in a row if I do it so often, I am hyperaware of the act, and my mentality revolves around doing it a certain way. How is it not flawlessly instinctual? If I did feel compelled to repeat the action until I enacted it perfectly, 9 times out of 10 I wouldn't have to because I'm conditioned to do it that specific way. I will walk through a door the same way every time without deviation. Now this is just me but with a lot of things, repeating the action to fix it makes me feel gross inside often, it ruins the fluidity, but other times I will repeat something for the satisfaction of having done it right in the off chance I do something wrong. But I am really interested to hear your experiences behind this and what makes it such an issue.

[@regalcartoon5932]

@@BubblegumTrollKing I honestly don’t think I can explain it in words. I guess in a way, I just feel as though say…walking into a room a certain way was intended. Like I need to do something in that particular way because that is the only way. And what separates it from what you’ve described it that it’s not just an urge. It is a need. Sometimes my brain forces me to get up and do something again. It’s not so much a voluntary urge as it is a compulsory one. And the fluidity of it all is not the concern. It’s more or less, doing other things after you did something wrong means that you do everything wrong. At least for me I feel a strange feeling every time I try to stop myself from repeating an action. A bad feeling. Fluidity is either inconsistent or nonexistent in the life of someone with OCD. In particular I focus on the way I move and walk. An occasional way to break this cycle of thinking is to think “i shouldn’t do this”. But that is a conscious thought. You as a person are thinking it. You force your brain to think it. Wanting to repeat actions is not a conscious thought. Your brain thinks it without your help. And what your brain thinks is obviously more powerful than what you force it to think. Like with memories or trying to remember dreams. Or create daydreams. It’s foggy and sometimes your brain makes things happen that you try to stop. But you fail every time. For someone with OCD, your brain makes you think of redoing these actions on its own. Your brain feels the need to do it. And when you don’t, your brain is unhappy. And your brain controls everything, including all the joyous and depressive hormones. So it can make you feel sad or even wrong in a way. That’s genuinely the best I can explain it. I hope that helps.

[@regalcartoon5932]

@@BubblegumTrollKing oh and to answer the flawlessly instinctual part. Someone with OCD is still a human, and normal humans usually don’t feel there is a right way to walk down…say, a hallway. But OCD makes you think there is. Even when, in reality, there isn’t. So OCD battles your humanity. OCD says there is a right. But humanity says there isn’t. Your more human than you are OCD. And so, it can’t be an instinct. Because humanity beats out OCD. Which is why the urge to something the supposed right way is stronger. Because the very thing that controls every aspect of you tells you to do it. Even when your brain also knows that there is no right way. So having an instinct for that sort of thing is thus not available. If that makes any sense. Again, this is all from my perspective. It affects everyone differently. Because every person is their own being. Their own separate being.

[@mondy6750]

I feel with you bro i am the same. I must touch anything and not once bcs i am not satisfied :( I am trying to block my thoughts but its very hard :(

[@BubblegumTrollKing]

@@regalcartoon5932 Thank you, that was very insightful.

[@bubblegum8845]

me: hey brain, can you stop thinking of that one horrible thing thats been constantly in my head for days? brain: haha intrusive thouht go brrrr

[@spacedoutorca4550]

Relatable

[@bhung4400]

Intrusive thoughts suck, no matter how hard I try to acknowledge them, or even spot every single one out individually and try to give a full summary on why it’s bad, they always come back. I hate this especially because I believe everyone can see and hear what I think, so they see my intrusive thoughts and internal war.

[@d4xn4v]

yep...

[@TDG..]

@@bhung4400 oh my gosh you're literally me

[@joycefernandes2613]

specially when it is a graphic scene... man it sucks

[@Maria-rz9ri]

If you’re looking for a sign not to end your life, this is it. I love you. Stay strong ❤️

[@ofpine]

thank you

[@guapnailedit]

wait what

[@missicool511]

Thank you💖

[@usojo]

huh....? lmao

[@jello8178]

It doesn’t work like that, and if someone is suicidal, than they are at the point where nothing matters ‘cause they’re going to end it all, it’s going to take a lot more than that. But thanks anyways 😊

[@sarakumo4484]

I remember when my ocd was really bad and i just hoped that I wasn’t all alone doing stuff repeatedly and just hurting myself mentally and physically. It was so much stress everyday just trying to negate that voice in my head which brought me so much difficulty to do even the simplest day to day things. It used to waste so much of my time which made me late to lots of occasions and just school in general and it overall brought my family stress too. It’s been a long journey since a few years ago and i can say that its much better now, thanks to the support my family has given me and to the counsellors that I have spoken to. Controlling your mind is not an easy feat at all but the journey becomes worth it when you just keep going. I still have ocd and it really sucks sometimes but its just another part of my life that i want to control instead of letting it control me.

[@hotcrispysausageroll3105]

having ocd is like being blocked out from the whole world. i can’t do anything without washing my hands or spraying down furniture with antibac, or having to check things over and over again. i can’t even sit on seats in my house or watch tv and when people think it’s just being overly clean really annoys me. for me it is to do with contamination, but for others it could be cracks in the pavement etc. ocd is like hell.

[@shaggythedilophosaurus9702]

Ikr they have to make a freaking cure!

[@AS-hl6id]

@@evolconcept um.. That's easy to say. Ocd is considered a brain disorder, or a neurological disorder too, not just a mental disorder. That means that our brain works differently and we can't help it. Whenever we try to stop ourselves from doing what our ocd wants us to do, we get horrible anxiety. Therapy doesn't always work either. I'm not saying that people with ocd should be stuck in this weird cycle forever, it's not healthy. I just don't want people to think that it's really easy to be cured. Some people say that we are the problem and we don't want to be cured lmao that ain't true

[@elizabethkang2447]

same idk why i’m overly obsessed with washing my hands

[@tulipfever1]

meikoue same, your comment made me cry

[@zee9233]

i totally feel u i wash my phone and computer with wipes if i feel any grease or oil on them sometimes it is and sometimes it isn't

[@elgregson4612]

better without overdramatic sad piano music

[@natureandrap]

For real

[@gabrielavalega9818]

It’s true tho

[@natureandrap]

23amalien she said the music is dramatic... not the person

[@cowwuhh]

169%

[@charisofficial3698]

Exactly, it was giving me anxiety.

[@lucifenlord1418]

I have OCD and ADHD, so it’s like a mega anxiety trip in school

[@meganstockdale4757]

《• kaiya •》 samee

[@RetroMaster64]

And I have anxiety and derealization today, but I remember my ocd 2 years ago

[@taetae2028]

Same it's like being messy because you have adhd but also cleaning your room cause u have ocd

[@MoneyBoyCJ]

_ x.kaiya.x _ I have the exact same I have both, it’s terrible

[@lovax9977]

I have OCD, ADHD, Asperger, Depression, Anxiety like the fuck is wrong with me

[@cristiannicolas5349]

This video is: ✔ Life changing ✔ Informative ✔ Inspiring ✔ Heartwarming ✔ Useful ✔calming ✔Enjoyable ✔ Other

[@stop4690]

you again

[@DeepRenders]

Remove other.

[@CorbinOlson-zs9dl]

one of the others must be "end the world"

[@mayaxie7033]

I freaked out when she touched the sink handle after washing her hands

[@Hello-hm3gn]

Lejla42042 / Maya THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE I HATED THAT

[@LoVeMyWiShEs]

oh god me too - even when im watching like regular tv/movies ill see someone do that and be like NO

[@prakharsrivastava3568]

Ikr. She should've used her elbow to turn it off 😬

[@xValdis]

She should not have touched the head of her toothbrush.

[@melissasapien7305]

Or when she had to open the door knobs too I would have gone back to wash my hands again

[@z.s7328]

I've been diagnosed with OCD since I was 10 yo and had my lowest points when I was 14 yo while I was on medication and I was always having breakdowns one after another to the point I became suicidal and it effected my whole family, then I decided to take control of my life when I discovered that OCD is so vicious the only why to calm it is by stopping satisfying it as it askes for more. I'm so proud of the whole work I've done on myself and proud to say that my life has been normal for almost 15 years now. One of the things that helped me forget about OCD is having cats as they always manage to distract you from the compulsive and intrusive side of your brain.

[@Meliodas-if7ze]

so the way to end this situation is by not doing what ur brain wants? if I feel like touching in a certain way something even if I don't want to I should not. I just dont have to satisfy the obessivenesses?

[@danielgs_]

I wish I can get to that point at some point un my life. Idk you, but I'm proud of you

[@z.s7328]

@@danielgs_ believe me you can and you will if I can do it you definitely can too - not going to lie to isn't an easy path but it's faisable. Starts from your surroundings who should not please your OCD and tip toe around it then yourself when you start as I say "teasing" it. Sending you good vibes and thoughts 🙌🙌🙌

[@danielgs_]

@@z.s7328 thank you 💖

[@multipurpose6984]

Yeh i also have ocd and when i satisfies it,it becomes more disturbing the only way to completely finish ocd and enjoy normal life is to ignore it,you will find urself like a normal person

[@leolita2001]

Me: "Focus focus focus: it's time to learn these chemistry equations" My brain: "You should really check how often you blink in one minute"

[@ryan1993ish]

And the funny thing is only other people with OCD understand this or someone else read the same thinks you’re schizophrenic and have split personality but it’s you actually thinking that And not a separate entity inside your head actually trying to communicate with you

[@lxszz115]

Samee

[@leolita2001]

@@ryan1993ish even I was confused at the beginning. When I spoke to a psychologist I said “I’m scared that I’m schizophrenic cause I have this voice inside telling me to do things” and the psychologist smiled and replied “no you aren’t, if you were you would tell me ‘Can you please stop Sarah over there from telling me to do these things’ “ - we both smiled.

[@flowersinantartica]

As a person with OCD This just made me rethink on how i blink in one minute-

[@leolita2001]

@@flowersinantartica sorry 😅😂

[@Gamer55556]

My OCD is getting worse. I don’t touch the sink or let my shirt touch it. Whenever I go to the washroom, I wash my feet and hands. If water droplets on the floor jump and land on my skin, I wash that area with soap. I don’t touch doorknobs; I open doors with tissues. I can’t let my foot touch the ground, but if it does, I wash it with soap. No one sits on my bed because I don’t like it; if someone does, I change the bedsheet. I clean my phone whenever I come back from somewhere. When I go out, I always put my hair in a ponytail. In public, I don’t touch my hair because my hands are full of germs. When I come home, I immediately change my clothes, wash myself, and clean things. Sometimes, even when my sister hands me my cup of tea, I hold it with a tissue. There are many things I do, but my family doesn’t understand because they think I do this intentionally. I don’t have any control over myself. I really try to be normal, but it’s so hard. Sometimes they trigger my OCD, and I get angry and shout at them because they don’t understand and blame me every time.

[@auroralucrezia8187]

Me 😭😭😭😭

[@TLizaT]

If you wake up and you immediately have sad piano music playing in your head please teach me how ?

[@vicenteisaaclopezvaldez2450]

Alarm clock.

[@TLizaT]

Vicente isaac Lopez valdez good point I must say

[@MARIBOO671]

LOL

[@parisimperatorul]

@@vicenteisaaclopezvaldez2450 How does the alarm clock sound continues for 10 minutes and can be heard from other rooms and even from outside?

[@mitzijavier6442]

It’s called “background music”

[@nopunintendo4113]

I don’t have OCD, but my sister does. Recently, she’s brought up how alone she feels because many of her friends don’t try to understand it. So, I’ve been searching for videos to help me understand better. Thank you for this. I know I’ll never truly understand her experience, but I don’t want her to feel like she has no one close that can be there. I love my sister, and I hope other people see this even if they don’t know anyone with OCD.

[@sheyanderson9498]

It is very lonely having OCD.

[@sailordora]

That's so touching, really. Your sister is so lucky to have you 🤍

[@nopunintendo4113]

@@sailordora I think I’m really lucky to have her. We’re there for each other. Unfortunately, she’ll be going away for college soon. I hope she finds better friends there. I’ll miss her a lot, but she’s always a phone call away. :)

[@curt3112]

I’m in the same situation as your sister. What you’ve done for her will mean more than you can even imagine.

[@aewtx]

I have OCD, but this video is an extreme form of it. The biggest thing I encounter is people getting annoyed. COVID finally made people understand me better!

[@thenoisytown]

I like watching these types of videos since my brother has OCD and I try my best to understand him, I hope he will be able to open up to me about this since our parents don’t really understand and they probably put him under a lot of pressure

[@anxiouscatherine8700]

same i think my brother has this too.I feel so sorry because we used to kinda make fun of him cause we didn't know what it was

[@MisguidingWish]

Judging by ur name i think u ain't serious.

[@thenoisytown]

@@MisguidingWish my username is inspired by an artist I like a lot, sorry

[@MisguidingWish]

@@thenoisytown so nonsense is an artist on what feild. Are they a singer, painter, designer what?

[@thenoisytown]

@@MisguidingWish no it’s not his artist name, what inspired me was part of his username on a media platform and the name of one of his songs; “literary nonsense”

[@crimezone3865]

i'd just like to point out that your handwriting is absolutely gorgeous !!! i don't have ocd but i've read a lot about it and was recently told by a neurologist that i have obessive compulsive "traits". this definitely seems very bothersome and hard to live with but i'm glad to see that you're somehow managing. stay strong

[@Zrosepetal722]

Okay but.. . . . . . WHY DID SHE PUT THE HOT IRON BACK FACING DOWN

[@vicenteisaaclopezvaldez2450]

I think i know the feeling, it's like, you try to put something on a place that's not exactly conveniently made, and you slightly bump your hand, it doesn't hurt but it annoys you and then you're like "fuck it". Like the iron, it had all the cable untangled and she was crouching down and there was the iron legs, it was all too annoying to be worth it at all, specially since she was in a hurry. Maybe her ocd was just saying "put the iron there" but it didn't actually specify anything else, so she was free to execute the task however she wanted.

[@gamingwithpuppies7410]

Zrosepetal haha ya I was like u r going to BuRn ThE fLoOr😂

[@mikaelasena5019]

I went to the comments after watching that lmao.

[@lanaspov]

And.... the cord.... she didn't fix it 😫

[@zaniyahgaston6844]

Factsss!

[@elisac6872]

Being a perfectionist doesn't mean have OCD...js

[@nevaeh1362]

@Student Valeria PesinaCamacho I don't sleep well if I have like the little st things to do like clean my table

[@florianrohrauer8471]

"Dont step on the lines on the floor" i swear i do that too

[@jiminsjamsunderlisasbangs.2339]

Me too

[@GrianyBunch]

Omg I use to do that all the time at school! Sometimes I still do it! But I completely forgot about that!😂

[@rosy_chan283]

Same but i dont have ocd (just making sure if someone thought i have it)

[@jehmarxx]

I don't have OCD but I still do that whenever I'm overthinking.

[@hailey7538]

Same 😫

[@9arshree]

a friend of mine was diagnosed with ocd few years ago and she opened up to me about it, and recently she got diagnosed with ptsd as well. it isn't easy living with ocd. how burnt out u feel everyday, this video educated me alot about her situation and gave a very good practical representation about ocd.

[@spacedoutorca4550]

“You took three extra steps, now you’re going to have to touch that door handle exactly fifteen times and without looking at anything else or everyone’s gonna die”

[@strix3827]

...

[@gabevietor3685]

Oops, you walked up the stairs in the wrong order (put the wrong foot first, so now it's uneven), gotta go down and try again!

[@leo_501]

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[@moongremlin]

Mine was like that when I was younger.