Crack and Fentanyl Addict interview-Josh

Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Josh, a crack and fentanyl addict living on Skid Row.
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[@Rashelleb23]

His story hurts because he was born into this, it almost was destined to be his life path. Ow my heart

[@kellyrenee9066]

💔💔💔

[@quietatse]

I've seen similar stories involving black youth in identical circumstances, they don't seem to get any sympathy. Very peculiar how that works.

[@nbain66]

@@quietatse you're forcing race into a statement that's not racially charged

[@anklebreaka03]

@@quietatse from who? do you think others get sympathy or something? Where is the sympathy for all the non-black youth living on the street across America? You think people care about just them and not black people. Nah...people don't give a shit about either of them, collectively. Do you know how many non-black homeless youth there are in America compared to black youth? Then do you know how much help/sympathy each group gets from the nation? Do you have any statistics to prove your argument. If you don't please shut up and stop spreading bullshit and turning this into a race issue when this has nothing to do with race. What a dumb comment...as if people have no sympathy for black youth and only have sympathy for white youth.

[@quietatse]

@@nbain66 A country built on race, surely what I'm saying shouldn't come as a surprise to you?

[@milk11111]

I found this channel couple a days ago. Finally some real content. No bullshit, no fake, no acting. Someones worst fear, is others reality.

[@minervaminavera2347]

Welcome to the rabbit hole 🐇 🕳

[@justbrittiany6018]

So true

[@kylejnicholson]

A person is quite privileged if their worst fear is the reality of others. Key word "Others."

[@SMOOVKILL1]

👍🏾

[@milk11111]

@@kylejnicholson I know. Been on heroin for 14 years, so i am the "Others"

[@oldgreggsgardentherapy]

This kid is likable and needs a lift up. I hope he finds a way out

[@davechristian7543]

and knows how to bullshit too lol eh haha

[@Vrizey]

@@davechristian7543 exactly when he said his mom taught him how to survive and be homeless he was talking about being nice to people so there more likely to give you things. doesnt make him a bad person but as an addict you have your own best interest in mind 24/7

[@Camgore88]

That's the sad thing, kids like this had no guidance, no parenting, no love and they have to survive. most of us who end up in their position would kill ourselves after a week.

[@clintleekile4830]

@@davechristian7543 Thats how he gets his fix

[@lucasvarela9632]

@@Vrizey sounds more like thats a tactic u use

[@Featheredprop]

I'm a volunteer jail chaplain and go into the county lock up a few times a week to spend time with guys just like this. I've heard his story a million times. The names and faces are different, but the sadness, desperation, and hopelessness are all the same. Some of the guys I've met in jail are the most real I've ever known. Strangely, the clarity that they can possess about life outshines the view that many people will ever know. But, that clarity comes with an enormous cost.

[@miapdx503]

Ignorance is bliss. The more intelligent, the more aware, the greater the pain. Most of drug use is people trying not to feel.

[@driftadvocate1839]

@@miapdx503 beautiful and spot on both of you

[@froandcara]

Well said ,clarity about life does come at an enormous cost

[@Scribe3168]

They are one tribe who all bear the same scar

[@miapdx503]

@@Scribe3168 yes...wise words

[@natural9743]

Now this guy gets to me because when both your parents are heroin addicts you are born an addict . He got the worst start anyone could ask for, and if he never got off drugs or changed his life, then in my book he's excused.

[@Luziemagick]

You are absolutely right!

[@DanielleFoster.]

Agreed

[@nagapreciousmetals135]

Speaking from experience, heroin isn’t addicitve in utero - methadone tho ... I had that experience when I came to earth, acted as a deterrent for me to dondrugs but can go either way- I wish healing for all these humans

[@BigBodyBiggolo]

@@nagapreciousmetals135 are you sure about that?

[@louiseelle3615]

@@nagapreciousmetals135 methadone is more addictive in utero? I didnt know that. Dr’s tell u that its better than heroin

[@paigef5141]

I like him! I especially respect that he recognizes the danger of bringing children into that lifestyle. Hope the best for him and his fiance

[@MEL2theJ]

I've learned that female heroin addicts stop having their menstrual cycles while on the drugs so they can't get pregnant. It's a blessing really 😢

[@leigh7370]

He’s so young and so articulate. You wouldn’t think he’s spent his life around and in addiction based on his vocabulary and his ease of making conversation. I wish him the very best. Thank you, Mark, for all your amazing videos!

[@nqbus35045]

I've been addicted one thing or another for over twenty years. You'd be shocked at the level of intelligence in addicts.

[@marinamarazzo5889]

many have been of the most intelligent people i've known

[@Kurups101]

as the other two said, as an addict in recovery myself (heroin), i can absolutely tell you the people i meet in recovery are wildly intelligent

[@marinamarazzo5889]

hey, i'm a smart drug addict myself. only difference is i'm clean now. i was just setting us above the standard the original commenter had of us as if we're near neanderthals with their surprise... "based on his vocabulary and ease of making conversation", as if addiction has anything to do with natural intelligence or intellectual ability.

[@marinamarazzo5889]

@Mark Hasbrouck and i guess that's why they say "ignorance is bliss", right? personally i only find myself utterly depressed when in the throes of addiction. i think depression is more an indicator of a chemical imbalance rather than intelligence but yes, i can also see and say some of the truly brilliant people i've known personally or admired through their work and artistic contributions have been those who've suffered major depression.

[@Natariyahmom]

Damn I hope he gets help. I felt that when he said "my mom said she would give me and my brother up for drugs, but she didnt say that to be mean, thats just how drugs are" 🥺 Tears*

[@hayden6265]

Maybe his mom told him that to try to put in his head that it’s really how drugs are and that maybe he also wouldn’t choose drugs but I guess something along the path of his younger days sucked him into the almost impossible life to escape...

[@marilynbrown5274]

So heartbreaking....!

[@snakeoo7ca]

@@hayden6265 Doubt it

[@Tara-lz9vx]

😢

[@abbygirl1993]

Such possibilities. One comment is not correct though. Most people , most people his age included, do not have drugs in their lives. I’m from 30 minutes south of him, in Jersey. I’m sorry for him. Wish him well.

[@lynnen264]

Dear young man, I am so sorry your parents did not stand up in your life. U have such potential. I lost my beautiful son to the streets. Please don't be another person we loose to drugs

[@debradavis9589]

So sorry for your loss may your son RIP

[@laneyfisher7476]

Sorry for your loss Lynne. May your sweet baby R.I.P. God Bless you xo

[@rachaelmiller357]

He has a magnetic personality, and it evident how deeply he cares for people. Good Luck 🍀

[@Vrizey]

Not saying hes a bad person but making people think you are nice and care about them is part of how you survive being and addict/homeless

[@domdicenso1656]

Have him come babysit your children at your home while your out of town.

[@di__rty]

I grew up in the same exact area as this kid, running around Philly and Camden. Full blown IV heroin addict by the time I was 17. Tried moving across the country to fix my problem - tried rehabs, halfway houses, AA/NA, quitting cold turkey, psych meds, anything to stop using. I finally quit using heroin October 1st, 2008. I can't tell anyone what will work for them, but I can whole-heartedly say that there is a solution out there for everyone, you just have to want it. For me, I had to finally accept that my thinking wasn't working, I needed help and I needed to actually do what others told me to do. After a year of sobriety I got a tattoo that says, "Turn your wounds into wisdom". I've got the scars, but those scars made me who I am. I firmly believe everything I've had to go through is for the best - I wouldn't be me without it. Life gets better, Josh, and anyone else who is struggling.

[@lalawnj41]

I feel like I did too. South Jersey, Gloucester City. I feel this.

[@heidiho5179]

I like how he said, “It’s called ‘good luck,’” about the heroin. He feels the full irony of it. He knows this life ain’t it. It’s just the cards he was dealt.

[@leeannwitt5380]

I wish i was his mom😭💔

[@zayidm3218]

Yep

[@siempreprosperando]

He is responsible enough to not wants to have kids ...amazing interview

[@patrickl6932]

lol

[@quintusalexander4134]

He has a very good head on his shoulders for his circumstance(s). He even differentiated carfentanil from fentanyl, and knows about the potentially infinite tolerance; that keeps him from being a "lucky one" and ODing. I hope he finds a functional way to live whether hes completely sober or on meds to maintain or even functioning higher and hopefully using with more moderation. Appreciate the videos and i wish Josh the best.

[@heidiho5179]

People who don’t believe in Harm Reduction and medication management should see stories like this. I think that could really help him get off the streets, with the right supports. After people do that, they often want to do more. Nobody deserves to have to live by the streets.

[@heidiho5179]

He does. I mean, most of the addicts I know can tell you all the nuances of types of drugs and their effects. He seems a lot older than his age, though, to me. Yeah, he’s seen a lot, but he’s able to keep things in perspective and doesn’t fall for a lot of the ego traps young people often do, that he’s really ballin or, “I can do it like that because I’ve got it like that,” “I do drugs. Drugs don’t do me,” and all that bs. He could easily rationalize his use because of his selling or his connections, but he’s honest with himself. I usually see that kind of levelheadedness in much older people.

[@austinp-navy1457]

Not sure why but this one hit me hard. He reminds me of me or my brother.. he seems like a good guy and really needs to break the family cycle and get help

[@MoveTrueRecords_]

He’s so honest. I like him. God bless him and his girl to get this demon off him

[@halopines1600]

He knows exactly how he feels and is so aware of his situation it's unbelievable. He is had a hard life and he didn't complain about anything, not even the cold. That's admirable.

[@amyzieger5198]

You don't have no clue what he been complaining about or anything through all the long days and night!! Your saying this off a 15 minute video where anybody can just put up a great story and presentation while the camera is rolling!!!!!!! Lets get a clue on life know s the REAL WORLD!!!!!!! Can you imagine the withdraws and arguments, the freezing nights, the rainy days when when arguments happen over nothing when stress reaches the boiling point???? Get a clue!!!

[@proddeadbass]

Man he was most embarrassed about his house being messed and apologized for it, there is still someone inside him

[@DanielleFoster.]

He's correct, after a while you can't overdose. It's when you stop then go back. But being on it for a year straight, I absolutely believe him. I appreciate his bold honesty. He's trying to act like he's ok. His body language says he's embarrassed and ashamed. Like us all. Good video.

[@marcjefferson2500]

Not true, you can over dose at any time

[@gst9325]

he's body language says only that he is craving for dose

[@emilystuckey7847]

THIS IS COMPLETELY INCORTECT!!! I been addicted for 10 plus years and this topic really gets to me about the oh you cant overdose bc x y or z. Its bullshit. People really need to get educated about overdosing in general. It's too much for me to try to break it down in this comment. I O.D. off a DIME when I had a extremely high tolerance and was using on the daily for years. And it wasn't bc I got a hot shot or stronger shit...2 other people split the same bag with me and they were totally fine (and my tolerance was much higher then theirs) So yes y'all need to throw what you think you know about overdosing out the window bc its gonna ended up killing you or someone else spreading false information.

[@mattberg6816]

I think skid row offers a lot of people an escape from that embarrassment and shame

[@heidiho5179]

@@aparaatti I was on the whole progression of opiates for over 20 years. I never understood why people restart at the dose they left off at. I always felt that would be an OD and started small. Do some people not know this, or do they just not get high if they start there, so they do it anyway? Legit wondering. I’m not saying I’m doing any better... I don’t know that I’ll ever be off maintenance cause when it comes to functioning I’m like everyone else plus I’ve got chronic pain. I just didn’t really get any type of high after about the first year, so I didn’t chase that with the opiates.

[@colleendekoning3926]

Poor baby. Hugging himself. :(

[@marlowp5234]

He's no baby. As he said, strong as his morals may be, they're of no avail when in need of a fix with no cash

[@elishajwilson]

All the human stories you present Mark are so interesting and inspiring. I live down under in Australia and the people you interview are some of the people I have often stepped over or ignored in my past. Your interviews are inspiring and are making me get out and about in my community to ensure there are services for everyone who needs a helping hand. Josh has such hope. I can see him kicking and achieving his life goals once he gets a bit of help.

[@dandelionkisss]

My dad is clean, but was a heroin addict for 32 years and told me the same thing that Josh’s mom told him. He said in the depth of his addiction, that’s how it really was.

[@k_xxo]

That’s so sad! I’m glad your dad is doing better now ❤️

[@Kif_Lee]

I wish the best to both of you

[@ClareSw]

Your dad is so strong, I am happy for him and you, too. addicton is a desease and can be a challenging heritage

[@ClareSw]

my dad was an addict of alcohol and pills. U see I'm 54 so at my father's time in the 50s, there was different here in Europe. he lived in a village in Belgium then he sattled in Budapest. he told me that he was very lucky that there was no hard drugs available because he was sure he would use them. he smoked 40 cigarettes without filter a day.

[@roscoe4092]

Yup when you’re an addict it even comes before yourself

[@dfw1fast143]

Never even got a chance at life. This one hits especially hard.

[@DH-ij9pe]

These interviews literally break my heart but I cannot stop watching them because I truly beleive these people's stories need to be heard. I hope he finds a way out, NO human deserves to have to live and deal with this.

[@jonanna8516]

I’m shocked and saddened that anyone talks about o’d ing in such a nonchalant way. Josh just because it’s hard doesn’t mean it’s not worth it. You are worth it.

[@yeny7194]

“I’m not lucky enough to die from fentanyl.” 😞 💔💔💔

[@abbyhumphrey8838]

One of the best and honest and vulnerable interview so far. Best wishes ♥️

[@kingrobofthenorth9075]

I've been binging all your videos, some of the most heart breaking and humbling videos keep on the amazing work

[@cassiopeiathetortoise115]

Great interview. Josh was so honest and open and very much on the point. A breeze of fresh air. I really wish him the better life that his good heart deserves. I hope he has the chance to keep sober long enough to discover what he and his life can be like. And discover the so many sources of pleasure, many of which are free of charge, free of even actively seeking for it. So many reasons, other than drugs, of emotions, joy as well as tears. Josh definitely can become a good man, a good husband, a good father. That's possible, slowly but surely, if given the time and patience. As he realizes that he is the only one that can start compensating for the love and compassion he did not receive from parents and grandparents, discover love and actively loving himself. He will start to feel love and compassion for that little boy that he was. Than that love starts to grow inwards and outwards. Then he can start to have some peace of mind and enjoy the countless gifts around.

[@annelily1883]

I try not to comment regarding physical appearance on these videos, but he has a striking face. He could be a model if he got clean. On another note, poor guy. Drug addict parents, never had a chance. Living on his own at 14? My heart hurts for him. Edit: I wanted to add that he seems genuine, and despite a horrific addiction, seems kind, gentle, and well-spoken. I really want him to clean up.

[@EsoTownBizz6500]

👍👍

[@tiannabeard6986]

I was thinking the same thing! This guy is F-I-N-E. I can’t stop looking at his face even off drugs he’s very easy to look at 😍😍 I wish him the best .

[@annelily1883]

@@tiannabeard6986 Exactly! Yes, he’s gorgeous but humble, like he doesn’t seem to know this. And I agree, even on drugs, he’s strikingly handsome. Very easy on the eyes, for sure! But that’s not the only reason my heart breaks for him. He seems kind and intelligent, as far as can be assessed in a brief interview. I don’t know if it was stated, but does he live on skid row in a tent?? I feel like he’s be devoured there. Innocent seeming, despite all he’s been through. I hope he doesn’t get taken advantage of. I hope he gets away from fentanyl and his demons before the light leaves his eyes. He appears to have potential!

[@rebeccastillman3162]

I 💯 percent agree

[@annelily1883]

@@rebeccastillman3162 💗💗💗

[@joshww2339]

As someone from Jersey, close to his roots, it breaks my heart to see .

[@gia4408]

Love from south jersey Josh💕 If you can get outta Kensington, you can get outta there. You can do it!

[@liquidlunch3826]

What chance did he have? Spent his entire life not having a solid stable home ever!

[@simplyme9016]

We're all products of our raising, and that can be good or bad, and only we can change our lives, some people, sadly, never have a chance from the get go, it's downright sad!

[@mysticmama740]

hes got such a likeable and gentle disposition. so sad when he talked about balcking out and waking up in dangerous places. "Its not OK," he says. wish the best for him...

[@nicolet8652]

That touched my heart as well.

[@ivyjohnson120]

This young man has so much ahead of him.. despite all that he has been through and is still going through, I see him beating his disease. I wish this young man the best. He deserves it.

[@j.r.goepper9789]

I’m a recovering addict myself. I pray these people you interview gets help and moves on to the next chapter of their lives. They keep me grounded in my recovery.

[@coreyboston9468]

Josh, i can see that the Fetty is hindering you from doing amazing things in this life. Your well spoken, intellegent & i can only imagine just how well you would make out as a salesman! i can see how very talented you are!

[@laceejuchem5206]

Mark.. one day I wonder if my brother will be on your show.. I watch everyday.. he lives in san diego spingvalley area. Love the content brother.

[@nectareen8665]

I know your brother...bruh stole $50 from this chic back in '09

[@dannie1020]

Yeah, I know your brother as well. Very shady character 😑

[@marylougeorge9890]

I'm sorry about your brother.💔

[@gee9351]

Great interview...he was very honest. Very relatable..enjoyed listening to him. Best wishes Josh it's never too late to get help!

[@Bolzasqueet]

Damn... this boy is so strikingly beautiful on so many levels... what a haunting and moving interview..

[@sherrycallaway6578]

Keep the faith, Josh... the most amazing things tend to happen in life, just at the moment you're about to give up hope... Yes, how amazing that you ran into Mark and got the chance to talk and share your story... may more amazing things happen along the way, that lead you down the right path to a happy and drug-free life with your fiancee and dog!

[@cassiopeiathetortoise115]

So much truth and well said that I could not just "like" and pass by.

[@marylougeorge9890]

@@cassiopeiathetortoise115 ❤

[@juanitalewis9148]

His mom sounds awful I’ve been on drugs and I chose my child ❤️

[@MaxxHarleenMurrder]

my mom too and my dad but both were adficts and mentally ill.. they unintentionally gave me up to the drugs but there was love there.

[@uknoikno1448]

I clicked &realized we share the same name_good morning:)

[@LeslieMBates]

Doesn't mean your going to heaven nor does it mean she's going to hell. What is DOES mean is that you both of you exercised your own free will!

[@Rebeccakisosondi]

His mom is my cousin and she’s not awful. She had a hard childhood herself. Keep your judgement to yourself when you don’t know anything

[@nilsanarvaez7947]

Thanks for the link to this. I didn’t have to search for it. I was watching the follow up. He’s a handsome kid. Wish him the best!

[@katiee.4396]

It never ceases to shock me how much money addicts spend daily on drugs. There's a sad irony to the fact that these folks think themselves off the grid and out of the rat race, but in actuality their lives encompass sick levels of hyper consumerism.

[@lalawnj41]

Insane amounts of money. I could tell you things that would shock you. I received a very significant settlement from Wendy's for breaking my knee cap on a wet floor. Sadly, I was on pain medication and more from it. When I received my settlement I was in deep again. There is nothing more dangerous than an addict with a ridiculous amount of money at their disposal...

[@Krulle37]

You are more self aware then most people i know. I wish all the best for you. Hope one day you find happiness without the drugs. Take care man

[@BellyUpFish]

I don't think this guy really understands what it means to be "really blessed." I feel bad for him.

[@Danimal77]

I thought the same thing when he said that.

[@cookingcrazy1965]

im under 18...i just needed some sense in my head just to show life is real whats out here is real and i wish all these people the best fr fr

[@julybutterfly]

Open and honest. Thank you for your transparency. Good luck and God bless you.

[@dominicdisalvo7116]

This is actually one of my good friends I’ve been in a hundred treatment centers with. We are good people we just carry a demon on our backs

[@lillllth209]

what's his last name? i want to offer him help.

[@dominicdisalvo7116]

@@lillllth209 Joshua Booker

[@no-rq7fp]

@@dominicdisalvo7116 I wish you the best, to the two of you

[@no-rq7fp]

@@lillllth209 Thank you for trying to get help for this soul, I hope you can make a positive impact on his life

[@domdicenso1656]

Good people don't have to make statements like "we are good people"

[@michell123ist]

They stamp the heroin bags “good luck” sheesh! My ex husband was a cop. I remember him telling me that the more overdoses a drug dealer has the word on the street gets around and he sells more of it. Wild. PS mark thx again for the daily content. It’s part of my morning routine while making my bed 🤓

[@derektrotter5352]

In the uk they don't even stamp the bags.

[@ccway7]

What a realist! Love this kid...hope he gets out of this. This was one of my favs. Thank you for bringing awareness through ur tragedies

[@seekingfreedom9020]

I really love your content man, keep making these videos and interviewing people

[@Vivi-ge1jm]

I really love this kid.. he knows whats up and what hes doin. Sending prayers to him, and pray he is writing a book on his life in 10 yrs and helping others in his shoes. Peace and light buddy

[@jillybean4899]

For all he has been through I am amazed at how gentle his spirit is. This is the real problems in our world not Dr.Seuss books.

[@901mtn8]

My son is 25. I'm praying hard for this young man as well as everyone else and their families

[@Jamievedeen]

Thank you for sharing these stories

[@Hellbent7069]

That's a smart kid, I hope he gets his life together. Be blessed young one!

[@whippersnapper6023]

My heart breaks for Josh. He’s such a bright young man with so much potential. I pray that someday, he finds the strength and the confidence to overcome his battle.

[@kris9259]

Mark, your photography and filming is absolutely top tier.

[@lifestyleofjay8883]

I love his interviews, he gets to the roots of a lot of these people issues

[@kjaxs5078]

It's not to late for you. Your so alive, the way out will find you. Hold on to it when it does and never let go 💚

[@LovelySoulofARiverRose]

Wow, respect. I love listening to peoples stories....Helps me be mindful that you never know what others are battling daily. 🙏🏽💖

[@travisdillon6998]

I really felt this one,. You can tell josh is a great person in his core.

[@captainhands3558]

Damn homie. Homeless with an ipad and $500 every two days for fent? Shit, I'm trying to get like you. Minus the dope. Also, I'm pretty sure I saw this dude when I was a carnie. Looks super familiar. SWU should interview one of the old head, lifer, burnout junkie, carnies. Never met kinder people, also never met anyone quite as sketchy.

[@crystalm2460]

I would be interested to see some episodes like this! Great idea I hope he sees it

[@RECHARON]

He said he sells drugs.

[@user-qm3xs9eb6m]

Great idea!

[@graham8784]

...In high school you was the man homie, what the fuck happened to you?

[@maryburnell2972]

Yes carnies. I was 'this' close to the life.

[@twdll]

Drugs alter your brain chemistry, but in a way he was born with dependency, and the cycle continues.

[@thehamilton5678]

thank you both for the great interview

[@aum82]

I can see the little boy in Josh speaking through his eyes and gestures. No secure attachments as a kid then into drugs to find some warmth. This is a good human with a huge amount of pain onboard

[@TripleMoonOracle]

He reminds me of my ex fiance.... my true soul mate. He was a beautiful soul like this guy. We both did heroin but he did whatever he could to take care of me. I made it out but he didn't. He died from an overdose. I've been clean for 17 years now. I still miss him all the time. Its so sad. Some serious beautiful souls that lose their lives to demons. It's heartbreaking

[@CANDYZANE69]

He is not interested in getting clean. In Orange County the rehabs take people off of the streets, sign them up for private insurance. Then they take the person in and get paid at least $10,000 for each person for 2 weeks at a time. Then they pay these people a chunk of cash to be there. They can do this every month for two weeks at a time, up until the person is 26, too old to be signed up on insurance on someone else's policy (parents). He is one these.

[@timf7813]

cali politics are so retarded

[@sharonjimenez8097]

Wow, I didn't know this

[@user-in7cx5lz9c]

I just want to hug this kid and give him the love his parent's didn't. I pray he can shake this now. He seems like a down to earth and intelligent young man. He is just so deep into this life so young. He has known no other life. He still has heart. Praying this young man makes it out of this life.

[@lisac8088]

Such a good interview, Mark!! He’s a smart , well versed , sadly addicted young man. 😢

[@yasdnil_]

Wow he is like hauntingly beautiful in the face😢

[@alsilvaish]

What does that even mean?

[@nickkozanas1147]

@Warloq p

[@sausage5033]

@@alsilvaish right?😂😂”hauntingly beautiful”

[@alsilvaish]

@@sausage5033 let me guess another chick that wants to rescue some drugged out loser. She sounds like trash.

[@alsilvaish]

@@RandomKZbin123 date him

[@flashpb04]

This guy just hit me like none of the others before. Something about him just makes me feel like he would be a great man I’d he could just get off the shit. People get clean every day, you just have to want to live bad enough. Trust me, those emotions you aren’t feeling because of that shit will come back and life can be great without them.

[@driftadvocate1839]

Exactly there has to be a drive and a will to do it. People are successful and many are not because they dont put in the effort

[@marylougeorge9890]

How much effort, knowledge and skill would it take any of us living a, "normal," to be successful on skid row? Seriously contemplate that. How dare any of us say/believe all it would take an addict to change is effort!

[@kayla5237]

Loved this interview. Best one in awhile. If you ever come to St. Paul, Minnesota, I’d love to see an interview with our famous ms. lil suzie.

[@shayf.1726]

I love his honesty. and I hope he heals & recovers ❤️

[@Duncan_McFly82]

Seems like a really cool dude too. I hope and pray he can find it in himself to stop and get clean. He’ll be so much happier.

[@birdyw3324]

Being 25, think about the habits you've kept since 18. That's 7 years. Hard to turn back but still being young enough to know there's a lot more ahead of you.

[@beckycrose2045]

josh you have potential you can have a good life get yourself out of this trap of addiction. love and prayers

[@irishmuscle7352]

Wow I can’t get over how honest he is about everything, even the fact that he sells to feed his own addiction, most people wouldn’t admit that. Other than his addictions, he seems like a really nice guy and smart too. I have a feeling if he got a proper chance in his early life then he’d be a successful guy. Still so young too, he could easily turn his life around. I wish him all the best and hope he kicks his habits.

[@MEQUPWER]

this guy really hit me. i like him alot, wish i could grant him 3 wishes!

[@wesleyalan9179]

Good morning everyone! I really do hope this kid can get it together, seems like a nice guy, just got delt a bad hand in life, I hope he can fight through and do something with himself in the future, I wish him a huge turnaround ✌

[@MARK-fg7ed]

Agreed good morning sir

[@wesleyalan9179]

@@MARK-fg7ed ✌🤟

[@cindyfitzgerald4500]

Good morning Wesley I agree with everything you said. Hope you have an amazing day 😊

[@christinecox6049]

Good Morning to you Wesley, hope you have a fine day.. from England

[@wesleyalan9179]

@@cindyfitzgerald4500 .hey! Thank you and the same to you!😁

[@fringedwellermccatintyre730]

Thank you for sharing your story, Josh. May God Please Bless You.

[@Saintdeheron]

i've been watching these for hours

[@jayt561]

Another great video Mark. Seems like this guy really could turn his life around and has the want to do it. I think his girl is holding him back where they say they wake up with drugs prepped for each other. Sad to see

[@NikkiBriar]

As a Jersey Girl yes that area he grew up in is bad bad bad....praying for him to recover.🙏🙏🙏

[@moeynola6747]

Don't be embarrassed man and thanks for being honest.your interview will help others and I hope u get better

[@Mark-gn5rw]

The Truth will set you Free! Hes honest and straight up. I have alot of hope for him.. hope he gets ok. Seems like good person .. just trapped in addiction cycle I send prayers and Godspeed man

[@ravenalford9021]

He is such an amazing person, i see my brother when I look at this kid , i know u can make it bro , it’s not too late for u or ur fiancé

[@cook3568]

I can relate to this guy so much. Hopefully he can find the light at the end of the tunnel ❤️

[@DAVIDTORRESANI]

I wish you the best of luck Josh!!! My heart and prayers for what they are worth are yours. I think we all can see life and we all see good life in you. Stick around Josh! I think we may need you in such a world.🙌🙏

[@rachelcaudillo1554]

I hope he can get his life together and find some peace and happiness. Stay safe out there

[@boidinktwistie4389]

interesting guy josh is, same name as me too. enjoy his honesty and i wish him the best, seems like he might have a chance

[@JacobFrey]

He's more afraid to be sober than he is of his deadly drug addiction. He's doomed.

[@izzywashington5461]

You mean more afraid of reality

[@lillllth209]

sobriety is terrifying. this is normal. i felt like this. two years clean now. he's not doomed. it's incredibly difficult and you genuinely couldn't understand unless you've been through it.

[@Mr.Lucky21]

Josh bro, you a real one,you deserve better and you are better then your addiction.

[@lorenagonzalez7046]

He is a good guy ..love this video. .i really hope he gets the help needed to fully live well

[@OnlythaRealness]

Man got to have this guy back if u can Super likable guy buy the drug addiction is all too real and he knows it better then anyone being born into it.. thanks for the content

[@timyoung4039]

This kid has hope! I’ve been in his shoes and it sucks. But if you want it you can get away from that life. Life is so much more and so great away from that shit. Prayers for you young man.

[@kristenunger4725]

I have a friend named Daniel who overdosed in November. He was 26 years old. This young man reminds me of him incredibly. I believe he will be okay

[@piperjewell7242]

Beautiful man, lost in a little boys broken mind. Prayers to you Josh, we see you and we know you are worth the fight

[@goffredoify]

Sad, sad, sad, what chances a young guy like Josh did have to begin with? When at young age your mom tells you that she's s so deep into drugs, that you and your brother comes way after the heroin. Father in prison mother in and out of prison.. Really can we blaim a guy like Josh if he has chosen this path, or better the path was chosen for him. On top of that everything he does is illegal so there is the chance hell end up in prison at anytime. Who's gonna save this kid?

[@coweenuhm9662]

Unfortunately he has to save himself or the cycle will continue. He’s young, even though I’d always like to believe people can change at any age. Hopefully he sees all the positive comments and utilizes some resources. It’s so sad hearing how traumatized these people are at a young age. As a society we can’t expect kids in situations like this to end up doing anything other than what they’ve been exposed to

[@josephineakajojo1352]

He's very pure real n smart tho and I believe God has a plan for him n being that he's still young he's got a chance to get help n then help others maybe his lesson will eventually be his blessing.i pray so

[@josephineakajojo1352]

@Duke Nasty I have drug problems also I'm 10 mos clean.ive been there n beyond.what I'm saying is have faith and u gotta want 2 help yourself b4 any1 can help u or want it 4 u. Hesgot 2 believe in smnthn. He's got 2 fight like hell 2 receive treatment n get treatment. And 2 make it n want it 2 work.

[@usingbothsidesofmybrain1690]

@@josephineakajojo1352 stay strong bro!! Save a few on your way out

[@josephineakajojo1352]

@@usingbothsidesofmybrain1690 thk u and most def will😉🙏❤