Day 4 opiate Withdrawal - My drug history (Being mindful, while your brain is missing the drugs)

Hey guys -
I'm staying super mindful, and mentally aware today... Cuz it's a battle in the brain. A battle that takes willpower and constant maintaince, and fortitude and awareness.
But I'm still going strong, guys. I'm not losing sight of my goals this time.
Love to all
Jay
#opiatewithdrawal #PercocetWithdrawal

[@mscheer1757]

You’re doing amazing. Don’t think backwards, keep moving forward and like you said: MINDFUL. I’m 37, married w/ 3 kids.... you remind me of me. Keep moving forward and YOU are helping more people than you could ever realize! Thank YOU!!

[@mscheer1757]

Wanted to add.:. Upstate NY here too. Keep warm and HOT baths/showers can be a lifesaver!!

[@TheseFourWalls]

Thanks so much for the support, and encouragement. I'm baby stepping my way forward, trying my best not to think back. :) (And yes, hot baths with episom salt are my best friend right now.) ✌😊

[@CMoore8539]

Wow, Jason! You look Great!!!♥️ Mindfulness is Key. You are an Inspiration to Everyone in Recovery! Thank you for making these videos!

[@CMoore8539]

PS Excedrin Migraine Extra Strength is good for headaches. I quit watching tv a year ago. News is always so negative. Be careful with the things that you listen to. Books are Awesome! I love to read. You’re a very intelligent person.♥️

[@TheseFourWalls]

Thank you for all the love, advice and support, Cindy. You're a very dear person! 💛✌😊

[@kerryirving2949]

Cindy Moore I haven’t watched tv since about January/February this year

[@MaineReactor]

Thanks for sharing Jason! Being hyper sensitive is definitely a symptom of the withdrawal as well so it must be hard for you man. You are killing it though man! Muscles aren’t what make us strong bud, it’s mental strength that really shines through in this fight! Keep being honest with yourself and being mindful of what your brain chemicals will try to fool you into feeling. It is a trick and you can trick it back. Try even doing a few pushups when your feeling crappy man, another little weird thing that helped me a lot! Stay mindful that this is a process and what you are feeling right now is for a bigger cause my friend! Trust in us that you will get there if you put in the work and I know you will get there man! Proud of you for fighting and for sharing your story! It is an honor to have you in this group! Peace and love brother! ✌🏼❤️

[@TheseFourWalls]

Thanks, Shane! Yes, I've noticed how much my hypersensitivity has been amplified, during this withdrawal process... But I just keep reminding myself that this withdrawal, and all the pain and negative feelings that come with it, are my right of passage.... This is just the stuff I have to get thru, to get to the other side. Some moments are WAY harder than others, (evenings are much rougher) but I keep telling myself that one day soon, this is going to be behind me, and I'm going to be living life again. :) Thanks for your continued support and kindness, my friend. 😊✌

[@thomasmacgruber6701]

I was an opiate addict from 21 to 42. My last couple of months I was taking 15 30mg oxys a day at 40 dollars a pill. Basically my entire paycheck went to pills, juggling the other bills with my wife's pay. My wife gave me a choice. Divorce or rehab. That was 5 years ago. Been on suboxone since, since then we have moved, had a new house built, 3 new cars, vacations, kids are in travel baseball and I lost 90lbs. I know I am bot totally clean but my suboxone treatment has saved my life, marraige and future.

[@2000s_Gaming]

I was on multiple roxi 15s, 20s, 10s, and 5s a day. Paying from $5 a pill to $25 a pill on them daily. Never found the 30s to often. I know what ur talking about, I've been on methadone for 7 months now and has saved my life. I've had 2 relapses but I don't really count that. I definitely don't miss spending all that money! I love blowing my money on more fun things lol

[@sabbithablood5219]

You look so lovely! What a handsome man you are! Try to block out any negative comments, easy to say I know! But you have so many people that love and support you that only their opinions matter! ❤👍👏🙏

[@theKaufmanTapes]

You were better off on opiates believe it or not. I'm sure you were depressed from the cocaine . . Opiates are the best form of antidepresant bar none. They still have not been able to duplicate the good part. Unfortunately dependence and addiction go with it. Thank the Lord that you are here now and recovering one day at a time. Hope abounds. .

[@TheseFourWalls]

Yes, they did help my depression in certain ways, and curbed some of my anxiety and worry... But then they began being responsible for behaviors that I'd get depressed about, and they made me disregard my mental health too... Cuz they kind of tricked me into thinking for awhile I had stuff under control. Then my anxieties starting getting worse, and I had to take more pills to get the same relief... Lol, I was a mess... But I'm glad I've finally gotten around to cleaning my act up. :) Thanks for your continued support

[@kerryirving2949]

My drug was Cocaine, I first started taking it because I wanted something to give me confidence so my ex started getting me cocaine. I’m pleased you have the mindset to keep busy!

[@TheseFourWalls]

I identify with that need for confidence, that the drugs falsely bought us. And what's different for me this time IS my mindset. And all of you supporters of mine have helped me encourage myself to keep going, and remember what I want, and why I am where I am. Thanks! 💪😊✌

[@kerryirving2949]

These Four Walls your welcome

[@jaimereynolds258]

Good video. You are doing really well. I'm glad ASMR helps you. It makes me feel angry and insane when I hear or watch that stuff lol. I don't know why. Especially the whispering. Oh no lol. Starting at 16 to almost 18, my friends and I would do acid almost every weekend , this was in the late 90's, and then every few months do ecstasy. We would go to raves and just sit in the cuddle puddles of people. Just did some real crazy shit.

[@TheseFourWalls]

Yea, I have heard of many people feeling all sorts of ways, listening to ASMR. And I've been thinking back on old times today... Those old drug days where we did crazy things... It's been a good day, where I've remembered why I don't miss that time in my life. :)

[@filgood76]

That sounds so familiar...😔

[@kerryirving2949]

Jaime Reynolds I cant stand wispering asmrs & a lot of sounds on asmr videos I can’t start either, but there was one video I watched & I found 2 of the sounds VERY relaxing!

[@kerryirving2949]

These Four Walls GOOD FOR YOU!