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[@foreverforever3517]

Wow the connecting everything to memory problem is so real! I thought I was the only one honestly. Some songs that I used to love now put a pit in my stomach because they remind me so much of the past, and it’s HURTTTTSSS

[@BeautyBySavannah14]

Omg literally same :(

[@ellagcharleson]

What she was talking about is SUCH an enneagram type 4 thing. It's also super common for us fours to actively reminisce on the past to feel that nostalgia, they call it "wringing out the emotional juice" of life lolol. I started researching a lot about this and it explained so much about how I feel

[@isabelleh8760]

YES OMG

[@mcristinaxoxo]

most relatable comment on the internet, i’ve thrown up from songs that remind me of people i’ve lost

[@TheR3alBoazB]

I have this with all of my spotifylists from on '16 till now 😢

[@slopzombie]

this video is probably one of the most relatable things i’ve watched in awhile

[@m3k0k1ll]

god me too

[@nope6601]

same tho same

[@liaduriez9531]

Same omg

[@Uh.whosmack]

So relatable currently it’s 7:30 am and I did not sleep last night ik I should go to bed but like you said the feeling of begging my brain to STFU and begging my body to shut down is really frustrating :/

[@user-de4ny6pk4r]

Same, it’s my 44th hour awake now and this video is giving so much comfort

[@julianneroll88]

avrey is truly out here representing all the girlies who think (way too much)

[@leah5923]

finding people to talk to about the things causing you stress helps. Finding things to occupy you only helps for a while until you have to face your problems again and then it’s so much worse. Also, people are gonna recommend melatonin, but melatonin is usually not great for people with mental disorders. I hope things work out for you

[@meghansullivan6812]

Also melatonin only aids in ur natural circadian rhythm, which is obviously outta wack for her :/ she’d need like legit sleeping pills which are obvi a lot more intense! But yes talking to people helps so much. Puts shit into perspective for sure. I also find simply the act of talking, like thinking out loud, to be extremely helpful. Woof

[@user-jy1qk7hh9t]

yess, also when i take melatonin the sleep i get is so bad. i wake up with a terrible headache and it feels worse than it would’ve if i didn’t sleep all night

[@karla.777]

journaling your thoughts helps too, just write down everything that’s on your mind.

[@meghansullivan6812]

@@karla.777 yesssss journaling helps me immensely

[@kaylachatwin7102]

My therapist actually just told me about your whole schedule-stress situation. He told me to write my schedule, but use colors. Each color represents the "importance" of it. If I happen to feel too stressed, I will just look at my schedule and if the color used is not that important, I will just roll it over to another day. This has helped me tremendously. It allows me to feel better about myself if I have to skip something :)

[@kaylachatwin7102]

@@eversss Hello!! For example, I use 3 colors to keep it simple: green, yellow, and red. Green represents things that I would like to get done, but do not have to be completed anytime soon and would be nice to get done, but would not matter if I did that task that day or in a few weeks. Yellow represents tasks that need to get done sometime soon, but do not need to be completed for about another week or so. Red represents tasks that need to absoutely be done that day. At the begining of each day, I make a list of things that I need/ want to get done that day. After I make the list, I walk away for 5-10 minutes to get my brain to stop feeling overwheled about the list I just made lol. After time has passed, I come back with my three colors and really look at the importance of each task. When I make my list, I feel like I need to get a million things done, but after coming back to revisit my list I realize that there is honestly only like 1 or 2 things that REALLY need to be done that day. This whole process has decreased my anxiety and really helped me stop feeling so overwhlemed. I think we naturally think we can do a million things a day, and feel disappointment when we do not do a million things a day, but the reality is is that we are just human. It is okay to give yourself a break❤

[@cabaa183]

“How do people cope with stress?” We don’t but with the fast pace that is life of a 9-5, 5 days a week there’s no time to think about the stress 👁🕳👁

[@carsongrace9947]

I’m so glad I’m not alone on the walks thing. Unless I’m with another person to talk to going on a walk makes me soooooo much more anxious rather than helping my anxiety.

[@taylorposton292]

I literally had a realization within myself on a similar issue yesterday. my mind bounces from thought to thought so quickly it was physically hurting my head and exhausting me. I felt so overstimulated from consuming so much on my phone giving me like extra random thoughts and stress that I didn’t need, I ended up deleting instagram and tik tok from my phone and im giving myself a little “detox” from scrolling and just consuming unnecessary content. im fine on pinterest and youtube on my computer similar to what you said. hope you feel better ave

[@meghansullivan6812]

Hell yea good for you for realizing that. I can’t really do tiktok or insta either. KZbin is just fine tho haha

[@aimee8135]

you definitely validated a lot of the feelings I’ve been going through the past couple of weeks. it’s like all the sudden the responsibilities are drowning my thoughts and it’s just a lot.

[@abigailjuliet1636]

i have ocd and perfectionist tendencies and it sounds a lot like what you're going through. i go through cycles of major depressive & insomnia episodes. also adhd. finding a balance of medication that works for me but doesn't overpower my personality changed my life! i still need to start therapy but feeling not insane all the time is so sick

[@rosanah.9089]

yeah, i thought the same, it really sounds like ocd

[@todayiglowup4286]

what medication do u take

[@GiabellaZ13]

I came here to comment about also having ocd and adhd! It sounds very similar and I feel like she could benefit from looking into those as possibilities!

[@ishathakur2865]

@@rosanah.9089 i think it sounds more like ocpd and perfectionism

[@corneliastreets]

i’d have insomniac episodes when my depression would peak. besides being prescribed antidepressants, i was also given melatonin. they were very low dose and not meant to be taken every night, but they helped so much. eventually my body began following the pattern of feeling sleepy at the time i’d take the pill, and i don’t need it anymore. definitely consult your doctor about sleep aids. planet sleep podcast also helps me during restless nights, highly recommend.

[@LilyIan]

a struggled with my mental health a lot but have gotten so much better and honestly i attribute that to cutting back on social media. i deactivated my instagram and HIGHLY limit my use of tiktok. i find youtube to be less toxic and stressful to consume. comparison on social media is a killer.

[@dotholley3301]

this video is extremely relatable and comforting. my insomniac has gotten progressively worse over the months as I've moved cities and it's so tiring, I'm so tired mentally and physically but struggle hugely to actually go to sleep and then stay asleep despite feeling so tired. I will go days in a row running on 0 hours of sleep or only 3 so finding someone who also relates as well makes me feel less alone and not as guilty for my bad sleeping habits, we're all in this together. thank you for this video :)

[@breakfasttacos4550]

Hey! I have OCD and anxiety with horrible intrusive thoughts. 1) Thanks so much for being open about this- I think it's so helpful for so many people to feel like they're not alone. 2) It took me a few years, but doing thorough thought pattern worksheets and meditations with my therapist literally changed my life. I kind of chuckled at the idea of meditation at first, but decided to commit to trying it. It made me fully aware about how so many of my thoughts have nothing to do with my current moment- my current reality. So many of the thoughts were just that- thoughts. Thoughts about scenarios that weren't currently happening, thoughts about a situation that I wasn't dealing with in my current moment. Meditation actually like.. retrained my brain. I would catch myself when this was happening and I was able to redirect myself to my current, present reality. Best of luck with everything

[@ryanlouis2175]

this video is one of my new comfort videos. it was so reassuring to hear someone else say they’re tired of living in their own brain. I also get annoyed when I can’t sleep at night because being alone with your own thoughts especially when you can’t sleep is such a drag. I also wanted to take a social media break this week and it lasted all but three hours. I see you and you’re not alone

[@amberleslie7944]

I've honestly been so exhausted lately. I feel like its just the vibes in the world right now. But I've definitely fallen out of journaling (like I'm just too tired to write all my thoughts down - its too much work). Sometimes I'll just open up voice memos on my phone and just talk (to myself) while recording it as like a audio journal type thing. I find it works almost as good as journaling by just allowing me to put my thoughts out there and try to let them go. Wishing everyone health and happiness rn

[@nemojonas01]

Hey Avrey, the best way of disconnecting from your problems is actually to face them and talk about them to a professional. Trying to run away from your thoughts usually makes your brain go straight to it and using screens to distract yourself might work for awhile, but it makes you even more stimulated and stressed at the end of the day. Therapy is sooo amazing and life changing.

[@katelynbeasley]

i’m so proud of you, avrey. watching the way you are persevering through this hard time is inspiring. i hope you are able to sleep regularly soon❤️ keep being strong❤️❤️

[@deriroempathy]

Girl... I relate to this whole video A LOT. I'm actually shocked on how I feel like we're feeling the same lately... It's crazy... Hopefully we get through this soon ❤ I'm rooting for you!

[@jaritzza3808]

Giiirrl I feel so seen and heard about struggling with sleep. My sleep the past year was so hectic and literally would be a miracle when my mind would finally allow me to sleep. It’s really mind boggling how much sleep plays a vital role with your mental health.

[@kayla10018]

having a pet to be there for you in times of stress and in need of support is 10/10

[@luciabobel]

hi love, i totally understand what you are talking about. there was a period of time I could only sleep with white noise blasting in my ears and a sleep mask that made my vision completely dark. i think sleep is very important so I’m glad that I was able to find something that worked, but it’s definitely a process and I’m sure over the months you’ll have periods where you sleep more than others. like you said, you’re just a girl, and you are not alone. sending you well wishes

[@constancecreswell]

this is so relatable with the trying not to be alone with ur thoughts thing, thank u for sharing it’s cool to see that i’m not alone or crazy

[@zaruhhh]

i know how you feel like and trust me as much as you feel like nothing changes, there's still a little bit of change and improvement. i resonate with the part where a certain song unlocks a happy memory but at the same time it's super sad bc u can't do anything to bring it back. my solution for that is i found new songs or groups (skz) to listen to and they make me feel like i have my sht together and now i'm better. i hope you feel better mentally too in a couple of months. i'm rooting for you.

[@redamancy119]

Gosh, thank you for sharing all of these. The insomnia is so relatable so as everything of this video. When I can’t sleep, which is like most of the time, I think about lots of things and I just beg my brain to shut down. I always think about the past and my current life and feel so helpless about it, I know i have to get these thoughts out of my head but I just can’t. Writing a journal do help sometimes but the other times i just feel pathetic looking at all the things I’ve written down.

[@erinnberryy]

honestly as someone who loves being productive & staying busy, I think it’s finally catching up to me with anxiety, life changes, and more. but honestly girl, it’s taking it one day at a time one TASK at a time. I LOVE filling up my day but I have to read the list as one thing at a time for it to not push me over the edge if that makes sense? It sounds so simple but when you’re already stressed out, easy things become harder. Also time sensitive tasks for me always come first! Idk if this helps but it just helps me be present with every task I do!

[@audreytaylor5194]

I have issues with this sometimes too, so this is really relatable. You’re doing amazing for running on no sleep!☺️

[@elizabethsazma]

I 100% relate when you said that things that remind you of the past make you sad. I’ve been really missing who I used to be and it feels good knowing that I’m not the only person doing that

[@Td7u]

Damn I literally felt every single thing you talked about / explained in this video because I used to think that I was having horrible episodes, I never connected the fact that I’m an insomniac to it all!! Thank you so much Avrey for making me feel less lonely and putting something this real and relatable out, sending you sm love and comfort 🤎

[@kathrync.144]

In stressful times, I obsessively plan out my weeks on paper. It helps me see visually that it's possible to get everything done. Also I keep a notebook by my bed and write down the thoughts going through my head at night. It usually helps me sleep 🤷🏼‍♀️

[@mashalnaqvi3149]

this was so relatable we are gonna get through it girl I know it

[@daphnepotter77]

As a fellow insomniac, I will watch the ads for you. Your day is my day 👍

[@Madisonlovesmakeup35]

Man this was so relatable. Every single thought, I could hear myself saying the same thing. Thank you for this

[@tiffanygreen4393]

She’s gorgeous!

[@larachan1490]

God I really feel you with the stress thing. I just get so overwhelmed with getting the list of things done. Its really hard when the thing that's causing you to think that stuff is all in your head. I have no idea how to get over being so strict and putting so much pressure on myself either tbh :(

[@MM-yd7rj]

everything looks good on you. ur like perfect i cant believe you talk to urself that way

[@sophiamorales6290]

I totally related to everything u were saying about being afraid to be alone with ur thoughts and how u overthink too much to the point u stress urself out and fry ur brain, its nice hearing someone else get it and makes me feel less crazy ;)

[@Bvnzie]

i literally almost never leave comments on videos but i have been going through so much internally and externally lately and i feel the same with the brain not shutting off at night when i need to sleep for work. if you had asked 10-12 year me who i idolized on here i would have said aspyn but here lately and for the past few years these videos from you with raw honesty about emotions and just talking through it makes me feel so calm and like things will be okay. thank you for helping people like me Avrey. even if it doesn't feel like you do i promise you help.

[@Bella-rh6ej]

i totally recommend the ologies (podcast) episode on sleep to help you better understand how to get to bed during sleepless periods! the advice in it helped me sm in getting more sleep and takes some of the anxiety around it away

[@yj6118]

Omg I ologies, can’t believe I haven’t heard that episode, tysm!

[@silvanahernandez3568]

healthy ways I’ve been helping myself is taking ashwaganda + melatonin vitamins + drinking tea at night to calm the f down also brown noise is a thing and I’m probably the last person to know

[@clara8793]

I find this video SO relatable omg! Idk if you want advice so if you don't feel free to ignore this but for me meditation is very helpful for stress management and also cutting out unnecessary things in your day. When I am in a period of stress, I have to figure out what is super necessary for me to do and put everything else on the back burner. Also, if you're having trouble sleeping, what helps me is not trying to force my body to sleep and just reminding myself that how much I sleep doesn't matter (even if it does). Cause laying there all night thinking "you have to sleep, you have to sleep" will make your body do the opposite. I just put on a movie or something, close my eyes, and focus on that and keep reminding myself that it's ok if I don't sleep. Idk if those will help you but they help me! Thank you for making content that makes me feel less alone.

[@daniellekaufman8929]

Your hair is so pretty up! xx

[@mckaylaworld]

You aren't alone. I have also struggled with intense insomnia, and know what this level of lack of sleep can do. Its debilitating. I hope you find healing.

[@hun1642]

I’m experiencing the same thing rn. And you are what I’m watching to distract myself from my own thoughts. I hope you feel better

[@eugeniamitsopoulou6803]

I like these realistic type of videos, many people feel like that and it’s comforting to know are not alone in this.

[@starfish0607]

You eating a burrito talking about your phone addiction and then watching gmm is literally a day in my life. I live in India and my life is nothing like yours in other respects but it's amazing how unique yet universal human experiences and emotions are

[@themedicdroidx10]

I really loved this video Avrey. Im going through a hard time too and this helped. Thanks.

[@Kalieedaynee]

Ive had some really restless nights lately too. If you’re not getting enough sleep workouts will exhaust and fatigue you even more. Just be careful ♡ thanks for sharing

[@achanwol]

9:44-10:01, 11:15-11:40, + 12:31 i resonated so deeply, thank you for putting it into words & making me feel less alone lollll, forever love your videos 🫶🏿

[@bruzzleddy]

love ur honesty and videos ❤️

[@LysHeaster]

So relatable, chill, wholesome, unique, stylistic, and editing is just incredibke

[@lucyjade6345]

this might be my favourite youtube video ever

[@ingebooyse7656]

I just, needed this. Thank you

[@mirandasarmiento]

i love the photo booth setup

[@taylorTyo]

Understanding life to be like a dance helps me a lot; some days you will and it is necessary and good to be in the energy of 100% efficiency, other days you will need to rest more, to be more creative or spontaneous and it’s just about recognizing you have all these expressions and needs that will come out at various times for a variety of reasons and in my experience we humans think we know so much more than we do, we leave no opportunity for the unknown because we think we know so much that we just destroy ourselves with our mind instead of our mind being an asset to exploration and joyful experience. We believe to many things and it sticks us in illusionary but believed boxes that we feel we can’t escape, but often I feel we just need to remember we know less than we think and that life is like a dance there is a time for everything. Much love!

[@nyuhna1845]

stress management comes with confrontation. if there's something that's on your mind, confront it within yourself, then actually go confront it. don't create more work for just you, make the thing stressing u out know and work on it too. second, with anxiety, sometimes the best thing to do is just hang on especially when you're psyched out. just hang on.

[@jamtodoroki7146]

feeling the same thing for a week now! thank you for this video!! hope we all feel better soon

[@meganguest]

gmm is a comfort part of my routine. felt so excited when I heard the theme song while you were eating 🥺

[@erinsnider2199]

omg this weekend i was so depressed i literally couldn't be alone and when I was i had to have a podcast blasting in my ears so I didnt spiral deeper into my depression

[@gottadasha]

me watching this at 4am during my insomniac period... ngl its comforting that I'm not the only one

[@mairabirsan]

you are literally the prettiest human i've ever seen

[@emilyabernethy2422]

You’re doing so well love. I know its hard but you got this. Xx

[@minervagarcia9264]

i used to have the same issue with to-do lists and them making me feel bad because I wouldn't complete them by the end of the day. so I started asking myself "if I asked someone else to do everything on my list would they be able to do it all in one day?" and the answer 9 times out of 10 is no.

[@beck9242]

9:45 I had no idea other people felt like this, wishing you the best avrey

[@kmac23]

this brought me some comfort

[@Leah-ys6bg]

this video is all I needed today and I haven't related to something more. and this is unrelated but I genuinely at the start of the video thought to myself "wow she's so pretty!" like genuinely I wish you could see yourself from my point of view, I think trying to see everything from someone else's point of view sometimes is really helpful in general. or from an older you point of view, like, "will this matter in 50 years?"

[@user-kl9dp1qe6q]

omg I relate to u so mudfh literally everything is so nostalgic to me and connected to a memory

[@katherinejanzen9195]

Lately I have been so sad and depressed and it started when I downloaded Tiktok again and today I finally deleted it because it has ruined my life for the past month and also for some reason the summer time always puts me in a more down mood whereas so many people find it the happiest season. this is my lil rant because this video is really relatable

[@meghansullivan6812]

Relatable. The pressure to take advantage of the good weather and shit is too much ahaha. But yea I gotta stay off tiktok it’s almost automatic how much worse it’ll make me start feeling!!

[@em.ilyboylan]

this is one of my favourite things I've ever watched purely because it is so insanely relatable

[@ameliaw2396]

To this day I rarely have a nights sleep without falling asleep to Netflix, I use small comfortable ear buds with a few hours battery so it's not going all night and I watch a show I have seen a hundred times, listening to something I associate comfort with is the only way I can sleep. I always listen to music as silence genuinely scares me. I have suffered from anxiety my whole life and these things help me so much, who gives a sh*t if it's "unhealthy" to have that much screen or music time, if it helps you it's ok. Hope you are having an ok day 💕

[@harikaregulapati2494]

glad I watched this cuz its super relatable ahh

[@aliiiiiiit]

What you said around minute 9 !!! Is exactly what I’ve been feeling right now. I can’t find comfort in the things I like cuz I don’t even know if I like those things anymore. But I’m super stressed and anxious for no reason so I still need some sort of distraction

[@imanbakirsudki3489]

Avery!! I had the same issue with wanting the no mascara look but feeling like my makeup doesn’t look good without it. I started using the covergirl clump crusher (it’s a green tube) and it fixed my problem because it just darkens my lashes but it doesn’t look like I’m wearing any mascara!!

[@kennedy781]

You are my comfort channel❤️

[@meganteesdale]

coming back to this as a comfort video cos my insomnia has just started being bad again:)

[@nesrinesidiathmane6426]

I had a similar problem for years and have tried everything in my power so eventually I come up with a list of things to help me overcome my insomnia hope at least one of them help you out: 1.sleep only with a t-shirt a'd nothing beneath and having comfy sheets 2.changed my pillow size from medium to large and fluffier 3.stoped drinking coffee or anything with caffeine after 2 pm 4.sleep with my cat beside me 5.reduce the phone exposure before sleeping all the best

[@blushfaerie]

Therapy is really helpful! I'm really similar to you based on what you've said. Its definitely a fear of being alone with your thoughts and if your childhood wasn't great abandonment issues come up and mess with your anxiety. It happens to me sometimes

[@carrieshaheen5287]

everything you said while eating chipotle is what i’m feeling rn now after moving to LA so it’s nice to not feel alone in that feeling :,)

[@bruzzleddy]

i cant sleep right now and wanted a youtube video to calm me down and saw this, thank u

[@mollytaylor3411]

listening to genuinely captivating podcasts while on hot girl walks helps to get out of your thoughts. the mood swings i go thru when im walking listening to music that just brings on different memories omg it’s too much. ❤

[@Hinohinohi]

I’ve been reading The Stress Proof Brain and it’s pretty good at explaining things and giving tips for managing your stress

[@strawberrymilk6696]

im also having an insomniac period these days and im glad i found this video lol, i related to everything u talked about

[@Gabby-kz5xu]

You just voiced all of my feelings. Happy to know I'm not alone but it's even better to know we will get through this... eventually lolz

[@haileyfussell]

I barely slept last night and I felt this video

[@user-nu6og8ln5d]

for the to do list, I am going through the same. to the point that right now I don’t even want to do them lol. but planning 2 tasks a day helps. and about scared of being along with ur thoughts, what helped me is realizing that I am not a victim of my thoughts/brain. what helped me was rewiring my thoughts by acknowledging them and saying no (lol), and uplifting self/neutral thinking. ur mind won’t no the difference between what is true or not so if u keep saying good things to it about urself x ur thinking, etc it will accept it as the truth and soon enough it works out I hope u sleep and feel better

[@sallychesloff6156]

ill go through same periods of not being able to sleep, and its because I have so much on my mind that I'm not like letting go of. Its gotten so much better for me from having a hobby, literally try art like painting or drawing or yoga really helps. Ugh what ur going through is the worst, but try yoga and drawing :)

[@sliability]

I am the EXACT same way,idk where I got this from but i always make myself anxious cause my head tells me to do everything quick,like im always late in life and everything that i do.

[@emiiiee]

what a comforting video, I loved it

[@juanlovesjuan871]

the comfort I felt while watching this video was insane

[@mlmj1994]

Grabbing our phones has become a natural reflex for us humans. I sometimes just turn my off for a few hours when I know I don’t need it on. So glad to hear you slept through the night.

[@Lauraoutdoorz]

This made ME feel SO MUCH MORE NORMAL!!! Thank you. I overthink like crazy and last night I got three hours of sleep. I’m currently on the treadmill watching KZbin cause listening to music wasn’t shutting my thoughts off! Ahhhh the struggle tho

[@kirstypeinelt]

I can relate to you 1000%...I've recently discovered that I've been holding onto alot of things for a long time. I've also discovered that I'm very unhappy in a lot of ways, but I dont know how to fix the problems. Sending you love!

[@shereneexo]

I’m the same with making a list and becoming stress when I don’t complete it. What helps me now is I’ll write 2-3 important things that I need to complete. I’ll jot down other to do task just to get it out of my head, but I save it for another day. Long story short, I put less things on my list!

[@yeuruuerueeheue]

I recently (to me, anyway) went through a break up so this video is super relatable. If you’re reading this, know that healing isn’t linear. You will be more than okay. I love u

[@FabiolaSuarez]

I love how Avery is so real!!!

[@rockstargirl333]

good morning! i always look forward to your videos, can't wait to watch this one :D ♡︎

[@raw8565]

That’s why it’s better to make a list for the whole week what u would want to be done for the week! Cus I’m the same way when I set a schedule for the day and don’t get it all done I become so hard on myself so now I just make a whole list of everything I need to get done but don’t put all the pressure on myself to get it all done in one day!

[@ijustineapplestore]

i feel the exact way for the opposite reason. i procrastinate so much but everyday i put something off it stresses me out even more and i feel absolutely physically and mentally exhausted. but i love listening to classical music that makes me romanticize doing everyday mundane things

[@meganking2205]

Stress definitely impacts my sleep. Maybe starting at the source of your stress would help xxxx love this and you xx

[@dollstylist041poll3]

I used to feel the same way about makeup! For a while I just stuck to one basic look because i thought it was the only thing that looked good on me. Try experimenting with different but simple looks. I have downturned eyes a well and I'm still learning about what compliments them best