DAYS OF EATING PROPERLY, OR AT LEAST TRYING - HAVE A PANIC, THEN A PIZZA - ANOREXIA RECOVERY

PLEASE READ THIS
I am making more and more effort in recovery, and pushing harder than I ever have.
I am proud of what I achieved in this video, and I am also proud to say I am doing even better now than here (which is crazy). I want to document the whole of my recovery. I hope you like the video...
WE GOT ICE CREAMS! IT IS OFFICIALLY STARTING TO FEEL A LITTLE SUMMER-EY! What a beautiful day it was, Blaze loved the swans and ducks of course.
I had falafels for the first time (well, pakora, but I think they're the same - anyway, they were delicious!). Satara made panna cotta! She is so amazing! I also discovered how incredible pretzels are dipped in melted biscoff.
Then on Friday I made the most AMAZING lunch honestly it was so good I am still not over it, and it was a very different lunch for me. I then panicked after (lol w h y) but Dad saved the day again. We took blaze to play fetch, and enjoyed the great beauty of being by the sea. And I am glad I challenged myself and panicked, because every single day is a day you live and also learn. Also I realise after I panic how silly it is and actually the next time I can get myself out of it or am actually able to realise I am being irrational.
Panicked after lunch but went on to have pizza for dinner - winnnnnnnninggg! I also had the most beautiful mocha ice cream y u m (it really was, you should try it).
Another vid like this up soon, a part 2 perhaps..?
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[@hippymama100]

LOVE the way you dive right into that icecream cone, no hesitation, no talking for minutes! THAT'S what I desperately want to see more of! You can do this, Elzani!

[@frozenicestar7293]

Right??? Elzani, you are improving, I’m so glad you’re finally starting to listen to your subscribers since we care so much about you!! We just want the best for your sweet sweet soul

[@Ella-ps1lg]

I agree! best moment of the video - looked so easy and relaxed. what a difference from the early videos :)

[@brennamurray296]

Yes!! Shes talking less and less before/during meals! Which is great because it means shes no longer stalling her food for disorder reasons 😊

[@AngelicasRecovery]

I loved that part of the video too!!!! ♥️♥️

[@Tnc874]

Look who cares if she talks for 10 minutes. .... as long as she eats and finishes her food. I know she is further along in her recovery now but goodness sake, you people were so overly opinionated on her journey like you were the only who had her eating disorder

[@AA-nw7hi]

In this video, for the first time since I've started watching your channel, you just eat: you don't talk about the food, don't ask your mum, don't smell it, don't start eating after your mum, you just go for the food and eat it. I'm so fucking proud of you, I know it takes a lot of balls to do that and I really, really appreciate it. Keep going Elzani, my heart is with you and your lovely family💗

[@filizmely]

Absolutely agree! Keep going like this, it's the right way ❤

[@AngelicasRecovery]

It made me so happy for her.

[@annakrupova6403]

28:27 "I can't do it dad, I'm rubbish at doing it. " "Shut up!" Babe I literally love your dad !:d ..You must be glad you have such a wonderful family. .. Keep going girl!

[@MadisonTiahn]

I know you know this but I want to let you know anyway in case you have forgotten: 1) You don’t need to ask for permission to eat 2) You don’t need your mums approval before you eat 2) You don’t need to be the last to start eating/finish eating 4) You don’t need to eat the least amount or the same amount as others 5) You don’t need to do anything your head tells you to do Listen to everything your head says, then do the opposite. Much love. X

[@brennamurray296]

Opposite action!

[@AngelicasRecovery]

💖

[@meghanfaught2269]

That clip of you and your dad in the park 🥰🥰🥰 I love how he pushed you to do something else in the middle of a panic attack, which is an excellent coping skill! Your mom and dad seem to have different ways of helping you in your recovery but both are so lovely!

[@hippymama100]

I freakin' LOVE both her parents. They're ride or die!

[@lw9849]

Yesss Elzani! i’m getting such good vibes from this video. I feel like this is a major turning point for you. So, so proud of you. keep up the amazing work!! p.s, vegetable quarter pounders are one of my favourite foods everrr xx

[@illusions142]

I love these little moments with your dad where he knows just what you need to hear or do at the time. (Earlier vids giving advice, saying you're brave, snapping you out of a panic attack) Your whole family is lovely. Keep eating loads, we're all routing for you!

[@wednesday55]

You have so much sadness in your eyes. I can see how difficult your struggles must be, but I'm so proud of you for pushing forward and taking the steps you need to take. You're doing a good job. Keep it up!

[@kittyfang7241]

I literally started crying seeing how much your dad helped you out. You've got this girl, keep going!

[@Ateezsanniee]

Your dad is the sweetest person ever, the clip of you and him in the park really melted my heart 💕

[@ttdfanforlife]

You surprised me lol. You did very well eating. Stay strong and trust this is what will make you happy and healthy. YAY to your future!!!!!

[@wendyslauson3832]

I LOVE how you say you aren’t going to start real recovery again because it isn’t ever going to be perfect and no one is perfect! I think that is HUGE, HUGE, HUGE Elzani! I must say I want to use that for my everyday life outside of eating as well! We will just continue to get better and live one day at a time getting better at everything we are blessed to do! Thank you for that statement! Now, I am going to watch the rest of your video, but that really spoke a lot to me and I wanted to thank you! You are amazing and still praying for continual recovery and that you will find Joy, happiness and see that you are a beautiful Shining star!!!!

[@AZKflamenco]

She’s a fearless warrior!!! 🙌🏼💪🏻😘 Inspirational quote for today: “Don’t place your mistakes on your head, their weight may crush you. Instead, place them under your feet and use them as a platform to view your horizons.” So so proud of you Elzani 🥰

[@katherineellen3215]

AZKflamenco ❤️

[@graceadams2568]

Is anyone else’s family like this? Seeing her family so happy makes me realize how messed up and distant my family is...

[@kika574]

Same

[@espie5106]

We all see how hard your trying Elzani. Your doing a great job by pushing yourself and doing everything you can to beat this. Your so amazing and kind, I'm rooting for you and I know you can do it. We all love and care about you, this is about you and what you want so try not to focus on what other people are doing but instead do what will benefit and help you! Stay strong, we will always be here to help and listen to you! ❤️😁

[@greeentealeaf]

Always drop everything to watch you, Elzani! Much love xoxo

[@MsKristi42]

Right, don't focus on starting over each day to attempt perfection or "real recovery," but instead realize that every day is a new day. And all you gotta do each day is a little more than you did the day before. And that will become a lifelong habit! xoxo

[@thedrugthatkilled]

Awww, I love the way Dadzani just gives it to you straight, but he's *so* encouraging at the same time 💕 He *is* the best!

[@runningrigert]

Does Satara want to be a professional chef? She's got talent!

[@olliegirl22]

I was thinking the same she could go to culinary school :^) she would be lovely

[@pamelapoet9]

Your parents are "amazing," and you--your sparkle and courage--are "divine."

[@mrsf6740]

Everyone always says how amazing your mum is (which i also think) but your dad is also amazing, your bond is lovely to see and I notice he's abit calmer with you which is because he can see you getting there, he can see the fight in you xxx

[@justcallmepops22]

Watching you with your dad made me cry! keep fighting girl, you’re sooo much stronger than you think it’s so clear to see! we’re all here routing for you 💕

[@ashgonnaketchum9623]

justcallmepops22 same. 💗

[@aesyfreedom9655]

The amount of progress seen in this video was amazing. No "should I have it, do you think I should have it" or "should I have had ____ instead?" or the repeating of "I'm having x, omg this is x, I'm having x for lunch, this is my lunch". I'm so proud of you, El!!!

[@ramyachintala5342]

i can tell you are truly pushing yourself harder than you ever have before and i seriously cannot help myself from saying that i am so proud of youuu!! keep this up elzani, everyone is here for you and i can’t wait to see more of this💓

[@tofutofutofu444]

i've been pretty sad when watching your recent videos but I've never felt such motivation in my life after watching this video. we are all *SO* proud of you. i can see such a huge difference and even if things don't change straight away, this entire video is something to be immensely proud of. i could literally cry, you are really going for it and i couldn't be happier for you :')

[@vanoosa1206]

keep up the good work elzani! with my ed recovery ive learned- if it's difficult, then you're on the right path! you need to keep consciously challenging yourself constantly to stay on top of your recovery💜 it is SO easy to fall back into disordered eating if you dont actively push your boundaries! when you're starting to feel comfortable, that means you need to push yourself more! wish you all the best💖

[@dirtwolf360]

Awww I had a tear over how sweet it was when your dad brought you out to distract you from your thoughts. :) Your family is wonderful, Elzani. Life is wonderful, you will get better. Never give up! Lots of love xo

[@pouriaabadsafian]

Enough talk, Elzani! Your drive is inspiring but you've said that you'll be diving into 'real' recovery countless times. Show your eating disorder that this time you REALLY mean it! We all believe in you, but you have to push yourself x

[@elzani6744]

Incredibly true! That’s why I was hesitant to even post this vid and the next one I’ll upload, but I am going to post it all anyway! I want to show the whole process 😄 I am pushing myself and I know it’ll be so very worth it xx

[@MsKristi42]

@@elzani6744 You are so brave! So proud of you!

[@pouriaabadsafian]

@@elzani6744 Woooo, so proud of you!

[@Ella-ps1lg]

@@elzani6744 Thankyou for showing recovery in all its reality - I think its important. A lot of the popular recovery channels make it look like a walk in the park. My friend's 13 year old sister said to her " ED recovery looks like fun - i'd like to do it". omg. horrifying message to young people. its not all fun challenges and getting lots of attention. Eating disorders are lonely, isolating and living hell, recovery is hard, but you're doing it and you will get there. - amazing girl, there's an amazing life waiting for you on the other side of this. You may not be able to see it yet, but it will all fall into place. big love

[@beautylou1207]

you are amazing and we are all so proud of you and we here for you on youtube or instagram. you can do this i know it is so hard but just believe in yourself we believe in you... @@elzani6744

[@isabel.j1136]

Some little reminders for you ❤️: -food/experiences don’t always have to be ‘new’ or the ‘first time’ -you can choose what YOU want to eat, you don’t have to have what others do -you don’t need to ask other people for permission to eat/how much to eat/what to eat -you don’t have to be the last to start & finish eating -you HAVE to eat more than your family, not the same amount -adding drinks like juice, milkshakes, smoothies are healthy and dense ways to get more calories into each meal -recovery isn’t linear, you’ll challenge one behaviour/fear and 3 more will spring up in its place. It takes extreme amounts of strength and perseverance, but you got this 💪🏼

[@greeentealeaf]

So happy to see you eating more Elzani, keep it up!! You can do this!!

[@raspberrydream7329]

What a treat to have a late night upload from you - I’m going to be tired tomorrow, but can’t go to bed without watching 😃 Love Blaze and Brady by the way. My cockapoo Toby is cuddled up with me watching this. You’re doing so well 😘

[@KimHoeltje]

My favorite part was when your Dad took you outside!!! I know people are hard on him sometimes for being “brutally honest” but you can really tell how much he loves you!!!!

[@throughrose-colouredeyes6284]

nature and animals cure all woes. your papa cares about you so much. 💛🐶 proud of you, beautiful. keep fighting.

[@hannahlinstead8323]

You're doing so well, trying new things. I know that's probably really hard. I dont think I've seen you try this, but maybe try protein or high calorie shakes with every meal. I hear some of them are quite nice, and it'll be a good way to boost your calorie intake a bit more. You have a long way to go, but you're definitely trying to move in the right direction. Keep going, Beautiful soul.... Oh, and I love your whole family, but I love the special little moments you show, with your dad. He clearly loves you dearly, and knows exactly what you need.

[@isobelhague694]

Elzani' s face when she tried a new food that she loves and discovers what she's been missing all this time, is the absolute most pure thing I've ever seen. I'm literally obsessed with you Elzani, you're the sweetest angel. 💛

[@sierrasobers7811]

You’re so full of life now!! You’re recovering beautifully, thank you for sharing your journey!! I use to have an eating disorder too. The thoughts don’t go away but it’s so freeing to just have whatever you want whenever you want. Seeing you get better inspires me. You’re doing amazing sweetie ✨

[@aardfay]

I was sooooo proud when I saw your burger+beans+pasta+tomato sauce lunch. Besides the fact that it looked so colorful and yummy, it was a great portion size and lots of protein. Me and my partner were so happy and proud we were clapping by the end of it. And it was even more amazing that you made it yourself, with the things and quantities you wanted. No pressure needed. Honestly this whole video is so good. I want to see more meals like this :D

[@mrsf6740]

I'm getting some good vibes from this video... you didn't seek approval, you didn't talk for ages trying to stall, you didn't say "real recovery" You said you where just going to do even better, you chit chatted whilst eating which is lovely... it's lovely going out for food and being able to relax and have a chat whilst enjoying yourself xxx

[@mpvt]

You HAVE been doing so well x The secret to recovery is LIVING LIFE TO THE FULLEST Elzani x dont over think this... Just do your best x

[@chloeprewitt65]

You singing fearless absolutely made my day ❤️ you seem so energetic and inspired in this video, I’m proud!

[@onlyme7308]

Great job. Progress not perfection. You got this xx

[@katherineellen3215]

Andrea excellent quote “progress not perfection” ❤️

[@saladflambe1747]

Keep going, Elzani

[@Ali-ct3xc]

Your Dad got some harsh comments a while back but you know, people say that the opposite of love is indifference. It's clear that he speaks from a place of love, which also includes frustration, fear and concern. Love is being unconditionally invested in someone and it's fab to see how well supported you are by your family. Great progress, well done and keep going! Xx

[@SH-to8sh]

Aw, you're not rubbish Elzani, once you recover you can become an amazing guitarist :) xx

[@lolly6982]

I've just watched the whole video and I'm SO proud of you omg!! youve done fantastic!

[@RhiannonCook2]

you did absolutely amazing in this vid!! you can see the mental progress youre making, not putting off eating as much, not smelling, just digging in! sending you love n strength for australia 💞

[@andrewzimmernisgross]

Man we’re so alike. We think we’re shit at everything and so critical of every move we make that we don’t do anything for fear of failure. I picked up my guitar for the first time in like 8 months last week and I forgot how fun it was and how much I enjoyed it. Pick it up, Elzani! 🎸

[@pouriaabadsafian]

Love you! P.S. Just read your description and I wanted to say that falafels and pakora are absolutely not the same! x

[@hallwnby]

Pi V yeah I was gonna say😂😂

[@diana_12]

Hello! you're doing great and you are so amazing! Also, they is no such thing as eating too much when weight restoring. You have restricted so long, you're body is just asking for what it has been missing. I love you so much!! Keep on fighting warrior❤💪

[@MayimHastings]

Oh, Elzani, I’m always proud of you, but damn it, you are kicking butt!!! And great job, Dad! And tell Satara to please mail me a pana cotta tonight, please (it should hold its own till Atlanta, right?😋). And Elzani, please try playing guitar 🎸 more! You ARE good! But even if you weren’t, it would still bring joy to yourself and those around you! Love the 💩 outta you, girl, you got this!

[@Trickshotfame]

You are doing so well! You eat so much more creative foods. 😍 You can see how excited you get when you make new foods now. Your skin is look brighter and fuller and you can see the veins in your arms be plump and full. Wishing you all the best! 💖💖💖💖💖

[@erin2lip]

You´ve done well in this vid, loads of healthy recovery food!!!

[@1shopoholic1]

hi elzani! have you spoken to anyone about ocd, but isolated ocd, not alongside an eating disorder directly? it’s not at all my place to say or suggest really, but i wanted to mention because it seems as though you’re much better when dealing with eating, fear foods, normal foods, etc, and a lot of your issues seem to stem directly from ocd, (and potentially a mixture of other things). the ways you eat and fixate on types of food like the spiral pasta versus penne, everything being the first or last time for someone to do or be or eat something, i wonder if you spoke to someone mainly about these tendencies and fears (that do tie to anorexia but the wires can definitely cross), if that would help you. you don’t appear to be on any medication (key word appear) so if that’s something you’re not opposed to, i would look into that as well. not all are created the same but for folks like you and i, sometimes they’re really vital even just for a short interim period. anyway, i really think you should consider speaking to a psychiatrist regularly and not just about anorexia. i say all of this because i’ve experienced very similar things and it’s almost like i can see the invisible barrier between you currently, and where you know you want to be. the clips with your dad were really lovely to watch! he seems to be a bit abrasive sometimes but if that doesn’t bother you, forget anyone’s comments. you are doing incredibly well with the food as well. best best wishes from london x

[@jaquelinegonzalez9411]

Even though you are trying to eat more at meals, it seams like you are having very little of not, nothing at snacks. You should probably be eating at least three snacks daily. I believe that you are capable of recovering! ❤️

[@matitabu]

I loved seeing you and your dad out playing with Blaze! Your smile came through :3 your dad’s the best

[@sarahgower4606]

🤗 this makes me so happy. You look so much happier when you eat more. You so deserve recovery. And I believe you can do it X

[@TheInaneInsane]

I love following your journey! You seem like such a sweet person and you are doing so well! You are braver than most people. Keep working on it. You'll get there, I promise!!!

[@bmeggy11]

I just happened to come across one of your old videos. Gosh you have come so far. Your Dad though... wow so amazing. It’s incredible how much love and support is around you! You have truly helped so many in sharing your journey.

[@jordynvanessa3103]

started crying while watching this. i am so proud of you ♥ i just started watching your channel but i can tell what an amazing person you are coming through the screen.

[@mia.nxlson1494]

Love the attitude and opening of this vid. Im fighting this with you Elzani and I want you to be happy so much

[@Small_Rose]

Recovery is not easy or being perfect. You will face multiple challenge and this is why it's called recovery. I understand what you mean by worrying about calories and want to let go. I hope you will see your familly really support you and you can do it. Every small steps are steps ♡ I'm also in recovery and I have a therapist/help in a eating disorder health facility, maybe seeing a specialist could also help you? a nutritionnist? Take care ♡♡♡

[@Lily-ld7fn]

You are a lovely, worthy young woman, who deserves the best in life. You are a credit and blessing to your family.

[@leilastars456]

Okay may i just say that this video made me so so proud of you . Your progress in this video is showing .keep on doing this elzani you are on the right path !! I'm honestly so happy to see this we're all cheering for you carry on doing this even if somedays are harder than other

[@MayimHastings]

Also, Elzani, do you notice how often you say you are rubbish? Language is powerful! Try saying to yourself you are going to kick butt at so and so before you even try it. If you can’t do it, say “I am tenacious and won’t quit!” I’ve promised myself this year to quit shooting myself in the foot with the toxic environment I’ve created in my head from self doubt and self loathing. We need a new dialogue in our brains! 🦵🧠 🤛 I’m going to try painting my disease and then painting my future. Art and music work miracles. We must allow joy to blow freely into our lives. It’s our time when we claim it to be ours. I will always be here if you need anything.

[@tpr5522]

This video is a huge improvement from the last few, it makes me so happy for you. I know you said you are doing even better now, I’m excited to see! You got this Elzani!

[@TheSkatingqueen101]

THIS WAS A GREAT VIDEO!! MUCH PROGRESS FROM YOUR LAST VIDEOS!! You ate a bit more which was great!! Keep going! Don’t be afraid of more, you NEED it ❤️❤️❤️

[@susanjarrell1573]

I just love your dad!!! Your whole family is so great!!! You are blessed for sure.

[@mia.nxlson1494]

Idk what it is but you seem so much funnier and brighter and happier and just more free in this video. I believe you can really beat this if you keep up this attitude. Sending all my love

[@LexiLooBelle]

Amazing! Love how your dad just tells you unto 'stop it and just do it!' Love how this vlog is about family life and not about every morsel of food. You are doing incredibly well and you are moving forward each day. Oh..... and I LOVE how you eat Maltesers! I don't really like chocolate, but I love malt balls - even my son takes the chocolate off and gives me the inside! 😁 xx

[@beeutiaddict]

the desert satara made looks so professional omg like a gourmet restaurant lol

[@superamericangirl24]

I hate to see you crying but at the same time I love that you show it on camera. I'm struggling with anxiety and I'm fighting my battle on my own. You give me so much strenght! Seeing you crying shows that it's TOTALLY fine not to be okay from time to time. I love you!

[@cassidyshoop1047]

Your dad is so so sweet in the way he supports you. He's blunt but you can tell he loves you so much.

[@chiaradean5185]

You seem a little more like yourself and chirpier even though I don’t really know you. It makes me so happy and I’m very proud of you! You’ve got this angel, keep going! We al believe in you, it will be up and down, but it will be so worth it xxx

[@diana_12]

Oh! Another thingn i would really recommend you to practice some coping skills and have them on hand when you need them. What you take did was distraction/vacation, meaning you shifted to a different (and much calmer) environment and distracted yourself (by playing with your dog) so you just naturally calmed down because you weren't in "danger" anymore (you start to hyperventilate when you forget to breathe or breathe too much because of anxiety so your brain things its in danger). Some coping skills: Go for a mindful walk Pace breathing (practice different patterns of breathing and/or deep breathing) SOOTHE (involves your 5 senses) Temperature (holding a bag of ice, splashing face with cold water, drinking something warm or cold, etc) Drawing Listening to music Journaling The list goes on and it really just depends on what helps you. Feel free to ask questions if you need 🤗 Love you so much 💖💖

[@katherineellen3215]

Diana Castaneda ❤️

[@marieburkhead5272]

Good comment!

[@gingercube688]

So good to play with dogs in tough times, they provide a great point of focus and they're so happy and loving ❤️

[@Mandy3141]

Yasss Elzani! You can do this! You're already there, and we're all rooting for you ❤ ❤

[@jodavin2325]

I respect you being honest and authentic, this is your reality and alot of others including mine....you keep on fighting....we are here for you.😘

[@mystmyst4176]

What I see here is what I saw in myself through recovery. This vid in particular is a real demonstration effort and success in this fight🏆😀. But in short also, why I think your intake might’ve dropped 😥👎 - I’ll try and explain my point below (as it might help me too). Contrary to what most may believe the main issue is: ’to challenge new food combinations’. …Whilst trying ‘first-time’ fear foods is great and a healthy thing to do, for me personally it would probably amount to less than what I would’ve eaten ‘more routinely’? @Elzani (and others also?) Do you see that reflected in your food snacks at all? I found what helped me most was to focus challenging my intake , and for me navigating this successfully actually meant to base eating around the meals the family and I were more accustomed to having-please understand this is a fine thing to do, it is in no way ‘giving in’- and to then be trying new things as ‘extras’ afterwards rather than ‘swaps’ or substitutions really helped. To have one (big) challenge, rather than challenging every experience I had with food not only prevented ‘wobbles’ or ‘drops in intake’ but also saved a lot of mental recourse. Recovered, but Stronger by the day, Myst 💪💪xxxx

[@mystmyst4176]

Example of my above method: If a crumpet is ‘new’ then have your night snack of chocolate, and later come back for a try of the crumpet (you then also needn't feel you have to eat the whole thing, nor struggle afterwards with possible feelings that you should’ve eaten something you may have enjoyed more). Just my experience, my ‘two cents’. May help X

[@sierralifeofasinglemom8860]

You are so awesome and dogs are so so good for recovery consider teaching her tricks! Maybe make it a bonding thing for the two of you! Dogs are excellent aids In recovery and excellent in cheering up without command :) so proud of you girl you rock

[@elzbthlncstr]

Elzani, you know we all love you even when we try to push you, but I am genuinely very impressed and proud watching this video. Keep this up sis!!

[@elzbthlncstr]

even just within the first few minutes and hearing how much you love beans gave me so much hope. You're going to have setbacks and you're going to struggle at times, but try to keep that positivity!!

[@ilikeyoutube836]

Nice to see your dad encouraging you

[@jessami3692]

Such a good uplifting video minus one panic attack (but we all have those)...adds a bit of drama to the clip🤪 you are amazing you are divine and don’t you forget it!!!

[@zoeraybould8530]

Your videos are my absolute favourite and this video made me smile so much, it’s so clear that you’ve taken everything on board and are smashing it! Well done lovely, keep going and pushing yourself even more! Xx

[@drowzing]

its so great seeing you start eating right away and not talking for ages beforehand, youre doing so so well elzani!!!

[@jaimillugo7530]

I am not sure why, but when you tasted the panna cota and looked at your sister to say 'it's nice' I felt a knot in my throat and started crying. Many times I get frustrated at you, but all unintentional and out of concern, I do understand and relate to your feelings and struggles. That is why I barely comment. I just want to say this though: I love you, I believe in you and I proud of you. I really, with all my heart, hope you can say those things about yourself as well, you do deserve it. Much love always.💜

[@xcookiewolfx9959]

My goodness, the inspiration is at its peak right now, im so inspired! You can really see the improvement Elzani. You took the advice that your subscribers kept seeing in you by eating your food without talking too much and having 'bigger' portions. Also, the part with your Dad encouraging you was absolutely beautiful, you can really see how proud he is of you, just keep going and you'll get there in no time. Just like you said, youre FEARLESS AND AMAZING, We love you and support you Elzani, thank you for sharing your experiences with us. ♡♡

[@Laura-et2xj]

Elzani I was smiling through this. I am so proud of you. So much love

[@Beth-is3nh]

Another great vlog. You are SO lucky to have a mum dad and sisters to support you. Ive always dealt with my ed alone and sucess or fail was and is purely down to me. So be grateful for your lovely family. Its so much harder to do it alone. So proud of you.xxx

[@knjb1]

Elzani I want to tell you that YOU'RE ABSOLUTELY GLOWING and YOUR HAIR ARE SHINING. You're so BEAUTIFUL!! Keep on being FEARLESS. YOU CAN DO IT!!

[@coloradonativewood9007]

Your family is precious a great support network for you. I love your doggos btw

[@edi165]

yes girl! This is the video ive been waiting for- progress not perfection georgous xoxo

[@flowerbreanna]

I cried at the clip of you and your dad in the park! so sweet

[@panagiotadrakontaeidi7624]

And yesss blaze looked truly happy cause u know what?she doesnt care about what she is eating nor how she looks..she just eating good food so she can have energy and play with you all and run and fetch and do things that make her happy and healthy inside..thats why she is happy...I wish you to be as happy and carefree as blaze was in that video and I KNOW you can and will be eventually

[@user-nu4tz9pn8j]

yeah！you go girl! I actually saw some progress, you doing great.

[@erinlo7085]

You are not your eating disorder. You're a funny, talented, and caring woman. Focus on what makes you YOU. Playing your guitar, laughing with family, walking the dogs, loving life and enjoying every moment. Food is only a small part of life that's there to be enjoyed and sustain you. i think you should consider therapy. Anxiety like this will always find something to focus on, be it food or something else to tear you down. I found therapy was a great resource when I was struggling. I would also HIGHLY suggest medication to get you through the worst of your ED recovery. I was on Anti-depressants and anxiety medication and it made it so I no longer focused in an OCD way on food and the negative voice in my head (that's anxiety and OCD!) went away.

[@lizzyseymour3690]

You are doing so well! We can all see how much you are pushing yourself and are sooo proud of you!

[@timetogetmylifeback]

You should try biscoff ON the rice pudding next time 😋

[@amabel123]

You’re amazing! It’s so nice to see that you really want to get out of this eating disorder even if it doesn’t always work out like you expected it but you are a fighter and you believe in yourself what is so so beautiful so see! I love watching your videos a lot, it inspires me all the time, keep doing your thing and don’t give up, love you ❤️

[@Allnuts-H]

Elzani u cannot believe how happy this video made me, it seems like u changed overnight. Enjoy the foods, have a cry when u need one! Keep up the good work!

[@moonflower9566]

please consider drinking meal replacement drinks with the food you eat like boost or ensure! you and your family are awesome! !

[@emskyes6101]

Yes ensure l had that once l got send home from hospital and had them in there also