Is that swelling in the face from protein deficiency?

I want to be that skinny.

"Mom missing her favorite child" 🤣 Elzani- I went to nursing school when I was 19, and had classmates who were in their 40s. And if folks were annoyed, we wouldn't bother watching. Something that is said by a noted former therapist here in the US- "You wouldn't worry about what people thought of you if you realized how little they did"- not in a way that is negative towards the person, but because they have their own stuff to deal with.

What is the name of the song playing at 48 mins in when Elzani is opening her gift from her grandma? I needddd it!!

Your grandparents are so cute! You're fortunate to have them (as you probably know!).

I've had a restrictive eating disorder (with varying weights) for over 50 years (my mom paid me to lose weight when I was 6-7 yrs old and not at all fat). I get being afraid of eating- but the only way to know if you do or don't like something is to eat it. The worst thing that can happen is that you don't like it- and if so, never have to have it again. But if you do like it, there's another thing that becomes safe.

1:34:34 still too thin, but not so close to death. 🙏🏻

I’m so glad you had your family. They were the best ❤. I did mine alone, with the support of the staff and others inpatient. That’s who I needed though. Those whom understood it best 🙏🏻

The great thing about the eating disorder ward, you won’t be alone, and you’ll meet others around you struggling with the same challenges, whom understand the struggles and actually get it. ❤ One step at a time. I’m so proud of you and your family to sticking with the plan ❤️

1:16:48 Girl, you were still so thin. The eating disorder warps the brain, and your normal isn’t healthy and normal. It’s so hard to fight against the eating disorder negating everything that is progressing you forward. It’s such a hard disorder to explain to others, but what a troop you and your family were for standing firm and believing in saving you and your quality of life 🙏🏻 Every milestone is a celebration 🎉. Appreciate the blessing of getting off that ward ❤

Awe… the little grey bear that nobody loved. The best Hallmark collection that ever came out ❤

The reason they put you on a meal plan is to make sure you get the right amount of nutrients, especially carbs and protein, plus fruits and vegetables, with some dairy, to help your body recover properly. I’m sure their concern with too much sugar, in your treatment program was concern for high quality nutrition, and keeping your blood sugar level. I love that their limited options made you crave and appreciate your mother’s meals. That’s beautiful 😍

27:55 You are so brave, and your mother is soooo amazing. You are blessed! 🙏🏻 When I admitted myself to an eating disorder clinic, my first evening meal was steak with loads of gristle. So disgusting, but I know they were testing my dedication to accepting treatment. It was a struggle every day! For you to struggle with the want to get healthier, yet listening to your eating disorder, negating every healthy move forward is such an exhausting experience. To feel alone, had to be heart wrenching 😢. You did it though Eating disorders is a lifetime struggle. Listen to your body, not the obsessions. That is how I finally recovered, after 15 years. Like any addiction, it was a mindset to live and be strong, knowing I’m worthy of nourishment. You are so brave for sharing your experiences. Stay strong. Stay determined. You are special and beautiful. You are worthy of self love and nourishment ❤. Hugs! 🥰

One of the main reasons I find your channel so wholesome and lovely is because of the way your Mum supports you and just your relationship with her in general. My Mum passed away in 2013 and she was my main support and had some similarities to your Mum in terms of her kindness. I am getting the Mum fix that I miss vicariously through you and your lovely Mum’s relationship :) I hope five years on you are doing really well and eating food you love, food you want and not caring about it. Take care :)

you are so pretty!

Her parents deserve a gold medal ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

I’m honestly so proud because I know exactly how you felt and I related so much to what you were saying

I’m so happy you filmed this. What an amazing family. Well done you ❤️

I can’t tell you how much this video has helped me. Anytime I feel like relapsing I watch this entire video again. Idk how many times I’ve watched it. Thank you lovely.

So glad you got help you were at deaths door.

wow

Your parents are literal angels and I'm so SO glad they got to keep their equally lovely daughter in their lives. I'm on the opposite spectrum of ED (I have binge eating disorder) and it's just so nice to be reminded of the fact that having an illness like that is not our fault. It's not my fault. It's not my fault I have trouble losing weight. I should be proud I haven't gained any. It's not my fault and I'm glad to be alive. Thank you for sharing your story.

I really feel bad for you as you’re trying your hardest at recovery and your sisters still aren’t convinced. They should support you NOT criticise you. 😢

By the way, your mum is lovely 🥰

Did your grandma do Come Dine with Me because she looks familiar- was she also a model in her younger days?

Out of curiousiry.. what do/did your parents rhink of the day in and out recording?

They dont give you more food so you dont get refeeding syndrome- it can be life threatening. When your this ill your body doesn't have the metabolic energy to expend on food.

Stay strong you brave and beautiful human 🖤

3:11 Why did she say that?

Your father is out of this world

im sorry but i hate ur sister

“I can’t even have cake or chocolates” “We won’t have it either” I love them so much your parents are amazing Hearing your mom cry on the phone broke me

I feel her sister is giving her a cold shoulder.

I love your energy and you’re so fun to watch when I’ve had a long and stressful day at school!

both of your sisters are gorgeous!

What a loving family you have. I'm thrilled everyone was there supporting you through your recovery journey. Your Dad and Mom are incredibly out of this world parents!! Hope you're fulfilling your life with more happiness now.

I literally traumatized😭😭😭💔💔

The way that ur father is so sad made me cry 😭 21:48

This was so terribly relatable and tear jerking for me personally Ik this post is 4 years old but it still holds up so well to my experience with mental illness, I never had to deal with anorexia or a eating disorder but I deal with a depressive disorder and I was hospitalized awhile back for making a attempt on my life The “i just want to go home” was so heart aching it hit deep with me I said and thought the same thing I signed myself into going into a health ward for a couple days and my mom told me she could pull me out whenever she wanted But… I figured out after I entered the inpatient I would have to stay there for 2 or so weeks without any internet and no see for my parents I luckily didn’t have to stay for as long as you did, but I also didn’t get access to a lunch to choose or internet (phone access) etc or visibly see my mom. I understand so deeply how frustrating it is.. it’s horrible I have nightmares about the place now But it did do one thing, it did keep me alive- I don’t have unaliving temptations and ideas anymore but I’ve been hitting a slump recently I was looking up anorexia and thinking about dieting and subjecting myself to this as a form of self harm or cruel comfort.. but after watching this and remembering what I dealt with last inpatient I changed my mind I turned 18 less then a month ago subjecting myself to this would be unfair to my body and all those I love So thank you for posting this, and making yourself vulnerable you possibly have saved not only me but many others showing this Going to the hospital was terrifying but now I’m glad I got help when I did even if it was a horrible journey Hospital is hard- inpatient care for everyone is different but it’s so crazy how everyone reacts or faces the same types of things regardless I’m going to my friends graduation day after tomorrow and I want to enjoy every moment of it I’ll be subscribing and watching your new videos your the realest

I’m anorexic and I’m proud!

Please turn to Jesus he loves you so much and died on the cross for you and your family and friends ❤❤❤❤❤❤

55:19

Watching in 2024 hope she is well.

So glad your doing better, your such a beautiful young lady. Best wishes in all you do and hope your journey is filled with much love and happiness.

Anorexia is sometimes about control. I can't control life around me so I will control my food intake. Elzani you will always be slim. It's fine. However starving yourself isn't going to help . Watch the Karen Carpenter story. My daughter and I live with Ehlers Danlos Syndrome. There's no cure. However daily we strive to live victoriously. ❤❤❤❤ You can too. I watched your inpatient story. Brought back many memories of my daughter and my struggles with food. Much love Sue from South Africa

You are beautiful.You are going to beat this with the right help. You have the most beautiful teeth. My daughter and I both have Ehlers Danlos Syndrome. There is no cure. For you there is. Jesus loves you.❤❤❤❤

I love your mum's attitude towards ED! "Do you think I should have it?" Mum: "It's up to you." 💯💯💯💯💯💯💯

The mental battle you mentioned at the end is so real lmao

Elzani….. Everythinng bagels have dried onion, garlic, sesame, and poppyseeds on. Keep on keeping on